denethor is said to have been greatly affected by finduilas’ death, right. and i know their marriage was a political one but i like to believe that they still loved each other. not in the ‘traditional sense’ i guess but they loved each other’s spirits, their souls. the duty (as they viewed it) to protect their people & the willpower to do it, they both shared. and so i think that more precious than love, they understood each other perfectly. as no one else could, or did. i can’t stop thinking about denethor’s grief at losing her. to love someone, and to have them understand you, but to lose them so abruptly… no wonder denethor became embittered by her death. i think he became sad too. closed-off. built even more walls around him, not wanting to be seen as vulnerable by anyone. but his anger, at what (or whom), exactly? he already broke up with god when he was young. at the universe? at his fate? to have lost her so unfairly.
i came here to talk about their love & somewhere in the middle lost myself in his grief lol. never mind, bc what is grief if not love persevering????? they loved each other. i can’t. i CAN’T get over this simple truth. the love was there. it wouldn’t have been this tragic if there’s wasn’t. the love was there. and isn’t that enough (it isn’t. but it is. IT IS). the love was there. THE LOVE WAS. THERE. sobbing. truly sobbing DON’T TOUCH ME
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how did you make lilith? like what were the thoughts in her character creation process
oh the can of worms you’ve opened. I love you.
OKAY SO basically I needed a monster of the week character and I was tossing around a few variations on the same idea: trans character who is also either a monstrous character or a spooky (monster of the week playbook where you have magical abilities but also a mysterious dark side to your powers…) who gets effects of both mixed up. I ended up making her a spooky because I’d already played a monstrous before (Henry my beloved) and wanted to branch out.
SO that’s how Lilith started, and then I decided it’d be fun to have her special interest be magic and monsters and stuff, where she keeps a blog cataloguing everything she learns. this worked out well as a way for her to have met another character, her best friend Evelyn, because Evelyn works for an organization that would want to put a stop to that blogging thing. (Which Lilith begrudgingly did and instead switched to a very thorough journal AND talking to Evelyn about magic stuff 24/7).
I also ended up making her schizophrenic, because for a while I’ve been in my brain thinking about exploring what it’d be like to be schizophrenic in a world where a lot of the things that could be delusions or hallucinations are actually real, or caused by other magical things. like, I have mixed feelings on stories that’re like “woah, this character thought they were just having ordinary delusions and hallucinations but it was real and/or magically induced all along”, but I think having a character where some stuff is like that and other stuff isn’t related to magic at all and there’s a lot of struggle to differentiate between the two is COOL! Also I think it’s a bit funny in a magical world to have a character experiencing something going “woah… this is so magical and spooky” and then it’s just her experiencing symptoms of an ordinary thing. (also this adds an extra layer to the mixing up effects of things bit from being spooky and trans which started the whole thing).
I believe that was all the groundwork for her and then it was just a matter of fleshing things out. The other player character, Avalon, and her met because Avalon runs a sort of mobile magical clinic and Lilith needed help from that one time and then, upon realizing this was someone she could learn more about magic from, never left. Clerval is a character who’s dead at the start of the campaign but it’s important that all our characters knew them before—they basically just adopted Lilith as a friend with no hesitation when they noticed their was something spooky up with her.
Anyways, she loves magic she loves making friends she loves texting you random emojis that don’t communicate anything at all, she’s my world.
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