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tzarrz · 7 months ago

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i listen to fog lake too much

#falls through the ceiling with a mighty crash hello #it's been what...8 months?#I was too busy w uni and being mentally ill #thank u everyone so much for the tags on all prev posts.. i re-read them oaccasionally 💗#they make me v happy thank u for giving me a moment of ur time #that means so much #anyway! vashwood!!#i hate them so much #i want to eat them #i want to ugly cry #i want an ideal world where they could've had something for a little bit #im eating drywall and pacing around the room in a cold sweat #so trimax-atypical overt intimacy it is #more coming...in maybe another year #It's a big project!#to me. yeah #my dream is to be put in a terrarium for a while #if only u knew how many wips I have w vashwood..#maybe i'll get tired and pile them into one post all unfinished and no less ok for it yk #whatever u r doing doesn't need to be perfect to make someone happy #didn't u experience a positive little zap from my imperfect colored doodle rn?#what a speedrun of a drawing that was #(<spent 10h on it. that's the minimum for anything ever)#hope today is treating you well! so long stranger!#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trimax #trigun #tzarrz

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xxplastic-cubexx · 2 months ago

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hey guys! just dropped him to say that charles xavier is a screamer in bed wait what who said that omg!!!

obligatory mention of charles xavier's soundproofed walls is Obligatory

#nsft #snap chats #DIABOLICAL #it is THREE AM ANON. perfect time for debauchery tbh vjLKAJVVKJ #stop cause. whoever gets me the issue where erik says this ill give you like. idk whatever my mortal hands can provide with an art tablet #who got the issue where eriks by a fireplace Im Pretty Sure and hes just 'yeah charles and i have. Our Moments. Being Loud'#paraphrasing for my life but its that in essence yeah Who Has That. utterly mental thing to say out of context #like i assume he means them arguing but who says it cant be both. at the same time even. curious.....#'oh yeah charles loves his soundproof walls I However am built significantly different' ok so what are you saying then erik #do i gotta start making accusations about. chat we gotta cap it there jvLVKJKLJV #three am has me now contemplating many things... one of which is how vocal mr lehnsherr is i GOTTAAAAA go to bed #the second one bein if he gaf if people hear ..... chat im posting one more thing then im sleeping you will forgive me

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chrisrin · 2 years ago

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Is karkat going to go through a similar arc as peridot?

Karkat's arc is a bit of a mix between Amethyst and Peridot, but both sorts of flipped on their heads!

The idea with Karkat is that he's a Jasper who woke up too early. Unlike Amethyst who woke up too late, Karkat emerges from his hole some hundred years before he's supposed to. The planet is incubating and not being super closely monitored because everything's all set and they're just waiting for the gems to grow. This leaves Karkat pretty much alone on a desolate, dark, dying planet.

He wishes for nothing more than to go back to sleep, he tries to crawl back into his hole multiple times waiting for consciousness to slip, but he can't go back to "keep growing" after he's emerged.

The longer you wait, the more your mind fills. It’d be wrong to call them memories, you didn’t exist before, so they can’t be memories.

Purpose. What your purpose should be. You’re a Jasper, you’re a Quartz, made for war. You’re a soldier, you’re a warrior for Homeworld. You’re supposed to be big and strong, ready to fight for your creators, for your Diamond.

You’re supposed to fit your hole. You can’t.

So he makes a life of wandering the planet. It's cold and boring, so fucking boring, and he thinks a lot about what he could do. He thinks about how he's a failure to the Diamonds, swapping between fear of being discovered here and wanting nothing more than to interact and talk with another sentient being.

Unbeknownst to Karkat, another group of gems nears the Kindergarten. The Alpha Kids are a small group of rebel gems who stole a ship off Homeworld. Upon needing to stock up on supplies, Roxy locates an incubating Kindergarten that is long enough in its cycle for no gems to inhabit the planet, but early enough that they can still retrieve what they need. They land on the Kindergarten and Karkat eavesdrops, stunned to be witnessing actual living real people.

But Karkat realizes what they are, when he listens in and realizes that they're traitors.

He sees this as an opportunity. If he can turn these rebels in, then the Diamonds won't shatter him! He won't be a failure!

So he boards the ship, sneaking on as a stowaway. Roxy almost immediately finds him and it turns into that little scene.

Jane and Roxy convince Dirk to let Karkat live and stay aboard, and Karkat stays locked up in one of the rooms. He's like a little hissy cat, but he's also completely overwhelmed and overstimulated just being around things that aren't the Kindergarten.

With a lot of time and a lot of slowly building trust, Karkat starts to warm up to the Alpha Kids and eventually becomes a proper part of their squad.

#homestuck #hs #gemstuck #chris talks #maybe while he's still on the ship early on #he's like “ok ill play along with their stupid friendship stuff”#“but really!! im still going to sell them out!!!”#and he clings onto that for a long time #in denial that theyre actually starting to endear him #maybe there IS an opportunity he gets to sell them out #some moment where roxy leaves the door to communications open #and karkat could sneak in. set out an SOS signal #and he just....#decides not to.#i have so many karkat thoughts #about how he's so curious about everything #how years and years and years passed on such a desolate awful planet for him that now practically anything that just so much as moves is-#-fascinating to him #how he's the first one to get really comfortable when they all go to earth #because he's learned by that point to be curious #he's the first one that talks to a human #(blood player blood player blood pla

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danielnelsen · 4 months ago

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update: peach is doing very well!! she's eating and sleeping normally (sleeping more than normal, really, but that's to be expected)!! after 3 days of not sleeping and a few changes in painkillers, she finally just napped for an hr then, after another day, slept through the whole night (and most of the next day). she's started following all her usual routines again and is very keen to eat! still on some painkillers, but they're not having any horrific side effects anymore

now that im not staying up to keep an eye on her all night (while also dealing with upgrading my computer and my phone and also my sister preparing to go overseas and the dogs barking and howling constantly due to all of the above), i finally got some decent sleep too and slept for about 14 hrs. so today ive got that weird shakiness that i get from sleeping too much, but hey it's better than the whole of the last week

#personal #and i have a working computer that's finally on windows 10 so that's one less thing to have background stress about #and i have a working phone for the first time in.. a year? 1.5 years? idfk. my previous phone was 16gb so i could fit like 2 apps #could barely take pictures (and couldnt store them) and couldnt update most of my apps because i couldnt update my os because no space #so every app ran slow and then eventually my phone would crash if i opened the storage section of the settings #so i couldnt even offload apps so i could delete them while keeping the data for when i downloaded them again #couldnt order medicine remotely because my chemist only lets you do that from the app (not the website)#couldnt control the aircon because that could only be done through an app #missed loads of stuff because i didnt have email notifications because i could only use my browser for emails #couldnt see tumblr polls on mobile because i couldnt update tumblr because i couldnt update my os #left the house less because i had to delete pokemon go and that genuinely helped me go for walks #ive been dealing with all that for a year so this is very exciting and such a ridiculous qol boost #it sucks how much something like that affects your life. what do you mean i need an app for everythingggg #but god im just glad peach is ok. like there was a moment when i was so stressed trying to update my computer because it wasnt working #and then she ate a small bit of food for the first time in 3 days and just. everything was suddenly fine again #and the other night i spent like 6 hrs just sitting here downloading and installing things on my computer #but it was fine because peach was on the chair next to me sleeping through the whole night and it was such a relief #my sister finally got her flight yesterday (after it was moved four days in a row) so that's just one less thing happening #ive started playing bg3 so that's cool and maybe ill get a chance to actually properly watch that new dav trailer lmao #that premiered at 2am on the first night peach was home from surgery and hadnt eaten or slept yet and i was too stressed to care about dav #and it really just went downhill for the next few days #god. ok. today is the first day i can actually breeaaaathe

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rainingincale · 10 days ago

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#fuck me sorry but that post actually unlocked so many memories for me rn and i simply must get them out lmao #anyways i just wish there was a way i could tell my geography teacher how much of an impact she made on my life #it absolutely shook my world view up when we did our lesson on migration and she asked me what the positives to immigration were #me. a brown girl living in britain her whole life where all she really saw and understood was an inherent hatred for immigrants.#and so i prattled off the textbook answer- they bring people who can do labour and earn more money for the country #and shes like 'and?' and i drew a blank. i couldnt think of anything else. what else were they worthy for?#and she explains. she says music. and food. and culture. and god. im tearing up just thinking about it. like in that single moment she just #fucking changed everything for me. like yeah. yeah ppl do bring that. they make this place everything it is. they bring Life to this place.#i feel like my words are so jumbled lmao idk how else to explain it i am simply soooooooooooooooooo emo like seriously #and it wasnt after i didnt have her as a teacher i was told my one of my friends that she always gives the best student in her class a #a yellow ring binder. the rest get green. guess what one i got. LIKE IM GOING TO CRY AND NEVER STOP. and i didnt know!! i never fucking knew #i literally remember her that day when she was like ah seems im all out @ H could you follow me pls and ill get you answer one from storage #and then she gave me a yellow ring binder like. fuck me man. fuuuuuuckkkkkkkkkkk #and i think back so much because she had a scottish sounding second name but she was married. and part of me thinks maybe her parents were #polish? just from context clues. but i dont actually know. and part of me is like am i just romanticising her? i didnt actually know who she #was. all i have is these little moments and how she treated me and the fact i liked her class #and people were so rude about her btw. like thought she was a dickhead. but she wasnt. she actually wasnt she just didnt take ppls shit. :((#and now im remembering that time i didnt do my homework and my friend took my jotter from the pile AS SHE WAS MARKING THEM and brought it #to me so i could copy off her #and ngl i always thought it was funny and sneaky but now im realising she probably fucking knew and didnt say anything because she liked us #god im gonna cry #i hope youre ok out there and i hope youre happy. i hope my idea of you is correct.#*insert spongebob laying on ground meme*#le text post

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phagodyke · 1 month ago

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tried putting on my radiator for the first time this winter (we've had snow this week.... its focking cold) but it trips the fusebox for the entire flat lmfao. I'm fuuuucked 😐

#all the other radiators work fine its just mine :'(((#and bc its thw weekend they wont come out to fix it until monday at least so thats great #its fine i havent needed it on this week so far and i have layers and a hot water bottle so ill be fine but i did cry abt it a bit #but not so much abt the radiator just a lot on my mind.. i couldnt pick up my prescription after work either bc the secretary left half an #hour early and the very kind nurse who had a look for it anyway couldnt find it and i cant get there any earlier next week bc of work #i know itll be fine ive already sent an email to ask if they can send it to my local pharmacy instead ill get my meds before they run out #but still i cried a bit walking home from the clinic 😢 just been a long week even if not a bad one. and i miss my friend whos moving #he'll be on the plane now.... man. its a bit selfish but im also sad abt it bc he always noticed how i was feeling when i was at the gym #like if i was privately dealing w some shit or just wasnt quite myself he could tell n would find a moment to gently ask or just be there #without probing abt it like man hes so reassuring and kind and has such a big heart. before he left he asked me to look out for some of #the quieter ones in our group and make sure they feel included and someones listening to them when he wont be around to anymore #😢💔💔💔💔 and i know i didnt know him long enough to become proper good friends with him but it meant a lot that he looked out for me #like all i really want in this world is to feel seen n safe esp when im having a hard time. and none of my closer friends really do that #and thats okay like its not their fault and they just express their way of caring differently but sometimes i feel so lonely ah....#and also my period is due and im kind of scared of how painful itll be bc the last few have been so bad snd i find loneliness a lot harder #when im in a lot of pain and anyway this is all probably just the pre period hormones making me so tearful so it doesnt matter #its ok made a big bowl of rice so im going to eat that wrapped up cosy in bed with a movie i think. and then sleep #.diaries

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lizardlycrimes · 9 months ago

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I just read your tags on your reblog (of the thing I stole your tags for 😅) and - you know the moment in the cartoon where Kash says "we were hoping Earth Wind and Fire here could assist" and everybody looks at Keyleth and Keyleth looks the other way first like "...oh you mean me??" That was 100% me ^^' I am HIGH KEY flattered, but also I'm very much "??!???!?" at the thought of anyone fangirling over me, of all people! whyyy (for real, though, really!?)

(also always SO SO GOOD to find someone else who fucking loves Scanlan 'Patented Disaster' Shorthalt, warts and all 💜)

I don't think I've gotten an ask before!!! This is exciting!!!

Also I love that scene in TLOVM so much I get what you mean by the whole "oh you mean me thing" sjshdjdn I'd probably be a lil shocked too but I'm genuinely am like. A big fan. Getting even this ask got me fangirling all over again!! I love your art so much and you have such an accurate way of portraying Scanlan it drives me nuts!! Both your design and characterization in comics and such just ahh!! Being able to say that's my boy!!! Is so exciting to me!!

It's so hard to find people who are decent about Scanlan it's insane though!! I've seen Scanlan be put through such hellish miss characterization and exclusion. Often times treated more like a thing than a person in my opinion. (Sam's characters as a whole I think are very slept on. Like even with big character reveals the only time I've seen fcg really be posted a LOT about was in relation to romance) on the rare occasion where I see someone who clearly appreciates Scanlan's complexities they basically get immediately engrained into my brain just like you have. Though with how much you've posted of him I think you're past simply engrained and just are part of my brain now.

Also warts and all is a funny way to put it while also being very accurate ajshsjsn but if I dive into that this post though I'd end out discovering what's the word limit on Tumblr 😅

#am still exhausted so gonna sleep soon #i have no clue how to tag this properly 🤔🤔🤔#asks #i should have a proper cool ask tag name but ill probably forget about it next time i get an ask cause i rarely get them.#anyways i love talking about scanlan i can never get enough of it so yhis whole exchange makes me really happy #theres also a layer of like. when any artist i admire chats with me i have yhis moment of like. holy shit picasso is in my dms #even if we've been friends for a while im like.. woah.#ok update words are not wording anymore but if i don't reply now ill forget so sorry for that #i think things should mostly make sense so it should be fine??? but like if you do end out wanting to reply to this too feel free to ask #me to explain wtf i was trying to say. dms are open and so is the asks button #though i guess you could always comment 🤔 ehh whatever you wanna do

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altruistic-meme · 2 months ago

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heyo! it's been a hot minute since that post abt ur living situation after the hurricane(?) and all and just wanted to check in if you were doing ok!! it always makes my day to see you pop up on my dash or notes :D

hi!!! yeah, things have been calming down finally so there hasn't been much to report for me :)

i think i said it a few days ago, but im still without wifi rip. in fact, almost everyone i know is without wifi right now, and a lot are still only getting super weak phone connection at their house. mine works great at home but hardly does anything when im at work.

i think there's still a handful of people i know without power still, but most of us seem to have finally gotten it back! my coworker was yelling at me cus of how soon i had gotten my power back while he had still been waiting for his (he finally got it back a few days ago)

but yeah :) im still super anxious about every hurricane i hear about right now, and bc of altered work hours this week and my drs office closing early on fridays i still haven't figured out my medicine situation, but im less anxious about losing my power again and finally feel comfortable getting cold/frozen food again!

also still sad about the damage everywhere but that's not going away any time soon, so it's a grief ill have to learn to live with

#im glad i got my power back so im glad that i didnt have to go live with anyone else during that time #and also that my sisters didnt ask to stay with me since they got their power back much later than i did gjsjcjaj #i love them but Dear Lord i dont want to live with them again :'))))#i just toughed it out at my place and so did they #but ik several of my coworkers are staying with friends/family or did before getting their own power again #also yes hurricane helene! motherfucker. i like my state just fine but every day i get closer to moving elsewhere #and knowing now that we're ABLE to be hit by hurricanes???? that they've gotten string enough that they reach #the part of the state i live in?????#makes me wanna move cus i cant go through that shit again it SUCKED #i didnt even have it that BAD but DAMN DUDE #you think georgians are bad about essentials+gas when it snows but that hurricane raised the bar so damn high #ok ill stop rambling now fjsjfjjad #me getting off work: gosh im so tired i dont wanna think or talk to anyone else today at all #me the moment i start typing: and and aND AND AND AND #askers #elizeshiro #shh ac

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pupkou · 6 months ago

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i’m literally going to **** ******

#i’ve been without T for a month or so because my doctor forgot to prescribe it again when my last prescription period was over bc she could #only prescribe it a year at a time. so i went in to do bloodwork because ive been having health problems like getting a light period and #PMDD a year and a half into being on T and it happened to be when she was supposed to represcribe which iwas like ok nice!#but she forgot to represcribe it so I was 2 weeks without it before I realized that hmm something probably happened #so I called her and she fixed it. then the pharmacy told me that they're out of stock. so I called them to find out when it'd be in stock.#then they said it's in stock but she prescribed me the 10mL bottle when my insurance doesn't cover that. so I called her again to fix that.#and she said that she didn't prescribe me that because why would she when my shots aren't even close to 1 mL? so I called the pharmacy #and they said yeah idk who said that it's wrong. your T will be ready later today. I go to pick it up and quite literally the moment I pull #up to the window the pharmacists pull down the shade that says they're closed on lunch. so ive had horrible mental health and physical symp #oms for the past month because I've been without t right? so I thought okay when I come back home from moving out of my apt #because my pharmacy is in my hometown; then ill get my T. and then once I get my T I can start my new medication because I want my levels t #stabilize before we introduce something new into the ecosystem. and im cleaning my apartment today and going through bags and shit and lo a #behold? there are four fucking boxes of T sitting in a bag in my closet JUST LIKE I THOUGHT! I JUST COULD NOT FIND THEM so ive been going #through hell for fucking nothing. for literally nothing. and I was like oh my god okay I have my T I should go and pick up my new medicatio #and I go to get my shoes on and look at the clock and it's 5:01. they close at 5.#and I have my appointment with my psychiatrist on Wednesday where shes going to ask me how it's been starting my medication and im going to #have to tell her I havent started and im not better at all and im so new to her im nervous what she will say. sorry for being crazy. im not #good at this or medication. sorry. do you want me to kill myself ill do it in front of you if that would help. AUGHHHHGHHGHGHHHHHHHHHHGGHGH #NONE OF THIS HAD TO HAPPEN. I JUST HAVE SO MUCH SHIT IN MY APARTMENT BECAUSE ITS SO SMALL THAT I COULD NOT FIND PRESCRIPTION MEDICATION #I HATE IT HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LET ME OUTTTTTT (in my brain)

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raspberryzingaaa · 1 year ago

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Thinking about going to World Most Boring Bible Study Ever. Idk yall. Idk. Idek.

#the number of times i have faked a call yo leave early. the number of times ive played solitaire on my phone. i got to the potty to kill tim #like! just answer questions its not that hard!!!!!!#you dont even need to be right just throw some spaghetti at the wall and see what sticks!#also group leaders stop reading questions from a script from your phone #ALSO PLEASE CAN WE STOP GOING THROUGH THE SAME VERSES WE GO THROUVH ON SUNDAYS #this is why we have a split in our life group/church crowdm just sayin #i just. i just miss doing bible studys with people who were way smarter than me #being a church kid in a college church is just 👁👄👁#i shpuldnt be dreading going to bible study!!!!!!#so its probably a me problem right?!#and also the group leaders have had to tell me to stfu more than once (politely. which was really annoying. dont pussyfoot around!!)#also our only bible study is also our ~only space for new comers~ so i get in trouble if i get too meaty in my excitements and theology #EHICH SHOJLDNT BE MY FAULT!!!!!!!#and YEAH it IS my fault that its my only spot where im spiritually feeding. but also there is a secret eomens group people mention that..#i guess im just excluded from? but also i know most of the women dont like me bc I have interminable Doesnt Shut Up Disease l #like i understand fhat yes it is a little my fault rhat me talking about deep theology makes them feel inadequate but also THAT SHOULDNT BE #guh. i also forgot my meds today so im a little bit more mulish and hard hearted #and i KNOW its a teachable moment amd God is usimg this to temper me or something else but im feelimg grumblr #and ill probably delete this later.#and i have to got to work ok bye

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snailune · 9 months ago

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wiki how do I stop spiraling about my life once every 2 weeks I'm getting sick of it

#personal #i just want to make things so bad #it hurts to even look at something anyones made bc im not doing it #i started so late and its still so hard. i got months without doing anything bc im just exhausted from daily life #if i spend more time with my girlfriends i feel like im closer to them but then i have no time for art #if im making something im spending less time with them #and i like my job so much. i really do. i even considered just saying fuck it and going into library sciences #but i still come home barely able or willing to talk sometimes. and i dont know how to fix that #and i feel so unfulfilled and extremely lonely even tho i have friends #but i can barely get myself to draw or write even when i have so many ideas #i feel so uncomfortable in my body and so tired of trying with therapists and doctors #all of it makes me so anxious i feel sick #so Frustrated i feel dizzy. and then i still cant do anything!!!!#i dont want to live here anymore i just want to be with everyone else. but everyone is moving away or planning to. us included #but no one in the same place. it makes me so sad #i dont know what to do or how to do it when i dont have motivation to do the bare minimum #maybe i just like torturing myself by thinking i can do the things i want instead of aceepting i cant. :/ cringes #for anyone that has somehow read this far ill be ok in like 20 minutes im just having a moment dw. im fine. will handle it like an adult #and not spend to much time thinking about this

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perenlop · 11 months ago

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i know this may have just been a matter of budget and not having all the voice actors and maybe getting overwhelmed with all the pokemon goh caught and whatnot but man. it’s sad how jn is seen as a last roundup for ash’s journey and it brought back most of his companions and all, and that’s cool, but it completely failed ash’s pokemon roster back at oak’s lab and kukui’s house by going out of its way to justify using only pikachu and mr mime i guess over them in these earlier episodes and refusing to touch on them throughout the series until near the end

#ok im sorry ill shut up soon fjfjfjjfjfjfjg its just. its SO glaring in this first batch of episodes #no ash why cant you use pokemon besides mimey and pikachu. why is that #we dont see any of those guys until over 60 episodes into the show and even then its a small cameo #and his infernape gets a cool moment but its immediately overshadowed by gary #and then yeah theres the episode where it shows all of them but it feels so rushed and clunky and weird in a lot of areas #like they had to cram all of em in there and didnt know what to do with them all #which wouldnt be so annoying if theyd had some show up throughout the series #and the miniseries shot them in the foot cause really it just shows that ash couldve had a rotation team the whole time and just…. didnt #For Reasons.#like. in the other regions it made sense. they were isolated and self contained #but if you werent gonna give him an actual galar team then literally why NOT have ash use his reserves #hes traveling the whole world doesnt it make more sense for him to have oak on call?#oh and then the miniseries didnt even show all of them…. he didnt even have a full team most of the time #and i love the oshawott episode but other eps felt so disrespectful to his pokemon #like when his swellow got turned to stone and ash barely looked twice. wtf #echoed voice

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year ago

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