#or checking tumblr without actually engaging with anything

[across-stars]

what is it about procrastination that completly changes your conception of time...I feel as if something was ages ago, but it was actually just yesterday

...maybe it’s just the procrastinating by doomscrolling

[toastling]

If you need money, unsolicited messages in a stranger's inbox aren't going to help you. That's what bots do. I don't even know you. I'm broke as hell and just trying to keep my head down. Please leave me alone. I don't want to have to close my inbox but god damn it I'm not exactly being given many options here. Like, who do you think you are, the DNC? People throw those away as junk mail too, you know.

[intrinsicepiphany]

Okay Tumblr Let's chat:

I have a theory about Charlie and Vaggie's relationship status and I've been mentioning it on other peoples rambles so I figured I might as well post it myself.

Sooooo my theory is that Charlie and Vaggie cant actually officially get engaged or anything because of Charlie's status as Princess of Hell.

Now hear me out... Ready...?

In most Monarchies members of the royal family can't get engaged or married without the permission of the Ruling Monarch. This goes double for the Heir.

So Charlie is obviously Heir Apparent. She is also the 3rd strongest being in hell according to Viv's power rankings. Which makes sense being that she was literally born to rule hell (not to mention the whole Nephilim thing)

The Goetia have been shown to be very rule and class driven. Overly structured in their hierarchy which is why Stolas was forced into an arranged marriage. In fact from the way Striker and Blitz talk the hellborns in general are very class structured in a pseudo feudal system with the goetia as local nobles, the sins as regional lords, and the Morningstars as the over all Ruling Monarchs.

With this structure that could mean that for Charlie's engagement to be formally recognized one of her parents would most likely have to formally approve of the couple which means her parents being checked out has limited her ability to progress their relationship status beyond girlfriends.

[dreamlifebunny]

bunny's ✨digital detox✨ + manifestation challenge!

hi friends! i've decided to do a little "dopamine detox" so that i can become more present in my day-to-day, connect with myself and my passions, and apply the law. instead of leaving you without any posts, i thought i would turn this short absence of mine into a challenge so that you can join me if you're interested! this is going to be a very simple challenge that mostly focuses on regaining joy in your life, but i hope it can bring you inspiration and peace.

purpose of challenge: to help your brain enjoy simple things again and fill your life with more joy, to get off of social media and apply the law, and to manifest anything you desire. as you can see, this is mostly a challenge to reconnect with ourselves and what brings us joy, but manifestation is the added bonus of this challenge!

step one:

delete or hide apps on your phone or laptop that involve mindless stimulation. for me, this includes tumblr, social media, checking things that give me notifications like my email, etc. normally, tumblr wouldn't be included in this because i use it for learning about the law, but part of this challenge is about getting offline and actually applying the law, so for now i will be deleting it.

step two:

make a list of activities that bring you joy that don't involve mindless stimulation. here are some ideas of things that i like to do if you're having trouble coming up with your own list:

scripting my dream life and coming up with cute scenarios in my head

writing a letter to a friend and decorating it with my own art or stickers

reading a fiction book and getting lost in the story

reading a non-fiction book to learn things about my passions and interests

singing and playing instruments

journaling or filling out writing prompts

going for bike rides or long walks with music

playing fun video games, but not for hours on end like i normally would heh

step three:

decide what you are going to manifest and choose your favourite methods to fulfill yourself! remember, this challenge is about connecting with yourself and what you love, so pick the methods that make you smile. i really enjoy daydreaming about my desires and feeling every emotion in my body that comes up and knowing that my desire is real.

REMEMBER: this challenge is primarily about doing a digital detox to give our brains more happiness. the main goal isn't to manifest, but it is SO much easier to manifest when our brains aren't constantly stimulated and consuming information. our desires manifesting is an added bonus for this challenge!

step four:

as you engage with your life and connect with awareness (who you are at your core) and as you enjoy activities that bring you joy, remind yourself in whatever way feels best to you that you have all of your desires, and that this extra space you're giving your brain is allowing more space for your lovely desires to show up in your life

step five:

report back during the end of any three-day period from when you start this challenge with your results! results could include how you feel, what you learned about yourself, what you manifested or realized about your manifestation, how your days looked without constantly stimulation, or anything you wish to share!

important note:

detoxing from constant stimulation is a HARD THING TO DO! they design apps to make us addicted, and your need for constant stimulation is not your fault. if at any point this challenge brings up feelings of shame or struggle due to the addiction of constant stimulation, make sure you are compassionate and loving to yourself; you're doing a wonderful thing as a gift to yourself and are a good person who is doing something very tricky, and you should be proud that you are even giving it a try. you are strong and badass and deserve the world and all of your desires! if at any point you need to dip out of this challenge, make sure to pat yourself on the back and thank yourself for trying it and know that you can always do it again in the future if you want to c:

love you friends! i am so excited to see the results of this challenge. i am proud of you, i am inspired by you, and i can't wait to see you all soon! 🥰

lots of love, bunny 💕

[arcielee]

Hey everyone, I know it's a dark time in the fandom right now and I am only going to speak on this once.

To begin: there was a period of time where I had some bigger blogs blocked due to a misunderstanding that escalated. I recently learned that both sides were being fed a villainous narrative over something that I did not do. It became this weird Us vs Them ordeal.

I tried to pull away. I blocked a lot of blogs to try and remove myself from the HotD space.

I was very heartbroken. Tumblr was my little nerdy escape that allowed me to swoon over my beloved fictional characters and find kindred spirits who shared the same sentiment. I found myself hating to check my notifications, seeing the hateful anons and DMs, and seeing my mutuals receiving the same grief for publicly engaging with me.

It was awful.

After some time, blogs began to reach out and share what had been said about me, telling me about the rumors. It gave me clarity on what had happened. I see the fierce loyalty a lot of us posses and if I had been told these same horrible things, I probably would have responded in a similar way.

I was grateful for the honesty and I hold no animosity towards anyone who believed what was said. I do not care about the cruel things spread or the name calling, I just felt relieved that I could speak my truth and slowly become part of the community that I loved. I wanted to forgive and just move forward.

Then I found out that I had been doxxed.

They found my legal name and my private IG. They shared it without my permission. I feel fortunate that this group did not do anything with the information shared, but I also do not know if it was shared outside of this chat.

Tumblr is a silly hellsite that allowed me to learn the art of a Reader inserts, to brainstorm story ideas with my mutuals, to reblog nifty gifsets and fanart. But this is something I keep separate my from actual IRL, so learning about this felt like a violation.

I know we are all hurting. The point of this post is a reminder to stay safe, to set up your two-step authenticator and to please keep yourselves protected.

Like I said: I will not speak on this again. If you stay, please know my blog is a safe place where I do not tolerate bigotry of any means.

My DMs and my anons are open, always. 💜

[softberrybi]

A quick note...

Hello from your local AuDHD switch verse bisexual. I'm on this corner of the internet to have fun and spiral into whatever current hyperfixation has me by the throat.

Minors, please don't interact. My blog is for people 18+. I'm a big advocate for sex education and curiosity, and my particular Tumblr page just isn't the space for that. If you're looking for an age appropriate resource, I highly recommend checking out Scarleteen. It's a wonderful site dedicated to providing medically accurate and queer inclusive information about relationships, sex, identity, and so on.

My asks and messages are open. Wanna be friends??? Feel free to message me any timmmmme. If you’re looking to be flirty, please be respectful. Opening with nudes or demanding nudes or sexting is just not the move, okay? I've been involved in the kink community for many years and have met so many wonderful people, so my tolerance is very low for people who hide behind kink as an excuse to be shitty. Also, I have a queue going, so posts appearing doesn’t mean I’m actually online.

Please note I’m wary of porn blogs with no other content, and I hear the Jaws theme song in my head whenever I get one word messages in my inbox because those “hey” or “hi” openers tends to escalate quickly without my consent. Again, be chill. If I get a weird vibe at all, the block button and I are besties.

Be a kind person, okay? Transphobes, terfs, swerfs, antifeminists, racists, ableists, fatphobes, bigoted jerks DNI. Honestly, get well soon and cut that shit out.

If I ever accidentally interact with something I shouldn’t or tag something in a way that doesn’t feel good, please let me know so I can edit or delete immediately. I respect you.

🌶️ spicy info under the cut 🌶️

Being a verse switch is so fun, okay? I'm attracted to people regardless of gender, and it's just so fun to make people feel good.

I use the traffic light system (💚💛🛑) for consent check-ins. Here is my Yes/No list for both giving and receiving unless otherwise specified:

Yes - praise/worship, puppy play, edging/denial, overstimulation, biting/marking, puppy play, teratophilia rp, impact play (just not face slapping/hitting), gfd, daddy/mommy kink (just no age play or incest rp), strap play / pegging, breeding kink

I think it’s also worth mentioning that there are types of play that I’m happy to engage in even if I’m not personally turned on by them. Examples include foot fetish / nylon fetish play and tickling (as long as I’m not the one getting tickled; that’s a hard no for me)

Sometimes - I don’t really post about any of these on this blog, and if I do, I will be sure to tag those posts. I sometimes enjoy objectification, degradation, humiliation, light CNC, helping a partner enjoy some light CBT, e-stim, watersports (especially during primal/possessive play)

No thanks - Heavy CNC that involves genuine fear play, scat, age play, race play, pro-ED anything, misgendering/detrans, vore, gore (some blood is okay, but gore makes me feel faint), intox/chem, permanent harm/scarring, incest rp

Obvious no (and instant report and block) to actual assault or endangering anyone who can’t consent (e.g. anything to do with minors, bestiality, and so on)

This should go without saying, but if you have a partner / partners who will be hurt by you playing with someone else, please don’t flirt or try to play with me. I’m only down to play with folks engaging in ENM or single folks, okay? Be nice to your partner(s).

Also, since this has been coming up in my asks and dms quite a bit, I’m not looking for a sugar situation. I will just delete the ask/message 🤷‍♀️ Thanks!

[thealogie]

Hey Thea! Two weeks not checking the tinhat side of GO tumblr and my quality of life has seriously improved! Just wanted to use your platform to give this message to those who still can't quit hate reading of the wife haters.

Guys, you won't miss anything interesting or groundbreaking if you stop checking the crazies! I know because I thought that I should be on top of fandom developments even if I find them laughable or deeply unpleasant. No. I don't need that and you don't really need that too. Conspiracy and hate mongering is not news and they don't represent the state of the fandom, drop the nasty thing and wash your hands.

The fascination with studying creepy people's behavior I understand better, but if you're not a professional psychiatrist you don't really need that as well (and if you are, my condolences, at least do a paper on this material, get some dividends). Believe me, you're gonna feel better when you stop thinking about the tinhats' ridiculous theories and getting angered by their hate speech and sophistry. I've been there! Life is much better on the other side, believe me. Just stop, block and forget about them. Dixi.

Thank you 🫡 after being the main proponent of the block/ignore strategy I have to say they’ve reached heights where I periodically have to be like “it’s actually not ok” but I endorse doing so without looking at or engaging with what they say lol.

[seven-gill]

🦈

Hullo! I’m seven-gill (also written as 7gill). If you want, you can call me Seven or Sev. I’m also known as MelonHarvest on DeviantArt (https://www.deviantart.com/melonharvest). You can use whatever pronouns you want. 

What’s a seven-gill? It’s a type of shark! Although I’m specifically referring to the Broadnose sevengill shark (Notorynchus cepedianus).

This blog is primarily focused on my artwork, so (at the time of me typing this) I don’t really plan on reblogging anything unless I really want to share it. If you wanna see stuff I think is cool, check out my likes page. 

I post whatever, whenever, but as of now my primary output is fanart for the young-adult fantasy series Wings of Fire by Tui T. Sutherland.  I've been a fan of it for over 10 years, but admittedly I've grown out of the actual books themselves (I stopped after The Poison Jungle). Even if I don't read them anymore, I love to draw the characters anyway! It's fun :)

I’m also really into marine life and the ocean in general. Specifically the weirder, deeper residents. I’m actually curating a list of interesting aquatic (or semi-aquatic) organisms, so if there’s one you’d like to share, PLEASE DO!!! I want to see them so badly, even if it’s already on my list (currently 300+ entries strong). I’d type out my other interests, but you can probably gauge them from my posts/likes. 

As a disclaimer, I am over 18 years old. I’d probably rate this blog PG13 because I may engage with posts featuring minor gore or non-sexualized nudity. If my artwork/posts ever feature any content of that nature I will provide a generous warning*, although I can assure you I will never post or like anything explicit (ie. pornography, graphic violence, etc..).  I will not tolerate that here. My blog and likes are pretty tame and mostly PG. I bring this up because I’m aware some of my followers are minors, and I tend to post fanart for a series aimed at tweens and teens. 

*This does not apply to my likes since I can’t provide a warning with each post. As an assurance, I very rarely like anything that features anything gross or risque. With that said, if any of that bothers you, proceed with caution.

Art 

I use Autodesk Sketchbook and Procreate, plus an iPad and apple pencil to create my digital art. For traditional art I tend to go with acrylic paint or a good ol’ fashioned pencil. Whatever I feel like. 

I do not do requests, commissions, or art trades at this time. HOWEVER, there’s a possibility that will change in the future. I will update this if that happens. 

Please don’t repost my artwork to other platforms without my permission, thank you! I’ll probably say yes anyway. If you must, please remember to credit it to my Tumblr or DA account. 

For my WoF art, I tend to favor a cartoonish style influenced by the 2D works of Disney/Dreamworks and AnimatedWings- a fan organized unofficial Wings of Fire animation project. Of course, I add my own flair. It’s an exaggerated, streamlined, expressive look that I find highly appealing, and I think it fits the anthropomorphic characterization of the dragons. I try to put emphasis on shapes, faces, colors, and silhouettes to keep the characters interesting and varied. I don’t always follow canon and may exaggerate characteristics with my own headcanons. I will admit that sometimes I can fall into an uncanny valley where the dragons look too human in the face, but I try to avoid that. I’m learning. Since I’m not animating these designs, I allow the dragons to be a little more complicated and detailed. 

You are welcome to use/reference my designs for your own work. I’ve definitely taken my fair share of inspiration from others, especially AnimatedWings. 

*** 

Cya!

[copperbadge]

I know that it’s been a Very Long Time but do you ever get terribly nostalgic for old/less active fandoms? I confess I recently came back to tumblr and saw that I followed you. I was like, of course Sam storyteller, the Bucky guy. But then I got a hankering for my older and dearer by far love Ianto Jones and went back to reread some of the greatest hits and I remembered. You are not the Loki guy. You are the Ianto guy, to me, and I can’t believe I forgot that. I miss that fandom so much it was so fucking. Toxic. The Gwen bashing, I simply cannot romanticize it in good conscience. But the fic quality and diversity was, dare I say it, nearly unparalleled (in my heart). Like when it hit it really hit you know? A golden age of trashy sci fi indeed. I miss my dead welsh son. Sorry to ramble in your ask box about the dubious old days

Anon, I am so sorry, a bunch of my asks got pushed way down in the inbox and then I forgot they were there, so apologies this is MONTHS late in getting posted.

I, eh, I don't really get nostalgic for old fandoms. Usually I leave them for a reason, but even if I just drift away, my experience of a fandom is pretty fundamentally different from most because of my higher profile. There are things I can't do or say in a fandom that other people could, and there are things that happen to me outside of my control. They're not even necessarily bad things, just stuff like...I'll write a fic in a new fandom, and people from my previous fandom will start engaging with the canon because I did. So often, rather than just falling away from a fandom, I'll leave a fandom and drag a bunch of people with me. They might not even leave the older fandom, but they come along to the new one too.

And often the wanks that pull people in without their consent simply don't touch me because there's a portion of fandom that is either scared of me (or my readers) or just doesn't want anything to do with me. I can't determine which.

Torchwood's a pretty good case in point -- the Gwen bashing was extreme. I wasn't a fan of Gwen but what I saw from the antigwenallies was really, really gross. Still, even though I wrote fic about Gwen and engaged in meta around her presence in the show, I avoided them and thus had exactly one interaction with them ever, which was when they posted up a fic of mine as "anti-Gwen" and I asked them to remove it and never recc anything of mine again. They did, and that was the end of that. Nobody ever came to my posts to attack her or me. Likewise, there was one really, really aggressive anti-Ianto wanker, but she never engaged with me or even as far as I know talked about me, despite the fact I was a huge Ianto fan and wrote a lot of fic about him. I really hated the shit she said, but I also didn't see any value in arguing, so I left her alone and she left me alone. (I won't name her because I checked up on her a few years ago and it turns out she was struggling with serious mental health issues that she'd gotten a lot of help for, and felt really terrible about the things she'd done, so I'm actually quite proud of her. But if you know you know.)

I also just...have a bad memory, so I often don't remember what happened in a fandom, or even sometimes that I was in a fandom. Most of the memories I do have are either vaguely warm and friendly, or "avoid this fandom/person at all costs" based in a negative interaction (which I sometimes don't remember the details of).

So yeah...I mean, Torchwood ended pretty terribly so I don't miss it in part because I try not to think about it. Generally if I have a good time in a fandom and then leave it, it's because I simply said all I had to say there. But I'm usually looking forward, not back, just because the past is a bit of a fog bank for me, most of the time.

[momentsofhyuka]

make this feel like home

!!! tumblr mobile messed up the formatting of this version for me so please check the final work out HERE !!! ty <3

summary:

Sure you and Yeonjun had always been sort of a package deal. You became friends at a young age, attended all the same schools, and now attended the same college. It had been great coming into college with a best friend already and you easily found a friend group you both got along with.

You never expected said friend group to insinuate that Yeonjun could possibly like you. It just didn’t make sense.

or: your classic oblivious childhood best friends to lovers

genre: childhood friends to lovers, angst with a happy ending, misunderstandings, oblivious, college

warnings: angst, curse words, crying, party setting, drinking, throwing up, misunderstandings

notes: first post kinda nervous … anyways hope at least one person enjoys this !! Let me know what you think <3

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Choi Yeonjun has always reminded you of home. Growing up as neighbors you had become fast friends, something that had never changed. Here you were years later, still best friends with him, as you both attended the latest party on campus.

You were never much of a partier, preferring to hang out with friends somewhere you could actually hold a conversation without screaming. Yeonjun on the other hand had quickly taken to the party scene your first year in college and still liked to go even now in your senior year.

The few parties you went to were after weeks of begging from Yeonjun to go with him. You don’t know why he even bothered to ask you so much, he knew you could never say no to him.

That’s how you found yourself crammed on a shitty couch with some of your friends, waiting for Yeonjun to come back with your drinks, on what could have been a peaceful Friday night spent catching up on your favorite show. You sighed trying to get a little more comfortable on the couch smiling back at Kai’s apologetic grimace.

“I would say i’m surprised you’re here, but Yeonjun has been looking forward to this party for way too long. I knew he’d convince you to come,” started Taehyun motioning towards you. The others murmured their agreements at the statement. Seems like the whole world knew just how wrapped around his finger Yeonjun has you.

“It’s easier to come to these things than to deal with his constant whining,” you attempted to defend yourself, not sure why you suddenly felt a little offended. They hadn’t really said anything that wasn’t true.

Sensing the change in your mood the others tried to steer the conversation away but Soobin didn’t get the hint.

“I mean let’s be honest, if you gave him a firm no he would cancel everything and go spend time with you anyways,” Soobin reasoned in an attempt to even out the statements from earlier.

You laughed, giving a small “Yeah right,” in response and were surprised to be met with dumbfounded stares. Suddenly they were all more engaged in this conversation than before.

“He’s not kidding. Yeonjun would literally do anything you asked it’s kind of funny to watch him following you around like a puppy,” continued Beomgyu, the rest of the guys all nodding in agreement.

“A love sick puppy,” added Kai, giggling into his cup. Taehyun roughly elbowed him hissing what sounded like a “shut up, idiot.”

You simply continued to stare at them in confusion.

Sure you and Yeonjun had always been sort of a package deal. You became friends at a young age, attended all the same schools, and now attended the same college. It had been great coming into college with a best friend already and you easily found a friend group you both got along with.

You never expected said friend group to insinuate that Yeonjun could possibly like you. It just didn’t make sense.

All your life it’s always been you and Yeonjun as the duo, one never really without the other. With this, however, always came the assumption that you had a major crush on Yeonjun or something. Some people had even gone as far as to insinuate that Yeonjun put up with you because he was nice or that he took pity on you. In most peoples heads, it was always you following the bright star that was Yeonjun who was always just slightly out of your orbit.

(Yeonjun and the guys were not big fans of these people, constantly defending you much to your embarassment.)

This is why the guys statements caught you so off guard. In your time as friends you had never heard the opposite. Yeonjun chasing after you? Yeonjun doing whatever you asked? Yeonjun having a crush on you?

It simply wasn’t conceivable. You knew you and Yeonjun were equals in the friendship despite what so many thought but you also knew it was never anything more than friendship.

Settled by this train of thought you decided that they had to be joking or trying to prank you, and gave another awkward laugh. “That’s funny. You always hear people saying I like him not the other way around. Good one guys,” you continued trying to show them that whatever it is they were trying to accomplish was not working.

You watched as they glanced at each other in disbelief. Scanning the room briefly and concluding that Yeonjun was still in the kitchen somewhere, Soobin risked continuing the conversation. “We really aren’t kidding. Look we probably shouldn’t be telling you this but it’s kind of tiring watching you both dance around the obvious feelings there,” he replied, no hint of humor on his face.

You sputtered a bit and tried to defend yourself against these claims. All the times anyone had ever even hinted at you liking Yeonjun had ended with the guys rushing to your defense, yet here they were saying the exact same thing. Not only that, but they were adding a new layer of Yeonjun liking you back.

“C’mon, you’re like one of the most perceptive people I know. I could’ve sworn you knew he liked you and just didn’t know what to do about it. He’s the oblivious one,” Taehyun cut your weak defense off with.

“Yeah, he’s always being dramatic wondering if ‘he’s fated to watch you end up with someone else and be stuck loving you forever’ or some sappy shit like that,” tacked on Beomgyu doing a poor impression of Yeonjuns voice.

“Love?!” you finally got out having been unable to even give a response through your sheer shock.

Beomgyu’s eyes widened in realization of what he said but before anyone could chime in and correct the situation Yeonjun finally came back, drinks in hand.

You felt yourself blushing and mentally cursed the guys for putting any of these thoughts into your head. You had come to terms a long, long time ago that you and Yeonjun would always be best friends. You were okay with that. You beat back any non-platonic feelings that had crept up and eventually got so good at it, that you didn’t even have to worry about liking him.

Because you totally didn’t. No way. Doesn’t matter what the guys say they’re definitely wrong.

Despite this you still found yourself thinking about what they had just said.

Aside from you, they did know Yeonjun best and if there’s something he wasn’t telling you, (like the fact he apparently is harboring a huge crush on you), he would definitely tell one if not all of them. You paused at this thought, suppressing a gasp.

What if they were really telling the truth?

You didn’t have anymore time to linger on this because Yeonjun was suddenly right in front of you, offering you the drink he had made for you (because he had your favorite drink memorized). Totally something best friends do. Right?

To say you were freaking out was an understatement, and you could tell the guys definitely knew by their guilty glances at you.

“Sorry I took so long! I ran into Wooyoung on the way there and we got caught up talking,” Yeonjun announced to the group, unaware of what had just happened.

You gave a weak thanks as you accepted the cup, suddenly hyper aware of all your interactions with him. Not to mention you now felt like you were being watched by the guys.

“So, what did I miss?” questioned Yeonjun causing Kai to give a nervous laugh and Beomgyu to respond with “Nothing!” too quickly.

Way to be subtle.

“Oh so I definitely missed something good. You’ll tell me right?” he teasingly answered, turning to face you with a questioning look. You locked eyes with Taehyun who’s face of horror was likely mirroring your own.

You bravely risked a glance up at Yeonjun noting that he had absolutely no worries that you’d ever not tell him what he missed. He trusted you.

(“He looovess you,” sing-songed your gremlin brain. Didn’t know we were in middle school.)

“Just the guys being stupid like always, nothing actually important,” you finally decided to respond with, surprised at how stable your voice sounded. You had always been comforted by Yeonjuns presence, it’s not very surprising you still would be even when he was currently the root of all your problems.

(“Because you’re in love with him,” that same annoying voice in your head supplied. It sounded suspiciously like Soobin.)

He simply nodded in response giving a small laugh, and you could see the others sighing in relief.

You expected it to be left at that. You would go back to pretending you didn’t like him (because you didn’t !!). You would also now pretend to not know he apparently likes you (because he definitely does not). The guys would grovel for forgiveness from you for the rest of your life. It was a simple plan really. Easy.

Apparently it was not that easy.

“Wait i’m like sooo invested in what you guys were saying,” slurred a voice to your left. The group turned in confusion to the girl standing near the couch, clearly well past her first drink. “So that guy that just came in that’s the one you guys said likes her back, right?,” she continued, pointing shakily at you, unaware of the panicked looks that had now overtaken everyone’s faces.

“So they’re in love and didn’t know or whatever. What happens next? I reallyyy want to know you guys are SO good at telling stories,” she pouted at the group. A stunned silence followed her words. Suddenly she gagged, eyes widening as she rushed over to the bathroom.

There went your plan, destroyed by a case of drinking and eavesdropping.

Frozen in your spot you struggled to figure out what to even do next. Yeonjun wasn’t stupid, there was no saying the girl was too drunk and didn’t know what she was saying, not with everyone’s immediate guilty reactions.

Clearing his throat, he asked, “So, anyone care to tell me what that was all about?” He definitely did not sound happy.

(“He totally sounded embarrassed though,” tried the little voice. Read the room.)

You had never been much of a crier but you suddenly found tears rolling down your face, feeling utterly helpless for once.

You couldn’t believe this is how your friendship with Yeonjun would end.

Suddenly too overwhelmed to continue experiencing this you frantically stood up, desperately wiping your tears away to try and preserve some of your dignity.

“Wait! Where are you going?” Yeonjun called but it was too late you had already taken off, weaving through the crowd to the exit.

You were pretty sure you didn’t have to worry about anyone following you either. Not after that.

You were almost at the door when you felt someone grab your wrist. Stupidly, you let yourself be filled with hope that it was Yeonjun and you had been wrong about him not following you.

It wasn’t. It was the same girl from earlier. She looked worse for wear, having clearly thrown up. “Hey, you have to let me know how that story finishes. I’m rooting for you guys,” she said, not noticing your disheveled state. You laughed weakly and pulled out of her grasp continuing in your earlier path out of here.

You stumbled into the street, jogging in the direction you think your dorm was in. Yeonjun had brought you to the party, and you hadn’t really thought to pay attention to the directions. Tonight wasn’t supposed to end like this.

Suddenly you heard your name being called and looked back to see Yeonjun sprinting towards you. He didn’t look particularly happy or “in love” right now. He honestly looked pretty pissed off.

You guessed this was it. He finally came to his senses after all that and was here to tell you to leave him alone, to forget you were ever friends. You still couldn’t find it in yourself to truly be mad at or blame the guys. They thought they were helping. You could see them running after Yeonjun but while he continued his journey towards you they lingered by the doorway, uneasy looks on their faces.

You hoped he didn’t take this out on them. They were still good friends for him all things considered.

Finally reaching you on the sidewalk, Yeonjun paused to catch his breath and you tried your best to mentally prepare for what he was going to say. Not that you were doing that good of a job, if anything your earlier tears had practically become full on sobs.

“You scared the shit out of me,” started Yeonjun, causing you to look up at him in confusion. “Don’t ever run away like that again please. I know i’m a dancer and all but I am not about to take up running anytime soon,” he wheezed a bit, placing his hand on your shoulder.

You laughed through your tears unsure what you were even supposed to be feeling right now.

“Sorry I was a bit late running after you, I needed to confirm with the guys that I heard that girl right before I made a complete idiot of myself in front of you,” he continued, suddenly seeming more shy and awkward. All you could do was blink up at him.

“I mean I did hear her right according to them. She did say ‘likes her back’ because you like me too right? The guys weren’t messing around with me?” his voice was now shaky and a little desperate as he stared into your glassy eyes.

“What?” was all you could manage in response, not quite sure what exactly was happening right now.

This was apparently not the correct response because it looked like a light suddenly went out in him. His shoulder slumped immediately and he began to backtrack on what he had said.

You cut him off trying to get some clarity on the situation, “Hold on, so you don’t hate me and want to end our friendship right now?”

The look he gave you in response honestly made you feel kind of embarrassed for even asking that.

“What!?! Hate you? I think i’m incapable of hating you. No, I am not about to end our friendship. I’m here wondering if we’ve been in love with each other for our whole lives and have been too stupid and scared to realize or act on it!” he let out, emotions clearly getting to him as his eyes began to water as well.

You gasped and decided to buy time to respond by flinging yourself into his arms. He held you tight immediately, burying his face into your hair. Finally gathering your thoughts, you began to answer him.

“I do love you. I always have. I-I never knew what to do with it, never knew if I could give all that love to you, so I just pretended it wasn’t there. I was happy just to have you in my life I didn’t care how,” you admitted into the safety of his jacket, burning face buried away from his curious eyes.

He pulled back, tilting your chin up, removing you from your hiding spot. He was now crying as well which only served to make you start crying even harder. You were never good at seeing him cry.

“I’m so in love with you it physically hurts. I always thought I would be forever stuck on loving you from a distance but never having you. Now that I know being yours is an option I’m never letting go,” he fiercely responded, shaking you slightly. Cupping his face you let yourself do the one thing you’ve always wanted to. You kissed him.

Cupping his face you let yourself do the one thing you’ve always wanted to. You kissed him. He tasted like home.

Loud cheers suddenly interrupted the moment and you both pulled away startled. The guys were cheering you on. You laughed and buried yourself back into Yeonjuns arms. His embrace felt like home.

Loud cheers interrupted the moment and you both pulled away startled. The guys, who had watched the whole thing unfold, were cheering you on. You laughed burying yourself back into Yeonjuns arms. His embrace felt like home.

Suddenly shy, you buried yourself back into Yeonjuns embrace, laughing.

Loud cheers interrupted the moment and you both pulled away startled. The guys, who had watched the whole thing unfold, were cheering you on. You laughed suddenly shy and buried yourself back in Yeonjuns arms. His embrace felt like home.

Loud cheers interrupted the moment and you both pulled away startled. The guys, who had watched the whole thing unfold, were cheering you on. You laughed suddenly shy, and buried yourself into Yeonjuns arms again. He felt like home.

He held you close. His embrace felt like love and home.

He held you close. His embrace felt like love and home.

Cupping his face you let yourself do the one thing you’ve always wanted to. You kissed him.

Loud cheers interrupted the moment and you both pulled away startled. The guys, who had watched this all unfold, were cheering you on. You laughed, suddenly shy, and buried yourself back into Yeonjuns arms.

Also laughing, he held you tight. His embrace felt like love and home.

Cupping his face and you allowed yourself to do the one thing you’ve always wanted to do. You kissed him.

Also laughing, he held you close. His embrace felt like love and home.

Loud cheers interrupted the moment, startling the both of you. You both pulled away and looked at the source of the noise to find it was none other than the guys who had watched the whole thing unfold. Suddenly shy you buried yourself back into Yeonjuns arms, laughing.

He was laughing too, but he made sure to hold you tight. His embrace feeling like love and home all at once.

[rutadales]

have uu left dsmp ?

no pooks I'm never leaving, just been inactive for a few reasons, a couple small ones and then a huge one

first, i had a couple bad experiences irl. a lot of shit happened with my family that threw me off balance. life shit that just made it harder to be on my phone

second, around the same time i had some pretty negative experiences within the fandom that left a bad taste in my mouth and made it harder to participate in the community without just feeling gross and bad.

third, the drama actually got to me lol. i try to be a pretty unbothered guy, especially online, but i have some obsessive tendencies. when something makes me upset i have this compulsion to look at it more, which makes me more upset, which makes me look at it more— cue positive feedback loop. with things happening every couple of months and people messaging me about it, even to the point where people i knew personally accused me of things? yeah it got me stressed out haha. i honestly still wasn't great about separating my own sense of morality from the actions of the people who made content i enjoyed. whether i was a good person become one of those obsessive thoughts tied up in everything, and i had this need to check twitter and reddit and tumblr for the verdict on whether or not i got to be good. which meant it was time to log off and stop engaging for a while.

fourth, i got burnt out with projects. which is my own fault but i had this anxiety with "i need to get this done on time" that became associated with anything dsmp or even minecraft related.

but the big main reason was i was just busy with irl stuff. beyond family shit, i was also visiting Europe for the first time, went camping, forgot my meds, got super sick from withdrawal, was having almost four appointments a week between cardiology, psychology, physical therapy, and my roommate moved. been busy

but no im never leaving, dreblr is my best friend. i just hop in and out of fandoms but i never leave them behind for too long lol. unless i have a really really bad experience (sander sides you know what you did)

[luaspersona]

Who are your favourite Bangtan writers on Tumblr? I’m fairly new here but based on your reviews, I trust your opinion implicitly 😅

first of all, welcome! here, have some flowers 💐

second of all, thank you! i love reviewing, so it means a lot when people trust my opinions lol 

ok, so. before we get into the blogs, since you’re new, i thought of giving some unsolicited advice that might help improve your overall experience as a reader here! i'll put them under the cut, and the blogs at the bottom ♡

⇢ follow bts networks (you can start through mine)! they reblog authors from their communities and you’ll get to know blogs that you wouldn’t come across otherwise;

⇢ in order to actually see what the blogs you follow post, and to not be done dirty by dumblr’s algorithm, go to your blog settings > dashboard > preferences and switch off the “best stuff first” option, because its point is to give visibility to posts that already have more notes and stuff, and you lose a lot of good works in the process:

⇢ if you’re +18 (which i’m assuming you are, since you’re interacting with me), tumblr has been hiding some smutty content as of default and limiting the reach of the posts, so to not miss any good works, go to blog settings > account > contents you see and mark “show” in the community labels you feel comfortable seeing:

⇢ last tip: if you enjoy these authors and you’re comfortable here, please consider reblogging! maybe reaching out through anon like you did now to tell them how much their work meant to you. tumblr’s not really a good platform for writers and the engagement is what keeps us going, so — if you’re ok to do so — please, share some thots ♡

ok, now onto the blogs 👏🏽 i’m sorry i can’t shut up

although it’s long, this is by no means an exhaustive list, but i tried to include all the authors i’ve read and loved (without exceeding tumblr's tagging limit), so i just know that you’ll enjoy anything from them!

@kithtaehyung, @suga-kookiemonster, @eoieopda, @here2bbtstrash, @uarmymoonlight, @taegularities, @vsualitae, @the-boy-meets-evil, @pjmparadise, @persphonesorchid, @noteguk, @yeoldontknow, @kpopfanfictrash, @vyduan, @yoongiphoria, @moccahobi, @sailoryooons, @xjoonchildx, @jjkeverlast, @minisugakoobies, @bangtanintotheroom, @jimilter, @ugh-yoongi, @chryblossomjjk, @chateautae, @magicshopaholic, @hot-soop, @yoon-kooks, @nabiolive, @casuallyimagining, @euphoricfilter, @jeonqkooks, @rkivian, @m-yg93, @daechwitatamic, @gimmethatagustd, @bratkook, @augustbutwinter, @matchy6812, @kookdiaries, @kth1fics, @here4btsfics, @yoongimingyu, @aquagustd, @snackhobi, @ppersonna, @sugalaritae, @jeonjcngkook, @sugakookitty, @baljinciaga, and i wanna shamelessly recommend myself too ��🏽👈🏽

(if you’re tagged here and i haven’t reviewed any of your works yet, worry not, for i’m coming 🏃🏽‍♀️)

you can also check my reviews tag or my recs lists for more recs, but anyway *sighs* that's a lot more than you asked for, but i hope you enjoy your time here and have fun with these amazing authors 🫶🏽

[yourlocaldisneyvillain]

okay so i know no one cares but the internet is for yelling about your feelings and so i shall do just that! i think education on kink is so misinterpreted by the Youths on the internet (which proves they're too young and immature to even be having convos abt kink...) and there are also many minors who are into all that tiktok written porn and wattpad shit which has sorta leaked onto tumblr as well. and like i can't know who reads or writes that shit but it Smells Of Youth lol, and like and god knows that i read porn as a minor but ...... adksjhfgfdasdjhf you know?? at least i was aware i was in spaces not meant for me lol and behaved accordingly.

so i read a short lil ficlet that was on my recommended page (ofc a larissa/reader thing lol) that i think shows exactly what's wrong with the younger generations (not to sound like an old lady but you know what i mean) and that is that they are more concerned with appearances rather than the content -- that is, something checking all the boxes of safety rather than it actually being safe.

in their crusade for Righteousness and Political Correctness (even tho i hate using that word bc that's what far-right ppl use when they don't like that minorities want to be treated with respect) they forget that like. you can't slap a "this is okay label" on something that isn't okay and that magically makes it okay.

what i mean by that is that in that ficlet -- and it doesn't matter which one it is bc they are all basically the same fic regurgitated over and over again with slight changes -- we are clearly talking about a fucked up scenario: a principal pursuing and wanting to fuck her student! but THEN she says "if you want me to stop just say red" as if that makes it all okay?? it shows a fundamental misunderstanding of safewords and what they are for. nothing was negotiated or talked about, she DEMANDED that this clearly young person call her mommy even though no preferences were discussed prior etc etc.

and my beef with this is like, if you're gonna write a fucked up scenario (and god knows i love those), you should not try to signal with your narrative choices that what is happening is okay, unless it is a literary choice that somehow serves the story. but what i've read and keep reading feels like aha! not problematic bc we are all over 18 and we have safewords! so nothing could ever go wrong :) please, treat a fucked up scenario like a fucked up scenario! commit to your fucked up fantasy goddamit! stop trying to virtue signal! you're writing about a principal fucking her student and abusing her power, which is okay and you should be able to write about that! but she's not uwu mommy askjdhfsg you know?? and i think that's why so many people got mad at me for writing my fucked up shit (inevitable specifically) and it's bc i wrote basically what the narrative they keep writing about would look like in real life lol, and i didn't do any of the performative stuff they do to make it Okay and Not Problematic. someone would end up hurt, i promise you! it's okay to have your fucked up fantasies, just don't pretend they're not just that -- fucked up fantasies that need to be carefully managed if you ever want to engage in something that mimics it in real life.

it's really dangerous that all these Youths keep using bdsm terminology without understanding what it means. safewords, dom/sub dynamics, aftercare... if you write a sexual assault scene and slap aftercare on it, it is still sexual assault. if someone coerces you to have sex with them (and there is more way than one to coerce a person to sleep with you without using any force) but say oh you can have a safeword and i'll stop :))) that is still sexual assault lol. you saying the words doesn't mean anything.

also, i'm not saying there aren't inherent power dynamics in any relationship, not just with age gap stuff which is a popular trope in these fics, but like they need to be addressed and managed if you want to write a Healthy Relationship(TM). there is a social power imbalance between men and women and yet het relationships exist and work! but if you don't wanna write that, if you wanna write your "mommy that sorta rapes me but not really" fantasy, by all means keep doing it but pleaaaase call it what it is! otherwise it's just confusing and harmful for all the young people on these webbed sites.

i am all for fucked up shit, both reading and writing it, and there should be space for everyone to unload their bullshit on the internet. however, problems arise when fucked up shit is being sold as Good(TM) bc it checks certain boxes and basically passes as Not Problematic uwu on a technicality, rather than examining the actual content. there are ways to examine fucked up desires and the dark side the human psyche, but what is not productive is slapping buzzwords on stuff and saying oh it's Moral(TM) now. fiction doesn't have to be moral. please give up on that notion! but if it's trying to be, then it shouldn't endorse prettily packaged sexual assault lol.

[multiplicity-positivity]

Do you have any recommendations for how to meet other systems? I feel like we need a community and outside of Tumblr I don't know how to find anyone and to be fair outside blogs like yours I don't know how to find people even in Tumblr. Sorry if that doesn't make sense

Hey, so as far as finding a community…

Here on Tumblr: check out the tags for more folks to follow and potentially befriend! Depending on your system’s origins, you can search the tags that pertain to your system specifically. There’s also “#plurality,” “#actually plural,” “#actuallyplural,” “#multiplicity,” “#plural community,” and “#pluralgang” for more general plural tags!

In the tags, you can introduce yoursel(ves), comment on people’s posts, contribute to discussions, and also do things like participate in plural ask games to start interacting with other people in order to build community engagement.

Outside of Tumblr…

The subreddit r/plural seems like a friendly, uplifting, tight-knit community. We see folks posting to try and make more plural friends there pretty regularly, so it might be worth it to check that out!

We know there are plural Discord servers out there… but unfortunately, we’re not aware of any at this time. If any of our followers know of any plural Discord servers that are accepting of all systems, feel free to recommend them! Joining a Discord server might be a great way to gain some community with other systems, if you can find a good server that works for you.

If you’re looking to meet systems irl… honestly wearing an ampersand or a plural rings symbol somewhere might be a good way to subtly hint at your plurality to other plural folks. This way, you can try to meet some other systems without exposing yourself to unnecessary vulnerability.

That’s all we can think of off the top of our head right now, sorry. If anyone sees this and has anything to add regarding finding community, please do so! But to you, anon, we’re wishing you good luck in finding more of a community!

[filth-burps-writing]

Note

While the slob vibes are fun and love being “in character” per se and playing that role of a gross guy convincing you to be gross I feel like things have been getting a bit harsh in a way I don’t appreciate. Nobody has done anything wrong before you ask I just saw a post that really triggered me and have fell down some rabbit holes that weren’t healthy for me. I’m going to a couple of things over the next week or so to make myself feel better so I can engage in this community while maintaining my wellbeing;

Im going to be leaning into more “soft feedism” and meme content as apposed to the corruption, roachification and slob content. A lot of the content in this category is making a little squicked and it’s adding up to me feeling a bit sick when I turn off tumblr for the night. No judgement; I like this stuff a lot of the time! But it’s just not what I’m enjoying right now.

I’m deleting the poll posts. I enjoyed making them and it was fun for a bit but then when the result came in I realised I basically lied to you guys. I know I’ve already responded to that situation but the whole thing keeps making me feel guilty and anxious so they’re going. I’m sorry to anyone who voted.

I am officially delaying writing part three of Horror House until August. This means you will getting it mid-August at the earliest. I have actually already started writing it but it will be the longest and thematically darkest section. I am just not in a place where I can write it without giving myself a panic attack and means worse mental health for me and worse content for you.

This is going to be my pinned post for now instead of my intro. I will switch back when I’m ready.

I know it’s weird for me to post this like I’m a celebrity when theirs under 50 of you last time I checked but I just wanted to be honest with you all and set a good example.

[drbased]

Some 'tugs' I have felt this afternoon, since I had a short-circuit and had to spend the day in bed with take-away in order to detox from obligation:

everytime I hear birds outside: I should go outside. People say that being outside is healthy. It's a nice day outside and going outside will make me feel better. It's Objectively Good and Healthy to go outside

everytime I write a tumblr post: I should check this post for typos. Maybe I shouldn't post it at all, maybe I should wait for a while to see if it's Right for me to post it. Since I am writing on important topics of mental health on a public platform, I have an Obligation to be morally conscious for other people.

everytime I feel embarrassed for spending so long in bed: I should move around a bit. People say that moving is healthy. It's Objectively Good and Healthy to walk around.

Do you see how powerful these tugs are? Every single one of them is deeply powerful because they're all Correct Statements that feel impossible to argue with. This is how the PDA and the depression manifest together in an intricate dance. If I wasn't aware of those tugs, they would continue to pull at me, reminding me of what a failure I am for not doing the objectively healthy, logical and moral things. By not recognising them as facets of my mind, as actions with consequences that I value, I end up percieving them external to me, as Objective Facts that exist in the ether, as real and material as the air I'm breathing. Yes it is 'healthy' of me to walk, it is 'healthy' of me to go outside, it is 'moral' of me to consider other people when I'm writing. But I cannot be everything for everyone, myself included, I cannot do everything right all of the time - and besides, I've learned the hard way that you cannot make someone want something, and this is as much a facet of interpersonal as it is intrapersonal relationships. And clearly, if the tugs haven't changed my mind, then simply knowing that it's 'healthy, logical and moral' to do these things hasn't made me want to do them.

if I had ignored all of this, I would have lost the ability to understand and appreciate that I actually do value being healthy, I value being moral, I value being logically consistent - the tugs are not simply a burden I bear but rather a result of me being a conscientious and caring person. I would have lost an opportunity to take myself seriously and recognise my own point of view. And I still would have sat in bed all day anyway, and instead of appreciating that this is a choice I'm making because of xyz factors, all my choices would have been suppressed and covered with a layer of embarrasment and shame - it would have been a depressive episode, and I would have felt miserable, lost and scared. Instead of the tugs being something coming from me that I value and simply chose not to act on, they would have become something I can use to beat myself up about - because of course, if on this occasion I can't even bring myself to do something as basic as going on a walk, that must mean I can never do anything healthy for myself ever, and I am a failure, and life isn't worth it anyway, what's the point in it all if I can't get it all right, I should kill myself.

It was such a bizarre realisation for me that I can actually take myself seriously - I can take my sadness seriously, I can take my seemingly irrational wants seriously, I can take the tugs seriously - they're all valuable facets of me, both good and bad, and they all paint a picture of who I am and what I value. What I'm essentially doing here is having a 'depressive episode' without the depressive parts. Instead of my depression being this big mystery ailment that has some nebulous control over me, I understand and engage with its mechanics, and as such understand who I am. I recognise the tugs, and I see their value, and I still say 'I'm not going to do that right now, because I want to choose this option instead, explicitly because I'm avoiding obligation - because that's what I would have done anyway, I'm just now accepting that that's what I was going to do and I refuse to pathologise it. This is who I am, and the moment I decide to go for a walk it will be for the same reason that I'm sitting now: because I wanted to do it.

I bring all this up because I wanted to illustrate the fact that the 'tugs' are so powerfully moral and logical. They're so hard to argue against, and that's precisely what makes them so good as obligations. But I had to realise that these 'obligations' do not sit in the ether, and that my perception of them is not pure - terms such as 'healthy', 'moral' and 'logical' are absolutely loaded with implications outside the purity of what they suggest. Their nature as adjectives seems to demand some sense of objectivity, as if something is universally 'healthy' (see: discourse around certain foods being 'healthier' than others), or 'moral' (see: trolley problem), or 'logical' (see: well, basically the complex web of factors that make up human existence). And besides, even if there were some sense of true objectivity in these adjectives that exists outside of human construction, that doesn't mean I'm in any way obligated to do them. Most people aren't healthy, moral or logical all the time: I'm holding myself to such absurd standards that I crash so easily; they're not sustainable. And even if they were sustainable, ultimately this is my life and therefore my prerogative to do what I want. You could call me sitting here some sort of pathology if you want - but I recognise this as a choice I made, and I am much happier about this choice than I would have been if I had a depressive episode. And that's all that matters to me.