#need acne help

[tealeahs-blog]

Is messy hair a thing you have the hots for or no??

Instagram: tealeah_

[vampiricbisexuality]

official water post

agh now i have to drink water :[

i was abt to make coffee too :(((((

[armenelols]

Guys. For some reason? For the first time in over 10 years, what I think are blisters - or soon to be blisters - formed at the bottom of my feet. What the fuck do I do with them?

I am at dorm and I have none of the usual stuff you use to treat them and my heel currently hurts too much to walk on it to the store where I know they 100% have something to treat it with. Would a hydrocolloid pimple patch work? That's the only thing I have here

[hogmilked]

bought like actual skincare products for the first time in years and have some notes.

the whole anti-aging cosmetic industry is really hard to avoid. i was getting stuff at a marshall’s (discount store, carries a lot of overstock from brands) to save money and it took me almost an hour to find a handful of products that weren’t advertising “anti-aging” and “youthfulness” when i just wanted a cleanser, toner, and sunscreen to help with both peeling skin and greasiness

no seriously. i found ONE facial sunscreen that didn’t have retinol or hyaluronic acid or collagen or any of that stuff in it. it was tucked away in the men’s section with beard oil and cologne because apparently facial sunscreen with no added bullshit is only for men, and women (this is borderline a fast fashion store it’s highly gendered) can only protect themselves from skin cancer if it also makes sure they never develop a smile line

so many of those serums and creams and shit are bullshit anyway. hell a lot of people can just do a wash and sunscreen and be all set. at most a basic cleanser, basic moisturizer, and sunscreen are the absolute most you need. i threw in an exfoliating toner to help even out a couple gnarly acne scars and help with how flaky my skin gets sometimes. if your skin needs more than that, you really should probably just go to a dermatologist or look for actual dermatologist’s advice instead of dumping a bunch of random oils and serums and creams n shit you saw on tiktok or instagram on your skin and hoping the benefits listed on the box will be true for you

IN MOST CASES no amount of skincare products can make up for lifestyle change. i decided to put a little more work in because the lifestyle changes i need to make to help be less oily (i literally get so greasy it makes my eyes burn) and flaky aren’t currently feasible, so i’m trying to give my skin a bit of a boost, but literally the best my skin has ever felt was when i was just drinking a shit ton of water and eating super well

other people’s skincare will rarely work the same on anyone else. everyone’s skin needs are different. when i was in high school i had a gnarly abrasion/chemical burn under my eye because i had tried a routine i saw online that was way too rough and overbearing for me. again, you 100% don’t need a 30 step routine

that being said, i used a $4 korean cleanser, a $6 glycolic acid toner (exfoliant), 100% pure african shea butter, and some sunscreen formulated for use on the face. my skin feels great. my acne doesn’t itch as much. the toner was the most expensive part. the beauty industry is a scam

[rodeoradio]

Booked a pussy appointment. Good for me.

[roughentumble]

this logan kinshift is making me REALLY want a deeper voice tho i am like drooling for T

[br1ghtestlight]

Btw today in public i saw somebody who looked EXACTLY like me except if i was the "opposite gender" like same face same fashion sense etc it was so disorienting it was like looking at a post-transition version of myself. unfortunately i dont particularly like how they looked so now i have to live w/ that

[jaxyscreams]

YO I got argan oil from the festival market for my hair (and skin since the lady recommended doing that too)

bc I bleached and dyed my hair and I wanna Reanimate My Curls

and I put some on my skin as well and ??? Immediately so smooth and nice?? my skin appears to love it omg

[fagatakonin]

My sister is urging me to waxx my face because i haven't in 2 months but i don't wannaaaaaaa i have the worst acne after doing that 🥲

[female-eren]

In my experience the only real thing in skincare is the skin barrier. Basically every problem that isn't normal hormonal acne you can't do anything about is about the skin barrier. If you put a lot of shit on your skin, both makeup and skin care products - damaged barrier. If you try to quit cold turkey BEFORE repairing the skin barrier - it will keep being damaged and get dry as fuck. And it doesn't really take a lot to repair it, I have an inexpensive cleanser with no perfume and a bottle of reasonably priced snail mucin and I haven't even used them in like 3 weeks. It took many many years and a lot of money to find these things and that sucks. But not wearing makeup + actually repairing the barrier means that even if I haven't specifically washed my face and not even put on lotion after showering I'm still not breaking out and my skin doesn't even feel dry.

[amalgamrex]

saw somebody on tiktok try and say that being sluggish in the morning and having a low libido is a sign of PCOS so buy my vitamins and im like HAVING HIGH T GIVES YOU A LOW LIBIDO?! have u met a trans man.

[nomaishuttle]

my new facial cleanser got here :]] 1. smells sooo nice its coconut vanilla (2 of my favorite scents) 2. my skin feels nice :]]

[obaewankenope]

My nephews cat has a tick about his eye. I get to play nurse to another sick/injured cat. That's 4 in as many days jfc.

Gonna have to wait tho for tick remover to arrive ugh. Thankfully, it's not a big tic and very recent in terms of when the kitteh got it.

[an-ruraiocht]

man these zits/acne are driving me nuts. i have a whole row of painful spots along my jaw and i keep picking them because they're on my JAW and I LEAN AGAINST THAT and there are LUMPS and I hate them. but this just makes then more sore and painful. i think i'm gonna go off testosterone for a little bit just to see if it improves (or if there are other factors causing it) cos i genuinely cannot deal with this rn

[wewontbesleeping]

Hmmm maybe some of the choices I’ve made in the past 29 years have been the wrong ones. That’s a good thought exercise for right before bed.

[gor3sigil]

Before starting T, when I socially transitionned, I was surrounded by radical feminists who saw masculinity as gross and inherently evil, something to avoid, something to make fun of, something to destroy. The other transmascs in my friend group, sometimes, told me that they didn’t knew if they really were non-binary or if they just were scared shitless of saying “I am a man”. Because they saw this as a betrayal to their younger self who had been SAd and abused.

I saw many of my masc friends and trans men around me hate themselves, not outing themselves as men because it would imply so so much, it was like opening the Pandora Box. Even when we were just together, talking about our masculinity was always coated with bits like “I know we’re the privileged ones but…”, “I don’t want to sound like I have it bad but…”, “Women obviously have it worse, but last time…” and we were talking about terrible traumas we experienced while taking all the precautions in the world in the case the walls were a crowd of people in disguise waiting to get us if we didn’t downplay the violence we faced, or like crying and being upset and being traumatized and afraid and scared and to say it out loud would make us throw up the needles we were forced to swallow every second of every day living in our skin.

Most of us weren’t on T yet, some of us were catcalled every day and harassed in the streets or in abusive relationships nobody seemed to care to help them get out of because they were “strong enough” to do it by themselves.

I was using the gender swap face app and cried for ours when I saw my father looking back at me through the screen. The idea of transforming, of shedding into a body that would deprive me of love, tenderness, and safety, was absolutely terrifying. I knew I couldn’t stay in this body any longer because it wasn’t mine, but I also knew that if I was going to look like my dad, my brother, my abusers, it would be so much worse.

5 years later and I’m almost 2 years on T, and almost 2 months post top surgery.

I ditched my previous group of friends. I was bullied out of my local trans community. But let me tell you how free I am.

I was scared that T would break my singing voice: it made it sound more alive than ever.

I was scared that T would make me less attractive: it made me find myself hot for the first time in my life.

I was scared that T would make me gain weight: it did. But the weight I put on is not the weight I used to put on by binging and eating my body until I forgot that it even existed. It’s the weight of my body belonging to me, little by little. The wolf hunger for life.

I won’t tell you the same story I see everywhere, the one that goes “I started going to the gym 8 times a week, I put on some muscles, I started a diet and now I look like an action film actor”, in fact if you took pictures of me from 5 years ago vs now I’d just have more acne, I’d have longer hair and still look like I don’t know what to do with myself when I take selfies.

But the sparkle in my eyes, my smile, tell the whole story way better than this long ass stream of words could ever.

I want to say some things that I wish someone told me before starting medically transitionning.

It’s okay to take your time. It’s your body, it’s your journey, if you don’t feel comfortable taking full doses and want to go slow, the only voice you need to listen to is your own. Do what feels right.

If you feel overwhelmed, it’s okay to take a break, it’s okay to ask for support.

Trans people are holy. Everyone is. You didn’t lose your angel wings when you came out because you want to be masculine. You are not excluded from the joy of existence, from being proud of yourself, from being sad, from being scared, from being angry. The emotions and feelings you allowed yourself to feel while processing what you experienced when you grew up as a girl and was seen as a woman are still as valid as before. Nobody can take that from you. If someone tries to, don’t let them.

It’s perfectly normal to grieve some things you were and had before you started to transition, like your high soprano voice or even your chest. Hatching is painful. You can find comfort in things that don’t feel right, so making the decision to change can be incredibly scary and weird and you deserve to be heard and supported through this. Wanting top surgery doesn’t make the surgery less intense, less terrifying, less painful to recover from. When it becomes too much you have the right to take a break and take some deep breaths before going on.

You don’t have to have a radical, 180° change for your transition to be acceptable or valid or worthy of praise. Look at how far you’ve come already. It doesn’t have to show, you’re not made to be a spectacle, you’re human and it is your journey.

Oh, and last thing, you know when some people say “Oh this trans person has to grow out of the cringy phase where you think that you can write essays about being trans or transitionning or just their experience because it’s weird” ? If you ever hear this or see this online, remember all the people whose writing you read and, even if they were not professional writers, helped you more than any theorists did ? If you want to write, do it. It won’t be a waste. It can help people. Or it won’t, and even then, if it helped you, that’s enough.

Love every of my trans siblings, take care of yourselves. You deserve the world.