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savemebeel · 2 months ago

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I’ve said this time and time again but I’m really over the fact that NB has proactively added tons of og content from OM and still claiming that they can’t transfer any old cards to previous players when they’ve added 80 og lessons, old outfits that could only be worn if you owned said event card was in your possession, and still have the og game handle getting new NB cards

So really what’s the excuse here?? They are fully capable of taking on old content the same way the og game can handle new NB content. Just say you want an easy cash grab and move on 😒

#shit like this is so annoying #I’ve been calling it for the past year now #but obey me don’t hit the same anymore #they switched up on fans ages ago #but nobody wants to listen #they’d rather defend a company #that doesn’t care for their fans like they used to #the game was never perfect but it was good #it was fun until they blew up #now it’s all gone down the drain #it sucks having a hate love relationship to the game lol #obey me #obey me! shall we date?

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radios-universe · 3 months ago

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hey guys anyone got any tips about ur close aroace friend who happens to be 3k miles away so very rarely is seen irl but when together irl you’re very close to and cuddle with and you feel so safe and comfy around them but then they text you about random guys they’re looking at on hinge and in that moment you literally wanna scream and rage and suddenly cannot stand any men because of this friend only just Looking at them on hinge and potentially hooking up with them

i am also aroace i am simply seeking answers i’ve been like this for almost a year i want a break but i simply show no signs of improvement .

#like we used to talk about our future together and how we’d flatshsre and live together #even talked about a civil partnership like #serious serious shit #and then they hooked up with a guy One time #and now it just feels like it’s all gone down the drain!#and is that because i started acting weird bc i was??? jealous??? sad????#but it feels hard to still be friends with them and i feel awful about that #but clearly to them sex is important and to me it is something i do not want!!!#so a relationship with me would not include it #and i Want a relationship i just #don’t think they do!#so i’m just in constant brain rot like #wtf do i do because i haven’t felt better about this the whole time #i. i am doubting tumblr to give me answers #it’s actually a long story and it is just.#it would take a lot more than this to have a proper answer #aroace #aromantic #asexual #aro #ace #actually aroace #lgbtq #aspec #asexuality #aromanticism

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bunnihearted · 4 months ago

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#it actually does make such a huge difference omg im like ... feels like i got thrown into the floor lost my breath #having someone i like so much to talk to abt things #and share stuff and details abt not only my days but their days too #and talking abt like books that we read or shows/movies we saw and etc etc #sending pics. sending voice messages. all of that #that was so amazing wth???#it sounds like such a mundane thing but it changed my enire baseline. it wasnt a littel thing to me #i didnt share as much as i wanted to because it takes me longer to settle into smth like this #or any kind of connection/correspondence/bond/rapport #im slow bc im so scared of ppl. scared of trusting. scared of opening up. rejection rejection all of that #yeah.. takes me a lot longer than the average person to settle into smth like this #avpd is its own special hell...#i miss it a lot and i wish there hadnt been all the other circumstances so i could've actually relaxed into it #and come out of my shell completely. which i was almost there. now that mental block is gone but it's too late....#i take too long... it is impossible to be patient with me. i really hate everything abt my brain #my desire overtook my fear and it was quicker than it ever has but not enough.. :(#i miss it sm and it made me feel so so much lust for life..#but it's gone now and i can really feel the loss of it #i wouldve done anything i could to save it. or nurture it. or whatever. but it was a sacred treasure to /me/.#it doesnt matter if i try to put out the flames in a burning house if the house is gone and there are actually only the flames left #and since to me it is so special. and like. the fact that this even happened is crazy to me stuff like this feelings and connection never #happen to me. it's like.. special to talk to someone u like & have an established rapport with on a regular basis #and tell them stuff and rant abt like a book or whatever. ask them details abt their life bc u know them and enjoy knowing them #i cant just transfer all of this to someone else. i dont feel like yapping abt the book im reading into the void or someone i barely know #i just dont know... i need that sm and it was so amazing w someone i like sm. & it makes me sad i takes me too long to get fully comfortable #bc of this time were it was the most intense and long lasting for me but also im in love lmao. but other times too...#i take too long and why would someone wanna wait like actually a year (which is how long it often takes me to pass a certain barrier)#im not special. im nothing that great. it is easy to find someone else who is x1000 better than me and wont take an eternity to warm up #i just feel so sad bc i try so hard and then all of my effort just goes down the drain and then i have to do it again if i meet someone #then they'll leave me behind too and get tired of me and not like what they see and then im back at square 1 again

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koko2unite · 5 months ago

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#wendell #fortnite #so i just found out that my mom cooked smth delicious at home #and only now she decides to cook one #she didnt cook anything while i was staying there when this stupid house that i dont even own is being fixed #she specifically wait for me until this house is “done” aka has a bed even though theres still no clean water or fixed fences #and once im gone she goes back to cooking good food again #and she expects to be normal about this? to not get mad??? after all of my emergency money used up to fix someone else's house?????#i cant believe she expect me to respect or love any of them with this kind of treatment #i wanna cut off them so bad too bad im traumatized and my whole life ive only been striving for their attention and praises #and if i lose it my mental is gonna go down the drain #i hate this so much #how dare she says that she treat all of her children equal #when she only sing praises to my sibling for being able to achieve the assigned goal they made for him #and for my other sibling who now has 2 grand children #they think they didnt know they never talk about me to other people because im the shame of the family #while keep asking me money and making me pay for my brothers family needs #even though they all make the same or even more than me #i hate it #is it because im gay? or what?#like im still your son goddammit that is not ok #fuckkkkk

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lucyvaleheart · 5 months ago

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#whew. this sucks #i.... hhh #well. im... sad.#and scared. and painful. and lonely.#just really running the whole gambit of shit right now.#and fuck I'm just so tired.#so so so so so tired.#everything keeps happening. Just. Over and over and over and over #i cannot get a break #i don't feel like I've truly rested in months #im out of my program now. and....#......i dunno. maybe my memory just fucking sucks. but i feel like im worse #i feel like i didn't even go.#three weeks of memory. down the drain.#like it didn't exist.#i cried a lot. I know that. Breakdowns constantly.#it's all gone though. I don't remember it #........gods you have no clue how.....petrifying that is.#........am i even alive?#Did i kill myself weeks ago and i just don't know it yet?#i feel so alone #im so tired.#....I'm so tired......#.............please let me rest...... im so so tired........#........when can i stop...?

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tenrose · 5 months ago

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I hate living in this world.

#misc #negativity tw #first off i had an argument with a colleague at work #we had to move places for the millionth time in this stupid open space #which already annoyed me #but this guy came at bargained like he always do while i said nothing because it's not like we chooae #and he always does that for actual work because and idk at first i made a snarky comment about now that he got what he wanted he better be #ready to work instead of hiding when somebody ask him to do his job #and he told me he didn't understand the remark #and my hot temper that makes me snap every five years took over #i bet he has by now complaining aboutme like he does about everything #anyway i take hours to calm down (not calm after 4 hours)#I'm also pissed at me cause i can't get emotional without shaking stupidly which makes me look like an hysterical person (i mean sadly i am)#also if there has to have an explanation once my anger is gone tomorrow i will be back on social anxiety mode which is gonna make it worse #all of this reminded me that i need to find a new job for ten thousand reasons #but unfortunately all employers are shit and actually i don't even know what i want to do #and as usual i have no energy for anything because i am still a major piece of shit #then i wanted to relax #made the mistake to open Instagram because I'm also stupid #and i know i don't often talk about politics and stuff #but it's really draining me #i barely or read news just enough to be aware #and honestly its exhausting but I dont want to complain cause Im in a privileged position where i have the chance to be able to 'shut off'#and yes my country and especially this government is sickening me #and like its people too #and also insta is full of pride posts #and i am stupid to read the homophobic and transphobic comments #and genuinely these people alongside racist and islamophobic people really scare the hell out of me #hopefully i don't engage but i shouldn't read anything at all tbh #speaking of pride im spiralling because even tho i kinda identify as aro i feel like a freak and i have nobody to tell me im not

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emsloe · 1 year ago

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1. Yay!

2. Ow

I was told that the nurse was gushing after about how this is the best top surgery she’s seen in a super long time because my pecs are big and i have “pretty much no body fat.” Like ma’am please i worked hard to put that body fat there 😭 but thanks though

I was first into surgery this morning but there was another, very young-sounding transmasc nearby who also had top surgery. This guy really does do a metric shitton of top surgeries every year

#have not taken any oxy yet #it been like 10 or 11 hours so maybe i should soon #it doesnt hurt bad but i CERTAINLY feel it #if i laugh my right drain gets mad #surge talks #i feel p good rn overall. mentally normal. pain minimal. kinda swollen but it has gone down since earlier actually #walked a bunch. first attempt at walking was terrifying but took a nap and now no issues #nurse tugged down my bandages barely enough to show me my nips and uh #they have certainly moved #hope it all looks ok under there. i have no clue

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seawing-vibes · 8 months ago

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HEY I JUST WENT TO ANSWER AN ASK AND TUMBLR DELETED IT :( IF YOU SENT AN ASK YESTERDAY COULD YOU POSSIBLY SEND IT AGAIN ??? APOLOGIES <///3

#I JUST SPENT AN HOUR WRITING & REFINING MY RESPONSE AND HIT SAVE DRAFT AND THEN IT JUST . DISSAPATED. IM SO UPSET.#THE ASK WAS ABUT PERIL’S PLACEMENT ON THE TRANSSPECTURM POST :( I WROTE A WHOLE ASS ANALYSIS . AND ITS GONE. GUH .#TWO PHARAGRAPHS OF PERIL CHARACTER ANALYSIS . DOWN THE DRAIN. HEAD IN HANDS .#also the image ID was long as hell now i gotta rewrite it all again .#I need to not write long things on tumblr but alas. im dumb as hell.#or maybe I hit the ‘post privately’ button on accident ???????#I dunno im desperate here #because this post saved as a draft just fine .

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fastianini · 1 year ago

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the universal honda experience of 2023

#just putting this here #just—yk—🤪#petition for honda to burn their disgrace of a bike to the ground and build it entirely new! you can‘t fix this one!#and to bring out every illegal thing they can find idc how illegal it is like #let‘s risk something. let‘s risk going to jail. what do we have to lose anymore? dignity?#gurl. that shit has been down the drain for a looong time now let‘s go #OR—listen here! fire alberto puig and hire me cos you know what we‘re gonna do? easy peasy lemon squeezy or whatever?#we‘re gonna steal a fucking ducati and plaster the honda livery on it=problem solved!#sometimes my genius is…it‘s almost frightening #yes i‘ve gone completely insane yes i have hit all bottom of despair pits no there is no cure #motogp #also i forgot to make joan look the other way sorry just as honda i can’t be bothered to fix it :)

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astrifurious · 1 year ago

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didn’t know therapists could just…leave like that

#the lack of closure is bugging me like that’s a year and a half down the drain…#I wish I could’ve said goodbye or something #I wonder what happened…#it’s especially weird because this is a person who knows so much about you and your problems and was working with you to resolve them #and now they’re just gone #and now you have to start all over and build trust and familiarity with a whole new person #I hope my new therapist can understand if I’m a little clammed up when we meet like wtf…#astricast

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windmill-ghost · 2 years ago

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I feel so wretched that I got so hyped for doing a TDH project act talked about a bunch and spent so long planning it and then ran out of steam before I even started. I want people to be interested in my ideas so much, but if anyone actually is I just do nothing but let that person down.

#god. god. fuck #fr just scoop my brain out and flush it down the toilet now #so at least everything I have will go down the drain sooner rather than later #it’s just. fuck. i can barely make an image in a day and can’t #i can’t #my thoughts move so much faster than my hands #it’s always slipping through my fingers and #wg speaks #you know #the pail has leaks #and even if you put all your water into it #you’re left with nothing left to drink #the well has gone dry and i with it. and all that

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ilostyou · 2 years ago

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5sos said it's so hard to watch everything i want spinning down the drain which is true however. even worse than that is not even getting to watch everything spin down the drain bc you thought everything was actually fine and the drain was plugged and nothing was going anywhere so your attention wanders a bit and you come back thinking everything is still fine except it's not bc everything you ever wanted disappeared while you were weren't looking while it was completely out of your control while you were under the assumption it was all fine so you didn't even have the chance to process the fact that it might ever go away that everything you want could spin down the drain or is actively spinning down the drain bc everything was fine it was all supposed to be fine

#im having a meltdown 👍🏻 but it's all internal and i seem veeeery stoic right now bc i think im angry at circumstances and myself #yes this is about everything with the program i didnt get into could you yet? obviously that's all im properly melting down abt lately #does this make sense? not sure don't care either way #like. i kind of wish i had some indication of things not working out!!! of me literally just not getting in!! and i couldve prepared myself #but no everything was fucking PERFECT im fucking PERFECT on paper my interview was fucking PERFECT i felt fucking GREAT #so yeah i felt ok abt it and didnt wanna get my hopes up but everything felt FINE it all felt GOOD and then poof #every fucking idea i had for myself for the future apparently fucking gone! out the window! and i had no clue it was coming!#and i wish i could say i should have or could have seen it coming but i COULDNT have bc it was all PERFECT #theres no fucking concrete reason it shouldnt have worked out except that i should just stop getting my hopes up about good things #like if i had seen it coming there's no possible way i would have been this level of crushed bc ?? i wouldve seen it coming #and in the metaphor of the song. yeah it fucking sucks watching what you want spin down the drain but ?? you got to WATCH IT #not that thats a good thing that fucking sucks too but ?? coming back to an empty sink you thought was plugged?? that you didnt think #would actually ever empty and the drain wasnt open and nothing was supposed to go down the drain?? and you come back to it empty???#yeah fuck okay #bleach #5sos #5 seconds of summer #this has been a rant

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usertoxicyaoi · 2 years ago

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Hi ~ Sorry to read your still not feeling well. I Hope todays new episode of between us helps your day get better. I just love scrolling on your page after each new episode to see your thoughts and I enjoy your posts! It’s nice to know I’m not the only one enjoying this show.

Here’s hoping you get to rest soon!!

hiiiii!!!! aaaah thank you!!!!!!!!!! yeah i've been ill on and off for the last 5 weeks or so - its what happens around this time of year when you're a teacher who works with 3 year olds kids! 🙈🙈🙈. i've never had the strongest of immune systems ever really either, but i'm just pushing on bc xmas break is 2 weeks away now so ... yeah! once all these christmas parties and christmas productions are done i can rest!

thank you so much once again! i hope you enjoy ep 6 of between us today!!!!!

#faiza answers #what bothers me is that ive /felt/ how weak i've become bc i havent worked out for 6 weeks now and ... meh .. yeah.#all that progress i made feels like its gone down the drain so i'll just have to restart again next year.#anyway! i hate falling ill!

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selkies-world · 9 months ago

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Also, spinal misalignment, scoliosis & kyphosis can usually still be corrected in children & young adults without surgery, if you shop sound for the right doctor & expert. If you leave it until adulthood, it takes a lot more to treat it, and unless you know exactly what caused it & a fair amount of your family's medical history, you're gonna be given the option of physical therapy to manage the pain or surgery which won't guarantee less pain at all.

Hot tip for parents both present and future: When your kid tells you something is wrong, listen to them!

Sorry for not posting much lately, I’ve been busy with work and personal stuff, including an upcoming spinal x-ray I’ve been waiting over a decade for and the angriest doctor I’ve ever met in my life

#I'm 24 & have had my idiopathic scoliosis tracked since i was 8(?)#from 8 - 12 it was still possible for my spine to fix itself via growth sprouts - it was a coin flip...#...whether they'd fix it or make it worse #so i decided i wanted to wait rather than treat it #i also got taken to a chiropractor around this time (i know i know) for maybe a year???#by 15 my spine had gone from slightly curved to a full 'S'#from 15 - 17 i was offered surgery more than 10 times #i refused all of them because i didn't trust doctors or surgeons enough to put my entire life & future in their hands #I'd had surgery on my ribcage twice by then i KNEW how much i needed to trust them to let them operate on my spine #and that was a trust they didn't have #i haven't had an xray since then & I went to physio for maybe 8 months total from 18 - 20 #at 23 i discovered somatic therapy for scoliosis & it treats it holistically by working on the muscles AROUND the spine...#...which impact it & determine its placement & position & strength etc #I have now been doing that inconsistently for around 9 months & have straightened my lower spine #i can run my fingers over my vertibrae & they're in a staight line down the center of my lower back #i am continuing with somatic therapy to straighten my upper spine too #is it easy? no. is it emotionally draining? sometimes. do i sometimes overlook it or procrastinate doing it because im tired or bored? yes.#however... is it worth it? yes. do i wish a doctor had given me this option at least once over the past 10+ years? yes.#am i lowley angry at the fact i got told i couldn't cure it with surgery AS A CHILD but am now straightening it myself as an adult...#...while KNOWING if i mention this to a doctor who doesn't “believe in” holistic treatments then I'll be laughed at or told to stop? YES.#i plan on getting a spinal checkup later this yesr at a specialist clinic i spent 4 months researching because i wanna SEE my spine #and i wanna be able to talk about this out loud #I've had genetic testing & as far as i was told there was no cause or underlying reason for my scoliosis - so it's idiopathic #(meaning drs dont know what caused it)#my mother also has idiopathic scoliosis & ive watched her body deteriorate over the laat 12+ years because she has not been treated...#...for it aince she was a child & the only treatment back then was putting a lift in her shoes to compensate #it did nothing to help & she's tried acupuncture for the pain but hasn't had the spine treated since she was 12(?)#and honestly???? im terrified of losing control of my body the way she has lost control of hers #so am i willing to risk doing somatic therapy if it is the only thing which has given me hope of control & a future with a straight spine???#yes. a million times yes.

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anarchypumpkincowboy · 2 months ago

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only good thing about losing all my weight gain progress is that i now have another binder i can wear

#cause i got it a few yrs ago when i was around this weight and its too tight all around to breathe comfortably in when i gained weight #but pretty much all my hard work has gone down the drain so i can wear it again now

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softly-and-suddenly · 6 months ago

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I cannot believe that I’m finally fully burning out on school halfway through my master’s degree. My brain has held out this long and all of a sudden it’s done with like three semesters left?? Bitch

#NOT TO POST ABOUT MY OWN PERSONAL LIFE PROBLEMS ON TUMBLR DOT COM #BUT WHAT DO I DO NOW #The craziest thing is that I swear to god I felt it when the last straw hit me at like 10:30 this morning #My classmate brought up class registration and I realized that I had totally forgotten that it was coming up and I felt my phone buzz #and I looked down and I had a text from someone in one of my THREE GROUP PROJECTS all with ASSIGNMENTS DUE THIS SUNDAY #and the person said that they had gone to office hours and found out we are missing a crucial piece of our project that we need to backfill #And the wave of resignation and dread I felt in that moment was so horrific and draining. Like what the fuck #somehow I am both winning and losing the idgaf war

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