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savemebeel · 5 months ago

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I’ve said this time and time again but I’m really over the fact that NB has proactively added tons of og content from OM and still claiming that they can’t transfer any old cards to previous players when they’ve added 80 og lessons, old outfits that could only be worn if you owned said event card was in your possession, and still have the og game handle getting new NB cards

So really what’s the excuse here?? They are fully capable of taking on old content the same way the og game can handle new NB content. Just say you want an easy cash grab and move on 😒

#shit like this is so annoying #I’ve been calling it for the past year now #but obey me don’t hit the same anymore #they switched up on fans ages ago #but nobody wants to listen #they’d rather defend a company #that doesn’t care for their fans like they used to #the game was never perfect but it was good #it was fun until they blew up #now it’s all gone down the drain #it sucks having a hate love relationship to the game lol #obey me #obey me! shall we date?

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radios-universe · 7 months ago

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hey guys anyone got any tips about ur close aroace friend who happens to be 3k miles away so very rarely is seen irl but when together irl you’re very close to and cuddle with and you feel so safe and comfy around them but then they text you about random guys they’re looking at on hinge and in that moment you literally wanna scream and rage and suddenly cannot stand any men because of this friend only just Looking at them on hinge and potentially hooking up with them

i am also aroace i am simply seeking answers i’ve been like this for almost a year i want a break but i simply show no signs of improvement .

#like we used to talk about our future together and how we’d flatshsre and live together #even talked about a civil partnership like #serious serious shit #and then they hooked up with a guy One time #and now it just feels like it’s all gone down the drain!#and is that because i started acting weird bc i was??? jealous??? sad????#but it feels hard to still be friends with them and i feel awful about that #but clearly to them sex is important and to me it is something i do not want!!!#so a relationship with me would not include it #and i Want a relationship i just #don’t think they do!#so i’m just in constant brain rot like #wtf do i do because i haven’t felt better about this the whole time #i. i am doubting tumblr to give me answers #it’s actually a long story and it is just.#it would take a lot more than this to have a proper answer #aroace #aromantic #asexual #aro #ace #actually aroace #lgbtq #aspec #asexuality #aromanticism

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transmascsnearyou · 16 days ago

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My best friend is in hospital so I'm cooking for him to bring him some good food tomorrow (he's basically allowed to eat whatever he wants)

And I'm so genuinely lucky that his favourite food is lasagna because that's literally the only thing I can cook perfectly.

Like I'm not a good cook, just in general. I either season too much or too little and the food ends up being just okay. But lasagna is the one thing I can do. I tried it once when I was 13 and it turned out amazing and I always just do whatever and it turns out incredible.

#it is 1 am and I just put the lasagna in the oven #I've been off work since like 7 but I procrastinated too hard #also my adhd really has it out for me today #like i literally put something down right in front of me for a second and suddenly it's gone #it's still right in front of me but it takes me 5 minutes to realize that because it has just become part of the kitchen #also i'm being really dumb in saying that I'll clean up tomorrow #because I know myself and I'm probably only gonna clean this up in like 1-2 weeks #and i should just do it now but cooking has literally drained me of all my energy #I'm sitting on my kitchen floor writing this waiting for the lasagna to be finished so i can turn off the oven and go to bed #I'm not sure yet if I'll have the energy to get up

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koko2unite · 8 months ago

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#wendell #fortnite #so i just found out that my mom cooked smth delicious at home #and only now she decides to cook one #she didnt cook anything while i was staying there when this stupid house that i dont even own is being fixed #she specifically wait for me until this house is “done” aka has a bed even though theres still no clean water or fixed fences #and once im gone she goes back to cooking good food again #and she expects to be normal about this? to not get mad??? after all of my emergency money used up to fix someone else's house?????#i cant believe she expect me to respect or love any of them with this kind of treatment #i wanna cut off them so bad too bad im traumatized and my whole life ive only been striving for their attention and praises #and if i lose it my mental is gonna go down the drain #i hate this so much #how dare she says that she treat all of her children equal #when she only sing praises to my sibling for being able to achieve the assigned goal they made for him #and for my other sibling who now has 2 grand children #they think they didnt know they never talk about me to other people because im the shame of the family #while keep asking me money and making me pay for my brothers family needs #even though they all make the same or even more than me #i hate it #is it because im gay? or what?#like im still your son goddammit that is not ok #fuckkkkk

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lucyvaleheart · 8 months ago

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#whew. this sucks #i.... hhh #well. im... sad.#and scared. and painful. and lonely.#just really running the whole gambit of shit right now.#and fuck I'm just so tired.#so so so so so tired.#everything keeps happening. Just. Over and over and over and over #i cannot get a break #i don't feel like I've truly rested in months #im out of my program now. and....#......i dunno. maybe my memory just fucking sucks. but i feel like im worse #i feel like i didn't even go.#three weeks of memory. down the drain.#like it didn't exist.#i cried a lot. I know that. Breakdowns constantly.#it's all gone though. I don't remember it #........gods you have no clue how.....petrifying that is.#........am i even alive?#Did i kill myself weeks ago and i just don't know it yet?#i feel so alone #im so tired.#....I'm so tired......#.............please let me rest...... im so so tired........#........when can i stop...?

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tenrose · 8 months ago

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I hate living in this world.

#misc #negativity tw #first off i had an argument with a colleague at work #we had to move places for the millionth time in this stupid open space #which already annoyed me #but this guy came at bargained like he always do while i said nothing because it's not like we chooae #and he always does that for actual work because and idk at first i made a snarky comment about now that he got what he wanted he better be #ready to work instead of hiding when somebody ask him to do his job #and he told me he didn't understand the remark #and my hot temper that makes me snap every five years took over #i bet he has by now complaining aboutme like he does about everything #anyway i take hours to calm down (not calm after 4 hours)#I'm also pissed at me cause i can't get emotional without shaking stupidly which makes me look like an hysterical person (i mean sadly i am)#also if there has to have an explanation once my anger is gone tomorrow i will be back on social anxiety mode which is gonna make it worse #all of this reminded me that i need to find a new job for ten thousand reasons #but unfortunately all employers are shit and actually i don't even know what i want to do #and as usual i have no energy for anything because i am still a major piece of shit #then i wanted to relax #made the mistake to open Instagram because I'm also stupid #and i know i don't often talk about politics and stuff #but it's really draining me #i barely or read news just enough to be aware #and honestly its exhausting but I dont want to complain cause Im in a privileged position where i have the chance to be able to 'shut off'#and yes my country and especially this government is sickening me #and like its people too #and also insta is full of pride posts #and i am stupid to read the homophobic and transphobic comments #and genuinely these people alongside racist and islamophobic people really scare the hell out of me #hopefully i don't engage but i shouldn't read anything at all tbh #speaking of pride im spiralling because even tho i kinda identify as aro i feel like a freak and i have nobody to tell me im not

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catamaurrr-star · 3 days ago

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ive been getting tortured by bugs recently and now that i type that out i think its divine retribution for suffocating a fly once

#maurposting #as for the torture the bugs have been doing to me. 1) So many bugs in my room for like 2-3 days. there was a dead cockroach next to my bed #2) so many drain flies in the bathroom. everytime i think theyre mostly gone i see another one.#3) looked down at my book during ict class one day and there was a bug. smushed it and its corpse is still there #4) Mosquito on my desk when i woek up from a nap. smacked it with my plushie that wasowrking as a pillow. mosquito blood still on it.#5 (related to previous point) MOSQUITO BITE ON MY LIP which went away pretty fast though thank GOD #6 (?) weird bruise looking thing on my finger that i assume was due to the mosquito in number 4 and 5. mostly gone by now #All within the span of like a month or so btw. LET ME GO

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lightblueminecraftorchid · 3 months ago

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My roommate and I had a conversation last night and I keep rotating it in my brain and I Don’t Like It

#blue chatter #they called me a resilient person. and no the fuck I am not. I break down so easily over everything and my body is falling apart on me.#I scream in terror when someone knocks on the door too hard the fuck you mean I’m good at handling adversity #I pointed out that I freak out whenever my grade gets low even a little bit #and they were just sitting there like ‘yeah. and then you pick yourself up again and you do the work.’#and no? not always? oftentimes I give up and don’t try hard enough to fix it and let points go that I could have earned #I barely ever go for extra credit opportunities and I’ve never gone to office hours of my own free will #I can’t even think about talking to a professor about a bad grade without wanting to cry? hello?#but they were insistent that even with those things I am still managing Incredibly Well in class given the circumstances. which made me #uncomfortable. like. I don’t think of myself as resilient At All and I feel a bit like I’m lying or tricking them.#I start shaking like a chihuahua when people are upset and I’m In The Vicinity. even when they’re clearly not upset with me.#I really struggle to advocate for myself ever and even when I do I usually feel guilty and walk it back partway so I don’t cause a fight #and I always get way too emotional for the situation when someone has anything they’re upset with me for. which isn’t fair to them bc I need #to be able to take constructive criticism without taking it as a personal attack on me.#like what the fuck do you mean *resilient*. I can’t even handle seeing a bug flying near my face or getting a B in a class. or being told #that I did something wrong. I’m actually significantly worse at handling adversity than I used to be. high school me was a resilientish kid.#and it’s not like I was ever *good* at handling my emotions. even when it was essential for my safety. I’ve always cried way too easily #even when it actively made the situation I was in Much Worse. even when I knew better.#I would get angry and scared and sad and start shaking and crying and even screaming at my parents when they were mad at me even though #I knew that it would always make my life much worse. and extend an already beleaguered argument.#I brought this up with my therapist and she was like ‘well. anybody would have done that if they were treated like you were’.#which. okay. maybe so. I still feel like I should have been able to handle it and just shut up and move on and not make it worse.#but I am aware that this is probably a cognitive distortion. even so. that definitely doesn’t make me resilient.#I just. I feel gross being called resilient. I’m not. I’m weak and easily scared and unable to handle even small amounts of adversity.#the fuck is my roommate even *seeing*.#the annoying part is that they’re generally an insightful person about other people and I know logically that they’re probably right #which is why I’m not going to complain any more about this to their face bc I should just drop it and not make it a Thing #I talk too much about myself and my problems anyway. not every conversation has to be about my brain worms.#but the discomfort is Distinct and Unpleasant. and now I’m just having to sit with it. and Feel Uncomfortable. and try to accept what was #definitely intended as a compliment. I know it’s draining to talk to someone who doesn’t accept any of the kind things you say about them.

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seawing-vibes · 1 year ago

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HEY I JUST WENT TO ANSWER AN ASK AND TUMBLR DELETED IT :( IF YOU SENT AN ASK YESTERDAY COULD YOU POSSIBLY SEND IT AGAIN ??? APOLOGIES <///3

#I JUST SPENT AN HOUR WRITING & REFINING MY RESPONSE AND HIT SAVE DRAFT AND THEN IT JUST . DISSAPATED. IM SO UPSET.#THE ASK WAS ABUT PERIL’S PLACEMENT ON THE TRANSSPECTURM POST :( I WROTE A WHOLE ASS ANALYSIS . AND ITS GONE. GUH .#TWO PHARAGRAPHS OF PERIL CHARACTER ANALYSIS . DOWN THE DRAIN. HEAD IN HANDS .#also the image ID was long as hell now i gotta rewrite it all again .#I need to not write long things on tumblr but alas. im dumb as hell.#or maybe I hit the ‘post privately’ button on accident ???????#I dunno im desperate here #because this post saved as a draft just fine .

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fastianini · 2 years ago

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the universal honda experience of 2023

#just putting this here #just—yk—🤪#petition for honda to burn their disgrace of a bike to the ground and build it entirely new! you can‘t fix this one!#and to bring out every illegal thing they can find idc how illegal it is like #let‘s risk something. let‘s risk going to jail. what do we have to lose anymore? dignity?#gurl. that shit has been down the drain for a looong time now let‘s go #OR—listen here! fire alberto puig and hire me cos you know what we‘re gonna do? easy peasy lemon squeezy or whatever?#we‘re gonna steal a fucking ducati and plaster the honda livery on it=problem solved!#sometimes my genius is…it‘s almost frightening #yes i‘ve gone completely insane yes i have hit all bottom of despair pits no there is no cure #motogp #also i forgot to make joan look the other way sorry just as honda i can’t be bothered to fix it :)

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astrifurious · 2 years ago

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didn’t know therapists could just…leave like that

#the lack of closure is bugging me like that’s a year and a half down the drain…#I wish I could’ve said goodbye or something #I wonder what happened…#it’s especially weird because this is a person who knows so much about you and your problems and was working with you to resolve them #and now they’re just gone #and now you have to start all over and build trust and familiarity with a whole new person #I hope my new therapist can understand if I’m a little clammed up when we meet like wtf…#astricast

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windmill-ghost · 2 years ago

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I feel so wretched that I got so hyped for doing a TDH project act talked about a bunch and spent so long planning it and then ran out of steam before I even started. I want people to be interested in my ideas so much, but if anyone actually is I just do nothing but let that person down.

#god. god. fuck #fr just scoop my brain out and flush it down the toilet now #so at least everything I have will go down the drain sooner rather than later #it’s just. fuck. i can barely make an image in a day and can’t #i can’t #my thoughts move so much faster than my hands #it’s always slipping through my fingers and #wg speaks #you know #the pail has leaks #and even if you put all your water into it #you’re left with nothing left to drink #the well has gone dry and i with it. and all that

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selkies-world · 1 year ago

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Also, spinal misalignment, scoliosis & kyphosis can usually still be corrected in children & young adults without surgery, if you shop sound for the right doctor & expert. If you leave it until adulthood, it takes a lot more to treat it, and unless you know exactly what caused it & a fair amount of your family's medical history, you're gonna be given the option of physical therapy to manage the pain or surgery which won't guarantee less pain at all.

Hot tip for parents both present and future: When your kid tells you something is wrong, listen to them!

Sorry for not posting much lately, I’ve been busy with work and personal stuff, including an upcoming spinal x-ray I’ve been waiting over a decade for and the angriest doctor I’ve ever met in my life

#I'm 24 & have had my idiopathic scoliosis tracked since i was 8(?)#from 8 - 12 it was still possible for my spine to fix itself via growth sprouts - it was a coin flip...#...whether they'd fix it or make it worse #so i decided i wanted to wait rather than treat it #i also got taken to a chiropractor around this time (i know i know) for maybe a year???#by 15 my spine had gone from slightly curved to a full 'S'#from 15 - 17 i was offered surgery more than 10 times #i refused all of them because i didn't trust doctors or surgeons enough to put my entire life & future in their hands #I'd had surgery on my ribcage twice by then i KNEW how much i needed to trust them to let them operate on my spine #and that was a trust they didn't have #i haven't had an xray since then & I went to physio for maybe 8 months total from 18 - 20 #at 23 i discovered somatic therapy for scoliosis & it treats it holistically by working on the muscles AROUND the spine...#...which impact it & determine its placement & position & strength etc #I have now been doing that inconsistently for around 9 months & have straightened my lower spine #i can run my fingers over my vertibrae & they're in a staight line down the center of my lower back #i am continuing with somatic therapy to straighten my upper spine too #is it easy? no. is it emotionally draining? sometimes. do i sometimes overlook it or procrastinate doing it because im tired or bored? yes.#however... is it worth it? yes. do i wish a doctor had given me this option at least once over the past 10+ years? yes.#am i lowley angry at the fact i got told i couldn't cure it with surgery AS A CHILD but am now straightening it myself as an adult...#...while KNOWING if i mention this to a doctor who doesn't “believe in” holistic treatments then I'll be laughed at or told to stop? YES.#i plan on getting a spinal checkup later this yesr at a specialist clinic i spent 4 months researching because i wanna SEE my spine #and i wanna be able to talk about this out loud #I've had genetic testing & as far as i was told there was no cause or underlying reason for my scoliosis - so it's idiopathic #(meaning drs dont know what caused it)#my mother also has idiopathic scoliosis & ive watched her body deteriorate over the laat 12+ years because she has not been treated...#...for it aince she was a child & the only treatment back then was putting a lift in her shoes to compensate #it did nothing to help & she's tried acupuncture for the pain but hasn't had the spine treated since she was 12(?)#and honestly???? im terrified of losing control of my body the way she has lost control of hers #so am i willing to risk doing somatic therapy if it is the only thing which has given me hope of control & a future with a straight spine???#yes. a million times yes.

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cerberin · 3 months ago

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someone sent me a random package and i ended up crying all day about it

#23/11/24 #someone sent me a love heart necklace and my sister persuaded me to check if it was him #after 6 months of no contact and thinking i was doing so well #i text him and i regret it #i know he wouldn’t send that i don’t know why i listened to her #or why my heart entertained the idea #i thought i was doing so well with getting over him. i thought i finally accepted that he just doesn’t have feelings for me anymore #that i need to let him go for good #then that stupid necklace gave me delusional hope that maybe just maybe he did still have feelings for me #he doesn’t #he played with me #he kept going back and forth on whether it was him or not until i made him promise that it wasn’t #i cried all day #i told him i hoped it was him and i feel so fucking stupid for saying anything #he didn’t say anything back #ofc he didn’t and i knew he wouldn’t #he doesn’t have feelings for me and he hasn’t for a very long time #i am nothing but a familiar conversation to him #i thought i’d accepted it and i thought i was over it but it all came crashing down and i’m back to feeling so empty and sad now we’re not #talking again #6 months gone down the drain for what #it wasn’t even him #i know i’m nothing to him #i just wish i could lose my childish ridiculous love for him #i know he doesn’t care about me or love me why the fuck do i still have these feelings for him #i’m so tired of being in pain #i just want to love someone and they love me back for real this time #i just want someone that feels the same about me that i do about them #that would do the same for me as i would for then #it just feels like i’m 14 again and i’ve spent a whole decade loving people wholeheartedly that just don’t or never did really truly love me

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anarchypumpkincowboy · 5 months ago

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only good thing about losing all my weight gain progress is that i now have another binder i can wear

#cause i got it a few yrs ago when i was around this weight and its too tight all around to breathe comfortably in when i gained weight #but pretty much all my hard work has gone down the drain so i can wear it again now

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softly-and-suddenly · 9 months ago

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I cannot believe that I’m finally fully burning out on school halfway through my master’s degree. My brain has held out this long and all of a sudden it’s done with like three semesters left?? Bitch

#NOT TO POST ABOUT MY OWN PERSONAL LIFE PROBLEMS ON TUMBLR DOT COM #BUT WHAT DO I DO NOW #The craziest thing is that I swear to god I felt it when the last straw hit me at like 10:30 this morning #My classmate brought up class registration and I realized that I had totally forgotten that it was coming up and I felt my phone buzz #and I looked down and I had a text from someone in one of my THREE GROUP PROJECTS all with ASSIGNMENTS DUE THIS SUNDAY #and the person said that they had gone to office hours and found out we are missing a crucial piece of our project that we need to backfill #And the wave of resignation and dread I felt in that moment was so horrific and draining. Like what the fuck #somehow I am both winning and losing the idgaf war

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