#or they just dont catch it at the beginning

[jisatsuwaifu]

Life is incredibly frustrating, stressful, and exhausting. Everyday I think “it’s okay, it’ll get better, try again tomorrow” but it just keeps proving me wrong. When I think things are getting better and I can finally relax, something else comes along and puts me right back into panic mode. It’s always something, there’s never a break. I never feel safe. All I do is complain about how sad or frustrated I am and I’m sure everyone around me is sick of hearing it. Which is fine, I wouldn’t want to be surrounded by misery when my life is good either or listen to a broken record when there’s much better music to be heard. I am my own responsibility, I shouldn’t rely on others.

My thoughts consume me. Not in a cutesy I’m just a girl cringe kind of way but in a “I need to go to sleep as soon as possible to prevent an accident” because I cannot trust my own head to comfort me but to only make scenarios worse or feed into my paranoia. I am not built to be left alone. I constantly feel like I’m too much and not enough. I’ve never felt more loved but also so alone in all my life. Everything is black and white there is no grey areas with my mind.

I just don’t think anyone knows or understands how thin I’m being stretched and how badly I’d just love for everything to stop and to be able to catch my breath. Just for a day. I’ve cried for help but I don’t think the one person I need help from genuinely hears me. I dont trust many people to begin with. There’s only so much a single person can take before it starts to cripple them. And I know I can be over dramatic and too emotional at times but this genuinely feels like the end, I can’t see past this point in my life. And the sad part is I do not know how I got here. Or this far to begin with. But I am so tired. It’s times like these I wish I had my mom back or even just a family to lean on and seek advice from, but I can’t even entertain my own sister long enough to talk on the phone with me. I don’t understand why I exist or what my purpose is if all I’ve ever been exposed to is pain and abandonment. There’s some aspects of my life that I know I serve a purpose for and want to make proud, I’m trying my hardest for that one thing. I just don’t want to cause anymore damage than I already have. I can’t be like my mother.

I just needed somewhere to vent, some outlet. It won’t change anything. I feel hopeless and empty again. I might just delete everything. I don’t know.

The best I can do right now is try again tomorrow.

( if you read all of this thanks for listening to my rant and I’m sorry I wasted your time when you could have been scrolling onto something cooler like tiddies or anime idk but ty anyways <3 )

[milkbreadtoast]

idk how i want to draw him yet and not ready to make a srs attempt but here's a bad kdj phone doodle lol🚶🏻

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

bc its hot out im thinking about Laughingstock (two fluffy boys) being too warm to sleep in the same bed. so they start arguing over who gets the bed - trying to give it to each other of course - and Howdy. Howdy starts making a sales pitch about how great the bed is, wouldnt Barnaby like to try it? its right up his alley! perfectly suited to him! so Barns is like "oh hm well sure ill give it a go". he lays down. blinks. "heyyyyy wait a minute" but Howdy is already camped on the living room couch, smug as a bug

[dizzybevvie]

If I die within the next week know it wasnt an accident

[hella1975]

hi hella I read the first 2 chapters of aftg and this is how it went

ok tbh I was planning on going further than two chapters like I said I'm in a mountain shack rn internet isn't always great and also my dad would prefer that I'm not constantly on my phone so I was SUPPOSED to do more reading. but. tee bee h. I got through 2 chapters and was like oh I'm so fucking bored let me get on tumblr again

okay but your commentary is so fucking funny

[lesbianpegbar]

ayane you need to get a grip. ayane please. for me

[lover-of-mine]

The way he literally is on his knees begging her to believe him, while she doesn’t apologize really and then has to be prodded into telling him that she’s leaving

No, but that's the worse part of it all, she impulsively decided to go to another continent after telling him she doesn't know who he is and not believing him after the girl shows up to the date and then she just ghosts him. Like??????????

[psalmsofpsychosis]

I dont think at this point i can even start on classic literature if i tried, like, i have absolutely zero patience for stories that take their goddamn time "building up" to things. "give exposition talk and show your characters doing everyday things" girl only if the everyday things contribute to the theme of the story! I dont have an ounce of interest in traditional idle starting points, "this story takes awhile to warm up and nothing happens for 45 pages" lmao bye

[quaranmine]

i don’t know why it surprising to me that empires is ending so soon😭😭 on one hand i feel like it’s sudden and rushed but also i think i’ve been able to tell that some people in particular haven’t been feeling it for a while or were struggling to find passion for it. my perception could be off but in my head it kinda feels like they never really recovered from the holiday-induced content break tbh. logically i know the season’s been going for a while but it just feels so short

to me idk.

I think it's always gonna be hard to end a lore-based server. Frankly, HC S8 did it best, but moon big was in the works for months and people still felt it was "rushed." Even the empires season one ending seemed a bit random to me, but I also only really watched Jimmy so idk what other signs there were leading up to it. I also know what you mean about some people not being fully into it--it's just that late season slump that happens to a lot of SMPs. It's easier to find passion and interest with a fresh start. I'm personally not too sad about the prospect of it ending because I always kind of preferred S1, and as a Jimmy main I was getting a bit bored of the toy thing. Like I love the concept of Tumble Town and the cowboy aesthetic but at lot of the episodes weren't gripping me the way I wished they would? The faeries really interested me, but I haven't kept up enough to really know the full plot details on that (yes, i know i should watch the recap). Other than that, the crossover was definitely the highlight of the season, but now it's over. I do think that the crossover event ending just around the content break time sort of threw the momentum off everything because then it's a question of "where do we go following that massive event?"

My main reasons I wasn't surprised was how it is getting longer than S1. Both S1 and S2 started in June, but S1 ran June-January and S2 ran June-now, May. So while Hermitcraft has a precedent for doing long seasons, Empires does not, and I was wondering if they were going to keep it going past the one year mark or wind it down. I also noticed they brought back the crown plotline, which was a late-story addition in S1 as well. So I was already wondering if we were in final weeks/months.

Anyway, I'm interested to see where it is going. Do we know if they're doing a S3? I assume they would? I'm fine with a fresh start but not ready to let go of empires as a whole!

[hanzajesthanza]

reading other short stories and novels and essays and interviews from sapkowski is so satisfying because not only are these fun to read in of themselves but when my mind returns to the witcher i am like

[wingdingle]

ok i figured it out finally. the secret to becoming friends with somebody is to keep doing smalltalk and asking how peoples days are and listen to them and share your own experiences and be genuinely curious about theirs, until you find people who also want to be friends with you enough to talk to you outside of the setting you regularly meet in, and then just initiate communication on a regular basis (at least 5 times a week or some shit idk.) also assess their comfort zone before talking about like social taboos . like ask them if they are ok hearing smth youre unsure about before you say it. also you dont necessarily succeed every time but dont get discouraged theres always more ppl and more room to grow =]

sidenote: try to make sure that when you make conversation it isnt exclusively about things you feel negatively about and keep an open mind about peoples interests, even if you dont necessarily agree with them - some people dont know some tjings are offensive bc theyre just too busy living their lives to stay on top of everything, but you can always explain that thought about it being offensive, just dont shut them down right away... imagine how youd feel if someone shut you down when you were talking about something you liked

[floorpancakes]

this is so funny bitch he's paying you a compliment!!! hes openly being like wow ur so good at this stop shouting and sit the fuck down 😭😭😭😭

[skeletalheartattack]

What are your favourite youtubes to eat food to?

i can't say i really have a favourite honestly, it's kind of luck based. i'll usually try to watch streams while i eat food, but if ive run out of the ones i'm interested in watching, it's likely im eating to a much shorter video.

[kinfusion]

Recent Evolutions + our current party... Deerling is the one that's gifted to you on Route 6... We gave him the Exp. Share since his level is so close to the evolution requirement.

[komashkathesilly]

hum hm hi i wanna do a silly talk. that question or just a point that pops up when ppl sometimes discuss tsukasas sekai is how full and especially full of individual personalities it is besides voaloids which seems wild compared to other sekais created from more like. collective feelings than of one person. but um i feel like its kinda self explanatory cause its pretty clear hes got rlly bright imagination and rlly loves shows for which he makes up script in most of cases with wxs but thats also what he used to do when he was younger for and with saki and toya(tho i dont rlly remember where exactly its mentioned and some details abt it sorry i might be wrong somewhere bc of it idk) in which characters seemed to have also had distinct personalities throughout each show but also for most plushies in general and other toys probably which may mean he got to feel kinda close enough to them for them to even materialise as part of his feelings in his sekai and continue living and helping him on their own? in a they probably even at that point were like his imaginary friends that were alive to him kinda way?

and seems like since at that period of time he spent lots of time on his own thats probably what he used to do mostly? and thinking and imagining the plots the dialogues personalities environment like all that and then playing it might be so much more entertaining than the reality especially if a lot of time u spend alone? so much that it can kinda lead to disassociating? or at least just getting a bit too into it that u forget or stop noticing or ignore the day to day life idk idk. like that kinda thing can at least a bit damage ur memory is what i mean even if the overall experience and situation ur in is not that bad u can be just at least bored and/or stressed enough for that to happen

[ryuuseini]

Working on the Paul essay and i NEVER thought the hardest thing to explain where his actions in episode 3. Like I'm literally having to handwave half of this shit because i have ZERO heterosexual explainations for this, like, your honor, he was just Obsessed!