#ocd rainbows

[angrysnakes]

I fucking hate people so fucking much dude

[theartoffresco]

[blvrrykat]

art i made about being a crazy person.

alt txt included; sorry if its hard to interpret

copied from instagram:

art i made for a contest about mental health! this piece is a personal exploration on my ocd, dissociative issues, and autism, and how they influence my identity, gender, and personhood. i often feel like i’m sorting through a very messy web of compulsions and thoughts that is simultaneously completely incomprehensible and somehow more clear than my own sense of self. the rest of it is sorta up for interpretation as i let my subconscious create without forcing some sort of concrete meaning. this was a super fun experimental piece to make and i’m rly proud of how it came out! :]

[dualumina]

"Oh, you're aromantic? So guess you don't do love languages or anything-"

WRONG. Our love language is inflicting status conditions

4 billion poison damage 8 megabytes psychic damage 3 overflow stacks bleed damage 5 reflex saves 20d2 pokemon paralyzes 9 futon failures

[mogai-headcanons]

Twilight Sparkle from My Little Pony is an autistic transmascfem astralgender wizardic galaxyaesic bi lesboy with OCD and anxiety who uses she/her, he/him, they/them, star/stars, and book/books pronouns, and star's dating Pinkie Pie, Rarity, and Applejack!

Pinkie Pie is an autistic cringeXDcoric sillycatgender quirkycringic pinkcoric autigender cupcakeaesic joygender sillygender crayongender pan lesbian with ADHD who uses she/her, they/them, and any silly-, happy-, or fun-related pronouns, and she's dating Rainbow Dash, Twilight Sparkle, and Fluttershy!

Rainbow Dash is an autistic lesbian rainbowaesic rainbowgender fastgender hazardgender bluegender speedcoric trans boy with ADHD who uses he/him, they/them, and it/its pronouns, and it's dating Pinkie Pie, Fluttershy, Vinyl Scratch, and Applejack!

Fluttershy is an autistic bisexual cringeXDcoric bungender pinkbunnygender gendercute softcoric autigender nonbinary trans girl with anxiety and paranoia who uses she/her, they/them, and soft/softs pronouns, and she's dating Rainbow Dash and Pinkie Pie!

Rarity is an autistic transfeminine diamondgender fabricgender bi lesbian with ADHD and OCD who uses she/her and they/them pronouns, and they're dating Twilight Sparkle and Applejack!

Applejack is an autistic butch applic farmcoric lesbian who uses they/them, he/him, and she/her pronouns, and she's dating Rarity, Rainbow Dash, and Twilight Sparkle!

Vinyl Scratch is an autistic selectively mute neoncoric scenecoric scenix DJgender transmasculine lesbian with ADHD who uses he/him, they/them, and rawr/rawrs pronouns, and rawr's dating Rainbow Dash!

Muffins is an autistic aromantic panromantic sillygender pony with ADHD who uses they/them and he/him pronouns!

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[hourglass-dreams]

I was looking at mental health symbols because I was being a curious psych nerd and I found out that one of the symbols for OCD is an hourglass...

I know it's just a coincidence but it's still weird that it happened.

[muneh1966]

I just want to appreciate my boxes I made at school today. Every. Single. Line. Matches. Thank you.

[neurospicyyy]

Neurodivergent infinity symbol gif by @neurospicyyy - free to use! - no need to credit! (But it would be appreciated) - anyone can use it [source | where i made the gif]

[mwagneto]

having a fucking laundry list of mental illnesses is so embarrassing fr i feel like those 15 year olds in the 2010s who put all their self dx acronyms in their bios whenever i think about it

[givemetherapyimawritingtravesty]

5 is an even number.

Well, not *even* but it is a nice round number, you feel me?

Like the volume of the TV / radio should be an even number OR a multiple of 5. 15, tho an odd number mathematically, it is a good number for things like volume or what have you.

[thehavenmh]

[chillychive]

1, 4 ,50, and 133 for the book rec ask tag, plus any others you just really want to answer!! Your comments on my rants are always so kind!

Thanks for the ask!! (:D)

a book that is close to your heart

hmm... this is a tough one I'm quite the avid reader... Maybe Magnus Chase & The Gods of Asgard? It's a book that really helped me come to terms with my identity and Magnus is a character I relate to quite a lot. Also, oddly, I'm tempted to say OCD, The Dude, and Me. It's a book that found me when I needed it, and that's honestly the greatest thing in the world.

4. a poetry book that reads like a story

Idk if it counts... I love poetry but I don't often read poetry books. I think I read Moo by Shannon Creech, in like 4th grade, which I remember enjoying but don't remember much about it. I've heard good things about Out of the Dust, but I haven't read it yet. My best friend adored the book though.

42. a book that made you want to scream by the time you got to the end

Im adding this one cause it's fun. Keeper of The Lost Cities. Every single one of them. The endingss just UGH. And every book just gets more and more painful cause u love the characters so much and they just keep getting hurt :(. I love it tho. And throughout every reread I'm usually just screaming at poor Sophie because how hasn't she figured out *insert any secret ever* yet????? or How does she not know that *insert any male friend* likes her?????

50. a book that made you cry a LOT

I don't usually cry at media... so it's odd how many I thought of. For my emotionally repressed self, any amount of crying is equivalent to a LOT of crying, so I'm going to go with that. Radio Silence by Alice Oseman made me cry, although that one doesn't really count since things that happened in it reminded me of a very painful thing that happened IRL so. Our Rainbow made me cry because it was the representation I wish I had when I was younger.

133. a book that you came across randomly and fell in love with

OCD, The Dude, And Me. I got it on a whim and it turned out to be a book that had a profound impact on me. (If you've read this book, do not judge me. I was in a bad place and it was what I needed). Also, Dead City by James Ponti. Fully expected to hate it cause me and creepy stuff and zombies are an absolute no. But I completely fell in love with and it's one of my all time favorites. It is quite gross tho.

[theartoffresco]

[yoshistory]

when i make avatars / sonas any eye colors that are sorta fantasy-colors is fine generally speaking but if i give a sona/avatar/perspective representation of myself a real-life eye color i dont have it feels. wrong to me. like im lying

[inkskinned]

even 2 years ago people still said autism with a whisper. it was also how people sometimes whisper lesbian, like they're afraid of uttering a slur. autistic was either an insult or it was something terrible, a horrible burden only select people endure. "select people" were usually 9 year old boys and skinny white men.

they are not hispanic young adults with a dog and a life and friends. i can make (sustained, calculated, painful) eye contact. with certain people, i don't even have to count how many seconds i am holding their vision - i can just look at them. i can wear clothes that bother me, i will just have a worse day than usual. i might cry about any changes to my schedule - but change is scary! this is normal!

when i was 16 it was OCD. i mean that was the thing everyone said. i totally have ocd. they would arrange 6 colors of gel pen in rainbow order (no worry for indigo feeling left out) and they'd be "so ocd" about it.

if you struggle with intrusive thoughts, be careful at this next paragraph, but. at 16 i developed a compulsion that involved self-harm. my ocd was convinced i was simply forgetting that i'd hurt someone terribly - a thought that persisted for no clear or delineated reason.

at some point i will probably write about how the idea of "morally pure thoughts" was hell for me and others with ocd, but this was the odd dichotomy for many of us: they liked our "aesthetic", but were genuinely repulsed by our lived experience. "intrusive thoughts" now means "cutting your hair in the sink" instead of talking yourself down from believing horrible things. "so ocd" is a label without any true understanding.

it's something i've talked about before - in multiplicity - but i firmly believe in the veracity and necessity of self-diagnosis. i think it saves lives and it saves tragedies from occurring. as someone raised in a house that wasn't safe, self-diagnosis was, for many years, the only viable option. 15 and honestly googling: am i depressed or are there demons affecting my behavior.

but it is not genuine self-diagnosis anymore, most of the time. it is a strange, blanched version of that whispered word autism. now certain traits are constantly seen as "autistic" - any passing intense interest. any flubbed social interaction. people say it while laughing - a touch of the 'tism.

and i like the acceptance! i do. i like that people are talking about it. i like that if i self-identify, more people speak up and say me too, bitch. but there is something-else quietly happening, the way it happened to OCD. the quirky, "fun" parts have been washed and sanitized and removed of all suffering. now it is just something that makes you "a little bit silly."

it took me 27 years on this planet before i learned to make friends. something about me just seems incredibly odd, i guess, some kind of radiation monitoring. someone once (in a way that was almost friendly) told me i am doing the right things, but in a way that's off-putting. i have scoured myself raw attempting to be charming.

someone on tiktok does a deep dive into their particular passion. the top comment says "what kind of autism is this lol". like we are a breed of animal. like it has no influence on our experience. like our life is a fresh breeze, an open meadow.

more often for me, life was a drowning.

[corvusthecryptid]

y'know what? fuck it! shout out to all my fellow "stereotypes!"

shoutout to my fellow autists who do feel like a kid in an adult’s body because their mind works differently. shoutout to my fellow systems who have alters that lash out, and/or alters of fictives from popular media. shoutout to my fellow bpd folks who get clingy and have abandonment issues. shoutout to the autists who act "robotic" and love trains or dinosaurs. shoutout to the people with OCD/OCPD who do get obsessions with cleanliness and orderliness, who do wash their hands over and over, who do lock and unlock the doors a specific number of times. shoutout to the people struggling with intrusive thoughts that do get the violent ones and the sexual ones, not just the self-injurious ones.

shoutout to my fellow flamboyant gays. shoutout to the lesbians who wear flannel and have buzzcuts. shoutout to the aces who like space and cake and dragons. shoutout to the aces who are stoic and don't have an interest in bonding with people even non-romantically. shoutout to the nbs with neopronouns and names like "star." shoutout to the queers(or otherwise lgbt+ folk if you don't use that term for yourself) who have dyed and cut hair, wear a shitload of pronoun pins, wear a rainbow binder that can be seen, and love talking about how much they love being part of the community.

shoutout to my fellow activists who yell and get mad. shoutout to my fellow activists who bring up the problems in things, even if it means "always making it political." shoutout to the feminists who don't wear bras or shave, and don't get along with men.

shoutout to the men who struggle with emotions. shoutout to the men who love blue and camo and trucks and fixing things and sports and hunting. shoutout to the women who cry easily. shoutout to the women who take hours getting ready. shoutout to the women who love pink and shopping and shoes and cooking and taking care of kids and cleaning.

i'm very white so i'll summarize the next one: shoutout to all the BIPOC fitting into "stereotypes" as well. if anyone who is BIPOC wants to give specific shout outs, go for it!

to anyone who fits these or any other "stereotypes":

You are not a stereotype. You are a person with traits and qualities. You are not doing anything wrong by being true to yourself, whether that means fitting expectations or not.

Anyone who hates whatever group you are in for these "stereotypes" would hate your group regardless; anyone who accuses you of "giving your group a bad name" is deflecting the hate onto you because it's easier to pretend that it's nothing they are doing that gets that hatred; the truth is, bigots are bigots and they will always find a "reason" to be hateful. You trying to avoid "stereotypes" will never change that.

(do not fucking clown on this post. you will not get a debate from me, you will get blocked.)