#my dad beat me lol

[orgasming-caterpillar]

It hurts so bad in so many places

[vaggieslefteye]

HELL'S GREATEST DAD ↳ from Hazbin Hotel Season One (2024): 1x05 - "Dad Beat Dad"

[akkivee]

cute bad ass

[joelletwo]

reading thru the The Final utsuro fight visuals with the vocabulary i gained while liveblogging gintama

[VD: the section of the fight that has gintoki and utsuro-in-takasugi's-body slide through reanimated flashbacks to past scenes of the series that cast them as past versions of themselves, shouyou, and takasugi]

bc the maths is insanes

the initial flashback is to their immediately previous silver soul fight - the casting of the conflict as unending, progressless, in utsuro's favor. have either of them appreciably changed since then? is anything different? what is initially an incomplete brief flash - with utsuro still inhabiting takasugi - solidifies when he regresses to his original body and begins to more effectively counter gintoki. utsuro remains on the right throughout.

direct cut from there pulled further back in time to gintoki's immediately previous fight with takasugi's body in shogun assassination - takasugi on the right, giving utsuro in his body the power of Unconscionable Violence (senseless, gleeful, and knowing you well enough to perpetrate it) (joelletwo tags on squeaky toy video, 2023, repeated endlessly every day since)

but it's mutual - gintoki also knows you well enough to turn the tables and get the upper hand back

(not that this meaningfully stops you for long).

direct cut from there slightly forward in time to gintoki's first fight with utsuro in the immediately following farewell shinsengumi, where the revelations overwhelm him and reduce him to being fueled by the pure instinctual anger of The Demonic, a state of losing yourself and your ability to fight effectively (reductionisms, 2023),

conditions where it's all you can do to hold out against an enemy that represents something so big in your psyche,

which he knows about, since he's been that for you before. back in time again to the first (onscreen) takasugi confrontation, right before taking advantage of your precarious mental state to punch you out of the plotline (kraniumet tags on yamameta post addition, 2022)

but utsuro keeps a vice grip on control of the story, surfacing back into the present to stop and reverse his fall mid-air so he can stay anchored in the battle with gintoki,

meaning he remains vulnerable to the weaknesses of the body he's in, which only ever exists anymore in one memory - you're unable to move, only to witness. a third figure is introduced, who is more you than you here, while gintoki remains himself.

the you more you than you accepts death while you watch it approach with helpless despair and terror.

the collapse of utsuro back into the body he inhabits in present invites a re-examining of the series of flashbacks thus far - where the perspective of who controls the focal memory seems to flip from utsuro to gintoki back to utsuro here, does it? the farewell shins->festival transition is 1:1 substitutional, working out so that utsuro-as-takasugi winds back up on the right.

but it isn't utsuro borrowing a strength of his like Violence here - it's, just like in the execution, succumbing to one of his weaknesses. flipping between the two scenes, takasugi's derailing fear of gintoki as a figure becomes gintoki's of utsuro. there's a double elision of takasugi (missing from farewell shins due to his fight with gintoki) so that utsuro becomes both gintokis - making him both the one who looms large, and the one who is destabilized by.

gintoki signifies something huge to utsuro, after all.

he takes up the role he had back then, the one you assigned him from the start, because half of his time always exists in that one moment now as well.

being the one who acts on the story and moves it forward, brings it to an end.

the regression through history continues to child against unbeatable teacher, again the question of if either of you has grown since you met. gintoki becomes the underdog challenger on the right.

the refusal to give up an unwinnable fight, no matter how many times it's tried, the even-back-then way that gintoki becomes a shouyou figure for others, fluidly shifts you forward in time.

the reverse shot, the perspective flip - the identity lines cross.

he drags you through time with him, until you're someone he knows how to beat.

(because, again, you know each other so well as to be losslessly interchangeable, for two opposing souls in the process of finding themselves - conquering themselves - to become indivisible.) (reductionisms translation, 2024) (yamameta ouroboros poem, 2023)

and even when you win - earn by ceaseless trial and effort the right to play his trick back on him and dethrone/defang him by pushing him literally out of frame - ...

he learns from you as well and pulls himself back in by your anchor.

[oddberryshortcake]

Guys I’ll shut up when we finally learn the reason why Silver has frequent sleeping spells even though he woke up from his curse

[hanzajesthanza]

this looks like a long time but initially it said 1 MONTH 15 days

[carcarrot]

ok sitting down for a moment at disneyland. elaborating on the post-beat concert shenanigans in the tags

[fannyyann]

regardless of how you feel about keith tkachuk i think it's wild that he's still irritated a year later that the panthers lost to the SENATORS, brady's team, and that's somehow been twisted into proof brady's the favorite instead of that he was rooting for the panthers and was pissed they played like shit against a team he thought they should beat

[boyfriendyke]

idk whats worse the idea that my parents genuinely dont believe that mental illness exist or the apparent reality that they Do believe in mental illness they just dont think people need accommodations or medication. is this a joke. taps on the glass let me out of my enclosure

[gu6chan]

ouaaaaaghhh i've been on a bit of a pokemon binge lately......... i should crack open my old pokemon games and take a peek at my teams :,) i wish i still had my old copy of conquest and black 2 though............ :(

[emiliosandozsequence]

i need to beat the shit out of my cousin who likes sjm so so bad

[spacejammie-eimmajecaps]

Sometimes chronic illness is having a few people over to celebrate your brother's birthday but you can only last 45 minutes before you get too tired and have to go lie down in bed and from there you can hear everyone else laughing and having fun playing some card game and you want to go play too but you can't because your body demands to be flat in a dark quiet room

[raziiyah]

art from march of kryll from my dad the bounty hunter! i love lots of the character designs in this show and this little axolotl man is definitely one of them, admittedly he also immediately reminded me of randall boggs lmao, he even has a scene where he hears sean eavesdropping on him in the washroom and has his henchman kick open the stall doors and i'm sorry but it was just like that scene from monsters inc.

[entropy404]

I have a pair of basically broken headphones that are only attached by a rubber band on one side. Every now and then my dad puts new duct tape around it just to hold it together. It doesn't fix the problem but it does keep the headphones functional for a while.

My friends have repeatedly told me to just get new headphones but I just can't let this go. This pair of headphoens aren't even that good - they have just been with me for so long that I feel as if they are an integral part of me.

I wear my headphones until the adhesiveness wears out and I put it on my dad's table for him to fix again. I talk at my dad until I run out of things to be nostalgic over again and I fall quiet. I sit in the car with him in silence until I feel the ghost of love taps me on my shoulder and he gets on a plane and leaves me without saying again.

Dad, can you tape my headphones again?

[fortjester]

had another mildly distressing dream abt getting married and can't tell if the worst part was that it wasn't my decision or what I was wearing

[vacantgodling]

@mjjune asked for the other werewolf dad SO have a dump about the werewolf dad!

i don’t really have a name for this idea or a plot per se; i just have some characters and vibes so we will uh go with that. maybe i’ll call it “litter support” bc the entire idea is centered around a single werewolf dad that’s navigating having multiple litters and varying degrees of relationships with the mother’s/families of his kids.

so, meet WEREWOLF DAD: KASPIAN (or kas)

he’s a 37yo stressed out day laborer who works many hours in order to support his children from a few different litters. he loves his kiddos, tries his best for them, but really needs some actual wholesome relationships and a nap. and he has a hard time dating between the kids and his crazy work schedule. :)

THE MOTHERS:

LEA-JAYNE- 47yo; had their pups at 25 (dad was 15 😬) p much groomed him. they tried to be in a relationship but around the time he was 20 he she divorced him to pursue one of her rich affair partners and she got full custody of their 2 kids. she had him wrapped around her finger for awhile, but its been recently (the past 6 years) that he’s made a pretty good break from her and is starting anew™. she doesn’t like this despite being married to someone else and is always scheming to get him back under her thumb :) their kids are benjamin (he/him but experimenting with she/her & “jaymin”, 22) and marilyn (she/her but experimenting with he/him & “lyn”, 22)

CHRYSES - died during childbirth and bc kas was between jobs, her mother/kids grandmother was given full custody. the grandmother resents kas for her daughter’s death (though the two were in a relationship and planning to be married she never liked him :/) and constantly bad mouths him to the kids. however, the kids love their pa so they don’t really listen to her. she likes to keep the kids from seeing him when she can. their kids are auden (he/him, 15), chryses (named after her mother by grandma due to her striking resemblance to mama, she/her 15), and azaria (she/her, 15)

CORAH, 35yo- the only good relationship out of any of his litters. the two met at the bar and had a one night stand which resulted in a pregnancy™. she and kas became friends throughout the whole process, and while a romantic relationship isn’t something they’d pursue, she does have his best interest at heart and is probably one of his closest friends. this is the most consistent custody schedule so he sees these 3 kiddos the most. their children are gwin (she/her, 11), song (she/her, 11) and rivera (she/her, 11)

SOME OTHER INFO:

kaspian was 15 when benjamin and marilyn were born // lea-jayne was 25 when benjamin and marilyn were born

kaspian was 22 when auden, chryses, and azaria were born // chryses was 21 when auden, chryses and azaria were born. grandma is early 60s.

kaspian was 26 when gwin, song, and rivera were born // corah was 24 when gwin, song, and rivera were born

annnnnnd the kids:

benjamin or “jaymin” — the eldest of all kaspian’s kids and one of the shier ones. she and kaspian aren’t as close as she wants to be and she wishes she could have a better relationship instead of being under her mother’s thumb. she feels like she might be trans, but her mother/step-father’s expectations of her to make something of herself and “man up” have caused her a lot of grief and she’s been extremely closeted, esp after she stopped seeing kaspian regularly at a young age. she tries to reach out but usually burns her letters before she sends them. kas isn’t aware of her questioning her gender.

marilyn or “lyn” — the second eldest and budding transmasc. he grew up pretty angry and is very protective of jaymin. he resents kaspian for abandoning them with their tyrannical mother, and resents jaymin’s rosy viewpoint of their father. main goal is to get money and get them out of there so they can be their true selves.

auden — eldest of dead mom’s lot; adores kaspian and wants to live with his father full time and when he’s kicked out after an argument with gma or runs away he often finds his way to his father’s house. the police have been involved several times, and while they are suspicious that kaspian is kidnapping him, auden is loud about running away on his own, or trying to put the blame on his grandmother for kicking him out. hes pretty brash and acts out in school and just wants to be left alone.

chryses or “ris/rhys”— more relaxed than her elder brother but easily riled up. their grandmother views her as a perfect angel, even naming her after her deceased mother, but she’s pretty indifferent towards the woman. she wants to experiment with sex and relationships and while kaspian doesn’t mind as long as she’s safe her grandmother has an iron grip on where she goes or who she speaks with. she tends to be kept back by grandmother the most. loves her pa a lot and is always clinging to him when she can.

azaria or “zari” — rambunctious and extroverted and between herself and gwin tends to get into the most adrenaline junkie nonsensical situations. isn’t favored by the grandmother but knows how to not cause trouble (unlike auden) which allows her to get away with a lot. is very smart but doesn’t care for school and likes to run away for fun and not angst lol.

gwin — loud and excitable but extremely clumsy, gwin always loves spending time with her parents. she doesn’t really understand why they aren’t together and sometimes tries to get them to be partners again.

song — the most quiet and sensible of all of kaspian’s kids. song always has her head buried in a book and doesn’t really like getting dirty. she’s very intelligent for her age but has an aversion to others and going outside, something both kaspian and corah are trying to work with her on.

rivera — airheaded, but sweet, with the same if not more clumsiness like her elder sister. rivera loves nothing more than listening to song read and sleeping in the sun. she’s more like a cat than a dog lol.

so yeah! like i said no clue where i’m going with this, however knowing me romance is probably gonna be a thing soooooo 🌚