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system-of-a-feather · 2 years ago

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Man though, our fiance's brain literally forgot what serotonin is and like, it's been getting there for the past year and he's been just kinda ignoring it, but he's been having panic attacks daily for the past like month - and good news he got the meds he needs (cause we both agree it seems mostly a neuro-chemical issue than it is a cognitive kinda thing)

But this whole thing has been really interesting cause for the past month >WE< have been the >mentally stable< party and helping in crisis states for once

And this whole thing has been a huge role reversal that has us both going "bro you LIVE like this"

Cause it's not bad enough that I'm complaining, but my boy has been maintaining this role I've been playing for 5-6 years and while its "easy" and something Im glad to be doing, I could not imagine keeping this level of attentiveness and "fucks given" for lack of better words for such a long period and I'm just like jesus christ he makes this look easy

And he's just like What the Fuck - how the fuck did they manage to do *motions to everything* when what I'm going through is a quarter of their old base line and I've had to go to urgent care for meds

And now that he's getting better thanks to meds we're just like "hey can we trade back" in a lighthearted joking manner

Cause its actually a bit of a moment of appreciation as a silverlining cause like - god the emotional labor is real being the "mentally stable" party and fucking MAD respect for him making it look easy; and on his end hes like FUCK I get it good fucking god now I understand why you are dumb about things sometimes (affectionate again)

And were just like "bro you make this shit look easy tf you live like this"

Cause now that hes a lot more stable I'm setting some time aside to have recovery ME time and I'm just like *deep breath of emotional labor exhaustion* "My avoidant attachment is not used to having to focus on someone and have attention both given and received for such long periods of time my emotional availability muscle while 100x what it used to be is still weaaakk"

I'm also glad we can functionably reverse roles like this honestly. It's a good sign of a mutual relationship and flexibility to get through issues, but good god, hope we can return to both of us doing our specialties XD

I'd literally love to just like, vampiric suck his mental illness away cause if that was possible, I'm much much much more adept and used to bearing that kind of issues but UNFORTUNATELY that is not a thing I can do :/ /lh /hj

-Riku

#alter: riku #vent #vent tw #not really a vent but ya know

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angelpuns · 7 months ago

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Leo going through the horrors but the horrors are just that he had a shitt day and no one bothered to save him any cookies :/

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naffeclipse · 7 months ago

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I know it's just because I'm a tired cranky raccoon rn but I feel like everyone hates me

#ya know that post #the self care one with the racoon?#and it gives like three scenarios of feeling like everyone hates you/feeling like you hate everyone/feeling like you hate yourself #that's what i have to remind myself of when the feelings of hate get really bad #sorry for the vent like i know in my brain it's not true but i need to expel the feeling from my body with some kind of acknowledgment and #get free of it somehow and this is it #vent #naff nuh huh

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moeblob · 2 months ago

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So, lore?

Lo'en is a half elf and across the world there are designated elven kingdoms. One of them! Where she was born and her mother (elf) still lives, is frigid and in the north. Humans still have an odd tradition for Santa and so she hides her slightly pointed ears so that she doesn't have to sit through ANOTHER "Saint Nick" story that the northern elf king refuses to be offended by. His name is Niklava and he rather LIKES the association of how giving the cold can be! Lo'en could easily live without hearing another comment about ol' Saint Nick and his elves though.

Hold, while technically human/mortal, is cursed to live life over and over. And he has plant/green powers. He gets a lot of the "oh you'll grow up to be fine one of these days!" "you're still a sprout in this life time" "you still have time to bloom then!" and he also hates it.

Because Hold has to continue living even after he dies (though his body regresses to a child like age as he "recovers from death") he's absolutely enamored with Lo'en who just continues to exist. Her life span is way longer than a humans, longer than his /should/ be. And he admires her a lot and is really grateful to have her around for so many of his lives lived. Lo'en is relieved to have someone she gets along with who won't die and leave her forever. He dies, sure, but he gets better.

Lo'en meets Hold first while during one of his sister's dead phases so that's why the two are much closer than Lo'en is to Hold's sister. The two girls do help keep Hold safe when he's dead but they aren't super best friends or anything.

#my characters #phew ok had to think of a way to keep loen alive long enough to matter in the many lives of hold and his sister #also they have a teacher/instructor who loves to make the really bad jokes that theyve both heard a lot #but the teacher does help so she gets a pass to an extent #loen still rants and vents to hold about her tho like OH COME ON IVE BEEN ALIVE LONG ENOUGH NONE OF THOSE ARE FRESH #loen also thought for the longest time she would grow cold and distant - like her powers are as cold as she expected to be after centuries #but she met hold and he warms her up and fills her with joy and delight and she cherishes him more than she can say #and in contrast hold acknowledges the irony of never knowing death for long and for having the powers of plant growth #and he thought fate was being cruel but loen appears while hes mourning and lonely without his sister #and she tells him while he might be lonely its absolutely beautiful to her that he continues to live his lives to the fullest #and that opens his eyes to the fact its really not so bad if he cant fully die #hes had his sister by his side for it and now he has a friend who he cherishes #anyway they love each other a whole lot and its cute but bittersweet and then shit hits the fan so ya know #shrugs have them being annoyed at the constant comments they get no matter how obvious it should be that they hear them enough

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camvrin · 2 months ago

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running my hands down my face

#NOT a vent just emotional #everybody's falling in love and i'm falling behind //lyr #ya ik you're kids so its not “real love” yet #you don't even know what that is #but idk what it is but I'm getting real envious #like.#I'm really wanting a gf now #like I want something romantic I want to have a warm fuzzy feeling in my chest and say I'm in love #I want my ear to be whispered into and I want to be taken out on cafe dates and spend the fall with a lover who'll jump into leaf piles w m #YES this is because Olivia and Ari js got a gf #I want what Jake and Casey have man something casually romantic #or something like what Stitch and Connor have #what Stitch and I USED to have #smth like any of my friends who are “in love” tbh #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA THIS IS NOT OKAY

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fullmetal-scar-simping · 3 months ago

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Mangahood fans have a lot of little flippant ways they address 03 fans and our preferences, but I think the silliest one (and there are many to choose from) is the argument that "fans of the first anime think it's deeper than it is just because it's dark". Of course anyone who says this never delves into what exactly they think separates a shallow "darkness" versus "real" narrative depth. Not because surface-level 'dark' tones don't exist in various media, they do. But rather so much of it rests on dodging the greater focus 03 has on questions of humanity vs dehumanized subclasses, genocide, race, and imperialism that isn't treated like set dressing, and actually having the teen protags struggle and feel the weight of their terrible circumstances and actions.

But y'know. It's shallow-dark.

(Don't get me started on the same specific fans who then laud mangahood for being 'dark'.)

And I'm gonna be honest, seeing broho fans say this when their show is so desperately afraid of lasting, irrevocable consequences for their characters, AND that these same fans wouldn't like the show if the ending wasn't tooth-achingly saccharine, is like getting called an immature edgelord by these fuckers

#i know this isn't fair to all mangahood fans #a lot of y'all are perfectly lovely/cool/awesome people #shout out to you fine folks!#but MAN #far too many fma fans have no teeth to their critiques or even their own appreciation for the mangahood canon #''03 enjoyers only like that show because they're stupid'' yeah good one bro ya really got us #apparently i'm in a light venting mood #¯\_(ツ)_/¯#mine #fma #fma 03 #fmab #vent

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sketchy-tour · 8 months ago

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Happy Easter if yall celebrate it!!!!! Otherwise I hope yall have an absolutely fantastic Sunday!!!!

Aaaa I feel like I'm not as chatty as I once was on here. Been a bit all over the place! Also feel silly making a ton of text posts with no art so I try and limit how often I blab on here.

But just know I still appreciate all of you who follow and like my art! Every bit of interaction I still see and it still baffles me to see such kind words. It means the absolute world to me!!!! 💖💖🌻

#plus Ive been drawing other things between wh art #but I know no one here would wanna see my original character art. Which is so okay im not lamenting that!#this blog was always meant for fandom stuff! but ya know. if im drawing other stuff it means my fandom art slows down slightly #still need to get back in the groove with drawing Dandy #really hard not to feel discourage ever since dealing with them being used without my permission (Which has already been long since handled)#but I havent shaken off that upset I felt. Made me all tol hesitant to even post Dandy anymore.#course also kinda put a damper on my fun #OH IM RAMBLING! venting??? this isnt about that #shaking my head and clearing clouds!!! anyway! needless to say im trying. i hope you guys dont mind being patient with me #happy easter!#or uh happy sunday!!!! if you dont celebrate!#OH AND HAPPY TRANS DAY OF VISIBILITY!!!!!!#Wow my tag rambles are all OVER THE PLACE #text post #just rambling #ill shut up now 💖

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skelespidey · 2 months ago

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the ache in my heart that is screaming for me to dehumanize myself and let people do whatever and be nice to everyone regardless of my true feelings.

#ajax posts ཋྀ #ajax vents ཋྀ #i dont really deserve to have a brain or have thoughts #or a voice #i should just be a little soldier ya know cuz then i wouldnt hurt people </3

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plutotunealouette · 17 days ago

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ugh im just. really unhappy recently.

#im trying not to vent on tumblr as much anymore bc like... thats what journals are for #but somehow it feels good to have these thoughts released somewhere that isnt contained like my head or a journal #sometimes????#idk if ya know ya know #im just really sad #im coming to the realization that i really truly am unhappy with most if not all aspects of my life and my future prospects #it all feels pretty fuckin bleak and hopeless fam i cant lie #ursulas thoughts

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im-still-watching-anime · 4 months ago

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one piece is crazy fr like what do you mean you’re following up Everyone’s Dead™️ with Objectifying Women: The Arc™️

#bruh :/#im bout to vent cause im mad about it rn sorry #op fans there are many good elements to your series outside of this and i love u sorry im about to talk shit about it #pls abandon ship now and stop reading my tags to avoid if you want #anyway #once i put a certain amount of time into something i usually commit to finishing it #but this arc is like 👌 this close to making me abandon the whole series like wtf is this #i know i KNOW sexist shit is like practically unavoidable in anime but this is a LOT jesus christ #i want to punch a WALL #like wtf do you think women ARE #i want to attack and kill #everyone who has ever told me that naruto is worse than one piece about women owes me 500 dollars rn #like it’s BAD and i would have been mad about this either way #but i think im extra salty because ive had SO many people praise one piece women at me #and i was like doubtful cause ya know LOOK at them #but i LISTENED because everyone was so insistent the women are good and it’s not bad with that kinda thing #which was a BETRAYAL because seriously wtf is this😤#ughhhhh i CANT watch this HOW am i supposed to watch this #why do i have to watch the creepy island of women cluelessly mess with unconscious mans dick trope i canttttttttt #the answer is i DONT have to watch it and i want to STOP #how are yall watching this i still havent even forgiven thriller barks invisible man nami bath scene #like yall i canttttttttt #my ‘fiction that treats women like shit’ tolerance is too low for this #ughhh really at a loss here because so much time already committed and i was enjoying it aside from this #but i really CANNOT keep watching if the bar gets any lower and idk if it even CAN get lower #sorry sorry okay vent over this just #REALLY pissed me off #cause it kinda blindsided me i think

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rexscanonwife · 5 months ago

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Ugh idk if it's good or bad that I can recontextualize my anxiety now, I made a sandwich and spotted some suspicious white stuff on the crust and I've been deliberating and scouring the internet to find out if it's mold or flour, and for a second I thought 'wow I'm being sooo worrywart core' 😂😂😂

#jane journals #vent #mold mention #idk how else to tag this but if anyone needs it just lemme know #but that tiktok audio of a choir of kids singing 'all food is poison' REALLY HITS HOME TO ME SOMETIMES LEMME TELL YA 😭😭😭#i think its bcs i HAVE been poisoned by food before that im so cautious #but now even tho im pretty sure its not mold i dont really wanna eat it :[#i wasted half an avocado if i dont tho...

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childish-husk · 2 years ago

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#jee ya think /s #like i know its true #but the only time i see people saying it #is so they can invalidate people who've been abused by their parents #jesus christ #is it really that hard to just shut up and listen to victims #emotional abuse #personal vent #trauma #child abuse #gaslighting #meme

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good-beans · 7 months ago

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#not really a vent - just a quick thought before i sleep but like.#i keep thinking about that post #theres no way ill find it now but the gist was that 'joy is a warning bell to neurodivergent brains'#and how when we feel joy it means we've loosened up and that always leads to a problem --#whether its getting to be Too Much or saying the wrong thing or even just getting physically loose and clumsy #but it conditions the brain to see joy as something to fear #because relaxing means we're about to fuck something up #and ive been doing so well this year keeping up with and calling people #ive felt more social lately #literally everyone has been so incredibly kind to me and i want to express how grateful i am and how much i love you all #but every time i try to i get so choked up with fear #with each wave of happiness comes one of chest-squeezing fear #im not super upset or anything (its nice to know why its happening) i just wish i knew how to unlearn it ya know 🤷‍♀️#thats all - time to sleep #its so late -_-#awww its my pals birthday now!! earth day birthday :') too late rn but ill text him when i get up #rose rambles

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cute-girls-from-vns-anime-manga · 7 months ago

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Thank you for the hearts anon I'm sorry that tumblr's ask system put a limit on the amount of love you sent my way

#ask #anon #weird that anyone reads my venting in those read mores #even weird that people care enough to send stuff like this after #not complainging makes me really happy #but ya know #being raised in abuse realllllly devalued my own opinion of speaking my feelings

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snekdood · 2 months ago

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i dont think I should have to explain how it's fucked up to tell someone with bpd, someone with an already unstable sense of self, that they're not themself and try to insist you're them instead. I feel like that's pretty self explanatory actually

#i wonder what excuse they came up with to treat me like this. that so many people keep enabling them to treat me like this too.#vent #i mean at this point if they're still trying to harp on the situation (i wouldnt know i dont keep up with them.) im assuming they're blamin #me for every type of abuse under the sun so that suddenly makes however they treat me okay or something #person reading this that doesnt believe me: imagine for a second im telling the truth. now look at their actions.#you really think thats a normal non abusive person? ya fucking sure? you sure they wouldn't act that way to someone close to them too #if they're so confident about acting that way about someone else bc they know they can say anything to justify it?#personally its a huge red flag when someones convictions and morals go completely out the window when they want to hate on #someone. like you're anti rape till you hate me. you're anti invalidating trans ppl until you hate me. you're anti punitive justice #until you hate me. idk but to me that just tells me you were never progressive and your progressiveness is conditional.#its more of a 'manners' thing for you rather than actual morals.

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tea-brigade · 3 months ago

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a fun little life update is that i hadn't seen my therapist since like april (bc i needed to save money and also we decided i didn't need to see her regularly anymore) but i needed to make an appointment recently as a lil check in as a certain situation at work has been Testing Me

and it was very very fun to quite literally be that one meme that's like. me rolling in wearing shades holding coffee and going "mallory you're not gonna fuckin BELIEVE this"

#i really love her so much #top 5 people i'd be best friends with if hipaa weren't a thing lol #i'm fine btw by the time i got to the appt i had mostly processed the Situation on my own which is cool and exciting for me #so it was more like a very expensive friend venting session lol still very helpful and good for the brain goop #life has been pretty good lately but sometimes those damn brain goblins just get ya you know?#just yelling into the void

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