#not helping my dysmorphia

[viivdle]

just looked at pictures from a year ago

safe to say i'm unwell

[desktopmermaid]

Using myself as a live model again + sum journals

[tetsuskei]

my favorite trope is your body becoming your faves favorite type because they’re so in love with you and adore you sm

[fangthroat]

⛓️ ggrrrrrrr bark bark 💢

shout out to tripling my dysphoria / dysmorphia,,, not only do i not feel entirely human or human at all sometimes, but being transmasc on top of it im just i struggle so hard being in this body. and w my illnesses affecting it i don't feel strong, handsome. i want to be the cool handsome black haired quiet wolf boy in my head. i want a strong jaw and to look handsome with short hair. but i just don't </3 mirrors are my least favorite thing. always have been. cant use fitting rooms, just PERCEIVING my strange flesh weak mortal form when i feel truly and deeply feel like a bloodthirsty monster with decades of loneliness at my back. when my body doesn't match the wolfboy in my head. my body all misshapen and chubbier than it should be when i want to be fit, slim and have muscles n curves for my husband to hold. its just genuinely why i think i struggle with feeling SO ugly and disgusting sometimes its scary knowing people will see you and not actually SEE you. idk if that makes sense. please don't look at me like this. its not me. this isn't me. i don't know why i was given this form but i just want to live in my own skin for once.

[sungjinwhump]

new headcanon:

if jinwoo's clothes get torn in any way, beru (and perhaps igris) insists on covering him up out of respect for his privacy?? like. they just wanna make sure their king's body is only shown when he wants it to be shown!!!

this leads to so many shenanigans and jinwoo being super?? confused?? maybe a little touched but he'll never say that out loud.

(bonus points for body dysmorphia cos i refuse to believe that jinwoo doesn't struggle with his body image when it changed so rapidly/suddenly and it prbly didn't feel like his for a long time—)

[moe-broey]

I'm gonna bully Lif again

I'll admit, some of these answers don't cover all the bases, but. What are we thinking, here. What is The Truth behind The Twink Death? 🤨🎤

I will also be accepting write-in responses as usual 🫡

[weepingandgnashingofteeth]

went to the doctor and i weighed abt 145 :D

[lata-oxidada]

I was getting too bored and wanted to draw with a technique I haven't used since primary school, I like Samarie a lot even if I haven't played the game, her moonscorch form Is pretty cool if one avoids the daily horrors and implications

Judging by how long it has been since I last used oil pastels I think I like the result but I find it very not as distraught enough,the eye is not staring intensely enough for me but maybe is the best for my health and my sleep, I'm sorry if it disappoints

Tw:possibly disturbing imagery

[kmfdmsuckz]

my dad after I opened up to him about having gender dysphoria just for him to give a whole transphobic ahh speech, which he ended with, 'but that's just my opinion', and told me to not come back with my mom's with a 'boys haircut':

[diedandgone]

Somone explain this for god sake ....

How is it am going up in kgs wtf ...

Ik am eating a lot but am fucking wallkkkkin / speed walkin even more .

And am hitting 20 h minum of water fasting .

🕸🕷🥀🕷🕸

[humblepoet26]

Girls, do you know how tempted I am to buy this dress? To be clear, I don't usually voluntarily like wearing dresses (as you can tell from the butch loverboy vibes I got going) but something in me is urging me to do it and I'm so tempted.. someone tell me not to 😍

[thegoldencontracts]

Eyyy actually on the topic of Azul and weight... what do you think he even did to lose weight? Magic? Lugging a sunken anchor around?? It would be wildly different in the sea than on land...

Personally I headcanon he lost around half at land camp-- meaning he has stretch marks to already add to the body issues... maybe he uses magic to conceal those, though, in case anyone tries to take a peek at him.

IN WHICH, LOCKER ROOMS! DOES NRC have locker rooms?? What do u think..

Sooo I actually like imagining he started trying to lose weight since he was a kid! There's just something so painful about it. At just ten, he was pushed to believe he wouldn't be taken seriously, that he'd be mocked and bullied unless he was skinny. There's also the added angst bonus of his mother noticing he's been skipping meals.

I mean, it's just- Over half of Azul's life has been spent with his mind occupied by the thought of food. His mother canonically didn't have much time for him in the midst of her divorce. And now she sees what's happened to her once innocent, adorably chubby son. He loathes himself simply for the way he looks.

The way the twins would react. To them, Azul's perspective on his weight is actually entirely new. Floyd and Jade have both been shown to like the squishier, younger Azul. He doesn't get it. Why is Azul making himself miserable like this just to avoid being chubby? Is being chubby that bad?

And Azul + locker rooms is just...

I feel like they have locker rooms, since they canonically have to change into PE uniforms (and so far we haven't seen any mention of being able to magically change their clothes + yuu would deffo mention smth about the awkwardness of changing clothes because they cant use magic if that were the case).

The humiliation. The dread. Will he be subject to endless mockery once more? And yet, he hides it all behind that typical, charismatic smile.

But a smile can only cover things up for so long. Even for someone who's built up as high a tolerance for endless mockery as Azul, the walls always fall to time - no matter how strong. The dam will break. And when that finally happens, it'll be a mess, I know that much.

Anyways this concludes my yap session (FLOYD YAPANESE MOMENT) and thank you for giving me a chance to brainrot a bit <3 I know my hcs differ a bit from yours, sorry T_T

[battyccino]

Whenever I see art of a smart beautiful and confident person with a big belly it makes me feel really happy about my big belly. Seeing other people with shared traits be confident helps me be confident. Thank you. Your art is beautiful.

Thank you, what a sweet comment!!! To be fair Master Kohga already exists as a plus-sized canon character who is incredibly confident and comfortable with himself! I just like to draw him outside of his uniform and show off what I picture his pretty face looking like under the mask. :) BUT l’m very happy to hear this, I hope others feel similarly because having a character like Kohga being so beloved by his in-universe clan and the fandom is very refreshing.

[xskyll]

My mother has a Christmas tradition where she buys me a shirt in a size (or two) too big every year. I've been the same size now for over ten years, but I used to be 40 lbs heavier. While I was losing weight, she would frequently tell me how bad I looked (for context, after those 40 lbs, I am still about 30 lbs heavier than what is considered ideally healthy for my height, so it's not like I was becoming worrisomely thin, and I lost the weight very slowly).

Usually, she doesn't ask if the shirt fits, but if she does, I say it's too big and remind her of my size. She always says something like, "Oh, well, I thought it looked small. I don't have the receipt. Just wear it anyway," or, "Maybe you could take it in on your sewing machine."

It's like opening a box every year with a note inside that says, "Do you REALLY think you're that size? Look at your face, honey. Your waist. You're fatter than you think."

Anyway, for the last three years, I've had "lose 10 lbs" as a New Year's resolution, and I've been killing myself trying, and failing, to achieve it. So this coming year, I'm going to try to stop dieting and focus on getting as muscular as possible. Forget becoming the dainty, slender princess in the tower. I want to be the buff knight that saves her instead. I'm doing this for me, but I bet my mom will hate me being muscular even more than she'd hate me being thin, so that's just some icing on the cake. Get mad.

[elephantlovemedleys]

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[suzie-guru]

I love my job in that it supports me while I write and create and that working with kids is super rewarding and I’m genuinely grateful to have it.

But GOD my body dysmorphia/negative self image is NOT helped in that the clothing nannying requires means I look like a sloppy dog’s dinner on a good day. I know it’s part of child care but dammit I hate catching a glimpse of my reflection and hating how I look, from the shape of my body to what I have to wear. It blows.