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There is truly no greater love than taking your most adored fictional character and throwing them into the emotionally-devastating angst fueled trash compactor and pressing every single button on the machine just to see what will happen
#hollow knight#hollow my beloved#hmm yes I'm drawing pain and agony tonight#night rambles#night causes pain#night causes suffering#Feel free to apply to ur own blorbos#all blorbos must suffer :D
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Iâm tempted to write the knights (plus Merlin, Gwen, Arthur, and Morgana obviously) having game night but reincarnated in the modern era, knowing they canât kill each other but also wanting revenge for 1500 year old grudges.
Morgana would be petty towards Merlin and Arthur still, but whenever she says something about Merlin killing her, Gwaine just rolls his eyes like: âOh no. The horror. I canât even begin to imagine what torture you mustâve suffered.â Completely deadpan followed by âgo fish, witch.â Or âuno, fuckers!â
Arthur makes Merlin constantly skip turns. Merlin gets annoyed but Arthur says he canât cheat if heâs missing turns. (Heâs more salty about Merlin cheating at dice with his magic than anything else)
Elyan and Leon gang up against Gwaine as revenge for all the tavern tales he told on long patrols.
Leon changes to colours he knows Merlin or Arthur donât have and just says âPoetryâ to explain why heâs upset. Merlin starts playing the ghost busters theme on his phone and Arthur is stuck between being traumatised and wheezing on the floor. Leonâs just wondering if thatâs worse because at least âpoetryâ wouldâve meant theyâd gotten over the pining. Whatever Merlinâs talking about with ghost busters means he didnât walk into anything Merthur happening but also means heâs got another reason he was underpaid.
Gwen makes Morgana +16 and Morgana complains that theyâre friends. Gwen looks her dead in the eyes and says âWe were friends. Want a reminder of what happened?â And Morgana silently counts 16 cards. (Theyâve made up about it all, but itâs still used as ammo to be petty and competitive on game nights)
Lancelot and Merlin have their own thing going on, no one can tell if theyâre working together or trying to destroy each other. They all know better than to question it.
Percival wins because everyone always forgets about him.
Please tell me you see the vision.
#bbc merlin#reincarnation#modern merlin#gwaine#sir gwaine#bbc gwaine#gwaine is enjoying himself immensely#gwaine being a dumbass#(affectionate)#morgana#redeemed morgana#morgana pendragon#merlin#game night#merlin emrys#the knights of the dumbass table#the knights of the round table#arthur pendragon#guinevere#gwen merlin#merlin causes chaos for fun#he introduced them to uno so itâs all his fault#merlin bbc#sir leon the long suffering#iâm bad at tagging#bbc elyan#sir elyan#percival#sir percival#merlin fic idea
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Lil side sketches of Henry n Will <3
#Opposite noses go âŒïžâŒïžđ«”đ«”#this was SO FUN OUGH#simple style is my favourite when Iâm suffering with horrible art block eugh#I might not have some art for a while cause I just got back into school#sighhhh đđ#fnaf#art#fanart#five nights at freddy's#henry emily#william afton#artists on tumblr#five nights at freddys#willry#Indyâs deepfryer#sketch
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happy (a little belated) lunar new year!! sorry i haven't been answering asks, been a busy week - i'll try to get to that tomorrow ^^
#it was originally just diavolo and ik but i added mephistopheles bc it felt kinda empty#and also because we were making fun of him on discord the other night and i felt bad#art#obey me#jtta ik#obey me diavolo#obey me mephistopheles#oh yeah the Stupid Trio + belphie in the back were last-minute addition but i'm so glad i decided to#by Stupid Trio i mean they're the ones who cause problems#mammon and levi do it by accident and asmo does it knowingly but without processing the consequences#this is what sets them apart from belphie and satan who also cause problems#but usually on purpose and with significant planning (satan) or being fully aware of the aftermath and not caring (belphie)#speaking of i guess i'll tag them as well#obey me mammon#obey me leviathan#obey me asmodeus#obey me belphegor#btw beel also causes problems by accident but like not in a blatantly Stupid way#and lucifer is usually the Problem Sufferer#but will on occasion cause problems for fun
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Before officially meeting, do you think Matthew and Diana ever just casually passed each other while on campus? Cause I'm imagining Gallowglass watching from an undetectable distance, seeing Diana cross a courtyard, going in the opposite direction of Matthew and Gallowglass is just simultaneously panicking and relieved.
Gallowglass: Oh my God, it's happening! They're going to finally meet! After centuries of waiting and decades of watching, Diana will finally be- Wait! Why is she walking away? Auntie! Turn back right now! Matthew! Turn around and go meet your wife!
They both continue on their way, completely oblivious to who they just walked past.
Gallowglass, unable to decide if this was a good or bad thing: Ok, they didn't meet this time. So, I don't have to leave her yet. But it'll be sooner rather than later now. At least she'll be happy when they do meet...
#I'm really conflicted about the potential Gallowglass book cause we'll get so much more insight but the poor guy is really going to suffer#a discovery of witches#shadow of night#the book of life#diana bishop#matthew de clermont#gallowglass#deborah harkness#all souls trilogy
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last night i had a dream that i was seated around the table with a bunch of faceless people. the person next to me turned to me and said âthis is a moment of maliceâ. they then showed me how to take hands in âthe goblin gripâ (pictured below). we all bowed our heads as though we were saying grace. everything went black and white like an old tv and the deafening sound of static woke me.
i didnât want to forget it so i wrote GOBLIN GRIP in my phone and then went back to bed. anyway here it is
#i almost exclusively dream in nightmares and have for the last couple of years#like several a night and i wake my partner up cause Iâm doing high kicks in my sleep lol#but if Iâm gonna suffer i think i should monetize and start selling my ideas to hollywood#i drew dis
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Ugh iâve got so many thoughts right now about how gay and also lonely i am but also iâm really tired and i canât sleep so i ALSO canât figure out what i want to say or how to say it so pls insert sad lonely gay yearning post here for me thank you
#đ« đ« đ« #suffering#im tired >:(#AND tired of being ALONE all the timeeeeeee#and itâs dumb feeling that way when im tired cause my brain#is always just like#ââlol iâm over thisđ€đ€ we should fix itđ€đ€â#and itâs like well great idea babe never thought of that now pls explain:#how????????#đȘđȘđȘ#sheâs dumb my brain is DUMB is the explanation#canât believe im stuck with her and her nonsense smh#esp when she SHOULD be more concerned with letting me SLEEP#what a nightđ
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I think it would be funny, if Bruce was scrolling through the Gotham Gazette in his downtime and stumbled upon some outrageous, unhinged article on some moronic socialite's recent weekend activities.
"What the fuck Alfred?" Bruce demanded, throwing the article onto the table.
"One text, Master Bruce," Alfred said calmly, stirring his tea. "One singular message to let me know you'd survived, would that have been so hard?"
"You know I have to pretend this really happened right?" Bruce dragged his hands down his face. "This is insane even for Bruce Wayne--"
"I figured your subsequent stint in rehab would allow time for recovery, or for me to explain your sudden death," Alfred said icily.
Bruce's phone buzzed, flooding with messages. "Oh look, now it starts. I'm firing whoever on the PR team allowed this to happen, this is so far beyond--"
"I overruled them." Alfred sipped the tea.
"You--" Bruce breathed in and out slowly, loosening his fists. "In the future, I will try to get a message out."
"Very good sir."
#This is Alfred's revenge for all the suffering Batman has caused him#at least he gets some fun out of it#batman#bruce wayne#dc comics#alfred pennyworth#textposts#batposting#Idk it's funny to me sorry lol#I haven't slept all of last night
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I love my dumb OCs so much ...
I think I have rambled about them before so to spare you! A tl;dr version that you can also skip:
Shilva can turn into a dragon. Vikrahm goes on an adventure and meets Pops. Pops is a famous dragonslayer who refuses to tell anyone his name and never collects reward money unless needed at that time. Shilva and Pops get married. They both do not tell Vik his name though so he resorts to a threat and is shocked when it actually works. "I didn't expect to get this far idk what to do now" kinda vibes.
#my characters#tbh the first one was actually drawn during the art stream last night but I didnt post it#i figured i could post it with the big pic and then hate coloring so much i opted for just doodles today#also the siblings just both have purple tongues and fangs and are not vampiric or anything#they just got fangs because i like em aesthetically#vik is such a funny gremlin to me cause he just does not inform anyone he travels with that he is fireproof#and his bff mage buddy specializes in fire magic#and vik is like hey hey can you teach me some fire magic please i think itd be super cool#and he sucks at magic RIP#he barely makes a flicker but it does come in handy once#also when vik says hes gonna play fetch since he can shoot farther its because as kids#he learned how to shoot a bow in order to play long distance fetch with a dragon (his sister)#cause she basically got the zoomies and flying helped soooo long distance fetch#shilva is a bundle of sunshine and i love her#me patting pops on the head - this old man can fit so much trauma in his life#he can take a threat of being called big brother and say that is the straw on the camels back#hes suffered enough dont make him suffer that
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Iâve been trying to learn how to get better at rendering, and so I decided to revamp an old oc!Â
#digital painting#art#drawing#illustration#original character#oc#my art#personal art#tegning#also my pen pressure wasn't right which means i've been suffering for fucking ever#and i only just thought to check my pen pressure settings last night and it changed my life#the way i've suffered cause i did not think#like why do i even have brain
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coming of age
#bnha#gran torino#torino sorahiko#hawks#takami keigo#all might#yagi toshinori#fastest heroes in the east au#shih's art#believe it when i say that a night's sleep can change your art style#wow! eight hours really refreshes your eyesight who knew#anyways hawks' supply of endeavor merch causes toshinori to suffer every time#toshinori: young hawks... wouldn't you like to wear this free limited edition all might windbreaker? custom fitted for your wings?#hawks: no thank you! :D i have my retail clearance endeavor jacket!
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âI do not eat and I do not drink and I do not sleep. I subsist on suffering. I delight in suffering. I am the all and the end and the being. I am the mother of cruelty.â ~ Desolation
âShe is at least seven feet tall, shrouded in red and gold. Her eyes are long. I know that doesnât quite make sense, but theyâre just long, thatâs what they are. Her cheeks are sharp and sunken. She has a broad smile but I think that might be carved into her face.â ~ Stranger
âHow does one fight when one cannot be confident that your thoughts are your own? Perhaps we should check with Mother Lauren. Surely she knows what to do here. No! No! Cleary I have been influenced. I am sorry listeners. I cannot be trusted. I am part of her plan too.â ~ Web
Mother Lauren is really just bringing a fear salad to Night Vale, huh? Though I am curious,
#wtnv#wtnv 248#lauren mallard#mother lauren#tma#the desolation#the stranger#the web#personally i think sheâs Desolation#with some Web and Stranger influence#bc yes she is uncanny and yes the mind control but.#if her ultimate goal is to cause suffering?#that just screams Desolation to me#but also thereâs a LOT of Web there sooo maybe equal influence?#idk I feel like itâs maybe a 40%/60% situation#welcome to night vale#the magnus archives
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Actually I will ramble a bit cuz my friend & I do have a hc weâve been playing off of that involves tiny Vash but since itâs canon in stampede that Vash can change the density of his Gate & in maximum (my preferred trigun) how Vash can grow really Big and Monstrous (so can Knives) if he adds to his mass so he can support his size that maybe an Opposite effect can happen. While growing, Vash needs added mass to support his weight, but the bigger he gets, the more inhuman and more of a flesh singularity he becomes; that growth also causes him to lose his identity and get consumed by himself temporarily. Because Iâm a silly guy who likes thinking his GT with logic⊠but also⊠maybe when Vash overuses plant juices, or his body needs to fall into recovery mode after extreme body harm / near fatal situations (or extreme psychological stress), he goes into what my friend and I call âpower saving modeâ. Back up battery. His body shrinks. Size varies but the smallest heâs gotten is 2 inches. Thereâs an inherent fear he has if he pushes himself over his limits he might go quantum & never recover⊠like how in stampede he shrunk his Gate into a quantum state⊠itâs a very round about kind of canon aligned hc to make Vash shrink and be tiny. And cuz he neglects his plant powers so much he canât control it⊠not until much much later in maximum⊠but he mostly canât⊠also reflects his plant ability to absorb / store energy and release it.
Something something weâve had scenarios where Vashâs body & mind gets so stressed out mini psychotic break or physical issue just causes him to shrink in his hotel room in front of Wolfwood & the Girls⊠and basically whateverâs on him at the time shrinks too so what heâs wearing n stuff⊠hehehe itty bitty & a lil squeaky and definitely extremely nervous exchanges between handling & being handled. Also accidentally freaking out his companions. Being small reminds him heâs not human & it makes him feel a lil self consciousâŠ
#Txt#long ramble⊠my friend and I have done lil timelines tooâŠ#This is all from manga events btw but like#Him shrinking after Monev the Galeâs fight in manga in front of the Girls⊠having them take care of him for a few nights before his body -#-decides to grow back. And then after the colony 3 fight & during hospital arc he also#Has another shrinking spell. Post adrenaline and bodyâs like catching up with lack of energy. The colony scientists & doctors know this#About Vash so they can still treat him but heâs flustered about it. Luida loves her teensy sonâŠ#And then thereâs just little incidents when traveling with WolfwoodâŠ#Scared him sooooo bad when it happened at first. Watching Vash just shrink after suffering a dangerous wound he#Patched up hours before. Hehe. Oops.#And then shrinking in front of both Wolfwood and the girls after this scenario where Vash absorbs radiation from a dying plant before it#Explodes but it causes him to explode into a Cronenberg flesh monster & after they pull him out his own rapidly decaying massive body & hes#In a coma does he shrink 2 days in and wake up tiny and theyâre just Overwhelming him and trying to#Take care of him proper⊠Meryl and Wolfwood bicker about how to do it rightâŠ#Milly is very sweet and gentle with him though⊠but Vash overwhelmed⊠so easy to overwhelm.#Anyways big ramble#Trigun gt#Hehehehejehe explodes
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My betrothed and I had a nice time at the wedding last night. Somehow ended up talking to the only straight people in the room.
#ramblies#my face#Iâm on the left#we were suffering cause we couldnt wash the thrift store smell all the way off our clothes and it was irritating our throats#but it was still a fun night#first time weâve gotten dressed up in a while
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it isn't about the crew finding out for me. the crew will eventually forgive ed because they'll see that he's changed and stede will want him back home, plus this is a comedy about found family after all
i need what izzy did to come out because ed isn't a crazy man who went insane and violent when his boyfriend left him. he's a man who keeps being revictimized over and over by the angry men in his life and who has never been able to fully escape that, because even as an adult the only way he found to escape was to build himself a facade of violent masculinity that effectively became a prison. and the one time in his life when he found softness and thought he could be allowed to be who he really wanted to be and not who everyone else has been forcing him to be since he was a kid, izzy stepped on him and showed him he wasn't safe at all. I need izzy's abuse to be addressed because i need to see ed heal and that bit's kinda crucial to it, to ed finally embracing the softness he's always wanted and learning that he is, after all, capable of giving and receiving love, that he isn't broken and the violence he suffered was never his fault, was never caused by anything being fundamentally broken in him
#okay I'm taking a nap cause I'm genuinely upset about this now and i need to step back#but i needed to get this out#because a lot of us are still experiencing the horrors and i think we need to hear this#izzy's role in ed's suffering wasn't minor#and an essential part of healing is hearing that you were in fact abused and it wasn't your fault#night night#(it's noon lmao)#ofmd spoilers#alex watches ofmd
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A time before DB and JK meet officially where they crossed paths but don't remember or almost but missed each other by seconds. You know, typical kdrama missed meet cutes lol.
đȘ© WORDCOUNT | 2.4k đȘ© NOTE FROM HOLLY | so... that thing about me and finding it impossible to write anything short.... yeah that. lmao. this is bd lore in the BEST possible way imo. something that neither of them remember and likely never will. this is set about four years before the events of BD. JK would have been 20-21, and B would have been 21-22 (give or take a year). thank you SO much for this request. i had so much fun with it!!
đȘ© BD DRABBLES MASTERPOST đȘ©
Jeon Jungkook looks devastatingly pretty with cherry-red lips. Smudged and a little faded, they leave the faintest mark on the end of his cigaretteâa bad habit, he knows, but one that he picked up as an excuse to flirt with a girl whose lips are far more crimson than his.Â
Of course they are, though. How else would she stain him in evidence of her existence if they werenât?Â
Even when heâs tarnished in her, thereâs no evidence of him on her. Nothing to tell new acquaintances to stay awayâand Hayun loves making new friends.
A bottle of Jack rests by his feet. Neat. A little lukewarm. Ass perched on the curb outside a house just off campus, heâs in no mood to get himself embroiled in the debauchery he knows his friends are partaking in. Just wants to clear his head.Â
Foolishly hopes sheâll do the same. That sheâll notice his absence. That her heart will ache like his currently is.Â
In their final year of studies, his friends are all letting loose for the final time before they have to cram for finals. Itâs a night of celebration. Of last-chances. Of opportunities that won't present themselves again for a good few lunar orbits.
And so while he may not have the same restrictions, having started his studies a little later than scheduled, heâs been making the most of it with them.Â
Quiet kisses hidden from his friends are fun. He likes them. Loves them, even.
But to then watch her very publicly let a guy make moves on her? To make moves back?
Feels fuckinâ awful.
âOh, you know what?â A voice echoes from the porch of the house behind him. âYou can take her violin and shove it up your ass, you ostentatious, pseudo-intellectual prick.âÂ
Itâs a little twisted, but it brings Jungkook comfort to know he isnât the only one with a shitty excuse for a love life. Knows he shouldnât listen inâbut fuck it.
âWhere does she keep her violin, huh? In your trousers? âCause thatâs the only way that what I just saw and what youâre saying could even possibly correlate,â the girl continues, unrelenting in the way she dictates her speech. Barely lets her partner get a word in edge-ways. âNo? She not a tiny violin specialist? The rooms arenât that dark, dickhead.âÂ
He thinks the tirade is over, but finds himself laughing when he hears, âAnd not to brag, but my last eye exam went exceptionally well, so donât you dare try and tell me I was seeing shit. Twenty-twenty vision, baby.â
Itâs easy to tell whoever is speaking is deliberating adding a little dramatic flare to their words. Is definitely drunk. Is also definitely not afraid of standing her ground.
Glancing over his shoulder as he stubs out his cigarette, heâs surprised to see the girlâyouâon the phone instead of confronting someone in person.
In a pretty little party dress, youâre just the right combination of hot mess. Even from a fair distance away, he can notice the glitter all over your skin. Not really his typeâso different from Hayunâbut thereâs something about you. Something that intrigues him. Makes it hard to look away.
âShe could be fuckinâ Vivaldi for all I care!â You seethe into your phone. âDoes it sound like I give a shit if sheâs the best in her class? You want me to give her a gold medal or something? Donât piss me off. Prick.â
Jungkook would argue that youâre already pissed off. With a tone of voice like that, you must be.
Thereâs a final curse, and then your phone is almost thrown across the front lawn. Almost. You know better. Know that you canât afford to replace the screen if you shatter it. Instead, you have to grit your teeth and scream.Â
Itâs only once you finish your venting of frustration that you notice a pair of starry eyes on you.Â
Raising your brows, you shake your head in his direction. âCan I help?â
And then he fucking laughs. Shrugs. Is pleased to see it makes you smile, too.Â
âReally hate violin, donât you?â
Shaking your head, far kinder this time, you sigh. âDonât have much of an opinion on them. Not unless itâs the strings in the intro of Untouched by The Veronicas. In that case, the violin is the greatest instrument known to man.â
âUntouched? The Veronicas?â he laughs, suddenly reminded of a song he hasnât heard in years. âDidnât realise it was still 2005.â
âHey, donât be judgy,â you say as you walk towards him, perching down on the curbside, too. âItâs a classic.â
âNever said it wasnât,â he defends, reaching down for his bottle of Jack and offering it over to you. âBoyfriend trouble?â
Shaking your head, you decide that unloading your problems onto a stranger is exactly what this night calls for.Â
âGirl Iâve been seeing. Wasnât that serious.â Nodding towards the bottle you add, âYou first.â
âSeemed pretty serious,â he mumbles, before swigging down his whiskey. Jack is shit, in his opinion, but itâs cheap and it gets the job done. Clearing his throat with a small âahâ, he holds it back over for you to take. âSatisfied?â
You donât vocalise a responseâbut you do take the bottle from him and ignore the burn as it races down your throat. Of everything youâd choose to drink, Jack Daniels would not be it. You like fruity things. Had been on vodka cranberry juice all night.
âWasnât serious," you double down, then shrug. "Canât let people think they can get away with bad behaviour, though. Let them do it once, and theyâll do it again and again."Â
Itâs something youâre adamant about. Something youâll do well to remember.Â
âAnyway, you know why Iâm out here like a miserable bitch,â you continue as you pass the bottle back. âWhat brings you here?â
âSomething similar.â
Itâs only now that you really take him in for all that he is.Â
Same age as you, you think, judging by his build. Though his shoulders are broad, he hasnât properly filled out yetâheâs trying, though. You can see the definition in his arms. His shoulders. Clearly is trying to shape himself into a man. No longer a teenager, but not really an adult. With eyes like that, though, heâll always look a little younger than he is. His dark hair waves around his features, so casually undone you know he must have put a lot of effort into it. Itâs sweet.Â
He tries, and thatâs more than can be said for most of the boys at the party.
âIt doesnât suit you,â you tell him.
âHm?â
âThe red lipstick,â you nod towards the sheen on his lips. Thereâs a little on his neck, too. His T-shirt is black, but you imagine thereâs some there, as well. âYouâd look better without it.â
âItâs not mine.â
âGuessed as much,â you softly smile. âSo what, then? Your girlie pissed all over her territory? So no one else would approach you? Then decided she wanted to play elsewhere?â
âSomething like that.â
âGirlfriend?â
Jungkook just shrugs. Tells the truth, even if it feels like a lie. âJust friends.â
âYou kiss all your friends?â
âJust one.â
âOuch,â you wince. Friends-with-benefits situations are dumb, you think. Wouldnât ever wanna end up in one. Know they end in unbearable heartbreak. âThatâs rough.â
He nods. Knows how itâll end, too, even if heâs been trying to tell himself otherwise.
âWell, weâre friends, now,â you declare, definitely too drunk to be making good decisions. âYou and me. Have bonded over terrible people doing terrible things.â
He wants to tell you that Hayun isnât terrible.
Instead, he raises a brow at your fledglingâand fleetingâfriendship.Â
âIf sheâs off making new friends, then maybe you should consider kissing your other friends,â you playfully shrug, knowing better than to get involved in a situation like this. âYâknow⊠make it even.â
And Jungkook is well aware he shouldnât indulge in your flirt, but heâs hurting. Wants to feel wantedâand the way youâre looking at him? He canât remember the last time Hayun looked at him like that.
The way you see it, youâll never see this man again. You could both do with a little pick-me-up. Confirmation that life goes on, even if the people you date are awful.
A kiss is just a kiss.Â
Or at least, for now, it is. One day, youâll develop a complex. Blame Seokjin.
But youâre yet to meet him. Yet to unlearn all your rules and make far feebler, more pathetic ones in their place.
âYâknow, youâre kinda cute,â you whisper, edging closer ever so slightly.Â
âKinda?â He tweaks a brow, eyes not on yours, but on your lips. Thereâs a little glitter in your gloss. Think maybe itâll suit him better.
âMhmm,â you hum, reaching up to lightly trace your thumb across his bottom lip, ridding him of a little bit of his very own red flag. âKinda. Never kissed a guy with a lip piercing.â
Just a stud, heâs only had it a little while. Was trying to make himself look a little older. Sharper. Light from the house catches in it as your thumb pulls back - but Jungkook pulls closer. Nudges his nose against yours. Holds it there for a second.
âMaybe I should take one for the team,â he husks, lips brushing yours. âJust so you know what itâs like.â
Nodding, you let your nose stroke against his. âYouâd be such a good friend if you did.â
Lips parted, the end of your sentence grants him permission to sink his lips between yours. Slow as he does so, Jungkookâs scared of fucking it up.
Hasnât kissed anyone that isnât Hayun for months, now. Isnât even sure he knows how to.
And yet as soon as you press down into the kiss, his mind is void of her. Totally blank. Pitch black, until the faintest of stars begin to appear. Sparkle. Shine.
Thereâs a sweetness to you, even despite the whiskey. Maybe itâs the cranberry juice. Maybe itâs your lip gloss. Jungkook doesnât have the mental capacity to decipher it, for he can feel your tongue stroking across his bottom lipâand then heâs granting permission. Inviting you into his mouth. Stroking his tongue against yours, as if heâs in the privacy of the party bathroomânot out front for everyone to see.Â
Shamelessly, he almost wants Hayun to seeâbut as quickly as a thought of her intrudes, itâs replaced by the way you feel. It makes him pull you closer. Gets him whining into your mouth. Makes you smile.
Itâs confirmation that thereâs nothing wrong with you; that the girl you were seeing really was just a dickhead.
Pressing your hand to his chest, you slowly push him away. Are reluctant to finish kissing him. In fact, even as you push him back, your body follows, until you force yourself to pull back.Â
âThere,â you smile, a little infatuated with how sparkly his eyes appear. âNow youâre even.â
âWe can make it odd, again, if you want,â Jungkook offers, far bolder than even he realises. Just doesnât wanna stop kissing you. Maybe itâs just the whiskey. Yeah. Heâll blame it on that.Â
âThatâs a bad decision waiting to happen,â you laugh, getting to your feet, because you donât trust yourself to stay. âMy purpose is served. Friends donât fuck you over. Stop wasting your kisses on people who are gonna fuck you over.â
Your message is clear:Â sheâs not your friend.Â
Itâs a lesson heâll learn far too late in life.
âBut youâre ditching me?â He says as you begin to walk away. âThatâs not friendly!â
For a girl who should really be wallowing in self-pity, youâre surprisingly chirpy. Jungkook envies it. Wishes he could stop caring in the way that he does âhe just doesnât realise your situationship really was as simple as theyâre supposed to be. The feelings were yet to fully develop.
If love is a choiceâwhich you think, to a degree, it isâthen before it can develop, choices have to be made. Your partner is supposed to choose you. The girl youâd been seeing has just demonstrated that she wouldnât choose you, and so why should you choose her?
Life was simpler before Seokjin; before you really knew what it was to love.Â
Or, to love, and to not be chosen.Â
To choose, even when youâre never chosen.
Sort of like how Jungkook is, now.
âIâm doing you a favour!â You call back, tipsy smile just as radiant as you seem to be. You're jovial in your tone, and the attitude rubs off on him. Gets him smiling, too. âSaving you from yourself. If I kiss you again, youâll fall in love, baby. They always do!â
The way you jet off is spritely. Happy. Abundantly clear that youâre yet to know what heartbreak really feels like.Â
The girl getting a little too friendly with the star violinist will be long forgotten by the time you meet Jungkook once again, and so will he. In fact, the scar left by Seokjin manages to mangle just about all of your romantic memories prior to him.Â
Youâll become folklore; a girl Jungkook doesnât know the name of, but who Hayun is pretty sure is legally named âDesperate Skankâ. Someone they argue about on a few too many occasions. A memory he barely remembers, but in the heat of their drunken fight later that evening became a permanent sticking spot in their situationship.Â
âCause while Hayun was off making friends, thatâs all she was doing. Getting numbers. Getting a little touchy-feely. Getting her ego stroked. Getting zero kisses, because she had been reserving them for him.
Why she was only making friends with six-foot-something muscle pigs with more protein powder in their system than common sense is another thing theyâll argue aboutâbut heâs the one in the wrong this time, or so she makes sure to tell him.
Heâll think of you sometimes. The memory will be hazy. Blurry, like driving down a midnight highway with astigmatism.Â
Heâll think of you, and heâll see stars.
And when he sees you again in the dark of Dionysus a few years later, with no recollection of who you are, his brain will scream at him. Beg him to remember.Â
He wonât.
But he will, inevitably, see stars once more.
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