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The downside of finally organizing files on your computer is that you forget about a 99% finished fic in a subfolder
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me: i could never eat insects that's so gross
also me: eats e120
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goddd i think im over him and then i see a picture and then im not
#i didnt even think about him all that much during the summer break#out of sight out of mind i guess#:l
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Saiki is crazy for literally altering human dna to make his pink hair seem normal but not batting an eye when Mera is starving to death in poverty every episode 😭😭😭
#not his problem i guess#kusuo saiki#saiki k#the disastrous life of saiki k.#the disaster of psi kusuo saiki#out of sight out of mind
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‘I do not have a favorite animal,’ I think to myself. ‘All animals are unique in their own way.’
And then a picture of a horseshoe crab enters my dash…
#perfect littol creachur#holy shit I love them#and it’s such a shame I only realize I do whenever I see them#I guess it’s like a ‘out of sight out of mind’ kind of thing with me#it happens a lot of the time#toast tries to talk#random#random stuff#horseshoe crab
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Some mild existential dread in the house today
#im just feeling reeeeally really drained#works taking a LOT out of me#like. it feels less intense day to day? or maybe im reacting less? but its still very much piling up#and im just feeling very...idk. like im still waiting for permission to live my life#except now the permission osnt coming from any one person its. having the money to docit#and the time and the energy#and i guess thats just what adult life is? waiting#and hoping#and along the way losing sight of what i even wanted in the first place because im so *tired*#idk. i definitely need a project of some kind but im struggling to settle on something and then organise it#i have stuff to do today anyway. alfie had a lil bit of emergency cash saved so i need to go shopping#and i need to tidy the kitchen and do some dishes#and have a bath and shave at some point#i also want to draw but again. struggling ti pick something and idk if ill have the executive function spare#AND i want to try and be more social and talk to folks but thats its own kind of difficult#part of me would like a disc server that just has all of my friends in it bc i find it easier to dip in and out of conversarions#but i imagine that would be weird for folks who dont know each other#idk. lot goin through my mind when all i really want is sleep#which also hasnt been...greeeeat lately#mainly because Alfie wakes me up in the mornings bc they dont like being alone but also have a very different sleep schedule to me#and can take multiple smaller naps over a day whereas i really need a solid 8 or so hours or i just. dont fully switch on#but theyre also struggling atm (mentally and also they got an injury at work AND seperately broke their foot ffs)#so they need me more and its just#this never ending cycle of SOMETHING needs my attention#and its fucking exhausting asfghfkd#but!!! we keep goin!!!!! been applying for a bunch of jobs and havent heard anything positive yet but. we keep tryin huh
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#it's a strange thing to work in a store that never sleeps. like living in an organism. like forcing its blood to flow#youre there an not. mostly out of sight and out of mind. blinking into existence when something is needed#or at least thats how it is when you work on the back end. and its an oddly gendered workplace when i go in#before the sun is up. before the doors are unlocked. men and boys unload the trucks and sort the packages. women sort the clothing packages#so they do that on purpose? do applicates sort themselves? why do only women work in style?#i dunno. it feels like my 1st real job. its very strange bc there are alloted times and clocking in and out and forced breaks. ive never had#that. ive only had: every moment that youre not working is a waste of time. i worked 10 hour days 6 days a week while getting paid part time#so it's weird. its nice to feel useful. its nice to have my time filled with things to do. but its also like going to school k-12 bc its#like: oh god i gotta get up at 3am so i can go to work. so i dunno. we'll see how i feel after a full week. its also sorta physically#exhausting and maybe i should have said 32hrs instead of 40 so i can actually work on some stuff this summer but i guess we'll see#right now getting a government job sounds better than going back to school but i dunno. i dunno#ill have to start applying in earnest. ay ay ay. what a mess#unrelated
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thinking of my blorbos but not in a "i love you you love me all is well" way but a "i love you hope you kill me" way lol
#cylas vents#negativity#negative#death wish#lmao#bitches be like '[potentially concerning thing]' and then add 'lol' as if it's funny or a joke lmao#like i mean technically it's not but then again it is bc it's me. like yeah don't worry don't take this seriously don't mind me ok#it doesn't really matter anyway kk. or maybe it's more like I'm the joke.#like idk the thought that like most of my f/os would probably kill me on sight should be less comforting than it is i guess#imagine casually making posts like this and still being like 'ok but maybe im not actually mentally ill maybe im faking maybe im lying to#myself maybe im making excuses maybe im imagining things maybe im just lazy' etc etc#none of the antidepressants since fluoxetine decided it's over have done shit and even my psychiatrist now is always like 'hm. so do you#want to keep trying other things' and like yeah what else can i do? therapy didnt do anything for this specific issue and the tagesklinik#lady didnt really seem to get my issue (well her suggestions for like therapy groups or whatever were more about socialising or whatever#like ??? girl that's really not the main problem here lmao but she also did have a point about how i would have to actually go there every#day etc but like#what else am i supposed to do#hi i am always tired and sometimes struggle to even get out of bed and thats why i worry about getting a job or something bc it could become#too much or whatever but like unfortunately thats kind of a requirement for everything lmao#when psychiatrist asks what i want/expect or whatever i am internally like 'a magic pill that just fixes everything and makes me a normal#functional human being' but like that's just not A Thing (tm)#so. like. what else am i supposed to do.#i don't want to be like this forever#idk how to tag lmai#using stuff like#tw suicidality#tw suicidal#tw suicidal ideation#just feels so over the top and like i dont have the right to use them lol
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i wish i had the balls to want to kill myself
#sightings#i know itll get better but when#when am i going to feel like im loved when am i going to feel like people care when am i going to feel like itll work out#i know nobodys a mind reader but i want someone to try#i cant keep doing this im fghting so hard for people to care about me pay attention to me if i just stopped talking nobody would notice#ivw already been talking less. in servers and what have you#i know nobody is picking up on it#and i know im being unfair but so fucking what#everything is unfair and i think i should be able to take a bit of that out everywhere else#god#i just want to be the center of someones world i want to be someones priority#i am nobodys priority. there will be someone who is loved more. i feel like my existence revolves around whether or not im pleasing others#if you read this far fucking hats off to you i guess. im going to bed.
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I saw a video of a painting of Mary being restored, recently. I'm not, nor have I ever been a religious person, but it got me thinking- Why have I never seen Mother Mary grieve like a mother after the Crucifixion?
I've seen plenty of art of Mary holding Jesus after he'd been taken off the cross. But in those, The Virgin Mary feels so, idk, detached. She looks sad, but she's also accepted it. She is serene in her grief, heavenly and beautiful.
To me, Mother Mary is that. She's a Mother.
She held her baby. Raised him with a husband that loved them. Kissed his wounds and wrapped him in hugs when Christ- he was human, so he had to be a child- had a fall. She taught him about his Father, and the future God had prepared for him.
Did she know? She knew she would be pregnant with God's child, the angel told her she would bear the savior to humanity, but did she know how he would die? Did she know that he would be flogged viciously, his beard pulled out, made to wear a crown of thorns, then forced to carry his execution method over nearly a half a mile? Did her heart not break, hearing her son cry out his dying words, "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?"
And even if she did know, would that have made it hurt any less?
IDK, I'm no religious scholar, I'm not even christian/catholic/whatever. I'm thinking of the Jesus documented in history, and the people in his life. but even if I was religious, I'd feel sad, maybe even a little angry for Mary. That she's not allowed grief, that in art she's not allowed to be anything other than the beautiful, serene, loving Virgin Mary.
(zoom for better quality, tumblr is a dumpster fire. I'm pretty happy with this, i tried using digital acrylics in Rebelle instead of watercolors like I usually do. added with the canvas texture, it makes for a cool look)
#religion#mother mary#jesus christ#OK just because I'm not religious please dont think this is meant as a personal attack#This is more just. my brain going down depressing rabbitholes#cause I did research for this post and made myself sad.#and honestly made me.... lowkey feel more angry toward religion in a weird way?#at least towards the theoretical god for putting his own son through all that#andfor what? his son's blood to wash away humans sins? gods a washing machine and jesus's blood is the detergent?#You're GOD. you can MAKE a better detergent.#IDK have a lot of thoughts on the matter i guess#LITERALLY DONT @ ME THOUGH RELIGIOUS PEOPLE LOOKING TO CONVERT ME/CHANGE MY MIND WILL BE BLOCKED ON SIGHT#Yall didn't want me before I found out i was a disabled gay leftist and you really dont want me now lmao#the artist has spoken#my art
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Played "Remember, You Will Die" this afternoon and really enjoyed it, while also feeling just this escalating dread? melancholy? frustration? pity? at playing an MC who feels so overwhelmingly trapped. Physically powerful, possessing a rare skill, and yet when people look at you all they is see a mad dog on a leash and all you can choose is whether or not to bark. If this sounds like a criticism I promise you it is not, quite the opposite. It added such a weight to little moments of choosing (relative) mercy, of looking for ways to achieve your goals that involved a little more finesse or discretion. Not to be "good" but to be something other than what everyone expects of you--to choose. To snatch at whatever little bit of autonomy came your way. Will be excited to play more of this as it's updated and to see at what point the MC will get to really slip the leash.
#i had more to say in this post but i got sleepy like 90 seconds into writing it and kept going anyway#but I have been thinking about these choices in particular because I read some old asks on the author's tumblr that were about like#whether or not the mc/merc could be a good person#when for me the feeling was much more like...deeply desiring freedom#and to break the face of the next character who referred to the mc as either a tool or a dog (also freedom i guess)#def of particular interest b/c the mc is a mercenary#the whole thing about being a merc is that you say yes or no to each job#you have your contracts and you have to fulfill them or you lose respect/work/your life#but you choose#and when the job's done you move on#whereas this mc is stuck with one main employer and no end to that arrangement in sight#so that feeling of being trapped is even stronger for me#and i'm fascinated to find out more about how the mc/merc got where they are#anyway def high on the list of IFs i'll be keeping track of going forward#while i spin both echo and dante around in my mind and try to decide which of them i like better
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when people you think are cool think YOU'RE cool ? !
#cryin in da club.... (my room)#LIKE ? !#how am I COOL???#I'M A DWEEB#it's so crazy when people think i'm cool/funny/inspiring because it's not necessarily that i don't think that about myself but#i think there's a deep disconnect from me and the way i influence people or i just can't conceptualize it#very out of sight out of mind#so it's like i guess i don't consider that people are thinking of me when they;re not around/speaking with me#(that's the ADHD i bet.............)#ANYWAY FULL OF LOVE GOOD NIGHT <3
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god i WISH 'out of sight out of mind' actually like. worked. entering week 3 of eyecandy coworker and i swear im going insane, im only thinking of him MORE
#yeah yeah it only really kicks in after a significant amount out of sight i fucking guess#only solution: i need to quit my fucking job#also i desperately need to see him again so i get a reality check instead of Making Things Up In My Mind#listen once i move this will also be helped (manifesting)#workposting
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Ive spent most of yesterday doing all my uni stuff for finals and a couple hours today too, and I should be doing much more, but I can actually feel my brain giving out on me rn. Im starting to develop a headache and that's very much Not ideal. I have A Lot to do and not a lot of time to do it, ughh...
Forcing usually doesn’t work on me though, so even though my anxiety will prob have a field day, I guess I'll try to take a break, maybe play some Skyrim, maybe write a lil' more fanfic if my head feels better, and who knows, if in the evening it feels up to it, I can try to add some more to that big project Im trying to finish or start on a presentation for a different class. Either would be nice, but if its not possible tonight, then I guess I just gotta hope taking a break today will help me get back at it tomorrow.
Here's to hoping!
#personal#Raksh's studying adventures#uni stuff#Raksh posts#Im not even gonna think about my thesis#gotta write to my supervisor prof about it tomorrow#tell her where I am with it and ask about a deadline because I might not make it#and whats her outlook on that#I doubt she'll refuse to pass if if we have anything to show for the chapter but still better to ask#for my own anxiety levels at least#ugh today is not a good day#and the time is running out but oh well#life I guess#there's stormy clouds outside but so far no rain and quite hot and humid#so that might be contributing to me feeling unwell#Im not good with changing weather#especially if its in this weird inbetween state#when it hopefully finally rains it should get better for me but we'll see#for now Im gonna hop into Skyrim and my new save#(bcs I could with EE Kaidan anymore and had to go back to the OG version with some ooold voice addons)#(where they were still just the OG lines that were not working - I think - and some fixes to the og mod)#plus Im actually trying to RP more rn#kinda with my fic in mind 😂#so Im starting with the Thevies Guild and making my way towards Kaidan more 'naturally'#and I'll go into the main story after I get him ^^#anyway gonna end the rambles here#and go relax to the sounds and sights of Skyrim ^^
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can't stress enough that you guys don't have to answer every single ask you get. in fact you can just delete them. especially if they are causing you psychic damage.
#x#re: last reblog and that one post that critiques the idea of not responding to anon hate#if someone is trying to bait you in your asks then delete it you are not obligated to answer every stranger's questions#especially if they're extremely fucking probing questions#and if u get hate its better to just let that shit go by deleting it#i cant think of a single person who has benefited in any way from responding to hate.#it doesnt make you look bad like that one post implies but it definitely exacerbates your own negative reaction to it#at random sometimes ill get a guy sending me a bunch of hate at once and guess what. nobody ever knows bc i delete it#and as a result i dont remember what the guy even said in the first place. out of sight out of mind#but back to the baiting shit - ppl bait me sometimes too and its so easy to just delete an ask taking ur comments in bad faith#very few ppl will continue to take ur shit in bad faith so if u just delete the annoying anons then it doesnt become a bigger issue
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Why didn't past me have the foresight to sit and write down what part of S5 STAE #2 is in besides 'early.'
#is margaret ENGAGED YET#i hadn't planned to touch on out of sight out of mind but now i'm like THAT'S PROBABLY IMPORTANT TO THEIR RELATIONSHIP#i have a fic in mind for the nurses and hawk's nightmare and hanky panky and hepatitis and i'm just like#why did i get so excited and not plan a BIT more thoroughly at the beginning of the series#(the answer is scratching the itch was supposed to span from that first night in r&r all the way to postwar in one shorter fic)#(i was a silly sausage)#anyway i guess i'm fucking pulling up bug out and just watching through to the nurses and seeing what grabs me today#my ramblings
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