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So… I always promised myself that I would never ship an oc with a canon character, it’s just never been my thing. Buuuuut does it count if the oc is from a different fandom???
This started as a joke in my head, it was meant to be ironic. Funny. But now it is not. It is very much not. So I live with this crossover au in my head.
Everybody meet Becca, she’s the main character of my replacement for the Nine Realms (🤢), and in this au she has become entranced by the ✨eyes✨
#thunderbirds are go#thunderbirds 2015#thunderbirds au#thunderbirds#scott tracy#httyd au#httyd oc#night fury oc#Becca Cadell#Peregrine the night fury#crossover au#oc x canon#oh god the shame I feel#why#httyd
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cw: pro-hero bakugo, reader has boobs, kind of explicit/nsfw? idk i describe boobs, reader is smaller and shorter than bakugo, unedited sawry
bakugo's muscle tee looks as ill-fitting as it'll ever be draped over you.
there are reasons for this, perfectly founded and logical reasons for why that is—the main one being that, it's, well, his; two, maybe even three sizes larger than what it should be to fit you properly.
but, he can't stop staring, and there are reasons for that too—the main one being that, it's his, and yet, the only way he can ever imagine it now is when it's being worn by you.
your hips sway to the song you've been humming for the past five minutes. it's the same one, the chorus on a perpetual loop. he's sure it's the only part you know; you do this often enough that it's the only part he knows now, too.
the hem of his tee hits right at the top of your thighs, concealing just enough to tease, but he’s confident that if you reach up even the slightest bit for the cupboard overhead, there'll be nothing to hide.
he feels a little bit like a creep like this, watching as he stands in the middle of your shared living room, but it's impossible too look away—you've got to be doing this on purpose, right?
heat flares inside of him when you turn your body ever so slightly, the armhole of his muscle tee large enough to give him the clearest view of skin—
he gulps.
it's smooth, sloping just right; the side view of your under boob curves into its perfect shape and he can imagine it, feel—
(is this considered perving if he's been with you for years?)
the pan in front of you sizzles as you plop in god knows what. you pour in something from the side and wait, one hand propped on the hip you pop out. then, you pick up the pan, attempting to flip what's inside (probably a pancake, now that he thinks about it).
it’s hard to focus on what you’re cooking though, especially when all he sees is plump flesh jiggling, bouncing as you further agitate the pan.
he just got the pants of this suit readjusted, and now they're fucking tight.
bakugo normally runs hot; it’s kind of part of his dna. but this warmth is different, flushing him from head to toe. it creeps up the side of his neck, painting the tips of his ears a blooming red.
you turn around then, plopping the pancake on the plate atop the counter behind you.
"oh! you're done," you greet him with a smile. so. fucking. casually.
as if your tits aren't fucking peaking against the gray fabric of his tee.
as if you think he buys the fake innocence poorly concealing that sly, conniving look in your pretty eyes.
as if you aren't standing in front of him in his muscle tee, wearing nothing underneath it like you didn’t do this on purpose. like you don’t know what it fucking does to him.
his eyes squint suspiciously, deep vermillion staring straight into yours.
you tilt your head, the tips of your lashes kissing the top of your cheekbones as you blink. you reach for a bottle of honey.
“everything okay?” you ask, voice syrupy, sickeningly sweet.
your movements play in front of him languidly, the corner of your lips curling up slightly as you smirk. honey catches on your finger as you pop open the bottle cap.
he’s supposed to be out the door in five minutes if he wants to make it in time for a meeting at the agency. technically, he should already be there if he wants to keep up his track record of consistently being fifteen minutes too early.
but you start to approach him, rounding the kitchen island. there’s a narrow space between him and the slab of marble, but you slide into it like it was made for you.
he’s certain it was, from the way the tip of your nose brushes against his as you tiptoe. your tits are right fucking there, brushing against the skintight material of his suit.
there’s too much fucking fabric if you ask him, between cotton and spandex.
your grin widens, and he feels hot, the heat from his cheeks radiating.
then you whisper, still saccharine, “breakfast is ready,” before kissing him on the lips lightly. a short peck, soft in the way that promises more before you slip away, giggling in your retreat.
he huffs, watching you leave. his feet shift as he thinks.
five minutes, huh?
like hell he’s going to eat these damn pancakes for breakfast today.
#bakugo x reader#bakugo katsuki x reader#katsuki bakugo x reader#bnha x reader#mha x reader#ALWAYS GOING TO PUSH FOR THE BKG CLOSET PERV AGENDA 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#he HAAAAAAAAATES that he feels this way BUT LIKE ALL HERO STORIES START WITH: his body moves on its own 🙂↕️🙂↕️🙂↕️🙂↕️#he tries to restrain it sooooo hard#but i think when youve been together a while something shifts in him#he still gets flustered!! still gets so hot and embarrassed about it!!! but i think he grows comfortable#with the idea that he /can/ act on it. that it isn’t shameful if he does.#so i think the big difference between a pining bakugo and being in a relationship w him#esp a long term one#is the fact that his reactions are still very much the same#but his actions become more proactive when he feels more secure in the relationship#and i adore the idea of a reader who loves teasing him for it#who looooves pushing his buttons#who looooooves seeing how far they can take it#and it's all fun and games and he's blushing and everything when you do it#but he gets you back so good for it. SOOOOO good. oh my god.#ok bye this was my brainrot at the gym today#rated#shotorus.bubble#bnha#katsu
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i think people like these, so. i present to you:
rtc incorrect quotes, except they're all screenshots of things i've said that i found in my camera roll (part 3)
throws these at you
(part 1) (part 2) (part 4)
#these ones might not be as funny as the other ones. sorry :')#also they're a lil jane/penny heavy this time-#sorry#i feel like i don't say enough things with ocean vibes#which is a shame because i love her#also sorry if the penny one is ooc#it wasn't intended to be strictly legoland penny but there are obviously no images for like. headcanon penny lol#oh god i'm rambling again i need actual tags-#ride the cyclone#rtc#rtc incorrect quotes#legoland#bagel thoughts#legoland play#jane doe rtc#ricky potts#noel gruber#misha bachynskyi#constance blackwood#ocean o'connell rosenberg#penny lamb#please help it is 3am
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have yet to stop thinking about the plane ride to Barcelona, aka the worlds most awkward plane ride in the world. Like who do we think sat together? Did Devon talk to any of them, like is she’s friends with any of the other teens? Did Eli and demetri drag other people into their drama, was demetri very obviously trying to avoid Eli, messing up the assumed plane seating arrangements? Was Robby brooding over his missing girlfriend and her dead mom the whole time? Were Daniel and Johnny still beefing or do we think they tried to save face for the kids? Is there any chance that Miguel and Sam were able to just have a nice time hanging out with each other on the flight or did they get dragged into everyone else’s drama? I’m so obsessed with the logistics of the Barcelona trip, not to mention the flight is like 11 hours long if it’s non-stop. it sounds like the trip from hell
#Like Devon is implied to be younger than them bc she’s always with Anthony and Kenny so like I don’t think she knows them that well#MAYBE Miguel from eagle fang days but I doubt they’re close and also he is closer to literally everyone else on that flight#Did she just awkwardly sit with Johnny like I know he loves her but it’s still sad#Also I beg the question (which may actually get answered) did Johnny and Daniel like bring their families??????#Like are Amanda and Carmen there? Is Anthony coming just to watch? That feels mean to him#If Anthony didn’t come then I doubt Amanda did which makes me doubt that pregnant Carmen did which then begs the question#Do lawrusso have to share a hotel room and hilarity ensues? To me? Yes#It’s just like I think there’s no way Miguel and Sam escape the binary boyfriends drama which is a shame bc they’re not fighting with anyon#They could have peace but alas#And then you know Robby is going through it#Oh my god it cracks me up so much I haven’t stopped thinking about it#cobra kai
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I always think well if I dated a man, I wouldn't feel as insane. I wouldn't feel so awful or jealous. And then I remember why I came to the conclusion that I'm a lesbian. I just wouldn't care if it were a man. I just can't bring myself to care about men like that 😔😩😭
#personal#I've definitely been like oh hes paying attention to another girl thats a shame :((( about it like damn you were supposed to pine for me#forever and ever#but its never like I'm going to kill someone over it. I don't feel sick about it. I don't feel bone crushing sorrow#😭😔#but I feel like maybe I experience comphet a tad? because I look at cute couples like jenna and julien#or jessi and ty and wish to have that. like i want what they have so bad but also that will never be me because im gay#i wish there was more lesbian and gay rep in media#god does not LIKE ME . he said here is. bad parents who hate you. here is bpd and other undiagnosed issues#and other undiagnosed issues that were probably half the reason you felt so isolated in your high school experience. thanks to bad parents#here is 🩷 COMPHET!!!!!!!!!!@@ you're actually GAY and those boys you were crazy for? yeah . they were cute and all but thats IT#NO emotional connection!!!! none at ALL!!!!! 😍😍😍 you also don't feel sexually attracted to them either ♡#but what DO i feel for men?? just comphet? I feel something I think but its not love. its not a craving . its like#I want to be worshipped by a man and then tell him no 🩷 i want nothing to do with you but you should like me actually#??????????????????#does that make me a bad person? do I care if it does? I mean
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He is so 🤏
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#lmao suzuki i thought of you at the last minute and had to ref the 'he likes to feel tall' mene#<- i mean duh its canon. babygirl is constantly sitting on countertops#just sometimes more uh slayfully like the third image#well guys as you can tell im a big fan of that recent tiktok#so thought i should draw some of the moments cause aghhhh hes brainrotted me so badly#as suzuki pointed out to me. he has this distinct look of partial shame in the bts of the microwave vid#i like to think he came to work that morning and was like omg jimmy i have a tiktok vid#and then halfway thru making it was like: oh wow this is more embarrassing to do than i thought it would be#but dw cringe is dead to him. he doesnt care >:)#but if this is a mere glimpse of the silliness that is yet to come in this coming season. god im so excited to see more of his antics#bros seriously been liveblogging his work days since he got back to the factory 😭😭#they should make a legitimate cinematic day in the life vid of him not just a tiktok or clipe#*clips#fernando alonso#f1#formula 1#catie.art.
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my opinion on the Blake lively situation
#okay so I never HATED Blake lively#but I did have a feeling about her#so I’d always like purposely not interact or view any interview or anything of hers that came up on my feed#I DON’T like Ryan Reynolds and never have#I just find him a try hard and annoying#and I did not like the couple of Blake and Ryan#they just seemed soooo pick me#so yeah I tried to just ignore the whole downfall of Blake lively that’s been happening#bc sometimes I just don’t care to comment or learn about celeb drama#BUTTTT ofc i got sucked into it#and not Blake tryna have a Margot Robbie in Barbie moment 😂😂#‘bring your girlfriends and wear florals!1!1’ GIRL MARGOT NEVER TOLD ANYONE TO WEAR PINK TO BARBIE IT WAS A NATURAL THING#not to mention I didn’t even realise this movie was about domestic violence as I’ve never read the book#and it was NOT being marketed as one thanks to Blake and Ryan#also why did Ryan have to get involve#ALSO this morning I saw the interview from 2016 where Blake is being rude to the interview#and oh my god it’s awful like SHE FIRSTLY FAT SHAMES HER OFF THE BAT NO HESITATION#then proceeds to ignore the poor interviewer#like doesn’t give her eye contact AT ALL#which I felt so bad for the interview bc I’ve BEEN THERE#this is why I’d hate to be a celeb interview bc imagine getting treated like a third rate individual by these big headed LOSERS who think#they’re better than you just bc they’re famous#I could NOT#anyways also Blake tried to have a whole feminist moment when the interviewer asked her about the clothes she wears in the movie#‘would anyone ask the men about the clothes’#UM BITCH YES??? COSTUMES??? IN FILM?? IS A THING ???#also can I just say Blake has always had the worst hair ever and the fact she has a hair care line is insane bc SHE IS KNOWN TO HAVE BAD HAI#and I never thought her fashion was good like even when people were simping over her met gala outfits I NEVER EVER SAW THE VISION#anyways yeah lol#the interviewer thing triggered me lowkey like HOW RUDEEEE
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man, your one-shot is still on my mind and for a moment I thought that Hunter Angst comic you reblogged w/"I just miss him so much" and Luz staring into the void while he leans on her was about the whole "Hunter having complicated, involuntary grief for Belos and deeply needing to talk about it but feeling too ashamed to open up" thing instead of like. Flapjack. this is what you've done to my knee-jerk understanding of TOH!!! (/pos)
help i'm dying. i connected the flapjack thing immediately but as i was reblogging it i TOO had a moment of "i know it isn't and wouldn't be. but MAN it would suck for everyone involved if these feelings were about belos."
#replies#i think in the canon hunter's feelings are mainly just 'oh thank god everyone's safe now' and 'i'm taking selfies on his grave <3'#but hoo boy do i love complicated involuntary grief that causes a shame spiral. that's the stuff#toh#hunter toh
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I would love to understand why my brain and body are desperate to not shower in the safety of my own home but perked up at the offer to go shower at the gym that’s full of people I don’t know and men who could pin me and locker rooms with open doorways and less control over cleanliness than I can get in my own apartment. Something something the years of swim practice and swim meet locker room showers being safe I guess?
#I’ll allow it#I’ll even encourage it if it can help me get over 6 miles walked per day again#but can I please fucking shower? I feel so gross#I have never in my life had as hard a time showering or bathing as I have this year and it’s been killing my self esteem#I feel like everyone knows I’m gross and I KNOW I need to shower#it’s important#and I don’t want my hair greasy or anything#but I go out of my way to avoid it except for an occasional hair wash or body shower when I need to go to an event#and it’s driving me CRAZY#cleanliness is really really next to godliness in my family and also I know everyone in the world views hygiene as a moral issue#and I CAN SHOWER I did it for YEARS I even did it daily for years I used to be SO good at always always doing at least the minimum#even if sleep deprived or sick#but now it’s like I’m stuck SCREAMING and slamming my palms bloody in a containment cell somewhere in the center of my concept of a body#BEGGING to just stop being so gross and to do a daily face routine and use lotion and keep my teeth healthy and keep my hair clean#and it doesn’t even matter#I’m so ashamed all the time#but my brain doesn’t give a shit about it anymore#it views the endless shame as a lesser evil and god I hope I figure out how to get that stopped#I don’t even get triggered in the shower!!! I don’t know what’s wrong! my brain just does everything it can#to keep me from undressing and showering#no matter how much I hate it#and this is so tmi sorry oh god#I’ll probably delete this later#but#shh katie#add to journal#is it the dissociation? is it the adhd? is it the ptsd?#FINALLY my POTS symptoms chill out for the winter and now THIS?
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I’m reading as many Shuake fics as I can (the brain worms are consuming me) and as much as I love the fact that people write Akechi with the “I thought I would be happy when I killed him but the second I did it I felt sad??? Empty??? I also threw up as I left the interrogation room???” complete 180 of emotions he could have in that instant, I feel deep within my heart that he went home after that, decided to open a bottle of expensive alcohol a coworker gave him (why they thought that was a good idea he doesn’t know) to celebrate and doesn’t realize how much he fucked up until he’s piss drunk and does something silly and his drunk ass brain goes “hehe joker would find that funny” and starts having a mental breakdown while crying on the floor of his bathroom.
#crow grumbles#persona 5#goro akechi#shuake#akeshu#he’s too emotionally repressed to immediately realize#it’ll take a few hours and lowered inhibitions for him to even start feelings something other than satisfaction and pride#he has deluded himself too much to make that connection instantly#even tho joker is his rival I feel like he’d be like ��shame it was a waste of a rivalry I guess he was ok’#before the severely delayed ‘oh god what have I done’
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do you write fic on ao3?
unfortunately for everyone involved i do!
#ask#and if youre wondering about my handle i write on anon so its doesnt particularly matter (shrugs)#and also i think its pretty easy to figure out which fics ive written because i want to makeout mad sloppy style with an em dash#anyways (waves offhandely) it doesnt really matter much because i have like posted an ss on here before so you know#its not like im trying to hide it like eh#but also because of my disposition that would put a tranced rabbit to shame i dont exactly yell it from the hilltops either#the moral of the story is if you ask me what im working on ill yap about it maybe like post an excerpt#and months later youll find something posted on anon and youll be like oh! so they finally posted it!#so to spare you all (lies on my tummy like we're at a sleepover and giggles) you wanna hear what im working on#haha of course you do youre a prisoner in my yap box#and i want an excuse to talk about it hidden in the tags so people skim over it and not read it <3#SO the earliest wip is from like early october about a magical realism au because i rewatched lwa as i usually do and well theres this one#ep about a magical animal if you will... and you can kinda guess what it is from that lol its sashaforsyekky#because the dreaded @/tungpin infected me with the brainworms about this trio specifically#and it really is ekky going 🥺 at whatever sashaforsy have (persumably) got going on woe is him its at 5k rn but uh ive stalled progress#because puppyekky has consumed my every thought which leads me to my second wip that ive been labouring over since the start of october#that also just broke 5k and not even remotely done lol whoops but its puppy ekky in a team environment with a heavy emphasis on the euros#rn there are scenes scrabbled out with sasha (multiple) mikksy luosty lundy and forsy. i know i have an idea for bobby.#and really lets see where the muse takes us i have vague ideas that are mmmhmm but we'll see when we get there!#the third one isnt the most likely to get finished but uh it is sashamaffhew global series stuff because it stemmed from#“it really is funny that sasha is treating the finland trip like he knocked up a girl#and is trying to make her meet his parents so it doesnt feel like a shotgun wedding when he you know marries her to take responsibility“#and i just think a maffhew pov with that thought in mind because of the whole touchy at e11even thing is funny to me like think mundane#slice of life oh i feel like im being wined and dined i hope i dont fuck it up jfc i think im fucking it up oh god this feels romantic#anyways it feels remotely ooc to me and it really was more of like a writing break from the wips stated above so (shrugs)#might not see the light of day but its 2k as of now so i do feel its a shame if i dont /try/ to finish it you know? its just low priority#anyways thats my writing check in and i am a prisoner to my own mind i will go insane haha these wont be published anytime soon#because i am slow and get distracted soooo easily so you know <3
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I haven’t seen any posts about this but poor baby pen using whistledown to write about women who were spinsters and still got married and made good matches to try and give herself a little bit of a chance
#I know people got mad at her for calling kate old#but she IS old for that time period and it’s dumb and I think pen is in awe of her for that#it’s not her shaming kate but rather being like damn girl I gotta be like you#and when kate did marry#it probably made so many women in the ton feel like oh my god I still have a chance#bridgerton#penelope featherington#also very curious if they’re gonna call eloise a spinster next season#bc they don’t call cressida one
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Oh ok. I get now why a lot of people didn't vibe with the ending.
All and all: excellent manga, overall very good final act, too rushed final 2-3 chapters but weak and honestly mediocre epilogue, which makes the high of the ending kind of leave a bitter taste. I think Noda had a good steed and suddenly he had to finish and had to rush all. So the ending in the sense of the final arc was good but the ending proper (final couple chapters) + epilogue......... Not so much
#i liked rhe ending (though made the mistake to read comments so now I'm like 'yeah you are right that did not make sense' when on my own i#probably would not have noticed. but ok. I'll work my suspension of disbelief. HOWEVER the epilogue WAS indeed very lackluster#i get it's an epilogue but it was so rushed. we barely get a closure for ume and saichi and tanigaki did not get to#take asirpa back to uci as he should have (though he was instrumental for that). overall it was super rushed#like we did not even see how Sugimoto was rescued. the epilogue was faaaar too rushed tbh and also too vague in parts#siraishi not really saying goodbye.... also sugimoto and asirpa living together that's cute idc and i think the line into nastyness was not#crossed but oh boy is it a thin thread... i still choose to believe they are platonic soulmates lol but i want to see an official#translation of the volume that's all i say. what else... oh yes. the way the gold never got to actually be distributed doesn't sit right#with me at all but the worst part was definitely the sugimoto/ume thing oh god that was BAD#we did get to see osoma which was cute#OH AND DON'T GET ME STARTED ON VASILY??? We didn't even see him. the epoligue for him in particular was great though but his ending was not#like he just hanged around ogata gor chapters and chapters on end and we don't even get a glimpse of him during the final showdown??#tbh i think noda wanted to do something more with him but realized he did not quite fit into the story and in the end got#caught up with all the main lines he did have to close and he obviously had planned and probably combined with his own exhaustion well#did not go nice for vasily! i also would have liked a more proper epilogue for tsukishima and koito. they deserved it#I don't like how pre-epilogue the tsukishima-tsurumi-koito tension seems to reach a breaking point only to kind of not get resolved because#they have to keep fighting lol.#laura reads#also i get the sentiment of the ending regarding the ainu and i think noda did his best but it seems like a rather soft thing for asirpa to#do like... sure. museums and stuff. i GET it but it goes a little too soft in the actual colonialism that went on from the japanese. i feel#noda starts off fairly critical of that but in the end softens his stance which is a shame but ok. the bar is in hell so this is actually#much better than average from what i can personally gather of my little knowledge#golden kamuy#gk spoilers
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the more i think about the whole creepypasta fandom. was, to me at least, my favorite part of it was imagining the found family dynamic of the slender masion more then the Y/N part of it. makes it even weirder to look at when i would wish slenderman would take me from my shitty family and incorporate me into some imagery found family
#also the mom-affecation of slenderman was also crazy#he’s like kinda an ass and controles kids and makes thme kill but in like fics and comics hes a struggling single dad of like 20#it’s funny and i actually like it#shameful i know but i love fandom slenderman#idk there’s something so nostalgic about the fandom vers of everyone#whenever i see waffles joke at toby i think ahh yes. i remember those days.#oh god#i feel old#slenderman#creepypasta toby#creepypasta#sally creepypasta#jeff the killer#eyeless jack#ben drowned#smile dog#x virus#clockwork#nina the killer#seedeater#masky#hoodie#masky marble hornets#marble hornets#tim masky#masky and hoody
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Nice foggy morning walk. Walking by the house with the overgrown weeds and the crabapple tree branches arching over the sidewalk.
#blu❤️#dogs#oh god i let blu sniff a bush in someones front yard#and then he peed on it!#and then he kicked his feet and scattered a lot of decorative bark across the sidewalk!!!!#ughhh i forget he will do that sometimes but not all the time#you feel like everybody saw it happen but it was 8:20 on a sunday morning#i felt shame#now he can't go up and sniff that bush anymore#at least for awhile#it was one of his favs#little feet kicker 🙄
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Don't know if I've gushed about this here yet but I will gush about again!!!
I love how loving the gods have 'tricked' me into loving parts of myself I have forsaken. I could never claim to be as cunning or witty as Lord Hermes or let alone as ferocious and driven as Lord Ares- BUT I still see traits of them in myself.
How can I take my silver tongue for granted if Lord Hermes so graciously gifted it to me?
How could I look down on what others deem to be 'bad emotions' if it's what helps Lord Ares win the war?
It's been a long journey and it's going to be a longer one still to love myself fully but I think I'm starting to truly love the journey and not just tolerate it for the sake of surviving.
#hermes deity#ares deity#ares worship#hermes worship#damn#love the feeling of falling in love with the people I care about over and over again#can you use the term 'people' for the gods?#I've been able to set boundaries and allow myself to be 'feral' more often#sometimes I feel like a little kid who managed to do something their parents taught em#“Oh man Lord Ares is gonna be so proud of me for feeling one (1) emotion today!”#AND HE IS#“Hehe I wonder if Lord Hermes will appreciate me tricking this asshole into giving money to the community”#AND HE DOES#I used to feel so much guilt and shame for this shit#it's feels nice to be loved wholly (and fucking scary)#blah blah blah imposter syndrome blah blah blah gods seeing the ugly parts of you and going meh#I CAN'T#helpol#hellenism
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