#or just people to bounce ideas off of!!

[sexynetra]

omg i wanna know what the fics r about, especially the sashnetra one

Oh boy, there's so many worlds living in my head currently hahaha!

There's the boxer continuation I still need to plot out, more one-shot collection pieces including an amusement park AU, a couple different stripper ones (I can't help myself oops), drunk Anetra at a party with Marcia taking care of her (tbh this one might leave the one-shot folder and become a whole story)

Then there's the non-one-shots, which has a bodyguard/celebrity AU that I have plotted but need to suck it up and put to paper, a (shocker) Vegas stripper and 21st birthday AU, and yes I know it's cheesy as fuck but I love cheesy fics but I'm currently working on my tattoo shop owner AU where Marcia comes to get some tattoos and accidentally falls in love.

The Sashnetra is a fun one! Very directly inspired by the top 4 episode (and I will cry if anyone steals this) but Sasha is a pop girlie, Anetra is a model/dancer who was hired to be in her MV, and working with Sasha is a gay awakening (feat. am I gay BuzzFeed-esque quiz taking)

[leconcombrerit]

This thing had been rotting in my files for a year (minus three weeks but that's basically a year). It was a redraw of one of my first ever pieces for this fandom, and I still find it quite okay if a little stiff in places, so I thought I might as well share it since I don't draw that much anymore.

And then I had second thoughts, which obviously led to me posting it anyway, as you can see, but I realized I've almost made it a point not to draw anything related to Sasi anymore. As in at all. I can't, and I don't want to, and even sharing old art feels a bit 'meh'. It's too directly linked to my long going art block.

What I mean by that is that if I took all the followers I have out there and asked them what they know me or initially followed me for, you might have a fair amount of Lis 2 and the occasional Desert Bluffs afficionados, but you'd get an overwhelming majority of Sanders Sides. Sanders Sides fashion posts even. I was by no means famous for it or anything, but at my small artist scale, it was the biggest success I had.

And it makes it much harder to go back to it at all now. One, because I don't give a damn about the show anymore. Two, because I haven't been properly obsessing over anything in a while (there was a series early this year but given the actual emotional distress I get thinking about it I'm ruling it out). I haven't had real engagement from my own brain, nor real engagement from a broad audience -which makes sense, I'm not posting for anything that will reach a broad audience. But it takes its toll regardless.

Even when I finally finished writing a long fic, I couldn't help but feel 'all this for what ? Ten people or so and two hundreds have dropped it ?'. Which is a bad way to think about stuff you write for your own enjoyment but, you know, the brain gets happy with external validation even if you pretend really hard you don't care.

And so it feels tempting to go back to the golden goose just the time to get the creative juice pumping back, and I try, and I always end up frustrated and angry and feeling even less like making art that before. I'm not having fun with Sasi. Like an old friend you have nothing to say to and yet you have so much to say otherwise, so you get a bit frustrated, you know ? Not sure I'm making much sense, but that's how it feels. I want to have something like that again, but it won't be with Sanders Sides, and I somehow just want if off my radar.

It was left hanging, then lost its spark, and then I stopped caring altogether and I most likely won't even watch the finale when it does come out. I'm over it. I wish I wasn't though, because it does feel like the artistic spark won't come back all on its own this time, and the buzzing community made it so much easier to bounce back and do shit when your brain got wired all wrong.

It sounds like I'm just bawling after love and likes and stuff, and I guess that's part of it, in a way ? Like I'm in no place to do things for myself, and seeing the one thing I used to use to get back in the flow giving me a bored sense of dread doesn't feel too great.

Yet this drawing is still good ! I find it good ! I don't remember everything, but I can tell from the looks of it that I spent a while on it ! It's nice ! I should celebrate that. So I'm sharing it. I think it will be the last piece of Sasi I ever share, though. I'm not watching the finale when it comes out. I don't care about it. I'll just keep doodling my OCs and characters from cool books every once in a while. I'll write little things.

I just really, really need to stop trying to go back to it when it's clearly not working and not even for good reasons. It was a fun ride though ! So yeah. Basically. A whole ass rant for a one year old piece of art. I'm in my bi-annual depresso mood, nothing too surprising there.

[fatedroses]

He laid at the brink of death once more, staring at the face of despair. He remembered the path that led him to this purgatory, and with a smile could only ask:

"Shall we be friends?"

[kaisollisto]

based off of this

Today is frigid and windy, she feels it unforgivingly on her cheeks. Clouds part around her, clinging to her jagged features. They are wet and stifling, a brushing reminder of what she cannot have. It is the only thing claimed from the earth she can touch.

She passes above skylines and craggy mountains and watches. The earth is still cold and unyielding and she yearns for it in a reckless way. A silly wish to feel all that it has to offer in her mouth. She wants to touch, to feel the grainy sands between her fingers and find sand in horrible unbefitting places. The encapsulating experience of teetering the fine line of tasting the sun and burning herself. She wants to be down there.  

She’s heard many names weaved in between her. There are many she’s been called but one that has truly stuck with her, Ava. 

A soft sound pressed between lips, a gentle thing for a large entity like her. She likes to believe that’s who she was before this, a force too big to contain that she had to become this. A mangled thing of roots and chunks of dirt. 

It’s better this way, someone tells her in a foggy haze, she’s fighting them, a sloppy sluggish battle of desperation. Ava doesn’t know why but the memory lingers like a prolonged goodbye. A sort of awkward suspension holding her rooted to the spot like there’s more to it, a truth sitting in plain sight. 

[lillotte17]

One of my absolute favorite dialogues you can have with Astarion is after your Durge discovers that they're Bhaalspawn. (which is saying something bc he's got a lot of great dialogues tbh). He's been supportive of you up until now. Hells, he's even kind of into how much of a little freak you are if you're romancing him. But this? This is A Lot for him. His facial expressions are controlled. He chooses his words very carefully, not expressing a strong opinion of you resisting or submitting to your father's will.

You can tell he is already running the mental math in his head about how risky being with you is going to be going forward. He is very much just as freaked out about this as any of the "good aligned" companions. No harm in hedging his bets, though.

BUT if you choose the option to admit that you are scared, and you don't know how to fight back against someone as powerful as Bhaal, his whole demeanor shifts.

"You know, I didn't realize you and I were so alike. I- I felt paralyzed to do anything about Cazador for so many decades. I gave up on myself. I gave up on any hope of escape after a few lashes. Bhaal controls you in much the same way. I don't know how you can beat him, but I do know this; you must try. The half-life of a mind-addled slave is worse than death- don't become his. I wouldn't live another century as one for all the moonstones in Evereska."

Genuinely one of the most honest and introspective and vulnerable responses from him in the whole game. And the soft pleading desperate way he says, 'don't become his'??? I am feral. I am gnawing at the bars of my enclosure.

[vexic929]

that moment when you have ONE specific scene in your brain and absolutely nothing surrounding it and you want to write it but it's TOO SHORT to be anything but you can't figure out what comes before and after so you just have to sit there and let it live in your brain

[the-busy-ghost]

Me normally: Let people love what they love

Me, after a Test Match Special commentator expresses their belief that the new All Creatures Great and Small is somehow "better" than the 1978 version: This is pure insanity and TMS can no longer be trusted on anything, how can they even be trusted to know about cricket, do they have no TASTE

[nutklcker]

HI HI im so nervous to talk to my cool mutuals GAH u guys r so cool

you said you're doing art requests, can you draw bracken sitting under a comically large grow lamp on like those tacky beach chairs and a tanning sheet

This prompt was delightful to me and, as someone who loves plants and has grow lights in his bedroom, I FELT the pink lights in this image LOL

[showtoonzfan]

Honestly manifesting the show to go full dark joke with Alastor’s character because while I call Hazbin edgy for the sake of being edgy, I think it would be hilarious if Al is just a character who flat out says what’s on his mind, aka that being something absolutely horrible, since this is the same guy who got a kick out of the stock market crash and laughed at the fact that there were many orphans.

Like the idea of him being told to comfort Angel and then just say something like “well at least it’s not happening to me”- like in the sketch by Viv would honestly be funny. Him just either being honest about how he hates everyone around him or wants to exploit them, like….let him be an evil unapologetic sick bastard PLEASE Viv-

[unganseylike]

we need to bring back authors notes. for fic but also for formal writing. im working on my applications rn and i leave an incredible amount of comments throughout for both myself and person editing. most are not even questions theyre just like annotations of my own work "this technically isnt true heres what actually happened" "*explanation of how much my undergrad research PI sucked*" etc. sure these are things i should incorporate smoothly into the actual essay but also i think i should be able to say "A/N the preps will hate me for this!!!" etc in my personal statement

[landfilloftrash]

afternoon ponderings

[angeart]

would u and link like fanart of hhau? and if so what scene/moment would u two wanna see the most? hehe thanks :)

OH GOSH PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE. we'll go insane. we'll love you forever. please.

we'll be honestly happy with anything. we are obsessed and would die for any scene you feel like drawing!! if you do need suggestions though (and feel free to dismiss this one and do something else entirely), the one thing that came to my mind was bloodied grian returning to worried scar after the whole hunted bit. and just. them taking care of each other. so weak for that.

[bastiodon8]

i drew (and headcanoned some of) people's courtneys. too out of it to tag the specific ppl these courtlets come from so if you see your courtlet say hi i guess? wanted to post this since i love this piece so much and i love seeing how people interpret concepts.

and a bonus featuring my own courtlet. thank you.

[moshieee]

I have a hoard of snacks in my closet because too often I forget to eat dinner and I don't wanna get chased by the stairway demon for the effort to get food. (I don't like the dark It has EYES)

That's a mood. . .

Look I'm sorry friend but im going to ask that you start sending these type questions to my alt blog @moshieee-but-evil

As fun as it is to chat with you, this is an art blog and these types of asks don't really go anywhere

they're not really a question they're more like updates and sound like something you could just make your own post for...

Please understand this isn't me trying to be mean I'll still gladly talk to you over on that blog

[auroral-melody]

does anyone know of any other sandman/sandman universe/vertigo servers (that aren't dedicated to dreamling exclusively)? i'm sort of trying to reach into the bigger fandom to see if i've just been missing people who might like my extremely specific comics content

[discordiansamba]

respectfully if you guys could not tag other authors in the fandom to "work their magic stuff" on my ideas I would very much appreciate it.