ALLODOXAPHOBIA
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is the fear of opinions. This phobia can manifest as a fear of being pressured by the opinions and expectations of others, including friends.
[college student!p.sh x female college student!reader]
Genre: Angst
Word Count: 1,135
Notes: BREAK UP!! (even two); Sunghoon is a jerk (ok,, ig??); written in third person; both Sunghoon and Jungwon are on the same Basketball Team; female!reader has kind of unhealthy coping mechanism; English is not my first language,, so bear with my grammar/spelling mistakes; inspired by the song: pale honey-friends
PHULEASE,, read the authors note at the end,, shank yewww
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:NOW PLAYING:
🎧 Pale Honey - Friends 🎸
1:19 ───|────── 4:09
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A month had passed. Exactly a month since that one unfortunate night when their relationship ended. Since then, she had
finally allowed herself to feel and breathe freely. She permitted herself to identify the sadness, the anger, the disgust,
and the deep emptiness within her. Yet, she also granted herself healing and the assurance of her own presence and peace of mind.
She made the decision to avoid any interactions with him at all costs, just to let herself breathe.
I set myself free in my own time
now I'm all alone I really don't mind
At some point, she found herself in the stands of the basketball hall, there to show her support for Jungwon - her best friend of
six years — who was ready to have a match with his team against the opposing school. As she sat there, she overheard some girls
sitting in front of her gossiping about her and Sunghoon's past relationship.
Apparently, every time Sunghoon is asked about the reason for their breakup, he either shrugs it off by telling others that they
didn't share the same trajectory or, if he's constantly pressed about it, he says they broke up because of a lack of time due to
their tight schedules and exams. What a lie.
but would you leave it out
when you tell everyone about us
so much went so wrong between me and you
Trying to ignore the recently received information, she cheered silently for her best friend throughout the whole match,
yet she was not able to shrug off the memories of her breakup with Sunghoon.
Sunghoon has always been a man of pride, whether it was his grades, his looks, or his family's wealth. He always had everything he wanted. Yet, the only thing he did not have was a significant other. While all his friends were bragging about their relationships, Sunghoon could not help but feel pressured and down. So he decided to date her.
They met in a shared chemistry class, where Sunghoon desperately looked for a girl he could pick to be his girlfriend. He flashed his beautiful smile at her and arranged to meet up frequently, whether it was for their studies, the music they shared, or simply each other's presence. At first, he thought the feelings would come after a while, but they didn't, and he did not want to deal with that issue any further. He chose to ignore the tenderness and kept on feeding the facade of being in love.
After a while of dating, Sunghoon's constant way of vaunting about his girlfriend to his friends became very stressful and bothersome to her. She could not stand the pressure of always being the center of attention around his friends. She elected to calmly confront her boyfriend about the struggle she had been hiding deep down, which resulted in a heated argument. Sunghoon revealed his real intentions about their relationship, explaining how he just wanted to boost his self-esteem, to feel less left out, less pressured, and not embarrassed around his friends for not having a girlfriend.
She could not believe nor process the words that spilled from his mouth, so she just stared at him in disbelief. Sunghoon, not able to stand her silence, told her how much he cherished her just as a trophy to show around his friends, without having any strings attached. Soon after, she made the decision to end their relationship. Unable to look at his face anymore, she spared no time and stormed out of his college room to go to her own.
Tears threatened to spill out, yet she did not cry. She did not want to cry. Arriving in her own room, she blocked his number and decided to go to sleep,
just to ignore her own salty eyes.
now that it's done
you can tell all your friends
After the match ended with a win for her school's team, everyone cheered loudly while she just smiled proudly at her best friend.
The basketball players approached the stands, and in the crowd of the team, she noticed a familiar face—not her best friend's,
but her ex-boyfriend's—Sunghoon.
Sunghoon, running ahead of himself towards the stands, smiled brightly and hugged a tall and slim female figure, then a moment later, kissed her passionately.
Seeing this, she looked quite shocked and felt a little bit hurt, but she hoped he treated that girl differently than he had treated her.
without me around
you can take turns with everyone
Some time passed. Just as she was about to exit the toilet stall, she heard a girl running and crying into the stall next to hers, disrupting her peace. She decided to stay quiet, not wanting to startle the girl. Accidentally, she overheard the girl talking to someone on the phone.
Through tears, the girl explaines how much she loved a boy and how hurt she felt after an argument a few minutes ago over a minor inconvenience. The girl continued, describing how the boy had said hurtful things to her, claiming he did not love her and that she was useless, only seen as another trophy by him. Hearing this, she froze on the spot, her own breakup suddenly flooding back to her.
She exited the stall in a hurry and walked anxiously through the school hall, her thoughts racing freely in her mind.
She couldn't believe that the boy she once loved and cherished had turned into such a heartless pride machine.
She could not believe that Sunghoon continued to break the hearts of innocent girls just to feed his own ego and impress his friends.
even now
as I'm on my own
it wears me down
and I've lost control
Arriving at her dorm room, she lied in her bed and chuckled at her own hope of Sunghoon changing. Soon after, the chuckles turned into wholehearted laughter as she reminisced about the lies Sunghoon told his friends about their past relationship and their reasons for breaking up.
after all
we've been through
would you tell everyone
leaving out
how you made me feel
and what went wrong
Right after, the laughter turned into single droplets of tears, which trickled down her cheeks as she realized how insecure Sunghoon must feel — unable to tell the truth and live authentically, wearing a mask while breaking hearts. She felt sorry for him, though she shouldn't have; after all, he had broken her heart.
Yet here she was, and the world did not end.
now that it's done
you can tell all your friends
At the end, their priorities diverged:
she would prioritize her future significant other,
while he would always prioritize his pride and his FRIENDS.
without me around you can take turns with everyone
you can tell all your friends
you can tell all your friends
Authors Note:
Yellow yall,, my first ff on tumblr and ngl kinda nervous,, hope you enjoyed it as much as I enjoyed writing this !!
I am open for any improvements, so feedback is very much appreciated (the negative one as much as the positive),,
take care everyone !! (?)
(06.07.2024)
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Prompt 300
Danny squirms and hisses, trying to dig his claws into dark scales as the clouds whistle by. “Wait- Ancients dammit- STOP!” he shrieked, cursing how tiny his own ghost form was compared to his other not-quite-future-self. Wings that could easily dwarf the entire Ops center beat through the air, fast enough to cause his eyes to sting.
“Dan- bring me back- stop-” he wailed, despite the grip on his scruff not even loosening. Yet the larger dragon didn’t so much as twitch back towards Amity, the city disappearing into the distance like a speck. “We have to go back-”
The GIW were- were- They had to go back! The portal was gone (exploded, broken and all of Fentonworks a smoldering mess, oh Ancients he’s gonna be sick-), no one could return to the Realms, they were all sitting ducks-
“Jordan please-” he begged, even though he already knew that between the city, between every other ghost and them, Dan would always choose to keep them safe. But Jazz was hurt, she wasn’t waking up from where she lay limply cradled in Dan’s claws.
There was so much blood, and he only knew she was still alive from the weak fluttering of her core, growing stronger as her heartbeat faded. She needed help, she needed doctors- he doesn’t know if she would be able to come back, not with how they were leaving the ecto-rich city behind and he didn’t want to lose her- Dan’s blank panic was swamping his own, drowning both of them in the emotion as the dragon tore through the sky. Some part of him knew they couldn’t stay in Amity anymore, but- But Jazz needed help- Danny couldn’t help the tears that dripped from his yes, pretending it was merely the clouds as they flew to places unknown to him.
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Heey mutual @radiance1 Dragon buddy o' mine & @hdgnj u might enjoy
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