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operationblanketfort · 2 years ago

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#accidentally made up one reason (that won’t even be real it’s not a real thing I literally daydreamed it up) to be guilty #and now guess what!!! can’t stop being guilty #literally was so fine and now I’m having bad thoughts bc I feel guilty #bad thoughts is an understatement btw jsut don’t want to type out what they really are in case it makes them worse (has happened b4)#like ffs other people’s actions have nothing to do with me especially when I haven’t spoken to them todya!!!!! literally they’re not even #thinking about me and yet here I am feeling so guilty for NO REASON #I hate it #mine #also how funny is it that I’ve felt like shit all day and the only thing I needed to do was call my mum #felt So much better (underline underline underline) and like a huge weight was gone and I should’ve done it earlier maybe I would’ve been #able to relax properly #oh well I’ve got this evening still

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formerprincewille · 8 months ago

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Something that really sets Wille and Simon apart from other queer ships is that when we say their love language is physical touch, IT REALLY IS PHYSICAL TOUCH. And I’m not speaking of just sex. Over the course of the show, the amount of touching between them is astronomical. And that’s really something rarely seen in queer media. There may be moments here or there, but often times there’s a lack of physical contact unless it’s for “the plot”. Wille and Simon feel like a real couple in the way they’re always physically reaching out for each other.

#wilmon #young royals #OH ALSO #wtfock #sobbe #cuz they def belong in this category too #constant touching between them #but you don’t get it with most queer ships and idk if it’s just bc production is afraid of it being ‘too much’ or what #but it’s annoying #and frustrating #just something I’ve been pondering on recently #tv has come a long way in terms of representation #but it still feels like there’s almost a FEAR of too much affection between queer pairings #it’s seen more with mlm than wlw cuz I think they’re like oh well women are more physically affectionate in general even with friends #but damn like #I mean I’m a woman and bisexual so obv I have a lot of queer friends #and a couple of my besties are gay men who have been married for years #fun thing they live right next door to my parents lol #and I’ve known one half (michael) since I was 16 and he was 14 lol my friend jen actually had a big crush on him #and I was like GIRL #BUT ANYWAY #he and rick have been married for many years and they’re SO AFFECTIONATE in a casual way that you would be with a partner #just touches here and there on the shoulder or hand hold or kisses like???#obviously they aren’t the only gay couple I know but I’m around them so much so they are a good example #Lol this got weirdly personal but the point is that we don’t see that shit in queer media #at least not enough of it it’s like producers/writers are afraid of ‘too much’#so they give not enough #ANYWAYYYY rant over!!!

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fitpacs · 1 month ago

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#started typing out a long soppy post as i’m emotional rn but decided otherwise #i just want to say thank you to the community really #this is by far the nicest community i have ever had the pleasure of being part of #and i’ve always had imposter syndrome i guess and other fandoms only amplified that and made me feel beyond useless #and i’ve always had the misfortune of only being known as ‘[person]’s friend’ or ‘[person]’s mutual’ etc #and never as just my own person i guess #and i kind of got used to that? i got used to people only communicating with me to get to someone else - usually someone with more clout-#or followers or whatever #and ngl part of that still fucking stings #and is partly why i joined this community completely anonymous #like i am just anonymous community member fitpacs with nothing more than pronouns #and the fact i have managed to make friends and connections in this community even with that - it astounds me #and it means the absolute fucking world #i’ve never had the feeling of complete acceptance in an online sphere (i’ve dealt with irl aspects in therapy dw im fine)#so i just want to say thank you for accepting me wholly and completely in this community (q/smpblr/ratinhos/huevitos)#i honestly wasn’t expecting the warm welcome because of past fandoms #and i don’t know how ive managed to have such a wholesome experience honestly but thank you #thank you for reading my fics and my shitposts and sending kind anons (remember ‘fitpacs appreciation day’?!)#just thank you for accepting me for me and not expecting anything in return #i may regret posting this tomorrow but oh well #thank you for accepting anonymous community member fitpacs and expecting nothing in return - it means the world to me and then some

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fingertipsmp3 · 2 months ago

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Maybe I did this to myself but it does irk me when people see me knitting and they ask who it’s for and I say it’s for me and the immediate reaction is “you should sell it” yeah… let me spend at least a week’s worth of my free time making an item I like, want, and would wear just to sell it on etsy, making at most a £2 profit on materials and not being compensated for my time whatsoever 👍🏻

#i say maybe i did this to myself because historically i have gifted most of the items i have knitted #because the venn diagram of things i like to knit vs things i like to wear is actually 2 circles that don’t touch #i looove making hats. i HATE wearing hats #also i love making baby clothes but i don’t have a baby and i’m not going to have a baby #however lately i’ve gotten really into knitting socks and i really like to wear knit socks. it’s like the most affordable way for me to get #quality wool socks. and i’m going to be watching my shows anyway. the time will pass anyways #but it feels like people are deliberately making me feel weird for wanting to make stuff for myself and not profit off my hobby #and like i’ve made 3 pairs of socks to gift already because ‘tis the season or whatever. and i’ve started another pair for a friend whose #birthday is in january #genuinely it’s very weird to hear ‘you should sell it’ or ‘oh i want one!!’ about an item i’m making for myself. after 18 years of gifting #or donating basically everything i’ve ever knitted. like i’ve gifted 2 double bed size crochet blankets #everyone i’ve known who’s had a baby has gotten a cardigan or a blanket or hats or all of the above #i spent october making poppies for the church. i’ve never even stepped foot in my village church mind you. my neighbour asked me to help #do you know what i own? that i’ve knitted? a pair of mittens and a pair of socks.#you want some socks from me? alright. that’s anywhere between £6 and £10 for the yarn and that’s optimistic #i’m currently making myself a pair with hand-dyed yarn that cost me £18 including delivery #the needles i use cost me more than £10. time… let’s call it 24 hours per sock #i don’t know anyone with 18 years experience who makes minimum wage so let’s call it an even 600 for my time. tbh #DO YOU SEE how this isn’t a viable side hussle??? i physically cannot charge what my socks are worth #if i like you and you’re willing to wait; socks are free or cost whatever the yarn costs #if i don’t like or know you venmo me £620. and you’re still going to have to wait.#just pisses me OFF when people suggest i make an etsy page and they say it like they’re doing me a favour or giving me great financial #advice. like you’ve seen me sitting here all evening and i’m barely done with the cuff.. do you actually think selling these for £20 maximum #is going to help me out. i’m not selling them. they’re FOR me. i’m making them because i want them #also when my friend’s family was saying this to me and i was like ‘well the yarn cost a fiver’ and they got quiet and i was thinking yeah…#a fiver is the maximum you cheapskates would pay isn’t it. a fiver is cheap sock yarn bought on sale. or yarn that probably isn’t actually #good for socks. like don’t presume to give me financial advice when you’re this out of touch with the market please #next person who asks when i’m going to start selling socks is getting this whole rant in entirety tbh i don’t care anymore #personal #edited to add that i didn’t even get into etsy fees or whether i would even be noticed among the mountain of dropshippers LOL

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arolesbianism · 2 months ago

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An older and a slightly newer concept for stalien Odile

#keese draws #eternal gales #isat #isat odile #was going to doodle her some more but erm. didn’t want to.#anyways sorry gamers but this au is still alive and well #I also technically have an older bonnie concept but I don’t like it so. :p #rip isa and mira I have vague ideas for them but nothing I’ve drawn #the main problem with those two have been deciding energy types because I rly rly want mira to have purple energy #but then she can’t be the team healer and I’d either have to make someone else the team healer (aka isa he’s the only one leftover)#or have No healers which I’d rather not do #and it’s not even like I have good reason to give mira purple energy try as I might I don’t think I could justify her using it much #she she’s probably going to get. sigh. green energy.#which leaves isa as my wildcard I have no ideas for him #I’d like to avoid repeats ofc but that still leaves him with 4 options #well ok I’m not giving him blue energy I do not want him to be a blue eyed white boy #I guess I could give him a pale variant so I don’t shave to worry abt any abilities?#like pale purple maybe #still doesn’t rly click with me but eh that’s future me’s problem #oh for context bonnie has claimed pink already and sif got dibs on red #<- the context means nothing to 99% of ppl rip

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misiahasahardname · 3 months ago

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uh oh!

going back to basics with a fun screenshot redraw! i’ve been getting back into them recently… (original screenshot below)

loveeeeeeedddddddddd this moment tbh. the drama around the files was pretty interesting imo :3 (i saw a lot of people hating on season 3 testtube because of her beef with cabby which makes me a bit upset? i’m becoming a pretty big testtube fan… (ii fans when a character actually plays the game strategically (COUGH COUGH silver haters WHAAAT who said that)))

#i still haven’t figured out how to do gradients in ibispaint even though i’ve been using this damn app ever since i got an ipad so i’m—#—sticking with my 90 degree motion blur method 👍🏼#also i tried to add like. subtle features to make it at least SLIGHTLY clear this is bowbot and not bow #is it ok to call bot ‘bowbot’ when referring to them like. BEFORE they figured out their identity?#or at least like. before they changed their appearance? just to make it clearer #idk. oh well #kinda regret not using a slightly thicker line width with silver and paintbrush but it can’t be helped now #ii test tube #ii silver spoon #ii paintbrush #ii bot #(though they’re still in their bow era iirc)#ii balloon #inanimate insanity #ii #inanimate insanity invitational #iii

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pink-lemonadefairy · 5 months ago

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#probably my last sunny walk at home :(#keeeeellll meeeee #i think one of the things i hate about going back to uni is not being able to experience autumn and winter at home like i used to #it’s weird because i’ve always loved them and considered them my favourite seasons.#but last year (and now this year) i’m realizing that oh! i think it’s because i got to come home after a long day and be in a safe familiar #space. and at uni everything is still a bit unfamiliar and not very comforting so the long cold days get so much harder #but i will surviveeeeeee #counting on gilmore girls to get me through it!! and also love is blind s7. i LOVE having things to look forward to every week it makes tim #fly by so fast. last yr every friday night was reserved for me and i ate frozen pizza or takeout and/or my favourite snacks and #watch my comfort films :( i cooked a lot those nights too 2 save money but yeah. it was rlly nice to have that comfy safe time to myself #i think it rlly got me thru uni.#ik it’s gonna be so hard to get back into a routine but im trying to tell myself that i need to like. focus on the basics first. adulting #can be so hard & i wanna do everything at once! i wanna b perfect in all areas. always do my hobbies. etc etc but i #i couldnt even get out of bed to make myself meals sometimes 💔 so i need to like remember if i don’t journal or read a whole book in a day #not the end of the world. and most importantly i need to be EATING and staying active and SLEEPING FIRST and foremost cause then hopefully #i won’t feel like a zombie.#okay anyways.#feeling sad feeling tired feeling unmotivated but also feeling a teensy bit excited for finally BEING ALONE!!!!#i have my cardiologist appt tmrw so maybe that’s why i feel so yuck also. just thinking abt it makes me wanna throw up #i hope everything goes well #anyways bye bye #♡ dear diary…

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dreadful-luck · 5 months ago

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GGS TEAM PAST!!!

#DUUUDE THIS WAS SO FUN #dreadful #veji #art #splatoon #splatoon 3 #grand festival #grand fest splatoon #Man I shed like a few tears by the end of the reveal news thing #Like not out of sadness cause my team lost but just from the joy that all this happened and I was here for it.#I never got to experience splatoon 2’s final fest so I’ve waited 3 years for this and I’m…. Just so happy!#If you couldn’t tell from the colours in the drawing I’m team future btw #I laughed so hard seeing the results lol we got NOTHING #Oh and I guess I should put my reasoning for my pick of future #so here it is:#I picked it because the future scares me. But it’s gonna happen anyway so I might as well look forward to it #I can’t let myself worry about where I’ll end up and who I’ll be when I’m older #But I do need to keep looking forward #I also chose it cause of deep cut. Like that was a big factor in my choice #Their music shaped my tastes. I just love it so much #And sure the characters themselves aren’t as fleshed out as the other idols #But they still mean a lot to me as splatoon 3 is the game that got me into the franchise #Even though I played 2 before 3 could never fully enjoy it as I came too late #I missed every splatfest cause I got it a year before splat3 #So I could never connect the way I did to 3 #Hearing anarchy rainbow for the first time changed me man. I fell in love instantly. It just means so much.#As an autistic person I actually surprisingly don’t really stim that much. But hearing anarchy rainbow just… flipped a switch.#I couldn’t stop moving. Literally like DJ Octavio man. It was a crazy experience to just feel like I had to move.#to walk around or something. To wave and flap my arms. Copy their dances. It sounds a little weird and childish when it’s written down #But it’s true. Splatoon’s music showed me that my autistic stimming was something I should embrace.

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regular-lord-reckoner · 6 months ago

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i’m home !!

procedure went real well, everything was really smooth and almost as soon as they said, “you can count backwards if you want,” i don’t think i even said ten before i was suddenly in recovery and sipping some ginger ale.

honestly the worst part was the iv because they had to do it on the side of my wrist because apparently my veins are crooked ?? i just hate ivs anyway so that’s no surprise but other than that no complaints.

everyone was real nice and made sure i was well taken care of (my nurse even had me pee one more time before so she wouldn’t have to do a catheter which with my history…..thank you)

but yeah, i’ll have a follow up in about a month just to make sure everything’s good and the iud is doing its thing !!

i do have some cramping and bleeding but that’s normal, although a little funny because i literally just stopped my period yesterday but…oh well !! hopefully in a few months i won’t have hardly any so this we can handle and i hace some medicine (and my ~medicine) that’ll help so i’m all set.

mom had to go run some errands so my little recovery buddy is keeping me company. also, a moment of recognition for my new favorite shirt (thank you as always, Boss Dog Art; i’ve already got my eye on another one that says, “i think therefore i am against transphobia around the world” or something like that and it’s got a cool skeleton on it; this is my third shirt from them and they’re really comfy and good quality so not sponsored but check them out, they seem cool):

#It’s been a rough week leading up to this i’m not gonna lie #one of my neighbors was shooting on Sunday when i was in the pool #which i’m used to at this point #but for some reason i got triggered into a panic attack #and could not catch my breath #could not calm down for several minutes just scream crying #had to dunk my head underwater a few times and splash myself in the face #eventually i just buried my face in my towel and screamed cried until i physically had to stop #because i thought i was about to have a heart attack #so that wasn’t so chill #spent the rest of the day shaking #guess you just never know when it’s gonna hit!!#another plane has hit the ptsd towers #sorry #not for nothing though but the shooting stopped so there’s that #they probably thought someone had a fuckin’ ari aster movie turned up over here #nope just a mentally unstable bitch doing her best which clearly isn’t great but what can ya do!!#it was kinda funny though because i’ve been hesitant to go back out there since #but finally yesterday i had even worked longer the day before so i could really enjoy it #it had been sunny all day #no signs of rain #i’m ready to get some exercise in because i knew it might be a while #before i can again so i was really looking forward to a nice 30 minute run #damned if it didn’t start raining as soon as i got out there #and that was fine #i still ran a little got my water weights in #but the kicker was i looked at the weather on my phone and it looked like it was going to keep raining #so i said okay let me just go take a shower and settle in for the night #it didn’t rain and the sun came back out so oh well!#but point is…today went well and i’m doing okay and things could always be worse so no worries <3

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deepseawave · 6 months ago

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obsessed w the tags on ur last reblog

Omgg, thank you haha, it was a quality post so I just had to appreciate it in full force 😂❤️

Can‘t believe someone would actually enjoy my yapping :,D

#guys help is it time for a rebranding?? am I just gonna post about f1 now??#I still can’t believe this has all started because bestie and I were watching Ted Lasso (because I’ve been obsessed with that show for a #while now too) and I paused the episode to talk about how I really like the way Jamie interacts with kids (I’m sorry people being good with #and nice to kids is one of my weaknesses I work with kids now and have been invested in treating kids well forever)#so me saying that apparently reminded her of max and she showed me a video of him with p and yeah it was very effective in making me like #him and then we left the episode on pause and she told me a lot about f1 and max specifically cause I was interested now lmao (funny thing #is that she also got roped into it by our other friends I swear it’s speeding lmao #she also compared him to Jamie from Ted lasso (if you know you know) and showed me some heart wrenching Taylor swift edits (i haven’t #emotionally recovered yet) and yeah that’s how I started consuming way too much f1 content on YouTube and got into this whole mess lmao #oh yeah our friends also made me and another friend make a Tier list for all the drivers based on vibes alone (cause I only knew a bit about #max at that time and the other one knew nothing really) which was very funny too #especially looking back at it (we did some of them so dirty lmao 😂)#I’ve also come to the conclusion that tumblr is still one of the least annoying platforms to engage with other people (still)#YouTube is full of hate comments about drivers and stuff it’s so annoying actually #not to mention Twitter but I don’t go there and probably never will 😂#I personally don’t enjoy fics and scenarios and shipping of real people cause it makes me a bit uncomfy (not judging people who do #you do you as long as it doesn’t negatively affect anyone #but yeah I’d much rather just scroll by those here than have to look away from all the mindless hate and which driver is better discussions #everywhere else like I’m not one to engage with stuff like that but it does upset me to some #degree so yeah tumblr making memes and being rather positive about their drivers (most of what I’ve seen here of course there are gonna be #annoying people everywhere) is much more tolerable and a lot more enjoyable for me #whoops this post got away from me again oh dear #I’ve had the idea for a meme stuck in my head for days now: Max verstappen but make it if you don’t love me at my *swearing on team radio #giving spicy replies and attitude to the media maxplaining and complaining going for risky overtakes* you don’t deserve me at my *precious #interactions with p talking about his cats being a goofball with other drivers and especially danny defending other drivers driving #beautifully in the rain* it’s a package deal you can’t just pick and choose and personally I don’t even get why people complain about some #of the other stuff I appreciate someone who’s passionate and honest and genuinely kind where it matters 🤷🏻‍♀️#I think I’ve seen someone else say that but the more people complain about and criticize max the more I feel the need to defend him #god forbid women have hobbies for real (can’t believe I’ve yapped so much I can’t put more tags 💀)#also shoutout to Oscar Piastri and Danny Ric (I was so happy Oscar won even tho McLaren where being very silly in a not so funny way)

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fakeoutbf · 1 month ago

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#idk why i watched this christmas gift haul video from these youtubers i keep up with #like their whole family got them things and really thoughtful gifts and then their husbands also got them a bunch of stuff #and some of them were so so personal but also their dad has like a bunch of cute little traditions for retro gifts and silly gifts #and i know the whole point of christmas isn’t to get gifts it’s to spend time with loved ones #but i got one gift from a gift exchange we did at work and that’s it #and like my mom always gets my brother something and this year she was just like oh i didn’t know what to get you #so like i didn’t even open anything and still haven’t gotten anything from her and then my dad never gives me anything anymore #and i’ve never done gifts with other friends or whatever and my brother would never get me anything and so #idk i wish someone would just like know me so well that they thought to get me cute little things for christmas #it doesn’t even have to be expensive or whatever i’d just love to know someone thought of me like that you know

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betterthanbatman1 · 1 year ago

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Omg guys Ive been so tired today and I literally had like 2+hours of zoned out daydreaming and I was like omg I don’t want to forget this. So I wrote it out and now I have almost 1.5K words 😭

I might just publish my first fic 👀