#paranoia CW

[one-time-i-dreamt]

My cousin's stepdad kept making fun of the items I was gonna sell at a garage sale, calling me stupid for thinking anyone was going to buy them. Meanwhile, a group of roughly 5 people listened into all my conversations from massive pipes under my house as part of their efforts to ruin my life. I knew they were there, but everyone else thought I was insane.

[vamprisms]

pick the best type of horror antagonist

[mrsegbert]

[lowpolypony]

blinkies set #8

may the moo be with you, the mootrix, my back hurts, nintendo 64, no evil aliens i want to believe, odie rocks, only the paranoid survive alien, oooh catnip, out of order, pacman game over

[fictionkinfessions]

anyone else hear that ominous bell tolling?? no?? just me?? 😂😂😭😭😭 anyone else hear that ominous bell tolling?? no?? just me?? 😭😭😭 anyone else hear that ominous bell tolli-

-Mizuki akiyama / project sekai fictive

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[the-crystal-femmes]

This is probably going to be a long post and delves into mental health issues. Trigger and content tags will be applied but I'm putting this under a "read more". Please bear with me.

I think I'm tired of believing that I'm constantly intimidating my mutuals, or being a nuisance. I constantly tend to believe that the reason I don't usually get mentioned in posts is, for some God forsaken reason, I come off as a bitch when I ask not to be tagged in certain things. It makes me sad, I'd like to be tagged in silly little posts as long as they don't fo against my boundaries.

Ever since the.. Incident on my sideblog, I've always felt nervous or on edge here. I fear something's going to happen again, my paranoia constantly gnawing at me. I've considered taking a break from Tumblr, but truthfully, it's my only form of socialization. I cannot go outside and talk to others, I live in a rural area, and I feel much less safe on apps like TikTok, Instagram, and Discord. Tumblr is my go-to with talking to others, but as of late I've felt so unsafe and unwanted that it's actually effecting my mental health.

I just want to be able to interact with my mutuals and make little posts. I don't want to constantly believe that I'm doing the wrong thing, wondering why anyone is still following this blog, or having constant fits of crying because I feel like I've fucked everything up.

I'll admit this now. I love attention, I constantly crave attention, and a lot of my posts are me begging for attention, whether subtly or very, very bluntly. It's why I ask for asks in my inbox a lot, it's why I constantly try to interact with others. This isn't a trait of mine that I like, at all. I always feel lonely, I've never had an explanation for my thought processes or why I do any of this. I'm surprised that anyone actually puts up with my shit because truthfully, I've lost multiple friends due to my behaviors. And I want to work on them, but when I'm so emotionally distressed, especially with everything going on in my life right now that I just don't talk about here, the problems are starting to pile up and I'm doing everything as an escape, like my brain is desperately pulling at strings.

I just want this to cease. Not in a.. Depressive way but, I just want to be normal, not a whiny, sniveling brat who constantly begs for attention and gets mad when I don't get it.

I'm just sorry. To anyone reading this, I am very, fucking sorry you have to put up with my shit.

[acronym-chaos]

The Faceless Old Woman Who Secretly Lives In Your Home (WTNV) Inspired ID Pack

[PT: The Faceless Old Woman Who Secretly Lives In Your Home (WTNV) Inspired ID Pack].

[ID: A purple thin line divider shaded at the bottom. End ID].

Names

[PT: Names].

Abyss, Ananke, Aria, Astrid, Bane, Blink, Blythe, Calla, Cloak, Clove, Dahlia, Delphine, Drift, Echo, Eira, Elara, Eryndra, Fade, Fathom, Felice, Ghost, Gilda, Gossamer, Hemlock, Hollow, Hush, Imara, Invidia, Lapse, Lenore, Lenore, Mara, Melisande, Mist, Mura, Noire, Nyx, Obscura, Omen, Petra, Phantom, Selene, Shade, Shiver, Specter, Spectra, Sybil, Tether, Thalia, Veil, Yvaine

Pronouns

[PT: Pronouns].

Cree / Creep / Creeps, Blu / Blur / Blurry, Ha / Haun / Haunt, Hu / Hush / Hushes, Lurk / Lurks / Lurks, Qui /Quiet / Quiets, Sen / Sneak / Sneaks, Sha / Dow / Dows, Si / Silence / Silences, Spec / Ter / Specters, Spy / Spies / Spies, Un / Known / Unknown, Vanish / Vanishes / Vanishes, Vo / Voi / Void, Whis / Whisp / Whisper

Titles

[PT: Titles].

The Haunting Presence in the Shadows, The One Hidden Beneath the Floorboards, The One Who Watches but is Never Seen, The Unseen Force Beneath the Bed, The Whisper Behind Closed Doors, [Pronoun] Who Dwells in Every Empty Space, [Pronoun] Who Exists in the Corners of Vision, [Pronoun] Who Fades Into the Dark, [Pronoun] Who Knows Every Secret, [Pronoun] Who Lurks in the Corners, [Pronoun] Who Silently Observes, [Pronoun] Without a Face Yet Always Watching

[ID: A purple thin line divider shaded at the bottom, End ID].

Requested by anon!

Also tagging: @id-pack-archive

[p-rtyboy]

† Brotherquoticnous

Pt: Brotherquoticnous /end pt

An Occuae related to the quote "Big Brother is watching you." From the book Nineteen Eighty-Four

† Coined 04.13.2024

† Colors based on this poster + this one ❄️ brother + quotic + nous

† Belated day 6, part 2 of @radiomogai event; occunous

[poolboyservice]

good argument, unfortunately, starving.help

love.thumper

[schizofreaknia]

they're coming

coming through the walls

they're inside already

hide be afraid

[porygon-supremacy]

Sharing personal information is stupid. Giving people my "tragic backstory" or whatever is stupid. If I tell someone I relate to what they're saying, they're gonna know something about me. I need to not do that.

I've been opening up a bit too much to people lately. I shouldn't do that.

[huntershowl]

PERSEPHONE & PARANOIA.

when i start plotting out a ship with someone, sleeping is often one of the first sticking points. safe to say that most people, when they develop a romantic relationship, naturally fall into the habit of sleeping with their partner (in a literal sense as well as others.)

it's not something i talk about in their doc or even that often outside of it, but persephone suffers from sleep paralysis, night terrors, and insomnia. even alone, they're often unable to sleep until it's well into midday, catching a couple of hours at most while hidden away in a spot they're completely sure is secure and unseen. ( one of the reasons she became so dependent on alcohol is that sometimes the only way they can fall asleep is after drinking an irresponsible amount. ) and because the trauma that caused her paranoia was suffered at the hands of another person, the presence of other bodies makes the prospect of sleeping even more difficult than it already was.

that is to say, persephone is incapable of sleeping in the same space as another person. this is the case whether we're talking about the same bed, the same room, or the same house/unit.

it takes a lot of work to begin to rectify this, along with a TON of trust, time and patience. by trust, i mean complete trust — not only persephone knowing for a fact that the other muse won't turn around and ambush her in the night, but also knowing that they could protect themselves (and her, in the event they're keeping watch while she rests) if someone tried. this most often comes with a heavily plotted and very specific Type of romantic relationship. it happens faster with some muses than with others, depending on how physically safe seph feels with them (ie. their general power level and their history with seph.)

sleep isn't the only way their paranoia manifests, however. it's the reason she sticks to traveling by rooftop, alone — being on ground level makes them genuinely believe (not just feel like) they're being watched. it's also the reason they don't stay in the same place for more than one night: they travel between out-of-the-way, ramshackle, abandoned apartment units (i call them her hideouts) each evening, and though she usually doesn't sleep the whole night (or at all), she still uses that particular hideout as her base until morning.

if someone learns the address to one of their hideouts, or if they have to take another person there, it's considered compromised, and they abandon it as soon as possible. they haven't stayed/slept in their actual apartment since returning from their disappearance.

lastly, when persephone agrees to meet up with someone, or goes on a job with a partner from the unseen, they prefer to travel alone and meet up at rendezvous points. this allows them agency and privacy in travel; they can move around by rooftop without worrying about another presence with them.

note: all of this applies to her life after her two-year disappearance. ( so roughly 5 years ago through present-day / early 20s to mid/late 20s in age.) beforehand, despite still being a very independent kid, seph was a lot more comfortable spending idle time, sleeping, etc. around other people. she and orion were together more often than not, they'd seek friends out when bored, and you could pat her on the shoulder without her trying to kick your teeth in on pure reflex. KJSHDJHSD

[crossroadsnumber1doctor]

[ STATIC, TAPE RECORDER PLAYS. ]

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THE BURN IS IN MY EYES

THE BURN IS SPREADING

I CANNOT SEE

FIRE COURSES THROUGH MY VEINS

THE AGONY WILL NOT STOP

IT IS INEVITABLE

I AM NOT THE FIRST

I AM NOT THE LAST

THIS AGONY WILL SPREAD FOREVER

NONE CAN DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT

WE WILL ALL PERISH AT SOME POINT

THE SOLAR STORM IS COMING

IT IS AN OMEN

THE SOLAR STORM IS COMING

IT IS AN OMEN

THE SOLAR STORM IS COMING

IT IS AN OMEN

FEAR THE BURN

FEAR THE LIGHT

PRAY THAT THE SOLAR STORM WILL LET YOU SURVIVE

HE IS COMING HE IS COMING HE IS COMING HE IS COMING HE IS COMING HE IS COMING HE IS COMING HE IS COMING HE IS COMING HE IS COMING HE IS COMING HE IS COMING

[ TAPE RECORDER CUTS OUT; BACK TO STATIC. ]

He doesn't even have any words for this one just.. What the hell.

[nintendoggender]

who the hell is liking my posts that i cant see. either reveal yourself or get outta here before i shoot you with this gun i found /lh

[fictionkinfessions]

What level of paranoia is it when you’re concerned to leave a kinfession with all names redacted in fear that it’s still recognizable, and, somehow, the names would lead people to your current, irl identity?

Asking for a friend. /j

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