#not quite a vent

[ask-hsr-characters]

Hello, everyone. Before I get into this, I’d like to make it known that this is not a goodbye post. I’m not giving up on this blog - I still love running it.

Anyways, I sincerely apologize for the delay in answering asks. I used to be able to answer them within the day or the next day, but now it’s been more like a day to three days.

I’ve just been struggling with things like my schedule, motivation, and mental health, so I hope you can all understand. Again, this isn’t a goodbye post, all I’m saying is that it might take up to a day to potentially four or five days for your ask to be answered. I hope you can all understand, thank you. I love you all, and thank you for supporting my blog.

(Sorry if this is too overdramatic, I just felt bad for taking so long…)

[arrayoflightarchives]

System: *puts 2 separate reminders a day on sp notifs to make sure that we talk to people and don't self isolate*

Me: *ignoring both of them*

[genderkiller]

as an arospec person i do not understand how people have aro pride. ace pride i understand and respect but being aro makes me feel awful abt myself

being aro has only ever hurt me and the people around me i find nothing to be proud of in it

[staringamassivemistakeintheface]

It’s so easy to get lost in the day-to-day rush, fighting to keep all the balls in the air when I only ever had half a lesson on how to juggle. But while I was berating myself on doing a shit job on an assignment and leaving revisions for the last possible day, a revelation of sorts struck me:

How was I doing this time last year?

Circumstances are very different between senior year of high school and freshman year of college, obviously. But a quick look back through my blog’s activity from September to November 2023 shows exactly what my priorities were. I was watching Decked Out streams in almost every class, and I didn’t care about the classwork that was piling up. It was almost a relief on my end when Tango announced the closing date for DO (and I know my parents were relieved).

It’s not a perfect comparison point, given how much of an event that DO was. But it’s a reassurance nonetheless. Since starting college, I’ve only stopped by a couple Hermit streams. I’ve stayed much more focused on what I have to do, even if I still struggle to get stuff done to a satisfactory level. I’ve somehow grown in the past year, and I hope I continue to do so.

[pegstick1911]

When you think you meeting a real person. And then boom. She wants a game card for her son. 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

[destiny-in-the-universe]

God, I really need to work on this-

I’ve messed up so many times because of my disorders and mental health, and I’m not trying to put light of the situations I’ve caused but I spiral and then I get… mean. I don’t know.

That’s all I’m going to say about it. I don’t want that kind of negativity again because I did it to myself, but I’m going to try… this time around.

hot take but some feelings are actually irrational and dare i say bad and you’re better off not verbalizing them. that’s just reality. there are times in your life when you might have to sit on your feelings and keep them secret and that’s just the best option.

[solitarysilence]

Mmmmmmf

I'm out of energy

I'm bored

Can't tell if I'm burnt out or what

But it's. Not great

[onemoreattempt]

I hate it when I am caught between my desire to make my friends comfortable when we hang out and my desire to be inclusive.

Like I’m busy with another friend at the time you wanna hang out. I know you’d enjoy the activity, but you being there would make it less comfortable and fun for the other friend (not bc you’ve done anything wrong).

In that case, it’s an easy decision because I already made plans with someone else.

However

I HATE HATE HATE IT when people start talking about plans in front of people who aren’t invited (in the context of everyone being in a friend group with each other)

Makes me so torn bro bc why would you talk about a gathering they aren’t invited to when they are there😭

Every fiber of my being has to resist the urge to try to include the other person because it sucks so bad to be excluded, but, if it is someone else’s gathering, what can I do?

[sandydgonzalez]

You were asked if you liked me, if you found me beautiful and if you wanted to flirt with me, your response was a face of disgust and a loud ‘no, of course not’, I don’t even like you, but the way you said that hurt me.

Because that is the way I think people who I am attracted to would ever react if I asked them or if they were asked the same exact questions.

Utter disgust, pure repulsion, a negative so loud everybody would hear, I feel like if they even think about it they’ll go nauseous.

Am I that disgusting? That horrible that you cannot bear the thought of you liking me?

I feel like I should not take it personally but like hell your response confirmed all my suspicions, I am not that pretty -either on the outside or the inside- maybe I am in fact hard to like, hard to love, my qualities do not redeem my flaws, there is no way that you would look at me in a room full of beautiful, talented, intelligent and amazing women I surround myself with, I am the last one you look at, the last one you would think of taking on a date and certainly the last one you would choose to love.

[transsexual-dandelions]

im going to cry without fail using my laptop for extended periods of time hurts its always either it fucks up my wrist and idk triggers the nerve pain and makes it all tingly and static or my knuckles with ache and lock up i cant win !!

[adustoflove]

Born to be clingy and obsessive, forced to be cool and nonchalant about things

[purplepixel]

[bluewolfangel01]

Mc: 😠

Demons: 😥

Luke: ... What's going on?

Solomon: Mc is upset at the brothers, Diavolo, and Barbatos because they "didn't come home."

Mc: Correction, I'm upset at the brothers, Diavolo, and Barbatos, EXPECT for Lucifer. Cause at least he comes home to me!!!

Lucifer: *standing with a smug look on his face*

Demons: But Mc 🥺

Mc: *turns back to them* I don't want to hear it. If yall don't want to come home that's fine, guess I'll just only ask for Lucifer from now on.

Demons: BUT MC!!! 😢

[sol-insidious]

"The strongest stars have hearts of kyber"

[pcktknife]

💧 doodle

[porcelainnpines]

Some Kind of Attempt at Closure