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does anyone else set arbitrary goals for themselves? like, “if I do 30 minutes of cardio I can have some water”. I do it all the time.

[diedandgone]

Every time I see someone really skinny irl, I always think about if they have an ed or their metabolism is just unbelievably fast. And in the and I always hope that there are people with Ed‘s out there who see me and think the same stuff about me…

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Coke 0 Oreo is my addiction 😬

Snacky snack

Lil yogurt mixed with no suger Almond milk

Strawberries ,Cherries and blueberries .

Pretty low call and satisfying 😌

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[diedandgone]

How can I recover but still loses whight lol

That's the question xoxo

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[diedandgone]

2025:

delete instagram (& keep it deleted!!)

any movement is better than no movement. take (short) walks do 10 minutes of yoga etc

say no when you want to

write more things down

eat fruit

its ok. its ok. its really all ok I promise that it is and will be ok

[diedandgone]

How can I recover but still loses whight lol

That's the question xoxo

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[diedandgone]

How can I recover but still loses whight lol

That's the question xoxo

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[diedandgone]

🚬...☕️...☕️....

I love food, yet fear its hold,

Numbers haunt where joy once told.

Hunger lingers, guilt takes flight,

I overeat, then loathe the fight.

Black coffee mirrors my soul’s decay,

Cold and dark, I waste away.

Will this ache forever stay,

Or must I vanish to feel okay?

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[diedandgone]

🥀☕️

"I had some food"

But I don't want more

I lie to eveyone

It's hard to ignore

"I love my coffe black"

A joke I repeat,

Like my soul—empty,

Cold and discreet.

But truth be told,

I hate my coffee black—

I just want my life back !

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❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

[diedandgone]

When I was at my hw I thought I was skinny and now at my lw I think I’m fat. WHAT

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My insta is doing me dirty ..mmm km plz

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[diedandgone]

[diedandgone]

"don't starve you might die" oh no. oh no please anything but that. 😐

[diedandgone]

Weakened limbs, a fleeting breath,

A slow descent, a flirt with death.

Yet still, the voice insists.

Though every step feels sharp and rough.

Depression weaves its shadowed thread,

A constant echo, a heart of dread.

The world moves on, I fade away,

A ghost of light turned dull and grey.

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[diedandgone]

Every step for you

How can I stop when the pain feels true?

Too deep, I’m drowning, starving to be

A shadow of the "best" I thought I’d see.

So weak, so hollow, a fragile plea,

Empty and broken, I long to be free.

I sought control, but lost the key—

Why does Anna now control me?

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[diedandgone]

Not going to lie am over my ed , am having so much pain in my bones , it hurts eveything hurts . And that's not including the mental torture !

My health overall has never been as bad as this ever.

Av never been so unhappy in my life.

I miss my normal relationship with foood I was at a healthy whight and looked amazing, had good habits with food and had forgot wha a life full of binging/ st✨️rving was like , but then shit hit the fan .

lost my job had so many issues in my life I started to eat my feeling again .

Only to wakeup to wha I had done to my self and wanting to loses the whight. In a healthy way I said to my self this time .

Then fucking ana comes runing back so happily I took her not known wha I just got my self in to this time she's back and she doesn't want to leave .

Even tho am a normal whight now and want to be normal with food and with eveything again . ..

I can't seem to be able to, I feel like am held hostage in my own mind and body .

Fuck you

Fuck you so much

You fucking cunt .

Leave me alone

Please

I want to be normal again

I don't want to be the thinnest in the room

I want to be happy and free

Gulit free

I Want to get better and I will try my best .

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[diedandgone]

Dear Anna

Here we are again, you were my friend when I needed you at 16 .

I thankyou for eveything you did

But this time you seem to have a stronger hold on me ?

When did you become so mean ?

You onces told me sweet dreams

now you feed me nightmares it seems

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