#my clothing too masculine

[el3venthcommandment]

whether in a room full of fags or a room full of jocks, i am just as alone.

[fleshdyk3]

lolita hyena 👍

[laundromatboyfriend]

i don't care how expensive they were; don't make me do it for you.

[oozeandgoo-art]

wish this site was like dreamwidth and i could do multiple dropdowns. text below the cut

Haven's monologue:

I hear some of you halfwit morons think you're efficient enough that you're entitled to waste time gossipping about fffucking fashion? It's great to hear that you're all confident enough in your work that you seem to believe that you can have a laugh about your fucking field commander's choice of clothes? It's funny. I thought you were all expendable. You must know something I don't. But maybe you're too stupid to know how to shut your fucking mouths and do your fucking jobs. It happens. Sad but true. You wouldn't be the only shit-sucking idiots I've had work for me. But I thought better of you. So I'm going to offer you a chance to prove yourselves. Go ahead. Say it about me. See what it fucking gets you.

very small text next to the 'shit-sucking idiots' line: Note: It is black-ops. Poor enough judgement is a liability that can mean death, not reassignment. It's a threat.

Erica's paragraph: Has already promised to smash their skulls in with her obuch if she hears one more snide comment, but this will really hammer the point home, so she's not complaining. Plus Haven looks damn good in a dress.

[waywardsalt]

back to thinking abt linebeck enjoying wearing dresses

[fryshrimp]

what a polite looking young lady! let's give her lots of money and social power she deserves it

alt colors ↓↓↓

these colors were what i had in mind originally but i couldn't get them to work as well as i'd like + they reminded me too much of harry dubois

[kunikisss]

thinking about keegan forcemasc yet again... sigh.

[clowningcrows]

was feeling real dysphoric so i put on a gender affirming fit and am now manspreading on the couch and i have to admit it do be helping a bit

[just-your-average-tangerine]

I find it frustrating how being a gnc and gay makes it hard to talk about my experiences as a trans person.

Both because the experiences themselves are so different from the norm. And because, if i try to talk about transphobia I face there's this underlying idea that because im a feminine trans man, I deserve it or at least could avoid it by being less feminine.

And there really is no way to win because if I'm feminine, then I'm not really a man (or not trying hard enough to be one) but if im masculine then I'm not queer enough and get shit from within the community for that too.

And I cant relate to the average trans masc experience (tm) because my (lesbian) mother's idea is that I should be a butch lesbian instead of a fem gay man so the lack of acceptance from them comes in the form of barring me from wearing makeup or "flashy" clothes, as opposed to the more typical enforced femininity.

How much of myself am I expected to give up? And more importantly, why is that expectation coming from other queer people, people who should know better?

[vamptastic]

yk i genuinely don't think ive ever been able to actually express my gender dysphoria out loud to another person cos with my family they'll get uncomfortable or think im somehow bragging bc i have the misfortune of a hyperfeminine body, with therapists im always trying not to say smth that makes me sound too self hating to get letters written, and with other trans people i don't want to upset them. idk writing it down just feels like im cataloguing everything that's wrong with me but I don't think ill ever have anyone i can talk to about it either

[asterias-corner]

the cosplay urge to make an entirely new cosplay because you hyper fixated on a character

Jojo had NO RIGHT making this man right here so cosplayable (that’s not a real word lmao)

should i tho? Summer con is in a couple months, almost a year, definitely enough time to get the stuff for it…

[creppersfunpalooza]

i need a lab coat rn it’s not even funny

[leapinarmadillo]

i just wanna know his deal so bad. what was this guy's DEAL

[feline-evil]

Pleasepleasepleasepleasepleaseplease i'm so tired of this experience happening to me

[aroacesigma]

nothing like a dysphoria breakdown in the shower to really round off the week amirite

[collgeruledzebra]

gender dysphoria truly fucks with your head so bad. no i can't comb my hair before work because not visibly neglecting your appearance is a feminine trait. ??? What the hell are you talking about