#not to vent on main

[skys-archive]

Kind of a vent about asexuality and sorta aromanticism ahead so if you don't want to see that feel free to keep scrolling :)

Are you a sex positive asexual or did you subconsciously pressure yourself into sexual activities and convince yourself you enjoyed it because you're scared you'll be unlovable if you can't give at least some sexual things?

(this is not to invalidate sex positive asexuals at all, this is just my personal experience and confusion over my asexuality. Sex positive asexuals are valid af and I love you 🫶🏼💜🤍🩶🖤)

And this is a genuine question not like sarcasm where I know the answer. I'm so confused. I don't know if I'm sex positive like I thought, I haven't been with the person I'm usually mildly sexual with and I've found myself being extremely sex repulsed for a few months now. But am I just aceflux and in a play where it's really low? I don't know. I don't know what I am. But I'm genuinely scared of being sex repulsed. I've pushed this part of my identity to the side for so many years and now that I'm trying to face it, I just don't know. I'm scared of not having the relationships I want because of being sex repulsed. I'm also aro spec and that's something I'm really confused about that but I know I want some kind of relationships. I don't know if it's romantic or soft rom or queer platonic, but regardless I'm scared of it being impossible to find that kind of relationship while being sex repulsed.

I'm not an aroace that doesn't want close intimate relationships so the idea that I might be sex and romance repulsed as well as craving these deep intomiate connections with people is so scary. What if I never find anyone the way I want to? What if the people I do have don't want me if this is true?

[dizzy-boy]

I feel like dying but I don’t want to die not anymore why is it when I finally stop wanting to die this happens I want to go home I want a hug from my mother and father and I want to wake up from this nightmare

[crvstybowlofcereal]

been looking back and going "haha yeah that was a rough year" for the past like... 8 years?

[apple-os]

man i suck at not sucking

[ericacherrys-blog]

Ready to submit? I’ve got the keys to your chastity🔐 how long do you think you’d last being cum💦 denied?

[softspiderling]

will never get over this picture. everyone just vibing and he’s over here posing like😭😭😭 why are you touching your titty like that sir? slutty

[pussysidon]

Living with a disability, especially a progressive or dynamic one is so fucking stressful. I don't know whether I'll be able to do things I can do now in a couple of years or even a couple of months. Maybe today I'm up and dancing but tomorrow I can barely leave my bed. I'm already grieving the things I know I won't be able to do in the future and it's so, so so so hard. The worst part is that there's nothing you can do but try to enjoy life right now and hope you can keep doing what you love

[bluewolfangel01]

Mc: 😠

Demons: 😥

Luke: ... What's going on?

Solomon: Mc is upset at the brothers, Diavolo, and Barbatos because they "didn't come home."

Mc: Correction, I'm upset at the brothers, Diavolo, and Barbatos, EXPECT for Lucifer. Cause at least he comes home to me!!!

Lucifer: *standing with a smug look on his face*

Demons: But Mc 🥺

Mc: *turns back to them* I don't want to hear it. If yall don't want to come home that's fine, guess I'll just only ask for Lucifer from now on.

Demons: BUT MC!!! 😢

[kuuttituutti]

makes you think

[chiliger]

You know he’s gonna get away with it.

[vodid]

zero's pressure

[skys-archive]

"I realize how hard on you this must seem but trust me when I say

it's far far worse for me"

~ "Trying" by cavetown

[your-local-granny]

okay before i forget. i've been trying to put my finger on why people saying phoenix and maya are 'sibling-coded' pisses me off so much and I think a big part of it is how important mia is to both their introduction and also the foundation of their relationship and how calling phoenix and maya 'siblings/sibling-coded' waters down all of their relationships

phoenix wishing that maya was mia is a very big part of maya's arc as well as a big sticking point in phoenix and maya's relationship. phoenix spends the majority of turnabout sisters wishing that 'the chief' was there and when maya fails to channel her he shows outward disappointment. this is something that maya obviously picks up on and internalizes as we see throughout the rest of the games. most notably maya shows remarkably little self-preservation, throwing herself at von Karma's taser and in contempt of court to help edgeworth (and by extent, phoenix). she openly admits to feeling useless when she can't channel mia and phoenix never refutes this out loud until he of course presents the bullet to her showing that she wasn't useless. phoenix is notably bad at expressing his thoughts/ and feelings so its honestly debatable whether this gets through to maya but thats neither here nor there

on the other side of it, maya wishes that phoenix would be the caring adult figure that she was missing for most of her life (and especially after mia dies) and phoenix does not do a great job of being that figure. he likes her sure, and they're good friends, but he's definitely not nurturing or sensitive whenever maya is in distress. at the end of turnabout sisters when mia tells maya to "take care of phoenix" for her, maya starts calling him nick (because that's what mia said phoenix's friend calls him) and their dynamic for the most part is solidified. maya is not able to find mia in phoenix and accepts him as his own person and a part of her life as a friend.

phoenix has a more complicated journey with viewing maya as her own person partially because of the whole spirit-channeling thing, and partially because maya is younger than both the chief and himself. phoenix is constantly looking to a mentor for guidance and feels out of his depth for most of the cases in the trilogy. he frequently wishes that mia could be there, and is shown to value maya's ideas less, or at the least question them more at face-value. nevertheless, by the second game phoenix relies on maya greatly as shown with how he copes (or fails to cope) with her absence in rfta and 2-4, and 3-5. phoenix views her as both an integral part of his life and support structure, but also views her as someone he has to put on a brave face for, much like pearls. maya is phoenix's young friend that he leans on and wishes to protect.

maya's love for her sister is a core theme that spans the entire trilogy and culminates in maya almost dying in 3-5. phoenix's love for mia is a constant driving force that pushes him past what he believed himself capable of, and encourages him to trust those who become those closest to him. phoenix and maya's relationship is colored by their own relationships to mia, and how they view each others relationship with mia. they both represent a part of her that they never knew as well as a part of her they can keep loving in her place after she is gone, but most importantly, neither of them will ever be mia. no one else can be maya's big sister and no one else can be phoenix's mentor. they meet each other as two strangers set adrift by the same lost mooring, and though they'll never be secure in the way they were before meeting each other, they have a friend to help keep themselves afloat.

[myxomycota]

makes me sad how many people accuse my slime mold posts of being AI even though i list the species and link to the photographer/source like sometimes beauty is real guys. sometimes its real.

[obsob]

hi im curious

i hve an insane like to reblog ratio on a lot of my art and i just can never get my head around it . girls did u know if u see smth u like u can reblog and tag it and then you can find it easily forever

[twitchyglitchy]

What do I have to do to get out of here? Who do I have to beg on my knees to so I can leave?

Get me out of my house

P@yPal: twitchyjayson

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