#others are blind

[my-demons-personified]

Day 14- I'm trapped in a house-like carpet

I'm getting too blunt with these references and shit.

They're catching on.

But only a little.

My friends are just straight up calling me trans but I just asked one if he genuinely believes that and he was like "no and I don't give a fuck" so I just need to quiz the rest of them.

mfw bro says no (I gotta keep them on their toes)

But this presents a new problem: how do I make myself less trans to them without it being unnatural? I mean, I could just drop all the trans stuff but that's not like me at all. I beat Celeste four times in one week, do you think I'm dropping the game like that?

The reason why I need to throw them a few red herrings is because I can't let this be too easy now. I made it easier and now it's a problem.

This is really hard to balance, actually. But I'd win tho. This shit ain't nothing to me, man.

I still want to hint, though. So I've complained about having leg hair.

One way I haven't meant to hint but somehow have is my voice. My voice is getting higher in pitch and more feminine. This is directly attributed to the beauties of my Frieza impression.

My friend (lets call him femboy because he's polish) does think I'm trans, though. I've shown the most trans behavior when he's there because I thought we could talk some real ningen shit but apparently, the things I've said were transgender so like... yeah. He's had this prediction for a while now so I'm not surprised to the news. One is onto me, but what about the others?

Another one just came in! It was a resounding no! More at 11

I think I'm good off that rn

post over

go home

no more

I made this a while ago (like years back) and it's kinda my mood rn

[lemongogo]

life of regret

[fraternum-momentum]

give me your complete and unwavering devotion.

[mischievous-thunder]

Just three freaky flatmates sharing their views on men. Two of them are having flashbacks too!

[puppyeared]

who is your favorite AA character? 👁️👁️

ziska… I hope capcom brings her back someday

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

This wine tastes like pigs blood!

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[divi-138]

My Favorite Scene of the Fic

Started reading MNMC and BOY ITS GOOD

no pressure to finish the fic but,, PELASE I GOTTA KNOW WHAT HAPPENS NEXT @mutantninjamidlifecrisis

Comic layout and f!Leo inspo by @somerandomdudelmao

[midoristeashop]

Jack prost

Jack studies but I was only allowed to ref the rotg concept art 🤩

[adoctornotatumbl-r]

spock , roughly two seconds before doing something so unhinged no one else has even thought of it : good thing i’m a vulcan and i would never do something irrational or illogical lmaoo

[bobacupcake]

YES YES YES YES YES

[vaguely-concerned]

thinking about not only the specific people lucanis pulls in to represent the 'locks' in his psyche, but the storytelling that happens in the structure/order of them. the underlying ideas are presented something like:

the lucanis who went into the ossuary never came back out again; he died down there (the boy caterina raised is gone forever) -> you're putting yourself in danger doing this (by being close to me), you should leave because I can't bear it if you get hurt because of me -> it doesn't matter even if we do try this, it won't work anyway (again because of me) ('you know what he's like, you can open the door but he won't walk through it' :'( oofie doofie) -> what if the real secret is that there was never anything but the monster in here from the beginning. you should leave, there was never anything here worth saving in the first place. (implicitly: what if I deserved what happened, all along.)

it runs pretty cleanly from outward-oriented attachment anxiety ('caterina won't even want me back like this, she won't recognize me (the same way I no longer recognize myself)) and gradually deeper inwards until we reach self-image and self worth. or you know, the harrowing basic lack of it lol.

"careful -- they'll know we're not right," spite says in one of their first scenes... but clearly, some very deep part of lucanis has feared or suspected for much longer than that that there's something inherently not right at the core of him, way before any demon entered the picture. and the voice he gives those lines to is the person who should know him better than anyone in the world, who he has loved more than anyone in the world -- and who deliberately chose to hurt him so horrifically anyway. 'It's better if I'm just a monster and deserved what happened than it is to allow for the idea that the brother I love doesn't really exist and maybe never did'. it's better if he's fundamentally flawed in some way that needed fixing to help him survive, and that's why caterina chose to hurt him again and again -- out of love. (this one I think he might have a very sad wakeup call on one day if he ever ends up with the responsibility and care of a child of his own in some way and realizes just how alien the idea of ever intentionally hurting them for any reason is to him. oh buddy. also interesting that he keeps caterina as the outermost lock -- there IS a distance he keeps there that he hasn't with illario. he doesn't resent her 'anymore' he says, but he also keeps her carefully further away from his deepest self.)

as far as I could tell the only note in the mind prison that's fully hidden and needs to be uncovered is the sad painful helpless stupid little truth that even after all this, even knowing what happened... he still loves his brother. is there anything illario could ever do that would make lucanis completely stop loving him, do you think? sometimes the trouble with unconditional love is that it is, well. unconditional, even when some terms and conditions probably would have been in order haha.

that's the pattern you see there again and again; he would rather destroy and abandon and imprison himself at every turn than let go of love, even when it's just scraps, even when there's only ever enough of it to hurt him. it's only when rook shows up and as it were takes his hand and walks along with him that he can entertain the idea of changing the story of what walking out the door might mean in the end.

[brainrotcharacters]

the man trained by the shimotsuki since childhood, the mind behind the three sword style, the demon pirate hunter, vice captain of the Strawhat Pirates,

easily stopped with a hand on his shoulder by his captain (currently in a silly hungry vibe)

[kbsd]

when a lovely flame dies, smoke gets in your eyes

OR: what were we supposed to take away from episode 4 if not ‘bucky is a war widow’

[ventricodus]

creeking out

[thebreadmantm]

The @ultramarinaa’s tma cat au has spread to the whiteboard. No one is safe. This is propaganda.

If my friends need to see me spiral into cat filled obsession then so dose my entire chemistry class

Another whiteboard gem my friend created

Garfield x Donky(ya know, from shrek) is otp

[puppyeared]

thanks @chipper-smol for getting me ISAT i will be so irresponsible with the looping