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Me reaching what looks suspiciously to be the end of my rope: oobh i got plany off rope

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“I don’t want to be a burden” you’re more like a relief, a gift, a blessing actually

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i love you, get up, keep going.

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i know we’re both just messing around pretending to be whole but look at me. if the train was coming would you move. if the ground was falling from under your feet would you even notice or would it just be another tuesday for you. if somebody stabbed you could it hurt worse than you already do. what i’m saying is that i love you but i think we both drive over the speed limit when it’s raining. what i’m saying is that i want to hold your hand and i understand about how you sometimes have to sit down in the shower. what i’m saying is that i’m here for you and if the train comes please move.

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Sorry but umm this isn't your grave lol! I'm going to have to ask you to get out of this hole.

Awkward, haha. me again! This still isn't your grave. Get out of this hole, thank you

Again!! Not your grave. I understand how it could be confusing but you have to get out of this hole.

So, again. Not your grave...

Hi there.

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they need to invent an emoji of a guy in a hole that resembles the grave but isnt

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novembers are hard for me. here's a few words that've been helping

Stopping by Woods on a Snowy Evening by Robert Frost | Resumé by Dorothy Parker | Prayer for Werewolves by Stephanie Burt | And When You Survive This by Peter Chiykowski | The Journey by Mary Oliver | Dare to Love by Jarvis Cocker | What Resembles The Grave But Isn't by Anne Boyer | Amy AKA Spent Gladiator 1 by The Mountain Goats | I Will by Mitski | Dogfish by Mary Oliver | Claws in Your Back by Julien Baker | from Julien Baker Delves Into the Trauma and Triumph Behind Every Song on Her New Album, Pitchfork | Little Light by Semler | Still Life with Citrus by Lena Oleanderson | Soup Is One Form of Salt Water by Heather Christle | The Orange by Wendy Cope | Hum, Hum by Mary Oliver

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“I don’t like being here— or anywhere very much, at the moment—”

— Elizabeth Bishop, from a letter to Joseph Summers featured in One Art: Letters (via violentwavesofemotion)

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i hope so…

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little miss awful body temperature regulation is taking his hoodie off again

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(gaza soup kitchen - can you match $5?)

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"For my childhood, it's hard to say, like, I need and want to be held. I need and want to cry right now and not have to alchemize it into anger, and, like, smash something, so that—'cause I mean, there's nothing more toxic masculinity than a fucking tiny dyke who's like, I have to prove one and a half times how macho I am 'cause I'm five feet tall! ...It's still not acceptable to be sincere, to be vulnerable. ...Me and Matthew Gilliam hugging one time, one time, and then, we were like twenty years old, and we were like, 'let's never do that again.' We hug after every show now. And like, it feels good to fuckin' touch. It sounds like I did molly before this call, and I'm like, everybody needs to be touching more."

– Julien Baker on the Talkhouse Podcast [x]

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ok last thing. but what people fundamentally need to get through their heads is the significance of gaza fundraisers not being the same as like mutual aid when you're helping someone get groceries, because it is a genocide. there is insane deliberate scarcity and prices are unmanageable, because there is nowhere nearly enough for everyone, so only people who can pay can eat. and what positioning individual fundraisers as the only course of action does is quite simply give a tiny percentage of random people whose fundraisers take off the ability to pay those prices while thousands of others can't. and every one of those thousands of people without a fundraiser is suffering through the same inconceivably horrific reality. it is giving a few completely desperate people out of hundreds of thousands a slightly more favorable position in a horrific war economy of imposed scarcity. and what grassroots community kitchens do is try to mitigate in some small way that inconceivable hierarchy of who can pay and who can't, by stretching ingredients as far as they can last to cook meals at large scale and give them out at no cost. and obviously people are still going to send money to their friends and families because this is hell what else are we supposed to do but please just think about that before promoting endless individual fundraisers as somehow the most ethical way to help

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in the club wondering if people can tell i’m traumatized by the way i carry my body

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"use chatgpt" that's the devil talking. buy four caffeinated drinks and pull an all nighter. this is the way.