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Crowly is here to teach an important lesson
#oh god im falling apart#help crowly#crowly helpppp#im suffering crowly#CROWLY FIX ME#CROWLYYYYYYYY!?!???#silly stuff#silly#art#digital art#crowley good omens#good omens crowley#good omens fanart#good omens art#good omens meme#good omens silly art#silly art#crowley
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Thinking about how the entire reason Zane went along with Wu was to try to find out more about his past. Thinkinggg about how he reached his true potential after finding his father's workshop. A big chunk of his character arc in s2 focused on how badly having no family left affected him. Then he found out how father was alive and he was sooo happy... and then his father died. And then Zane died too.
#alek insanity#ninjago#zane julien#dr julien erasing zane's memories the first time he died and practically giving him a new life -> zane ending his own life once his father#died a second time is something that's in constant brain rotation. zane's sacrifice was an act of suicide#“oh. but he needed to defeat the overlord” he found an opportunity and took it. season 3 he was constantly putting himself in harms way#even though it was completely unnecessary. kinda crazy about none of the ninja knowing how fucked up he was about his dad's death#rewatching s2 like... damn zane doesnt make it another year ! and how these are the teams last interactions before everything falls apart#s3 had lloyd off doing his own thing. the love triangle threw a wrench in things. and then zane died and s4 is them picking up the pieces#guhh the period of time where zane really was dead and how messed up the ninja were. especially kai#“it shouldve been me” and it snowed at zanes funeral when kai gave the speech and he became an alchoholic#what the hell !!! whatttt the hell !!!#when zane sakd “IM GLAD YOU MADE ME” OHHH MY GOD OHHHHH MY GOD IM SICK#rant over
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the ouija board has arrived
#gravity falls#bill cipher#IM FREAKIN OUT MAN#i cannot believe i own this thing. oh my god. oh my god. oh my god.#i was freaking out all day waiting for it to arrive. when the doorbell rang i finally understood how my dog feels when someones at the door#it does not have any blacklight messages tragically#this is now officially the coolest thing i own and if my apartment ever catches on fire i will lose an arm before i let this thing get hurt#ive made an official gravity falls section on my shelves#keeping it and journal 3 close together so that i can grab them both and then dive out the window in case of emergency#gus fring is there too bc i love him#headless ford is still headless. thatll be remedied at some point.#ough look at how beautiful it is 🥹🥹🥹🥹#thank you alex hirsch thank you thank you thank you thank you#he still hasnt dmed me back with my grunkle stan recording though 🙄🙄🙄 smh alex hirsch ghosting me#life is crazy rn yall
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Lorah: Lilac Knight's Love
Artist: @littledashdraws
Wanted to share this commission by Dash, who so lovingly illustrated my vision for Gunter's first wife!! Although Lorah's lived in my head since 2017, this is the first time I've had her drawn. Because I'm so thrilled over this art, I put together a little introduction for her!! you can read more about her below~
Residence: Duet Mountains Occupation: Farmer ��❀• Bedside Nurse •❀• Homemaker Birthday: July 11 Gender: Female Relatives: Gunter (Husband) Katerina (Daughter)* Personality: Shy •❀• Bubbly •❀• Optimistic Hobbies: Crafting •❀• Gardening •❀• Baking Age: 21 (when she first meets Gunter) •❀• 36 (at death)
A Nohrian commoner whose known the kingdom's southern mountain range and neighbouring valleys her entire life, Lorah was a recognizable resident of her town even though she kept to herself. Learning the basics of herbal remedies from a young age, she would split her time between tending to the fields and easing the woes of the sick. In adulthood, she would chance upon meeting a Nohrian Great Knight during her town's annual spring festival. The couple's engagement, after seven years of courting, had become one of the most highly anticipated moments amongst the townsfolk.
*NOT the Nohrian Queen. I named their kid before I realized what Xander's mom's name was and by that point I was already ATTACHED (tell me Caterpillar is not the cutest nickname). So now the reason they share a name is lore relevant (which is a part of this fic!).
divider by saradika
#fire emblem fates#feif#fe14#gunter#yeah sure this can go in his tag#fire emblem oc#paranoid over tagging her as an oc cuz. she does exist in canon. but also. canon gave us nothing!#i'd like to consider it free real estate for oc development purposes#also cuz if intsys ever does decide to publish details about gunter's family i would say:#what do you mean. i've been letting his family live rent free in my head for almost a decade.#ANYWAYS YES SHE'S A RED HEAD. who do you think i am. /of course/ im gonna make her a red head.#things about me: gunter i am also attracted to your wife. therefore: she is a red head. case closed.#HER LITTLE COWLICK I LOVE IT SO MUUUUUUUCH#also dash gave me the behind the scenes info that she and Leigh have the same eye colour AHA#sorry gunter you are bound by a cosmic fate to fall in love with a certain eye colour#this will come up in a future fic. im sure. the freckled shoulders are already going to >:3c#oh yes if anyone else is curious. i did in fact sit down and map out a timeline to get her age how i wanted it.#by my calculations gunter would have been ~28. they have approx. 15 years together before everything falls apart#their long courtship is important to me okay#anyways to end this off. MISS LORAH I LOVE YOUUUUU beautiful woman who has been baking in my head for over 7 years.#I am taking good care of your husband don't you worry!! the old man is getting all the love he needs#god I wish she could have seen him as an old man. GOD. I work so hard cuz I'm loving him for her and me!!!!!!#gunter (fates)#lorah (oc)#fef#gunter's family
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hi hi evie !!! i hope youre doing swell today !!! remember to take breaks from your booth !! heres a refresher 🤲
hey … nick? hi nick! hope you’re doing great!! im picking myself off the floor right now JSNDNKC so actually this is my 5th attempt at typing a proper response (in total i have probably written about a full scientific report’s amount of info about this and decided it still did not do your ask any justice..)
gif A is me clutching onto this ask sobbing, gif B is me still clutching onto his ask sobbing, gif C is me after my tears flood my house (the ask is safe inside my pocket of course…)
#🐦⬛🐕 .#彡 cherishing.#彡 nick!#彡 inbox.#evie.ss#PLEASE THIS IS THE BEST THING EVER YOU ARE SO VERY KIND TO ME#THANKNYOU SO MUCH FOR DOING THESE …. CAN I PLEASE SAVE IT … ITS JUST SO CUTE IM falling apart im becoming a blob oh my god#MOZE’S FLUFFY EARS IM GONNA START CRYING and also just in general the way u draw his hair 🥹🥹🥹 HES SO SOFT HES SO FLUFFY HHGGRRRRRR HES SO#PERFECT i adore your style in general … to see moze in your style is such a blessing ….. his expression is so darn cute ….. i don’t know#enough words to express myself right now i might have to pull out the ancient 10lb dictionary to crack open some new terms for this BECAUSE#because omg… I AM SO DOG /pos IM SO DOG /very pos I LOVE THIS MUCH HANSNCKCK#my dynamic description was so vague and yet you captured exactly what i was thinking 🥹 PLEASE#im pacing around embarrassingly fast im so happy#i am the riled up dog in question over this#THE WAY HE IS LIKE OVER ME . WAIT STOP PUTTING THAT INTO WORDS IS MAKING ME SO SJSNCJKC#anyways moving on … nick your art style is so awesome … i just said that earlier however#i should say it again for extra emphasis ….. nods nods …..#artists are so cool#artists are so cool oh my god#i keep leaving this draft and coming back to think of other ways to show my gratitude but i really am at a loss#*strangled happy noises and frantic pacing* thank you so much >: from the bottom of my heart sobs >: sobs some more >:#in the evie brain museum (perhaps a room in my brain) this is framed in gold btw
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#guys oh my god i lost smth important tew meee LOLLLL AAGHHHHF FFUCKKK (falling apart)#im rly trying hard to be so normal about it but i cant i cant i cant im sorry#i lost the bracelets my dearest friend gave me and its all because i took them off to wash my hands now i dont remember where they are god#of course this happens to me#i brought this up and its like its not a big fuckin deal because theyre just bracelets but what if theyre bracelets that mean a lot to me#i cant its so hard to want to do things now#sorry sorry sorry#delete later but i just i needed to go somewhere i cant do this#nothing matters anymore i think
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I always get detained at da border because PROFUNC never ended but basically I'm like if a targeted individual didn't even care
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my husband ranks my f/os.png
things i love about this:
he has watched moon knight, yet didn't recognize jake lockley or marc spector
he does NOT know who rex is. he said he just likes that picture of dt hgfsdfhh
wtf did din do to him
i love who he put in 'my wife needs help.' it's everyone i expected him to put there
i thought 🪓❄️ would be in the last category tbh
WTF DID POE DO TO HIM
#oh lord tagging on mobile sucks#d; youre a book thats not quite finished but ill watch you fill the page#m; ive been fooled many times; but you seem to truly be mine#ac; as sure as god made black and white#c; i love everybody because i love you !#b; after youre gone and the house is mine alone#kr; she'll answer me wherever she may be#j; im holding tight- will you come back someday?#a; baby are you coming for the ride?#h; inside the hollow word i can only hope this will do some good#r; i bet on losing dogs#f; im taking your girl and making her mine#e; cant your heart find its home in me#m; a love made of matches is destined to burn#m; moonlight to show the way we can follow#o; somewhere in these eyes im on your side#n; no one ever said it would be this hard#p; lets fall in love for the night#b; youre still the only light that fills the emptiness#d; ill be yours till forever falls apart#o; run away now and forevermore#m; falling for him was like falling from grace#p; i shouldnt cry but i love it starboy
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Did driving practice today. Actually did parallel parking practice this time, even tho I really didn't want to still. Finally got it into my head that I can maybe do this.
SO......
I have scheduled my driving test. For November 13th, 3 weeks from today.
#speculation nation#IM SO NERVOUSSSSS but i need to do it. i need to. worst case scenario i fail and have to try again another day.#i was actually gonna try to schedule for a week from today but they were full up for the next 2 weeks.#so. 3 weeks! my therapist is gonna be happy for me when i tell her haha#this is. something ive been avoiding for over 10 years now. but i decided at the start of this year that This would be my year.#Year Of Unfuck My Life. and im finally doing it. im going to finally get my license.#it's so. huge actually. a similar level of Holy Shit factor as me graduating.#which seems like an uneven comparison but honestly ive just been so so so scared of this driving test#an insurmountable obstacle bc i was stuck at school away from family to help me practice etc etc#very tied up with me being stuck at school for so long actually. the neverending purgatory of being Stuck In Place.#but my cousin lives closer to me now and hes been helping me out. and i am so very grateful.#augh augh augh augh. life is so busy and it feels like everything is happening at once AAAAAAAAAAAA#but im taking it all in stride. i am. oh god i might have to just practice and then take my audition video all on the same day.#bc i am too tired to deal with it rn and i have an exam tomorrow so idk if i can practice then. also i have to clean.#i will make it work. i will make something work. for the love of fucking god i will make it work.#no time to write barely any time to relax but thats okay i am Go Go Going and trying to keep enough time to sleep#(prior few nights being the..exception lol.)#i certainly wouldnt want to live this way for too long. but just a few more months. i can do it.#next semester hopefully wont be as busy. i'll have 3 hard classes but if im lucky they wont even have much homework.#i can do it. i can get through it. i will get my license in 3 weeks (manifesting) and i will get my own car.#i will find a new apartment to live in. i will Hopefully find a job.#within a year my life is going to be much much different.#my life is Already much much different than it was just a year ago. tho this year has been more... metamorphosis.#in a year's time. i will be 28 years old. and the pieces will Finally be falling into place (hopefully!!!!!)#for now. god i need to rest. will probably go to sleep early tonight. need to be rested for my exam tomorrow.#first tho i gotta shower and feed both me and the cats. yes.
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SAVE ME TANK TOP SEUNGMIN
#IM SO UNWELL#IM SO INSANE#IM DECEASED#THIS WAS TOO MUCH FOR MY HEART I FEAR#the SEUNGARMS the seungsweat the seungchest the seungneck#it is too much to handle I CAN’T DO THIS PLEASE HFKWJSJSJSJ#(i need to suck him off omfg please oh my god please I need him to fall apart under my hands)#kim seungmin#heather speaks
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Now this might be because I have issues but is it just me or does Slay The Princess feel like an allegory for a relationship?
#like i dont even mean the actual textual stuff like the two gods loving each other i mean like#while the narrator himself does say that he is not the protagonist at all the voices do in fact count him as one of them and#both the narrator and the voices are described as shattered glass pieces on the floor#and im saying that just to contextualise what im about to say because i feel like the narrator is an echo of someone who was in#a relationship with another person and is trying to 'slay' the memory of this person and defeat death not only literally but#on a metaphorical level (as in the death of a relationship). if you do slay her you destroy her memory and in that way you do not know her#at all nor do you care to#and the routes would be the perspectives held by different parts of you. shes literally a being that changes based on who perceives her#but metaphorically thats just how people work isnt it? relationships are complicated and there is a part of you who sees someone as a razor#and there is a part of you who sees them as a damsel and another who sees them as a god etc etc#its like youre a person who is trying to make sense of the situation and; which is why the construct of the princess is made up of#several vessels called perspectives. you understand the whole of what you think only when you take apart all your perspectives;#and theres a you who isnt you anymore who doesnt want to do this. hes telling you to just destroy it. it was wholly wretched and wholly bad#and it changed which is a crime in itself. theres an echo of you. and theres you; built by this echo because thats how the self works#we are each our own god and we build ourselves. the different voices are like different parts of you#much like the vessels are the equivalent of the voices. theyre the finite confined perspectives; aspects of a whole person#and slaying her in this context would obviously mean literally just destroying the memory and deciding that change and all it brings#is an awful thing. though im not yet sure what the difference between leaving with the whole and between separating yourself#and leaving with just an aspect would be.#thats probably like the only thing thats kinda ruining this interpretation lol#oh and obviously a lot of the routes have like very strong relationship symbolism. specifically a lot of them feel like#scenes from a relationship that is falling apart. for example in the adversary and then the fury when you run away the dialogue#basically mimics a partner running away from a conflict and the other one destroying themselves because of it#witch and the thorn are both heavily Esop-coded and the text itself says that its about two people hurting each other even though they love#each other but both are afraid of the other one and of being vulnerable. thorn is about finding forgiveness in one another#and deciding to be better and love each other despite the hurt youve caused each other due to your problems#etc etc#like am i insane am i mental am i projecting?
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think the whole "corpse possessed by frenzy" opened a can of worms in my brain that i was unprepared for. bc like, it would make for a good way on how vyke was able to escape the evergaol. the tarnished killed him, the evergaol thought him dead, but he wakes back up and escapes ... but it also kinda is in contention with my theory of "outer gods don't have influence in the evergaols and that's why vyke doesn't use frenzy during that specific fight". so ... workshopping lol
#or it may be still fine. bc that would explain that in death he doesn't become the lord of frenzy#but his spirit is still in his body. and has no way of going into another body ( hy/etta & shab/riri like )#so it just brings him back up bc the frenzy is still in him. it's just quiet.#idk workshopping still ghsjghkjs#tbd.#mi/dra's existence really helps a lot but also makes me question so so so much more#would also make sense why his body is falling apart as it is#also the whole parasite angle ....... oh god im just making escaped vy/ke so much worse LMAO
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harvard a lame school i bet aoki never got woken up at 11PM because his roommates were blasting music cause everyone a square there
#snap chats#hi everyone.#i finished WMA3 :) still couldnt tell yoou what happened but it was still fun..#love the montage moment... theyre my fave in the WMA movies...#oh right. the post. //screams//#I WAS JUS LAYING IN BED THINKIN BOUT HOW IM GNNNA GO IN THE CITY TOMORROW#AND I FALL ASLEEP AND NEXT THING I KNOW I HEAR MY ROOMMATE AND HER FRIEND IN THE LIVIN ROOM#BLASTING MUSIC AND IM JUST. UU 👁️👁️#scariest moment was when her friend rattled my door cause apparently she used to stay in my room last semester#BUT STILL MY GOD i thought someone fell so i go out and shes like Are We Too Loud <:)#and i. like any self respecting adult. said no <3#honestly i probably could sleep through this. my sister used to have parties all the time in highschool and i slept through those#tho those were in the basement...... and theyre right outside my door ☠️#anyway i hope harvard DID have cool ass parties nd aoki never got invited to any of them and he just kept getting waken up eveyr night#yall think he dormed or did he just live in a house/apartment nearby.... ive always wondered that...#if sawashiro was there with him then i'd imagine a house/apartment#tho would there be a point in getting a dorm if he already lived close by ? prob not#im not thinking about it rn i just wanted to complain LOL
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Anyone else feeling the relentless march of time on this Saturday night
#sat on the bus going home from my second to last shift at this job#saw lots of people at work that used to know me for my old job that i absolutely loved and did for 6 years#and i was describing why i know all these people to my coworkers and i was like oh my god thats not me anymore#thats who i used to be what the fuck#and this is the same bus journey that ive been doing for three years#on the same bus ive taken since i started taking the bus#its the same journey but im so different#and im moving into a different phase of life again#how many times have i sat on this bus#how many times have i sat in this seat#how many times have i driven this route how many me's#I've literally moved to the big city and moved back and i am irrevocably changed and im looking at the same shops out of fo the window#everything is the same but so different#since i started taking this bus i have changed so much that i would not recognise myself in the mirror#my boss said 'dont be a stranger' sir i am a stranger to myself#how long can i not be a stranger#how long can you try and keep up with the dregs of your old life until it no longer fits#how long can you keep coming back until it becomes somewhere unrecognisable. or you become unrecognisable#how do you mourn losing something of yourself when it happens so slowly and you dont realise it until its been dead and buried for years#do you ever find yourself falling into old thought patterns and finding that you have no conviction#the you who started thinking that is gone. you dont feel this way. but you did#even just about a band you like. or a snack you always used to buy before school#one of my essays this term could have been about humes view that we dont have a concrete self#and i just thought how am i supposed to answer that#how am i supposed to say no hes right there is no continuous self. i know this because i am filled with ghosts#because i look in the mirror and part of me tries to look through the eyes of teenage me#just to wonder what they would think#and i cant do it. because we are so far apart that they are not me#i am clinging on to friends and places as though i am someone that i am not because rhe ghost of a child inside me demands it#even if the words are hollow and the feelings are long gone
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underrated feeling: curling up in ur own bed after sleeping in someone else's for a few nights
#me.txt#no offense to cricket its not their fault#byt oh my god. dorm mattress? awful. air mattress on the floor? ATROCIOUS#I SLEPT LIKE SHIT#listen 'my' mattress might not be great either but at least its soft#and i have a weighted blanket and a heated mattress topper#and My Son (my big crochet shark who falls apart a little more every day)#ok im gonna watch more markiplier then go to bed now
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moon moon moon moon moon~
I’ve been trying to think of the right words for what reading your fics feels like and I think I’ve finally pinpointed it.
the way you write has this very intimate feeling about it. like I’ve stumbled into a room and walked in on somebody, interrupting something important. It’s almost uncomfortable, how genuine it all feels. it’s just so believable and I can’t help but feel like I should look away. Like I shouldn’t know these characters’ inner workings on such an intimate level. and even when it’s not the intimacy of introspection, of knowing a persons deepest desires and fears, it’s the little moments.
the moments between characters that clearly display how much they care for each other. and it’s not the build up to the great big confession or kiss. it’s the things that you wouldn’t think twice about if they happened to you. bc of course you would, if you really loved someone, of course you would do that.
like, in corollary, when Mike tells that story abt the normal bird and the squirrel to help Will sleep. or, in where we lay our scene, when Todd helps Neil read lines despite the fact that he’s kinda embarrassed about doing it. it’s the little things that say “I love you” loud enough that when we do get to the big confession scene, we know it to be true.
god. reading your fics feels like when you’ve invited someone into your life and they agree. it feels like washing joint wardrobes and ending up wearing a stray sock of someone you love. it’s keeping that piece of them with you and knowing, “you are mine and I am yours”. it’s feeling it so deeply that you can almost feel it thrumming in your blood. expanding and changing but never leaving. like it’s attached itself to your ribs and taken to weaving itself into your viscera.
reading your fics sometimes feels like falling in love.
oh my god . elijah . ELIJAAHHHHHHHH
u need to know how long i spent rereading this ask over and over again 😭 not to . sound insane or obsessed ok i just . u have a very good skill of knowing Exactly what to say to make me feel like a piece of melted cheese on a sunny day . i would do anything for u
like i jsut dont even know what to say !!!!!! i think especially because . reading my own writing i will never know if i actually accomplished what i want, and i bet u can definitely relate since u are an artist, but it is like u took a peek into my brain and found out exactly what i wanted to hear !!!!!!!
the idea u find it all intimate 😭😭 oh u mean the world to me . i think love is like ,, such a personal thing LOL and i know thats ironic bc i literally write romance but i think thats the intrigue of it all !! u want to see it in others and u want to see them happy !!!! and that stuff is Personal !!!!! so i am so so happy u get that feeling of intimacy, i always have that feeling of intruding in on something whenever i watch or read incredibly romantic media and . i am so overjoyed u get that from me
"it’s the things that you wouldn’t think twice about if they happened to you. bc of course you would, if you really loved someone" oh thats exactly it 😭 like that little emphasis on the ordinary, like something that isnt a big deal but it is because its Them
"reading your fics feels like when you’ve invited someone into your life and they agree. it feels like washing joint wardrobes and ending up wearing a stray sock of someone you love" elijah that is so lovely 😭 are u sure u arent the writer between us !!! and that bit about wearing a stray sock reminded me an awful lot of that one quote by rhiannon mcgavin that goes "of course you love me, you're wearing one of my socks"
i think this means all the more because . i have literally never even had a crush on anyone so the concept that i was able to mimic what ive been hoping love is like is just so ,, relieving or satisfying or something like that but not Exactly . mostly like im just happy i could see it for what it is :) thank u elijah u have no idea how much this and u mean to me !
#this is everything everything#elijah u have the key to my heart but all u need to enter is knock#im falling Apart over here oh m y god#/ask
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