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turtletoria · 4 months ago

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one downside to digital mediums of art is that you cant see the tear stains (they just slide down the screen)

#turtlearts #tf2 #team fortress 2 #not even gonna lie i dont think ive ever struggled to draw as much as i had during this time #these are also a couple months old . and oh my god #i literally thought i was going insane. deep in the clutches of 3/4 head hell and i couldnt escape #like no sleep levels of drawing the same thing again and again until i either got exhausted or just gave up #when the therapist and psych nurse i had at uni said that i have ocd tendencies maybe they were onto something lowkey #side note but thanks to tf2 spy i got a butterfly knife trainer bc i wanted to do tricks #unfortunately i lost the knife :(( but i did learn a couple (really simple) tricks which was neat :)

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lucabyte · 5 months ago

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A belief in Nominative Determinsim

#mira & isa sitting at the other side of the room: oh that cannot be a healthy rationalisation. someone should deconstruct that QUICKLY...#change's strongest soldiers VERSUS one guy echo chambering themselves about a susperstition-based retributive model of the world. GO!!!#isat spoilers #isat #isat fanart #isat siffrin #isat loop #sifloop #sloops #in stars and time #in stars and time fanart #lucabyteart #hey look now. this is softer than usual isnt it? ignore the. ignore the subtle damnation of blame unto the self. its fine. theyre fine #this is in fact a slight adaptation of that headcanon of mine i linked! yep! turns out the way to comic-ise it was to. make it like #90% speech bubble and get kinda weird with the formatting. it's clunky and experimental but hey. im experimenting.#the next ones gonna have even more fucking speech bubbles if it goes how im planning. christ #then its gonna get followed up with something wordless so. all things in perfect balance.#DISCLAIMER: i like to write loop and siffrin displaying the maybe not so great logic-holes their seeming fear of 'retribution for not #sticking to (the script) what the universe intends for them' entails. i do not agree with their weird philosophising.#i in fact think this is . bad for them. and am exploring how fucking unhealthy their mindset seems to be even when 'mundane'#OCD siffrin real as hell whats with the doing arbitrary actions in specific ways lest Something Nebulously Bad Happen little dude?#anyway if you caught the extremely blunt symbolism of kissing a hand with a knife in it you win a prize! it's called self-satisfaction 🎉🎉#hmm. do people realise i kept calling this type of back and forth between siffrin and loop a socratic dialogue bc socrates was also just #arguing with himself? like he was just making up the other guys. complete thought experiment. i also call them that because theyre WORDY!!!

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bogkeep · 8 months ago

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thoughts, repeating.

#art #sketch #digital art #ocd #wish i could clear my brain cache sometimes!#but no instead everything that ever happens to me is a cognitohazard #anything can be my brain's favourite chew toy #there's nothing more to extract from that thought but sure let's run into it like a knife a million times #and it becomes habit that reinforces itself. i will wake up thinking thank god im not having the thought right now! oh! surprise!#i don't wish my memory was worse but i wish it knew how to let go #one beautiful day when im in a place more long term i will find a therapist that can help hopefully #also im doing fine mostly!!!!!!#ive been meaning to draw this for a while just havent had the time and im slowly smoothing it over

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horsegirlsodapop · 30 days ago

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uhm. something something sodapop curtis having an addictive personality. something something craving immediate gratification. something something impulsivity. do y'all get it. thrill seeking through drag racing and fights uh etc etc etc

#not to project or anything. um. if I was really doing that i'd tell you he has ocd oh wait (read my fic)#is it still considered embarrassing to overshare?#sodapop curtis #the outsiders #the outsiders musical #the outsiders sodapop #sodapop patrick curtis #sodapop curtis headcanon #darry curtis #ponyboy curtis #stevepop #the outsiders fanfiction #yeah #cherrycola #all three of the curtis brothers have anxiety disorders yeah sorry thats all.

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kayvsworld · 4 months ago

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every time i see someone trying to label specifically what tony’s mental health situation is or isn’t i pour one out for natasha romanoff who entered the ring at the worst possible moment (he’s dying he’s got heavy metal poisoning he’s actively lying to everyone around him he’s very recently traumatized) under orders from her boss to decide, definitely, on paper what mentally is going on with this man. like girl you are not qualified

#kayvswords #tbd #‘Tony said he doesn’t have ptsd’ that’s ok. Tony says a lot of things <3 #does tony have adhd? possible. ocd? possible. anxiety? oh for sure. is he a narcissist?#I’ve seen compelling arguments for it I think we’re all right probably the answer is It’s Loud In There #this isn’t like. I have no thoughts on this I just like it when people have tony stark mental health headcanons #like yeah you’re right he is depressed that’s so true. he does have your specific thing you’re right. arguable. very possible #Guy who visibly absolutely has a lot happening in there solidarity #everyone telling me he’s autistic YEAH correct true. yeah

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salsa-di-pomodoro · 1 year ago

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Has anyone ever thought of the possibility of people in hisui getting a magazine from AFTER ingo and akari go home with either or both of them on it. Like they've already left and lo and behold in the tail end of the entire mess a magazine appears with one of them on the cover looking fresh stunning and most importantly happy. If it were Ingo i feel like he'd be all dressed up goth on the cover of like Vogue or something lmao (i don't think he wouldn't get famous if he wasn't already after coming home. Theyd want the publicity+cool extint Pokémon on the cover). If it were akari shed probably be like posing all badass like the badass teenager she is, scars in full view (she's a survivor!!!!!!). Inside is a little tidibit of their life after coming home. It would be both funny as hell to see them react to how they are in their element and like connect the dots for their strange behaviors AND bring closure to the people they left in hisui. They may never know this but the people in the past do

If anyone uses this idea tag me i may or may not read it but i want to know if you liked it enough to do something with it. I'll probably just keep daydreaming to myself about it lol

Edit: btw there's a whole section talking about everyone's battle prowess and the battle subway for the funnies. Just so you know

#ingo #ingo pokemon #subway boss ingo #submas ingo #pokemon ingo #warden ingo #akari #pokemon akari #akari pokemon #why do they have so may tags #anyway hello people this idea has plagued me mind enough for me to make a dramatic comeback to the tags #i will now disappear again for untold amounts of time #i wish i could be here #but my brain decided to do a funny and annhilate me with ten thousand ocd beams every time i see a smidge of content-#-that even vaguely implies angst. even in my mind lol (<-suffering from the horrors)(doing FAR *FAR* better than i was even just-#-a few months ago tho. just get the occasional panic moment. ig we cant have everything)#anyway goodbye gamers see you in five to ten business months #submas positivity #oh btw last thing emmet is def there with him #maybe not on the cover but in other photos inside of the magazine they all posed together #yes elesa also #i have such a clear view of this curse my undeveloped drawing abilities #jkjk im not being mean to myself lol im getting better #just imagine him on the cover posing with chandelure and sneasler and zoroark in the background and theyre all menacing #except him cause hes smiling so genuenly happy and like kind looking. something something ghosts don't have to be scary

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youremyonlyhope · 1 year ago

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Living with Body Focused Repetitive Behaviors

Me: *Is super stressed over life.*

Trichotillomania: Time to pull some hair! C'mon. You won't even notice you're doing it. It'll make you feel better.

Me: NO. *Spends 4 days putting hair in a mini twist protective style* There.

Dermatillomania: Hey. Your hands are free. And restless. And dry... Pick your skin. Bleed. Bleed.

Me: Stop! *Starts up a new crochet project to keep hands busy.* Ok cool.

Onychophagia: Hi hi. Your nails are.... perfect biting length... you should do that.

Me: Noooooooooooo *Paints nails.*

Dermatillomania: Oh look, you got some nail polish on your skin. Pick it off... now pick some more...

Me: SDJAKFDSJFKLDKAFDJKLAFJDKSAKLFDASL

#is this tmi? oh well. this is the tmi website #trichotillomania #dermatillomania #onychophagia #bfrb #body focused repetitive behavior #ocd #guys guess what? my therapist all but prescribed that i get a manicure to prevent picking at my skin #apparently after a year with this therapist i never mentioned my finger picking until this week #and she was like 'ok since you find it tough to paint them yourself get a manicure. self care and preventative'#because my cuticles are horrific due to me constantly picking at them and the sides of my fingers #so i've always been too embarrassed to go to a nail salon and my therapist was like 'exposure therapy!'#currently my nails are sloppily painted because i can't hold a brush still and they're already chipping after like 5 days #actually they probably started chipping on the second day honestly.#i need to redo my twists a bit which actually satisfies the trich urges since i'll be running my fingers through my hair to do it #but i won't actually be pulling. but also. i will be getting the shed hairs out. so. kind of fulfills that.#but right now my nails are long enough for me to feel them sometimes hit my keyboard. which. isn't normal for me.#and despite the nail polish i feel the urge to bite them shorter ahhhhh #anyway if you're Black with natural hair and have trich i HIGHLY suggest mini twists since it helps deter me from pulling #sure i have to redo it every few weeks but seriously. game changer. harder to find individual hairs to pull.

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cringefaecompilation · 5 months ago

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me: hmm i think i will headcanon orym as having ocd and ocpd, he reminds me of myself and my friends who struggle with compulsions and routines we have troubles breaking out of

liam o’brien choosing to portray the most upsetting yet accurate depiction of someone with untreated unmedicated undiagnosed moral purity ocd by sheer accident:

#🍃#critical role #critrole #orym of the air ashari #i know i bring up ocd orym all the time but wow last night's ep cinched it for me that he has a serious problem #like i got jumpscared by him being willfully dense to dorian after showing such kindness to laudna for the past couple episodes #and then it hit me like Oh. That’s a compulsion. That’s Orym of the Air Ashari having a compulsion.#hate that i have to say this but i am NOT excusing his actions in this episode or any other with this post #you can check my blog and i have no sympathies for him being scummy to dorian #also to anyone who wants orym to suffer or be punished for his actions: Well He’s About To Be!#bro’s about to have vasselheim fuck him over and make him feel triple as small and i am not looking forward to watching him break

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crispycreambacon · 8 days ago

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Hi y'all. I hope you all are well :)

Happy new year first of all. If you're still here with us, thank you. Thank you for getting through 2024, and thank you for being here. I hope 2025 will be kind to you 🫂

Second of all, I'm not sure if anyone is still here, but if there is someone: I'm sorry for disappearing so suddenly. Life really got in the way due to college, and I can't guarantee this next semester of college won't be very busy for me either. I've been trying to work on my personal life, and part of that was avoiding social media. I'd like to come back, but I'll be reducing the amount of time I spend on here.

If you'd like to know more about what else has happened to me, read on. If not, I wish you well, and I hope you'll still welcome me with open arms.

CW // TRANSPHOBIA, MENTAL HEALTH

If I can be vulnerable for a minute: things have gotten really bad for me last December. I came out to my mom, and it went so badly that I ran away for a little bit. I came back for personal reasons, but now I live with parents who refuse to acknowledge my identity and continue to refer to me with my deadname and AGAB. Moreover, I got triggered really badly at some point during the holidays, and it has led to me realizing I can't keep living like this. I need help.

Thankfully, my college provides mental health services, and from what I heard from other students, they're pretty good. They also provide tests which I definitely need. I can't keep living the undiagnosed lifestyle, y'all, I need to know what's going on with my brain shsldhskshs... I have some clues though. Nothing definitive yet, but I am pretty confident in my suspicions, and whether I'm right or wrong, I just want to figure out what's going on and manage it, start to heal and move on from the trauma I've endured both as a child and now.

I hope this update will suffice. I'm eternally grateful for my friends. They have kept me from absolutely losing it, and they have stuck with me at my worst moments. I love them so dearly, and if they are reading this: thank you :)💞

And to everyone else, thank you for taking the time to read. I'd love to know how y'all have been, so please let me know. I love you all. Please stay safe, and may life bring you the happiness you deserve 🫂

#update #mental health #chris p fried what?!#to the tag readers: hello :) I'll try to not talk too much in the tags and keep things in the actual post #but here's a little something for you: there's a possibility i may be plural o+<#i'm unsure but there's a chance i have partial did and i don't want to dismiss that. especially when there are voices in my head #sigh... oh also ocd. that's another thing i'm suspecting. specifically primarily obsessional ocd (aka pure o ocd)#gosh i really thought autism adhd depression and c/ptsd were the only things plaguing my brain and my life went “lol. lmao even.”#all of this is speculative. i'll update you once my initial tests come back and maybe i can afford an appointment to a psychiatrist.#i hope so anyway. that is all. thank you for reading again.

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sparklebyte · 2 months ago

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no you aren’t a little autistic for not wanting to make eye contact sometimes no you aren’t a little bipolar for having a mood swing no you aren’t a little adhd for bouncing your leg no you aren’t a little depressed for wanting to stay in bed no you aren’t a little schizophrenic for mistakingly hearing a voice no you aren’t a little ocd for wanting the class desks to be straight stop characterizing disorders by one symptom stop trying to lighten and romanticize disorders by applying a normal thing to do to a disorder that impacts peoples lives stop trying to water down these disorders so you can make it about you and so you can make a joke off of other people’s lives because you want to be funny

#me #idk im just so fucking tired of hearing people say “oh sorry im a little ocd lol xD” after keeping their desk neat????#that’s called wanting to be organized???#“im a little autistic cause i can’t stop talking about this show!” Yeah cause you like the show Carrie of course you are gonna talk about i #sorry I might delete this someone tell me if im being stupid or whatever but does this not piss people off #to hear people just water down a disorder to a simple trait that is incredibly common #so they can be funny and apply themselves to every situation and never have to feel left out #this isn’t about self diagnosis by the way #this is about people willfully ignoring the disability/disorders affects on others while using its symptoms to make a quick joke #Or to get a laugh #how the hell do I even tag this 😭#neurodivergent #neurotypical #depression #bipolar disorder #autism #ocd #schizophrenia

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vimbry-moved · 5 months ago

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disclaimer that I don't like the idea of openly assuming things about strangers' identities or their personal lives, especially when you're catching a glimpse of only one part of them they choose to share in the public eye. but it Is very funny when you're reading or watching some interview with a famous person, and they say things that make you do this one comic:

#art source drememoto #''yeah I like my routine just right and I don't like when anything changes it lol I'm just kinda quirky that way!#I hate certain noises and I have very intense obsessions about things and I'm not so good at talking to people''#and you're like uh huh. uh huh. uh huh.#I enjoy reading those things tho. bc even if there's ultimately nothing to pathologise it's still like. aw hey me too #tho older ones from now deceased people who likely never had the opportunity to discover anything about themselve are quite heartbreaking.#especially if they come across as distressed or uncomfortable with aspects of their personality #then you get stuff like stewart copeland openly going ''he's probably not as autistic about it as I am'' when describing his ear for drums #which is really funny to me #idk if he's saying that in a more ''oh I'm so ocd lol!'' or a sincere way but I'd like to think it's the latter bc it was so blunt

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tapewyrm-talks · 5 months ago

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Doctors will find out you have OCD that makes you pick at your skin and be like "oh noooooo don't do that you'll be covered in gross horrible scars forever and ever :((((" and it's like...yeah I guess I have scars but have you considered it is because of the OCD? Have you considered that it doesn't matter if I have scars? Have you considered that skin is meant to hold my liquid and meat in place? Like I'm not going to hold one of my organs to a higher beauty standard than the others. It's not even that I don't think skin picking is harmful for me, it's the way that doctors focus on scars and stuff to try and convince you to not have a problem anymore. Like okay? That's weird of you!

#i have never looked at someones acne scars and thought oh gross they should feel bad about that #skin is just skin #actually ocd #dermatillomania

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icewindandboringhorror · 8 months ago

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boy in silly sitting positions compilation

#cats #I especially like the last one where he just has one single paw poking out of that box for some reason lol #I still have costumes to post and like a billion other things.... grr... constantly failing at staying active on social media aughh #I think because currently my Main Focus is on trying to get my game done and stuff.. which basically just means sitting and writing all day #so there's not much to post about. Though I know the Good At Social Media thing to do would be to post about the #writing and share progress and talk about the game and characters or whatever to try to build interest or something but that is SOOO weird #to me.. I could maybe get it if it was like a tiny tiny discord groupchat of playtesters with like 5 people in #it.. But something about talking openly about things before they happen is weird to me?? Like presumptuous feeling or something #''oooo guess whats gonna happen LATER!!!'' like.. how do you know.. what if it doesnt. what if you dont finish it. what if its not the way #you think it's going to be. what if something changes. etc. Like I literally avoid movie trailers and game trailers for the same reason ghj #Even if it's not ME doing it it just feels... weird.. Maybe it has to do with my OCD and how I just don't like talking about ''future''#things in Certain Terms. Like if I was going to say ''Oh yeah sure. come over to my house in a few months''. I would have to follow it up #with like ''HOPEFULLY you can come over to my house in a few months'' or 'They'll come over in a few months MOST LIKELY''. Because just #stating that something will happen matter of factly takes for granted like.. what if somehting horrible happens and I DONT have a house #in a few months? or what if something bad happens to me. or to the person coming over? I can't ever DEFINITELY say with 100% certainty #that one could ACTUALLY come to my house in a few months. anything could change. So I have to allot for that in my phrasing. hbjjkn #There are a lot of situations where you're expected to just Assume Things but for some reason that bothers me. My brain literally does not #even Assume the most basic things.. like how do *I* know that just because it's someones birthday that they want to be wished a happy #birthday? what if they dont? everyone is different and has different preferences. I should check with them first. or wait until they public #ly announce that theyre accepting birthday wishes. I have to allot for all 5034859069 rare possibilities at any given time and never take #anything for certain. etc. ghjbjhbh.... ANYWAY.. I have been feeling a bit sick lately as usual.. but still slowly making progress on some #things. Moslty I need to edit costume photos. make sculptures. and work on the game. Going back reading some of the old writing from like #2018 and suprisingly I don't have to change that much of it? In fact I like it mostly. so that's good. I would be very interested if I were #playing the game myself. Though that doesnt mean much since my tastes are so niche lol..#Still really want to clear some of my million tumblr drafts as well... alas and aughh and ooughh and so on and so forth. Between all of my #evil appointments other such things...why cant I have one billion dollar to retire into relaxed hermit artist life of no stressors.. bleas

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watchingyoufromthestars · 1 year ago

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Wait I just realized the unintentional genius of Link’s birthday. Numerically it’s 3/3. And Link hates the number four because “that’s how many family members it’d be if his dad's got another kid”. So 3 is definitely his favorite number.

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blazeball · 29 days ago

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kind of sad to go through the borderlands tag and see so much hate for the new trailer... damn... like i get not wanting to get your hopes up bc bl3 was such a letdown but at the end of the day its more borderlands... and its new but i personally like the new stuff and think it fits well with what i've been liking about the series so far

#im so tired of hating on a series i have so much fondness for. i spent so much of my teenhood just tearing it the fuck apart #because i was unwell. had some moral ocd stuff going on #i was just hoping for a bit of the energy we had when the borderlands 3 trailer was released lol #of course i understand that Many Things Have Changed since then so i really do get why its not even comparable #but... kicks a rock... oh wellllllll...#quincy.txt #and damn i like the vault hunters i find no fault in them. but so many people hate them! why!

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dollopheadedmerlin · 6 months ago

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Yall . . .

My roommate is super cool and all, but she REALLY wants me to be autistic, like so much so that she has just started referring to my autism (which doesn't exist) and it is really annoying

Like, I'm not offended when people ask me if I have autism because it's not a bad thing and whatnot, but what is griping me is that she just decided that she is gonna insist that I do?? And she isn't even the only person to have done this to me before.

Like I score pretty dang low on the raads test, and my friends who have either autism, adhd, or both (my partner included) agree that I just have very obvious unmedicated adhd, because I don't relate to stuff that is more solely the autistic experience.

And like?? I've even questioned it before. Like huh maybe I DO have autism, but each time I have, myself or others pretty easily rule it out.

And it's really agitating me because recently there does appear to be this trend where autistic people are trying to convince EVERYONE that they're autistic, especially people with adhd

And the nail in the coffin is that I do have a special interest. And for whatever reason, part of this surge of people who are trying to accuse people with adhd that they're really just experiencing internalized ablism when they say they're not autistic, is that they claim that special interests are ONLY things that people with autism can have???

And like, I don't know where this came from??? Because you can develop special interests due to trauma, and it is a potential symptom of adhd and whatnot. Like a simple google search can tell you that special interests are not and autistic exclusive thing! It's just a common autistic trait, versus an uncommon adhd trait.

And the bottom line is that I am kinda irked by autistic people acting like adhd isn't as neurodovergent as autism. As though it doesn't affect me or my relationships and that the only reason I would insist I'm not autistic is that I don't want to be autistic. I don't care!! I would not care if I was autistic!! I do care when random laymen try to diagnose me for no reason!!! Or look at me like I'm lying when I say I don't have autism!! Or pretend that adhd is just excited neurotypical!! Stoppppp

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