#not sure if it qualifies but just in case

[genderqueerdykes]

With the trans man thing

I've had to apologize for being a transgender man and being a traitor to society

I've had to apologize and say I'm not trying to be transphobic when I say I'm somewhat tired of seeing transfem 🌽 filling all of the transmasc and man tags

I've even been pushed to de-masculineize myself and my existence for others (I'm pre-t witu voice training, have a naturally masculine build from work, and dress masc). I've been outright requested to come to events in drag for others' comfort, or even act "gayer" (I'm a gay man, but not a Twink or small to them)

It all feels like a dysphoria exchange. For you to feel comfortable, I need to feel like I'm trapped in the wrong body AGAIN

There's a rise in trans men being called "twink" as essentially a slur by people who feel threatened by someone wanting not to be a woman or who just don't believe we are "qualified' to be men

Maybe this take is fucked up

Maybe I'm not emotionally mature enough to see the nuances of all of this

But the rising hate of anyone or thing that is masculine is so damaging

You hate the patriarchy, not the people who are comfortable as themselves

Why do transmascs/men have to become villains in order to be seen as men? Why do we have to give up being good people in the eyes of others? That, or forget being a man entirely for someone else's comfort?

i've noticed that also to be the case, im not entirely sure why, but i rarely go into transmasc tags because of that. i have no clue where there's so much straight up por n in our tags that's not even of transmasculine people. it drowns out most of the other content. very strange. not sure if i understand why this is

I've been outright requested to come to events in drag for others' comfort, or even act "gayer" (I'm a gay man, but not a Twink or small to them) There's a rise in trans men being called "twink" as essentially a slur by people who feel threatened by someone wanting not to be a woman or who just don't believe we are "qualified' to be men

i don't think you're fucked up for being upset that people are asking you to literally change how you act and present yourself because other people refuse to accept you. that's such a fucked up thing for people to do to you. and yes people have literally been weaponizing a litany of queer slurs against trans men lately i have seen twink being thrown around in the most hateful ways possible. i lived with 2 trans girls who did it for a while. it's disturbing

i'm sorry you've gone through this. but you're not at fault for being hurt. you're being blamed for your own pain because other people think you deserve it for being masc and a man. you don't deserve it.

[your-favorite-therapist]

Vienna keeps an eye contact with Mal as she puts out this cigarette too. She then looks at Vi again.

Well.. that's exactly what I've said a moment ago. But I'm not sure if anyone in Heaven and Hell is really qualified enough to treat this like a regular case. Belphegor is, perhaps. She was the only alternative I could think of, but since she's not a safe and comfortable option for you, then I can't just say "goodbye" and leave you with your problem.

I'd like to meet you more often, at least twice a week, to keep an eye on the situation, Your Highness. -🌸

A bell jingles back and forth as the door opens to the office. Leviathan enters awkwardly.

“Hi. Um.. I’m here for my appointment.” The lower head, Vi, chimes.

(( @theleviafun ))

Vienna was sitting in a chair in her office. At the sound of Leviathan's voice she immediately jumped out from the chair, accidentally dropping half of the papers lying on the table. She turned her head to see who was there and gasped.

Oh my god, I'm so sorry! The office is such a mess... Please, take a seat, darling, I'll clean this in a bit! -🌸

She quickly started collecting all papers from the floor.

[wheelercore]

Mike, Victor, Fred, and Ted: weird murder/killing & PTSD subtext

Now that I have been thinking Too Much about Fred, I am interested in the "holding the mirror up" aspect of it.

We see them intentionally show Fred's reflection on the grandfather clock

Which the camera angle in which this was done reminds me SO MUCH of how they reflected Victor in the bathwater where the spiders were.

Also notice when Victor was arrested it was against the same wall the grandfather clock stands against-it actually might be there within frame on the right but that also might be a doorway- I'm not sure. Looks like its probably a doorway but the clock is somewhere around there.

You also have the fire similarity between Fred's vision and Victors:

The similarity being: murderer

They both feel and intense amount of guilt for what they have done- however both was an accident. Victor, I think, pretty obviously has PTSD and Fred might have also. We'll get to this later.

They also do the same reflection into the grandfather clock with Henry- right as he uses his powers for the first and it immediately cuts to him killing a rabbit.

Also the rainbow being ~~gay~~ but also may I say it might also be a reference to Henrys future killings in the Rainbow Room.

The thing that interests me is why the grandfather clock is associated with 'murderer'? In fact it's what is associated with Henry's powers, which is what he then uses to kill his family and the kids in the rainbow room. We also see the clock presents most of the time as jutting out of trees (Chrissy- reference to Nancy in s1) and walls (Patrick and Max)- which are places we've seen be associated with a breach in the barrier between the UD and RSU. As if the clock is forcing it's way from the UD to the RSU- like we see repeatedly UD beasts do.

So in a sense the symbolism works like this:

Clock -> breaching the barrier between the UD and RSU -> akin to UD monsters -> the UD monsters being a mirror/reflection of humanity's predatory nature -> predator defined as "preys on the weak" -> mentions of various famous killers (Freddy Krueger, Michael Meyers, and Ted Bundy- all in the same episode by the way).

Its especially interesting that Fred is a mix of Mike and Ted:

(Mikes s3 scar and Ted's glasses. Again, all in the same episode.)

Mind you, they make a whole circle of character-murderer references: Victor is compared to Michael Meyers, Eddie (not a murderer but was witness to one and is later accused) is compared to Ted Bundy (both names are short of Edward also), and I believe Vecna/Henry is compared to Freddy Krueger at some point also.

To add to this, the topic of PTSD is also something shared, I believe, between Fred, Victor, Mike, and Ted (and also most likely Henry but I haven't really looked into any specific uses of symbolism, name games, etc etc im lazy).

I believe I saw @aemiron-main mention previously about how it seemed that Victor had gained weight over the course of the Creel sequences given to us. While neither Victor nor Henry, I believe, are inclined to mention how much Victor had been eating once he was triggered by the Vecna visions so we don't necessary see any explicit confirmation of it, to me in a round-about way its supported by Ted's eating habits particularly in s2 and how that ties back to Victor since they're paralleled in this sense.

(Em, you're the resident expert on Victor so feel free to add anything on here related to this if you would like to. I'm sure you have much more coherent things/proof to say about this than I do when it comes to Victor haha).

In Henry's monologue (which is literally just the writers "spelling it out to us" as promised), he mentions eating as one of the distractions, ie just another way of describing coping mechanisms (heavy themes of mental illness/trauma all over the place in s4 as it relates to conformity and the metaphor behind Vecna).

In season 2 we hardly see Ted not eating/drinking (dinner scenes- obviously, doorbell scene with Dustin where he was holding a mug in his hand). Even in the opening scene he's the only person eating pringles (?) in the kitchen with Karen and Holly:

Even in the end of s1 he's apparently fallen asleep while eating out of a large bowl of popcorn.

Multiple times overeating is brought up with Karen angrily commenting that she hopes he's enjoying his chicken after we see her observe twice Ted not backing her up at the dinner table but rather just drinking/chewing (mind you this is all happening while discussion wills disappearance is going on, with the general consensus in the town being that Will was taken by a child abductor/murder- with Ted's See what happens? line being particularly interesting):

and Dustin jokingly putting an excessive amount of pancakes on his plate after Ted sarcastically tells him to "take us for all we're worth".

Hell, even the scene were Ted is holding a random donut in the church in s4- it's overeating/eating when its inappropriate, particularly doing a stressful moment, and again, this was related to the serial killings of Chrissy, Fred, and Patrick and how Eddie was scapegoated for it. Or Ted being the only person eating at Will's funeral, very obvious because he's the only one holding a plate. And these are only instances I remember off the top of my head.

Victor, while, again, we don't see as much of an association with food we do see him repeatedly get triggered over the course of the events shown to us. Victor describes his vecna visions as "living nightmares" which is a callback to Hopper and Joyce's conversation, again, in season 2:

Victors visions, unlike Virginia's, were intentionally very reminiscent of PTSD flashbacks. Victor was being repeatedly triggered all throughout the time of being "haunted" by this "demon".

Switching back around to Mike for a bit, we get the parallel in s4 to the s1 dinner scene, this time with Mike, who, unlike his father, is not eating very much. And Will, from the same vantage point as Karen in the s1 scene and like Karen, notices subtly:

Takes a similar sip of his drink when El storms off, similar to how Ted takes a sip of his drink both times when Nancy and Mike storm off. Honestly it would have been funny if Murray had made chicken risotto.

Regardless to get to my point, these can be signs of traumatic events happening in the past:

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While again, it's hard to tell with Victor, because comparatively we don't see much of him, there are some subtle hints. Talking about being "moody":

Dr. Owens explicitly mentions "changes in personality" as a sign of PTSD to look out for.

There's the clothing parallel between Mike and Ted related to this in again, you guessed it, season 2:

Both are scenes in which they are acting pretty irritable and standoff-ish to someone. Mike being this way towards Max due to the trauma and guilt of watching El "die" at the end of s1, related to death- again like Victor and Fred, however Mike was not culpable although I suppose he may have felt that he had not done enough to save El.

We don't know what's up with Ted, but he was actually strangely in this scene- not hearing the incessant ringing of the doorbell or even noticing Karen out loud ask him to get the door judging from the fact that he says "I'll get it" as if he hadn't heard her. Karen seemed annoyed by this as if this has become a common occurrence in the last year or so. He seemed to have been intensely concentrated or more so distracted, obviously with a drink in his hand.

stranger things writers dot twitter are sooo correct s2 is underrated we love the PTSD season

Notice how both are all dressed up- projecting an image of having yourself together, "perfection", when you're really not. Reminds me of that scene of s1 where Mike is complains the tie is choking him, and Ted tells him that that's how its supposed to be. Symbolizing an excessive amount of control over oneself and ones emotions (choking oneself as symbolized by clothing), which is seen through various habits, e.g. overeating/lack of eating.

Now, last thing that's a bit of a tangent, but going all the way back to this theme of murderers and killing- e.g. Mike's survivor's guilt, the interesting parallel between Holly and Henry catch my attention. Both are described as "explorers". Henry after he looks into the grandfather clock and 'gains' his abilities:

I saw my parents as they truly were. They presented themselves as good, normal people. But like everything else in this world, it was a lie. A terrible lie. They had done terrible things, Eleven. Such awful things.

(Sorry I ran out of image space >.<)

After Holly witnesses the Demogorgon ("predator") almost come out of the wall, again like we see with the grandfather clock which is reflected on Fred (Ted+Mike), Karen describes her as an explorer- which is referenced back to Henry seeing his parents for who they truly were. Holly then also notices the flesh monster from the ferries wheel (UD "predator") but Karen and Ted tell her to ignore it and look at the pretty fireworks. We know Holly was at the pool when Karen was flirting with Billy there, however what "terrible", "awful" thing Ted had done in the past is still unknown.

Shortly after this in s3- Karen, Ted, and Holly become the family unit which is then indirectly described in the church scene as "a lie designed to hide a truth", with Karen and Ted's clothing paralleling Mike and El's from early s3 when they were being an annoyingly fake couple.

While Victors fate is almost obviously reminiscent of Oedipus (the whole eye gouging and all- falling into a fate that was one of his own doing when he accidentally murdered that family during the war)- Mike does also get two moments were he technically "blinds" himself all throughout s4: the sun glasses in the airport and the sensory deprivation glasses at that pizza place- a fate that more closely follows Oedipus: kill your father, become your father, and then marry your mother.

(the last one being a whole nother long post)

Anyways... what exactly happened in 1959?

[fbfh]

omg could you do leo valdez with ocd reader 🥺 ... i love how you write him smmmm!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

OF COURSE BABES. first of all for anyone who doesn't know there are a lot of different types of OCD, and no matter what type or types you have, you could not find someone more supportive than Leo motherfucking Valdez. OCD is hard to have and hard to treat and guess what???? he's gonna learn everything he can about it and work with you to figure out how to help you when things are bad and good and all the little uppy downy in between parts.

adding a read more so this doesn't trigger anyone (cw: mentions of contamination, checking, vague mentions of intrusive thoughts, religious ruminations and magical thinking, please do not engage with this post if it could trigger you!!! I love yall <3)

if you have the contamination kind and you're always stuck feeling like nothing's clean enough, Leo understands. He'll take over for you, he'll cast eyes over things and remind you that you did what you're supposed to do and help distract you with something else. He knows to check dates on the groceries he buys you, knows how to help you feel better without accidentally enabling your compulsions.

if you have checking compulsions like relocking doors and making sure the stove is off and appliances are unplugged, he starts doing the closing up routine at night for you. you have a house rule that you're only allowed to check things two times, then Leo will check once for you if you need him to, then he helps you move onto something else. If you're worried that the stove is on and it's going to burn down the house, he never fails to make you laugh by promising to be the one to deal with all the insurance guys.

"Worst case scenario? We pull off the greatest insurance scam in history and retire early to the Swiss alps."

he says it so casually that it never fails to make you laugh, it takes the sting and the stress from your thoughts a little.

if religious ruminations or magical thinking are more your thing, Leo actually knows exactly what to do about that. he pulls out a golden drachma and cuddles with you while he fidgets with it.

"I can get a direct line to any god. If one of them starts beefing with you, I will personally handle it." he kisses you. he mumbles against your lips, and he smiles when he gets you to smile. "I'll also remove every screw, nut, bolt, and support beam in their entire palace and turn everything into breakaway prop furniture."

when your intrusive thoughts get bad he holds your shaky hands and promises that he won't ever let you do anything that could hurt you or someone else, he goes through your affirmations and grounding exercises with you, he reminds you that thought crimes are not crimes.

no matter what your symptoms are or how bad they get, Leo's love for you and deep knowledge that you are an amazing, wonderful, incredible person never wavers. he loves you. he loves being with you, he loves helping you, he loves being the one to care for you. Leo loves knowing that he's able to support you, to ease your burden and make sure you don't feel like you're alone. and you're never going to be alone, because nothing could ever scare Leo away from you. he just loves you too much.

[ask-the-colony-tree-siblings]

to arti and hunter

what would happen if i were to hypothetically force you two to hug

They are both in severe psychological distress right now /j

[komashkathesilly]

my plushies but theyre silly poly furries

[sugaredoleander]

i say this with love. house fanfic writers, if you ever want me to beta something for medical accuracy, i'll fucking do it no questions asked

[colonthreedotexe]

found out this evening that my grandmother is apparently in possession of what sounds a lot like a cursed painting.

it was produced by her friend who is otherwise the sweetest and most polite old lady you'd ever meet after she had a nightmare and woke up in a cold sweat before rushing immediately to begin work on it.

everyone other than my grandmother who has ever seen it has experienced extreme distress to the point she keeps it hidden inside a closet facing the wall.

my grandmother is incredibly fond of this painting.

all of these things probably mean nothing supernatural and it's just a standard horror themed painting but it would be crazy if it was cursed :3

[mint-ty]

Today I received an email with another job application rejection (👎), followed by ao3 email sending me kudos (👍). Kinda cancelled each other out.

[dailypokemoncrochet]

Pokemon Arm Wrestling Match: Aegislash v Cofagrigus

(Sometimes I crochet Pokemon and sometimes I put them in fun little scenarios like this one! Both are fun but I don't have to as much time to do both very often anymore. Vote in this other poll to help me decide what I should focus more on! :D)

[drdt-headcanons]

We should have more mastermind character headcanons-

For example J as a mastermind

It would probably be either forced upon by her mother or she did it to ruin her mother's good name.

:(

[deus-ex-mona]

when the tea leaves you like

[siphisket]

Wanted to try the thick-wrist/ankle style and ended up designing a whole character lol

Anyway his name is Patch and the strawberry on the front of their overalls is a double-sided pocket! I just realized it’s too small for their hands though… ( •___•)

Edit: oh it actually looks nice on insta!

[touchlikethesun]

btw if we’re mutuals and you see me reblogging a post you reblogged from someone else, either i saw their’s first (i’m so sorry the world is cruel like that) or i needed to see it a few times before it hit just right okay it’s nothing personal i still love and appreciate you lots kay xx

[natasha-in-space]

Hello! So I really like your writing and your takes on the characters. Your ability to make them feel grounded in canon is something I really love! I especially liked your post on Jaehee's acceptance on her femininity, because I feel like you really got a point there, and it's something I see fans either ignore or don't like for some reason? Like, I've seen someone say that it's not logical for Jaehee to want to be more feminine, and that made me kinda upset, ngl. I know it's stupid, but as a girl who had to struggle with accepting my own femininity, it makes me upset when people refuse to acknowledge the feminine development of female characters as a positive one. Some of us want to be feminine. It's not bad or oppressive. We are allowed to have those stories told. It makes me so uncomfortable when it automatically gets assumed that it's somehow bad, and a female character can't be free and feminine. Why not create an OC for Jaehee with those traits instead of ignoring a crucial plot point in her story? Idk, maybe I'm being too petty. - anon

Hi anon! Tumblr is being silly and I accidentally messed up your ask, so I'll be answering you this way! That's an interesting point to discuss, and I do get your frustrations. That said, I do wanna say that we all can interpret the same character differently, and I don't wanna invalidate others readings on Jaehee! Creation is all about having fun, after all, so there's no need for any obsolete rules.

I'm honestly very surprised that post of mine has so many notes? I wrote it in a very sleepy state to just get my thoughts out, and I frankly don't think it's that good, lmao. Maybe I'll do a follow-up of it one day and do the subject justice, with screenshots and more grounded points! It's certainly an aspect of her character I like thinking about a lot, especially due to my own experiences.

As to your point, I do think that if you actually pay attention to Jaehee's dialogue and her overall route progression, her embrace of her femininity makes complete logical sense to her as a character. At least to me. The path of actually throwing aside your environment's expectations of you and just pursuing what you like is hard. Including the acceptance of your own femininity. Especially so if you have been denying it to yourself for a long, long time. And that's something Jaehee expresses her struggle with many times. I think it's perfect in line and actually logical for her to lean into the more 'feminine' side after her good ending.

And, y'know, just because she has long hair and likes to wear dresses sometimes doesn't mean she lost her snark and badassery! I'm pretty sure she's actually way more confident and open after her good ending, so just because she is more 'feminine', doesn't mean she'll grow all soft and timid or something like that. It has been expressed that she has many leadership qualities, and she can hold her own just fine. Femininity is a spectrum, not some set of rules you have to follow. You can explore it in different ways to your desire, and I think that's a journey she'll explore at her own pace.

So, that's my two cents on it! I'd say just scroll down or block the content that you don't like seeing. There's nothing wrong with using the block button for your own comfort, y'know? If you don't like seeing a certain interpretation, just manage your online experience to avoid seeing it!

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