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Al haithem leads the creator to the oldest known record of human language. A stone that has "sus" etched into it.
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💀 stop this madness- what do u want from me,, aHH- what do u waNT- PLEASE-
I KNEW AS SOON AS I TYPED THAT SHIT OUT SOMEONE WOULD ASSAULT ME W/ MORE CURSED MEMES ON ANCIENT STONE SLABS I TOOK THE CHANCE ANYWAY IT WAS A MISTAKE-
Omfg. Awful thought:
Everytime there's a modern "update" on memes and trends and slang, Teyvat finds like another documentation of it 💀
Sumeru archeologists (Creator specific ones would exist too i would think..) is an absolutely reliable field,
Bc unlike here, those stone slabs or murals just keep showing up deep in sand dunes or hard to reach nature areas (like enkanomiya etc), and are made in order to "reflect/update" to our modern lingo bc it needs to keep a record bc its "Teyvat history" to them 😭
(Like the world itself is adding that shit, and the Irminsul wants to know)
Stop no get of my head no more thought head emtpy
Its the wine yall i gotta go to bed-
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Also heyyy, u may have noticed i have slowed down, i am mostly sad not bc of yall pressuring me not at all, im just ready to not be a student anymore!!
Bc I got uni starting back up again/senior semester graduation, so kinda crazy + car trouble this week :/
Anyway, ill be updating more on the weekends!!
So if ur interested in my insane ramblings, look out for my ass groovin out to yalls asks / requests on the weekends :)
(🚧Also cant wait to be working on those 100 follower event postssss *construction noises resume*👷✍️🚧)
Cheers,
🌒🌧🌊Aqaurius♒️🌌🌘
#car trouble is so defeating#so sad#bc the usa isnt walkable#hate that forever <3#always wish that would change#anyway#love u guys#:)#yall make my day seeing all ur asks and enjoyment#of my spiral into insanity <3#ask box open#genshin impact#genshin sagau#my asks#sagau#genshin sagau ideas#genshin isekai#genshin god reader#shenanigans
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thinking about essek thelyss "my entire life goal is and has always been the search for knowledge, the uncovery of mysteries, and I'll do it before everyone one way or another, no matter what I have to do, no matter the cost, but meeting you turned my life around in such a way that I would turn away the opportunity to uncover the greatest time mystery of all that's right in front of me and fix every mistake I made, just by the mere possibility that changing any of the choices I made would take you from me, nothing would make me give away any of the moments I had and will have with you.... unless it's for you, then I would do it in a heart beat" and going just a little bit more insane
#do you understand the grip this wizard has on me#I'm spining their final scene in my mind for 3 days now#I cant get over 'but I'm here today in this moment with you because of these mistakes and as much as they hurt me I wouldn't change a thing'#and the next MINUTE he's like 'will you do it? I'll help you'#JUST#WHO EVEN SAYS THAT#THAT'S ABSOLUTELY INSANE THING TO JUST SAY LIKE#INSANE LEVELS OF COMPLETE DEVOTION AND LOVE AND DEDICATION AND JUST#WHO TF DOES THATTTTTTT#ESSEK THELYSS YOU INSANE MF *SHAKES HIM*#god this fixin wizard ruined my life#shadowgast#cr2#essek thelyss#caleb widogast#mighty nein#m9#sorry just rereading a fic that made me spiral a bit here
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hi.
#i know most of you didn’t even realize i was gone#but man…#my mental health was like in a state of 📉📉📉 in the past 30 days like we love being mentally ill and fucking insane <3#it was mostly bc i panicked and started obsessing over possible water damage in my flat kind of out of nowhere#like it started when my landlord came to check my bathroom bc my downstairs neighbours had water stains on their ceiling back in july#which had been caused by their shower curtain apparently but i was already spiraling when my landlord told me so i was sure it was my fault#i was assuming it was bc of me bc i had sometimes been spilling some of my bathwater and i was like WHAT IF IT HAS GONE THROUGH THE FLOOR?#and it didn't help that it has been hot af and very humid in my apartment LIKE WELL OVER 25 DEGREES AND 60% HUMIDITY#anyways i couldn’t shake this not matter what i tried and my fucking insane brain made me think i was going to get arrested for like#flooding the whole building or for causing some sort of mold infestation#i had SO MANY panic attacks; i wasn't able to sleep; i wasn't able to eat; i was on edge and panicky basically 24/7 so fun fun fun :D#and i kept waking up in the middle of the night and HAD to go check my walls or the space below my kitchen#it was compulsory like i couldn't not get up and go check and tbh i would've thrown out all of my furniture if i could've to check for mold#(and shhhh i know how fucking insane this sounds but having a mentally ill brain that's anxious all the time does suck ass sometimes 🥲)#(the worst thing about it tho was that i was SO AWARE of how insane about this i was being and yet i couldn't stop losing my mind over it)#(also i was so ready to move tf outta here bc i couldn't handle being triggered 24/7 which is why my mom let me stay with her last week )#i was so out of it that i couldn't even let myself do the things i usually enjoy... like at all#like watching my shows or spending any ungodly amount of time on tumblr... or replying to messages i got from people who i love#ig this goes to show HOW bad this actually was for me mentally bc usually tumblr and my shows are like my safe place#anyways we finally had a leak detection dude come over today and we had him check the water levels in my walls#and he said everything is fine and he specifically told me i should stop worrying about any water damage BC THERE IS NO WATER DAMAGE#he also said that the weather has just been insanely humid this year so it's not surprising that the humidity levels are higher than usual#i’m still a bit scared about some possible mold but ig this is good enough for now#i am aware how ridiculous this must sound for anyone who's reading this now but couldn't let it go not even with meds so let me live pls :(#TLDR I WAS GOING THROUGH IT BUT I AM BACK I THINK AND I AM MOST LIKELY GOING TO START BOTHERING YOU WITH MY GIFS AGAIN <3#AND I JUST REALIZED I HAVEN'T EVEN SEEN ANY OF THE HEART KILLERS STUFF YET ASIDE FROM ONE OR TWO PICS LIKE :(#OH AND I NEED TO START WATCHING SUMMER NIGHT ;_;#sabrina talks#@AIRENYAH GIRL I AM SO SORRY I WILL PROBABLY REPLY TO YOUR MESSAGES LATER TODAY OR TOMORROW MORNING ;_;<3
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she's been putting it off............................
#my last queued one!!!!!! :D#i kinda went insane after french release lololol#sorry i didnt make it up to liam being borned id like to flesh out my ideas and not rush things <3#think i was inspied from alice's one of her in a nighty and slippies with her uniform lazily over it#got bedhead and everything#love that vibe shes like i dont care no more#chakotay would help her make one lets be real#AND THE TRIPLETS :)#hope u have enjoyed my cringe spiral this week haha#i still have more im sitting on but theyre unfinished#My Art#Prodigy Spoilers#Kathryn Janeway#Threshold#AU#Human#Star Trek: Voyager#Star Trek: Prodigy
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“Sasha.” He murmurs into her mouth. “Yes.” She confirms. It’s me — I know — Me too — You’re welcome — like a cold reader. The kind of con he would have laughed out of the Institute. But his head’s worn down, his heart even moreso. He’s tired of thinking. —— John has one assistant he still trusts.
woe, spooky little john(not!)sasha thing i wrote be upon ye
#scrawlings#the magnus archives#tma#tma fanfic#jonsasha#johnsasha#jonathan sims#john sims#sasha james#not!sasha#this is real rough around the edges i miiiiight rewrite it when i get further into tma but also i had to get it outta my head or i'd die#hence why i didnt post it til now i was like Do i want this public-public lol#plus i haveeee a lot of other writing on my plate just in general rn haha#ringing my little bell. why is johnsasha a rarepair iv been going insane abt them for like 3 days#(only a bit into season 2 no spoilies) the john+not!sasha dynamic makes me insane.#what if you were a paranoid piece of shit and you had one person you trusted and That Happened To Her#but you still trust her completely. and part of it is because of how little you can trust anybody else#and so you are most susceptible to what's happening because you're in a downward spiral and will cling to any#validation on your backwards thinking. god
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Wow yes I DO think 9-1-1 needs more female characters you make a great point and we should definitely—wait what did you say? oooh okay i see *packs up bags* nvm guys stand down false alarm they're just talking about Taylor Kelly again
#k spirals#nothing to do for a whole week. just come here post insane shit snd then leave. ur gonna be so sick of my ass <3
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was cleaning my fridge when I randomly thought "a clean home is a happy home" and now I'm thinkin how infuriated Home would be if he gets dirty or to add even more fuel to the already blazing fire, how much of a clean freak Grey Au!Wally would be to keep Home happy
Ohh! A clean home is definitely a happy home! I’m seeing this more like Home being such a clean freak haha!
#it does go along with his insanely accurate observance and perfectionism#not to much like OCD I don’t think but he does seem the time to get irrationally upset when things are not A Certain Way#bc of course ocd isn’t just Cleanliness™️ I have 3 family members with ocd and it presents in interesting ways#BUT my point being that Home just seems the type. for sure tho he’s a huge perfectionist- but I can see some things causing him like#some sort of paranoia#such as the neighbors doing something Out of the Ordinary™️ and causing a downward spiral of events caused by home#ha! who knows#such is not an excuse for his weirdly manipulative behavior of course if I were to apply it to the greyscale au#I’m rambling my bad#ANYWHO Tangent aside I do love the idea of Home being a clean freak! goes with his rather fancy Aesthetic
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Kazuhiro Nakaya (Ichiban Kasuga/Akira Nishikiyama) on auditioning for the role of Ichiban!
Full video in source!
#yakuza#like a dragon#yakuza 7#yakuza like a dragon#ryu ga gotoku online#ichiban kasuga#kasuga ichiban#kazuhiro nakaya#my clips#my translations#WE'RE SO BACK!!!!!!#and when i tell you i was SHOCKED nakaya actually had to audition and wasn't just cast right out of the gate#i can't tell which game he's talking about (ylad or rggo) (INSANE if ylad) but EITHER WAY could you ASK for more perfect casting#his energy in this interview fits ichiban so well tell me this isn't exactly how ichiban would talk about a life-changing event#anyway. sorry this is two weeks late. my life is spiraling out of control <3#enjoy da video. my final message. goodb ye
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From The Start ➸ And I sound like a loon, but don't you feel it too? Confess I loved you from the start
#motherfuckers i DID IT#first for serious saw edit. ofc it was my fav spiral-y boys.#this song is theirs now. i make the rules <3#william schenk#ezekiel banks#spiralshipping#saw franchise#spiral from the book of saw#saw edit#mine: edits#spiralposting#sawposting#(the amount of times. william smiles. at zeke. drives me insane.)
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PearlescentMoon, here! 🌑
🌕 Genderapathetic and Lunirgender. Call me whatever pronouns you'd like. I go by Pearl or Scarlet :] 🌖 I have Erotomania + OLD (Obsessive Love Disorder) and BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder). 🌗 As mentioned above, I have a delusional disorder, and I have a DA to Double Life PearlescentMoon. But doubles are just 'swell! Welcome, even :] I'm just one Pearl among a universe of many! I'd love to meet others out there! Shoot me an ask, aye? 🌘 I identify as a fictionkin and as an IRL yandere. yes, I'm getting therapy, I made this blog as a safe place to healthy handle my delusions and obsessive thoughts. Don't harass me. I'm coping. 🌑 Mediamates are welcome! ESPECIALLY Scotts. Scotts PLEASE, PLEASE interact. I don't care if you're a fictive, fictionkin, linker, etc, i'd love for ANY Scott to interact with me. After all, we find other in every universe!
DISCLAIMER.
✨🌙 Yes, I ship myself and C!Scott. Yes, I'm aware he's cannonically gay, and he still is in my canon. And, though I identified as woman in canon, I don't identify as a woman anymore. I 'ship' us more in a of a queerplatonic sense that only sort of veers into romantic tension, anyway.
#if you can't tell... c!scott is my Love Object / the subject of my erotomania :]#i need him back. i'll do anything for him. we're soulmates. we're meant to be!#i could relate so much to source!pearl's spiraling in double life. her obsession. her insanity. she's just like me for realie!#she is me actually!#i tend to be a bit erotomanic about other pearlkins too.#empires pearl. hermitcraft pearl. ll pearl. liml pearl. sl pearl.... i love ALL of them. i want ALL of them to be mine. <3#'cours scott takes priority. he's my sweetie soulbound after all <3 but i'd love for other pearls to interact. i think we could get along#:]#introduction post#life series irl#mcyt irl#delusional attachment#IRL DA#irl community#c!pearl irl#double life smp#double life#trafficblr#mcyt fictionkin#fictionkin#actually bpd#actually obsessive#obsessive yandere#obsessive love#yanblr#erotomania#obsessive love disorder#yanderecore#yancore#actually yandere
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the devil has won today (i am restarting supernatural)
#my brother n i are in season 11 rn#but its slow going since were watching lik 3 shows at once#so.#spn#supernatural#cat spirals tag#prolly gonna watch 1-6 straight thru and once i reach 7 ill skip around som for the good stuff#or mayb ill be insane and just keep watching who knows
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unfortunately for everyone involved im hitting the exact right combination of summer melancholy + extreme mental illness spiral + late july/august + insomnia that makes me rewatch shadowhunters. sorry in advance
#it was the only thing that got me thru 2017 i always associate it with the second half of summer specifically..#i started watching it in march but s2b was coming out in july/august so that's why those stuck#im doing so badly. lol#i think everything just kinda came together coupled not leaving my room for anything other than my daily walk for#1.5 months and counting but oh my god. hello#im spiraling into shit i havent had to deal with in like years can i LEAVE. I THOUGHT WE WERE OVER THIS#it's not paranoia if im literally right 🙏 this is fine. it's fine <3#it's literally FINE if i repress everything far enough it wont bother me. im sure using that as#a coping mechanism for my entire life hasn't lead to an insane backlog of horrible shit that im gonna have to deal with at some point.#at least my brain helpfully doesn't let me remember 90% of my life so ion have to worry about all that. yay♥#guys it's direeeee tv show save me. i cant even work or go riding coz the weather is so hot i constantly feel ill#MAN whatever it's fine. at least i dont have scurvy i guess#barking
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CLINGING TO JACKET MY FRIEND!
HI POETTTT!!!!!! at your service! more than anything! ab-so-lute-ly!!!! i give all credit to @softspeirs for sparking me with this idea (after a recent Margie x Benny prompt) and just....i have NOT stopped thinking about it since because....it is SO GOOD. SO GOOD. to say i get enabled easily is an extreme understatement and i just couldn't help it and had to take it and do some writing for it. not much progress has been made (ie = work lol), but i'll be excited to finish writing and polish it off - CHEF'S KISS IDEA!!!!!!!
This idea of 'clinging to jacket' (or at least A jacket) came from writing a Margie x Benny prompt, and I briefly mentioned how (and therefore implied) that the first person to see Margie when she came into the Stalag was Major Cleven. And this is significant in the fact that - it's not like it's Benny, or one of the girls, or even Bucky - it's Major Cleven - it's Buck.
Buck reminds Margie of some of her older brothers - on the quieter side, caring, hard-working, true-to-themselves, always willing to help, always ready and willing to address a situation that isn't right. And so, after we come to this head in the writing that I've mentioned previously (the SB crew gets split up - Annie, Kennedy, Margie and Bessie go down and all end up in the Stalag), we reach this separation point and new eras for all of the girls. Margie especially.
She ends up thinking of herself as almost this completely whole new person. Because of what she's experienced and felt and lived through in the matter of a week before getting to the Stalag. I'm a big fan of platonic-based connections and it is safe to say that Buck and Margie are one of those. And (I hope to include this perspective in future pieces), but Margie never had much interaction with Buck before all this - conversations here and there but nothing deep. BUT - when Buck Cleven is the first person Margie sees after the horrors of what she has just gone through, she immediately clings to that.
Someone she knows! Someone from the 100th! Someone that can HELP HER!! Someone that can get her out of whatever she's experiencing and someone she can cling to!
So, Buck Cleven becomes pretty significant to Margie in the sense that she knows he is there for her. All the time. After arriving in the camp. They will go on to share some heartfelt moments and Buck ends up being there for her in more ways than one - but having that first person show up for her - someone she recognized and brought her out of the unknown. She sticks to people like that. As a somewhat religious person, she would sat that Buck Cleven was put there because of the situation, because he needed to be there, for the both of them.
I really want to emphasize the CLINGING aspect - like Margie was almost death on two feet - practically destroyed from the earlier version of her normal sunshine-self! And she's left clinging to life, to someone, something, to stay alive. And that's Buck Cleven's coat. pretty significant and equally important. Buck Cleven you are too special, king!! Never change! <3
It'll be a nice exploration of that specific connection to one another and I'm very excited to get writing with it!!!!! ;D
feel free to ask about one of my WIPs! [here]
#MARGIE HARLOWE I AM HUGGING YOU SWEETS <3#listen it pains me to thing of margie so depleted and exhausted and haggered and then there's buck cleven stepping into the light and#basically SAVING HER.#like im sorry i am INSANE ABOUT THIS#shoutout to you katie like#this has had me spiraling for days plz know#platonic besties that didn't know it!#LOVE#obsessed!!!#PLATONIC BESTIES ARE MY FAV OKAY THEY ARE THE BEST#they get this connection of - i saw you at your worst and im still here#and buck never drops that promise#like#STOPPPPP#ANYWAYYY#margie harlowe#buck cleven#silver bullets#mota writings
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whats the worst kind of relationship to have with anyone and why is it ex-best friend who you had a massive conflict with that got resolved but still makes you hate them a little at all times but only in the same way that you'll always love them a little for once being your best friend. and you have to pretend you dont feel either of those things because youre just casual friends now
#it has to be said that im fairly sure he feels mostly the same about me. which does create an insane dynamic it does!#but it's better than when my frustrations were one-sided#anyway. i think this is honestly healthier than we used to be even when we were best friends we were Too Close and Too 17 Years Old#i think no matter what this friendship will always be kind of a lot so being causal friends#kind of works. bc i'll see him once every 3 months and it's like ok well thats my seasonal dose of temporary insanity! bye now#better than not talking and spiralling better than letting my brain chemistry be controlled by some guy every day#and that has been tonights episode of ivicky! back to our regularly scheduled tmiposting now#personal
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I'm watching a playthrough of the original Disco Elysium and man, I cannot overstate how much of an improvement the voice acting in the Final Cut is. Not just in comparison to the original (all the voices are so so so much better) but also to the game as a whole. The voice actors do a stellar job of filling each scene with the right emotion and perfectly characterizing each character. Mad props to the people behind the voice casting, I hope they are proud of the incredible work they've done
#disco elysium#there isn't a single voice i don't find amazing in the final cut it's insane (positive)#my fav updates from the og version are Titus and Idiot Doom Spiral#Titus sounds soooooooooooo much cooler and boss-like in the final cut and IDS sounds like an asshole. but in a fun way#I also love the improvements in characters like Egghead and Evrart. They are more exaggerated? and feel more appropriate to the characters#Egghead's yells feel more energetic and Evrart feels more like a conman in the final cut#I love the improvements in Klaasje's and Lilienne's voices too#Klaasje sounds more tired and hopeless after everything that has happened and Lilienne's voice is more charming#and Soona how could i forget Soona. her new voice is so sarcastic and 'idgaf'-ish I love her <3#i could go on because every voice is so much better in the final cut but you get the gist
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HEY
Do you think it'd be cool to have more variations on magic? Do you think Pigswick's magic could've had a point? Do you feel like some schools could've easily had more to them?
Do you just want to witness the result of me going insane for a couple years and developing the hell out of Spiral magic?
WELL LUCKILY FOR YOU!
I have spent an entire day creating my horrible (affectionate) little uquiz which takes all the alternative magic styles I've conceptualized and puts them in a sorting quiz. We aren't just talking your basic schools here; we've got results for latent-born Astral and Shadow schools, alternative variations off of the main schools centered on Pigswick's ideas, and even ancient Primal variations of magic incorporating facets of magical schools otherwise looked over, like the storm and seas, or life and the wild!! This is me releasing my concepts to the public. And if you are so curious, YOU can figure out which one fits you best!!!*
*results may not actually be best fitting. I'm doing my best out here.
Anyways <3 Have fun in there folk!!
#wizard101#pirate101#this gets to go in pirate tags too bc it's just general spiral.#who says pirates are completely devoid of magic huh#anyways hi spiralers of all varieties. this is my first post to you all. the autism quiz#this is only the surface of my own insane worldbuilding.#idk if I'll ever post more but I for sure will always take questions <3#anyways. have fun :]
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