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cryptid-scribs · 8 days ago

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Meduca Meguka my beloved

#puella magi madoka magica #madoka kaname #mahou shoujo madoka magica #madoka magica fanart #pmmm #madoka magica rebellion #fan art #mahou shoujo #magical girl #magical girls #my art #artists on tumblr #this was a stress relief doodle cause dear god I was going through it #nothing bad just school stress #so boom #megan #this style is a lot of fun I love it :3 #it’s like legos but in art form fun fact this is all one layer sans the highlights #anyway enjoy some pink girlie yes I got the bows wrong but what if you blew up ever thought about that you piece of shi-

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bacchuschucklefuck · 9 months ago

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okay unironically I love so much that porter is like this world SUCKS its BAD here and it HURTS you why do you care abt it!!! and literally every single bad kid is like ngl we just hate ur ass it does not matter what ur philosophy is

#dimension 20 #fantasy high junior year #not art #fhjy spoilers #its!!! gods I will Be My Ass in the tags rn. but thats so like. deliciously setting typical #like porter's desire is to transcend and his contempt for the world he's in feels. idk Real #like he plays the game bc he wants to win and be done with it. how do I word this #yknow. being a god would like. be his win state. when he gets that happening thats it his story is done he checks out #meanwhile the bad kids do actually just like playing the game lmao. like they love adventuring!#theyre so solidly Of This World. they carry the values that can only be born of it and they like having mastery over it #its a meta angle that I think is very fun specifically for d20 being in such a unique position in the zeitgeist when it first started #the rat grinders are from DnD Writ Large. porter wants to escape. but this is the bad kids' home its Their Actual Play Show #which makes it so fucking excellent to me that porter's question is somewhat of merit! its their show and it tries very hard to punish them #and they just straight up dont listen to him here lmao bc they hate him but! since the moment the academic track ended its been clear #that they save the world bc they Like Playing. With Each Others #thats what riz thinks the core of adventuring is! thats why fig stayed! and I also think thats why this hovers over elmville now and #a dead god is coming back in the school gym. porter is a shit evangelist but even if hes a good one I dont think it wouldve worked like he #wants it to. the only way he couldve escaped is if he'd not involved elmville at all. thats where the bad kids met dude #its a shitty place that fucks with them but they all come back here bc they wanna play with each others #and in that regard I think thats what the stress tokens ultimately means. Is This Game Still Fun To Play. ITS A RAGEQUIT LIMIT #Im literally running from one end to another of this conspiracy board Ive pulled out of nowhere #Ill draw after this I just wanna get this out. gods this episode has done nothing but furthering my delusion of grandeur actually #Im the hottest smartest manthing on earth Im king fucking midas over here. anyways uh! great ep!

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ilynpilled · 9 months ago

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hi guys i was in an accident and had to be in the hospital for a while but im home now

#stressful bday month but we r back hello #had to get some meds out of my system but im alright now #my surgeries went well and physically my injuries r like a bad bike accident but ye nothing bad my face is fine now too mostly #got bumped to the side and broke my face and arm #something w my hip but it healed itself didnt break or smn #school on pause dont have to go so ill have time to relax anyway #reblogged some stuff in the hospital too which is funny bc i don’t remember when or that i did it after the accident but i remember #actually doing it #hopefully i can put this whole experience behind me now #i have some therapy recommended but thats understandable #it was worse than what im describing rn but i dont remember anyway it was just rough as a whole #my memories sorrounding it r vague and little but thats normal #acute stress phase but i think we avoided it becoming ptsd #i survived and thats what matters #shout out to the doctors that saved me #mostly from drowning in blood

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iknowwhereyousleepatnight · 7 months ago

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i hate doing laundry ough it's The Worst

#not only does leaning down to move my stuff hurt my back #but i have to touch dirty clothes and go into the dirty room and touch the dirty machines and i have to wear 2 pairs of socks (so my #normal socks dont touch the contaminated floor) and when i lean over the washing machine my clothes touch it <-the worst part of it all #tbh. now my current clothes are dirty but i have nothing to change into and i will have to wear them all day and it makes me SICK #and i cannot talk abt how dirty the garage (where the laundry machines are) it makes me nauseous that place kills me if i never #had to go into it ever again i would and i have to carry a laundry basket (dirty) and it touches my clothes when i carry it (disgusting)#and now my clothes are even more dirty and i feel like i cant touch any of my things bc i dont want to infect them but i cant just do #nothing all day when i have to do laundry but it makes me so SICK i need smth to cover all of my clothes but everything i've tried misses #some part and my clothes are ruined and it makes me SICK how am i supposed to do school or draw or anything when it's so bad #i have everything scheduled so i can take a shower and go straight to bed after i'm done but still it's so bad and it stresses me tf out #and i have to do laundry every 3 days because i only have 3 towels to use after showering and even if i did have more towels #i still would have to do laundry as often bc i couldnt handle doing multiple loads or having bigger loads my back couldnt handle that #w the system i have set up now it's just bad it;s all bad i hate doing laundry #i dream of one day where i can do laundry in a better way i think it'd involve not having the washer and dryer down steps bc that's #dangerous for one and for two not having them in a garage bc garages stress me out and three to have smth to cover all of my clothes #and 4 to have machines that dont need me to bend down idk if they have ones like that but it hurts #anyway that's it for listening to dux complain abt smth that ultimately doesnt matter and is only a problem bc their brain #chemistry is off #k bye i have to go do laundry *explodes* and take an exam *explodes* it;s an essay exam *explodes* and then im going #to like sit around feeling sick thumbs up emoji

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sideblogdotjpeg · 6 months ago

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i am not immune to launchpad sol and albin thoughts

#ramble tag #its so like. okay.#launchpad was when they 'peaked'. best years of their lives #the . i think what we canonically know happened at launchpad was like.#laquidditch (fun!) christmas special adventures (fun!)#and then . also #getting deeply bullied. sol lightly kidnapped to launchpad. lizer. claudius. 'you made us run until we threw up' 'im pretty sure he got off #on torturing kids'. literally what the fuck was their deal #getting stuck in a spiders web ???? for a semester ?????#......??? getting chased down by a vaccum cleaner ..........#'it got a lot darker near the end' ... fun pretend child endangerment #like . man.#not to sound CRAZY or anything. does anyone get the impression launchpad was like. a bad ? time ? for them ?? like. it just straight up. bad #by god does it rlly sound to me like #the feeling of when high school was so bad it made ur life a living hell to be in. and u were truly just. surviving #but then youd b goofing off w ur friends in a little dorm. and the stress and the exhaustion seems to color everything that isnt that.#in a beautiful hazy rosy golden film #it hurt but the hurt was monotonous and dull. so all u remember were those shining bright in betweens #sol and albie sneaking into the kitchen and enchanting the self moving cookingware and just seeing what happens #and watching mothership approved saturday morning cartoons in bed #and studying together late at night n sol tucks albin in after hes crashed from hiss allnighter #and passing notes in class #and all that free time over crittermas breaks to do stupid dares and long rambling conversations abt nothing #sol knits albie his first sweater #they have their first beer together #they come back after a really bad day for the both of them and lie on the floor and talk abt anything but that #albin practices spells on sol and its not a good or safe idea but its probably fine #albin pettily bitching about his assigned partner for an arcana class project and sol blindly tsking his side always #only wizards can check out library books and albie checks out all sols books for him #...... anyway

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cakemoney · 10 months ago

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brennan: so you're in the last standard exam in an alien realm and in the stands you see a bunch of arthur agueforts, they're cheering for you, they're talking to each other, they've got your names written on their chests

editors: zooms in on the two arthur agueforts who are making out because they know how we are

#laughs awkwardly #dimension 20 #fantasy high spoilers #don't mind me i'm talking all the way down here. just pondering the concept of like #i know this is the format of the show and that's how the show works etc etc #but there's also a tragic quality to the fact that. these battle sets were made way beforehand. which means that #the bad kids were always destined to take the last standard exam. they were always going to fail in some way #no matter how hard they worked no matter how much stress they took on no matter how much they've grown #something something bobby dawn's really unlocked the extreme teenage rage in me. the idea of #'problem children' who are set up to fail by the system and then teachers act like their failure 'proves' that they were always bad #you know what i mean? plot device comedy et cetera but i do get really really sad about kids who struggle in school when they don't have to #the support could have been there and would have cost nothing but a bit of time effort empathy but adults withhold it. just to make a point

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ghostboyhood · 1 year ago

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i got hella sick.. havent been able to do much but was finally able to draw after a week

#had to miss the whole school week #imma have a lot to catch up on but #fucking.. whatever dude #theres 16 ish weeks left of school #anyways i watched 10+ movies in like.. 4 days #and 10 episodes of breaking bad #being able to just sit and do nothing and ignore the stress im about to out myself through has been great #cant wait for summer when i wont have to go back to school the next week #as you are #as you are 2016 #owen campbell

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emmavakarian-theirin · 1 month ago

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god the amount of art i would pump out if i stopped letting lineart talk me out of it i would be unstoppable

#this is a rant @ me and not to sound like i'm bragging when i say what i'm about to say #but i swear to god it takes more time/effort for me to do a cartoonish drawing than a photo realistic-ish drawing and i hate it #because sometimes i just want to do a simple drawing that's just lineart. maybe SOME shading.#but i fuss so much on how the lines should look and where to add more/less lines and what kind of thickness and blah blaaah #i have SO many art ideas i want to bring to life i stress myself out about it #i know that sounds so stupid #like yes just do art! do it bad! it's better than nothing!#but it's... deflating. especially when i literally have an art degree like #5 years of art school and i was barely taught anything about line art #'oh well that's in animation so you'd want to do a degree in television' ???#and those few times lineart was relevant was when there was a naked person in front of us when you're told to just replicate what you see #but we rarely had any variety between models and when i'm in that setting drawing someone my mind is just #~oh god naked person don't stare but i must don't think about it but it needs to be right oh god naked person i'm uncomfortable -+#like it was just overwhelming stress of getting it right rather than actually learning anything #which honestly sums up my art school experience overall #but it also doesn't help when you hate your own body so much and the idea of someone trying to draw you is just humiliating #(like at one point we had to partner up with someone and both paint their portrait AND model their head with clay #and i nearly had a breakdown and refused and asked if i could use someone at home instead #bc I've got plenty of scars and deformities and my face isn't symmetrical and i knew that was either going to be overlooked or exaggerated #and when it's the other way around i try my best to pay attention to detail but it's becoming this debilitating anxiety #of doing exactly that back. and it's made me paranoid to do anatomy related stuff) ANYWAY #it would have been good if people weren't ALWAYS naked and they helped us narrow down how different fabrics work on bodies and stuff #and to help us convey that through LINEART instead of needing to do whole ass paintings and detailed sketches and stuff #[SpongeBob voice] WHAT I LEARNED IN ART SCHOOL IS--- 😬#anyway if any fellow artists have any tips they'd be willing to share i would very happily listen #like i've got my drive back to draw things again which in itself is nice but man #it would be nice to not lose steam 5 minutes after anything i start drawing because i freak myself out #okay rant over if anyone's still here thank you for your patience and interest #me ranting

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harukaluvr · 2 months ago

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guys I cant

#apparently im dating Ethan #but he fucking confessed to me on call so i would’ve felt awkward if i said no #and the thing is i do like him #like i rlly do but he never texts me #hes sweet yk but when i text him half of the time he just ignores it #and when we’re on call he doesn’t even talk half of the time #he claims i make him happy but like words and actions don’t line up #and im really trying bro #i want to try but its already happened with Luis and Aiden and i cant anymore #they took fucking everything from me #i was genuinely like depressed after luis and aiden #but aiden is such a great person so i don’t understand why he just gave up #me and aiden were literally soulmates and it’s not even in a romantic way atp #we bonded so well together we never had an awkward stage or nothing #the first time i met him we were on call for an hr and it would’ve been longer if i didn’t have to go #i feel so drained and awful all the time #i dont understand #and life isn’t even bad i just can’t do this #and i have no reason why #everythings overwhelming and stresses me out #school makes me cry #i don’t feel comfortable when im home #i wanna go back to wv #guys i miss my grandpa #i haven’t seen him in over a year because my aunt ‘cant handle’ going back to West Virginia #I get why but she don’t even have to go #she said she would send me and my sister on a plane by ourselves but then she just switched up and said no #everything is so exhausting #i can’t anymore

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topaztimes · 10 months ago

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Hi this is a vent post! Continue scrolling if you'd rather not see that

#Giving time...#Still more time...#Wouldn't want to plague any previews #Maybe another filler. Just for some fun #Is this enough?#It certainly is now #Alright start:#I'm so bored. I am so incredibly; intrinsically; entirely bored. I have been taught the same thing for four years straight #'It's only four years!' that's literally a quarter of my lifetime right there. My formative years are being spent stressed and in a state /#/of constant self-loathing #I was watching a YT video and the phrase 'attention-starved STEM major' came up and I was like. Yea #What am I even working towards? The hope that my version of capitalist hell isn't as bad as everyone else's? I'm just so sick of not /#/having a stable future what with politics and normal working people becoming more and more oppressed #I don't want to work and that's not because I'm lazy. It's because my brain is recognising that there is no reward anymore #I used to have such a little spark in Yr7. I remember having things to say and wanting to share everything I've done #I still do that now; sure I do. I don't enjoy it though #I thought I liked drawing but I'm realising that all I really like is the attention. I COULD draw things I like drawing... but then I /#/ don't get attention which my mind then classifies as zero reward #I'm very tired of doing things for no credit; reward; or validation. This is becoming a theme #Then I wonder what I'm doing wrong. What part of the algorithm am I not hitting. Then I realise that I'm just not marketable in a way #God. I'm seriously breaking rn. It's not even only because of GCSEs #It's just a culmination of doing all these things to be told that I am unworthy of Having as a result. It doesn't matter if I'm smart; my /#/ parents still don't own their house and can't afford to pay for heating most days #Literally what am I doing this for #And then I realise that all of this is ALSO attention-seeking behaviour! I'm my own worst problem; I recognise exactly what's wrong with /#/ myself but the body wants what it wants. And what it wants is validation that I'm not going to get in this life #Hi guys! Maybe don't interact. That could fix me #Wean me off of needing virtual numbers just to feel something. Jesus #I can't even be happy with the things that I make for myself. Because I make nothing for myself anymore #It's just a whole sad existence of an expected 12hr+ of school every day until I get a job I guess. Then it's 12hr+ of job every day until

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mcalhenwrites · 5 months ago

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I'm not going to pretend it doesn't make me angry that I spend months and years trying to peddle my work to make ends meet, that I spend so much time mentioning my books and comms and everything, and people ignore that consisently... But the moment I finally break under the hopelessness - when it's obvious that it's fucking futile, that almost no one deems my work good enough to share with anyone else - suddenly they're concerned and scolding me. I'm working several jobs, bathing, generally keeping things clean, and I do this with several health problems including chronic pain. I found out that one of my cysts is growing and I may need to have it surgically removed. Which means potentially missing work to recover. Which means more money I lose. I spend so much time crawling out of the hole and it goes ignored, but the moment I just give up bc I don't have any strength left, suddenly that's my fault and I'm mentally sick. And that kind of makes me wish my entire situation upon people, and when they whine that it's hard, well fuck you, you thought I could ace it so surely you can, babe! I hate being angry about this, but it's just so exhausting to tell people who accuse me of not trying that I HAVE I HAVE SO FUCKING HARD AND YOU DID NOT PAY ATTENTION THEN Or you know you're attempting to gaslight me by claiming I didn't try despite that I obviously have worked my ass off trying, and that's so much fucking worse

#mcalhen personal #and I'm not saying I'm not mentally ill but ffs stop using it as a weapon to discredit people when they have the solutions right there #feels like people hate my writing and me and that's why I didn't go “I got the job” bc friends who never support me would be like #“I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU CONGRATS” cool I'm not I spend an entire day usually recovering from very calm shifts at a job I like #but the moment I publish a book it's not congrats it's I don't know this guy I don't know Cal and I'm gonna pretend I never saw anything #I don't even hate my goddamn job even tho it can be stressful but it's the easiest thing for mostly just 2 days a week #but it is not sustainable and I cannot survive on this and disability would be invasive as hell and y'all don't know shit about how they #treat disabled people in this country but goddamn I have watched that shit unfold with my autistic brother who can't work #and I can never help him at this rate #bc I can't help myself #I can't help anyone #and saying that is a big fucking issue with people who think if they say 'it gets better keep going' I'll magically unfuck my life #as if I haven't spent the entirety of my life trying to unfuck things #as if I didn't give myself an education in spite of my family #y'all never been threatened with physical violence bc you weren't supposed to ask for school supplies and it fucking SHOWS #I have learned so many things on my own time out of sheer desire to better myself and my situation #but at a point where nothing works out and each day is just filled with more bad news #at what point am I actually allowed to give up?#or am I supposed to just keep this up until I die with 40 more years of collected bullshit pain #bc if you want me to live like this for 40 years then... you never cared at all #and what's so stupid is that I really want to earn my living by doing the work #I work on my art and writing but let's just admit that it's pathetic already #no mental health services or pills will erase that I'm a pathetic garbage can of uselessness #also I realize no one owes me anything like boosting my work or w/e #but also don't ask me to turn rotten ingredients into a feast and say I'm not trying when I can't fucking do it

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bmpmp3 · 6 months ago

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its interesting as someone who used to be a bit closer to the very online capital A "Art Community" but is now a little more outside of it and focused on local art academia etc instead because the former always compliments me on "art style" and the latter always compliments me on the supposedly bizarre subject matter choices i make... its not bad its just interesting to see those two bubbles and how surprisingly separated they can be. unfortunately for them both, my art style is only Like This because i have a learning disability that slightly colours every line i draw and the unusual compositional choices like only drawing one eye and shit is because i was on deviantart in 2009 <3

#i dunno i was thinking about this because i was doing some experimentation with different ways to draw cartoon characters #i used to do it way more often but recently ive been super busy from school and family stuff going on (nothing bad just a lot of work)#the bmpmp3's artstyle is only extremely consistent when shes stressed!!!! jk jk but kinda LOL #if im too busy to play around my drawings will slip into whatevers comfortable for my dysgraphic hand <3 <3 <3 #but i loooove experimenting and fucking around. consistency for brand purposes is long outside of my perspective at this point #do i wanna draw detailed hair and faces... do i not.... who knows. it will change within the hour #i do appreciate when people compliment my art style tho even tho its not something i really try to do #because while i dont try to make things look a certain way - recently i had decided to not hold back on my dysgraphic nature #i probably talked about it before. instead of painfully agonizing and trying to get a line perfect and scrapping a whole drawing because #of the hand-got-tired-after-2-lines jerks and wiggles i just decided to leave that all in. show off the drawing even if its scribbly #the other day i got a compliment saying my art style is robust. im not sure i fully grasp what that means but i really like that compliment #its very evocative. robust..... gonna be thinking about it for a while #but im not joking about the academia thing professors get so baffled by some of my drawing choices and like i straight up tell them #these are habits of children largely. children on early internet in my case that i never grew out of but also habits that children still us #go on an art website and sort by new and look up fanart for something popular with kids and you'll probably see someone doing #stuff with similar artistic choices. maybe not the same because i am 26. but similar. coming from similar places.#they always laugh and seem to think im being humble or making a joke.... im not orz im not trying to downplay my skills either #if anything im trying to bring up the skills of a thousand children uploading oc art every moment of every day.... they are out there...#yeah i dunno its funny these different relationships im having to different art worlds. in the end i will always probably be a tiny bit #outside of them all as some kind of alien or creature masquerading as human but i think thats what we're all doing after all

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bambifornia · 9 months ago

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sneak peek for tomorrow

#everyone keep me in ur thoughts and prayers for the remainder of the weekend #nothing bad is happening to me im just graduating and i will be havin a lot of ppl over at my house #which is certain to deliver untold levels of psychic damage upon my poor old brain #so yeah #if i dont end up posting the swindle bakery au thing by tomorrow its probably because 1. im at grad rehearsal #2. at my actual ceremony #3. at a grad party #or 4. im just ridiculously stressed lmao #anyway #thats enough of my rambling #i will come back again soon to feed u again swindle nation #just as soon as the shackles of high school fall from my wrists

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daz4i · 1 year ago

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i know aging isn't the end of the world and 24 isn't that old and life isn't a race etc etc etc. however,

#i think a big reason i feel so bad abt being this age is ppl told me this is when things start to get better #and i still feel the same way i did as a teenager so. well. is it really 😐#(being on t probably isn't helping but it's been over 3 years already so... not an excuse i think)#but I'm also physically aging like the reason i barely upload selfies anymore is i see myself getting uglier every day #despite fighting for my life to at least take care of my face and hair...... can't fight the passage of time 😔#+ ofc. my (younger) friends being way more sorted out than i am on every level #again ik life isn't a race but. it can't help but hurt to know I'm still behind literally everyone i know #and my excuses for that aren't even good. bc other disabled ppl my age are also more sorted out than i am #other depressed ppl other borderlines other autistics etc etc. hell these are also my irl friends 😭#and it's dumb. bc feeling like i wasted my life isn't really pushing me to change that now. just makes me want to die even more #(bc i mean what's the point. i will never catch up. I'm still at the starting line AND i move so slow it doesn't even count)#(i don't have a single milestone ppl my age have not even finishing high school which is like. the bare minimum)#(and it sucks bc i also know i have potential i KNOW i can do shit in theory i know I'm smart and got skills. but i can't put it to use)#(and now this is turning into less of a thing abt age and just generally me talking abt how i wasted the last 24 years)#this was more of a stressed rant abt how I'm turning ugly and feeling super old but well. it all boils down to self loathing at the end 👍#vent #negative //#ask to tag #sorry for being so depressing all day oof ik i already said it before but it's been a rough couple of months #(nothing happened my brain just needs to get flushed down the toilet ^_^)#edit: i think. part of my panic about aging. is bc as a kid i was used to being the youngest everywhere #i was the youngest in my class bc i started school a year early. i was the youngest in acting school bc they don't normally accept teenagers #and in addition to that as an adult but before starting t i was always told that i LOOK young too #but now ik i look like I'm in my 20s. and it's killing me that i aged this much in so little #i wonder if shaving my beard will help but i don't wanna get misgendered 😐😐😐 and rn it's the only thing guarding me from that

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loverboybrightsideghost · 10 months ago

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i really do love practicing 🎻

#i'm in music school so now it's a much more significant source of my already very significant fears #but practicing only feels stressful when i don't do it enough and i'm trying to 'catch up'#some weeks fly past me like hurricanes and i get to my lesson and i can't say i've made any progress and that fucks me up #and i don't think that's ever going away- like i'll always have weeks like that cuz everyone has bad days and bad weeks #from time to time #but when i plan correctly (which is becoming more and more the norm for me) my practicing is something im really proud of :)#i have a System. i didn't do very well before i had it and i would die without it now.#i get excited about learning! i get excited having realizations abt things to change or work on when i practice!#it feels experimenty a lot of the time and i like it!!!#i have a lot of catching up to do in terms of comparing myself to others but i'm not here for them i'm here for me #i will do my best and i will learn from others of course but my goals are to make my Me better first and worry abt other people later #i won't lose sight of that #<- and when it doesn't feel experimenty it can be calming to just be like okay ik what i need to do now just. Practice. Repeat.#i mean music is a fucking rollercoaster and sometimes you are at the bottom and i hate that but it comes w the territory #sometimes you're just Stuck but you do get past it and in those moments i just try to think back to previous times ive felt like that #ive felt horribly shitty before and gotten through it and come out the other side slightly better!#life is like that i think #anyways. hashtag iris loves music and being a musician 🙄 nothing new over here hehe

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pepprs · 1 year ago

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discovered miah_pie on t*ktok (<- i don’t have one btw i just stumbled upon her bc someone i follow on ig talked abt her) and her videos make me want to cry so bad. 24 year old dependent moment

#purrs #i went to a clothing store today to try to get new work shoes and pants bc the one pair i have of each literally have holes in them and are #falling the fuck apart on my body and it was a HORRIBLE experience largely bc i think everybody in town was out shopping for back to school #so it was super crowded and there were lots of screaming kids and it was extremely stressful + my dad got into a mini car accident while i w #was in the store (he was / is completely fine thankfully but the car is not which is so awesome 😍😍😍😍😍) and i was just so stressed and #overstimulated but also like… nothing fits me bc im so short lol. but anyway it was so horrible i was on the verge of starting to cry in the #store and then i came home empty handed and my mom got super pissed at me for… needing to go to the store / being the reason we were out lol #and then finding miah pie and her videos are all about making trips to the store SO much fun and buying little treats and saying yessir and #OHHHHHH MYYYYY and just finding the joy in smth that can be so stressful and unpleasant… it makes me want to cry happy and sad tears at the #same time like i want that soooo bad and i can’t do it fully yet but i want it. need it. fuck my stupid baka life #anyways im gonna start saying the stuff she says just to make myself feel better even when im not at a store. yessir! OHHHHHH MYYYYYY.#acquired. don’t mind if i diddly dooooo!#also btw i am not a dependent except for the ways i am a dependent. hope that helps 🫶🏻#the problem is really that i don’t have a car or a license and also that my mom throws a fit every time i need / want to get driving #practice bc it’s never a good time so. lol 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍 me doing drivers ed this summer was a fucking joke i forget literally everything i #learned and have only been behind the wheel 3 times and none of them have actually counted bc im just developing basic motor skills #(literally). fmlllll im never getting out of here who am i kidding 🤪#delete later

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