#my feels are flared up

[pansexual-chocolate]

BEAUTIFUL PERSON AWARD! Once you are given this award you're supposed to paste it in the asks of 8 people who deserve it. if you break the chain nothing happens, but it's sweet to know someone thinks you're beautiful inside and out!!!!

(p.s. thank YOU for being the bestest Edouard headcanon partner in helping me develop my characterization! can't express enough gratitude for all your help :DD)

Wow thanks for randomly hitting me where it hurts out of nowhere. I try my best to do my best and I'm so glad I can be a force for good chaos.

God so many of my mutuals are such beautiful people I'm going to at randomly but all of yall are so beautiful.

@givemeunicorns @jadenartemis @brownskinsugarplum76 @elektraking @americium-dioxide @rebellconquerer @tllgrrl @atiena-m

and whoever wants to

[thebibliosphere]

For all the progress I've made with my health (and I've made a lot), it's still one of the most annoying features of my MCAS that stress--or basically any too strong an emotion-- can trigger an anaphylactic reaction.

On the one hand, it's forced me to do so much therapy to get a hold of my emotional dysregulation and trauma, and that's a good thing. That's good for my emotional wellbeing.

But it's also a bandaid to the fact that my immune system is so broken it throws my entire body into fight or flight mode at the least provocation, and instead of choosing either fight, flight, or fawn, it goes for the secret fourth option which is to set fire to the house (me) and swell my throat shut.

Like that is the opposite of a survival instinct.

That is my body sensing the tiger in the tall grass, and going, "No, thank you," and noping the fuck out before the tiger can even get to it.

[ghosts-of-rishi]

Quick sketch of that scene from ME3 but you can see my soul leaving my body as the iterations progress

(Alt colours that looked nice, the rest are below the cut)

[millenniumscreampuff]

Him. Again!

[edgepunk]

I'm still on semi-hiatus but I wanted to make this redraw based on this headcanon I talked about a while ago

[galedekarios]

wyll: this was a hospital? feels more like a prison. gale: a common enough interpretation. sickness has a nasty habit of making you feel trapped, if only within the confines of your body. gale: i once spent weeks convalescing in the hospice of st. laupsenn after a nasty bout of ruddy pox. for all their kindness, leaving that place behind felt like freedom to me. wyll: i've always relied on the kindness of the healers and menders of the coast. better a cleric's healing touch than a chirurgeon's scalpel.

i'm assuming this banter is supposed to trigger upon entering the house of healing, but it hasn't triggered for me. still very much interesting. not only does it offer another insight into gale's past before the events of the game, but also the hospice he found himself in for weeks is interesting itself as well:

"The Hospice of St. Laupsenn (N73) is a Sancturary of Ilmater in the North Ward of Waterdeep. In the City of Splendors, worship of The Triad has long been subsumed by the Halls of Justice, Waterdeep’s temple of Tyr. After the Time of Troubles during the early stages of the Spellplague, large swaths of the citizenry were afflicted with fiendish plagues. While most recovered with clerical attention, for some the effects of the disease continued to linger, resistant to the healing effects of magic. As few Waterdhavians would have anything to do with the fiend-afflicted sufferers, for fear of catching the plague anew, the llmatari decided to create a place for the lepers. The Order of the Golden Cup erected the Hospice of St Laupsenn, named for the priest who tended those similarly affected in the aftermath of the Weeping War, and have continued in quiet service to this day. The hospice is funded by private charitable contributions (many of which come from the personal holdings of the Lords) and tithes from the Halls of Justice and the Order itself." [source]

i was at first playing around with the idea of gale suffering from such a long illness because he might have been affected by the spellplague. then again, the spellplague usually affected magic users mentally rather than physically, so this might really just be the pox, common in big cities and beyond of course, probably during his childhood.

if larian had kept to the lore and the timeline, the effects of the spellplague should have been more central to gale's childhood and made it much more harrowing, especially since he is so intrinsically connected and linked to the weave itself.

[sweet-rabbit]

MITHRUN IS OF TOL INSTEAD OF KERENSIL DUE TO MARRIAGE don't lemme see people "correcting" me in tags or comments when it's in all caps

anywho, this was going to be another illustration for my fic, but didn't work out ie couldn't fit a scenario like it in the upcoming chapter that i'm still working on. decided to post it anyway 'cause i had fun. PS that's a phone Kabru's got, didn't feel a need to finish a background after all that plaid

[earphone-jacks]

Take Me Back To Miku

[droodlebug]

Hi !! I hate making posts like this but unfortunately there's not much else I Can do. Basically, I'm in like near 2k usd of debt from medical bills and mobility aid upkeep.

My doctors and I don't know what's wrong with me still, but it's progressive and has gotten significantly worse in the past few months. I haven't been able to work for over a year; I'm nonfunctional for the first half, if not all, of every day. Fatigue, paralysis, muscle spasms and weakness, incredible pain. It's all very. cool. I've been waiting to hear anything back from the disability I filed for in November of last year. It's been in the medical review since January.

And if you can imagine isn't Great when trying to afford my medications (including. . expensive. opioids) or the frequent doctor visits and tests. Here's a very fun screenshot of my bank account as proof of how much I have to offer:

At the current moment, I need at least $30 to cover the minimum monthly payment on one of my credit cards by October 15

I hate asking for help, but with the hurricane having gone by and the weather varying by near 30°F from day to night it's been a fight just to sit up, much less do anything that might get some funds. I would be So appreciative and endlessly grateful for anyone that would be able to help. Even if it's just reblogging my stuff, I can't express enough how much it would mean to me. Bankruptcy is probably in my future, but I'd rather not make that future come any faster than it needs to.

I have a Ko-Fi and I have commissions that start at 20 usd. For the moment, I can take up to 3 slots.

Thank you so much <3

[msfcatlover]

Oracle!Tim has a wheelchair, but hates using it. He loudly insists he doesn’t need to when almost anyone suggests it. He can get around just fine on crutches, and it’s bad enough the way people treat him like that; he refuses to have them literally looking down on him.

Except, see, the thing is… he does need it. By the end of the day navigating on his crutches, Tim hurts. His back is screaming from the shoulders down, his spine feels almost swollen with how it takes over his senses (burning, throbbing, every click & grind of bone like having a knife wedged between the vertebrae,) the skin on his legs feels like it’s trying to crawl off his body, and there’s sharp needles of pain shooting through his leg muscles. If Tim spends the day on his feet/moving around a lot on his crutches, he’s going to spend the next 3 nights trying to be Oracle while flat on his back on the floor. (Tim does try to get around this by having wheelie chairs in all his offices and just not walking around much, but if the weather turns cold or a big storm blows in, even that won’t help.)

He gets better about it over time. Cass drags Tim into helping with her specific charity work, helping other disabled kids in Gotham. Tim ends up giving interviews in which he talks about being an ambulatory wheelchair user, how he’s treated when he goes out in the chair, how people act like it’s all a horrible lie if they ever see him get up from it, and how it combines with Tim’s own pride & internalized ableism to lead to him gritting his teeth and just pushing through. “It’s not worth it,” he tells Vicki Vale, a rueful smile on his face. “It’s never worth it, to go home and lay on the floor in too much pain to move, just so the people at the grocery store don’t see me in my chair. But I do it anyway, and I’m probably going to keep doing it… so if you see me out in public, please ask me if I’m being stupid, because there’s a good chance the answer is yes.” People laugh. Vicki calls him brave for talking about it. Tim says if he can raise just a little attention, make people a little more aware of how they treat people in (and out) of wheelchairs, he’ll have done something good.

Then he goes home. Lays on the floor. And tries not to cry while one of his loved ones rubs tiger balm into his back, because no, people don’t understand, it fucking hurts.

[mrmeepsmadmind]

SOCIETY KEEPS KILLING ONE OF THEM BCS THEIR FRIENDSHIP WOULD BE INCAPABLE FOR GALAXIES TO HANDLE !!!!!

[somniphobicfox]

GUESS WHO FINALLY GOT COMPRESSION STOCKINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!

[itspileofgoodthings]

I go off about Catholic/christian religious influencers of all kinds and I do so for many reasons but one of the main ones is just. the feeling they’re selling (and it is a feeling and they’re selling it, even if just for views) it doesn’t feel like that for everyone. That whole simplistic set-up of struggle struggle struggle, breakthrough, clarity, emotional peace, tears streaming down the face. That’s not real. Or at least it’s not real much of the time in MANY cases and even when it is real that isn’t the only part or the most important part of having a relationship with God. It’s probably the least important part, the feeling. and so it fills me with RAGE when the emotional part of religion is sold and packaged and paraded and presented on Instagram as “inspiration”! it distorts the whole reality of a relationship with God and puts a literal and figurative Instagram filter over the whole thing.

[petshopbutch]

to any other people who have disabilities or conditions that affect specifically their skin i want to say i see u + i love u. whether it be scarring, scabbing, cysts, or chronic open wounds/sores, or any other visible skin problems i want to say u are desirable. i know in my experience at least people attach all kinds of ideas about not just attractiveness but also hygiene and even morality to quote-unquote "bad" skin but thats not true and not fair and i hope u find someone who treats ur skin + ur body with the tenderness u deserve.

[tojisun]

double rainbow yesterday, at downtown

[starheirxero]

SOLAR FLARE LOVERS OMG Y’ALL I ACTUALLY GOT SOME EVEN MORE FASCINATING NEWS ON THEIR MODEL. So I found the sketchfab model for Solar Flare yea? I noticed the creator has a link to their twitter in their sketchfab bio and me, slightly nervous that they may not even be aware of their model being used on the show, decided to poke around to see what I could find.

Most importantly, they’ve reblogged fanart stemming from the show, so I think it’s safe to say they’re aware and okay!!

And less importantly but REALLY DELIGHTFUL: THE SOLAR FLARE MODEL HAS HIS OWN LORE. AND HE HAS KICKASS IMAGES MADE FOR HIM LOOOKKKK!!!!!

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They also seem to have a connection with the creator’s other OC who I don’t know the name of, but whatever is going on with them fascinates me deeply and I would love 2 more of them LOL

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And there’s way more of these!!! The creator honestly has some gorgeous models and a TV head robot OC who is the FINEST FUCKER EVER but I don’t wanna make this post too long so if u crave more like I do, I’d suggest taking a look at their account if u can 🙏 This shit is making me go into autism supreme mode I’m so happy (EDIT NVM NO NEED FOR THE TWITTER THEY HAVE A TUMBLR !!!!!)