#or if I should summarize more

[josouhenshin]

day 1, part 1

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Okay, as long as I’m dealing with a setback I might as well spin this into an opportunity to take some more detailed notes. Once more from the top:

Shinobu hazuki and his friend mizuki tachibana are moving in together ahead of their first college term. Their apartment is pretty small, but with just the two of them it should be fine, right?

While toiling away unpacking everything, shinobu comments that it’s kinda like their own private castle, and mizuki responds with a joke along the lines of, well, if this is a castle, then I guess that makes you the princess right? 

Shinobu has a funny gender moment and freaks out a bit, and mizuki doubles down. Well of course, he says, shinobu’s the cutesy one so it’s obvious. 

After some further complaining they get back to work unpacking. Shinobu comments that mizuki brought a mountain of boxes marked as clothes. Welp, no time like the present! Shinobu starts opening them up and a look of panic crosses mizuki’s face. 

"Whu- ho- hold on a second, shinobu!"

But it’s too late. The scent of women’s perfume emanates from the open box. Inside there’s a bunch of clothes.

“Those are for women, right..?” Shinobu wonders. He’s very confused about why his number one bestie would have a box of things like skirts and bras. 

“They’re for you,” mizuki explains. 

Shinobu freaks out. A mechanical thing to mention that really isn’t going to come through via text is that there’s a heart rate monitor for shinobu in the corner of the ui, and it speeds up or slows down based on various things. When it passes 100 bpm there’s a heartbeat sound effect that plays, and speeds up if it goes higher. This is one such time.

Mizuki continues. “Obviously you were always the cuter one.”

There’s an exchange that I believe is something like mizuki saying “haven’t we always been close enough that we could bathe together?” and shinobu saying “well that’s just something men do!!!” my impression is that overseas, communal bathing is generally more of a familial thing that we might see it as in the states. But I think the implication is that mizuki is implying something else. 

“Haha, just kidding! Your face got so red!” Mizuki says. “They’re actually mine.”

Shinobu replies, “Well yeah I know they’re yours! I’m asking why the hell you have them! Do you think I’m stupid?” despite lashing out, he seems to be calming down. The heartbeat fades away.

Shinobu continues demanding to know what’s going on and mizuki keeps repeating that they’re his clothes and getting increasingly insulting about it.

“But surely you don’t actually wear them,” Shinobu wonders.

“I do,” Mizuki says.

“Crossdressing is... a hobby of mine.”

The heartbeat thing goes fucking ballistic.

“Don’t tell my mom and everyone, okay?”

Shinobu continues demanding explanations and mizuki keeps repeating himself. He can’t believe it. Sure, ever since they were little mizuki’s particular androgynous charm was always popular with the girls, but even if he was pretty, he’s an all-around great athlete, and his personality is manly and passionate. And he always uses the most masculine first person pronoun “ore!”

“It’s- it’s surprising,” shinobu stammers.

“Yeah I guess it would be.”

Shinobu asks why he does it. Mizuki doesn’t really have an answer, but after further pressing settles on “well, it’s fun. turning into another self, or something like that.” he also suggests shinobu should try too!

Shinobu goes quiet for a while, but eventually agrees. And there begins the first day of shinobu’s adventures in the world of crossdressing. 

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[xxplastic-cubexx]

alternate apocalypse ending or something who the hcrist knows anymore

[lesbiancarat]

every time jun has gone back to China for activities I become more and more done with XCSS (Pledis China)... it's so clear they're incompetent and don't understand how the Chinese entertainment industry works 🙃

[gemharvest]

Might not be exactly what you asked for but PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE go into more depth about the bf and pico drawing with the kinto pet song lyrics 🙏🙏🙏🙏 it has haunted me in a good way and I will explode without more

UR MORE THAN FINE DWWW it's easier for me to ask for prompts but I LOVE ASKS IN GENERAL I like getting to ramble. Forever and always if you see me post something and you want me to elaborate on it/ have specific questions/ literally whatever PLEASE DON'T BE SCARED TO SEND AN ASK IN !!!

okay needed that out of the way first LOLLLLL

The like. Images I get in my head when I listen to this song drive me insane like this was just me putting it into one image but I could deadass do a full PMV if I had the time.

Obvi I prefer to draw in a more Funkin'-influenced style, but esp. with how Pico is drawn I hope it's clear I was leaning into the Pico's School side of things.

(continuing under a cut because I am about to Ramble)

I don't think I was consciously thinking abt it the other night BUT at least the first verse makes me think. Of the Love Conquers All version of Pico's School. An ideal ending; Cassandra is convinced not to carry out her plan, nobody dies, Pico certainly wouldn't be Going Through It. Maybe in this ideal ending they (Pico & BF) wouldn't have split. "In this world, we're friends forever".

I also imagine it as like.. basically how the art I did ended up being. They're just black lines on a white background. Faces obscured. Maybe with some visual effects that distort things too/ some pixelation whatever. I actually think I was planning to have some parts of that pixelated but forgot by the time I was home and could draw; might have been for the best but here's a version with a biit of what I'm talking abt.

They're in a void. Separate from the real world, but happy. Stuck in a loop of the happiest time of their lives (mostly thinking from Pico's perspective with that lol). Is that not better than having to continue on in a fucked reality?

Of course, that's not real. It's just an imaginary loop of "what if"s in Pico's mind. It's a world he built for Boyf.

In this world, Boyfriend is always following with Pico, always showing him kindness and always smiling. Pico's emotions are less readable; maybe in a proper PMV I'd give him his mouth too so he can show he is at least somewhat happy, but despite being the "leader" of the two, he is much more passive, reserved. They are always holding each other's hands.

Verse 2 would be the inverse (lol), signaled by the stronger beats kicking in. White lines on black background. It's no longer the ideal world, and instead the "real world". Real, but distorted by trauma. "Inside my code, you'll always be". The world Cass built for Pico.

The bit of instrumental between verses 2 & 3 would be the Real real world, going forward to when FNF would take place; Pico and Boyfriend reconnected, through less than ideal means, though reconnected nontheless.

We're back to black lines on white background, but everything's less distorted. There's more details too, the world not just being a hazy backdrop for Pico and Boyfriend to play around in, but real.

He's different from Pico's memories, obviously, drawn now in the FNF style fully. More confident, still stupid. He has Girlfriend now.

The first 2 lines of verse 3, his imagined worlds and the real world melt together. Mixed in ways that highlight a feeling of off-ness. Everything feels strange, distorted, unreal.

The last 2 lines it's just Pico and Boyfriend hanging out alone. "All that's left is me and you/Lots of fun that we can do". Boyfriend cheery as ever, while Pico is visibly nervous-- uncharacteristic for him but we don't see if Boyfriend notices.

The strong beat kicking in again sends us back to the imagined world. The good world. But things are wrong. The real world is slipping in, things are no longer stagnant; no longer perfect. Visual distortions/ glitches worsen.

Pico could delude himself when he hadn't known where Boyfriend was; now that he's back, his world warps. No longer under his control. He is not in the lead.

The first half of the outro Boyfriend is still mostly playing along, though still seems to be growing disinterested. Pico is noticably anxious, clearly seeing how the other is no longer like a puppy at his side. Boyfriend is pulling away. Why is he pulling away, when everything's "perfect"? Why is everything going wrong. "The world I built, designed for you".

The second half of the outro, Boyfriend is now actively pulling away. He no longer looks like the idealized, young Boyfriend. He's older, a stranger, he doesn't care for Pico anymore. Pico is older now too, desperately holding on to Boyfriend. Unwilling to let him go again, first in the real world and now in his mind. Boyfriend refuses to hold his hand but Pico still grips onto his arm. Their eyes finally become visible in the imagined world.

Pico's behavior mirrors Cassandra's involvement in the second verse, though unintentionally violent as opposed to her intentional violence. He's selfish, desperate to hold on to his world; to Boyfriend. He's hurting the imagined Boyfriend in the process, but that is second in his mind to him so desperately trying to avoid a second heartbreak. Anything to keep his world together, his peace. Without it, he just has the dark.

Beyond this screen, you cannot leave Inside my code, you'll always be Endless fun that we can do In a world I built for you

In the final instrumental and as the song fades out, Pico wakes up. He's shaken, disgusted by how he acted in his mind and feeling like he's nothing but an anchor to Boyfriend, holding him back. He can't keep clinging to this false reality, nor can he pretend he's doing any good by being in Boyfriend's life again. His mind is made up.

...

LOL I hope the way I summarized The Thoughts I get paints the picture I get in my mind. I've got terminal artist brain I am imagining AMVs to near everything I listen to I am not joking; had to take a break halfway through typing this to walk around a store and I was looping KATAMARI by femtanyl for like half of it imagining an edit in my head. I can imagine anything jpeg.

I wanna very much stress that all that above would have been filtered through Pico's mind. He's not actively hurting Boyfriend, but he's fucking terrified of doing so and he feels so fucking guilty for continuing to hold on to the past they had. I guess it wouldn't be apparent from what I described but he'd also feel guilty for still having feelings for him when the other has moved on and even has a girlfriend.

His world, once his perfect escape from the anguish of his reality, corrupts as he feels worse and worse over even entertaining the thoughts. Him deciding to forget his world and, in turn, go to cut off Boyfriend for the other's sake is not based on objective reality, but an act of self-sabotage that he convinces himself to be the best outcome for everybody.

^ Literally included him doing this shit in a part of that last fic I did you can tell this is something I find interesting exploring with him.

The tone of the song too just fucking.. it adds to the eeriness I'd want out of a proper PMV of this idea. The way it's clearly an homage to the IBM 7094 singing Daisy Bell; the voice and instrumentals just feel so unnerving. Sweet and innocent on the surface, but clearly holding bad intentions. Maybe not intentionally bad, maybe misguided good even, but they are not good nor sweet nor kind. I am talking about the song on it's own divorced from it being from KinitoPET what I describe here is just the feelings it gives me in regards to my favies.

Anyways uhhhh god I could go on for hours but I've been going off for long enough I'm sorry to anyone reading this who had to sit through my insanity. My head is now lighter with this information shared tho.. I guess in conclusion: I am definitely normal and neurotypical and can be trusted to listen to music and be into my games without creating the most devastating ideas known to man. xoxo

[prettymediocrewizard]

A quick sketch comic from a couple sessions ago when Wester was brought to a bath by a fellow party member to relax after a rough night.

[tabswrites]

Vaguely Summarized WIP Tag

Tagged by @talesofsorrowandofruin here!

Gently tagging: @cowboybrunch @space-writes @mysticstarlightduck @acertainmoshke @mister-writes @writingrosesonneptune

Rules: Summarize your WIP in 15 2-5 word bullet points (as if you were trying to summarize it in 15 seconds)

I’ll go ahead and do this for TFE because personally, I’d love to know what it’s about (outlining is fun). I may have gone too silly with this.

Emo man grows sadder every day

Victim of tyranny gives up on people, turns to the animal kingdom

You get angst, and you get angst! Everybody gets some aaaaaaangst!

“We all go a little mad sometimes.”

Irresponsible man adopts child to cope with feelings of loneliness

Women run the show and the men go to therapy

Gardening can be evil

Flashbacks are a special kind of magic

Mountain woman shows her affection through violence

Letter writing as a form of therapy

Local woman accidentally starts a cult

“Ah! Curse your sudden but inevitable betrayal!”

The “Holding Out for a Hero” scene in Shrek 2 but with bats instead of a giant cookie

The real hero is environmentalism

Everyone gets to admire the night sky

[svtskneecaps]

friends and fiends if this truly spells the Over for the qsmp i may let the brainworms that have been festering in me for MONTHS--A YEAR, EVEN--win.

i may summarize the goddamn fucking lore.

[the-greek-mythos-project]

The Greek Mythos Project: What We Accept Within Submissions

Hello everyone, it is once again Camila here and I am writing this post because I decided I should probably clarify things sooner than later. I know I and quite a few other lovely people can struggle with open barriers within things, especially in such a large and "imposing" project, so I decided to write down the general specifics of things to lessen everyone's anxiety. This can and will definitely be improved if we are given more information/questions/asked for clarification so feel free to check every once in a while or reach out if you don't see a specific question you have answered. This is once again here to promote better communication within things and break down this large project to more manageable things. So, let's get into it!

[Note: This post will go from the broader, more unspecific, topics to the smaller, more specific ones so feel free to scroll down or up as you please :)]

The Biggest Thing First! One Singular POV. This is something that I, Camila, want for the project and therefore, it will be the most enforced thing within here. Don't worry, though! We will be releasing a Second Work alongside this main project consisting of things that didn't quite fit into the original project, such as works that aren't exactly (or at all) one POV but still want to be recognized or OC pieces that are like reincarnations of various gods/mortals/characters which I'll get into later. So you work has a place with us, I promise you <3.

Anyway, back to the One Singular POV thing. It genuinely does not matter whether the piece is First Person, Second Person, Third Person, or something within those parameters as long as the setting, scene, thoughts, and work are being described in that one character's thoughts/experiences. A great example of this in Third Person is in the Heroes of Olympus by Rick Riordan, a popular YA Book Series centering around Greek Mythology in a Modern Setting told by their Demigod Children, where the narrative is in Third Person POV but it only ever follows whoever's POV it's in. Such as we do see the character's actual name and "he/she/they" instead of "I" but we're not privy to anything other than what the character is experiencing.

That is what I am asking for, and I am asking for this mostly for myself!) As we all may know by now, this project was created because I--Camila--took one look at my goal to rewrite the entirety of Greek Mythology in my search to learn more about the Greek Myths, was like "yeah... no," and then proceeded to make this public with the intent to bring out those niche writers, gain a community, make friends, and generally learn more about the various communities and ideas surrounding such a vast and deep thing such as Greek Mythology (remember, people not only know this across the globe, but across centuries. It's not just our ideas and the original texts, it's the Roman Empire's thoughts, the Rise of Christianity, all of our forefathers, and even those who we have read dissecting these things and creating academic papers or other works. It's just so interesting how much character and change and even how much influence various things have had on our modern perceptions). But, this is also a Project, this is also mine, and so I am very politely asking for it to be One POV of a Greek Mythological Character--However Niche They May Be--Only.

Thank you so much for understanding and, again, I will be hosting a Secondary Fic for all the things that don't quite fit under this Main Project but may still want to have the recognition/community that this comes with <3.

Note!! Because this post ended up being a little long and would be hard to properly organize going further, the rest of it will be comprised in reblogs <33

[thatonecrookedsmile]

More progress being made. I finished re-reading The Illusion of Living this past Friday. It's a nice book. 👍 This was the last of the Bendy books in this "marathon" that I'm doing which I had already read previously and now I'm rereading, meaning that I'm kind of up to date when it comes to rereading all the books that were released until December 2021. But the race is not over yet. Soon I'll start Fade To Black, and (technically) I'll finally be up to date.

Just to continue my chain of posting about the books I finished (at least, the main ones that I really wanted to read) here it is…something I did at the beginning of March, on the night when shit went down. (I hope you know what I'm talking about). I saw the tweets first hand, I was there! Right at the damn moment. And it was..something reading those tweets alright. If the image above doesn't show it, my mood that night and the next 1-2 days wasn't so… great. You might read this and think I'm exaggerating, but that night especially I, uuhhh, I didn't feel good! And this image (and maybe 2 more posts I made that night) are the results of that. (And to think that a week before this happened, I had finished rereading DCTL after a long time. Talk about better/worse timing than this)

At least, if you want the bright side of this, it's that even after that day, I decided to continue with my book marathon, and I don't regret it. I was down that day, but I wasn't out yet damn it!! and I'm still not. (I don't know if this sentence makes a lot of sense, but you get my point)

As a bonus, here's something I did the night I got to the part where Henry is first mentioned in the book (you can consider this as a representation of my reaction when he's first mentioned, both for when I read TIOL for the first time in 2021, as now in this rereading)

Feat. canon Henry design and my fanon design for him (I wanted to include him here + I still read this book with my fan-designs in mind)

[thedisablednaturalist]

Unfortunately all chatgpt is good for is interview/job application stuff which I think says a lot about the hiring process as a whole

[sillyfudgemonkeys]

Me, at my coworker: I finished both Kyoshi novels. Coworker: Uh oh. How you holding up? Me: I thinking about walking into traffic

[thedevilandhisbride]

how will we ever get the spark to wonder, question, and think deeply about art when someone says a prompt or two into a generator, and out comes a painting that doesnt mean anything, because nobody took the time to tell a story within it? how can anybody do that if the art has no meaning like with ai art? when it isnt meticulously crafted by the complex mind of a creative human?

you cant tell an ai to convey the hurt and betrayal of a mortal against their own hubris as they fall off of the high horse they pitched themselves upon the way that a human would, because ai isnt human. it will never be human. and to compare ai art to human art and call them equals is dehumanization, and it strips art of every power it has ever had across the whole of human history.

[toytulini]

trying to update my byf and feeling so profoundly like. dont wanna

[elletromil]

Also i was stuck on the next part of the Blue Dragons fic because like, i knew what i wanted to cover in the first chapter but i just didn't know how to like... Start the words flowing? And for like the past four days i was just starting to think about it but i wouldn't get words i'd just get like, images which isn't helpful

But then earlier today i agonized for like 15 minutes over the summary so that i could post the prologue on ao3 and got help from a friend refining what i had come up with and after that i sat down to watch tv but i alao found which notebook would be my blue dragons notebook and picked it up to make a note in it and then BAM, got inspired by the summary as to how that first chapter should be shaped!

I'm just a few sentences in because well, it's tv time, but also yay! I finally got a few more sentences! All thanks to me figuring out the summary!

[krys-loves-otome]

Creating a profile my obey me MC/ OC Miri and have now passed the 2500 word mark and I'm still not out of Season 1 OG Obey Me yet...

(for those not in the know, OG Obey me has 4 seasons currently and a sequel series that's in its second season with a third one on the distant horizon)

Fun times, guys!

[gibbearish]

are we really back to "oh you support (blank)? name ten people who (do/are) that right now or else youre lying for allyship points and everything you have to say should be disregarded". i thought we left that back in like. 2012 misogynist nerdbro culture