#parasocial other

[delusi0nalraik0]

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[internet-angelmp3]

Want an excuse to talk about ur trans IDs?

OMGG YES. So I'll have my lists first and then I'll go into detail.

transIDs - Salmacian, Top surgery scars, Ageless, Heterochromia, Twin, Groomed, Dating, Hikikomori, Streamer, Idol, Yandere

trisIDs - Intersex, Plural, Irish,

permaIDs - Smitten, Loved, Kawaii, 2016, Lockdown, Psych ward

For Salmacian & Intersex; ever since I was a small child I always acted, wore clothes and had mannerisms of both a little boy and a little girl. And as soon as I learned what Intersex meant I was transintersex. However, I grew up on Anti-Radqueer spaces and had to take on Salmacian instead to avoid harassment. However I have always had a connection with being intersex and not just the idea of having both sex characteristics -- I mean the more non-visible reality of intersex too. I've never gotten tested for being intersex so I may actually turn out to be cisintersex. I have many physical symptoms of possibly being intersex as well.

For Intersex and Heterochromia actually both have to do with my strongest kintype (fictionkin) who was a character in a fanfiction that was dating my Parasocial Darling.

Groomed, Dating, Yandere, Smitten, Loved, 2016 are also connected to my Parasocial Darling, esp since I was in primary school (AUs) when I first started my Parasocial relationship with them (They were in their 20s at the time).

Plural has a couple things relating to it, may also add to tris. When I was a little girl, I underwent a very specific trauma that caused me to completely dissociate from my past identity. To the point where it feels like I'm an alter who took over her body for her because life got too traumatizing for her. Years after that I heard voices of another person when I was in a bad headspace who would soothe me so i considered them another alter. There's also another alter who's an introject of my ex best friend, I'm p sure they formed because we used to be very codependent and them turning against me was very scarring and stressful -- that's why I identify with plural.

[pixxiesticksys]

Not radqueer

Parasocial Attachment Disorder

Parasocial Attachment Disorder

Image ID: Two flags. Both Feature 11 stripes of pinks, yellows, and a very light blue. The first three stripes on both flags are light pink, each slightly more yellow than the last. The forth flag is a much redder and darker shade of pink. The fifth stripe is yellow and the sixth is very light blue, easily confused with white. The last five stripes mirror the first five. Yellow, the redder pink, and the three light pinks, now going from the most yellow to the least. The first flag also has an icon of a phone with the visual of a person inside. Faded outlines of love hearts float behind the phone. End ID

This is NOT a radqueer term

Parasocial Attachment Disorder is a term to describe people who experience parasocial relationships on the most disruptive level.

Symptoms people with Parasocial Relationships may experience are

Inability to think about anything other than Parasocial Figure for long periods of time, resulting in lack of focus

A need for constant updates or viewings of Parasocial Figure causing excessive internet usage in their name

A sense of emotional pain or distress when Parasocial Figure is no longer accessible or available which can lead to feelings of abandonment or loss

A sense of jealousy or discomfort towards other fans or when when Parasocial Figure interacts with others

Intense emotional reactions to the life events of Parasocial Figure

A tendency to view Parasocial Figure as perfect, leading to unrealistic ideals

A tendency to struggle interacting with those on the same "relationship level" as Parasocial other. Siuch as having a hard time making friends due to the belief that they will never be as good or feeling they're cheating on their partner due to their feelings

Unrealistic ideals for the future, such as believing they will meet Parasocial Figure and Parasocial Figure will immediately be everything they dreamed of them being/solve all of their problems

Desire to take/intrusive thoughts of taking extreme measures to ensure a relationship with Parasocial Figure

Feelings of depression, distress, anguish, or even suicidal over the reality of the relationship between themself and Parasocial Figure

Inability to stop or control thoughts relating to or about Parasocial Figure/Influx of intrusive thoughts

Attachment to Parasocial other feels like a disorder or an addiction and is near impossible to get over without the help of others

Attachment lasting years without pause

Attachment randomly triggering again after the haver was thought to be over with it

This is still NOT a radqueer term ! I cant stop anyone from using it but if you do please don't like if your main is radqueer or reblog onto a radqueer blog

[kissingshooters]

Normalize self shipping with ur fave shooters

Me and Dylan ❤️❤️❤️

[angel-theory]

Creating Angel Theory

tw: CSA

Angel Theory, the source of my highest kin, started its life as a selfship fanfiction about my parasocial other and I.

At the time of creation, I was struggling with my childhood trauma, specifically when I was sexually assaulted at the age of five years old. This lead to me developing hypersexuality in order to cope with the event that I fundamentally could not understand. I blocked this event out until the age of ten. This lead me to dissociation and escapism as coping mechanisms. My vice was a YouTuber's playthrough of Undertale. Undertale and that YouTuber filled all the voids in my life. I attached myself to both and they became concrete parts of my identity, the identity that was distancing itself from the little girl that experienced CSA.

When I created Angel Theory, I created the self insert as the identity I was pursuing in order to leave the little girl behind. Angel Theory was a world where I was a YouTuber just like my parasocial other. Angel Theory begins in 2016 where my parasocial other meets my self insert after a bad breakup and ends in 2017 with us dating and living together.

My self insert is my preferred identity and informs all of my transIDs, trisIDs and permaIDs. Due to the fact that it's source is a fanfiction I consider it a kin.

[citruswriter]

Made these for myself as a little birthday gift to me. :3

✧⁺⸜(●˙▾˙●)⸝⁺✧ʸᵃʸ

[crushed-cat]

I wish I were a ghost haunting my beloveds house. Daily game of trick or treat. Will I be nice and dig up couch cushion money for them? Or will I hide their left shoe and their right sock so they can't leave me. Decisions, decisions.

[parasocialchan]

really scared of watching todays video for some reason. im just watching her streams right now. her 5/23/24 shell challenge tour stream, she looks really silly in the shark costume. yawn yawn yawn so so so sleepy. (not really)

been having episodes of derealization more often recently. my boyfriends helping me through it. why i was offline today :)

[roydeezed]

One thing for those who have watched The Boy and The Heron or will watch it. The Japanese title for it is How Do You Live? And Miyazaki stated he was leaving it for his grandson, saying, "Grandpa is moving onto the next world soon but he is leaving behind this film".

The deaths of contemporaries and friends such as Satoshi Kon and Isao Takahata and also the expected successor of Yoshifumi Kondo were things that have always weighed heavily on the back of Miyazaki's mind.

He recognizes the industry and the occupation for how soul crushing it was, grinding up either the spirit or the physical body of those who work in it. He loves and hates the industry he stands on the peak of and fully recognizes how it will probably be the death of him. And he knows it'll leave him unable to say a lot of things to his Grandson.

So How Do You Live? is a lesson. For his grandson. For himself. For his two sons. And probably for anyone else willing to pay attention.

Hayao Miyazaki is a flawed man that makes things so important to so many people. And I think more than any other film of his, in this you get to pull back the curtain a bit and see him at work. And what should be this giant unblemished titan can be seen for what he is, a sad old man who had higher hopes for himself and has even higher hopes for the people he makes his work for.

It's a beautiful thing to see another's humanity in their work. To look past the artifice and glam of commercialized art and find humans behind it. And humans willing to show their humanity and mortality is even rarer. And something to be celebrated. So when you watch it. Or if you've watched it already. Understand that this film is Miyazaki kneeling down, weary after years of weaving dreams and making mistakes, reaching out and saying to you that he hopes you can do better. It's an old man who's made all the mistakes of the world passing it on to you, hoping you do better, and making sure you know it's okay if you don't.

How do you Live? By making mistakes. By messing up. But still moving forward. And still reaching out.

[mioakem]

tommyinnit i will never hate u

[stuckinapril]

megan thee stallion is the perfect example of unbothered energy. nicki has repeatedly vagueposted about her, gone on unhinged rants about her, gone so far as to mention her dead mother (such a classless low blow), threatened her on live, and has now released the tackiest diss track in history. and what has megan done? literally nothing. she straight up ignored her, aside from that one ig story where she posted herself laughing (which was perfect btw). she is the epitome of “i will not dignify that w a response.” i love it.

[delusi0nalraik0]

my therapists looking at me after i tell them im in a parasocial relationship so bad it makes me want to kill myself along with 34.6 million people

[internet-angelmp3]

is your p/o JSE? :o

Okay yeah, maybe he is. But I didn't want to say so because I still feel so guilty about it. I may have joined the Radqueer Community but I still have a long way to go. I still have large bouts of hating myself for indulging in what helps me cope, my parasocial relationship w/ JSE one of those things. I've recently also recovered from delusions about JSE relating to Angel Theory and some other things. So, for some reason, the idea of being open about it made me feel very paranoid, like everyone would hate me if they found out and that if I went and said it publicly then everyone would know even though there's no way you can trace this blog to my irl self.

[emotoangel]

you know sometimes I wake up in a cold sweat remembering the phrase ‘more than just romantic’ and feeling like I’ve been knocked down a hill by the reminder that Dan and Phil are like ,, actually together. it’s not just a weird online shipping two twinks thing they’re actual soulmates, companions through life, 4000 year old tortoises, RANCH, like a piece of furniture, like a normal gay couple ,,, what the fuck

[stars-obsession-pit]

Tim has found his soulmate (not a soulmate AU, just in the like “i think we’re totally meant to be together” way). Well, okay, it’s entirely one-sided so far, but he’s sure SpecterNova will reciprocate once they’re in proper contact.

He’s already found everything he publicly can on the youtuber, but he’s still digging deeper. It’s weirdly difficult—his love must like his privacy!—but he’s making headway.

On the other end, Danny is getting nervous about the dedication of his new internet stalker. Even with Tucker’s help in setting up his online security and the scrambling effects of ectoplasm, they can tell that the person is still making progress. They don’t seem like they’re a part of the GIW, but that doesn’t mean their search can’t harm him in some other way.

He really hopes he doesn’t have to change identities again. Having to do it the first time to flee the GIW was bad enough, and he’s been liking his current life.

[applebees4prez]

snl wishes they could be this funny prepared, let alone off the cuff. nobody has perfected the art of comedic timing like zac oyama has but also, nobody could work with other comedians well as these guys do.