#but I feel like maybe I experience comphet a tad? because I look at cute couples like jenna and julien | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

adustoflove · 2 months ago

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I always think well if I dated a man, I wouldn't feel as insane. I wouldn't feel so awful or jealous. And then I remember why I came to the conclusion that I'm a lesbian. I just wouldn't care if it were a man. I just can't bring myself to care about men like that 😔😩😭

#personal #I've definitely been like oh hes paying attention to another girl thats a shame :((( about it like damn you were supposed to pine for me #forever and ever #but its never like I'm going to kill someone over it. I don't feel sick about it. I don't feel bone crushing sorrow #😭😔#but I feel like maybe I experience comphet a tad? because I look at cute couples like jenna and julien #or jessi and ty and wish to have that. like i want what they have so bad but also that will never be me because im gay #i wish there was more lesbian and gay rep in media #god does not LIKE ME . he said here is. bad parents who hate you. here is bpd and other undiagnosed issues #and other undiagnosed issues that were probably half the reason you felt so isolated in your high school experience. thanks to bad parents #here is 🩷 COMPHET!!!!!!!!!!@@ you're actually GAY and those boys you were crazy for? yeah . they were cute and all but thats IT #NO emotional connection!!!! none at ALL!!!!! 😍😍😍 you also don't feel sexually attracted to them either ♡#but what DO i feel for men?? just comphet? I feel something I think but its not love. its not a craving . its like #I want to be worshipped by a man and then tell him no 🩷 i want nothing to do with you but you should like me actually #??????????????????#does that make me a bad person? do I care if it does? I mean

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