#option b

[19-ninetyfive]

Golden Temple.

[howdidthisevenhappenanyway]

one on the end of each lek too

questions that keep me up at night

[nyxgoddessofcandles]

types long message to a friend involving a memory from highschool

CTRL+A DEL

[takemetodragonstone]

t shirt that says i survived hell and all i got was this stupid personality disorder

[psychogirl08]

In an au of this. Anakin chooses to keep them but can’t take the war and the code and the pitying looks he’d be given so he only tells his best friend padme ( and maybe ashoka) who supports him and helps him leave temporarily and relocate. So when obi wan comes back weeks later, or months if you really wanna make it angsty cuz that would make him miss essentially the whole pregnancy, maybe the birth too. And when he’s back no one knows what happened to ani exept padme and she’s to pissed off on Anakins behalf to tell him immediately. When they finally reunite ani has to deal with learning to be with obi wan again after being independent through out his pregnancy and obi wan has to live with knowing that he didn’t just abandon his mate but he abandoned his pregnant mate and misses the entire pregnancy and yeah.

Okay, but Obikin omegaverse style.

Omega Anakin just thought he lost his mate during the hardeen arc (that's what it's called right?) And finds out he pregnant.

Too afraid to raise it and not telling anyone, he gets an abortion, sobbing and his inner omega morning the loss of the children he just couldn't take care of cause his mate was no longer with him.

And a few week later, there's his Alpha, soft smile and quiet apologies about not telling him, looking to sink back into the arms of his mate.

[nammythings]

The Beauty of Option B

I’m not usually the one for self-help books, but I picked up “Option B” by Sheryl Sandberg, the Chief Operating Officer of Facebook, by chance at the airport bookstore, and I’m glad I did. The book, published in 2017, is a first-hand narrative of how Sandberg coped with grief and loss after she lost her husband, Dave Goldberg, in a tragic accident. Not only did she face and cope with grief, but…

[rhadko]

[vaguely-concerned]

thinking about not only the specific people lucanis pulls in to represent the 'locks' in his psyche, but the storytelling that happens in the structure/order of them. the underlying ideas are presented something like:

the lucanis who went into the ossuary never came back out again; he died down there (the boy caterina raised is gone forever) -> you're putting yourself in danger doing this (by being close to me), you should leave because I can't bear it if you get hurt because of me -> it doesn't matter even if we do try this, it won't work anyway (again because of me) ('you know what he's like, you can open the door but he won't walk through it' :'( oofie doofie) -> what if the real secret is that there was never anything but the monster in here from the beginning. you should leave, there was never anything here worth saving in the first place. (implicitly: what if I deserved what happened, all along.)

it runs pretty cleanly from outward-oriented attachment anxiety ('caterina won't even want me back like this, she won't recognize me (the same way I no longer recognize myself)) and gradually deeper inwards until we reach self-image and self worth. or you know, the harrowing basic lack of it lol.

"careful -- they'll know we're not right," spite says in one of their first scenes... but clearly, some very deep part of lucanis has feared or suspected for much longer than that that there's something inherently not right at the core of him, way before any demon entered the picture. and the voice he gives those lines to is the person who should know him better than anyone in the world, who he has loved more than anyone in the world -- and who deliberately chose to hurt him so horrifically anyway. 'It's better if I'm just a monster and deserved what happened than it is to allow for the idea that the brother I love doesn't really exist and maybe never did'. it's better if he's fundamentally flawed in some way that needed fixing to help him survive, and that's why caterina chose to hurt him again and again -- out of love. (this one I think he might have a very sad wakeup call on one day if he ever ends up with the responsibility and care of a child of his own in some way and realizes just how alien the idea of ever intentionally hurting them for any reason is to him. oh buddy. also interesting that he keeps caterina as the outermost lock -- there IS a distance he keeps there that he hasn't with illario. he doesn't resent her 'anymore' he says, but he also keeps her carefully further away from his deepest self.)

as far as I could tell the only note in the mind prison that's fully hidden and needs to be uncovered is the sad painful helpless stupid little truth that even after all this, even knowing what happened... he still loves his brother. is there anything illario could ever do that would make lucanis completely stop loving him, do you think? sometimes the trouble with unconditional love is that it is, well. unconditional, even when some terms and conditions probably would have been in order haha.

that's the pattern you see there again and again; he would rather destroy and abandon and imprison himself at every turn than let go of love, even when it's just scraps, even when there's only ever enough of it to hurt him. it's only when rook shows up and as it were takes his hand and walks along with him that he can entertain the idea of changing the story of what walking out the door might mean in the end.

[ana-deaky]

my neighbors would be experiencing good music!

When I move out I'm either gonna

A) when I'm not watching TV, just have it forever on YouTube and playing Queen

Or

B) if I have enough money, buy some speakers, set them up around my house, buy another phone, connect it to the speakers, and have that forever playing Queen

[hinamie]

obligatory water tribe alt outfits so i am not held liable if they freeze

jjk atla!au with @philosophiums

[faerunquest]

(disclaimer that i haven’t actually played ea, my impression of it is only based on what i’ve read/seen online) but i actually don’t think ea wyll would have been a more compelling character. we frankly did not need another brash character, or one that’s treading the line of power hungry. wyll did not need to be darker or more morally gray to be more interesting.

it may be because i actually find his kindness to be the most compelling aspect about him. he is a man that’s been stripped of his home, of his name, of his appearance and he’s clinging to that kindness and goodness as the last aspects of himself. he wants people to see him as the blade, because wyll is a memory of a memory (his lines). good or kind doesn’t mean easy and we see first hand what kind of punishments he faces for choosing to do the right thing but he’ll do it to keep his soul with whatever he has left. the very same soul that’s been given to a devil.

and he’s not above violence quite the opposite. he approves of going after the duergars when he hears they murdered the myconoid’s children. he says they should bathe gortash in his own blood. he has no mercy for vile individuals but he forgives like it’s breathing.

that’s not to say his writing wouldn’t have benefitted from care and attention that frankly was not given. or a few additional scenes that allow you to see behind the high charisma, the memory of a memory that’s struggling to carry it all.

but i don’t know i think that wyll, who might’ve once been naive but he hasn’t been for many many years. who saw the injustice of the world and got angry at everyone (mortal and gods) who wouldn’t help. who chooses to be kind exactly because the world isn’t. who keeps that choice, the only agency he has with a bloodied grip, and that’s something no one could take from him. it is that conscious choice to act despite the terrible situation he found himself in at only 17, that is the beating heart of his character.

good and moral or honourable is not necessarily boring. you may personally not wish to engage with it or find yourself gravitating towards, but it doesn’t make it less compelling by default.

i think one of the lines in the beginning about how he doesn’t remember much of the battle, but he remembers drying that boy’s tears, is the essence of all that above, and the kind of man wyll wishes to be (& actually is)

[foolofthegeekdom]

ok but hear me out

[prlssprfctn]

"If I had a nickel everytime one of my parental figures that I trusted and loved led me to this specific spot in Ethiopia under false pretenses I'd have two nickles. Which isn't a lot but it's weird that it happened twice."

Context: Death in the Family + Batman and Robin (2011) #20

-🐳

this is insane, but so true—

which hurt more, Sheila betraying him like this for herself, or Bruce, re-traumatising him, because Damian ultimately means to him more than Jason does now? i bet it was the second one. i bet Jason knew that if places switched, Bruce wouldn't retraumatise others for his sake.

[kiiseru]

He would become exceptional. A SOLDIER. A hero. Someone special to Tifa. [x]

[sorcerervaati]

fishing comm from @c-orgiis! she deserves this 🥹

[justlikebart-allen]

dc hire me to write a new cissie king-jones comic wherein it's kind of an open secret that the minor actress/still an olympian used to be arrowette and she gets hassled by minor league villains who want to prove themselves or who have a petty grudge against young justice from a decade prior, who she beats up while emphasizing that she's still retired. anyway the tension comes to a head when a pack of werewolves, still ego-bruised after losing to her in the olympics and also those couple of wendy the werewolf stalker cameos, start threatening her, which she then complains about to her other currently retired hero friend, anita fite. who is /delighted/ to follow up on this threat:

and then they kiss