#INSTEAD ITS ANGSTY SORRY SOUNDWAVE

[soundwave-radioandbroadcast]

So uh...

may be over head just a smidge....

[enbyblades]

ok so my roommate and i were talking about starop bc i love dragging her into my bullshit...but also its her own fault for asking why i ship them jsdlafsf but anyway we came up with some good angsty content 

so anyway to be honest we were detailing a potential animatic jashdlasfjsf but it kinda led to us talking about the story potential of having this cross faction romance and all that like parallels between characters; theyre in a fight and somehow starscream winds up fighting against optimus and he fires a missile at him but misses a little too intentionally and megatron notices and like squints his eyes and gives starscream shit about it later of course bc hes suspicious and tells soundwave to keep a closer eye on him,,,, 

whereas ratchet, in a separate battle, starscream gets shot down by one of the other autobots and optimus just freezes and he wants to run to star and make sure hes ok and it shows on his face and his body language and ratchets pieced things together at this point, he knows Smthn is going on between those two, cuz hes perceptive and he just,, nods at optimus and turns the other way, off to help the others...he pretends he does not see it. 

and knockout knows, hes still a bitch but he and starscream have smthn of a mutual respect for one another, mostly bc breakdown acts as knockouts conscience ajsdhlsff, so while he teases star like “have fun with your boy toy, screamer? ‘,:)” he still like covers for him when megatron is wondering where he is and hes off with optimus. 

but the SPICY parts, so starscream kidnaps bumblebee and fucks him up a good deal, probably as a desperate attempt to get megatron off his back a little, and when optimus and maybe someone else arrives to save him, star grabs bee in a chokehold with his gun pointed at his head and optimus of course is horrified and trying to talk him down telling him he doesnt have to do this and wondering whY hes doing this, and starscream shoots bumblebee in the torso, not killing him but yknow, hes gonna be out for the count for a hot minute, and flees the scene 

so they dont see eachother for a while, they stop having their secret meetings bc optimus is hurt and starscream is in his own emotional turmoil over the situation. before optimus can figure out how he wants to handle the situation, he gets a complaint from fowler whos like “WHY is this goddamn jet ATTACKING random truckers???” bc starscream, ever so smooth, decided the best way to get ops attention was to. tackle him in alt mode apparently. ratchet gives him a look and says “looks like someones trying to get ur attention...” and optimus decides hell try to find star in their usual meeting place. ratchet of course is like, long suffering sigh “i cant stop you optimus...i just hope you know what youre doing. be careful.”

so they meet and starscream tries to act like everything is normal but of course optimus has to address the elephant in the room, and starscream is like “i thought we agreed to not talk about war and factions when we meet..” and optimus is like “starscream, you grievously injured bumblebee. you know why we have to talk about this” it becomes pretty heated, mostly bc starscream is explaining himself and is frustrated at the world and their situation and is ranting. he apologizes and clearly regrets what he did, and optimus, having the spark of a saint, forgives him tho hes still hurt. starscreams still VERY distressed though. they have This exchange:

“starscream...please. come back with me... you wont feel like you have to hurt my friends anymore. we wont have to sneak out in secret...”

“how many times do i have to tell you i CANT optimus! megatron would KILL me!” (he used to claim that he cant abandon this cause hes worked so hard for, but hes since come to realize the original ideas the decepticons were fighting for have been lost to megatrons batshittery.)

“we would protect you-”

“oh, like you protected CLIFFJUMPER?”

his eyes widen as he immediately realizes how royally hes just fucked up, and he can see it in optimus face that hes barely holding back a whole slew of hurt, disappointment, anger. it hurts twice as bad bc we all know WHO killed cliff, but also bc optimus no doubt has that leader complex that causes him to feel like cliffs death was his fault bc he couldnt lead them well enough to prevent it, and STAR knows this, and optimus Knows that star knows this, and its just..OOF. so optimus holds it in.

“o-optimus, i- im sorry, i didnt-”

“starscream....i cannot abandon my family. so you need to pick a side....and if it is not removed from the decepticons...i dont think it is healthy for us to keep this up.”

“optimus wAIT-”

but hes already transformed and is driving away. 

again time passes, i havent thought this part all the way thru yet, but eventually they meet again somehow and starscream apologizes (again) PROFUSELY, and optimus, in his infinite patience, forgives him again. they meet in their secret place, and its a pleasant normal meeting, but what optimus said is still very much an issue that needs to be addressed, and its lingering. starscream apologizes again for what he said about cliffjumper, and says smthn along the lines of “if anyone could protect me, not that i NEED protection, mind you......id trust you to be able to.”

“then come back with me...”

he looks conflicted. he wants to go so bad, but....

“we’ll see.” 

they kiss and part ways. optimus drives off, but when starscream turns around hes face to face with lazerbeak. soundwave comes out of his hiding place.

“scrap...”

he doesnt bother trying to come up with a lie. he knows it wont get him anywhere. soundwave heard enough, and no doubt recorded it. so instead he pleads with soundwave not to say anything. he promises he wont betray the decepticon cause, he hasnt given the autobots any information and he doesnt plan to, just PLEASE dont say anything. 

soundwave doesnt say a word. he opens a groundbridge and gestures for starscream to walk through first. 

and the next part also isnt totally fleshed out but i imagine he doesnt feel like he has much of a choice, so he walks through and has to face whatever megatron has in store for him unless he manages to escape somehow. whether he gets out on his own volition or is thrown off the ship by megatron is still up in the air, but the ensuing fallout of soundwave finding out and telling megs is what finally pushes starscream to abandon the decepticons for good. 

ANYWAY. YEA. ANGST.

[wickedgamesoyaoya]

Inside of the penthouse flat, melodic laughter weaved into the soundwaves exiting the small smart home speaker. Sakusa had not known what genre of music was appropriate, and after seeking advice from your wiser best friend, he settled on a classical arrangement that came highly recommended. Despite the fact your laughter had arose due to his kind gesture, the blend of the two sounds were the personification of heaven.

“I’m sorry, gorgeous. I can’t help it! It’s just so… you.” Between the heavy laughter that had surged upon your chest and your attempts to silence the noise with your hand, the explanation was barely coherent.

“It is for certain… situations. I am not making a comment on your breath, y/n.” The black haired male was seconds from pouting, the pet names were something he could become accustomed to. But the need to express your every thought on social media? Particularly when it involved what he deemed a loving gesture? That was a conversation waiting to be had.

“Yes, I know. For whenever I kiss Ko, right? Ah, I truly wonder how you will put up with me and all the germs that follow.” As the humour began to lose its appeal, a goofy grin had remained attached to your lips. At some point during your dramatic display, your knees had caved in, prompting you to crumble onto the furry carpet that was positioned in the center of the quaint living-room. Brushing your fingers through the fluffy fibers, you allowed your weight to transfer directly onto the embellishment, prompting your y/h/c hair to gracefully spill around you.

“I don’t care about your germs; I care about other people’s germs.” Discussing germs was a very serious matter to him, but fortunately for you, the sight of you sprawled across the carpet had his thoughts wandering onto something…less pg-13. It had only been half an hour since you arrived, and your presence had already impacted him in such a perverse manner. Who was he? Atsumu Miya?! “Also, will you please get off the ground?” He commanded his dark irises to focus on anything but you, but it was quite clear that when it came to you, self-control was something he severely lacked. The ornaments that embellished the apartment paled in comparison to you.

“Come make me.” The invitation was purred out in an overly seductive tone as you elevated your torso, propping yourself up on your elbows. Toying with your boyfriend was one of your newfound hobbies, outside of the one kiss he initiated, when it came to physical affection, he would usually shy away from you. And you adored watching the blood spiraling in his pale cheeks.

“No. I know what you are plotting, I refuse.” With a response as hallow as his, how could you have known he was seconds from caving in. “Come, let’s eat.”

Rolling your eyes, you bitterly accepted your defeat.

“I don’t know what tastes better, you or this.” The flirtatious comment had earned you an artificial sigh from the boy sat directly across from you. He appreciated the compliments on his cooking, particularly because it had taken him five test runs before creating something editable – a detail you did not need to know – but did you have to make everything sexual?

After consuming another bite, unconsciously you groaned at the satisfaction washing over you due to the outburst of flavour blessings your taste buds. Sakusa immediately choked on the water that was halfway down his throat when you emitted the damn noise that stunned him.

“You have lost your rights to dinner. Go. We’re watching a movie now.” Gently pressing a napkin against his mouth, he coughed due to the inflammation in his esophagus. He did not dare to catch your gaze, knowing damn well if he did it would be game over. Instead, he dipped his chin, allowing his curls to conceal his irises.

“I’m sorry. I promise I won’t do it again.” Batting your mascara coated eyelids innocently, you jutted your bottom lip into an exaggerated pout. But you wondered if the expression would even work – mimicking a cute animal with a scar traced against your cheek? Perhaps not the smartest idea. Doubt brought you to immediately dismantle the puppy-dog imitation.

The insecurity that consumed you could not be disguised behind a smile. Within seconds, Sakusa had recognized what was transpiring inside that beautiful head of yours. Rather than attempting to sooth you with his words, he lowered the napkin within his grasp onto the table then minimized the distance between you. Resting one hand on the back of your chair, he brushed his lips against your skin, just below the healing laceration. The simple gesture had drained the anxiety that had haunted you.

“You missed.” Your breath tickled his skin as he fought off the smile threatening to form at his lips.

“You are impossible.”

Once the message was delivered, you tossed the device aside then returned your complete attention to the sleeping figure beside you. Hesitantly, you extended an arm, then lightly ushered aside the curly tresses from his forehead to reveal his moles. How in the world did you get so lucky? Maybe it was worth it – all the heartache and pain, if it meant that you would find your soulmate. Not that you would be actively sending out a thank you card to Kuroo or his bizarre girlfriend anytime soon. 

Sakusa stirred under your gentle touch, his heavy eyes struggling to peel open. His vigorous cleaning schedule may have accidentally worn him out.

“It’s okay. Stay asleep. I’ll be here. Today, tomorrow… forever.”

Forever – a word that is carelessly thrown around by many, and one that rarely outlives a few months, or years. But in that moment, forever truly meant for all eternity.

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wholesome carolclea bonding

((uploaded like five weeks later rip)) 11/12/17 bythepowerof4 heyy hi !! random but i was runnin around all angsty about the current sitch when i was suddenly like, oh my god, carolyn is also in the current sitch!! so i just wanted to check in, see how youre doing yeah? ask if you need any like. body tips lmao ivorycarillon it is certainly improving, all things considered. i’ve mostly adjusted - if you count earlier today when one of your professors called on me and instead of saying anything coherent I just screamed. involuntarily, but still.

bythepowerof4 oh yeah that happens sometimes. darn vocal cords lmao jk thats good though!! im sorry you got. kind of a bum deal :/ but you seem way put together and on top of it so thats good!!! ivorycarillon bum deal? I’m not quite familiar with the terminology but I think I grasp your meaning; in any case, I think this was good for me. bythepowerof4 oh yeah bum is bad ivorycarillon I, uh, have missed being “alive”. or so I thought. now I think I just thought having a body would make me feel better, but I miss the way things were. I see bythepowerof4 oh well yeah thats kinda what im sorry for. like. fucking up your big chance at Life and Corporeality (sp??) cause it probably wouldve been more fun in someone elses body but that sounds weird and what if-y and if you feel better then thats that and its awesome!! ivorycarillon don’t be sorry. it’s been interesting, and would have probably been boring otherwise. I’m not sure how to say this without coming off strange, so I’ll just say it?? but you have a lovely body. just takes some getting used to. bythepowerof4 oh!! oh thats not strange at all dw thats super nice!! and so do you its very floaty and ethereal and stuff which is cool its a good look ivorycarillon thank you! bythepowerof4 you're welcome !! i dont think thats right though! i dont think anyone here coulda been boring lmao. i might've kinda liked a little boring, just for a change yeah? but it wasn't gonna happen i guess ivorycarillon that makes sense. sometimes it’s hard being... special, for lack of a better word. and you’re right? everyone here has something unique about them. bythepowerof4 yeah!! its like not special is the actual specialty, a real rare commodity lmao. no boring to be found bythepowerof4 certainly nothing boring about navigating the great wide world of soundwave manipulation and also like, ghost pants. i still don't get how that works tbqh ivorycarillon to be fair neither do I I’m sure you can relate to this but being a spirit didn’t come with an instructions manual, I’ve been figuring it out as I go along since day onez bythepowerof4 that sucks. they got an instructions manual in beetlejuice. more blatant lies from hollywood, sigh!! but yeah trying to figure it all out has been like, the Hardest fucking yakka right? you make it look easy lmao big props big respect to you im like so genuinely impressed?? ivorycarillon wow? that means a lot. I’m quite glad that it looks easier than it is, aha. perhaps because I did not know you too well before this switching incident, but I didn’t peg you as the kind of person unhappy with themself and their... specialness bythepowerof4 oh well im not!! i just know its a lot to deal with i never said unhappy ivorycarillon oh, my misunderstanding. I thought we had that in common. bythepowerof4 !!! i mean its not great, really. but im not like. angst angst all the time bad. cause im still normal its just a hiccup are you like? angst angst all the time bad? or is that a weird question thats a weird question ivorycarillon it’s not a weird question bythepowerof4 are you sure it seems weird ivorycarillon it didn’t seem weird to me. and to answer it, I’m not upset all the time. I was more upset when I first died and had no clue what to do with myself. ivorycarillon more recently I only get upset when I start to think that I may have missed out on living a normal life. not this still going to school and socializing and whatnot. don’t you wonder what may have happened if you were just normal? bythepowerof4 well yeah sometimes. but i try not to cause im gonna be normal again its all temporary. all of this which probably isn't nice to hear in your circumstances but you know even if its not a normal life you're gonna have a good one!! interesting you know!! better than boring remember!! you can do all the normal stuff you want any time ivorycarillon you know, you’re right. I think I’ve been looking at things with the wrong perspective. bythepowerof4 i mean, im not trying to tell you how to run your afterlife though haha bythepowerof4 but if there's any normal life stuff you wanna do, lets just go do it right? ivorycarillon yeah! yes. maybe we should do something together. not sure if it would be before or after this ordeal, but still. bythepowerof4 that depends! have you gotten any better at the whole walking thing? cause if so i reckon you can walk those sick as legs down to the quad, where i reckon i could be waiting, with like a whole vending machines worth of snacks held very solidly in my arms, cause im getting better at that, and then you can say hi and i'll be like oh shit its carolyn hey carolyn and all the snacks fall right through me cause i got distracted and we have a good laugh about it and then enjoy both the snacks and the nice sunny day and stuff ivorycarillon I would like that very much :-)