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Guess I'm not... Or maybe I want a standalone experience within a game world that can give me all the information I need about the lore without contradictions or caveats.

I'm not that big of a reader (and depends on a book and a writer). I get anxious if I watch short films (no idea why) and frankly if I do get on some video content, the only way I know how to consume it is binge. Like all or nothing. Man, I'd rather have gameplay under my fingertips than try my best not to be distracted from that additional stuff.

Might be controversial opinion, but I am not a fan of games having shit ton of related material, content that seemingly is needed (in some cases must) to be consumed by the player to see the whole picture. I see why people like it, but me, I just feel overwhelmed by it, and then enxiety hits with "well you're not that big of a fan then, aren't you".

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Might be controversial opinion, but I am not a fan of games having shit ton of related material, content that seemingly is needed (in some cases must) to be consumed by the player to see the whole picture. I see why people like it, but me, I just feel overwhelmed by it, and then enxiety hits with "well you're not that big of a fan then, aren't you".

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Landscape painting of far cry 5

And my reference

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Told my mother in a very serious tone that I do not want to exist, I have a problem. We actually had a conversation on the topic. (She messaged me as I'm writing this, said "don't be sad" 🤣 ok, I'll see what I can do, mom)

Mom: "But don't you remember how you had fun on the beach? Or how games and art make you happy?

Me: I do.

Mom: That's wonderful! Maybe you are happy after all?

I think she never heard of escapism before. And maybe I enjoy the sunsets and bird's singing, a good burger and hot coffee. None of it takes away the sad rage that boils within me. Covers only for a short amount of time.

Maybe exercising will. I should try that. Or having my spirit lifted only by the fictional men that occupy my head is normal?)

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Those times when a really cool skilled artist puts a like on your art so you feel like your cheek have been stroked by a holy Spirit🤗

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Scenery in Indika

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"I can fix him!" Oh God, no. I burn with desire to save him as a child from the people and circumstances that made him a grown up monster he is today. Which is something I can't do in reality, but I think about it a lot anyway.

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I'm having fun with that Majo Shuukai de Aimashou topic, can't you tell.

Long time ago Wolf met a Fox Witch and wasn't able to forget, yes?

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Far Cry 5 Scenery 92/???

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finished a drawing and only then I realized that I'm SO FUCKING HUNGRY

where was it five minutes ago? Why wasn't I aware of this hunger sneaking on me? Why is it jumping out just now?

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Have you guys heard of Majo Shuukai de Aimashou? I got heavily inspired by comics about witches finding small children and raising them up without aging a bit themselves.

Duncans did not deserve this sweet boy. Get him another mom. One with magical powers and shit.

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ooh that last pose you reblogged, with the guy looking at the woman in the bathtub, which of your ocs do you think of for that one??

I keep in mind Blissed Wisp with Joseph when I see any bathtub/shower related scenario (that is non-sexual). It's either one keeping the other company while he or she relaxes in the bath, or the first one helping the second one wash up for whatever reason is implied in the story. All fluffy chat.

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I don't know how to explain, but Hope County feels like Skyrim to me.

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FC5 mod installer updated itself and decided that I don't need any other mods besides Winter in Hope County and Seeds in winter clothes. lol tnx