#oops this turned into a vent post

[thelightintheattic]

buggachat daily uploads again....so beautiful..save me buggachat....buggachat save me

[lavenoon]

He's been waiting for a chance to use that line himself

@naffeclipse everything in my brain is bounty hunter, even the self care

*self insert Aster is not a girl (he/she) *og detective au by sunnys-aesthetic

[fullmetal-scar-simping]

I was talking about the last Airbender with one of my friends and how the whole "ending the cycle of violence" actually works really well and serves the story and the message it wants to send. it's one of these only instances where the choice of not killing the big bad guy makes SO much sense beyond the "murder bad".

It's the air tribe SURVIVING the genocide the fire nation despite all the hurt. It's so thematically powerful.

But having the supposedly anti imperialist show KEEP the military at the end? Is misguided at best. We're talking abt the same military that is built upon the blood and exploitation of others. Like the point is RIGHT THERE, and yet...

And gen I think that's what Arakawa is; misguided.

Cause she gets so many things right in her works that I don't get how else she could've chosen to end Scar's arc like *that*.

I just think she hasn't been properly introduced to intersectionality and radicalism and thus she's stuck in the liberal limbo. But then again, I might be wrong idk ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

ATLA shares a similar anxiety towards the oppressed who become "too violent" ala Jet and Hama. Pulls the classic "make the radical/angered victim of genocide behave cruelly to their fellows in order to equivocate the violence of entrenched power with those lacking".

Though I can give it to ATLA that, narratively, Aang defanging Ozai rather than killing him is an act of reclamation of his culture, as the sole surviving Air Nomad. Though we can ask how the meta-narrative uses this cultural context to soften the blow against an empire. But, given the homage to existing pacifist practices and ideologies, it feels more earnest and less nakedly protective of imperialist institutions compared to mangahood. But the cycle of violence is the growth of the Fire Nation as an imperial power, not the retaliation against the war machine; if Aang had chosen to kill Ozai, that's not a perpetuation of a cycle. Empires don't arise simply because someone took one down, and empires don't conquer and slaughter people because an empire had been quelled. The cycle of violence doesn't really map onto such things as imperialism, not without flattening all violence to "bad always".

It's been a long time since I watched the show; contrasting it to Brotherhood would work well, but who has the time? If nothing else, ATLA at least follows the victims and survivors of the Fire Nation's imperialism and massacres, rather than mangahood which largely stars genociders and imperial citizens. From what I can recall, it also has better pacing, doesn't squander its more serious and sombre moments with ill-timed gags, and the comedy/gags are more seamless/less intrusive than Brotherhood in particular. So hey, there's that too.

The supposedly "leftist", "anti-imperialist" show (Brotherhood) sure does a lot of excusing, coddling, and valorizing the military as an institution. It rests on a juvenile conception of noble idealism that, surely, all proud upstanding soldiers want to achieve for the nation. Positive nationalism! That's good and righteous, yeah? (No.) We sidestep the fact that no amount of 'noble' propaganda changes the exceptional violence that a military is literally meant to wield against those the state governs/wishes to govern/wishes to eradicate because, actually! It's the homunculi! Father makes the military and the nation it controls bad!

So there, problem solved. Anti-imperialism achieved.

We can only speculate on Arakawa's personal political beliefs. One's works are not necessarily indicative of every thought, belief, and action you hold or wish to see in the world. So no doubt she is simultaneously misguided on some things, liberal/nationalist/reactionary in others, and perhaps holds some quality beliefs as well. People are multifaceted messes, all of us. But, at least while looking at the politic of this one work of hers, it is boldly pro-military, pro-nationalist via reformism and the maintenance of the hegemon of powerful nation, and, frankly, racist towards brown people. Arguably mangahood is orientalist in its treatment of Ishval (exotified and negative/"savage"/"primitive"), Xerxes (exotified and 'positive', excuses and exemplifies the protags and their heritage, "advanced"/"civilized"/tragic in contrast with Ishval which is seen as aggressive on par with Amestris), and to an extent Xing.

Tbh, my biases prevent me from shaking the thought that she hated that Sho Aikawa et al had Amestris be shone in the hideous light of its systematic cruelty. That she resented Scar being made to be the enemy of Amestris as an entity, and a direct enemy of its military. (Oh no, he's an enemy of all the "~good~" that militaries stand for! 😱😱😱/immense sarcasm)

Perhaps she always planned for her version of her character to be 'reformed' (I have to hold in my bile). Perhaps that plot beat only blossomed in her mind after witnessing Scar kill off 7000 soldiers in his final act, 1) because she thinks that's cruel to the soldiers (🙄🙄🙄), and 2) because waaaah Scar died 'evil' (🙄🙄🙄🙄). As Brotherhood carried forward in its plot, all I could see were direct inversions of 03. And Liore (as well as Scar) is a prime example. Look at how Brotherhood assures us that actually the Liorans are fiiiiiiiine, they all banded together to work as a team to rebuild, they just got all turned around and violent but it's no one's fault except the nebulous sins of humanity, haha whoops! They're super happy, their outlook bright and cheery! No more military aggression here, and all without the violence of resistance fighters! We don't even blame the guy who upended the theocratic rule of the city, no sirree. All is well! Rose even thanks Ed for showing them "the way". All of this is a direct rebuttal to the horrific violence of the military invasion shown in 03, of the mass slaughter, of the rape, of Ed being shown the part he played in this destruction. Edward surrounded by the crowded graveyard of murdered Liorans as Scar stands above him, having been right all along about the role people working in the military will play, is one of 03's clear-eyed condemnations of the sabotage and subterfuge powerful states use against their targets. Rose doesn't thank Ed for what he did, for what happened to Liore, and the mass suffering caused on behalf of the state, for which his meddling accomplished.

It couldn't be more clear that Arakawa was not ok with any of this. I could chalk it up to "she simply wanted to set her manga apart from the first anime" which I know to be the case more broadly, given her statements on the matter. But it's the way she ignores Liore in her version of the story, the way everyone is oddly... fine. The way Rose assures Winry that they've improved as a people as a result. And the way Scar is just routinely tarred and flogged until he bends to the military while decrying his own actions as "terrorism" (I won't dive into the numerous meanings of such a loaded term for now). It's all of that that makes me see her work as a more active, intentional political statement rather than an accidental, incidental one.

As I stated before though, neither of us can be certain on what she believes within herself, let alone what she would claim. (People have a tendency to feel one way but their actions and reactions may claim otherwise. You can say you're against imperial violence while making millions of excuses for imperial nations.) It's still worth dissecting what can be seen, directly stated, and interpreted from mangahood itself, sans the author. Because regardless, the works themselves do have a voice. And that voice is often heard without the context of 03. Because I'm sorry, but mangahood would not be so stringent on its reformism without 03's more stark, relatively realistic take on militarism and imperialism.

Yet mangahood purists would have us believe that it exists not in conversation or rebuttal to 03 but instead in a vacuum. Pure. At best some fans see mangahood as a 'correction' of the 'mistake' of the 2003 adaptation, simply because the source material is king even when that source material doesn't fully predate the 03 anime. And that's fucking ridiculous and warps the chronology of fma's history as a franchise all for the convenience of ignoring mangahood's glaring contrivances and issues.

[ghoul--doodle]

Hgshfnf

[everythingwasnormalhere]

vent tw

top things you shouldn't say to your child after they've had a 1h-long meltdown: "now [after this] the only thing i wanna do is to jump out the window"

good job mom. good job indeed.

[valewritessss]

Something about me is that I’m always dehydrated.

I always have been. I went to the ER in first grade because I didn’t drink water all day during summer camp.

I feel thirsty but for some reason I can just ignore it and I forget I’m thirsty.

I get constipated because I never drink water. I have so much water retention because I never drink water. My skin is suffering because I never drink water. I’m low on energy because I never drink water. My hair falls a lot because I never drink water.

Part of the reason I forget to drink it is because two years or so ago, I hated that I would get bloated after taking a sip of anything (I also hated the way I looked I thought I was fat but this was why) so I decided to just not drink water until I got home from school. I also started skipping meals which made things worse but this is about water right now. Obviously, this made the matter worse because I was already dehydrated to begin with so I started to get even more bloated, more tired, I felt like shit all the time, and my anxiety levels skyrocketed. Then I went to the doctor and told her about it in hopes that she would give me some magical solution. She just told me to drink water and I was like oh…

Long story short, drink water. I started drinking a lot more water and my skin sighed in relief, my hair is try thriving, and I get less bloated now. I overall feel more confident and energized, I would definitely recommend.

I still forget to drink water a lot since it kind of became a habit to ignore my thirst but I’m working on it and it’s helped a lot

[arbitersart]

i really oopsied taking on too much responsibility, huh

[biggestdoug]

im a staunch atheist- always have been and probably always will be. i dont believe in any god(s) or in any supernatural processes

however, i still send out a prayer every day to palestine. and ive recently been referencing allah in these prayers- i dont believe in him, but in the off chance that he is real i hope that he hears what im sending out into the universe

[corviddrawsstuff]

hey internet can you diagnose me pls. for about 3 years now I’ve had this pain in my left side just above my hips that comes and goes every few months. it’s in exactly the same spot every time and gradually builds up over a few days and at its peak is like 8/10 pain scale. the pain spikes when I put pressure on my left leg and if I lift it too high. going down stairs is the worst. someone either tell me what it is or yell at me to get it checked out cause I’ve been gaslight by doctors and my parents for too long

[dudelymantits]

Tell us more about your Adler/Star pairing please 👀✨

Sure! Thank you for asking! As usual this ended up longer than intended oops

So originally a few months back a friend mentioned how there should be more Signalis rare pairs and one of the ones she ended up mentioning was Star/Adler. For some reason this one stuck with me and kinda marinated in the back of my mind until I started to flesh them out more.

They both are stationed at my totally normal radio outpost B-92 Becquerel, because of Becquerel’s smaller size this station’s work hierarchy is set up differently than S-23 going like:

KNCR-B9201: this Kranich is the main head of the facility, she takes the place of a Falke unit and has a lot of other things going on that are not really relevant to this post besides the fact she is eternally tired because of them and therefore dismissive of certain issues that she shouldn’t be.

The three “heads”: these guys oversee the three main sektors of the facility with each being, Radio/military, Research, and Civilian/other. That last category is run by our Adler!

ADLR-B9201 or Grey is a newer unit being commissioned after the death of the previous Civilian overseer gestalt, Grey handles most of our usual expected Adler paperwork and bureaucratic duites, but he thinks due to the other two guys being “lackluster” in their own ways Adler often finds himself having to pick up whatever technical work they “didn’t end up doing in time”. Grey wants to run the place nice and organized, but his gestalt coworkers and boss seemingly having better things to worry about they don’t care he has a larger workload than everyone else. He stresses over performance and often wishes he worked as a normal Adler unit with a more clean cut ladder, but here? To many variables and people he has to get along with.

Thing is that it’s partially his own fault, he wants everything ahead of schedule and obviously that’s not happening, and if he would just work at a more normal even pace and communicate with the rest of his coworkers a large number of his problems with his work environment would be fixed, or at least lessened. Basically he’s the last guy you’d want to work with, very controlling and wanting to completely change the place he works at rather than adapting to what already had worked there before.

This bleed into his personality making him just a ass to be around, “pissy little bitch” was what I called him for months, he was whiny and short tempered especially when things didn’t go his way. And this is where Star comes in.

STAR-B920?: Eloka is a pretty average star, higher ranking than most but not to the point I’d call her high ranking yk? Above average…! Eloka also likes to push buttons and see exactly what she can get away with. This is partly why she’s in the middle of B-92’s Star ranks, she’s pissed off the ones above her so much they wouldn’t dare promote her more than they already have but also they recognize she’s more skilled than the newbie’s and weaker stars. She doesn’t care for hierarchy like most Starlings, and therefore finds it entertaining to break their rules.

Eloka has a record for getting herself in a mess, with other Star, with other Protektors, with relationships, hell she probably has gotten stuck in the Ara vents or on the rooftop a few times. She’s pretty silly. So when the new Adler got stationed and she heard about his poor temper you know exactly what she started doing, fucking with him!

Pretty quickly this turned into a game of “how quickly can I get Grey mad today?” Typically with insults. She also gave him the nickname Grey rather than referring to him as Adler, which he saw as a disrespect of his authority, she gave it to give him because of his atypical grey chest plate. Now you may be thinking, if she’s causing so much trouble for a higher up wouldn’t she be decommissioned? Well this is where it goes back to the other two heads, basically they would all have to agree to the decommissioning of a Protektor and Kranich would then order it. So even if he wanted to and probably threatened to at first they both knew that was an empty threat. It wasn’t constant picking but slowly became more consistent.

At first they really hated each other due to this strange routine they developed for obvious reasons, but slowly Grey started to grow more used to it and became less explosive in his reactions and he actually started to like her interpretations, and she started to also get used to this pattern. The pranks got lighter and rather than her fucking with his office she’d rearrange the files in a less disastrous way, tripping him lightly, ruffing his hair etc. He still found these mildly annoying but when they didn’t happen their days didn’t feel complete.

Both were oblivious to their growing affection but started to be with each other more and more, Eloka finding reasons to be in his office and Adler finding reasons to be less of a dick and controlling because he actually had something else in his life now to focus on and was kinda forced to chill out. She also started to find his grey chest plate cute. and a small bet was started by the stars and eules on who would ask the other out first, some units put their bet on Eloka because she had a history of girlfriends before and was usually the one to ask them first, where others argued that because she usually was so blunt with women why hadn’t she done so with him yet?

I’m not sure who wins the bet yet, but I do have it that Eloka was flirty with Grey from the start originally for fun but later actually meaning it sometimes [he still is bad at picking out when it’s serious or not] he also started to return the small pranks and insults back now, and the flirting that came with that. After they actually get together I imagine it would remain mostly the same as before, but with them now exploring their new relationship.

I also feel like Eloka would talk to him about guns a lot, and him talking about his stress at work. I have a scene in my head of her just in his office talking to him while kicking her feet like a teen girl lol. This could lead to him getting more into weapons, but I also like the idea of him getting into computers as well. He’s still a workaholic but not as much of an ass so improvement for sure.

Other thing to note: I don’t think Adler’s need a Falke specifically to function, I think they need structure. The reason it’s painted as them needing a Falke is national propaganda. Adler’s I feel work very well with clear hierarchy which is why I made grey specificly hate the one he’s in. Also why you shouldn’t have multiple Adler’s in one place most of the time, they don’t work well in teams. Even for Adler’s like S-23 we see him have issues with the Kolibri’s in his notes, who I see as being on equal footing to Adler but handling different parts of the facility than him. Adler’s also don’t strike me as leaders, they are helpers and need someone or something to follow, and for a country like the nation why not make sure he follows your literal man made goddess? Someone made to embodied your ideals?

Oh yea no Falke at this station lol

If you read all this text ily

[nisshoku-09]

Teacher crush vent!!!

Ayo tc tumblr, I need to vent and get some advice(?) about my tc. For reference I’m a minor (please don’t send me weird messages) and my tc (let’s call him Mr. English since he’s an English teacher) is 54. 

So everything I’m mentioning I’ve written down in my diary to remember so little things that I didn’t write I might’ve forgotten. So the first moment of him interacting with me personally was when we went to the cafeteria to work on reading the Iliad. So the first day  we went he sat next to me (he really could’ve sat anywhere, it was only my class in the cafeteria.) nothing much happened other than him just making a little remark that his table was sticky, which I nodded, and then asking me if I needed any help, which I shook my head. He got up when another group needed help. The next time we were in the cafeteria, I was finished and i was reading Frankenstein (great book, btw) and he asked me what I was reading. I told him and he said that was a difficult read and I (very awkwardly) told him I could read it. He just walked off. Big fumble there. If you can’t tell already, I have no social skills at all and I’m a very quiet person. I suppose that makes our interactions even more stranger(?)

Another instance was when he was out of class for a bit, he asked a guy to watch over the class. He did. I was just sitting there listening to music. When he came back, he asks him how the class was. THEN HE PROCEEDS TO POINT TO ME IN THE CORNER AND ASKS “what about that girl back there?” I obviously shake my head frantically and asked “what did I do???” And he gave me a smile. He was definitely teasing me, and in my diary, I wrote that he’s probably a sadist 💀.

Okay so this is just a minor thing but he asked me a question for a grammar thing we did during the week and when I answered it write he said “that’s good.” In my diary, I also reported that he said my name so calmly, and  we stared at each other for a second and that there was some sexual tension. Idk man, I don’t know if it was just me feeling it or not.

This one is definitely a me being delulu moment but idk how but he came to talking about dating (we were reading Oedipus, idk you figure it out.) and I said in my diary that when he said “and you go n this date with a girl and she’s” he drags the “she’s” and stares at ME!!! He said something on the lines of attractive but he was staring at ME. Absolutely wild. 

I was wearing a Led Zeppelin shirt and he noticed and he asked me if I was a fan, he said yeah, he asked me “really?” And I said yeah, and I fumbled and when he asked me if I wanted to talk about it, I said no. 😭 fumble should be my middle name.

So when we were studying for the exam, he asked me on two separate occasions if I was okay. I lied, of course. But a funny thing was that on the second time I told him I didn’t know anyone in my period (I was in honors and the other periods were Pre-AP) and he said “oh that’s good… oops, did I say that too loud?” Also we were doing a crossword puzzle and I was dividing it up with my friend and he noticed and he said “Divide and conquer? I like that. Watch out, she’s (me) out for blood.” I WAS BLUSHING SO HARD. Also he liked that I was finally sitting up front for once. 

This was the last day I was with him. We were playing games but when we played Taboo he was really… idk how to explain it. He was staring at me a lot when it was my team’s turn. And one time I turned and he was looking at me and I stared at him for a few seconds and it felt like heaven. I really fumbled hard. See, I was going to give him a VERY personal thank you card (tell me if you want me to post it!) but I didn’t. I still could since I have his homeroom and whenever we come back (it’s snowy where I’m at) I could give it to him.

So, yeah. That’s my experience with Mr. English. I had him last semester I really miss him. He was a break from my stressful life. I loved listening to him ramble about movies and him being nerdy and whatnot. I’ve never had a crush on someone in my real life before (I’ve had fictional and celebrity, but that’s different.) so this was really special. Boy my age just don’t cut it out for me. I felt so happy when he noticed me and talked to me, if it was only for a little bit. Every love poem I write is for him. Every dream is about him. Every tear for him. When I close my eyes, I can feel every contour and curve of his body, as if his body is etched into my soul. 

So, tc tumblr, please help me. Please help me figure out if he really likes me or if I’m just crazy. Give me some advice. I don’t know. I just need to get away from my current situation of life. He’s my key to freedom. 

[i-miss-breathing]

Oh my god everytime I hear him speak it’s like 1 step forward 6 steps back. Like “I’m not COMPLETELY against abortion” which is definitely better than being completely pro-life, but then the next thing out of his fucking mouth is some like pro-trump, cop-loving, sexist shit loosely covered up with flowery language and a little chuckle and I’m looking at her like “hang up now I am begging PLEASE do not fall for that”

MY SISTER IS DATING A FINANCEBRO WTF DO I NEED TO DO TO SAVE HER???

OH MY GOD HE JUST SAID THAT ITS BETTER NOT TO TAX THE BILLIONAIRES SO THEYLL STAY IN THE COUNTRY

[midknitefox]

Did I say a week? oops, I ment a few hours hahah

anywhooo...

mechanics I imagine she'd have under the cut ^^

Nova would be a random encounter, who would occasionally show up and offer hints. she doesn't care for research, doing it for free.

Nova sits in a tank of water. she doesn't seem to need it to breathe, but doesn't leave the comfort of her tank.

She often gives hints, but not all of them are true- she often tells people to go through the wrong door when found in rooms with multiple doors. If found before Sebastian's shop, Nova tells them they should flash him with a flash beacon.

If someone doesn't catch a lie, she often ends up mocking them.

If insulted, she makes a grab for them. She doesn't try to get up, so shes fairly easy to dodge. if she gets her hands on the person anyways, she laughs at them and bites them, dealing 50 damage.

If flashed by the Flash Beacon, The lights flicker off, and there's a shattering sound. when the lights come back on, her tank is shattered on the ground and she's gone.

At this point, Nova is hunting blindly, following the sound of picking items up, opening drawers, opening doors, using certain items, and using lockers.

and now, a scenario cause I'm bored <3 (not in game context cuz there's no voice chat in game so enjoy. btw my aunt compared her to a mimic creature from lethal company on this so yippee (I haven't seen anything of lethal company))

—

Flash Beacon the fish, they said. It would be funny, they said. But no, now they're all dead, and he's all alone. His friends, Lily, Elliot, and Marrow, all picked off by her.

Darren glances over his shoulder, before stepping forward and opening the next door.

"C'mon c'mon c'mon," He mutters to himself as he walks down the hall.

He steps into a room, ducking into a closet as one of the angler fish rush past. He sighs.

"...Is she gone?" He whispers to himself, stepping out of the locker. he peers down the hall, sighing in relieve. He can't see the shark lady anywhere.

He turns and starts walking once more.

His luck seems to have changed for the better, as he walks through door 85.

A chill goes down his spine, and he pauses.

...

"Darren, where did you go?"

Darren stops in his tracks at his friend's voice.

"Lily..?"

He slowly turns around, to see the shark woman towering over him.

"I've found you," She says in his friend's voice.

"Shit."

—

totally not obsessing over this character rn

❗ Updated design (ok it's only been a few days shush) ❗

I just gave her clothing a more rugged appearance and threw a fishnet on her (she's a fish after all) + a waterproof bag strapped to her leg for her goodies

also I forgot to mention this! but her hunting style is largely inspired by the Xenomorph in Alien Isolation, she uses vents to travel around and relies a great deal on sound while hunting, rather than on smell (even though she's got a good sense of smell as well) and can leap out of vents and attack someone at great speed. and while she does rely on vents a great deal, she'll sometimes jump out of them and wander around while listening. she's very quiet so yk.

and cause I'm people won't see the reblogs, the specific shark species she's infused with is Mako shark!! I'll be redoing the other post with the terrible old design soon as well (+ more lore so yippee)

[woolying]

i meant to post this last week before the first in-game comic came out but i forgot oops.... anyywayyy i am sooooo obsessed with teruko plays among us so im posting my initial predictions based on canon/what i think would be funny (girl who likes mongy monday and drdt a bit too much and is trying to be normal about it) also i explain the roles for people who may not know them!

i might update these each week as more info comes out in the comic

(under the cut bc its long / drdt spoilers)

DAVID

jester (neutral role, has to get voted out to win) - i think its kinda self explanatory as to why lol (i hope teruko shoots him <3)

i would say imitator (crew, in meetings can select a dead crewmate with certain roles and take it for one round) and he uses it on xander if (probably when) he dies, to sorta match what he does in canon, but i didnt put down any imitable roles for xander... but i guess he still could be anyway if im wrong about xander's role

ACE

morphling (imposter, can disguise as other people) - bc blackened, and he imitated eden in the note?? idk

either that or swooper (imposter, can temporarily turn invisible) - bc hes sneaky like that

veteran (crewmate, kills anyone who interacts with them) - the scared of other people role

XANDER

executioner on teruko (neutral, has to get teru voted out to win) is my fav guess i think

maybe vigilante (crew, can guess imposter roles in meetings to kill them, if they guess wrong they die) - just bc it suits him?? idk

one of the imposter roles idk - bc attempted murderer, maybe teruko shoots him?

^^ i wrote these before episode 3 came out and we have since seen xander doing a task so this is a no (tbh i dont think executioner does tasks either?? i forget if its a toggle or not)

CHARLES

amnesiac (neutral, basically no role but if they find a dead body they can steal their role and be it for the rest of the game) - haha get it because he forgot...anyways

investigator (crew, sees footprints when people walk around), tracker (crew, can place arrows onto people to see their location), or spy (crew, can see exactly who is where on admin table) - investigative roles that don't involve dead bodies

^^ another update post episode 3: charles on admin table!!??? (but notes say he always does that what a loser)

WHIT

swapper (crew, can swap votes onto someone else in a meeting) or transporter (crew, can teleport two people to trade places during the round) just bc i think he'd have fun with it lmao, both can be very chaotic/annoying roles or rlly good/helpful depending on how the person uses them (he uses them to be annoying)

mystic (crew, gets notified whenever someone dies) - just vibes tbh

EDEN

engineer (crew, can vent and fix sabotages remotely) - a support role suits her i think

i kinda got nothing really oops??? we'll see i guess

MIN

undertaker maybe?? (imposter, can drag dead bodies) - bc blackened, altering the crime scene🔥🔥🔥

tbh a more suiting imposter role might be traitor (a random crewmate who becomes imposter if both die early) but idk how this group would manage to kill the imposters that quickly... either that or amnesiac picking up an imposter role based on the fact that She Didn't Want This

altruist (crew, gets to sacrifice their life to revive a dead participant) - min voice i just wanted to save you!! i can imagine teruko dying in the middle of nowhere and min bringing her back

J

vigilante or jailor (crew, can tag people to be jailed during the round and choose whether to execute them during the meeting) - i think shes pretty involved in trials so a meeting crew role makes sense? though j gives off such bad guesser vibes lol may she rest in peace

tracker - partially vibes, but also i think it would be funny if she got a role that can be kinda boring in some circumstances bc she'd be so mad about it

AREI

guardian angel on eden (neutral, wins if eden wins) - Arei "I guess this time I can be the person you rely on" Nageishi

jailor maybe - it reminds me of her in mins trial with the pen idk vibes

tbh im not rlly sure if the blackeneds will end up being imposters?? bc it almost feels too obvious but maybe the simplest answer is the right one yknow? also since min was added off a poll i was kinda doubting, but i feel like nico/levi could also be imposters if they were chosen instead? but idk who else would be if not the blackeneds bc at that point its just random so i cant really guess

these could be all totally completely wrong honestly im just having fun thinking about it! i cannot wait to see more YAYYY YIPPPEEEE

[scruffyssketchbook]

RAMBLES OF A VERY TIRED AUTHOR CHAN #I lost track bro

Kind of random post, sorry!!! Might delete later 😋 idk

I originally said here that this wasn’t a vent post but it might be one after all oops. (I’m sorry I’m an over-sharer and this is my ramble blog.)

(Trigger Warning- grooming? Pedo behavior?)

So I think I mentioned this here before (like years before, idk), but there is this guy who has been stalking me for forever now or whatever. Like, he’s basically the reason I don’t accept friend requests from people I don’t know on Discord and made it so only friends can message me, cause this man would pretend to be other people to talk to me. Anyways, on one of his MANY alts that he uses to send messages to me, he basically admitted to grooming me in the Pedo way when I was a minor!!! Fun 🥰🥰🥰🥰 (this is sarcasm)

But like, that literally explains SO MUCH OF THE THINGS IN SSEC, LIKE WHAT????

Like obviously I am not going in detail of the things that were in SSEC cause it makes me uncomfortable, but it does explain a lot of it, and seeing how afterwards I proceeded to get groomed by 2 other people back to back to BACK, LIKE. For one thing

I definitely feel like the tonal shift in the series was due to all of these events. Of course, I’m not going to get into every bad thing that happened to me due to being a naive girl making a stupid pokemon webcomic (sadly it’s a lot lol), but like, I didn’t even realize that I was groomed by multiple people until I was in my 20’s. (I mean, I am in my 20’s right now, but you know) and I literally was not aware that stalker man was being a pedo towards me when I was a minor until he admitted to me that he was being one- RECENTLY.

I do feel like how SSEC ultimately turned out was due to all of this. For the longest time, I was just surrounded by a lot of negativity. And, I kind of just kind of have the natural inclination to help people or be kind to people, and that ultimately just caused people to see that and use me over and over and over again, causing both the tonal shift in SSEC as well as me closing myself more and more off to people, which- really sucks honestly. (And only now I realize that that is literally the same thing that happened to Vay, wtf)

Like- I want friends. Nothing Romantic, no strings attached, no weird power dynamics, just PLATONIC friends. But I’m extremely shy and awkward, and ofc, extremely closed off ^^;;; So it’s pretty hard for that to happen, I guess.

But I suppose that is why I like/obsess about Box 31 so much.

Box 31 is basically just wish fulfillment for me.

Because, like. The only thing I’ve ever really wanted, the thing I have been looking for, for years, are friends. And, the whole story of box 31 are outcasts making friends, and supporting each other, and growing together, and that makes me very very happy.

Living vicariously through my characters!!! I want them to be happy, I want them to smile, I want others to smile too!!! I don’t want to keep drawing sad things, yeah I like drama, there will be drama in Box 31, but in ssec it’s just so endless. I always wanted the characters to be happy at the end, but where is that end if there is an endless sea of issues?

Idk. I just remember me being freshly 18, crying on the ground (cringe ik) to my way older roommate that I just wanted friends, and I wonder if things would have been better if someone just took my hand and became the friend I needed at the time instead of me becoming totally isolated and the stalker using that to get closer to me.

Idk 😋 as I said, might delete later 😋 just kinda a bit cringe lmao

I just wanna keep drawing my Stupid Silly Eeveelutions~ la la laa

Oh. Speaking of that actually.

[oh-no-my-hand-slipped]

ATTENTION ALL SNZFUCKERS!

A new tumblr update makes it where everything you like is visible to others, and it brings it up on their timeline based on the algorithm.

This means that if you don’t want all your horniness to really be on main, make sure you turn off the feature by going to your main blog, going to the “likes” tab, and turning off the “everyone can see” toggle. It looks different on mobile and PC, so keep that in mind too!

This also goes for any blogs that have other kinks, vents, spoilers, roleplay, mature content, or anything else that you want to keep separate from your main account!

(It took someone saying that they saw a liked kink post of mine for me to notice…oops…)