#and also insta is full of pride posts

[tenrose]

I hate living in this world.

[hi-sierra]

Goodbye boymoding and goodbye face censorship!

I've gotta earn the name Sierra.

I'm kicking my summer off with a physically challenging route with a lot of safety nets through Yosemite National Park- a loop down from Tioga road, through the Yosemite valley, and back up via Snow Creek falls. Its well traveled, and the valley floor has lots of services, so it's exactly what I wanted. I'm posting this on valley 4g at my halfway point, and it's going great so far!

And of course, I'm also using these pictures to come out at large. Goodbye boymoding, you won't be missed.

I gotta give a huge shoutout to trailqts- check them and all their mentors out on insta:

For the last few months I've been receiving gear and mentoring from them, and I genuinely don't know if I could have pulled off my summer plans without them, financially or physically. If you like seeing queer people outdoors, check them out!

I'll have more to say later about my routes, Yosemite, and I'll be posting stuff like this throughout the summer. But for now, I should take full advantage of my midway stop and restock on food.

Happy trails and Happy Pride!

[snortoborto]

This is literally the only website where fans of G3 Monster High can exist in peace without being fucking crucified by G1 purist types.

I grew up in Pony Fandom, I'm used to seeing how adults react to reboots, but I have never seen a fandom (of a children's toy line, lest we forget) act so horribly vindictive towards a reboot, and it's fans. A very high quality, thoughtful reboot at that.

You literally can't just enjoy G3 without someone screaming in your ear about how bitter they are that theyre not a kid anymore. That Monster High isn't catering to the youth culture of of 14 years ago.

I grew up in the 2010s and so many franchises from that time have been reworked. Some good and some bad, but I've never really seen quite the level of dedicated, continuous, distain for a reboot, that I see in the MH fandom.

Its just weird cause they're the same people who tout the "Be Yourself, Be Unique, Be a Monster" tag line of G1. Unless you like a different doll than them...I guess? It's so unserious. I think they remember G1 as being better, or more countercultural/progressive than it actually was. Those dolls and movies are not quite the high art, people pretend that they are.

They also constantly act like G3 killed G1. Wiped it off the face of the earth. All the old stuff is still there, PLUS Mattel is constantly releasing G1 collector dolls. Like, a lot of them.

The pride merch for this year had the G1 ghouls on it, eventhough G3 is the only version with actual cannon representation. (Yes Ik the G1 creator confirmed queer theories and intentions on social media, but it never explicitly made its way into the TV/movies. Its just coding, which is good, but still NOT explicit representation. Plus Garrett likes the new dolls, and posts them on socials. G3 has his blessing.) Why didn't we get some G3 Frankie merch to rep their NB identity? Why didn't we get G3 Clankie on a shirt or something? Mattel is still putting G1 first.

There's plenty of normal G1 fans, obviously, but the shitty ones are LOUD. Mattel can't even post an insta or tiktok video of the G3 cast, without the comments being full of people trashing G3 and attacking any commenter who likes it. Sometimes even shitting on the live action actors and VAs on their personal socials. It's gotten a little less bad since the reboot has been out over a year, but it's still a huge problem.

I'm genuinely confused as to why MH fans are acting worse about a reboot than literal bronies did about MLP G5. I love bronies, I'm a life long pony fan, but ik the fandom can have STRONG opinions on horse show.

When I started using Tumblr, I was surprised to only see love for G3. I'm sure there's hate somewhere, but not that I've seen.

Anyone else have any idea about why this might be? Are other doll-centric fandoms like this? I only really like MH dolls, so idk.

[the-s-exy-squad]

Foxes Headcanons (Modern Day: Social Media Edition)

•Neil Josten uses social media after canon.

^ he posts the most vague shit ever and dark humor posts. He also has an anonymous hate page full of Riko Moriyama being clumsy or clips from the game where he lost against the foxes.

^^ he uses audios on TikTok and other socials that imply he’s fallen for someone he was on a team with and just lets the fan base assume it was Matt bc the whole Andrew/Neil rivalry. He likes to see reactions.

•Andrew starts to do art to express himself.

^He has a few anonymous art accounts throughout a few platforms and posts like twice a week on each. Hes really popular on TikTok and insta.

^^Neil stumbles across his content and realizes it’s him because he posted a picture he drew and sat on his dresser. Neil doesn’t tell him but frequently visits the accounts bc he wants to see Andrews art but knows he isn’t comfortable sharing in person or he would have.

•Matt and Dan would be influencers.

^ Matt mostly does sports equipment rating and reviews but he also does goofy ass videos with the rest of the foxes. Dan would do a lot about woman rights and activism in general. Big supporter of the LBGTQ.

^^ I like to think they’d occasionally do videos where Dan reviews make up products but uses them on Matt instead. They’re usually silly.

•Aaron takes pictures of every drink he gets from Starbucks and is obsessed. He is a Starbucks girly and has over 200000 pts on the app.

^He saves the pts to use when he’s desperate and for whatever reason didn’t have his wallet on hand.

^^^Starbucks deadass sponsors him.

•Kevin doesn’t do socials and just hired people to run accounts for him.

^ He does the photo shoots and tells them specifically what photos to use. He also puts interview clips so people often time think they’re just fan accounts.

^^he also records and post one singular video a month on his TikTok about upcoming games which serves as reminder that it isn’t a fan account.

•Allison uses her reach as a Sport player to advertise her clothing line.

^ She she has posts with lines such as casual wear, athletic wear, business casual/proffesional wear, and normalizes business making plus size clothes.

^^ she makes a few different lines for her friends and never posts them or sells them to the public. This includes armbands for Andrew, bandanas for Neil, one of a kind pride outfits for all the gay bitches on the team (let’s be real they’re all fruity), fox themed shirts for casual wear (even after they stop playing for the foxes)

•Seth hates social media and doesn’t have any.

^ He MIGHT have another fox run one for him and doesn’t interact at all.

^^ He lets the other foxes post him on their socials but doesn’t want one of his own.

•Rene does a lot of advocacy things on hers.

^ She shares her story about how Christianity and exy helped her.

^^ She doesn’t want to seem like she’s forcing Christianity. She says “having any kind of faith”

•Nicky posts a lot of random shit

^vlogs, funny sports clips, pride stuff. Videos of him and Erik.

^^ He gets the twins in a few and they’re just glaring with such a “I can’t handle you anymore. You should have put me up for adoption /hj” face directed at him and there’s a few comments saying “wait… they’re both making the face. Which is which?”

[lesb0]

miss terra what is museum curating like? i recently felt very strongly like it would be something im good at but im worried about overthrowing my whole life plan for one very specific career (i am currently studying physics, have always enjoyed reading and writing and painting and visiting museums but never thought i would want to pursue an art career). mostly the detail oriented part appeals to me and i think selecting and arranging the pieces and writing their descriptions is something i would be good at but im wondering if i have a romanticised view of the job bc it also seems to be an administrative and supervisor position? also how much freedom would i get in choosing the subjects of exhibitions like would i have to do exhibitons about art that i viscerally HATE (im really picky) thank you in advance<3

Its hard work! you need professional degrees in art history + museology to touch anything over 50 years old. A lot of it is social engineering/institution politics, you have to navigate the hierarchy with perfect subordination. day to day is managing a lot of pretentious neurotic peoples impossible egos all fighting for top billing on a project. you don't control anything, the board of directors does. at my level, you'll learn to feed leaderships' giant egos and get the job finished without breaking into wwiii.

As for exhibitions, your director will loan and order the artists she wants to work with for a show and you might be called over for input but she really just wants you to say how genius the project is and how excited you are lol! your lead curator and coordinator/s will make terrible creative choices, your job is to best serve their vision exactly as they imagined it. half your job is just sitting still in your little shared office cubicle back of house and waiting for the higher ups to see your mockups so they can say, "good job!"

in this post Fred Wilson era, a lot of museum work is just mitigating potential backlash, assuming everything from a collection has already pissed somebody off. that being said, I've learned through work experience that I prefer museum education, publicity, and registrar roles to curatorial. but in museums, your real job never stops at the description. everyone does everything. interns do conservation and greetings. janitorial directs floor traffic to find lost kids. directors scrub paint spots off the floor and do the rag laundry. wages for full time serious mid career positions start at $12 /hr. seriously.

and not to deter you at all from a museum career! to ME, this is all absolutely worth it!! the passion, pride, and reward of opening reception is something you can't price. watching everyone engage deeply with my project is enough. theres no other job I would rather have :-)

of course, its also totally possible to go the uneducated independent route, if you can do it part time as a hobby, sticking to smaller contemporary galleries, posting on insta frequently, and writing for local artists, often pro bono, etc.

[thewakingcloak]

The State of Things Yet to Come

The Ghost of Spacefarer Things Yet to Come is a hard guy to get ahold of, but I have at last wrangled him and tied him down until he wrote the blog post he promised:

The blog post he promised

I have looked into the future… where I am from… and ok yeah let's start off with the big news first! In the future… ProtoDungeon: Episode III will be on Steam!

That means you can wishlist ProtoDungeon: Episode III on Steam!!!!

And here's a little mini announcement trailer for just this occasion :) (and turn up the sound! I made a lil tune for this!)

So please go give it a wishlist!

Steam's inner machinations are something of a secret to everybody, but wishlists absolutely help the folks who make games. It's one of the most important ways you can help me, even if you're not sure you'll ever buy it. Wishlists get games seen, so please wishlist!

I'm really excited about this. This one actually my original plan for ProtoDungeon, to put each individual episode up on Steam and use the experience to improve… but I was talked out of it by a guy who was mad that Episode I wasn't a full-length game, and by his predictions of my failure. I switched to only publishing for free on Itch and decided The Waking Cloak and ProtoDungeon DX would be the only games I put on Steam.

I wish I'd never listened to that guy. He clearly didn't care about me, and I let his words and attitude control me.

The future is ever-shifting

There's a lot of things I've been doing because I felt like (and have been told) I should be doing. So for the future, I had been intending to really hit the ground running on all fronts, posting to social medias everywhere, launching tiktok and insta reels and youtube shorts, and generally pouring my efforts into "marketing."

I don't think there's anything wrong with this, but it's also… not me? It's not really what I want for my future. I've thought long and hard about this hobby, and I want to enjoy the parts I enjoy, and not let pride prevent me from letting other people take over the parts that I'm not really good at and don't have the time for anyway. Let's face it: my plate is full with my job, my kids, my house, taking care of my wife, chronic illness/pain, etc.

On top of that, I've been off social media for a long time now, and it's been so restorative. I don't fault anyone for being on any of them, and I'll poke my head up every now and then, but… I'm letting go of "making it" on socials. I can't keep up with the sacrificial requirements of the Algorithms. I can't keep up with the comparison game with everyone else making stuff on there. I had spent a lot of time curating my feed(s) so that I saw only wonderful people making wonderful art, and I still felt like I was always "coming up short."

The new plan: just post here on the devlog… just things I want to post. Focus on making my games and having fun doing it. I'm not gonna spend time finding the opportune moment to generate traffic or to say just the right things to sell people on playing my games or learn all the metrics and stuff. I won't post in every conceivable space hoping I'll get enough momentum to go viral or even just noticed.

Will that mean fewer wishlists, fewer followers, fewer people playing my games? Yes. And I'm content with that. I just want to enjoy the act of making games. I don't need to "make it big" anymore. I look up to folks like ConcernedApe (solo dev of Stardew Valley) and Team Cherry (small team behind Hollow Knight) and their lovely games and experiences, but I don't need to BE them anymore. I'm me, and I like being me.

Okay but what am I actually doing…?

Practically speaking, the plan is now as follows:

Publish ProtoDungeon 3 on Steam/Itch for $8.99, with a two-week launch discount of 15% (so, $7.64). I'd like this to be in Q1 of 2025, but I'm keeping things loosey goosey here

Publish PD1 and PD2 on Steam for $4.99 each, with the same builds as on Itch now (so they won't have Steam achievements). These might come before 3 is released, we'll see!

Continue with episodes 4 and 5, also on Steam/Itch--these will be significantly quicker to develop than 3, as they will be smaller and also will not require fundamental changes as 3 did. Pricing will probably be lower than for episode 3 and likely higher than episodes 1 and 2.

All of the above will be self-published!

Once those are complete, I will be working on The Waking Cloak, and it's here that I'm seriously considering looking into a publisher. I do want my games to be played by more people, and having professionals handle all the marketing and socials and console porting and other fine details would be such a burden off my shoulders. I've got my eye on a few in particular, but I'm putting more thought into this before I say anything else.

What about…?

Why are you working on ProtoDungeon and not The Waking Cloak? Trick question! (You didn't know you were asking a trick question, did you?) I say this a lot but it bears repeating: ProtoDungeon is helping me build up the mechanics and assets for The Waking Cloak, and is helping me get lots of practice with game design, as well as with art and publishing and so forth.

Will ProtoDungeon have spoilers for The Waking Cloak? Nope! The only spoilers will be purely mechanical, but I'm holding back a lot of puzzle concepts and a few mechanics for TWC itself. ProtoDungeon is a separate prequel story and has unique dungeons that will not show up in TWC.

What is ProtoDungeon DX? This will be the combination of all the ProtoDungeon episodes, with the early episodes rebuilt, and with additional content (like an overworld). I'm planning on working on this after The Waking Cloak. There will be some kind of discount based on your collection of individual ProtoDungeon episodes. I don't know how that works yet, but we'll cross that bridge when we come to it. Whatever happens, I want to make sure it benefits y'all.

Why isn't ProtoDungeon free anymore? Simply put, because I think they're worth it. I've put a lot of time and effort and love into them. Also, I have a family to support, and this hobby is not free either! The episodes are short, yes, and that's why they'll cost less than a movie ticket.

Patreon? Development will be open and free as always, but patrons will get a first look (like with this post!) There are other goodies at higher tiers, too. And I should mention: funds go towards stuff like key art, publishing fees, and other minor operating costs. I was able to commission some wonderful art for ProtoDungeon: Episode III with y'all's support, but I've also bought some music tools (such as Chipsynth SFC), and I have a Studio Spacefarer P.O. box as an official address for legal reasons when publishing newsletters. I also am able to keep the main site, https://studiospacefarer.com, up with these funds. So, thank you!

To the future!

ProtoDungeon: Episode III has been a difficult beast to tame, partly because of fundamental changes to all the systems, but also because of where it fell in my life, amidst the pandemic and grief and changes and moving. It's become more important to me because of that, because it's a way to process everything. I had always known ProtoDungeon was about grief, but now it's much more personal.

I'm excited to work on things again. I look forward to sitting down and working out the details and adding the new ideas. I can't wait for y'all to experience it. Thank you for following along, and here's to future days!

Oh and did I mention…? please wishlist ProtoDungeon: Episode III on Steam :)

[sugdenlovesdingle]

🐶📷🎶 for the Tarlos asks!

🐶 What are TK and Carlos' favorite dog breeds? Which one do they get if they eventually get a dog of their own?

I can see Carlos wanting a "real dog" - like a German shepherd or maybe a staffie or some other average size breed (like Labrador size-ish). But probably also something fluffy like Buttercup because you can't tell me he wouldn't love cuddling a big fluffy beast when TK is at work.

TK would pick the saddest looking little bundle of misery at the shelter (adopt, don't shop, people) and go "I want that one" and just love it and spoil it and give it the best food/treats/toys money can buy. No matter the breed or size. If it's a tiny chihuahua it's coming home with them, if it's a Great Dane Carlos better make sure there is room in the Camaro for a crate - and they'll have to invest in a bigger bed because the "baby" sleeps in bed with them.

📷 Walk us through the different photo albums TK and Carlos keep on their phones.

I feel like TK is too chaotic for actual albums - other than how his phone sorts his pictures automatically. He'll take pictures of everything. Carlos looking exceptionally beautiful (just watching TV at home in his oldest and comfiest pjs), pictures from their catan hangs, selfies, some nsfw pics and videos (Nancy learnt the hard way not to scroll through his camera roll), random stuff he comes across when he's at work and sends to Carlos - which can be anything from a cute dog to funny holiday decorations. And every single pride flag he sees in June - no matter how small. He does have every picture of their wedding and some of his mum marked as favourite for easy access.

Carlos is a lot more organised and not really one to take pictures of random stuff - though he's doing it more now than back when he and TK first met. The first time he puts his new uniform on, TK is at work and he sends him a mirror selfie, he gets a string of 😍🥵🔥 back and 5 minutes later a video call request.

i think he has albums for important stuff like birthdays and family events. He definitely has every picture taken at their wedding saved in special album. A few he's taken himself, but mostly from their family and friends. His favourite picture is one of the two of them during their first dance his mum took. it's one where he has his back to the camera but you see TK resting his head against Carlos' and just looking blissfully happy. he uses it as wallpaper and lockscreen on his phone and he just likes to look at it whenever he's having a bad day. It's also one he shows to people asking about his husband or his wedding. That and the post cake smash kiss.

He DEFINITELY has some pics and videos that are meant for TK's eyes only and they're carefully hidden away and will never see the light of day.

🎶 It's time to expose these boys' spotify playlists! What are TK and Carlos' favorite genres, artists, songs, etc.

Oh man - don't get me started on music, we'll be here a while lol

I don't use spotify so the boys don't either - fact.

I think TK has a pretty broad taste. Anything from showtunes to the new Linkin Park - and everything in between. He'll sing along to the latest pop sensation that's on the radio 24/7 or something more underground he'll have discovered on insta or a local band playing in a bar or busking on a street corner. I think he's always looking for something new that catches his attention.

Carlos grew up with Latin music from his parents but his sisters were both BIG into boybands so he still knows practically every Backstreetboys/Nsync song by heart. He generally likes music he can dance to but TK has introduced him to some cool bands too over the years and he likes a bit of rock here and there. Though he's more into indie and singer songwriters with a nice melody than the wall of noise TK sometimes likes to listen to. But if he comes home and sees TK airdrumming along to one of his favourite songs he just enjoys the view of seeing his husband happy and carefree. He has a full album of happy TK on his phone too.

thanks for asking, these were fun!

full list tarlos asks

[fortheb0ys]

Someone needs to take away my commenting privileges, I've been duking it out with people on insta for like 2 weeks 😞

Someone called asexuality a made up social media word 😭😭

Arguing with straight cis men who are brain dead and can't use proper punctuation over women wanting to dress like sluts. I literally could not follow one guys train of thought because he didn't use any punctuation and he told me my argument made no sense 🧍‍♂️

And homophobes crying under a "this user is___ lgbtq+ edition" post

Why do I do this to myself.

Send help pookie, my insta notifications are full of war

ANYWAYS

How's it going for you 🤨🤨 any gay things planned for this month

-🥭

I FORGOT HOW MUCH OF A HOT GARBAGE PILE INSTAGRAM HAS BECOME😭

I don't blame you for going to war in the comments. People just can't see queer people be happy!!!

Idk why people don't view asexuality as a valid. Wtf is this fucking kind of thinking. Oh no people don't like psychical intimacy🙄

Like bro if you're going to argue use proper grammar and punctuation💀 So fucking embarrassing! Also you're a straight man why are you being a dick to women!?! They're supposed to be people you're into!?!? GOD FORBID THEY'RE DRESSING THE WAY THEY WANT!

DON'T INTERACT WITH QUEER PEOPLE IF YOU HATE THEM SO MUCH!!! YOU CAN'T CHANGE THEIR MINDS AND THEY CAN'T CHANGE YOURS!!! IT'S JUST THAT SIMPLE!! LET THEM LIVE IN PEACE! DON'T BE A DICK TO PEOPLE LOVING WHO THEY LOVE, FREAKS!!!!

Praying for your notifications, king🙏 Fight the good fight against the homophobes!

Things have been good and I have plenty of plans for the month of the gays! Going to a few pride events. Going to have a little queer potluck with friends. Everyone's going to bring foods with the color of their flags. Boss man is shutting down the car shop and coming to a pride parade with my friend and I so slay😭 He's so excited that he's like 'should I get something with the gay men flag or bisexual on it?' He's having his gay awakening and it's a sight to see😭

And of course, plenty of gay sex🤭

[7-wonders]

reluctant dad dream is so good and i was thinking how he appears different to every race or species so reluctant dad dream but now he's a dad to human kids, an entire litter of kittens, a pod of dolphins and theres now a load of sunflowers populating the dreaming and your house because everyone has figured that dream spends a lot of time at your place so now you have to deal with your home covered in daffodils and a bath full of endangered tropical fish (dream makes sure its always filled with seawater he's really sorry as he tries to desperately hide a pride of lions out of your view)

Your parentheses reminded me of this post I just shared on my insta stories lol:

Dream DOES NOT understand why beings flock to him, even though you’ve explained it’s probably a combination of him being the creator of many things and also the fact of once a dad, always a dad.

Dream mentally when he realizes that these damn cats/aliens/human babies/daisies see him as a dad:

[saidtherivertothemoon]

not the best idea...

A/N: Please do not listen to SZA and be in the mood to write. This is will end so poorly. HOWEVER, please listen to Kill Bill by SZA while you read this. Also I didn’t fully proof read this so if there is a typo no there’s not :3

I will add trigger warnings as this is a straight up angst post. This fic is centered around things such as: cheating, toxic relationships, violence, serious angst.

Full story is under the cut.

It was a month since everything came to a crashing halt. You were devastated, even so far away from your pride to beg not to be left alone again. Your eyes stung, your face stung, your head hurt. You couldn’t breathe. The cold wind was your only comfort each night as you stood on the balcony. A breeze pushed on your shoulders and you kept hearing his voice echo in your head.

“I was beginning to wonder if you’d ever find out. ”

You remember how those words tore you in half, on that night. He had been so distant for a while, his smiles disappeared first. Then his touches, his calls, his responses, everything about him that you knew. He was always gone but always smelled like someone else when he decided to crash on your couch when he needed to “get away from the world and spend his time loving you”. You didn’t want to believe that he could be running off with someone behind your back. The idea was so foreign, but after you caved and looked through his phone you saw all of the texts, the calls, the selfies, the body of a stranger with his own. You wanted to throw up. The screaming came next, your fire inside of you was hotter than you’ve ever felt and you wish he was burning the same way you were burning.. His golden eyes were so calm, so distant and calm. He almost seemed bored with your outburst. 

“Let’s stop wasting each other's time. I don’t see the point of us being together if you think this little of me.” You had struggled to keep your vision and voice steady. You fought not to faint. You wanted to strangle him that day. To fight him, to scream but you couldn’t move. It wouldn’t be like that the next time.

You tried to snap out of it, goosebumps had prickled on your skin and you took in a deep breath of the frigid air and watched a white plume appear when you exhaled. You had to go to your therapist in the morning. Even the bed felt so much emptier without him next to you felt horrible, you used to be so warm next to him, was she warm too? Did she get to run her fingers through his hair in the morning? Did she know about his goals? You even wondered if she knew about you or if she was just another girl caught up in his game. Somehow you remembered two things before falling into a dreamless sleep.

It’s funny how you sat in your therapist’s office. Looking so neat, clean and put together, sitting on a soft couch and speaking so calmly. She noted how you were trying so hard to emotionally distance yourself from the pain you’re feeling. She was wise enough to say that there are plenty of men who wouldn’t take you for granted. You were trying so hard to be mature and you nodded, the dull ache was there even after all this time. You were trying so hard to be mature when you left her office, the world a blur. You were desperate to be mature when you found a post on Insta showing off his new girlfriend at a farmer’s market you had wanted to visit. 

It was so funny to you how he looked so carefree and happy with her. He really didn’t give a shit did he? Keigo was just so happy to stab you in the chest one day and sleep with a girl you’ve never seen before while you were “dating”. You couldn’t make sense of where you were walking in the afternoon streets. There were too many noises, it was too bright, your tears were obscuring your vision. Your chest hurts even worse than before. Why couldn’t you focus on anything anymore? The world is so sharp and vivid and so easy to point out things that made your eyes light up and laugh with Keigo. You began to realize his smiles were fake. You kept seeing him in your mind and as you replayed everything in your head things began to match up. You don’t know how you got to the train station and a bench to sit on while you waited for a train. He kept your mind occupied in the worst way. Your idea from the night before came back to your apartment. You wondered if that idea would lead to circumstantial evidence. Would it matter after this?  When you got home you undressed and changed into comfortable house clothes you were able to think clearly, he didn’t occupy your mind as your mind was calculating times, dates, two numbers you had saved. This wasn’t the best idea that was forming in your head. It’s insane how you kept telling yourself that these choices were all for love. It was never love for him, but the act of self love. This was the last time someone broke your heart.

It took 30 minutes to write the text message with a rational and straightforward message. You refused to let your true emotions bleed into this text and you didn’t want to make your next move idea so obvious. You went about your day with a false sense of normalcy by cleaning and reorganizing your messy bookshelf with clarity and making your bed with some strength.This was almost childish when you swore you were being mature about this. So mature when you organize your bag and reorganize it for the third time. The action comforted you while you tried to ignore the text a bit longer.  It was the ping from your phone that gave a sharp sensation in your gut and the message you doubted you’d even get. With great discretion you managed to read the text through your notification bar.  You soon caved and checked your phone.

“Come to my place this Saturday, the passcode is the same.”

Deep down inside you truly know this wasn’t the best idea. 

It was odd how on Saturday there was a difference in how much you could focus on the world around you. The sky was turning to a soft orange and purple was such a beautiful sight. The stars were beginning to faintly shine above you. You felt the cool air on your cheeks, and you felt the pleasing and comforting sensation in your chest. The cardigan you made and wore was soft on your skin while you walked and watched the stars for a moment. You stood for a moment and wondered if you still wanted to do this. You could go home and forget this idea, you could listen to the small voice of reason that was clinging to your mind as you felt this heartbreak. You pawed at one of your pockets. The cold metal was still there, she could still continue with this plan.

It was still so jarring to know that Keigo would cheat on you and yet he was expecting you to show up in his apartment. 

Saturday appeared as it felt and it was a slow arrival which was a stark contrast to the short ride to his apartment. He was so out of reach and you wondered if he only allowed you to come to speak with him so he could gloat. The idea made you sick but you decided to bear with this.

Maybe this really isn’t the best idea. 

When you arrived, you used the passcode and entered his apartment. It wasn’t as empty as it used to be. You began to see that there were items in his apartment that had come from “girlfriend”. It was torture when you saw how much of his attention she had, and she seemed to have been at home so peacefully. When you took your shoes off you tried to ignore the fact that your slippers you used to wear when you were in his apartment were swapped out with smaller slippers that definitely were her's. This is a lost cause.

“Did you hear me?”

You didn’t hear Keigo when he was talking to you and managed to get your attention. You were about to speak but he managed to cut you off before a word could be spoken.

“I should have done this the right way, and I’m sorry. When I met her it was the same time I was falling out of love with you”

His words began to fade in and out when he began to carve your heart out with his words. 

“I got carried away and you got hurt, she knew about you too but didn’t know what to do. It wasn’t her fault. She wanted to apologize and is in the kitchen. Please let me apologize too.”

Why did your face feel so numb? He was saying it like he caused a minor inconvenience with someone who had no problem dating a man in a closed relationship. You found yourself sitting in the kitchen, not listening to a word that was being said. You know your face was blank and it felt cold and numb. How was it that you still managed to love a lost cause? You remembered glimpses of her face. She had a soft round face and long hair, almost an innocent look that wouldn’t give you an impression that she would do something like this. They kept talking but you didn’t listen to a single word, but instead you waited for your moment. You felt that this visit was coming to an end. It was crazy how a cheater and a girl could attempt to give you closure that you lied about needing in that text. Keigo’s back was turned to you, wings still his familiar blood red. He was missing a few feathers from his previous fight that you wish he would lose. He was washing out three mugs and spoons while prattling on about something while you struggled to focus. His little girlfriend went to help him and never saw the knife you took out and held. Nobody should have to deal with either of them, they couldn’t marry and break the hearts of others. They would lie so selfishly, and not spare a thought about how they ruined someone else.

You unfolded the knife that was in your pocket. How did you get here? 

“Please understand.” was all you heard while you were able to hear before a scream ripped out of Keigo. Another scream wrenched out of him, there was fear in that scream. You don’t know how long it took for your bodies to come crashing down. You didn’t know your hands could squeeze so hard, you didn’t know that your were so far removed from the world of the living. The bruises that were beginning to form could not be felt. A lot of things could not be felt. You just squeezed his neck harder, the shock left him unable to move. He never thought you could do something like this. You used to be so docile. He did something that cost him his life after that very thought. Called for his girlfriend to help her while she stood in terror in fear. She panicked when your eyes snapped to her while you were essentially breaking his neck. 

You didn’t know you could slam someone’s head into a hard floor so hard. His wings were flapping so uselessly while he tried to get up. Something was wrong, he knew it. Something with very wrong when he was fighting with his body to cooperate.

You don’t know how you managed to turn to someone else so quickly, she was also slammed to the ground and screamed as she was beaten senseless. It was so odd how you heard screams then you didn’t. You didn’t see anything, you didn’t feel anything. You didn’t feel the blood that covered your hands. It never even registered that she stopped moving, or that she was beginning to grow cold.

Keigo has a balcony, you shambled over to it and opened the sliding windows to feel the air on your skin. Your hands carry blood through his apartment, but the sky carried a calming breeze cooling you and helping you ground yourself. As you tried hard but you

 felt so out of it, things didn’t feel real at all anymore. You didn’t look back at the two bodies laying on the kitchen floor.

How did you get here?

You just killed your ex, and his girlfriend too, you wanted to go to sleep, this was too much for you.

[sapphic-courtship-for-dummies]

hey this is important and it’s very short! So I’m talking with this girl on insta, always telling her how pretty she is and how good she draw, I drew her & we had a great convo where she was like omg show me... pinky promise i won’t laugh.. now I switched the topic to school cuz I wanted to hold the convo but it dropped any ideas what I can do? Or how I can flirt more but like soft and!! Idk if she’s straight or not?? She is always walking with this boy and also wore his hoodie. But she posted on pride in her story also she gives me the vibes. Any ideas how I can ask her abt that? Thanks in advance and this wasn’t so short.. sorry

Hi anon, I just want to start by apologizing for never getting back to you about this! I know it's been a while and you've probably moved passed this issue by now, but I wanted to answer anyway in case it could be helpful for you or anyone else.

I find that genuine compliments are usually a good way to flirt, especially if they're not just about someone's appearance and really come from the heart. Just giving someone your full attention and letting them know you're really listening goes a long way. And when all else fails, try to make them laugh. Spreading smiles is one of the easiest ways to get closer to someone.

When it comes to gauging whether or not someone is queer/into your gender...if it isn't made obvious, once you're friendly enough with someone I think it's alright to just casually bring up the subject and ask. In this case, if your crush posts about pride in their story, that could be a good branching point for you to use to ask them about it. Same goes for finding out if someone has a partner. But if you're not comfortable just asking them, you could try sharing your own status or situation first, and usually folks tend to be forthcoming about themselves after you've opened up about it.

I hope everything worked out alright and that you're doing well!

Take care,

Sappho 💗

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Ian Thorpe and Nat Bass are on the new Amazing Race

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Ian Thorpe and Nat Bass are on the new Amazing Race

Aussie favourites Ian Thorpe and Natalie Bassingthwaighte are two of the queer celebrities appearing on The Amazing Race Australia.

The second “celebrity edition” of the long-running, globe-trotting reality show starts on 10 next Monday (September 9).

Retired Olympic champ Ian Thorpe was back on TV last month as a commentator during the Paris Olympics last month. Thorpie has joined The Amazing Race Australia, racing with his lifelong mate Christian Miranda.

Meanwhile, singer Natalie Bassingthwaighte is paired with her older sister Melinda Sheldrick, a diehard Amazing Race fan, in the 2024 race for the prize.

Back in June, the Rogue Traders frontwoman celebrated her one-year anniversary with partner Pip Loth after coming out late last year.

Also in the new The Amazing Race cast are Matildas teammates Chloe Logarzo and Emily Gielnik (below) who’s signed on for the new season.

Image: 10

In all, eleven pairs of their celebrities and their friends and loved ones will race around the globe and compete in a series of challenges across South America, Africa, and Asia.

All of the teams are ultimately seeking to win a $100,000 prize for their chosen charities.

On The Amazing Race Austalia, Ian Thorpe and Natalie Bassingthwaighte are both raising money for mental health charities, youth mental health support service ReachOut and medical research organisation Black Dog Institute, respectively.

Chloe Logarzo and Emily Gielnik are representing the not-for-profit National Breast Cancer Foundation.

The Amazing Race Australia: Celebrity Edition starts next Monday (September 9). See the full cast below:

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[chizups]

Art project Durge returns~ I’m also assuming a modern setting for this

Are these like, other peoples photos or photos gortash\durge are post themselves because I feel like that’s very important to context, dearest durge is a noble, partying is a way of life for him lol

If it’s from their personal instas, Durge sneaks photos of Gortash barely paying him any attention, usually with the lighting right behind him so he gets these deliciously ethereal looks to them, or mid laugh and full of (likely faked) emotion, or photos with a smoky/dusty exposure to them. Just things that Durge can horde for himself, very much the kinda of photos teenage girls tape around their mirrors. His whole feed is of Gortash in this way, it’s no question that he’s obsessed.

I imagine the one’s on Gortash’s are still photos taken by Durge, but these all have the pair of them in them, a very smug ‘stay away he’s mine’ energy of Durge being all over Gortash. Is Gortash trying to talk to someone? There’s Durge, arm tangled with the other and looking smug. Gortash is sitting down in a chair, Durge is draped across his shoulders like a cat likely with Gortash absently patting at him, Gortash made his way to a couch, you bet that Durge has claimed his lap as his personal throne.

A third party tho? There’s Gortash, doubled over in laughter as Durge flips a table over a card game that he was loosing miserably in. There’s the palest twink to ever twunk, doing a keg stand because someone wounded his pride. There’s several photos, and probably a video of Durge dancing on a table, I wanna imagine shirtless because he knows he’s pretty, and Gortash attempting to talk him down and then resorting to actually dragging him off. Durge is a party menace and really lives up to rich kid embarrassing his daddy vibes

I did not assumed modern setting, but I don't see why we need to choose a particular one x) Any setting works really, imo.

Context? Well, if we talk about two semi-famous personalities (Gortash' account must have some celebrity like following even I think), all of your ideas will work. If we talk instagram, it's a big platform with many users, so yup, there will be Durge's account (I really like the aesthetic you described really, oh, just imagining it is a pleasure, I wanna draw it), account for Gortash, where Durge probably appears, yet I imagine from one point in time his account will look more pristine because he became a political figure. Also I would expect wealth flex.

Third party gonna SHOW IT ALL! You won't need to read about two "well known Chosen ones" going to talk to Helsik, you'll be about to see it online. All the shots from official events and dark suspicious photos from equally dark and suspicious places with suspicious people. Getting drunk in clubs/taverns - absolutely, hell yeah, there should be photos and reels of it every time it happens and they have most highest watchcount, no doubt.

[silkenbutterfly7]

Also just discovered Cleopatrick and they are just sucking me in, which I didn’t really expect but now I find myself actually enjoying their small-town America anger.

Last thing I saw was a silly cat video – I have some Instagram favorite accounts.

Last Movie - Mad Max Fury Road. I didn’t have time to see Furiosa yet, but I’m planning to catch it on when it’s on Netflix maybe. Catching up with The Witcher. Rewatched The 13th Warrior (on DVD because it’s not available otherwise.)Also Blade Runner 2049 (Love & Joy.)  I haven’t seen Dune even though I’m a huge fan and have read all the books repeatedly, because once I see the movies, well then my head canon will be taken over and I won’t be able to escape, and there’s some actual life stuff I have to get done before I immerse myself in Dune 1 & 2.  Yes, I am self-flagellating about this as I want but I can’t let myself want too much.

(oooh, I haven’t heard of Mad God before, so now I looked it up and it’s stop motion animation, so now I’m interested.)

Currently Reading:   I just picked up Sense & Sensibility and Sea Monsters. (love the horror cross-over.) Previously I read Pride and Prejudice and Zombies, which was very funny and ridiculous, yet full of homage to dear Jane. The Wager is on my list also. I’m trying to get it from the library. Bing read obsessively fast, save $.

Sweet, Spicy or Savory?  Difficult to answer.  I tend to munch some potato chips and then eat dark chocolate. But I have those spicy Buldak noodles that were just recalled in Denmark for being too painfully spicy on my counter food pile (people, just don’t put ALL the spice packet in the noodles and you will be just fine, really.)

Relationship:  Separated and never getting back together again. Last thread to untangle this month is the health insurance plan. Love has the power to lift us up to the glorious heavens but also to crush like the abyssal ocean’s depths of the Mariana Trench (that’s how fathomlessly deep the lows felt.) Still believe in the inherent goodness of people.

Current Obsession: Came late to watching The Terror (just a few months ago) and now it’s burning holes in my brain. Likes are historical fashion (saving way too many screenshots), stuffed animals and dolls (all kinds, I legit have reference books), history, classics, gothic horror, science fiction, maybe throw some vampires in here too, cats, sewing, crocheting, some knitting (but for the mind-calming repetition.) I’ve been following insta accounts on tiny crochet and just got some DMC thread and the smallest hooks, but I haven’t started yet. My Dad loved naval history and was a British history enthusiast, so I absorbed that and fell right into The Terror, admiring the accuracy of the costumes and the ships’ details – the show runners did such an excellent recreation.

Last Googled: the coordinates of Hawaii (The Expedition’s official destination) and many, many maps on the Northwest Passage (printed some out to color with pencils just for fun), fell down the rabbit hole of how a Fox Dipping Needle magnetic device works, and reading polar and Antarctic adventure blogs posted by very hardy, possibly crazed by hubris, modern day explorers. (One was actually recreating the experience of man hauling sledges across part of King William Island just to see if they could do it – spoiler, Yes, but they managed to avoid a polar bear by luck and nearly died from exhaustion because it was SOOO much harder than they thought, and their tents and clothes became frost laden.)

Currently Working On:  IRL – health insurance & getting my car fixed, feeling out my next side gig (tutoring again?) while at my day job I try to up my skillset as the jobs have been thinning out and I suspect my boss will be retiring soon. Besides adulting, happily reading my way through a sheer mountain of Terror fanfic on A03 and rolling characters and scenarios around in my head because those cold boys are still stuck out in the ice and suffering – I’m not willing to let them die of scurvy and starvation yet. Also, easily distracted by other shiny posts that refer to Buffy the Vampire Slayer, anime art, silly cats, Horatio Hornblower (I saw those episodes on public tv years ago and so happy that fandom exists), and Captain & Commander. (Was recently asked if I knew: “What’s the movie with those boys on a boat and the Captain and the cannon balls?"

nine people i want to get to know better!!

i was tagged by the lovely @clandestinegardenias!! thank you!

Last Song: I-E-A-I-A-I-O by System of a Down! i've been branching out of my heavy metal rut of the last 6 months, but System of a Down still slaps really hard.

Favorite Color: hmmmm i really like lush jewel tones, so i think i have to go with like a deep burgundy right now, but the green of spring vegetation in full sun is a very, very close second

Currently Watching: well. i'm in the middle of a The Terror rewatch right now (again....) but the literal last thing I just watched was the IndyCar Grand Prix in Laguna Seca Raceway in Monterey, CA. but in terms of new shows, i'm not watching new stuff rn.

Last Movie: Mad God. what a fucking trip that film is. jesus. stop-motion horror film. visually gorgeous. disgusting. it was my second time watching it, and it was again really gross and not super linear and 100% up my alley. it was so bizarre, but i am CAPTIVATED by the music (since there is no dialogue; it's only music and sfx) and i want to write a paper on it so so sososo badly.

Currently Reading: currently juggling Captain Crozier: Last Man Standing, Les Miserables, and The Wager! They're all good in their own respects, but very very different from one another, as well. The Crozier bio is a little bit lighter than I was expecting, The Wager more narrative than I was expecting, and Les Mis thus far has just been slow, but i'm in the early pages for everything but the Crozier biography, so i'm still getting used to them. Also I started Persuasion by Jane Austen last month, but haven't gotten very far yet.

Sweet, Spicy, or Savory? they all have their place, but i have such a bad sweet tooth. it trumps almost everything for me. i love sugar.

Relationship: single! i've been single since like.... my sophomore year of high school? and i'm halfway through my master's now, so it's been.... i think i'll have been single for a decade exactly this year, on my birthday. but also i'm extremely aromantic so. that does contribute to that, lmao

Current Obsession: oh it's definitely The Terror. Very much so. but IndyCar is also a quiet sports obsession of mine and i am starting to get In The Weeds for it this year. i deliberately chose to pay more attention after the 500 this year, but i've been meaning to follow the full season for a few years now, and it's been a blast! really nice to watch tbh. it's fascinating stuff, and one of the only sports i can really, truly sink my mental teeth into. also i have been crocheting like mad recently, bc it keeps me entertained and Makes Things!

Last Googled: tire strategy and regulations in IndyCar races, the differences in those regulations between oval and road courses, and the literal difference in composition between alternate and primary tires. very cool stuff. to me, at least, lmao

Currently Working On: jotting down ideas for the next two terror fics i want to work on/sketching out the plots and adaptations for both of them, getting fully trained at my job, and like 3 separate crochet projects. i have. a very scattered brain. also mentally gearing up for my second year of my master's, which is frightening, considering that i have to Write A Thesis soon lmao

oh lordt i don't know if i have 9 people to tag, but i'll tag a few: @imwritesometimes, @jbloopers, @sweetenby, @silkenbutterfly7 - if any of you want to participate, please do!

[hologramcowboy]

Jensen did look done anytime Danneel opened her mouth during the livestream. And when she answered what was her favorite part about the episode and she just said she was happy to be there with them, everyone said awww and he just looked done with her. I think we also need to take into account was that Steve was there with them. No one would’ve known he was there if Drake didn’t post it on his insta story and Jensen didn’t show a quick piece of him. Jensen cut him out of the photo he posted on instagram for a reason. And in that same photo Danneel had to lean over to be in it, because she was sitting away from Nida and more close to Steve. Which leads to the speculation that Steve is spending thanksgiving with her and her family.

There’s so many factors into thinking that he’s just not in his best state anymore with Danneel being there with him, Steve being there as well and if they are together then they are simply rubbing it in his face and knowing he won’t be able to do anything in front of the cast and people on the livestream, then there’s TW not doing it’s best and his time on BS is almost over. The voiceover work was probably already completed or is mostly completed so he’s potentially out of work. He has stated multiple times that a working Jensen is a happy Jensen.

That last statement you mentioned points to the fact that his true value lies with his career and not around being family centered. So why then did he have children if his main source of happiness doesn't stem from that? Was it to check boxes? To keep pace with Jared? To meet the pressure of his parents? He's only happy when he's working it seems. Should add that if I was married to him and he would state something like that I would be destroyed because that points to the fact that he is unhappy and definitely unfulfilled within the marriage and needs to keep busy and distracted and, furthermore, once he does got to work it's not like he goes full in and studies the craft at "olympic" levels, he just goes in and put in least effort so not only would I be made less, I would be made less for something he's not ever realistically passionate about that is just his avoidance system. This is clearly an unhappy man acting out. Danneel truly has no pride and no awareness and she definitely doesn't give a shit about his happiness.

As for Steve being there, it really seems like he is there for Danneel, sorry but I believe those two are involved somehow and they vibe couple way more than J/D ever have.

Steve and Elta are involved in some way, that's the only way I can explain him always being there. I also find it highly suspicious that for a couple JD never truly lived their relationship alone but always had a chaperone, first Elta's creepy brother then Steve everywhere. Creepy.

[colorseeingchick]

Cheer You Up, Calm you Down (Oikawa, Hanamaki, Matsukawa)

Life is full of ups and downs! And the downs can come in all forms. But no matter what it is and how you seek to be comforted, these boys will have your back.'

A/N: This is part 3 in the series! All the boys are given different Y/Ns with different personalities and specific scenarios. They can all be read as either platonic or romantic - you decide

Warnings: Language; mentions of stalking in Mattsun's

Oikawa Tooru: With a Baddie Y/N

That bitch.

Honestly, this was not what you needed on a Tuesday morning. And before you had even had caffeine? Unacceptable.

Hate comments on your posts were something you were used to. Now, at no point did you think they were right in any way. You’re the embodiment of ‘bad bitch’ energy, and nothing anybody said would convince you otherwise. But what really gets under your skin is when your cousin comments passive aggressive BS to try and get up in your business.

And you were patient, too. You let it slide the first, like, seven times. But when she dropped a “if you’re a pick me that’s desperate for a boyfriend, you can just say that” under a carefree selfie of yours, you lost your cool.

You are many things, but being a ‘pick-me’ and ‘desperate’ were not among them. You pride yourself on your independence and self-assured aura. So that type of slander on your feed was where you drew the line.

Instantly, you text your best friend.

You: Bitches really do be tryna start shit.

Oikawa: It's me I’m bitches

Lol but seriously what’s happening

You: [image attached] lol

Oikawa: ??? excuse me

Who tf are they and what’s their problem?

You: She’s my cousin and idk she hates me for some unknown reason

Have you not seen her comment before?

Oikawa: No I usually just stare at your pretty pictures I don’t bother with the weirdos in your comments

But I guess I should start

Block her b

You: I CAN’T she’s literally my cousin

Knowing her she would tattle like the brat she is to my mom

I’m literally SO MAD why tf is she coming at me like this??? like?

Oikawa: what are we, 3?

But also ok I get that

How are you feeling tho

You: eh.

Oikawa: you wanna talk about it?

You: Like, idk.

I’m not desperate. I don’t think I come off that way at least, yk? That’s just not my vibe and the thought that someone thinks that I am is like…. Idk it makes me feel a lil sucky. Cuz I worked up to the self confidence I have. And I don't want to be in a public relationship rn but I don’t like the idea of coming off as desperate at allllll ugh WHY TF IS SHE COMING AT ME

Sorry that was a lot lol

Oikawa: first off-

Ur fine lol

You’re not desperate. You could literally be with any man, woman, person you wanted, you're that hot. You’d only date the worthy so don’t let ANYONE tell you off for having standards and just being confident and sharing your confidence

Cannot believe some irrelevant side character managed to make my lovely Y/N all bothered. Smh. Lemme see a pic of this girl.

You: [image attached] here’s her insta

Oikawa: LMAO

Babe

She’s so jealous

She literally WISHES she was you omg

I mean I also wanna be you ur hot

But yeah I think this is definitely coming from a place of insecurity and projection. She can’t get on your level, so she’s tryna just drag you down to her level, yk?

If I ever see this girl in person tho, that won’t end well

For her.

I’ll be fine

Uh also check insta :)

Unsure of what Oikawa is talking about, you swipe over to instagram. You pause, a smile growing over your face in confusion and amusement as you see what the Seijoh boys had posted.

Matsukawa had posted a pic of you two from one of your shopping adventures. He had it captioned “Can’t be a pick-me when they’re literally the one who gets to do the picking- gottem.”

Hanamaki had posted an iconic selfie of the two of you, captioning it “The only time Y/N and 'desperate' should be in the same sentence is when I’m telling Y/N how desperate I am for them 🥵.” You laugh at that one.

Iwa posted your favorite pic of you two - when you had gone to the gym and took a pre-workout mirror snap, his arms wrapped around your shoulders. He opted for no caption, but it said a lot.

You: AYO WHAT IS THIS

Oikawa: Ur unbothered nature is always so admirable and should stay that way. So I had the boys do the dirty work ;)

You: With insta posts?

Oikawa: Ye ok SO

I checked and found out she follows all 4 of us LOL who woulda known. So she’ll see them. A lil shade never hurt anybody~

You: Y’all are too much.

Oikawa: I woulda posted literally a collage of all our pics together but, I don’t want my fangirls to get on your ass. You’re dealing with enough rn

You: Tooooo much Tooru

Oikawa: You love me though ;)

You: Yes I do

my petty king <3

Oikawa: hehe I like the sound of that

Hanamaki Takahiro: With a fuming Y/N

You stared at your phone in disbelief.

Hey, so I already have 2 roommates and most apartments can’t house more than 3 people ~ so I can’t room with you anymore. Sorry.

Complete, and UTTER bullshit. Every bit of it. It was only 2 days prior that you’d talked to them about your plan to be roommates, which you’d been planning for for over a year. And you knew for a fact that apartments with more than 3 people were definitely in existence.

But you weren’t going to waste a bit more of your time on someone like that. “Ah, okay,” you text back.

Thanks for being so understanding :)

Tsk. Please.

You’re fuming at the texts, doing everything you can to mitigate your impulsive desires to go off on them, when you hear a triple knock at your door. You swing it open to see Hanamaki leaning against your doorway. He looks so relaxed with his hands buried deep into his pockets, a coy smirk playing on his lips.

“Heya you ready to go to-” he pauses, scanning your face, his eyebrows furrowing. “-what. Who died.”

You scoff at his brash remark, ready to slam the door on him, but he catches it.

“Was it your cat? I know you don’t have a cat but still.”

You chuck your phone over to Makki before you jump onto your bed.

“Read it.”

“I’ll read it, but on the way.”

“On the way where?”

“You forgot? We’re meeting with Mattsun and his girl. His best friends can’t be pulling up late AND in a bad mood, so I’m gonna deal with both at the same time.”

“At the same time?”

“Double homicide.”

You roll your eyes at the dumb reference. “Fine.”

As you both walk out of your freshman dorm, Makki’s one hand stays in his pocket while the other holds your phone. Once outside, he extends your phone back to you so you can unlock it, and it’s only a minute later that Makki stops in his tracks.

“What,” you ask.

“What typa bullshit is this?”

“That’s what I’m saying!!”

“Haven’t y’all been planning to room together since the beginning of this year?”

“Yeah.”

“Bullshit!!!”

“Aren’t you supposed to be making me feel better?”

“Fuck that, I’m just as mad as you are.” He sighs and checks your phone again - now for the time. “Shit. I really don’t wanna be late again... Mattsun is gonna kill me.” He grabs your hand and begins to tug you along, and you can’t help but laugh at the way he’s storming down the sidewalk. “Listen to me. They ain’t all that great anyways. You’re like, top tier roommate material. Finding a better roommate and a better housing situation will be a cakewalk for you.”

That reassurance really was what you needed just now. You couldn’t help but wonder if you weren’t likable enough to live with, or what the matter was. But knowing that fun and chill Makki deemed you a good roommate felt nice. But that didn’t change the fact that-

“I still don’t like being snaked.”

“I don’t like it either. Fuck them. But you probably dodged a bullet.” Makki huffs as he squeezes your hand, signaling you to stop. He puts your phone in his free pocket and pulls out his phone at the same time (he evidently forgot that letting go of your hand is also an option). As his thumb taps away at google maps, he scans the area before starting up again, “if they’re a snake, you wouldn’t wanna be living with them. They at least revealed their true colors sooner than later. Just take the high ground and cut them off now. It’s clean for you and it’ll bite them in the ass sooner than later.”

As Makki finally guides you to the restaurant front door, he stops abruptly before turning towards you. “You okay for now?”

“I’ll be fine. I’m still salty, but a lot less mad now.”

“Good. Stay less mad. Cuz if you get really mad in there again, it’s over for the both of us.”

“Why both?”

“Cuz if you get mad, I’ll get mad with you. And that won’t be a good first impression on Mattsun’s girl, will it?”

“I don’t know - we’re already 20 minutes late, I don’t know how much worse we could make it.”

“Hey, it’s not my fault we got lost!”

It definitely was his fault. But it’s your turn to grab his hand and tug him into the restaurant, laughing.

Matsukawa Issei: With a Y/N who hides their feelings

The tiles in your kitchen are icy, stinging the bottom of your feet as you gently pace in circles, the ringer of your phone vibrating in your ears until you hear him pick up.

“Hey, what’s up?” His deep voice feels a little muddled over the phone, but the warmth is ever present. You sigh in relief a little just at the sound of it.

“Mattsun.”

“That is my name, yeah.”

You dryly chuckle, “Hello, I need to talk to you.”

“I figured- that’s usually why you make a phone call.” You swear you can almost hear the smirk on his face.

“I’m kinda pissed off right now.”

“Mkay. What pissed you off?”

And so you tell your story. You were talking to this guy a few months ago, 5 months ago maybe? And he started to show a lot of red flags so you cut him off and thought that it was the end of it. You kept ghosting him whenever he texted you, and it was all fine until he had joined the club you were in. He kept tryna insult you, attack you, do anything to get a reaction out of you, and he would text you after every attempt. But you’d never respond. That seemed to be the best option.

That was until one day he sent you a picture of your address. He’d somehow gotten your mail, and he sent a picture of the mailing address with your name on top, which you just shrugged off as a mistake on the end of the postal office.

You were just mad that he’d not stopped texting you and attacking you, and you didn’t know what else to do about it at this point. You just felt like ranting, is all you said.

“...Y/N what the fuck.”

“He’s so annoying, right?”

“How long ago did this happen?”

“It’s been a couple of days.”

“Did he say anything with the text when he sent you your address?”

“No, it was just a picture of my mail.”

“...Y/N, where are you right now?” It was hidden, but you could hear the panic in his voice.

“I’m...I’m home right now.”

“Do you feel safe?”

One thing you always had to hand to Matsukawa was that, although he looked half asleep and sometimes played dumb, he was very vigilant. He knew what was up. And he just so happened to exactly know the question that you’d been trying to avoid.

“Not really…. No.”

“You should’ve called earlier, Y/N. Are your parent’s home?”

“...no, it’s just me.”

“Then I’m coming over right now. You stay put.”

"Okay," Your voice betrays you and reveals your stress.

"Hey," He calls out before hanging up, "You're gonna be alright, okay? "

“Thank you, Mattsun.”

“I’ll be there in 5.”

When you open the door, you see the concern glistening in Mattsun’s eyes. “Can I come in?” He tugs his shoes off before stepping inside, shutting and locking the door behind him. Opening his arms, he walks towards you before protectively wrapping his arms around your back.

“Why didn’t you say anything till now, sweetheart?”

Your heart stutters at the nickname. You knew he only called you anything endearing when he was really worried.

“I didn’t want to…”

“Worry me?”

“That, and I didn’t really wanna accept it, I think. It’s a bit weird, right?”

“More than a bit weird. I don’t wanna freak you out but I also have to be real with you… he has your address now. Which he didn’t have before. And he let you know he has it, but didn’t say anything else….”

“I know. It’s weird. And I’m kinda scared, too. Maybe I’m just being paranoid-”

“Noooo. Don’t start that.” Mattsun cuts you off, holding your shoulders. “ I’m so fucking tired of watching people I love feel stupid because they’re afraid. Afraid of people who made them feel unsafe. That shit doesn’t add up.” Mattsun drops to your height, his large hand gently holding your neck. “Your feelings are valid, sweetheart. He’s a creep, and it’s okay to be afraid of him.” Grabbing his hand, you tug his grip around your back and lean into his chest. “Thank you, Mattsun.”

“No problem." He muffles into your hair, holding you for a bit. "Now let’s go.”

“Where?”

“We’re gonna buy you a knife. And some pepper spray. If he even dares try and come up to you anywhere, make his life absolute hell.”

“I like the sound of that.”

“But don’t worry too much. If me, Iwa, Oikawa, or Makki are around, you won’t even have to lift a finger. We’ll beat the shit out of him ourselves.”

Notes:

Mattsun's and Makki's are the exact situations I'm going through rn lmao.

Y/N's cousin from Oikawa's proceeded to unfollow all of the Seijoh boys and delete her comment from Y/N's post. Dubs.

I don't know if anyone remembers that "damn, Double homicide" tiktok audio but that's what I was referencing in Makki's.

Mattsun told Makki and Y/N a time that was 15 minutes early because he knew they would never be on time.

But they were late anways. Mattsun was gonna be mad at Y/N and Makki - but then he saw the way they held hands and said nothing.

Mattsun and Iwa saw Y/N's stalker in the city and threatened him till he cried :) (God I wish this was true lmao)

Oikawa's Y/N is inspired by my best friend.

OIkawa was gonna post but then

Lemme know how the characterizations were on this one!