#ooc: thanks a lot for tagging me!

[my-timing-is-digital]

Are you a Soldier, Poet, or King?

The King

"There will come a ruler Whose brow is laid in thorn Smeared with oil like David's boy" Duty. Strength. Resignation. You were told to do things and you did them. The world is something that was put into your hands and that you must deal with - so you will. You have a rigid back and steady hands, either metaphorically or physically. Is it nature or nurture ? You don't know. You are tired of being steady. You dream of feeling alive. Not that you aren't, but, sometimes, it's hard to remember that there is a heart between your ribs. Your love is where you breathe. Come on, breathe. In. Out. It starts now.

Tagged by: @dimensionalspades Tagging: You! (I'm too lazy to tag people, just steal it.)

[quietlyblooms]

alright, friends, it's time for a lil heart-to-heart.

for quite a while now, i've struggled with feeling like the rpc is an actual community. there's a few things that contribute to this feeling, but it mostly comes down to a lack of interaction and visible interest. sometimes i feel very one-sided in my interest and attachment to my mutuals bc when i see their ooc posts or headcanons, i like them or comment, yet this isn't reciprocated by everyone. i can usually guess who i'm about to see in my notifications, and to be absolutely clear, i'm very grateful for those people!! it's a handful or two of you, but it could be just one and i'd be grateful. it's not about numbers whatsoever but rather growing uncomfortable that not all of my mutuals are all that interested in my character or me.

i write on here to share the excitement of creating with other people. i write on here to create together, too, but i'm also here to share characters and ideas and lore with people i know are happy to hear me ramble. i'm just getting to the point in which i'm questioning how many of you are actually happy to listen, and that's just not a good feeling at all. i'm not a mind reader, y'all. if you don't tell or show me that you care about the things i talk about or even about interacting, there's no way for me to know. eventually, i'm going to question why you're following me if i never see or hear from you, and eventually, i'm going to softblock and move on. that's the only way forward i see right now because i just do not feel comfortable on my own blog. i feel like i'm retreating into this quiet bubble to avoid discomfort, and it really sucks. it's killing my muse.

i'm not perfect. none of us are, and we can't be online at all times to catch every little post. but if we're a community, then we should be supporting each other when we can and liking headcanons, liking/commenting on those lil ooc posts that remind us our writing partners are humans with lives outside this site, reblogging their promo posts, sending in that meme they've reblogged even if we're nervous to reach out first -- if we're a roleplaying community, then we need to act like it. " community " implies connection, and a connection doesn't really begin when you follow each other. it begins when you reach out, even if it's in some small way.

tldr: i think we can all do better to support our mutuals and to connect, and i'm going to softblock people rather than continue to feel unsure where i stand with my mutuals. i won't start until sometime next week, and i won't make one of those " like this to remain mutuals " posts. they're not helpful to me, if i'm honest. if you're worried, just reach out. i'm literally a 4'9'' gremlin who sleeps with a m.unchlax plushie -- i promise i'm not scary despite this post uvu

[feroluce]

Thinking tonight about Caelus, and the nature of his loss and his grief after the Everything that went down in Penacony during 2.0.

Because Acheron, Black Swan, and Misha kind of knew of Firefly, they at least met her, but they didn't like really know her, and Caelus never even got the chance to introduce her to the rest of the Astral Express Crew. The only person who would have talked to her much was Sparkle, who is. Probably not really someone Caelus is interested in grieving with skznmsks

Anyway, all this to say, I like thinking about how alone poor Caelus is in his grief, because he was the only one who knew Firefly. He's the only one really mourning her. There's no one to talk about her with. There's no stories to trade or memories to reminisce with anyone over. It's not as though he knew her for long, but still. No one else knew her at all.

And I love the thought of all of this coming bubbling up, hot and acidic and bitter, during a conversation with Sampo, who Caelus just so happens to run into in the Golden Hour. Poor Sampo is kinda blindsided, he knew shit was going down in Penacony, but yeesh. And he just. Isn't quite sure what to say about it all, because he's never really encountered this before. His feelings about the Masked Fools are...a mixed bag, but he's been a part of them for a very long time, and when you're with a close organization like that, it's hard to feel alone, in grief or otherwise.

So Sampo sits there on their little bench that the two of them have occupied, and he thinks of his old friend April, how she'd died in his arms cackling and spitting her own blood after a heist gone wrong, and how after he'd dragged himself back to the World's End Tavern they'd all held a Fool's Funeral- which is basically just a big party where everyone gets really really drunk and reminisces and toasts the dead and celebrates their life.

He still thinks about her a lot, and he remembers how the time he'd most keenly felt her absence was on Jarilo-VI, the one place where he couldn't talk about her because he couldn't say anything to give himself away as an alien. The Fools still tell stories about her every time he goes back to the Tavern. His first toast of the night is always in her name. Even now, all these years after she'd died, Sampo is still learning new things about her. He's never had to grieve her alone.

Caelus doesn't have any of that.

He might never have that. As they speak, Caelus has no proof that Firefly was even her real name, or if she dreamt with her true appearance. He might not ever find out who she even was.

And just imagining that kind of loneliness hollows out a strange little pit, right behind his sternum, deep between his ribs.

So Sampo claps Caelus' shoulder and offers him a deal. Come find him outside of the dream. He knows a guy who can get them a lot of beer for really cheap-

("Is that guy you and your five finger discounts?" "Whatever do you mean, dear friend, I don't even know the meaning of the phrase, hehee.")

-and they can hole up in a bar or a hotel room or something, and get completely shitcanned. Tell him all about Firefly, tell him everything, and he'll tell Caelus about April and everyone else he's ever lost. Sampo will carry Caelus' memories of Firefly with him, and at least this way, Caelus will be a little less alone in remembering her. And the next time they cross paths, Sampo will be the one to bring her up, and to tell her stories, and Caelus can get to be the one listening. He won't have to be the only person to talk about her anymore.

Caelus rolls his eyes when Sampo avoids another remark about sticky fingers, but...ok, yeah. That sounds good. Nice, even. Thank you. Caelus bumps his shoulder against Sampo's. Sampo bumps back.

(They find each other again the next day, and true to their word, get themselves completely and utterly shitcanned. Caelus talks more than Sampo has ever heard him; every minute detail, every word choice, Firefly's every odd little mannerism and habit. Because Caelus wants to make sure this will outlive him, that even if the Stellaron dwelling within him finally burns him to a crisp and he really does up and kick the bucket, or even, godforbid, if he forgets, he wants to make sure someone remembers her. She deserved that.)

((And it takes quite a while, after that. Caelus doesn't see Sampo again until after everything has settled down. On his last day in Penacony, he finds the guy slinking out of a seedy back alley and all but runs right into him. Sampo happily leads him to some dive bar in an even seedier back alley that Caelus has never even heard of, and Sampo raises his glass. "To Firefly! Who sounds like she probably would have hated me at first, but I would have liked to have met her anyway."

And Caelus stares at him, almost looking startled, long enough that Sampo worries that he's read him wrong and brought this up too soon. He's halfway into planning how to talk himself out of this situation when Caelus finally throws back his head back and laughs, tells him that yeah, Firefly would have politely called him out on every lie he told, and all their conversations would take twice as long with the way Sampo is so full of shit.

And he can see it, the same way he watches and sees through everyone, that Caelus' eyes have a tightness to them, his knuckles are nearly white around the handle of his mug. But he smiles. He hits his glass against Sampo's far too hard and throws it back and gets foam everywhere like he does every time they drink because the guy's about as elegant as a raging bull, but those things don't lessen the genuineness of his smile.

The grief is there, but so is the elation, and those emotions aren't a sliding scale between one or the other. It is all of both and both at once, and that's what contents Sampo enough to throw his own mug back when Caelus makes a toast of his own, "to April!!".))

[mygoodfriendjohnathanharker]

Fixed the door that Johnathan had slipped through, not letting that happen again!

[elliscousland]

i hope everyone had a wonderful new year celebration!!! it's been a really wonderful year of friendships & creativity. i'm not always super good at putting the entirety of my feelings out there but i feel like this year has just been a time of self & mutual discovery w the people around me & for that i am so, so, so thankful. here's to all the new things we'll learn this year too <3

[spiderman2-99]

(All hail mod. We love you, you're amazing, and your characterization of Miguel is so good, it's literally influenced my own fanfic.)

WE LOVE YOUUUUU!!!!!

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[OMG WHAT EXCUSE ME??]

[BRO TYSM I love you /p IDUHGE83 also PLEASE send me the fanfic]

[seventh-district]

not even gonna tag this properly bc i don't wanna get Involved but i do have some Thoughts i need to get out into the void so here we go

(aaa quick edit: CW for mention/discussion of Boothill leaks)

[sarastuss]

i mentioned this briefly on felicia, but from wednesday till sunday, i am traveling back to my hometown to visit my parents! i will take my laptop with me, but i can't promise how much i will write since i have arranged to meet up with dear friends &. family!

[narumakiii]

[ character questions meme ] *coughs* give us nardo's thoughts on gaara pretty please?

meme . / @cptnslog

that`s something i could probably go on about for awhile to be honest. gaara and nardo have one of the most interesting bonds of the entire anime / manga in my humble opinion. they are like mirrors of each other when meeting. they both suffered UNIMAGINABLE pain & emotional trauma. yet, circumstances differ slightly and so does their outcome & outlook on things at first.

at first nardo was a bit wary of gaara but not threatened / scared as most shinobi were. he could feel their alikeness, as we all remember watching / reading the canon material. for me though, it goes a bit further than that. he saw a semblance of himself in gaara. he could've been the same. he could FEEL the pain they both suffered as my nardo is empathic in nature. but, he could also tell were they were different & why their pathes alternated.

both of them suffered most of it ALONE. but nardo didn't have the flawed seal problem & assassins coming for him as far as he was aware. (i personally think danzo might have tried tbh) we all also know that he possesses an unshakeable POSITIVE VIEW on things despite all of it. combined with all gaara has been through though and how gaara found himself; the original wariness & tentative friendship he offered turned into a very deep friendship.

despite their distance nardo CARED DEEPLY. he admired gaara for his strength and resiliance. he was proud of his progress & the bonds the other jinchuriki created despite his hardships. they are still a mirror of each other to nardo though. yet again they have their differences & shared qualities. gaara truly is someone that nardo would take a bullet for even when they could not grow up alongside each other for a lot of their younger years.

but the deep respect & fondness & given their shared hardships there will always be a connection between those two that NO ONE ELSE will be able to share. even if they might see things different or feel different about something nardo would never DISREGARD gaara or not think about what his friend had said. most people think of naruto as a thick headed fool i suspect but he isn't one at all. he values his close people thoughts / feels at ANY GIVEN TIME.

gaara is somebody nardo will ALWAYS look for if they'd get lost in a crowd as well to signifiy how much he looks out for the other shinobi. if given the opportunity to travel to see his friend he'd take it right away as well. there is no way he'd not jump at the chance to go spend some time with gaara. he wants to make sure that they can make some memories & share some laughter. in nardos mind his friend deserves that to make up for the time they didn't have together as kids. he wants to make up for the lost childhood of gaara whenever possible. you could say it's one of his goals to give him those years back when possible and whenever they meet.

gaara is incredibly precious to nardo. there is possibly no one that compares to their bonds to be honest. it's too unique & different from any other relationship he's build over the years.

so tldr; nardo admires gaara & grows to love him in his own golden boy / sun ways despite their first meeting. gaara is somebody he greatly admires & respects. he'll always consider gaara's views on things & take those to heart. he's also somebody he'd go to unthinkable lengths for if needed. even fight death himself as we saw during the akatsuki fights.

[emberoops]

OOC: Something I found today

The above link is a resource that is AMAZING for anyone that wants to give agriculture- or food-based resources and reparations. I personally find it a beautiful thing. Each pin on the map comes with a quick blurb from the person requesting aid - some lead to websites with needs listed, but most have the need listed immediately in the pin-blurb itself.

This tool is excellent in two ways: for those who have reparations to make, it is an excellent resource. For those who need bolstering, this is also excellent; many pins on this map are community efforts with a history of success in lifting BIPOC voices, promoting land stewardship and agricultural independence for BIPOC, and making food resourcing easier for those groups.

It's a beautiful homage to the power of BIPOC community.

I would like to challenge the people reading this with white privilege to read through and pick something with needs suited to your capabilities, or who have needs within your grasp in the near future.

Personally, I have chosen Our Core's AgriCultural Program, linked here.

[my-timing-is-digital]

Name: Parker.

Pronouns: She / her. If you forget Data's pronouns he / him, or simply they / them are also fine.

Preference of communication: You can always reach me on Tumblr or Discord, but if you'd prefer to talk to me on Discord and we're not friends yet, feel free to add me: picardspetandroid.

Most active muse: Data, obviously, but Lore's getting some well-deserved attention too now.

Experience / how many years: I've got 9 years of experience in various fandoms.

Best experience: Making new, sometimes long-term friends through roleplay. :3

RP pet peeves: Writing a killer (sometimes even plotted) starter only for the starter to be utterly ignored. It's a real muse killer. Or writing a killer starter of several paragraphs and only receiving one paragraph or several sentences. Of course I never expect people to match the length of my replies, but if you can tell I put effort in it (which I always do), don't just. write one short paragraph or one sentence in return (this has happened to me on Twitter a lot and it is just. so infuriating).

Plots or memes: Both. I have tons of plots circulating in my head, and a lot of AUs I'd love to write with anyone who's willing to write with me. Memes are a bit trickier, hence why you receive a reply to your memes several weeks or months after you sent them lol. But yeah, I'd say I prefer plotting. :3

Long or short replies: Long replies. I always try to avoid to exaggerate my replies but I always fail. It's very difficult. Data has a lot of things on his mind.

Are you like your muse: To a certain extent, absolutely. That's probably why I can relate to Data so much, more so than to any of the other muses I've ever had.

Tagged by: @dimensionalspades Tagging: you.

[jonahmagnus-research]

Autism is in fact real. While the symptoms are things that most people experience to a degree, the difference between the average person and someone who is autistic is the level at which they experience these things. While most people can miss social cues, a person with autism may miss them even when they are being specifically pointed out. Everyone feels discomfort at unpleasant stimuli, but someone with autism is far more likely to become incapacitated by such situations. The diagnosis is not 'illegitimate' as you put it. Though it also does not mean there is something wrong with someone, or that they are inherently different from people as a whole, it is simply something to be aware of to make ways of coping with certain problems and sensitivities easier.

Extraordinarily insensitive of you to call it 'illegitimate' like that.

Alright. My apologies, I suppose.

[weldfists]

thinking abt sett and cannibalism as a metaphor for love

[lvebug]

TAG NINE PEOPLE YOU'D LIKE TO KNOW BETTER!

favorite color(s): i am a big fan of colors! all colors! but esp pink and orange :)

favorite flavor(s): sweet, idk

favorite music: there's so much music out there! elton john, noah kahan, bruce springsteen, ayoni,

favorite movie(s): uhm... rocketman, eeaao, there r so many movies idk i Like Movies we'll leave it at that

favorite series: ted lasso, doctor who, 911

last song: marry me a little from steven sondheim's company

last series: doctor who season 1 ep 5

last movie: maestro (it was meh)

currently reading: unfortunately nothing :( i gotta fix this stat a life without books sucks

currently watching: nashville :]

currently working on: finishing the moodboards for bru and west, gifset, finishing editing my film for class, & hopefully some replies one of these days

tagged by: @realmyths

tagging: @dvarapala @trckstaer @viragotm @praybird @4thdistrict & anyone else who wants to!!

[digimonirl]

((OOC - You don’t have to post this, I just wanted to say that this may be my new favorite blog. There’s something so wholesome and nostalgic about the idea of IRL Digimon. Thank you for offering a place for fans to help keep their love for the series alive 💕))

// ooc post incoming //

Went back and forth on answering this for a while, but genuinely thank you for taking the time to write something so nice, it actually made my day! I've gotten an overwhelmingly positive response to this blog over the past few days and I'm really happy something I started just to have fun is making other people happy too. So thanks for all the asks and engagement y'all, it actually means a lot 💜

[decimatlas]

bar exam in 8 days. i am so scared lmfao