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⌠Writer Questionnaire 2 âŚ
Thanks for the tag, @the-golden-comet! (And @the-letterbox-archives tagging me when I was almost done here, haha)
Heads-up! Long post!
How long have you had your writing Tumblr/Writeblr? A fast and loose estimate is fine!
Two months ago to the date actually??? Or, at least, that's when I first uploaded a story here. My first actual Writeblr post was me hopping in on an open tag on the 6th of June, haha. I thought it was just a month, but looks like the summer's gone by in a flash! đ
What led you to create it?
So, I'm a writer on Tapas! I'd been attempting to social network on other social medias (twitter and bluesky) but wasn't getting anywhere, didn't like the general formats, and uh... I'm sure I don't have to explain why I don't want to touch Twitter with a 10-foot-pole anymore. Let's just say, if you haven't seen, it's just as bad as (if not worse than) everyone says. Anyhow, I'd seen lots of Tumblr short stories on other platforms and started investigating what it's like here. Didn't know what "Writeblr" was or that it even existed, but eventually stumbled into the field after posting my short story. Thanks, @darkandstormydolls! â¤ď¸
Whatâs your favorite thing about the Writeblr community?
How supportive everyone is??? Like omg you guys are so sweet, idk how to take it. Also I love seeing how much passion everyone else has for their writing, haha.
Whatâs one thing youâd like your mutuals to know about you?
Uhhhh, I think I'm pretty open about the things I'd like people to know about me, haha. I never mean to offend, so if I accidentally say something wrong, please tell me! I'm autistic and very dumb.
Is there anything youâd like to see more of on your dash?
I'm ngl I keep meaning to build out my followed tags for my fandoms, haha. The only fandoms I really see things for are TMAGP (10/10, TMA is my obsession. I am obsessed. It is one of my Special Interests and I love it with all my heart) and House of the Dragon??? Except I'm not even a fan of HotD??? So that's kinda annoying, haha. (Aka, my fandom stuff, but that's on me.)
WIP it Good
Which Works-in-Progress (WIPs) or writing projects are you noodling about, lately?
Rising From the Ashes, tragically. (Because it's one of the LAST things I should be working on right now, haha.) Otherwise, I'm of course always obsessed with the Arcane Rifts. Then I force myself to be obsessed with Sun and Shadow, though it's slowly growing on me, haha.
How long have you been working on them?
Haha, so I've historically jumped around a lot in working on different things, so these are approximate guesstimations!
Rising From the Ashes has likely had 3 or 4 years put into it/the characters. If you include the Calamity Crew (which overlaps with it in the timeline and originally ended up merging with the cast of RFtA), I'd say definitely 4 years!
The Arcane Rifts has had 5 years put into it.
Sun and Shadow is very new; I'd say it probably only has about 4 months of work in it? It's part of why I'm less interested in it, haha. Less I've put into it and less I'm attached to.
Do you remember what inspired them/what got you started?
Oh... oh dear. How could you ask me this??? đđđ
Rising From the Ashes has existed since, I think, 2016. It started (tragically) as an RP starter on Google+. I wish I was kidding.
To those unaware of how it worked in that space (and likely similar ones to this day), you'd post a starter and people would join in with their own characters. 99% of the time, they'd drop out before long. However, I'd work out details of the characters in the process and carry that info over into the worldbuilding. I eventually stopped RPing with the masses and settled down with a single "partner" who I'll call Kris.
She's the one who stole my docs.
The Arcane Rifts technically originated as another RP starter? It never got attention, though, and instead my ideas for it simply carried over into the worldbuilding in general.
One of the characters of the original starter was important in the worldbuilding. It was not a character you see in the early books of tAR, though, so don't bother trying to figure it out. But, since he was so important, his origins were also important.
The Arcane Rifts started in 2019, as I wanted to make a story building out said character's origins. It was originally going to be a duology, the first book being Gene's backstory and the second being how Gene and The Other Guy's lives intertwined. (No, they were not gay for each other! đ) It's since changed a lot, and focuses basically exclusively on Gene, haha. The last book in the series will probably be focused on the other character, though!
Sun and Shadow started for a romance novel competition on Tapas which has since ended. I didn't get to finish it in time for a lot of reasons, but I primarily cite stress and exhaustion from working full time at a physically-intensive job. It grew shockingly quickly and I had some fans donate to me related to it, so I'm kinda forced to work on it, haha. Dw--I like it! It's just harder to work on for a number of reasons, haha.
How much time, in your best estimation, do you spend thinking about them?
Tragic, the questions you're asking me--
It depends, haha. I'm autistic and hyperfixate a lot. Also, for one, that's a suuuuuper vague question??? Like what do you mean "how much time"--how much time within the day? How often in general? Idk, man, haha.
I think about the Arcane Rifts a LOT!
I've put an incredible amount of time and effort into it, and I'm in love with 90% of the characters there. Even the background characters have had a lot of work put into them, getting relatively fleshed-out backstories to make their motives understandable (even if not agreeable!), and I love them all so much, haha.
Except Katerina. She's a bitch.
I also think about Rising From the Ashes a good amount, and it's invaded my brain again lately, haha.
I took a step away from RFtA and basically all of my other stories late 2021 when Kris (my ex-writing partner) and I had a falling out. It was incredibly difficult for me emotionally to look at anything I worked with her on, and obviously RFtA was a huge one (actually, tAR was the only thing of my early works she had nothing to do with). Since early this year, I've finally been able to work on it again and it's been incredibly fun removing her stuff, actually!
I think all that is a good part of why I keep randomly getting obsessed with it again, haha. It's like looking at old friends (the characters, not Kris) and being all "omg??? I HAVEN'T SEEN YOU IN FOREVER??? PLEASE TELL ME EVERYTHING YOU'VE BEEN UP TO!!!" except it's removing Kris's stuff, haha.
I think about Sun and Shadow a lot more than you might expect with how much I talk about not preferring it, haha. I love the characters! Crow and, actually, Valyarus especially. They're both super interesting characters, and I'll randomly find my brain working out scenes between characters interacting with them.
(The problem with SaS is that, as a book, it's incredibly different from my usual works. It's a small cast of Frey/Crow and technically Daleira, while most of my stories focus on larger casts. It makes for a VERY different experience, and so it's a lot harder to work on)
When someone asks the dreaded, âWhat do you write about,â question, what do you usually say?
Actually, I've got a ready answer for this one! Until SaS, I was dedicating my time to the Arcane Rifts and had prepared the answer:
Percy Jackson meets Lord of the Rings in a steampunk fantasy world full of â¨mysteries waiting to be uncoveredâ¨
(I'd say the "mysteries waiting to be uncovered" part ironically/accidentally mockingly most of the time, whoops, haha. I always feel awkward advertising my works.)
It was awkward when people would get actually interested in it from there and ask more questions, haha.
To clarify: that's my tagline for the Arcane Rifts! The story has gods and demigods messing with mortals, using them as their playthings and being REALLY immature babies because they don't really face consequences for their actions like PJ. Then, it's a lot more "grounded yet fantastical" like LotR, where magic is kinda infused with reality and yet you still have issues like starving to death and whatnot.
Letâs Rotate Blorbos
Name any characters you created. Â Side characters, protagonists, antagonists, characters whoâve never been written, the first original abomination you ever pulled from your ass; whomever youâd like!
UHHHH THERE'S A LOT TO LIST???
Try this for a taste! These are just the guys I've gotten colors for!
Freya, Crow, Daleira, Valyarus, Grimnir, Soren, Gene, Tazin, Mislav, Adilzhan, Ludmila, Rada, Caspar, Nikolai, Gennadi, Oska, Rieka, Liesel, Carmin, Nora, Sammy, Kieva, Caron, Varik, Elazi, Riaan, Roman, and Tiberius! (Though Tib is getting a name change sooner or later)
Whoâs the most unhinged?
Unhinged in which way? There's a lot of options there, haha.
I'm going to give honorary mentions to Valyarus, Gene in the later books, Tazin, Rieka, Gennadi, and Tiberius ! (Why does it not surprise me that most unhinged characters are from tAR? 𤣠Also I swear it's a coincidence most of the unhinged characters are red.)
(... Probably.)
In general, I'd say that, incredibly ironically, the Existence of Order is the most unhinged of all my characters. She's just incredible at hiding it.
(Tbf half of the Existentials probably belong on the "unhinged" list anyway but eh. They still don't compare to Order!)
Who comes the most naturally for you to write?
I'm going to give this as a tie between Gene and Sammy!
Gene has my 'tisms and just about all of my trauma, so we have a lot in common, whoops, haha. Also there's a... very specific detail about his character that makes him easier to write in general. It's just a major spoiler. đ
Similarly and actually identically to Gene in some ways, while Sammy has a lot in common with me, he's also incredibly perceptive! (Although we don't share that fact.)
Due to the way I write, their analytical natures allow for them to spit straight facts about the worldbuilding and the people around them rather than beating around the bush, haha. Both are highly investigative, try to learn and understand everything around them, and notice small details other characters wouldn't! It makes it much easier for me to write, because uh... well here's an example of what my outlines look like.
Long story short: I include a lot of detail which I then transfer into the POV's character narration, cutting out details which they wouldn't notice or think about, haha. In Sammy's case (which that scene has Sammy as the narrator/POV character), very little information gets cut out because he's so perceptive!
(Here, as a treat--have another example!)
(In this scene, Nikolai is the narrator. Even the outline gets "filtered" to mirror the characters' way of thinking--like it's Nikolai himself seeing Caspar as "doll-like". The crossed-out stuff is details I most likely won't mention, but noted for myself, haha. I do the same thing if/when including details about the motives and thoughts of non-narrator characters.)
Do you ever cringe at them?
Gene and Sammy?
A B S O L U T E L Y .
Gene is a wreck in basically every way and desperately needs help (that he won't get until he meets Dimitry). As much as I love him, there's a lot of moments where you just can't help but wince and be all "shit, did you REALLY have to do/say that?"
Sammy on the other hand? He's a terrified, control freak manipulator who panics the moment he feels like he's losing control of a situation. It can be painful to watch, even if simultaneously fascinating.
How much control do you feel you have over your characters? Â AKA, do they ever âwrite themselves,â refuse to cooperate, or do things you didnât expect? To what degree? Are some less cooperative than others?
I explicitly go out of my way to add backstory to and develop each and every one of my characters until they "write themselves", haha.
I want my characters to feel like real people, so I do my absolute best to make them as real as possible. (That's part of why tAR is so massive...)
Special shoutout to Dimitry here, btw. Dude COMPLETELY screwed over the planned and intended from the earliest days path of the Arcane Rifts. I've mentioned before that Gene is villain-coded, yeah? Want to know why?
Because he was MEANT to be one! Then Dimitry had to come along, be the sweetest, nicest fucking person around to Gene while he was going through the worst part of his life, and keep Gene from slipping off the deep end!
MITRY, YOU PIECE OF--
Do you enjoy people asking questions about your characters? And do you have a preferred means of receiving said questions? For example, as Asks, as replies, as reblogs, as tag notes, as comments on AO3, etc.
I absolutely love, love, love!!! people asking questions about my characters!!! đĽ°
I would absolutely prefer them as Asks sent to me, and especially would prefer if separate subjects/questions were sent in separate Asks! Like, say you were going to ask me about Gene and Dimitry. I'd rather two separate Asks, one asking for whatever you wanted to know about Gene and another for whatever you wanted to know about Dimitry, haha. However, if you wanted to ask a single question about both, that obviously is fine as a single Ask!
On writeblr engagement
What makes you want to follow another Writeblr account? Do you follow âem as you see âem, or take time scoping out the blog to make sure you align with its content? Do you follow based on WIPs, or vibes?
I definitely scope out before I follow, yes.
I choose based primarily on the personality of the person behind the blog, but the WIPs/vibes can also have an influence on my decision, haha. I'd rather follow people with kind/supportive personalities, and I'll eventually start liking their stories even if they're not initially my thing!
What makes you decide against following?
Bigotry. Moment I see it, I'm on the lookout for even the slightest hint of more and, if I see it, I'm OUT!
(That includes things like: homophobia, transphobia, TERFs, ableism, racism, xenophobia, etc.)
Also, while I include angst in my stories, the people who are big on "I have nothing but bad stuff in my writing and I'm proud" are, uh... not on my "follow" list. While they can write what they want and enjoy it, grimdark is not my thing. Angst is best in moderation and I very purposely control the amount of it in my life.
(Also Kris's--my ex writing partner's--obsession with "grimdark-ness" is a good part of why I'm so ecstatic to remove her stuff from my writing. Yes, I've tried it. For years. I hated it. Please and thank you. Also note that I proudly call myself an evil writer, so it's not like I don't love angst, it's just--moderation. Seriously.)
Do you interact with non-mutuals often?
Yes! I think a good 50-30% of my interactions are with non-moots, haha. I go out of my way to try to support my moots, but I'll definitely share support with anything that catches my attention, no matter who it's from!
To be fair, though, I think a majority of non-moots I interact with are on my mental "probably going to follow soon" list. I can be slow to make decisions, haha. It doesn't help that I try being active with my moots, so I'm trying to avoid growing that list too quickly!
Do your mutualsâ characters occupy space in your noodle?
Haha, depends what you mean by that? My brain is definitely too full of my own characters to have any space for anyone else's, but I definitely do think of others' characters at times! There's plenty of y'alls characters I really like, haha.
Just... omg, my hyperfixated AuDHD brain refuses to focus on anything except for the Hyperfixation of the Momentâ˘.
This was a huge one! Hopefully I'm not screaming into the void with this one, or you guys enjoy finding out more about me and my WIPs.
If you're curious about the reason this is labeled Writer Questionnaire 2... well guess what!
Tagging (gently! This is a lot, haha): @honeybewrites @yourpenpaldee @paeliae-occasionally @mysticstarlightduck @illarian-rambling @.darkandstormydolls (tagged you earlier in the post haha) + open tags!
Divider from @cafekitsune!
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Sheridan 1.05
i feel like the show starting right off the back with sydney in bed tells us, the audience, âoh, this is gonna be differentâ.
the quick cuts! seeing meal inspo, flashbacks to sydâs failed business. done so well to show us how protrusive the thoughts are
i love the sort of storied, layered tension of sydâs bedroom. because itâs obvious itâs her childhood bedroom, but alsoâŚhow much of it has she updated as an adult? some of it? none of it? it feels like a childâs room. i also remember the first time seeing sydâs bedspread and thinking, âOH, is syd queer!?!?!?â remains to be seen, but at this point itâs probably rainbow because itâs her childhood bed. not because sheâs queer
SO MANY DRUGS IN HER BATHROOM CABINET
i love that the two posters we see really clearly are: speed (which came out in â94), and jumping jack flash (which came out in â86). who is sydney? when was she born? why are these two movies on her wall. it clearly means something, the creators chose these posters so it has to mean somethingâŚbut what???
i remember hearing from someone that the train station where syd gets on is really close to where the Mr. Beef (the exterior used for The Beef, and inspiration for it) is located. couldnât say if thatâs true or not, but if it is thatâs kinda disappointing. obviously tv and movies have to do what they can with time and shooting locations, so maybe they had to shoot there. but the shows tries so hard to submerge us all into a sense of reality in the show that knowing sydney is a two minute walk from work as sheâs boarding a train is disappointing.
the quick little camera work of carmyâs hands up to his face. just to prove that jeremy allen white is actually cooking
âa play on âTongue & Cheekââ âox tongue?â âor braised beef, maybe short ribâŚrisotto?ââŚbut then how is it a play on tongue & cheek, and not justâŚa dinner menu/dish?
hereâs the beginning of the risotto storyline. and all the misery it entails!
carmy tells marcus to use scissors to cut the tapeâŚ.but the tape dispenser has a blade. why was marcus ripping it in the first place? why does carmy say to cut it with scissors? the BLADE IS RIGHT THERE
idk why, but the toilet exploding is SO relatable to working at a shitty restaurant. why do so many toilets explode? iâve never experienced a toilet exploding anywhere else in my life
âwhat is up you fucking replicantsâ richieâs phillip k. dick references are strong
ebra telling carmy there are many components to the new dish heâs showing them is really fitting with ebraâs storyline in season two (but more on that later)
thereâs something pleasing about carmy saying âmonterâ and then realizing that his classically trained chef lingo isnât going to be understood so he says âwhisk inâ. because carmy is coming down to their level, but is also proving you donât need a fancy french education or need to know fancy words to make good food. âwhisk inâ works just as well. the class dynamics in this show are so on point.
the calmness shown in the kitchen now that everyone is on board with the new system that carmy is so good. where weâve seen chaos and overlapping anger, now we just see calm, peaceful, quiet cooking. the only holdout is richie
âyo, should we do a bakery?â god, i love chester. and iâm so serious; everyone needs a friend like chester, and every kitchen iâve been in has a chester. just someoneâs friend that pops in all the time for no reason and who everyone knows
the back and forth as chester asks if he should watch the bachelorette without marcus is so sweet. and again, it added to the âis marcus queer?â debate in my head. but also, having a bachelorette night with your bestie also sounds pretty dope, and two straight dudes can tear that up. i just want marcus to be happy.
tina went to mikeyâs and mikey/carmy/natâs moms for christmas. just further deepening that relationship of the family and tina. tina wasnât phased by carmyâs mom going âfull psychoâ.
itâs so hard to see the undercurrents of carmyâs anxiety come out when talking about his mom (even more so since watching season two), especially with his emotional support spoon (which we all need)
ânever fuck my vibe!â âi swear to god i will fuck anything that i want to fuckâ âyou are not being nice and you will not fuck meâ as richie and fak got closer and closer to each other. once againâŚâŚ..kinda queer vibes? i mean, yes, richie is homophobic, but psychologists teach us that the biggest homophobes are projecting their own internalized homophobia. i swear, 20% of me thought theyâd kiss. sure, they ended up fighting and âwrestlingâ. but isnât wrestling also a way for âstraight guysâ to get oiled up and roll around with each other?âŚâŚmaybe i should write the bear through a queer lens after i write the bear through a class lens
matae: basically âuncleâ from the movie bloodsport with van damme. because of course it is
carmyâs lack of surprise is truly so funny
ope, richie is selling coke!
if i know one thing about baking (and i know very little) is you donât want to rush that shit like marcus is doing. especially when you are working in a space with some jank electrics and equipment
the shows one and only âcovidâ mention. which is perfectly placed and isnât in bad taste or poorly done. plus, itâs also pretty fair with a lot of places on the edge during the worst of covid lockdown; you gotta make money somehow
the earned, relational aspect of richie being peoples cousin. pete calls him cousin and richie says âiâm not your cousinâ. yet, we learn that beyond just the berzattos call him cousin later on. itâs kinda beautiful.
the fast turnaround of nat calling carmy a âsoft shitty bitchâ who only calls when he needs something from her to her melting and giving him a big hug when she learns heâs going to Al-Anon All Family three times a week is maybe the purest form of showing they are family iâve ever seen on a screen in such a short amount of time
the transition of the early scene with syd telling carmy they should close when the dining room is flooded and carmy saying missing one service could kill them, to tina saying they canât open because thereâs no electricity, the walk-in is broken, and thereâs no gas in the ovens, so syd improvises an outside grill is just fantastic use of character development and showcasing sydâs skills
marcus sitting in a spot where next season another memorable moment will happen with marcus and another line cook is kinda funny. probably not overtly planned by the writers or directors, but kinda fitting
marcus saying heard as carmy tells him that the job is insane and it can go from chill to unchill in a second and so thatâs why heâs gotta stay up on his work. but we know (whoâve seen it) that marcus did not actually âhearâ what carmy said.
carmy saying that he started a fire the night he won food & wineâs best new chef, and then says âyou have a moment where you think âif i donât do anything this place will burn down and all my anxiety with itââ is more indication of carmyâs twisted love of his own misery
âone last drug dealâ to get them out of their money hole would have been a bigger storyline in lesser hands. but the nuanced, B storyline it has, allows it to just be a reality that happens in the background of a lot of shops around the US to stay afloat
the amount of chefs i know who at one point went into catering instead of staying in a kitchen is kinda wild. it seems like an alternative of a food truck. the âi donât have enough money to open a brick and mortar spot, but i want to do my own thingâ path. and the right caterer can be fire
god, syd waking up in the middle of the night with an idea for a dish so she writes it down because she has to is soâŚ.just soâŚ.true. i have so many notebooks filled with shit that has absolutely no value outside of a shop.
but it is the origin of the cola braised short ribs that will go alongside our risotto! the origins of the cursed dish is growing!
i love this episode so much! and i love how this later half of the season spreads itself around the members of the kitchen more than just carmy. heâs the anchor and the focal point, but thereâs so much depth to explore the rest of the crew of the beef. iâm excited for next episode and the rest of the season!
Season One: Episode One | Episode Two | Episode Three | Episode Four | Episode Six | Episode Seven | Episode Eight
Season Two:
#the bear#the bear fx#the bear hulu#carmy berzatto#carmen berzatto#the bear tv#sydney the bear#sydney adamu#the bear series#tina the bear#the bear review#the bear season 1
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Trying to get back into writing so here's a lil snippet to my AU where Grian disappeared after the dragon fight in EVO, but the reason is not what most people think. This is a Martyn POV. IDK how to write Martyn so hope this is ok lol.
"This is a bad idea" They say, voice clear and crisp in agreement, but Martyn still hears the layering of many voices that reveals their true nature. Regardless of their warnings he presses on towards the tall spiraling tower. It's not particularly pretty too look at and Martyn can imagine Grian complaining about it being so ugly that it's impressive. "Well some of you were on board earlier. Changed your minds?" "We can't help you once you're ins_" The voice fades until it's completely silent the moment he breaches the entrance. "Yeah. I know." he says to himself, a nervous exhale escaping him.
As he walks up the spindly staircase, he tries to focus on what to say instead of the possibility of the steps beneath him breaking away. It's strange to see a Watcher tower on such a large public server when to his recollection he's only really seen them back on EVO. It already looks quite different, although he doesn't know if the outlier is this server or if EVO was. Perhaps both because any story he's heard of Watchers being physically present on servers have either been about older worlds or EVO. Although you never quite know what kind of wild things are happening on some private servers. He's glad he managed to find the clues pointing to this server and that it was a public one. Though now with his heart in his throat as he sees the end of the staircase it's difficult to feel happy about it. If it wasnât for his own stubbornness and believing this would aid him in finding Grian he would have never walked into one of these cursed towers.
âA player, how unexpected. Is that Martyn LittleWood? Mhh, it does look like him. Little Wood Who? Yâknow from EVO. From what? How have you not heard of EVO?!â If he thought the Watchers of EVO was headache inducing then these were tenfolds that. Thereâs way too many voices overlapping and talking to each other, not synchronized well enough to have a clear voice or seemingly to even speak as one. âWhat do you want?â The figure standing before him also seems larger than what he remembers them being, and even in his memory of the Watchers they were taller than any other players he's seen. Just like their voices seemed more de-synchronized than normal, so did their overall figure. Watchers were usually a little blurry at the edges. The way pictures can get when the camera lens fails to focus the colors to the same point. The one before him looked like someone had cranked up the chromatic aberration affect in an editing software on an already poorly taken picture
"What did you do to Grian? Where is he?" Martyn cringes a little of how he just went straight to the point he ended up going, but honestly he just wanted to be done with the interaction and out of the tower as soon as possible. Maybe he should have listened to the Listeners. "Grian... Indeed, where is he?"' "You would know. You Watchers were there on EVO. and not just watching!" The watcher stay quiet for a moment. Martyn has no clue how to read the amalgamation of overlapped faces that they consist of. Not that he looks them in the face much, it's impossible to focus on without getting either a headache or nauseated, or both. And that's just touching on the physical effects they cause. They suddenly laugh and Martyn can't help but feel a sense of dread wash over him. He's not really one to be scared of them, but he totally understand why others might be. "You believe those silly rumors that we have taken Grian?" "Are they really all that silly?" "Yes. Grian was the perfect subject to watch. So impulsive to act upon any little temptation put before him without a thought of the consequences. But still with a conscience to be effected by the consequences he brings upon his friends, the server, and thus himself. Why would we take away our own amusement?" Martyn would like to not believe them. The Watchers having taken Grian would be an answer to the mystery of his disappearance. But as they speak of Grian they seen more synchronized than earlier, and it makes sense. but.... if they really had nothing to do with it, was he back to square one? "Well you were there. What did you see? When it happened." "Why would we tell y- One second we were watching him and the next we were not. Why did you tell him that?! Why not?!" As the Watchers fight with themself he sneaks off to get out of the tower as quickly as possible. He's had enough of the horror show. Although they definitely seem a little less threatening when they are that out of sync.
He really was back to square one. Martyn thinks back to that day in the end. When he no longer saw Grian in the corner of his eye the logical thing had to believed the other had simply moved into a blind spot. That something had taken him out of Martyn's sight. If the statement from what the Watcher saw was true, had he really disappeared on the spot like that? In a way not even a watcher could see? Thinking about it, hadn't BigB said something similar to the Watcher? That one second he was talking to Grian and the next to nothing.
#martyn inthelittlewood#evo smp#evo watchers#inthelittlewood#the watchers#grian minecraft#I tried to limit the info I dumped about the watchers and the way they operate cause Martyn wouldn't know it - at least not at this point#but I did try to hint at it so feel free to talk to me about anything lol#martyn littlewood
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actually Iâm moving this to a new post because fuck it
okay so I finally looked at the reply, and
Even though there is no good way to prepare for a  neuropsychological evaluation, other than to get a good night sleep and  avoid feeling hungry, it is not unusual to feel as though you could have  done something more. In regards to the self-assessment tests you took  on-line, research has demonstrated that some of them result in high  false positive rates, which decreases the validity of the results (Sara  Jones, Maria Johnson, et al Autism Research and Treatment; Bram Sizoo,  EH Horowitz, et al Autism journal).  Other psychiatric diagnoses besides  autism can result in elevated scores on these self-tests.  Neurocognitive discrepancies and deficiencies frequently associated with  autism were not part of your pattern of test results. As I mentioned in  the report  you have symptoms consistent with autism but there isnt enough to reach  the severity of an autism diagnosis. The results in my opinion are more  accurately described by social anxiety, ADHD, and a persistent anxious  mood disturbance. I appreciate your desire to better understand yourself  and the test results and hope you are also able to discuss these  questions with your therapist as well.
a) maybe Iâm overly sensitive (...fine, Iâm almost certain Iâm overly sensitive) but this feels patronizing b) part of my entire point in sending self-test results and discussing additional things that didnât come up in the interview was to point out, hey, I have potentially new information that didnât come up in the interview so maybe the evaluation should be reconsidered, at least a little bit, in light of that new information? and this basically sounds like âno, Iâve already decided your social difficulties are based on anxiety and new information doesnât affect that because the cognitive tests donât indicate autism.â
in some ways, I donât know, maybe I shouldnât find this upsetting because itâs not like they came back saying Iâm neurotypical, they did confirm the ADHD so thatâs something, especially because it's been pretty destabilizing the way my prescriber has always been kind of half-hearted about it (âyeah you fit the criteria but also itâs not a severe case, everybody forgets things sometimes, hmm wait youâre not responding to stimulant meds so maybe itâs not ADHD after all and I should change my diagnosis, idkâ). and since thereâs so much symptom overlap between ADHD, anxiety, and autism, maybe it shouldnât matter that I only have a diagnosis for two of the three.
but it feels like--if itâs social anxiety, itâs on me to fix it. I have to work on it, and expose myself more, and put myself out there, and do exhausting shit that kind of makes me want to cry just thinking about it, and maybe if I work hard enough and burn myself out learning every social cue ever, Iâll eventually stop fucking up and manage to be normal, and maybe friends will stop ghosting me. Iâm sure the healthier way to look at that is that itâs fixable and I should feel empowered to do something about it, but I donât, I just feel exhausted and overwhelmed because Iâm being asked to do something I donât have the energy to do.
if Iâm autistic, Iâm...never going to be normal. I have to mask in certain settings, but the healthiest thing is to not mask as much as possible, to try to be authentic, whatever that ends up meaning. Thatâs...not necessarily good, because as I understand it a lot of people only like the mask, but at least that might mean itâs not my fault that people keep ghosting me, you know?
I donât know, Iâm probably looking at this all wrong because I just do that, because at this point my brain is so fucking rewired by depression I donât know how to fix that either, but it feels like if itâs all social anxiety, any problems I have are my fault unless I put in the effort to fake everything, using energy I donât have...whereas if Iâm autistic, at least then maybe itâs not my fault, maybe Iâm not already automatically wrong because itâs just how I am.
oh. and I did cancel my appointment with my prescriber. but I for sure do need to reschedule that one, because unlike my therapist I have her assistant actually calling back to arrange rescheduling something, plus you know I need to keep having appointments to keep refilling my prescriptions. only I still donât want to. and I donât really want to reschedule with my therapist either. probably I need to find a new therapist but just the thought of starting that process also makes me want to cry, so thatâs not super great either
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Hello! Thoughts on Robin Jason? Personally love Barr's run and how he writes him :) and also what do you think should be done to his current character? How should he grow? It sucks that RH was written as a temporary mantle for him (and he'd briefly??? Lost it for a good few issues post countdown to final crisis) and now he's sort of in this limbo position in the narrative. Would love to hear ur thoughts! Thanks!
Hello! Yes, my thoughts are on robin Jason. I also like Barrâs robin! I donât think he is the only good Jason writer, one of my fav robin Jason moments is a post death flashback where heâs wearing a robin suit with snow pants and throwing snowballs at his opponents. Itâs so little boy charming.
I am not a starlin enjoyer. 100 wealthy republicans died and it never gets brought up again but that would be their 9/11. Even the cult, which is enjoyable, is goofy because of the death toll. Flocks of vultures would have their migratory flight paths forever altered to make a pit stop in Gotham because of the generational memory of the carrion created by starlin alone.
Wingman and the secret ID and why Bruce wanted him to join Batman inc and why Jason said yes and the memory of the dead alt Bruce who gave Jason the RR suit is something so chewable.
I really like red hood as a name for Jason and I donât want him to leave it. I donât live for the hoodie muzzle but over time Iâve accepted what I cannot change -_-
Zdarsky had jason out his guns up in Cheer and it was like okay DC does not want to be associated with making impressionable teens think gun violence is cool. And then he has them again.
I donât think jasonsâs drifting feeling is because of his moral conflict, because moral conflicts are interesting. They drive stories. He just doesnât have a book. And because he doesnât have a book he can be added to anyone who wants to add him and they can pretty much make him do whatever they want, so heâs inconsistent.
Task force Z was a way of Jason conflicting with Bruce ideologically without it being a revert. Idk itâs just been happening since brothers in blood, picking up winicks cool toy and making him stupid/crazy/have flimsy morals. I donât wanna sound like Iâm huffing winicks ink he has his problems, but winick written Jason just clearly has so much more Meat even when superficially whatâs happening with him is similar. Im sorry Iâm an old head and like older comics more than newer ones, winick is never going to write Jason again and I donât want him to.
I think itâs a really big mistake to be like âJason doesnât fit anywhere he doesnât have any nicheâ. His niche is that I like him, and even without being willing to kill his morals are different and he can be used to tell different stories, he just needs a writer that respects him (and I donât mean agrees with uth Jasonâs morals) to pick him up again. Tfz wasnât only about Jason but likeâŚ.
People parrot âJason doesnât have a niche other characters fill his roleâ point and itâs to me like a self-defeating argument because other characterS (emphasis plural) overlap with Jason and that overlap removes Jasonâs raison dâĂŞtre, why donât the other multiple characters cancel eachother out, only Jason? Itâs just a longer worse way of saying âidk I donât like himâ
Sorry this just became negative đ the only thing Jason needs to have a position in the narrative is to have a writer that respects him and takes him seriously and comes up with a plot heâs a pivotal part of. He has, since before heâs been robin, been a driving force for the plot like Jason leaves when he doesnât like something and he goes toward things he thinks could be better.
My kingdom for anyone on screen trying to understand Jason, and meet him where heâs at instead of the other way around, and for it to blow up in their faces and not work out but come out of the other side changed. If that makes any sense.
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itâs been a hot minute since i went on a rant tumblr style so hi everybody gather round and sit in a circle criss cross apple sauce style or donât itâs your life you could sit handstand style or not sit at all and jog in place
did j say this was a rant? yes! but rant feels angry to me and this is just yap central /neutral Even /pos at times maybe
the insta close friends already know about how much i yearn for music back but O MY GODDDD i donât think i realized how much of my life it took up until it was gone. literally every other residence building has a practice room with a piano EXCEPT clare, we have a study lounge which is for studying and not music and i have to trek to a different res if i want to sing or play songs??? fucked up. my phone also most definitely knows how much i want music back because itâs like. the only thing on my fyp rn and itâs maybe a little torturous because if i wasnât a little bit of a coward that could be me in another life but shhh
also though when i say i want music back i donât mean the way it was (senior year esp) because the people i was playing music WITH âŚ. not very nice or very good and lowkey made me dread music which is insane and not the way it should work! (except you red40 i love you, thabk you for being not dread time) but now having a couple of months of freedom i miss it??? like sorry nerdcore nerd alert but getting harmonies right and putting a full show together and being in a theatre all day running choreo or blocking is SO FUN. the process can be frustrating but the dopamine hit after is sososo worth it. idk i just miss being onstage and backstage and in rehearsal and UGHHH itâs fine and cool that iâll never put myself that fully into performing again :)
emo time is done i think and now i get to yap about how much i loveloveLOVE my classes rn and how much i love it when the material overlaps in diff subjects and everything iâm learning actually comes together and i get why and how things happen (shoutout clifton strengths #context) eeee and all my professors actually love the subjects they teach and they all know soo much and everyone in class (mostly) wants to actually learn about the things we learn. even my textbooks as much as i complain about the amount of readings is fun because itâs things i want to know more about and i get to read about! also the classes themselves can be so unserious and it makes uni feel just a little bit less scary!
for example i have this one class where i just learn about rocks for two hours a week and experiment with rocks for another two hours!!!! thatâs so cool!!!! and because the class is aimed at ppl not in stem, thereâs like no math involved which is so perfect bc. well! imm not in stem! the prof and ta are both so lovely tbh even if i am still slightly scared of them. next week is our review lab before the midterm test and the ta was like guys pls actually come review because iâm getting pizza and snacks (also to celebrate how well our lab section is doing)
like that is SO nice he didnât have to do that but he is! and thatâs the attitude of every prof, ta, don, and soph iâve come across so far.
what else can i yap about. i think iMm done being a keyboard warrior for today and i OH MY GOD I CAN WATCH DEAD POETS SOCIETY OKAY BYEE
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IT'S FINALLY HERE! I'M DONE!! I will never stop repeating how this had 3 major rewrites, 4 different versions, and 6 title changes because Wow was this ardous to write. Anyway, this is the second story whose intro used to be merged with New Year's Wishes -- you can probably tell by the overlapping timeline. I just didn't want the whole thing to go to waste and all. Now, time to ramble!
The 4 different versions and 7 title changes were:
Serious Grown-Up Talk (first draft was a solo play-by-post; it's very different from this)
Victims of Circumstance (draft for class; my prof said the title was eh)
House of Glass (final draft for class; my prof thought it was a too-obvious allusion to glasshouses which, hilariously, it wasn't LMAO but the fact that he thought it was is already a problem. The story used to have a lot of weird misplaced glass metaphors. It was kind of a miracle that it got a 78/B+ because I would've given myself a lower grade)
Glass Cabinet (pending title as I abandoned the story for like 4 months)
The Space Between Us (the final final draft; title was taken from a new line I wrote near the end)
The Cracks Between Us (because I realised 'The Space Between Us' was a movie lmao)
Here Now (the final title! I think this version is a lot better than the draft I submitted for my assignment, largely because I actually don't hate it)
I feel really stupid for not jumping straight to Here Now. Gavrill's speech at the end was directly taken from this comic which was called, well, Here Now. So I really don't know why I didn't just name the story that off the bat HAHAHAHA
By writing this as my assignment, I knew I was setting myself up for failure. Developing 4 characters and the dynamics between them in about 3500 words through dialogue is not great! (Dialogue's a pretty inefficient way to move a story along) I think I made each character distinct enough in personality though, especially in terms of how the 3 kids respond to their dad being back.
Something that's also funny is how Leyna's voice (Gavrill's wife) disappeared in the House of Glass version. I didn't want to add to the word count, and she didn't really add too much to the story. But for Sparrow Flight, I needed to establish the gimmick of her voice (or rather, Gavrill's imagination/memories of what she may say or do). Also, I do like how Leyna's presence shows how Gavrill really does rely on her. :)
It was also very intentional for Leyna's moments to be formatted very differently. She uses an em-dash instead of speech marks (which, I learned in class, used to be a thing in the past) and all her segments are centred. I really wanted to give the feeling that she does not belong in the world and transcends the reality that the story is rooted in since she's, well, dead.
Ok ramble done. I should really get to doing other things! Next story's super short I think so maybe I'll post it in a few days time idk
Here Now
[3715 words, 20 minutes]
1 January 2017 Winnipeg, Canada
The father walks the long way to the house that is not his own. He couldâve told the taxi to drop him at the door. Instead, he stops it at an intersection and it drives on without him.
In the 4am winter night, the father has no reason to fear anyone seeing him. The streets of this dingy neighbourhood are empty except for wet, brown snow that collects the deep footprints of strangers. The father has no reason to fear anyone robbing him. His pockets are light. They only hold an empty wallet, an expired driverâs licence, and a dead cell phone. And yet, the absence of life leaves room for imaginary danger. The fatherâs blue eyes stare down pockets of darkness, his tense legs ever ready to sprint.
He avoids the straight path that leads to his destination. Instead, he circles the housing block like a frantic bird, riding his own wings of instinct governed by survival, anxiety, and death. His metronome heart sets his quick pace, and when he makes the final turn that brings his destination into view, his heart drums to the swell of fear and excitement.
His eyes now squint in the dying light of sparse streetlamps, and he whispers to himself house numbers he passes in the language of a stranger. He stops at a small house. Its front has a door, a window with blinds, and a broken bulb with frozen cobwebs. Before the door is a wooden deck with stairs. Rusted nails barely hold the planks in place.
He walks up the stairs to the door and raises a fist to knock.
Fuck. No oneâs going to be awake. God, Iâm a fool. Got too excitedâ
Movement, through the crack beneath the door. It sparks the warm memory of the padded pit-pat of small, socked feet on hardwood floor. The father trembles. He doesnât know if itâs from cold, excitement, or fear. He knocks before he decides.
The pit-pats are real now. He can hear them: larger, heavier, but undoubtedly theirs. The window blinds fold to form a peephole. The lock clicks, the door swings open, and the father stares down at an almost mirror image of himself. The same messy black hair, the same weary eyes: his eldest child, better than him in every way.
They speak in the language of family. âPapa?â
The eldest child throws themselves at their father, nearly knocking him off the stairs. He canât help but laugh as he picks them off the snow, warmth bubbling out of him into his tight embrace. His child is taller and stronger now â an adult by all definitions. But to him, as they bury their face into their fatherâs chest, theyâre still so small, so light, so easy to tear away from him like before.
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It has been a year since the siblings have lived in this house together. The eldest, Hrodwyn, left Auntie Elmiraâs care at the orphanage when they turned eighteen. They had saved up enough from their two jobs, and the two jobs continued to be enough for rent. Their two siblings followed them: their sixteen-year-old brother Merethel who always kept his long, black hair swept over his right eye, and their twelve-year-old sister Hygd who always kept a smile on her face. Auntie Elmira let them leave. She knew they were inseparable, and their father was relieved that they were.
It has been ten years since their father was wrongly sent to prison. On the red-blue night of his arrest at their doorstep, Hygd was two and wailing, Merethel was six and scared, and Hrodwyn was nine and bold. Hrodwyn heard the officers yell âGavrill Vorobyevâ over and over, watched them slam their pleading father against a car, and felt their siblings shatter in their arms. As the officers drove their father away, Hrodwyn knew it was now their responsibility to protect their family. They knew it was now their responsibility to fix all the broken pieces their father left behind, even if it meant pricking their own fingers.
In the mornings following their father Gavrillâs return, Hrodwyn made sure every piece of the siblingsâ lives were meticulously organised like glass figurines on display. Nervously, they presented their father their handiwork within the cabinet of cutleries and Tupperwares, the closet of detergent and cleaning supplies, the fridge door of schedules and chores. All this order balanced on a rickety shelf Hrodwyn had built; all this order came crashing down in days to make room for Gavrill.
At first, Gavrill did not see this as a problem. He saw no problem at all â he was finally free, and his senses flared with life. He relished the touch of warm skin instead of thin paper, savoured the sound of rich voices instead of broken static. And with every chip and crack he felt between him and his children, an echo of his wifeâs voice would comfort him:
âYouâre here now, she would say, and thatâs all that matters.
But it did not take long for reality to slip through the cracks of his ignorance. That was what he got for dancing around âHow did you get out of prison?â â that was how he began stepping on his childrenâs broken pieces.
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4 February 2017
âPa, pa.â
Gavrill jolts awake on the couch. Foreign babble plays to colourful cartoon ponies running across the television screen.
âAh, sorry pa,â Hrodwyn whispers in the language of family, Ingush â Gavrill ensured Auntie Elmira taught them when he was in prison. âDo you want lunch? I was going to heat up the stew you brought home last night.â
Gavrill rubs his eyes. Yesterday, his new job called him to an orientation in Rio de Janeiro. He bought the stew before he flew back. âSounds good. We should finish that soon. It smelled great! I think you will all like it.â
Hrodwyn smiles politely. âIâm sure we will.â
Gavrill stands up. He sees Hygd at the foot of the couch, knees tucked to her chest as she watches the cartoon. He looks around for Merethel and doesnât find him â heâs probably studying in Gavrillâs bedroom, the only other room with a table. Hrodwyn is already in front of the fridge: a Tetris map of new groceries, wilting vegetables, and takeout boxes. They move the stew containers from the fridge to the microwave, then drift from the kitchen to Gavrillâs bedroom. A minute later, they return with Merethel grumbling behind them.
The microwave beeps. Gavrill opens it, but Hrodwyn beats him in removing the containers, slipping past him with an âitâs okayâ. They place the containers on the bar table that divides the kitchen and the living room. Merethel catches a sniff of it and speaks in English.
âWow, this smells good,â he dips his pinky into the side to taste it. âAnd itâs not spoiled!â
âOf course not,â Gavrill responds in Ingush. He brings one container to Hygd and sits next to her. âI wouldnât feed you spoiled food.â
Merethel raises an eyebrow.. He takes a spoon from the drawer and the container of stew.
âHey,â Hrodwyn says in Ingush. They sit across Gavrill. âDonât go back to papaâs room. Eat here.â
âWhat? Why?â
âBecause youâre always there,â Hygd says, also in English.
Merethel curls his lip. âAnd?â
âHey, no English,â Hrodwyn reminds their siblings, who comply.
Hygd tries drinking the stew straight from the container and burns her tongue. âPapaâs been asking you to eat together with us, like, every day. Donât you hear him?âÂ
âWell, Iâm sorry, but are you studying for a scholarship?â Merethel sets his stew down with a huff and sits across her. âI thought so.â
âHey, come on,â Gavrill says. âBe nice to your sister. Can you get a spoon for her, please?â
âShe can get it herself.â
Hygd frowns. âBut youâre closer! Theyâre on your side!â
âCome on,â Gavrill sighs.
Merethel grumbles. âWhy do you want me to give her a spoon so badâOW!â
Hygd had kicked him underneath the bar table. He retorts by trying to kick her back, but she tucks her legs out of reach. Merethel kicks her chair instead. It screeches against the floor. Hygd grins at her fuming brother. He growls and tries again.
âHey-hey! Enough!â Gavrill yells then bites his tongue. Shit, too harsh? He lightens up. "Donât be like that. Just pass her a spoon, please. And one for myself as well."
The two ignore him and continue scrabbling. With a sigh, Hrodwyn clears their throat and glares. Only then do their siblings stop. A second glare makes Merethel pass a spoon to his father and sister. A third isnât needed to make Hygd smile sweetly and thank him.
Fragile silence falls on the table. Gavrill tries to tread across it carefully towards his children.
âWell, this is nice. Um,â he smiles and looks at Hrodwyn. âIâm glad you got off your shifts today. I think this is the first time weâve had lunch together!â
âYeah! It took, like, a month,â Hygd tilts her head to Gavrill. âAnd you still havenât told us what your new job is!âÂ
Merethel scoffs. âOr what kind of company can hire a man out of jail.â
âHey, Iââ Gavrill opens his hands. âThose questions can wait until later. Why donât you guys tell me about school?â
âUgh, itâs boring stuff compared to what youâre doing! I think,â Hygd mixes her stew. âWhy donât you wanna tell us?â
âYeah, pa,â Merethel says. âWhy donât you? Youâve had your orientation. You should know enough about your job to tell us about it now, right?â
âHow was Rio? Did you see any birds?â Hygd swings her feet.
âIt was very nice,â Gavrill smiles at her and folds his arms. âVery hot. But uh, the food was good! And there were little birds on the street. Oh! I forgot I got the three of you keychainsââ
A loud slam and screech interrupts the conversation. Merethel had pushed his chair back. He stands up. âIâm going to my room.â
Hrodwyn tugs his sleeve. âHeyââ
âDonât touch me,â he spits in English and yanks his arm away. âIf he doesn't even want to talk about something normal like a job, what the hell else can we talk about?â
âOkay, okay, Iâll talk about it!â Gavrill shocks himself with his tone. He offsets it with a smile. âItâs fine. Itâs not a big deal. Come, sit, sit. You want to know what kind of company got me home, right?â
He gestures towards the empty chair. Merethel narrows his eyes and remains standing. The two other siblings also look at Gavrill in anticipation. His open mouth runs dry.
Helvetia Ltd. A private military contractor working for an R&D consultation firm funded by the G20. A company of hounds with global reach and infinite pay. A company that operates in the dark, hidden between the lines of conspiracy theories.
âA big company,â Gavrill finally decides. âPowerful, obviously, and they know Iâm innocent, so they got me out. In exchange, I get a job right out of prison. And I get to be with all of you again!â
Merethel switches to Ingush, making sure his father understands him. âVery descriptive, pa.â
He storms off to the siblingsâ shared bedroom. Hrodwyn reaches for him. Gavrill sighs and waves for them to stop. The bedroom door slams shut, and the two remaining siblings are left to contemplate their fatherâs response. They swallow it with lunch.
Soon, Hygdâs eyes creep to Merethelâs half-eaten stew, then to the hallway he vanished off to. She slides off her seat and picks up his stew with both hands.
âHe still needs to eat.â
Her small feet shuffle down the hallway. Once she disappears around the corner, Gavrill deflates, burying his head in his hands. Hrodwyn stirs their stew.
âAre you not going to tell them anything?
Gavrill sighs as he picks himself back up. âIâm not going to tell any of you anything you donât need to know.â
Hrodwyn leans towards him. âPa, you can tell me. Iâm an adult now. I can take it.â
He looks at his child, the bags beneath their eyes, and shakes his head. âItâs fine, really. Itâs a good job with good pay. Contract-based, so Iâll be home most days. Donât worry about it.â
Hrodwynâs voice is quiet, fraught. âThen at least tell me you know who framed you. Were they caught?â
âNo. And I donât know who or where they are.â
âWhat? Then how does the company know youâre innocent? Did they reopen the case?â
âI donât know.â
Gavrill continues eating his stew with downcast eyes. Hrodwyn stares at him. âWhy arenât you worried? That guy is still out there. What if you get framed again?â
âI donât think thatâs going to happen.â
âHow do you know for sure?â
âItâs fine. Trust me.â
âDid the company tell you something?â
Gavrill closes his eyes and sighs. âLook. When I got arrested, the court said that they were going to lock me up until they found the real culprit. Ten years passed. No one figured it out. Theyâve all moved on from that and Iâve moved on from that, too. Iâm just glad I got out in the first place. Thatâs all.â
Hrodwyn is quiet for some time. âWill you tell me why you got hired? Is it because of something you did in Ingushetia?â
Gavrill stops eating. âWhat makes you think that?â
âI remember how you fought against Russians. I remember how mama died. Itâs why we moved here, isnât it? And now you have this strange job you donât want to tell us aboutââ
A rap on the door interrupts them. Gavrill, relieved, quickly leaves the table. He peeks through the blinds, frowns, and cracks the door open. Wind cuts into his face. He looks down. A large package sits atop fresh snow. Its only identification is a tag taped onto it: âHROTHGARâ. The name his wife once gave him. The name he now gave Helvetia. Footprints trail away from the package to the road where it meets fresh tire tracks. No vehicle is in sight.
He scowls. He grabs the package, dusts snow off, slams the door shut, and locks it. Before Hrodwyn can see it, he rips off the tag and shreds it, pocketing the strips.
âDo you need help with it?â Hrodwyn tilts their head. âIt looks big.â
âNo, itâs fine. I think itâs from work. Do you have a cutter?âÂ
Hrodwyn hands him a pair of scissors. He carries the package and the scissors into his bedroom and closes the door. Large luggages and old boxes are spread across the floor. Their contents, the salvaged pieces of a happier life once lived, have yet to be organised into wardrobes, sorted into shelves, or fitted into photo frames. Gavrill has no time or energy to. Theyâre not his childrenâs â they arenât as important.
Gavrill pushes the luggages and boxes aside with his foot. He drops the package in the space he made. He sits on the floor, raises his hand, and plunges the scissors into cardboard.
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The package contains Gavrillâs uniform: a three-piece navy suit with a golden tie and a pair of black oxfords, and a durable coat designed for urban environments. The suit feels too expensive to bend his arms in. He tries wearing it without creasing the fabric. It takes a long time â long enough for his two children to knock on his door: Hrodwyn who stared in confusion, and Hygd who brimmed in awe.
By then, Gavrill still had not worn the entire uniform â he had forgotten how to tie a tie. He could count the number of times he has done it in his life on his hands, with all but one count being for court hearings. So Hygd gets to work. She pulls her father out into the living room and opens a YouTube tutorial. Time passes. Hrodwynâs and Hygdâs fussing grows louder without them coming any closer to their goal. Their commotion annoys Merethel enough for him to bring out his own tie for a snarky demonstration. Soon, all three siblings end up circling their father for final touches: fitting the golden tie, tightening the vest, and smoothening the suit as Gavrill stands stiff like a Christmas tree.
When theyâve finished, Hygd steps back to look at her father like a panel judge. She watches Hrodwyn attach the final piece: Helvetiaâ lapel pin bearing a cross in a shield. Hrodwyn steps back to join their sister. Gavrill remains frozen in place.
âI feel so embarrassed.â
âWhy?â Hygd grins. âYou look cool!â
âDo I?â he looks at his other two children with an uncertain but small smile. My daughter called me cool.
"You look⌠expensive. Very expensive," Hrodwyn gazes at the suit's double vents, the trousers cut to the curve of Gavrillâs legs, and the hand-stitched buttons. "How much did this cost, pa?"
"More than the suit I rented for my own wedding, that's for sure,â he grumbles. In a clearer tone, "I don't know. The company covered it. But what looks wrong?"
"You don't look comfortable in it. It shows.â
"When was the last time you combed your hair?â Merethel adds. âOr got a haircut?"
Gavrill grimaces. "I didnât need to touch a comb or cut my hair back there. I only trimmed it now and then. Is it that bad?â
Merethel is quick. âYes.â
Hygd punches his arm.
âItâs not that bad,â Hrodwyn taps their chin, âbut if you did something to your hair, you can look more professional.â
"Oh! Wait, pa, sit, sit," Hygd drags her father to the couch and forces him to sit. She crawls behind him, kneels, and gently combs through his lightly greying hair with her fingers. A spare yellow hair tie comes off her wrist. She bunches his hair together. "Too tight?"
He shakes his head. "What are you doing?"
"Tying a bun," she does so expertly with a quick twist, then jumps off the couch to look at him. She grins at the team effort. âPa! You look like a thousand bucks! Here, here.â
She grabs her fatherâs hand, which squeezes hers in return, and leads him into the siblingsâ bedroom. Hrodwyn and Merethel follow behind. She turns on the lights and pulls him in front of the chipped mirror mounted on the wardrobe door. âWhat do you think, pa?â
Gavrill stares at his reflection. His smile dissolves. He doesnât recognise himself. He only recognises Agent Hrothgar, Helvetiaâs newly hired murderer, wrapped in a gallant lie of navy blue as he stands in the bedroom of children.Â
Hygd smiles brightly. âSo..?â
Hrodwyn notices his stare. âWhatâs wrong, pa?â
If he doesnât recognise himself, will his children recognise him? After a job that hails bullets and shrapnels at his body and his mind, after he returns too splintered to shield them from the truth, will they recognise him as their father? He can try to convince them. He can try to be the best father he can be to erase the decade when he wasnât. He can try to pretend that heâll never leave them again, that heâll always be there for them, that heâll cut himself wrapping his splinters to hold them tight and never let them shatter into pieces againâ
âOur children are smart. You can only do so much to protect them, Gav. How would you rather them find out? Her smile would sadden. With a voice full of conviction, she would say: âDonât you have enough regrets?
Gavrill looks away from his reflection. His eyes drift to his children.
âYou need to know about my job. Can we talk?â
Gavrill sits on Merethelâs bed, next to Hrodwynâs and Hygdâs bunk bed. He pats his side. The siblings, surprised by his directness, move to sit next to him.
He twiddles his thumbs. "This job I have, it's... dangerous. The company is even more dangerous. They have a lot of power, a lot of money,â he tugs at his three-piece suit. âThey were able to pay my bail and hire me out of, well, you know, in exchange for my⌠skills. And Iââ he hesitates, âI canât leave unlessâŚ"
âYou die,â Hrodwyn states.
Gavrill pauses, then nods. Their delivery stings.Â
The room falls silent. Hygd curls into a ball. Merethel tries masking his nerves.
"Ah, well, it's like, uh, working for the military then, right? There's always a high chance of death, and it's a risk some people with families take."
Gavrillâs voice is soft, defeated. "I'm sorry."
âItâs fine. Itâs⌠whatever,â Merethel looks away. âItâs not like youâve never been gone before.â
Gavrill winces and opens his mouth. Hrodwyn interrupts him. âDonât apologise. You had no choice and you did what you had to do. They were never going to reopen your case. There will never be another option for you besides this one.â
Gavrill hates how he sees himself in his childâs placid eyes.
"What should we know about the job?â Hrodwyn continues. âWhat do we have to do?"
"I'll be here until the company calls me. Whatever they tell me to do, no matter how dangerous, I must follow. The company also has enemies. Keep the blinds closed, donât let strangers in, never enter the house when someoneâs watching, and always tell each other where you are, hmm?" he raises his phone. "If somethingâs wrong, call me or Auntie. Don't let anyone in the house. You still have Auntieâs phone number, yes?"
The children nod.
âGood. And lastly,â he voice softens and he wraps his arms around his children, "don't worry about me. I will always do my best to come home to you. I may get hurt, but I will always come home. Okay? My fight is to go back home to you, no matter what."
He pulls them in closer. The cracks between them remain but in this moment, the family is whole.
"I am here now. And I swear by my last dying breath, I will never, ever, let anything take us apart again."
Hygd picks her head up from her tucked knees. âPromise?â
Gavrill hooks his pinky with all his childrenâs and smiles. He cuts himself with his words and hopes it never heals.
âI promise.â
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About the Flight
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Call Me By My Name-Pietro Maximoff x Powers!Reader
(GIF credit to @dailymarvelpostsâ)
Tags: @bloodorangemoonlightâ @amirahiddlestonâ
Requested by @husherstanâ : âcould you write a one w pietro maximoff? idk if you know about a trend on tik tok where a gf or bf call them partners by they first name. Reader and Pietro are enemies cuz them both are always trying to be the best of t team, reader calls him by others names and when she (or gn) calls by him real name he was like "why are you calling me like that? whats wrong with you? are you feeling bad today?" (and he likes her so fucking much, a simp)â
Characters: Pietro Maximoff x Reader, Avengers team x Reader
Meanings: (Y/N)=Your name Â
(Character has the power of force fields, that both generate electricity and provide protection for them/others)Â Â
Warnings: Name calling, bullying, arguing, fluff
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âFor the last time, watch where youâre going Speedy Gonzales!â I snapped as Pietro almost knocked me over again.
His form whizzed around the room once more before stopping in front of me.âMaybe try keeping up next time.â
I was startled by the force he left behind as he ran off again making a show of circling the entire training room multiple times, creating a small wave of air. I groaned loudly as I went back to jogging. He was such a show off, it infuriated me. We werenât here to compete against each other, we were supposed to be a team; but when he waltzed around the place boasting about how fast he was, it was really hard not to step up to the plate.Â
Pietro was running faster than usual, trying to overlap me dozens of times, more than he would have done in a normal session. It got on my last nerve, making me stop, my powers already flowing through my arms. It would be hard to pinpoint him, so I charged up a huge ball of electricity, casting it out harshly. I just managed to catch him, laughing as he yelped out in surprise, being thrown high into the air before landing on the sparring mats. I saw him slowly get up, clearly I had caused some pain. My fun was soon ended as he ran towards me again, having to quickly put up a force field that would protect me. Pietro bounced off it, though I hadnât put any charge in this one, so he only fell on his backside.
âEnough!â Wanda yelled out, though we still kept our guard up around each other.âReally (Y/N)? You can relax now.â
âI donât trust him.â I replied.
She sighed.âCome on, Steve wants to talk about the mission.â
âWhy? We debriefed three days ago.â
âSomething to do with it being on the news.â she shrugged, walking away.
Pietro glanced back at me, looking me up and down before following his sister. However, he didnât look at me with disgust or anything of the sort, it was almost as if he was checking me out. I tutted at myself, why on Earth would he ever look at me like that?
I wasnât happy joining the meeting in my sweaty state.Everyone else was dressed and put together, but at least Pietro looked similar. The team was gathered around a table, looking to Steve who was stood at the front, his arms crossed over his chest. He had the look of disappointment on his face, which meant bad news for the rest of us...or whoever was in trouble. With no seats left, I copied Steveâs stance at the back of the room, rolling my eyes when Pietro stood beside me.
âSorry to call you guys in on such short notice.â Steve started.âBut I feel that we have to discuss something thatâs starting to effect the team.â
He pulled up a screen showing the news. It had images and videos of our last mission. We were raiding an old factory on the edge of the city, finding a terrorist group hiding out there as they worked on their gadgets. News coverage showed the team fighting from a helicopter view, and we were all confused as to why Steve was showing us this.
âFastest man alive,â Pietro repeated what the reporter said,âit has a nice ring to it.â
âI wouldnât put that in your Tinder bio.â I quipped, causing a few chuckles.
Steve looked at me.âAnd this is why weâre here today.â
I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion.âWhat?â
âYou and Pietro are always at each otherâs throats. Itâs...well frankly, itâs exhausting listening to you two arguing all the time. And it could seriously put someone in danger whilst on a mission, even you two.â
âHe always starts it-â
Pietro held up a finger.âHold on, you do too-â
âYouâre just proving his point guys.â Natasha spoke over us.
âAs I was saying,â Steve brought the attention back to him,âthe media has also caught onto this. Thereâs multiple images of you two clearly arguing, or even getting in each others way during the mission. At one point, youâre both trying to save the same person, but almost miss that chance because youâre so invested in being better than the other!â
Steve was really mad, and from everyone elseâs faces, they thought the same thing.
âSo until all of this changes, you two are suspended from any missions.â
âWhat?!â we both exclaimed.
âAnd you may not approach any other team member for assistance with training.â
âWhy are we both being punished?â I demanded to know.
âOh, do not play the victim here Mrs Incredible!â Pietro snapped.
âMrs Incredible is super stretchy, itâs the daughter who has the same powers as me, you idiot!â
âSee? Youâre further showing me that I made the right decision. I felt bad at first, but now I know that this is the right direction to go in.â Steve raised his voice.âYouâre both dismissed.â
âWell, what are the rest of you doing?â Pietro dared to ask.
âWe are going to go over all the planning we have done for upcoming missions. Everything has to change because of you two. Now please go.â
I held it together as I left the room, not wanting to appear like a toddler stomping away in a tantrum. It was impossible to get away from Pietro, what with him being âthe fastest man aliveâ, but I was going to try. I didnât need another argument right now, I was upset, needed to be alone. Apparently, I wasnât going to get that.
âLeave me alone.â I warned Pietro as he followed me.
âI canât believe this! Theyâve kicked us off the team because you always have to say something-â
âI donât want to talk about it.â
âAnd to think, theyâre going to risk not having me on the team. I help them with everything, Iâm a crucial part-â
âPietro!â I shouted, spinning on my heel to face him.Â
His eyes widened at that, glancing down to my clenched up fists, little electric sparks running over them, before looking me in my teary eyes.Â
I sighed, relaxing my tense shoulders and hands before leaving. There was no point trying to explain. He wouldnât understand. We would both get mad, probably fight, the team would have to break us up; I had no energy to do that. Slowly turning away, I was surprised by the silence that followed, Pietro didnât even follow me.Â
I checked the time on the lock screen of my phone, seeing that an hour had passed since I fled from Pietro. It also made me realise how dark the room had become, the sun would set in a few minutes. But I didnât bother turning on any lights, instead leaning back again on the chair. I was sat in an empty lobby, it was a small room, facing the floor to ceiling window that showed the landscape that surrounded the headquarters. Besides just sitting here, I should have distracted myself. Perhaps put on a film, relax after training, something to take my mind off of things. Instead, I decided to sit with my thoughts.
âH-hey.â I heard Pietro quietly say from the doorway.Â
Looking over my shoulder, I didnât reply, facing the window again when he began walking towards me. He hesitantly turned on a lamp near us, sitting on the chair beside mine. Pietro also looked out of the window, clasping his hands together for a few seconds before fidgeting. I tried to ignore it, though after an hour of peace and nothingness, it became irritating quickly.
âCan you stop?â I blurted out.âPlease?â
âAre you annoyed by everything I do?â he asked.
âNot...everything. I just...doesnât matter, itâs not like you care anyway.â
âThatâs not true.â
âIâm not falling for this Pietro.â
âWhy are you saying my name?â
âWhat?â
âYou never say my name. Actually, we never say each others names.â
âAnd why does that matter?â
âIt just feels, it feels serious.â
âI mean, weâve basically been kicked off the team, so yeah, itâs serious.â
âWeâve not been kicked off the team (Y/N).â
âWe could be if we donât get our act together.â
âIt wonât go that far-â
âBut it could! I canât believe how calm you are about the whole thing.â I stood, distancing myself from him.âIâve worked too hard for this. Imagine what would happen if word got out that I was disbanded from the Avengers because of a tiny argument, with a team member who is so narcissistic that he canât put others before himself!â
I realised I had began ranting, stopping myself before I said anything else hurtful. But by the look of Pietroâs face, it was already too late.
âI...Iâm sorry (Y/N).â he never broke eye contact.âAnd before you say anything, I mean it.â
âPietro, I-â
âI can see how much this job means to you.â
âItâs my fault too. I always try to outdo you or challenge you.â
âNo, donât be humble.â he got out of his seat, standing in front of me.âItâs almost always my fault that we argue. And I hate myself for it.â
âI donât understand.â
âIâm usually very good with the ladies.â he grinned, though it disappeared when he realised it wasnât time to joke.âBut not around you apparently. Itâs probably because youâre extremely strong and sure of yourself, and I go for a different type, the polar opposite to you.â
âPietro, I...um...â
âI was really impressed by you when we first met. It made me nervous actually.â
âReally?â
âYeah, all I can do is run really fast.â
âBut, youâve been on much more missions than I have. Doesnât that say something?â I hung my head.
âAre you crazy? Youâre not on those missions because they donât need you.â
My head whipped up to see his smile drop.
âI didnât mean it like that! I meant that those missions are for Avengers like me. The ones they can use over and over without worrying about them being too tired for the next one. What Iâm trying to say is, youâre too important.â
âI never thought I would say this, but Pietro, youâre an important part of the team too. I always rose to your challenges because I felt I needed to prove something to the others. I was new, then I was accepted after all my relentless training, but when you and Wanda came along, I instantly became old news. And you didnât even go through the rigorous regimes like I did, so I just assumed you were better than me.â
âIt seems we were both wrong about each other. We were going through a lot of effort to outdo the other when we could have saved that energy for...well, anything else really.â
âYeah. I suppose so.â
Pietro held his hand out.âTruce?â
I smiled up at him as I shook it.âTruce.â
A cheeky smirk appeared as he raised an eyebrow at me.âLetâs not tell the team about this just yet. I feel like there would be a lot of âI told you soâ.â
âItâs like you read my mind.â
âAnd another thing.â
I noticed he was still holding my hand, though they were lowered now, and his grip wasnât as firm.âYes?â
âCan we start calling each other by our actual names?â
âI mean, I assumed we would anyway.â
âOh, good. I just...â
âYou just?â
âI just like the way it sounds when you say my name.â
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love stories with some genshin boys i thought of while listening to my playlists
includes: aether (210 words), xiao (261 words), scaramouche (277 words) and albedo (307)
warnings (?): spoilers of âwe will be reunitedâ, english is not my native language and uhh idk what else, idk really know what these are, headcanons ?? snippets ?? also not beta read and not edited.
itâs long so uhhh iâll add a cut somewhere
anyway enjoy!! ...whatever this is i guess
Aether
Falling in love with Aether is like a fun adventure. He, being always the center of attention and the protagonist no matter where he goes, is a free spirited, kind and hardworking man.Â
Throughout your time travelling and being in a relationship together, youâll find that your relationship with the Honorary Knight is one of sweet kisses under the sunlight; innocent handholding while thinking up of what to make for dinner tonight; of easily talked out arguments and finding ways to compromise; of softly pushing each other to become a better version of themselves and, most of all, of supporting and having each otherâs backs no matter what.
And when Aether confronts the Abyss Princess face to face for the first time and his world comes crashing down on him, this trait of your relationship shines like no other, as you hold him in your arms after everything was over during the night, Paimon sleeping soundly next to the both of you inside your improvised campsite.
âEven though Iâm not sure what -or who- I should believe anymore, I... I know I want to see this journey to the end, and I want you to be there with me for it. Letâs be together until the last moment and beyond.â
Songs:
Snow Fairy - Funkist
Snowing, be honest with yourself and smile When two people are getting closer, time overlaps Fairy, where are you going I will gather all the light and shine it on your tomorrow
Still Lonely - SEVENTEEN
This cursed popularity. Why wonât it leave me? But why am I getting lonelier The early morning chill makes me feel Even lonelier today I feel completely empty, as if Iâm empty
Kanpeki Gu~ no ne - Watarirouka Hashiritai
I'm at a loss for words, with this and that, I'm totally in love with you Someday, I want do the same to you: Watch you flounder, At a loss for words right back to me!
Side by Side - The8 from SEVENTEEN
I want to hold hands with you but I don't know what to do what to do oh baby I want to give all my heart to you but You still don't know what's in my heart
Hope - Namie Amuro
At the end of this blue, wide world there's a place I want to aim at with you We chose this long ago for eternity
Xiao
Falling in love with Xiao is like living a bittersweet dream. The Vigilant Yaksha is far from human, or so he says, and thus is out of touch with the way we mortals experience feelings, both the negative and positive ones.
Your relationship with him is one of compassion, mutual understanding, appreciation and patience. So, so much patience. Of intertwined pinkies and soft stolen glances, of shy smiles and comfortable silence sometimes filled with your voice chatting time away and his short responses to your talks.
I mentioned patience. He knows youâre making an enormous effort to try and understand him and be patient with him and his slow learning process of how relationships work, so itâs only fair that he makes a true effort to understand you and your feelings.
Xiao is well aware that he could hurt you without wanting to, be it with his blunt phrasing of his thoughts or his Karmic Debt, as much as he is aware that you will eventually pass away and leave him behind to go somewhere he canât follow, and that undeniable truth haunts him every second of every day he gets to spend with you. And still, he wishes and wants and does cherish each and every warm, kind feeling he gets every single second youâre together nonetheless.
âI might not know what to make of these new feelings you gave me. But Iâll learn. I promise Iâll learn, so please... donât go, not yet. Let me treasure you and carve you into my memory for as long as I can.â
Songs:
Euphoria - BTS
I don't know what this emotion is Perhaps this is also the inside of a dream A dream is the blue mirage of the desert Deep inside of me, a priori I become happy to the point of being unable to breathe The surroundings, bit by bit, become clearer
Fallinâ Flower - SEVENTEEN
While flower blooms and falls, scars cure and buds shoot We are living our first and last moment So I wonât take you for granted Because you loved me as I am
Fear - SEVENTEEN
Get out my mind I can't handle it, I'm afraid of myself The truth has me tied up My heart is tainted I'm afraid it'll eventually change you too
The Truth Untold - BTS, Steve Aoki
Itâs my fate Donât smile to me Light on me Because I canât get closer to you Thereâs no name you can call me
You know that I canât Show you me Give you me I canât show you a ruined part of myself Once again I put a mask on and go to see you But I still want you
Tiny Light - Akari KitĹ
Because you colored my unchanging monochromatic days Even the blurred darkness gained meaning
Still, hidden in this heart, these feelings of preciousness so strong that they hurt I just want to convey these feelings to only you before they disappear someday
Scaramouche
Falling in love with Scaramouche is like constantly playing a game. Heâs strict, demanding, disagreeable, and widely disliked by enemies and allies alike. Still, he has a heart too; and he holds desires and hopes deep inside of it, although most of them are fueled by the unchanging curiosity he has towards the world around him, curiosity to know what he can get out of whatever the world wants to throw at him.
You were no exception to that rule, at first.
When he met you he wanted to get something from you. And you knew it from the start, just as he knew that you knew. And that didnât change anything, at first.
Your relationship with him is one of dangerously playful, yet still light-hearted games of seduction, teasing and deceit; of secret kisses exchanged in expensive private rooms in restaurants or the cozy warmth of your home, of an unspoken shared respect and, most of all, complete, mutual devotion.
You know Scaramouche is not a good man. He has done many, many unspeakable things in his life as one of the Eleven, and he knows heâs far from being the perfect charming prince you could aim for, but he will never let you go. Because behind those hardened walls of egocentrism and pride, you saw what no one else bothered to see. You saw him, not the role he was playing, you saw him and fell in love with him.
âTo be honest, I donât think I could find anyone else who understands me as much as you do. And no, Iâm not saying this because I want something, give me some more credit, geez...â
Songs:
soldier game -Â Âľâs
You'll come with me, yes? You've grown curious about my touch, yes? Then it's already love Since you're someone I must meet in battle someday, That might just be your reason It's soldier game Though we've met again, I'm soldier heart
Kowareyasuki - Guilty Kiss
Just stop it already and show your heart only to me I love your eyes that are about to cry And your defenseless, clumsy way of living too (...) The hesitation you convey makes my chest hurt Some people just don't know what such kindness is But then I discover the truth When we got together, you don't have to endure anymore Right now, show your grief only to me I like that you think too much The complete opposite of me
Shhh - SEVENTEEN
Don't think of all these as your mere illusion They're not lies that follow the moment No one can underestimate it, my feelings are an ignition 'Cause I'm always the same Me and you, we got hurt by the lies that we won't ever work But it's fate
(...)
So I can cover you from danger A consented dedication
(...)
It's as natural as breathing An everlasting dedication
Good to me - SEVENTEEN
Yeah, when you were making that sign in my heart It was a long time since my firewall broke down Pass with the password What in the world do you know about me? Are my deep feelings seen by you?
Hiraishin - Keyakizaka46
(To trust is to be betrayed, to open oneâs heart is to get hurt So to avoid being struck by lightning-like sorrowâŚ)
Which side am I picking? Ah, these values are hard to handle Thatâs why I wonât stop watching over you Positive positive positive You should just be yourself⌠I can forgive whatever absurdities you pull off Iâll support you without being noticed Even when you get nitpicked Iâll be your companion Let us now promise to live an unremarkable life hereafter What we have here is the lightning rod of love
Albedo
Falling in love with Albedo is a fairy tale-like experience for both of you. His attention had always been focused on his research, everything else fading into the background save for a few exceptions, until you came around. You, who stole all his attention by just existing.Â
As an alchemist, heâs naturally the curious type. He wanted to know what about it had caught his attention, what was so special about you that had him clinging to your every word and movement every time you interacted with him. Still, human relationships are hard for him, and he figured you might go away the second he started to feel burnt out from your interactions. But you didnât. Instead, you stayed. You stayed and took interest on what he did, asked questions, gave your insight, and dragged him to sleep when he needed a break. In exchange, he did the same for you.
Your relationship with Albedo is like one of those awkwardly sweet first time crushes. Of carefully calculated movements, dates and compliments, of soft kisses on lips, hands and cheeks, of mutual support, understanding and mature compromising and commitment.
The Kreideprinz, like everyone else, has his own fears and insecurities, especially regarding his... nature, but he does his best not to let them affect the relationship he has with you. Each moment spent by your side, even when heâs not actively doing any research, is considered perfectly spent, meaningful time.
âA long time ago, I was tasked with finding out the meaning of this world. Though I have directed my efforts and resources to looking for the answer through alchemy, ever since we met I... think, Iâve found an unexpected conclusion to said issue. While itâs likely that this is not the answer expected from me, Iâm positive that, at least personally, I finally have the answer.â
Songs:
Futari Saison - Keyakizaka46
In the wind blowing through the cityâs streets, even though I caught whiff of somethingâs scent, I had no interest in looking back
In a 1m radius around me, I formed an invisible barrier to another world And yet, you took someone like me out of it
What made you do that?
Home - SEVENTEEN
What can I do? Without you Iâm just an old robot, my heart stops and itâs always cold What can we do? Without me Youâll struggle just as much, so what can we do?
Baby, I want to cherish our warmth So no one can come between us
Flower - SEVENTEEN
You taught me, you showed me Youâre my only reason If you can forever remember me I can get hurt, I can get hurt
My heart thatâs engraved with your light Makes me stronger Give me your sharp thorns Cause youâre my flower
Oh my! - SEVENTEEN
Sorry for repeating the same thing But this is all I can try using hard words But my true feeling is this, every everything
(...)
How about you? Is it hard for you to sleep because of me too? If you keep making my heart flutter What do I do?
Naze koi wo shite konakattan darou? - Sakurazaka46
Why hadn't I fallen in love? I've been making fun of it all this time I mean everyone keeps saying 'I love you' just like cats in heat But after falling in love I realized what people live for To meet, to love, to the point of nothing but... I'm not myself, I want to find my true self.
#xiao x reader#aether x reader#scaramouche x reader#albedo x reader#genshin x reader#genshin x y/n#genshin impact headcanon#genshin imagines#genshin impact imagines#first post yay#why is albedo's so long tho he's not even my favorite out of them lol#melodywritings#fluff#genshin impact x reader#melwritesgenshin
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I do know several explicit self identified kink blogs that only have text. Thats quite common now especially since the Great Tumblr Purge. Ive seen some whump posts floating around there. Ive also seen some kink posts floating around whump tumblr. Especially with posts like âwow I just want to see a cute boy get beaten upâ or whatever, there can be so much overlap.
Idk what the ~solution~ for minor issues are. I dont think there is going to be a way to make sure youth who are on the internet looking for Hurt People Content will NEVER stumble across something sexual tbh. But I guess the best we can do is try to make it clear what isnt for them on our own blogs (aka label up front things that will have noncon or whatever, maybe tag âhey minors dont go thru OPs blogâ if weâre concerned) but if they decide to go click on everyone who reblogs a post⌠thats out of our control. The internet is, for better or for worse, full of all kinds of people who will reblog whatever they please, and some of them might be horny about it.
And our staff are already trying to make this website have as few nsfw images as possible with varying success so⌠đ¤ˇđť
I think whats more important than wringing our hands about whether or not someone of some age has a sexual though is being kind and helpful to the people who are in our community. As a minor wading through all kinds of nasty shit online back in the dayâ˘ď¸, I could have benefited a lot from a community like this. Open conversations about consent and ethics and sexuality would have done much more for me than trying to keep anything remotely sadomasochistic as far from me as possible.
-(New anon, just didnt want shit about this but came to soapbox on your blog. I think youre making great points and Im glad youre facilitating these discussions)
I think those are some great points, thank you! I want to say that I think it makes complete sense to say, state that you have to be 18 or over to interact with your blog, or asking people with nsfw blogs not to interact because youâre a minor, but you also have to remember that not everyone is going to check this or realise this.
While people should be able to message others and ask them to not reblog from them or comment on their posts, I also think that blocking is honestly fine and good and people shouldnât be afraid to block simply for personal comfort. It doesnât have to be a punishment. Itâs just a way of curating your own experience.
I definitely think that itâs futile and harmful even to pretend that teens and young people donât know anything about kink or sex. I am well aware that minors are going to have personal interests and fantasies and may well be trying things with each other, and honestly I just hope that theyâre having open and honest discussions about this with their friends and with trusted adults in their lives.
Iâm not responsible for online minors who follow me and I donât want to know about your sex lives and interests, but at the same time if you donât have someone you trust who will talk to you about this at home or at school or at a youth group, I would rather people came to me so I could give them age appropriate resources and guide them towards a more appropriate and safe source of information.
I would absolutely rather that young people have informed safe sex rather than being told that they should never think about it until they turn 18 and doing it secretly and getting hurt or hurting someone else in their ignorance. And I am well aware that teens are going to read sexual content, and probably read things that arenât meant for them too, and I think thereâs a difference between exploring and figuring things out in your own mind and actively seeking out adults to interact with them about that content. And itâs on the adults here to draw those boundaries and at the end of the day, block minors who are interacting with them inappropriately.
#asks answered#whump community#whump meta#I think it is important that young people see those sorts of conversations about consent and safety and ethics#because teens are always gonna be doing stuff and I would really rather they at least had the knowledge to do it safely
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The Only Thing I Got Right
Pairings: Ace x Y/N
A/N:Â I just finished watching the Marineford Arc and I cried so much so I wrote this on a whim. Sorry in advance if there are grammatical errors and spelling mistakes. It's the tears' fault, I swear! đ ((I just desperately wanted Ace to survive, you know? đ))
This song reminds me of Ace, idk why.
Youâre shaking. It wouldâve been nice if it was because of the cold or if it was from excitement, but this isnât the case. Youâre shaking from fear, from anxiety. Today, Ace, the love of your life, is going to be executed and you didnât know if youâd make it on time. You barely got out of Impel Down alive with the help of Aceâs little brother, Luffy.
You hate the fact that you got thrown there with Ace courtesy of Teach, or should you say, Blackbeard. You hate the fact that you couldnât save Ace from Blackbeard no matter how hard you tried fighting him. It was frustrating, but if a Devil Fruit user like Ace had no match for him, what more of you? You have no powers like that, the only thing that you have is your knowledge on Rokushiki and daggers.
You got imprisoned at Level 3 of Impel Down while Ace was rumored to be on Level 5. Being thrown on a relatively lower level was understandable, even if you are part of Whitebeardâs crew, you are no commander like Ace. Still, even if you are weaker than Ace, you desperately wanted to go get him out of there but it was impossible. Or so you thought.
When you saw a Straw Hat on a male running around with two others on Level 3, you instantly knew it was Luffy. It seemed like god was in your favor because apparently one of your cellmates, who you came to learn was Mr. 2 from Baroque Works, was Luffyâs friend. When he got Mr. 2 out of the shackles, you begged to come with them, telling him your relationship with Ace. Luckily for you, Luffy needed all the help he could get so he easily got you out with the help of the other prisoner he was with. It was all chaos after that.
Youâre currently hiding in the crowâs nest of the Marine ship you helped steal alongside Crocodile, Mr. 1, and Jinbei. Your body is already aching from all the running and fighting you did just to escape Impel Down. But even before that, your body had already been tired from the lack of nutrition and of sleep. How could you even dare to sleep knowing Ace was somewhere else, probably beaten to a pulp? And if that wasnât enough, the sudden knowledge of him being executed in a few hours added more strain and tension to your body. You didnât want anyone to see you in such a state. You didnât want anyone to pity you.
But if youâre hurting this much, then it mustâve been so much harder for Luffy. You make a mental note to talk to him before crashing to Marineford. For now though, you need to rest â not only for your body, but for your mind as well. You have to be ready, the worst is yet to come. When you closed your eyes, you welcomed sleep like an old forgotten friend.
Your sleep didnât last long, however, because of both the nightmare of Ace reaching out for you with bloodied hands and of the waters that suddenly rocked the whole ship. Before you could even get down the crowâs nest, the ship abruptly stilled and the air chilled. When you looked down, you clenched your teeth at the sight of the sea that turned into ice.
A mental clock was ticking like a time bomb in your mind. How were you supposed to save Ace now?
As if hearing your question, Luffy started gathering the people in the ship about his plan. At this point, you would do anything just to get to Ace so you didnât hesitate to help him in his plan on freeing the ship from the ice. But the next thing you know, you were falling after kicking the thick layer of ice as hard as you can.
Just as you looked down to where youâre supposed to land, you realized that it was Marineford and the war had already started. With a little tilt of your head, you see Ace in the scaffold, shackled up. Worry was etched on his face, his focus on Luffy. You could almost hear him saying how stupid his little brother is.
Was it wrong to smile at the sight of him at a time like this? But how could you not? Heâs still alive! You have a chance at saving him. You release a sigh of relief.
You try not to draw his attention to you. He already has a lot to worry about â namely, the Whitebeard pirates, the allied pirates, and Luffy. It was a good decision that you didnât change out of your prison clothes, it was easier not to get noticed by him this way. For all he knows, youâre just one of the many escapees Luffy helped. You want to keep it that way. At least for now.
Thereâs no time to waste, so when you landed, you immediately head off to the direction of the scaffold. After seeing that Ace was still alive, you feel yourself get pumped up again. You fight each and every Marine who tries to stop you.
No matter how hard each blow you receive, no matter how painful each swipe of the swords you get, no matter how many times you get knocked down, you keep on fighting. You keep on standing up. Thereâs only so much your Tekkai could do when youâre severely outnumbered. Nevertheless, you keep on going. Nevermind the multiple cuts and bruises you have. There is only one thing in your mind and that is saving Ace. Even at the expense of your own life.
From the way Luffy fought at Impel Down, you know heâs incredibly strong and tenacious so you find yourself backing him up. You donât go near him, knowing Aceâs attention was on him, but you guard him from your side. Not a single Marine was able to pass through you from your side of the battlefield. But you canât cover every area for him. Despite that, he managed to take down anyone who was in his way.
Your ears are ringing from all the overlapping noises of guns being fired, screams of agony from pirates and Marines, swords clanging, and hurried footsteps. At one point, you block all of the sounds while you focus on your own breathing as you run.
Even when everyone stopped moving to watch as Pops descended the Moby Dick and made his move, you continued running. You have to keep up with Luffy. Thereâs no way youâd let Ace die.
The only moment you actually stopped running was when Luffy unconsciously used the Conquerorâs Haki. So he can do that too, you thought.
That was also the moment you actually got to look at the surroundings properly and realized that Pops had been stabbed. Your knees buck from the sight and you fall down. Regret immediately flooding your body. Youâre so focused on trying to save Ace that you didnât notice Pops needed help too.
The Marines took this opportunity to attack you. Just as a sword was about to hit you, McGuy blocked it.
âWhat are you doing, Y/N? Snap out of it. This is war. Thereâs no way weâd be able to rescue Ace if you donât get your bearings straight!â
The harshness in his tone brought you back to reality. Heâs right. Pops ordered everyone to lend their strength to Luffy, and thatâs exactly what youâre going to do.
You, along with everyone else, push yourselves to your limits to help Luffy. He did not disappoint. He even punched his own grandfather, Garp, just to be able to reach Ace and free him.
The moment the scaffold collapsed, you almost collapsed with it. Tears start falling from your eyes as you see Ace finally free from his shackles. A smile has finally graced his face as he fought side by side with his brother. At that moment, you think that heâs at his brightest when heâs with his sworn brother. You couldnât be any more happier.
Now that he is free, itâs time to figure out how to escape. Everyoneâs running towards the ships but you stop after noticing Pops wasnât making the same movement.
âThe order Iâm about to give will be my final captainâs order!â Pops announces. âYou and I will be parting here.â
Your breath hitched at the declaration.
âAll of you, make sure you survive, and reunite with each other in the New World!â
You donât listen to whatever he says next. You refuse to. You stand your ground. Youâre not going to abandon the man who warmly accepted you into his family without hesitation despite knowing all of the crimes you committed.
As if sensing your refusal, he turns slightly to your direction, âAre you disobeying your captainâs orders?!â
Stupid old man, he should know by now that youâre no good at following orders.
Ace is one of the last persons to follow his order. You turn away from the conversation they are having, knowing it was a private matter.
When theyâre done talking and Ace finally starts running towards the ship, Pops turns to you. He doesnât talk, he just looks at you.
Shame suddenly overcomes you. You didnât get to stop Ace from coming for Teach. When he left, you begged Pops everyday to allow you to set sail, promising that youâd bring Ace back. When he finally allowed you, you didnât waste any time. But even when you found him, you couldnât bring him back, it was too late and you were just too weak. It was your fault this happened. âPops, Iâm sorry Iââ
âI did this. This is all my fault.â
âButââ
He shut you up with his stare.
âLetâs leave here together,â you plead.
But he doesnât reply. With his stare, you can tell that he isnât backing down on his order, no matter how much you persuade him to. You release a shaky breath. With tears streaming down your face, you gave one last bow and one last thank you.
And then you ran.
The others are already further away from you but you notice a group of them stopping in their tracks. There in the center of the commotion is Akainu and Ace, seemingly discussing something.
Thereâs no time for this, you thought.
ââIn other words, Whitebeard is an eternal loser, who will never surpass Roger. Thatâs all he is. Everything Iâve said is the truth,â the admiral says. âHe reigned the seas for decades, yet he never became a king or gained anything.â
You clench your jaw at the bullshit heâs spouting, after everything Pops had done to save you, youâre livid to hear him be deduced as a loser. But regardless of the anger rising in front of you, you know this wasnât the time to get riled up.
The thing is, Ace gets easily riled up. Itâs one of his flaws as a person. So when he starts walking to Akainuâs direction, Izo is first to shout, âDonât fall for it, Ace! Turn back!â
But itâs no use.
Thatâs when you let your presence known, you shout at the top of your lungs, âJust turn back, Ace!â
Everyone whips their head at the sound of your voice, except Ace and Akainu.
Even you, who are usually able to keep Ace in check, couldnât snap him out of his anger.
Itâs too late.
They exchange blows. Ace falls down, magma is far greater than fire, after all.
âThe Pirate King, Gold Roger. Dragon, the Revolutionary. These two menâs sons being stepbrothers is quite a frightening thought.â Akainu says.
When he looks over at Luffyâs direction, you immediately know what he plans to do. You donât even think twice. There is no second to waste.
âSoru.â
The sound of your voice finally reaches Ace. His eyes widen in realization of whatâs going to happen.
âWait!â He pleads.
But before he could even stand up, you already placed yourself in front of Luffy. âTekkai.â
But the admiralâs strength and power is far greater than your ability. His fist goes through your chest.
âY/N!â Ace shouts.
The rest of Division Commanders are in shock.
Akainu clicks his tongue at the sight of you and detaches his fist from your body.
You slump, Luffy catching you in the process. âOi, Y/N-chan... What did youâŚ? Why did y-you d-do that?â He asks.
In no time, Ace comes to Luffyâs side. âY/NâŚâ
You smile sweetly at the two men and then you turn to Luffy. âYouâre Aceâs brother, silly. Of course Iâd do this for you.â You cough out blood and then hiss at the pain.
âStop talking!â Ace demands.
While Luffy and Ace are distracted, Akainu makes his move once again. But the slight motion didnât go unnoticed by Jimbei and the Division Commanders. Even if you arenât a Commander, you acted like Aceâs right hand. To the crew, youâre as important as Ace is. Thereâs no way they wouldnât fight for you. So altogether they start covering for the three of you.
You feel your body shutting down on you. You could barely hear Ace calling for a doctor and Luffy desperately asking Ivankov to help you. But you know itâs no use. âI⌠can tell my body is at its limit,â you whisper.
Ace doesnât agree, then he gently takes your body from Luffy. âNo, Iâm going to find someone else who can helpââ
âAceâŚâ
ââyou. Thereâs got to be someone whoââ
âAce⌠My organs have been burnt. I know thisâll be the end of me.â
âNo, donât talk like youâre dying, Y/N!â
âBut I amâŚâ You say. âLook Ace, donât worry, okay? I was prepared to die when I came here. I was ready to die just to get you out of here.â
âWhy would youâŚâ
âBecause I love you,â you whisper. âYou know⌠when I take a look at my life and all of my crimes, youâre the only thing that I think I got right.â
Ace hides his face on your neck as he hugs you. With the little strength you have left, you give a comforting squeeze on his shoulder. âDonât go around disobeying the captainâs order and donât go around breaking your promise to Luffy. You said you wonât die, right?â
You feel Ace nod at your words.
âGo to the ships and take everyone else. Please donât follow me too soon.â
Ace hugs you tighter, panting as he continues to cry.
A small smile reaches your lips once again. At least this time heâll listen, you think. âI canât raise my voice anymore but please tell Pops and everyone else, even Luffy, they made my life worthwhile. Iâm sorry if our journey ends heââ
You didnât even get to finish your sentence because darkness had consumed you.
#one piece imagine#one piece scenario#one piece x reader#ace x reader#portgas d. ace x reader#portgas d ace x reader#one piece x you#one piece x y/n#portgas d ace x you#portgas d ace x y/n#portgas d. ace x you#portgas d. ace x y/n#portgas d. ace#portgas d ace#one piece imagines#marineford arc#ace lives#portgas d ace lives#portgas d. ace lives
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Can we get detective Aomine, who gets assigned a female partner but from the start they're always at each other's throats. During an undercover case, reader has to be super flirty and Aomine gets all jealous and mutual confessions ensues. Maybe some sexy times at the end? :') Sorry if this is too specific, feel free to come up with your own interpretation! I'm such a huge fan of your work Sam and I'm so excited that you're opening your askbox even just for a little while!
ngl idk what im doing here but this is the last request in my inbox so i wanted to finish it haha pls enjoy (not proofread so excuse mistakes) - also my first time writing smut in like years so forgive me!!
Sometimes, Aomine thinks that if he isnât a law and order professional, he thinks he might actually commit murder and hide your body away in some undisclosed, obscure location. Most of the time, you feel the same way about him.Â
The two work in different divisionsâAomine in homicide and you in robbery. The two divisions have always been highly competitive especially given how much overlap you both encounter. Things can get territorial, but their teams are used to your snide remarks and Aomineâs verbal assault. Itâs just the way the world works.Â
After all, the two of you were in the same graduating class. You, a valedictorian by books. Aomine, top of the class by combat. Itâs natural that the two of you are so competitive with your conflicting personalities.
The two of you may have also fucked at some point.Â
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âIâm not fucking working with her, are you kidding me?â Aomine spits out at his boss. Any other person wouldâve been kicked out of the room or probably fired, but Aomine is the best detective in his division so Akashi would never do such a thing. For now. Aomineâs been wearing his patience thin.Â
The red-haired man sighs, folding his hands together atop his desk. âAomine, I understand you both have had your immaturity in the past. This, however, isnât the time for such trivial matters. Thereâs a double homicide downtown during a robbery. Sheâs the lead for the case on the robbery end because theyâve been tracking a series of these.â Aomine opens his mouth to argue again. âNo more buts. Sheâs already down there getting witness statements. Unless you want to be behind again, I suggest you get in your car and start driving.âÂ
He grits his teeth. Breathe. Donât strangle your boss, heâll probably kill you first. âIâll take Wakamatsu.â
By the time he arrives on the scene, a crowd has gathered behind the police line, snapping pictures in the hopes of getting something Twitter worthy. He growls past all of them and ducks underneath the tape. âWhereâs the officer that called it in?â
âInside talking to the detective.â
âIâm the detective,â he snaps right back, knowing full well youâre already three steps ahead of him. And you definitely wonât let him forget that.
He marches past the thick front doors, Wakamatsu in tow. From a distance, he spots you talking to another officer. When he finally approaches you, he realizes that youâre in a skin tight dress covered by an oversized police jacket.
Your name slips past his lips. âDid we interrupt a hot date?â He smirks.
You whirl around, knowing full well the irritating voice that grates on your nerves. Aomine Daiki. âUnlike you, I have actual friends and actual plans on a Friday night. Did you decide to give your wrist a break for the night?âÂ
Aomine bites back, âWell, itâs not getting much rest either when I had my fingers knuckle deep in something tight and wet tonight.â Complete lie but heâs not about to lose this battle. âNot sure you know how that feels though.â
âIf youâre talking about the pudding in your fridge, you might want to ease up on that. Doesnât look like itâs doing you any favors,â you smile right back at him, knowing full well youâve won this argument.
Aomine growls low under his breath, jabbing Wakamatsu hard with his elbow when he hears the snort escape him. âBrief me on the situation,â he tells the police officer.
âWell, uh, I already told this detective hereââ
âIâm the other detective in charge for homicide. Now, you better fucking brief me before I tell your captain.â
The guy glances at you warily and you just laugh. âTold you he hasnât gotten any in a long time. Come on, sugar, Iâll brief you on the way down to the vault.â You curl your finger in a gesture to get him to follow you and he sucks up his pride for the first time and do as heâs told. If he solves this case, he still gets the credit and you can go back to that sewer where you came from.
There are two bodies at the vault and forensics are already working to collect evidence when they arrive. âYour area of expertise, double homicide. Both are surprisingly the robbers. Four of them broke in, only two were seen exiting with money bags. No other casualties.â
âFucking weird,â Aomine mutters. Itâs not new for robberies to go wrong, but for two of them to die with no civilian casualty? Thatâs fucking weird. Â
âInteresting, isnât it?â You grin, seeming way too pleased considering there are two dead people in front them. âThe ammo is the same as the previous bank robberies in the area. Weâre going to assume theyâre linked to the Red Dragon clan.â
âFuck,â he groans, âI fucking hate those guys. Bitches to deal with. Hard to infiltrate.â
You flick your hair over your shoulder, grinning at him. He canât help but draw his gaze to your neck, a very attractive neck. Now that he notices how tight that dress is, he canât help but admit that it has been a while since heâs gotten any action. The curves of your breast defined so clearly by the fabric that stretches across the mounds, the flow of your hips, every dip and rise. Your exposed legs further emphasized by your heels. God fucking damn. He feels his pants tighten as he licks his teeth. Get it together, Aomine.Â
Of course, the clothes do nothing to remove the memory of your nude body from his mind. Heâs seen all parts of you some time ago. A drunken mistake that ended in a brief, but extremely satisfying night of passion. Your tight pussy wrapped around his cock, your nails digging into his biceps. He can still picture the sheen layer of sweat on your skin as he rams into you, your broken moans falling from your lips.Â
âWell, lucky for you,â you start again, pulling him out of the hazy cloud of lust. âI already have someone on the inside. Theyâve set up a meeting for me tomorrow night meet with the headâs son. Iâll try to get some information done.âÂ
âLucky for you, Iâm free tomorrow to be your backup. Youâre welcome,â Aomine smiles, âDonât fuck this up. I donât feel like cleaning up after your ass.â
âI should say that about you, asshole.â
â
Aomine is sat in a dingy van just across the street from the bar youâre having your meeting. Youâve hidden your mic in the perfect spot, a location which you do not disclose to Aomine. However, he has a feeling itâs somewhere promiscuous that he wants to be aware of. They can see the restaurant clearly, their brat hacker Sakurai having plugged into the restaurantâs security cameras.Â
âShut the fuck up, Aomine. I can hear you munching on your stupid sour cream and onion chips.â You mutter into your mic before the guy arrives. You sip your wine and take a deep breath. This isnât the first time youâve gone undercover but it is the first time to have Aomine behind you while you do so.Â
The detective looks down at the can in his hands. Sour cream and onion. How did you know? He sets it aside, bringing the mic up to his lips. âMaybe you should do your job better and focus on your meeting instead of listening to me. Why are you so obsessed with me, hm?âÂ
However, a manâs voice on the other side of the headphones has him straightening. âGood evening, I didnât expect to be meeting a lovely lady like you tonight,â the sleaze says and Aomine can just imagine him kissing your hand. âWhen Tanaka said Iâd be meeting with the right hand of White Claw, I didnât expect it to be a woman.â
âWell, we are moving up in life, Mr. Ito.â
âYour good looks are certainly quite persuasive. Iâm sure there are ways you can convince me to strike a deal.â
Fucking. Sleaze.
âOh,â you laugh lightly, âwhat a flatterer. Youâre not so bad yourself. I can imagine people fall at their feet for you.â
âWell, I am quite knowledgeable in more ways than one. Perhaps I can show you tonight after dinner.â
The two banter back and forth, trading flirty comments that puts Aomine on edge. Youâre supposed to be doing your job and he knows that. He knows this is all an act but youâre a damn good actress.Â
âAomine, where are you going?â Wakamatsuâs concerned voice carries through the speaker.
You freeze. This fucker better not screw this whole operation up. âWell,â you say, âthis has been a lovely dinner. Iâm sure we both can come to an agreement without doing anything reckless.âÂ
The double meaning, a sentence meant for the man across from you and the man listening to you rings clear. Aomine growls, sitting back down petulantly in his seat. He was about to rage in there and start a war, but holds himself back. Be professional, Aomine. Job first, dick needs later.Â
âThe same to you. Itâs been a pleasure meeting you,â the man smiles. âAre you sure you wonât join me for the night?â
Aomine snarls low into his mic. Wakamatsu shoots him a weird look. You let out a little giggle and he knows itâs meant for him. âNo, thank you, Mr. Ito. Iâm afraid I have other commitments to tend to.âÂ
When he knows itâs safe, he storms into the restaurant where you still sit, sipping your drink. Sliding into the seat across from you, he rolls his eyes. âEnjoy yourself?âÂ
He didnât see when you were set up with the mic earlier so he also hadnât seen what you were wearing. Heâs almost grateful because he knows he mightâve lost it if he did. Tight ass dress, deep neckline that shows ample cleavage (heâs always a sucker for this), sultry eyes, red lips. God, all his favorite things packaged into one.Â
Your lips quirk up. âThe breadsticks here are quite nice.â
âFucking hilarious. Letâs go.â
âWhy the hurry?â
âUnless you want Wakamatsu to hear me fuck you, you better dump that mic and get your ass up.â
You lean back, narrowing your eyes at him. âIâm not sure I like your tone.â
âTrust me, you donât have to like my tone to enjoy what Iâm going to do to you.â
Licking your lips, you consider your options as you bring the wine back to your lips. âFine,â you mutter, unclipping the mic from the strap of your dress. Aomine moves faster though, snatching it from your hands and dumping it into the wine. Before you can protest, he already has a hand wrapped around yours, tugging you up from your seat and into the back room.Â
Youâre stumbling in his manic rush, heels barely keeping up with your movements. âAomine!â You chide as he pushes all the way to the employee break room. The space is fortunately empty and Aomine locks it to make sure it stays that way. âCan you please stop?! Youâre such a caveman, Iââ
Heâs quick to shut you up, swallowing your words with his lips as they slot over yours. He doesnât waste time, shrugging off his leather jacket as he licks your bottom lip for permission. You gasp a complaint, but he takes advantage of the situation to stick his tongue in, pressing it up against yours.Â
All your worries fall away into a moan as he separates from you only to gasp for breath and pull his t-shirt over his head. With nimble fingers, heâs unzipping the back of your dress and yanking it down, leaving your top half exposed. Shivering, youâre about to voice your disapproval but your brain seems to stop functioning the second your gaze lands on his tanned body.
Aomineâs always been attractive. No one can deny. Thereâs a reason why heâs simultaneously the precinctâs most eligible bachelorette and most insufferable jackass. His confidence matches his skills. His looks live up to his brags. Hard lines and shadows are painted on him like a masterpiece in a museum. His broad shoulders make him look even bigger with his height. His jeans that hang just low enough to be tantalizing with the hint of a v that leads to the space between his legs.Â
Your mouth dries up at the sight and Aomine smirks knowingly. Youâve fallen into his bed before, he can make it happen again. âTake a picture, itâll last longer.â
âFifth grade humor doesnât become you, Aomine.â You scowl as he backs you up against the table in the middle of the room. He effortlessly grabs you by the ass to lift you up and onto the surface, the metal cool against your exposed thighs.Â
âDid you dress up for me, doll? Knowing full well that this was going to happen,â he grins devilishly, bringing his hands up to shamelessly cup your breasts.Â
Itâs not as if youâre embarrassed for being so bare before him. Youâre proud of your body and he damn well knows that. You let him fondle you through your bra for a little bit. âNo, you animal. I dress for the job.â
âYou tell me you wear this flimsy thingââ he teases the light coverage of your lingerie. The lace is sheer and barely covers your nipples, the material holding onto your breasts for dear life. ââfor the job?â
âI do my job right, asshole,â you spat right back. âSo are you just going to stand there or are you going to fuck me?â
A wide grin stretches across his face. The heat in his eyes carry to his hands as he works to unclasp your bra and let it fall to the ground. Aomine doesnât waste time as you lean back on your palms, granting him full access to fondle and suckle on your tits. His tongue swirls around the sensitive nubs that have grown stiff in the contrast between the cold air and his warm breath. His teeth graze the sensitive skin hard enough to have you groaning in pleasure. His lips close in around them and suck. He uses his hand to tease and tug your other breast, pinching it to elicit that delicious whimper out of you. Aomine alternates between the two, making sure you stay warm.Â
Meanwhile, you let your hand fall to the bulge between his legs. He lets out a small grunt at the initial touch but seems to respond favorably to the way you stroke the tent, nudging his hips forward for more friction. âIs that a gun in your pants or are you just excited to see me?â
âYouâre so fucking ridiculous,â Aomine mutters, both humored and unamused by your comment.Â
âFuck,â you let slip as your fingers struggle to unbutton his jeans. âYour fucking pants. Donât you live in sweats? You choose today of all days to wear your stupid tight jeans?â
Aomine chuckles, âPatience, baby. You know you like my ass in these.â
You do, but youâre not about to admit that. He quickly works off his pants, letting them drop to his ankles as he moves towards you again. While he continues to stimulate your tits, your hand begins groping his cock which is rock hard and peeking from the top of his boxers.
âGod, I miss having this inside me,â you whine, pulling the flimsy fabric off and letting it pool on top of his jeans. âCondom?â
âYou donât want me raw? You know you want to feel all of my cock,â he grins. You throw him a glare and he just chuckles as he reaches for his wallet on the floor, pulling out a packet and tossing it onto the table. âBut first,â he pauses, letting his hands slide down to cup your pussy, which is admittedly already drenched at that point.Â
He hisses when he feels your juices drip and coat his fingers. âYouâre so fucking wet, goddamn. How long have you been waiting for this?â
âWhen that robbery happened, I was about to get laid for the first time in months. So fucking sue me,â you snarl at him.Â
âWell, I am here to please,â he wets his lips. He slips one finger in, sliding in all too easily. So he adds another finger and feels your walls pulse around him. He begins pulling it out before shoving it back in, repeating the measure to stroke your walls. He curls his fingers inside as he watches your face closely.
Your expression morphs from irritation to blinding pleasure in an instant. Your eyes slide shut, your lips part to exhale shaky breaths. Aomine seems to know exactly how to angle and twist his fingers to induce a heart attack. The sounds falling from your mouth are ephemeral, Aomine wishes he can film this moment so he can replay it over and over again.Â
He pumps his fingers into you and ducks his head to take your nipple into his mouth again, tongue circling the tip. âGod, you taste so fucking good. I forgot how wet you can get. Donât even need lube to slide into you, huh? Youâre already dripping for me.âÂ
âAsshole,â you murmur weakly, clearly in no place to retort.Â
âRemember the first time I fucked you? God, you were so easy,â he grins, âyou were so wet, so turned on already. Remember when I stuck my tongue in your pussy? Licking up your juices. You tasted so sweet.âÂ
Your breath stutters in your chest, hitching in your throat. âFuck you, letâs not forget how quickly you came when I sucked you off.â
âI mean, the sight of you on your knees is enough to get anyone off, sweetheart.âÂ
âFuck me,â you groan. Any rational thought has fizzled from your brain. The feeling of his fingers inside you is enough to consume you whole, overwhelming you in waves of rapture.Â
âWhat was that?â
âDickwad.â
He chuckles darkly, licking his lips again. âBeg me.â
âIâm not going toââ
Aomine yanks his fingers out, looking down at you, taunting you. He waits as you internally struggle with your moral convictions. Are you willing to give up your pride for one night just to get fucked out of your mind?
Easy.
Yes.
âPlease,â you huff, âplease fuck me.âÂ
âPlease fuck me who?â
Your eyes find the ceiling, wondering what in the hell you did in your lifetime to have met the devil that is Aomine. Biting your lip, you lean closer to whisper, âPlease fuck me, Da-i-ki.âÂ
The man is a sucker for you calling him by his first name. And to get what you want, youâre willing to play into his hands. Aomine lets out a low growl before ripping open the condom packet and rolling the thin rubber along his length. Your pussy squeezes at the sight. Just imagining what itâs like to have that thickness inside of you, fucking you full, has you on edge.Â
He doesnât waste a single second, pulling you forward and slowly positioning himself in front of you. He holds onto his cock, letting the tip trace your pussy lips, circling it and letting your juices drip onto his cock. Stroking the wetness along his dick, he uses it as a lubricant before he slides himself inside you.
When heâs buried to the hilt, Aomine leans forward and lets his forehead rest on your shoulder. Your pussy is so fucking tight. Itâs squeezing and throbbing around him with the engulfing heat. He feels as if heâs going to explode right then.Â
âFuck, you really havenât been screwed in a while,â Aomine rasps.Â
âTold you.â
Aomine starts off slow, pulling out and pushing back in. With how thin the condom is, he can feel every ridge, every bump in your heat rub up against his cock. The sensations is enough to have his thighs quivering, but heâs not one to back down. He begins to pick up the pace, thrusting deep inside of you repeatedly. HIs mouth latches onto your neck, tongue lapping and teeth nipping to paint purple blooms upon your skin.Â
His movements are building a bubbling pressure in the pit of your stomach. You feel your heart tightening with every move, your insides squeezing. The absolute pleasure that crashes over you has you breathless, your hands finding purchase on his arms.Â
He mutters filthy words in your ear, one of his hands reaching up to tangle in your hair. He yanks back lightly, just enough to have you moaning. You like it rough, heâs well aware of that. He pounds into you relentlessly, hands keeping you in place as whimpers tumble from your mouth.Â
âFuck, right there, oh god,â you gasp, âfuck me harder. God, your dick feels so good. Filling me up so full with your thick cock.âÂ
âKeep talking like that and Iâll be tempted to come in you, baby,â Aomine grazes his teeth along your ear, hot breath kissing your skin. âGod, I want to just fucking cream inside you.âÂ
âBetter watch yourself, Daiki.â
Aomine grins lasciviously, sweat beginning to bead his forehead as he attempts to keep himself in check. He feels you tighten your pussy, walls closing in around him. âBitch,â he growls. You know what youâre doing but heâs not about to let you gain dominance of the situation.
So his hands dig deeper into your hips as he fucks you harder and deeper, his cock pulsating inside of you on the brink of his self-control. âIâm about to come,â he says with eyes squeezed shut. If he sees your tits bouncing as he fucks you again, he might actually combust in that second.Â
âMe too,â you panted, fingers scraping down his arms.Â
With a few more pumps, Aomine spills into the rubber with a grunt. He feels you convulse around him, your entire body trembling in the aftermath of your orgasm. He can feel his come continue to leak from his cock. God, he hasnât come this hard in a fucking long time.Â
His heart is thundering in his chest from the impact of his climax. He slumped forward, leaning against you for supportâalso partially to feel your tits press up against his chest. âFuck,â he huffs.
âThat was good,â you admit to yourself, still breathing heavily as you begin fixing your hair. âWe should do that again sometime.â
Aomine just laughs, huffing against your skin. âYouâre the fucking she-devil.â
âSays the guy whoâs fucking me in the back room in the middle of an undercover operation.â
âDick first, job second.â
â
Wakamatsu looks at him when he walks into the precinct that morning. âYou do realize the captain is going to kill you for fucking up that expensive mic, right?â
Fuck.
#kuroko no basket#knb#kuroko no basuke#aomine daiki#aomine smut#knb smut#knb drabbles#knb scenarios#anonymous#popz
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Obey Me! Card Planning Tips
Hello! This game causes us all a lot of pain and suffering, but Iâm MANAGING (?), so I thought Iâd give what Iâd consider some tips to maybe make things feel slightly more possible for you :)
Iâll split it into three parts and put it all under a read more.
Team Strength Calculation
Team Preparation
General Tips for Resources and Daily DP
Part 1: Team Strength Calculation
Each stage has 2 sins tied to it, as youâve probably noticed. In chapters 1-20, the stats of these two sins are boosted for ALL cards (character and support) by 15%.*
In chapters 1-20, your teamâs strength is calculated with the following formula:
Strength = 1.15(AttributeSin1Total) + 1.15(AS2Total) + Other5SinsTotal
For example, letâs look at Lesson 10-20, which is a Gluttony/Lust battle. My team is composed of Pandas Mean Profit (Greed), A Special Ceremony (Lust), and Colorful Panic (Pride). And Iâm using zero support cards just so I only have to add up 3 numbers.
Strength = 1.15(24338) + 1.15(34921) + 122736Â = 190884**
Keep in mind that the buffs only apply to the attribute sin scores. If the battle is Gluttony/Lust, the Pride scores will stay at their base values. This is the case for all lessons up through chapter 20, both normal and hard mode.
However, from Lesson 21 onwards, there are two changes. One, there is a primary sin and a secondary sin for each battle, marked by which icon is bigger in the preparation screen. (There always has been, but now it matters which is which.) In boss battles, both are primary. Second, the buffs have changed drastically.
Every card has its main sin, obviously, and its strength in that sin is the strongest. However, they still have strength in the other 6 sins as well. There are two non-main sins that a card is very strong in, two that it is average in, and two that it is terrible in.
The percent increase is now dependent on how good a card is in the battle's two attribute sins. (Remember that these buffs still only affect that sin, not the cardâs total strength.)
If a card is the same sin as the battleâs primary sin, that sin gets a 160% buff
If a card is the same sin as the battleâs secondary sin, that sin gets a 90% buff
If a cardâs second or third best sin is the battleâs primary sin, that sin gets a 30% buff
If a cardâs second or third best sin is the battleâs secondary sin, that sin gets a 10% buff
Any sins lower than third best no longer get a buff
Iâm not going to make a formula this time because itâs too long and situational. But letâs look at that same 3-card team again, this time with Lesson 21-5, a Lust/Gluttony stage in that order.
Pandas Mean Profit has an average Lust score, so it gets no bonus. Its Gluttony is its 3rd best sin, so that gets a 10% buff (10752 > 11827)
A Special Ceremony is a Lust card, so its Lust gets a 160% buff (17308 > 45000). Its Gluttony sucks, though, so that doesnât get a bonus.
Colorful Panic has Lust as its second best sin, so it gets a 30% buff (10423 > 13549). Gluttony is its third best, so that gets a 10% buff too (9866 > 10852).
With the new system, the teamâs Lust score has skyrocketed from 40158 to 65739. However, its Gluttony score dropped from 27987 to 26399.
This means that the sins of your cards suddenly matter more in battle. (And honestly I donât think thatâs a bad thing. I know people complain that it makes it harder, but. If my Comedy team in A3! is made entirely of Action/Drama cards with poor Comedy, I shouldnât expect that team to do well. Idk why people think that shouldnât apply to Obey Me.) Which brings us to part 2.
By the way, colored glow sticks raise the cardâs total strength by 10%, and rainbow glow sticks raise it by 30%.
* Itâs actually like 14.99% but itâs effectively the same. The âslightly under but so close that Iâm just rounding for significant figuresâ thing will be consistent for all of these buffs.
** The actual in-game strength is 190881, 3 points off due to the .99% thing.
Part 2: Team Preparation
Iâm so sorry. But someone has to say it. Are you listening? Great.
URs arenât automatically better than SSRs. Honestly, they never were. They ESPECIALLY arenât now. Youâre not losing the battle because youâre using SSRs. Youâre losing the battle because youâre throwing Wrath cards at a Sloth opponent.
Morning Voice is an Envy SSR card. My copy of the card is only level 10, and in a Lesson 21+ Envy battle, its Envy score is 6866.
What is my Level 90 UR Colorful Panicâs Envy score in the same battle?
3489.
Colorful Panic is a higher rarity and 80 levels higher. It has worse Envy. Why? Because Envy is its worst sin.
Obviously you arenât going to be using a level 10 card in a battle, so for a more realistic standpoint, my copy of Resentment Runs Deep (SSR Envy) has 46108 Envy in the same battle. Thatâs 13x better than the UR.
Iâll repeat it one more time before I move on. The sin scores of a card are far more important than the rarity of the card. A random SR card of the right sin is better than a UR with no sin bonus. The most impressive thing about a UR is how hard it is to get one.
Anyway, what does this mean? Is it hopeless?
Well, if you wanted to binge all three seasons within the first month of playing, yes. But letâs assume thatâs not the case. (Side note, but the feeling that our cards are never good enough is definitely exacerbated by the aggressive speed at which they release new lessons combined with the fandomâs apparent allergy to spoiler warnings, but thatâs a point for another post maybe.)
Remember that having URs isnât actually all that important. Now remember the sheer amount of SSRs they release since they also aggressively release events. Also remember that with every 10-pull, youâll get at least one SSR+. (Also remember to never do single pulls; they're not worth it at all.) If youâre really struggling with a lot of battles, hereâs how you can improve your scores while focusing on as few cards as possible.
Open an Excel document or Google Sheets page and make a chart that looks something like this:
[Image Description: An 8x8 Excel sheet. Â The columns are labelled with each of the seven deadly sins, and the rows are labelled Cards 1 through 3 and Support 1 through 3, with a blank row in between. Â The rest of the sheet is blank.]
Now choose a card you want to use. Doesnât matter why you want to use it, maybe you like how it looks, maybe you worked really hard to get it, maybe you like its ability, maybe itâs just your current strongest card. I donât care. For my chart Iâm gonna use Pandas Mean Profit because itâs really pretty and I got it from the 100-pull pity reward.
Look at your cardâs top 3 sins and put them into the chart. For the character cards, note who the card is, because you canât double up. For reference later, also note whether itâs 1st, 2nd or 3rd best. (Be sure to do this through Contacts and not a battle so there are no buffs skewing the scores.)
Once thatâs in, choose another card you like for a different sin and input that cardâs top 3 sins. Envy is still completely empty, so Iâll put Resentment Runs Deep in next. Itâs an SSR, but I really love the Refresh Team ability. Do this for one character card and one support card of each sin at first, if you can. It doesnât matter what level they are right now. Then fill in whatever blanks you have with cards that specialize in that sin.
If a sin comes up more than 3 times, keep whichever ones are strongest in that sin without overlapping characters. Play around with it until you get something that works for you. Keep note of the sins youâre lacking cards for.
[Image Description:Â The same Excel Sheet as before, except filled in with various Obey Me card names. Â The cells in rows 2 through 4 are color coded to match the character of the card. Â Each cell marks in parentheses how strong the card is in the sin of the column itâs in from 1 to 3.]
Mine looks like this. This chart isnât perfect (if you look, none of my cards had Envy as a good non-main sin, and Pandas and Bunny have too much overlap for the same character), but it works as a rushed example. I used the cell colors to mark the characters.
Are these the teams you should be using for each battle? No, obviously not. First off thereâs no single-sin battle, and second off the game will still build the teams for you.
BUT, this greatly lowers the amount of cards you need to pour resources into. Instead of 42 cards, with this chart I only have to focus on 18 cards in order to be guaranteed that all my cards get at least a SLIGHT boost in each battle. The best-case scenario would drop it down to 14 cards.
Later on, once youâve managed the cards on your chart, the next thing to do would be to find main sin cards to replace those that are only third best in their sin. On mine Iâd definitely focus on a Gluttony character card next, but in general Sloth is the one you want to be the most proactive about.
That should help you get through at least Season 2. Season 3 is admittedly where the difficulty actually IS ridiculous, but Season 2 really isnât as hard as weâve been saying. It just requires more planning than âthe first three URs I ever got.â
I do still apologize for the resources and Grimm itâll take, though :â)
Part 3: General Tips for Resources and Daily DP
This section is just some extra tidbits to help you have the resources to get cards and upgrade them.
[Image Description:Â The âhard to swallow pillsâ meme. Â The pills read âYou donât need every single card and unless youâre a whale eventually youâre going to have to prioritize some events and ignore others or youâll never have the resources to improve the cards you already have.â]
However, events ARE good for farming Grimm, so itâs not the end of the world if you want every SSR. The only issue will come up when you need hard mode items and never have any AP, but itâs manageable.
If youâre going to log in more than once throughout the day, you can do the 2-1 job distribution. If not, do three jobs with one character each so you get the daily task done
To save money for leveling up your good cards, complete the devil tree daily mission with N-rank cards.
Use vouchers over DP whenever you can (and use Raven to get vouchers). The 99 DP level-up sale IS worth it if you can afford it, because thatâs like 50% off a 10-pull once you do two.
Iâm not certain, but I THINK skill level also influences how often an ability activates? I feel like my Lv 10 SSR cards activate often but my Lv 1 URs never do. So if youâre relying on an ability, the permanent SSRs might be worth looking at over limited time cards.
Anyway, I hope this helps at all in our mutual suffering.
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Haikyuu Fanfic recs: bamf/spy AU ;)
Hello loves! ~~Here I am, once again, not finishing one of the other drafts that I have and making a different post~~ (meant to be sung with the make it shine tune) Pretending like you didnât just read that, I am here to recommend some bamf/spy AU fics because currently, thatâs my vibe LOL. No this will NOT have mafia (even tho they are bamfâs) because this is supposed to be spy/secret agent orientated :))))))) (I say this, but if they overlap, they overlap.)
Because of the nature of this list, many of these fics will prolly be a little/lot graphic with their depictions of violence so beware and be warned! I wonât put individual warnings cause like I said these are all a bit graphic in their own ways. That being said, letâs get down to business (cause Mulan IS a bamf) ;)
As per usual, pls check WARNINGS, TAGS, and SUMMARIES for each fic before reading (ESP THIS LIST) and make sure youâre taking care of yourselves (since mental health is key!) Stay healthy loves <3
Super Spy Husbands by leurauxe /IwaOi/ I LOVE THIS SERIES AKJASFDJK READ IT. Itâs SO good and I love their actions scenes and the BACKSTORY OMFG THE BACKSTORY. The proposal fic was SO GOOD AAJSFJLS. Like everyone is done so well in these fics and the plot progression? YES PLEASE.
Hell Mission by codename_bewareofthefangirl (T) 22.7k /IwaOi/ okay IwaOi yes yes but Akaashi? MVP boys. It do be like that sometimes hehe. Anyway, the interactions between them (IwaOi and the whole squad) are gold. Also Iwa and the shower scene? Yes daddy ;)
sorry baby by sketchedsmiles (M) 34.3k /SunaOsa/ THIS!!! Okay you might be thinking wow this seems weird but just read it. I love the way their relationship slowly comes to be and like at the end SakuAtsu just knows ajkfhaldjf. Also when Osamu did the thing (at the hotel) I FREAKED OUT LIKE WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT but itâs okay. They fixed it :â)
bang! now we're even by Authoress (M) 11.9k /BokuAka/ yes you might recognize this from my other post LOL, but I really love this fic so here it is. AGAIN HEHE. Also, Akaashi in a dress? Like the tags might state, what more do you need? The characters are done beautifully, and the story development is SO good (like THE TWIST UGH).
hq detective AUs by valiantarmor /BokuAka, KuroKen, IwaOi/ again, from that same post EHEHE. Man do I really love fighting in my fics LOL. This was super good and the plot itself kept me really engaged (what a twist omg). It does talk a bit about mental health issues, but itâs done so well, and they really did this AU justice! The three fics can be read separately BUT theyâre all done so well, I think you should read them all :)
The One With The Spies by hangoverhater /Multi (but mainly IwaOi)/ PLEASE,,, the fics in this series? HILARIOUS. THE SECOND FIC âWell, this is a nice change of scenery.â âItâs a prison cell.â âI was being sarcastic.â HAD ME DYING. Poor Daichi, he really needs those days off :)))))
on the eighteenth by skittidyne (T) 5k /KuroKen/ I love fics where the characters are forced to face their feelings. This is one of those fics LOL. Itâs done so well and the small details (as Kenma loves) are inserted really well. Like the first night where they fake doing stuff? Amazing LOL.
Punches by Sebastians_senpai (M) 1.5k /IwaOi/ hot Iwa hot bamf Iwa. Like entrance? Hot. Killing people? Hot. Anyway I want a boyfriend who will protect me if I get hurt. Can I be Oikawa? (you know being Oikawa would be an honor in itself)
just a boy undercover (and a boy with the getaway) by volchitsae (M) 14.1k /SakuAtsu/ twin fight rendition number idk but itâs good so whatever LOL. Is it really a SakuAtsu fic without one mention of a major twin fight? (probably yes but in this case no LOL) This one was SO good and I love how annoying Sakusa is >>>> for Atsumu. Also the acceptance at the end ajfakdlf HEART WARMED.
to crash in orbit by aceun (T) 2.8k /SunaOsa/ I LOVE BEING UNPROFESSIONAL ON THE JOB!!!!!! I adore how they know each otherâs tendencies and how Osamu is like, I know heâs hot LOL. Also when they talked about Rome and Prague it made me laugh OMG. And RIP Osamuâs watch, worked hard never to be seen again LOL.
the unfinished kiss by Ellieb3an (E) 6.3k /SakuAtsu/ I told myself, less or no smut, but here we are. Honestly youâd think I learn I never stick to my own rules LOL. Anyway, this is SPICY so avoid if you donât like smut heheh. I absolutely love when they use fighting as foreplay like adflkhf yes PUNCH HIS FACE (does that make me violent? probably LOL).
In knives and bullets by badreputation (M) 8.3k /SunaOsa/ UGH this one. Suna and Osamuâs relationship is *chefâs kiss*. And like I love how it isnât too rushed and they took their time (also angry Suna is HOT). Like the tension at the house during the thing and then the PROPOSAL (LIKE YES). I always find myself coming back to this fic cause I just really love it <3
training by Sebastians_senpai (M) 3.2k /IwaOi/ again the smut.... ANyway, this one is some bamf Oikawa and head-made-of-steel Iwa LOL. Also some avengers talk makes itâs way up (and need I say, Iwa probably did look hot af when he did that), and him constantly hitting the other guy (cause spoilers hehe) made me laugh (ie. targeting LOL).
glass stained black by unrequitedangst (E) 31k /SunaOsa/ OKAY I said nO mAfIa Auâs well.... Technically itâs a SPY mafia AU so teehee. Also another repost cause why not LOL (but altered cause my writing is atrocious). The character development of Osamu is really legit and despite being mafia, itâs not that heavy or angst of a fic (but you should still definitely read tags and warnings first). Itâs a non-linear fic (which I really liked, cause I love non-linear hehe) and the organization just adds another level to the fic development!
I love BAMF so if you have any to recommend, DO IT. Always up for more bamf/spy/secret agent AUâs HEHE. Also this turned into a collection of the same ships LOL IM SORRY, but I have a type and I think itâs very obvious hehe. I hope you all were careful about tags because I got lazy LOL. And this wasnât in any particular order so I shouldâve done it by ship, but Iâm too lazy to do it now LOL. Hopefully, you all enjoyed this list and tbh for my other lists tbd, I might take out commentary and just put like the names (with links ofc). Weâll see LOL. Stay safe and have a great day! <3
#iwaoi#sakuatsu#Sunaosa#KuroKen#BokuAka#DaiSuga#kuroboku#haikyuu fanfic rec#haikyuu fic recs#hq fic rec#anime#manga#haikyuu!!#fanfic recs#spy au#bamf#secret agents#I love these AUs#they give me life#hehe#Anyway#i hope you like them#cause i do lol#haikyuu#hq
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groupie love | jhs
⤠ series: groupie love
⤠genre: angst, rapper!hoseok x youtuber!reader, idol au.
⤠rating: pg13.
⤠word count: 3.1K
⤠warnings: unresolved problems with a very simple solution.
⤠A/N: first, hi :( you guuys, thereâs only one more update left until the end of this! (this was a mini series, idk if i said that) but oomg, i canât believe it! im also a tad bit female sick (monthly) so my brain has been all over the place, so real sorry if this chapter follows that example :/ - either way, let me know what you think!! x
A full week had passed since you last spoke to Hoseok. To be completely honest, you had stopped being upset with him... all it really took was for Jimin to make you realize that you were being a tad bit irrational and should've given him a chance to speak. You couldn't see that at the moment, too wrapped in the thought of him leaving for six months right when things were starting to get good between the two of you.
 A relationship barely started and now you were going to put it to the long-distance test? A test that many couples... who have been together longer than the two of you have, did not survive. No matter how much fun he thought it would be, going along with him wasn't an option either.
 Joining him on tour meant abandoning your responsibilities here to trail behind some guy so he could achieve his dream. The fact that he even asked you to do something like that put a sour taste in your mouth... until you were quickly realizing that wasn't his intention at all.
 In realizing that you were quickly seeing that you didn't know him as much as you thought you did. Relationship still so new, there were many things that were left in the dark when it came to each other's personalities and thought processes. So whisking off behind him on a tour... for six months... when you barely knew him?? definitely off the table.
 Long-distance would have been your best bet because there was no way you were going to throw away the whole relationship. Hoseok was different from the other guys that approached you. He saw you in ways you had never imagined and made you feel comfortable being yourself... no way were you going to just give that up. You two haven't even got to the good part yet.
 So, yeah you weren't mad at him anymore... stopped being mad at him literally a few hours after hanging up the call. Why then did a whole week pass since the two of you had last spoken? You had expected him to call you back after you cut the call short, he didn't. And at the moment you didn't want him to.
 But when the anger was disappearing, you were kinda hoping he'd fall into the chase. Give you a call and try to calm you â not as you needed it. Good thing too, because it never came. Chopping it up to him being busy, you went to bed... hoping to wake up to a missed something from him. And when morning came, the only thing lighting up your screen were emails from past subscriptions you always ignored.
 The entire day passed without contact and you hoped that maybe in this hour he would message you, call you... check-in to see if you were alright!? Nothing, absolutely nothing and you felt like you were going insane checking your phone every fifteen minutes.
 Why not just contact him, right? That would be so much easier and save a bit of your sanity, but that's not how it was supposed to work. You were the one that was upset, therefore, he had to contact you and apologize that way you could tell him that it was okay and everything could go back to normal. That was how it should work, right? Right!?
 Wrong.
 To pile on to your many mistakes in the past seven days, you kept your dry phone stress from Jimin. Not intentionally, entirely... he was busy too (mostly with Yoongi) and it didn't really slide into conversation well. If you had told him sooner, he would've been able to explain to you why your theory was crazy and you should probably just call the man instead of waiting around for him to make the first move.
 It wasn't until you two were hanging out and he was able to notice your frantic glance each time your phone lit up. âHe probably thinks you need space,â Jimin told you, the idea never dawning on you... was Hoseok waiting for you to call him? Checking his phone every fifteen minutes as you had been? Because he thought it was you that was supposed to make the call?
 So you called him, that night after Jimin was leaving. Hummed along to the dial tone as you waited to hear his soft voice on the other line. âWhy are you calling?â It wasn't him, your heart sinking into the pits of your stomach at the sound of the woman's voice on the other line.
 Maybe, he wasn't waiting for your call... maybe he had followed your anger charged advice to find a different groupie to take on tour with him. Maybe you didn't mean anything to him at all.
 âHello?â The woman repeated, growing impatient with your silence. Half a mind to hang up the phone and never talk to him again, but you needed answers. Needed to know who this lady was but refused to hear it from anyone but him.
 âI need to talk to Hoseok,â You replied plainly.
 âObviously, this is his phone. What do you need?â Wow, this woman was rude. Did Hobi know that she was so sour? Surely, he couldn't be interested in someone with such a d-list personality, it didn't match his happy.
 âExcuse me, but I-,â Your words were being cut off by the words overlapping yours, a breathless Joon speaking into the phone. âYn!?â Namjoon was there too!? What? And breathless? Were they... all three of them!? âWhere's Hoseok?â Ignoring the surprise in his tone when he first answered the tone. Your patience was wearing thin.
 âStudio, he left his phone in the practice room. I'm walking there right now.â He let out a huff of breath and you heard some shuffling on the other end. âSo... where you been? Haven't heard from you for a while,â
 Maybe he was waiting for you to contact him first. If he hadn't been, surely his best friend wouldn't be asking you where you've been... right? âYeah...â You reply lamely not knowing what else to say. Not really feeling like you owe Joon much of an explanation, especially if your boyfriend hadn't even received on yet.
 There's more shuffling, a murmured conversation being had away from the phone so you can barely make out what they're saying â but you don't doubt that they're talking about you. A minute passes before the phone is being handed off and you're finally hearing Hoseok's voice.
 âHey,â He did not sound happy to hear from you. âYou good?â
 A little caught off guard you spare a moment to think over what he's asking you. Were you good? Had you been 'good' at all this week? Was it possible that you were so not good without hearing from him that just the sound of his voice instantly had-
 âIf you're good then...â He's trailing off, obviously impatient with your silence. Wouldn't be the first one today. It was like you couldn't find the right words, only now realizing that this was all your fault and you had no idea how to fix it.
 âNo, wait,â Your words are rushed with the fear that he's going to hang up the phone any second. âI...I should've called you. Like before now. But, I want to talk? Is it alright if we meet up to talk?â Maybe if you were able to see him in person, it would be easier to explain yourself... you always felt at ease when you were with him.
 âI'm a bit busy right now but-,â
 âOh, right! Yeah, you probably have a whole bunch of things to do... I guess, then-â A laugh was slipping through his lips, a sound you had no idea you missed so much until this moment.
 â-But, we can meet up tonight. I'll be done around here at like nine.â So sure he had decided that he didn't want to talk and was using being busy as an excuse... you really had to stop interrupting people. Something to work on. Your heart was fluttering though, at the thought of seeing him again. Being able to touch him, kiss him, talk to him, and see that bright smile on his face.
 If you were able to make him smile... you had a lot of things to work through, but you were hopeful. âOkay, yeah. Tonight works, that's good.â
 âGreat, I gotta go... working, you know? But I'll stop by tonight.â You're agreeing, saying goodbye quickly before ending the call.
 Not as horrible as you thought, you were going to get to see him and everything was going to work out. With a quick glance at the time, you were just now realizing that nine was only a few hours away. The need to speed clean your house, getting rid of the evidence of a week worth of moping as quickly as you can.
 You tried to think of all you wanted to say as you cleaned, no idea where to even start... all you knew was you missed him and couldn't wait to see him again.
 You tried to act natural, not put as much weight on seeing Hoseok again as you normally would. Wanted to act like you weren't nervous for his reaction, scared to tell him that you were sorry and the reason why... how childish he might think you after explaining you had ghosted him because you had been waiting for him to contact you first.
 Even despite you wanting to keep your cool, that didn't stop you for getting ready for his arrival as if you were about to be whisked away on some magic date night. After a quick cleaning of your house, you spent the rest of the time waiting for him making sure that you looked good for him.
 You had done your makeup the way you knew he liked, wore something that you were positive would grasp his attention. Your hair was even done to his liking, noting how he preferred when you wore it down more than anything. All of this, done in hopes that he'd be so mesmerized by you that he'd forget how stupid you've been acting for the past seven days. One could only hope.
 It wasn't until there was a sharp knock at your front door that you were putting the finishing touches on your look. Might've even stayed in the mirror longer if it wasn't for him showing up at exactly 9:18.
 With a deep breath, you're making your way to the front door. Hoseok stands on the other side, hands shoved in his pockets and teeth nibbling at his lower lip. Just seeing him and all you want to do is wrap your arms around him and pull him close, not realizing how much you had missed him until this moment.
 His eyes are on you the moment you're pulling the door open, a small smile spreading on his lips. âHi,â His voice is soft and you return his greeting before moving to let him in. He turns to watch you push the door closed and you feel the awkwardness begins to settle in your chest.
 Were you supposed to talk first? Get out an apology before the time rattled on. How were you even supposed to start this? You knew exactly what you wanted to apologize for, wasting the little time the two of you had left with your petty thoughts. How were you to come out and say it, though? It was like the words were stuck in your throat.
 âLook, so... before you say anything,â His voice was breaking you from your thoughts, eyes lifting to look in his direction. He looked nervous like the roles had been reversed. âI wanted to apologize to you... I wasn't thinking when I asked you to come along with me, you know? I just thought it would be fun, but obviously, I offended you with the offer... so I'm sorry,â
 He was apologizing? He felt bad? There was nothing that he needed to apologize for and there he was because you had been too busy with your inner monologue to get on with your apology. Now you had this boy standing in front of you looking sheepish for no reason at all.
 You had to fix this.
 âNo, you don't have to apologize, honestly. It bugged me at the moment, but only because I didn't properly think it over. I know why you asked... and I should've thought more about it instead of blowing up on you like that,â You took careful steps in his direction, taking your time with closing the space between the two of you.
 There was confusion riddled in his features as if he couldn't understand why you were the one that needed to say sorry. He had been so focused on how he had made you felt, he didn't even take the time to think that you might've been in the wrong. The blame game wasn't something he liked to play.
 âI'm also sorry for the way I ghosted you... I was ready to talk to you the day we got off of the phone but I had been waiting for you to contact me first... I know it's stupid, but I just felt like you should've? Since I was the one mad at you... I wanted you to check,â It sounded even more stupid when you were saying it out loud.
 Embarrassed tinted your cheeks pink, but Hoseok didn't seem to notice. Even if he had, he was ignoring it. âYou wanted me to call you?â You nodded, avoiding his gaze. No doubt he was pinning you with the same furrowed brow look Jimin had given you when you first told him.
 You're caught off by the laugh that leaves his lips. Gaze lifting to find him shaking his head, shoulders shaking as he lets out laughs. Now it's your turn to look confused, face contorted as you stare at him. âWhat's funny?â You're asking as he takes deep breaths to calm his laughter.
 âI just... I had been waiting for you to call me. Wanted to give you space or whatever and figured you'd call when you weren't mad anymore... you weren't even mad to begin with, though? That's hilarious to me.â You didn't get it, but he was smiling that pretty smile of his so you had no choice but to agree. His laughter is slowly dying down and he's looking at you, reaching out to grasp your hand. âCome here,â
 Hoseok easily pulls you into his chest, arms wrapping around you in a warm hug. He tried to ignore it, but in the week that he couldn't see you â he had realized how much you started to mean to him. Simple things like holding you close, he was yearning for and not much could make up for it.
 âThis fight was stupid,â He's declaring, leaning back so he could get a good look at your face. His hand lifts to push the hair from your forehead, pressing his lips against it afterward. âI'm leaving soon... we shouldn't waste time like this,â
 Arms lifting to wrap around his waist, you're nodding your head, cheek resting against his chest. âGod, I missed you so much...â He's trailing off, fingers toying with the ends of your hair.
 You had missed him too, and you tell him. Not being able to mask the sadness in your voice. A whole week passed without seeing each other and you were like this. Would you be able to survive six whole months without him? It hadn't even been long, but he had become such a big part of your life.
 âI think I'm gonna miss you too much when you leave...â He's pulling back at the sound of your words, nodding his head as his hand cradle your face. Hoseok stands there looking at you for a while, taking in your sad eyes and tiny pout. The look squeezing his heart but only making him that much more determined to make things work for you.
 âBe my girlfriend,â The words tumble from his lips so smoothly, you're not even sure you hear him right. He's continuing before you have a chance to answer. âI like you a lot, Yn. And I know the next six months are going to be hard... but I think they might be a little easier if I know I have my girlfriend waiting up for me, don't you think?â He's smiling big and you're sure yours matches his.
 Girlfriend. Not fuck buddy. Sidepiece. Groupie. Hoseok's girlfriend. Which came with so much more. Pushed all your insecurities away, solidified things. Just a label, but it came with such security, something that you had no idea you needed so much until you were entering this situation-ship with this man.
 âI'd love to be your girlfriend,â You were grinning hard now, it is covered by his soft lips. His large hands slipping into your hand, tangling in the loose strands as he held your lips to his. Kissing you softly and slowly, as if you two had all the time in the world to enjoy each other.
 You really wished you did.
 He's pulling away all too quickly, but not before leaning down once more to press a gentle peck to your lips. âThings are going to be really hectic these past few days... but we'll make it work.â He sounded hopeful, you were too. âAnd I cleared my schedule for tomorrow... might set us back, but I wanted to spend the night with you.â
 Despite having zero knowledge of how this conversation would go, Hoseok held a lot of faith in you... in your blossoming relationship. Felt like things would work out for you if the two of you made sure to work together on things. It would be a bit of a learning process for you, he could tell but he was willing to work at it with you.
 âI'd really like that,â You say, leaning up on your toes to press your lips back onto his. Ready to make the most of tonight, no matter what you did. Just wanted to be with him and make up for lost time.
 Stock up on all the smiles, the hugs, the kisses that you could because in a few weeks. Your six-month challenge would be starting, you needed to memorize what his lips felt like while you still could. Ready to cherish every moment until he was getting on that plane.
â heâs ½ of the famous rap duo, the 94â˛s. when stumbling upon a pretty youtuber, heâs quick to decide he wants to have her. but one night with her just doesnât seem like enough.
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Ill soon move to Copenhagen to study abroad!! But i am worried about navigating European society as a black American woman. I dont know how much your identity might overlap with mine but do you have any tips for navigating white European society?? I know it varies by country but any insight into how race is perceive would be appreciated!!
hello! first of all congratulations, studying abroad is such a great opportunity and i hope it'll all go amazingly for you <3 now while a lot of europe is the same in important ways, a lot of europe is also very different in key aspects lmao. i have once heard that denmark was the france of scandinavia, meaning that they were huge assholes. my experiences with danish people confirmed that theory, since one was a huge fascist and the other one was a cunt who never said hello back. with all of that being said, there is still hope for them i guess or at least i choose to believe it bc some day i'd like to visit and i'd hate to feel like they should take one for them team and launch themselves into the sun for the good of humanity
anyways all of that tangent to say: white Europeans are a LOT to deal with. my friend just launched an exhibition about all the shit that she, as a black woman, was told over the years navigating white, belgian spaces. you'll have to deal with a lot of microaggressions, and since europeans have their heads far up their own asses yet think their shit smells like roses, they can't even fathom that they don't live in a mythical post-racial society where they get to be racist in peace because "they aren't americans" -_- as if structural racism was an american phenomenon and not a european construct
i am a non-black muslim woman of colour so there are some things that may overlap between you and i but i do not experience anti-blackness. as an american though, u will "enjoy" a certain amount of leeway because you come from a western country, and therefore aren't the "wrong" kind of migrant for the danish mind, aka a refugee or a migrant from africa or a hijabi. but it doesn't mean that it'll be a walk in the park either. denmark likes to think of itself as a "social democrat" country but social democracy only applies to white people there. however there are many ppl of colour in copenhagen itself and i hope you'll manage to build a support system that will help you navigate and put up with the insanity of denmark. it is a beautiful country from a purely aesthetic perspective but there is a lot of fuckery that is on par with france, but with taller and blonder people (or bald headed neo-nazis).
now i don't want to paint a catastrophising picture for you to only take away the fact that denmark is racist but i do want u to protect ur spirit and mind and kind of steel yourself against potential scenarios that may await u. i even hate to suggest that u actually have to harden urself but it is what it is. i'm not saying that other european countries are inherently better either, belgium is also a lot to take in and so is france or the netherlands or spain or italy and so on. anti-blackness, islamophobia and antisemitism are rampant here but it doesn't necessarily define every single experience of every day, and i do hope you'll end up having a completely different experience than what i'm saying might await you! it is after all a big city and big cities tend to offer a plethora of different (and perhaps more positive) experiences. but in any case know that you aren't alone. the black lives matter movement is gaining a lot of traction throughout europe and i know there's a danish chapter so obviously there's work being done on civil society level to foster a less racist environment. it might be the case that danish ppl are like americans and that u won't really be all that disconcerted with their behavior. but idk and i choose to hope for the best for you! wishing u the best of luck and if u want to rant when u are there my inbox is open!
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