#my boy has murdered people

[raptor-the-pilott]

Another OOC post, a ramble this time, I may delete later but still: Playing around in creative with biplanes really brought me back to the Wii sports resort island flyover game when I was younger, I used to play the hell out of that one game mode. I love stalling the engine and doing flips and stuff, it's so much fun. :) I haven't a clue why, seriously, I can do this shit for hours just straight flying in games. I guess I genuinely like just flying planes in video games and doing silly tricks. I see why I like Raptor now, aw shit,,, I think I was just spiritually called to him (/j)

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Dead beat down

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[unproduciblesmackdown]

always enjoyed the Chess Set In The Foreground perspective framing used here

now also noting like, huh, a chess set in a general store just visited by marigold competitors who killed one of their guys and are now on the way back from their rendezvous point w/suppliers

[oceanwithouthermoon]

ive come to realise that i dont actually hate kubokai, i just hate the way people write them

[starwarsanthropology]

Shhh…

I like Mereel a lot. He’s cheerful and personable and fun and very, very clever and very, very good at what he does. He’s my favorite null because he’s all those things and also has the capacity to be the scariest, eeriest bastard out of all of them.

[batbrainrot]

starting a praying circle for dc to give juni ba a red hood book next. we'll meet every thursday 11pm lmk if you're interested

[youngyoo-apologist]

OG Choi Han they could never make me hate you cause if some random rich boy was yelling at me and telling me my family deserved to die like a day after it happened and all I wanted was to know how I could get help I���d beat him up too

This plus the added fact that the Harris Village people were the first people to take Choi Han in and take care of him after years and years in the dark forest. Like he’s obviously not going to be mentally stable after all that, and he was so young when everything happened to him like I cannot blame him at all. I don’t think I can ever hate OG Choi Han like ever, he’s flawed, he has problems, but I love him dearly. He deserves the world. This kid who had to fight for his life, was taken away from his family, and in the process had to give up parts of his own humanity to survive, and like went to war two years later, they could never make me hate u OG Choi Han…

Like yeah violence is bad I guess but OG Cale had it coming(saying this as an OG Cale fan, I love him, but he was mean as hell when he was younger!)

If I’m honest, I think they were both in the wrong to an extent. Like OG Cale shouldn’t have said all that no matter the circumstances, and OG Choi Han shouldn’t have beaten him up so much. But u say mean shit and you get hit, that is how it will work when you’re talking to the guy who just saw his entire village get murdered like idkkkk man

I understand where OG Cale was coming from, but he had many issues and while he wasn’t an awful person, he was capable of doing bad things because of his own internalized pain and emotions that he never got to properly process because of his emotionally distant childhood and relationship with his father who should have been there for him more when he was younger.

Okay speaking of his childhood, Deruth isn’t the WORST father in the world but there are a lot of things he could have done better. I think a lot of Deruth’s flaws come from his fear of failure and messing up. He’s scared of doing the wrong thing, and so he sticks to doing what he knows and using what he knows best. That’s why he uses his money, that’s why gift giving is his way of showing affection, he knows that it is one thing he cannot mess up.

The problem is that money and gifts is NOT what OG Cale needed. I think what that guy needed the most was a parent who wasn’t afraid to talk to him, to ask him questions. Not to say that Deruth gave up on OG Cale, but I think in a way he gave up on OG Cale by giving up on himself. Deruth didn’t trust himself to have the capabilities to talk to OG Cale, which is why he never did. It’s because that Deruth was scared, and didn’t trust himself, that he could never face OG Cale

If Deruth was able to trust himself a little more, and pull himself together, I don’t think OG Cale would have turned out the way he did. As a kid, he probably thought the only way he could help his family without relying on anyone(no doubt this whole ‘I have to do it myself’ thing came from the fact that he couldn’t rely on his father when his mom died, and instead was acting as a pillar of support for his father when it should have been the other way around) was to sabotage himself, the only heir. If he was shown to be unfit to be heir, then everyone else would have no choice but to direct their hatred towards him instead of his family.

If Deruth had talked to his son at least ONCE when he was a kid, asking him why he was upset or why he did the things he did, I think OG Cale would have told him. Why? Because he’s a kid!! A kid will obviously want to rely on his father, if he just had one sign telling him that he didn’t have to do it alone I’m 90% sure OG Cale would have said something.

Basically, while Deruth isn’t the worst father, he’s not really a great father either. I think he does do his best, but he has issues with communication lol

OG Cale and OG Choi Han are both complex characters and had their own reasons to behave the way they did. The thing is with people is that they’re complicated and have layers, so the situation with them would have layers behind it as well with multiple co-existing truths and stuff

[paleio]

percico is the only tag i have blocked on tumblr. i don't even know why i hate it so much but it makes me physically ill to think about. someone please explain the appeal of this ship i do not understand at all

[aroaessidhe]

Have you read any mysteries and/or humorous books with aspec characters? I want to buy a gift for an aroace friend but all the books I've read with aspec characters are either in the fantasy, sci-fi or YA contemporary genres which they aren't particularly inclined towards. They also also like literary fiction

Hm! Gonna be honest I'm not sure I can think of anything that'd be perfect. most of what I read is sff or YA haha.

For mysteries - there's The Murder Next Door which is historical murder mystery, f/f with an ace lesbian. The Reanimator's Heart is historical paranormal mystery, (m/m demi), Looking for Love in All the Haunted Places is a contemporary romcom with a lightly paranormal mystery element (ace f/m), Poisoned Primrose is a cozy mystery series with an ace MC & LI (f/m).

Everything that immediately comes to mind as being funny is YA fantasy or YA contemporary...

For litfic we have: Small Joys (ace SC), Convenience Store Woman (aroace coded MC), Breasts and Eggs (ace MC), American Mermaid (ace MC) - but tbh all four of these are love-it-or-hate it kind of depictions of asexuality imo, I don't know if they'd be something I'd gift just based on that if that makes sense?

[dreamsy990]

i drew silly gijinkas of my dogs

the dogs in question

[quietwingsinthesky]

the thing about self-inserting in spn is that if i put myself in there with full knowledge of the show. i would not want to fix things, i would just want to a) see how many of those men i can make have weird gender feelings by just existing, and b) encourage them to be so much worse in ways that entertain me.

[thestobingirlie]

one halloween, only very slightly drunk, tommy and steve get dared to spend the night in the creel house. steve’s long been scared of the dark, and tommy keeps swearing he’s seeing something moving, but it’s not until spiders start falling on their heads that the two boys pussy out and go running (they force carol to help them lie to the others and pretend they managed the whole night. she holds it over their heads to get shit she wants every week lmao).

[ninkaku]

i could talk all day about mori's treatment of dazai and the way he abused his power over him but i'd rather talk about the ways in which he is still doing it, despite dazai having left the mafia. as we know, dazai left the mafia under oda's instruction, a promise he made to his dying friend in which he said he would become a good person, and be on the side that saves people. oda said, the sides make no difference to you, so he knows for a fact that dazai has no reason to do these things, when good and evil are mere concepts for him and not something he feels drawn to either way. a take i've seen often and one that i quite like is not only did mori have oda killed for the mafia's own personal gain (the deal struck so that they could operate under legal means), but it falls back on mori grooming dazai to one day take his seat. up until this point, dazai has never had anything worth protecting, has never lost anything, has never grieved anything and never experienced the emotional call to despair.

odasaku's death and thus dazai's push into the light, which ends up being with the ada, is the final piece that mori needed to solidify that dazai would one day be able to take his place. they talk about it, dazai says you were afraid of me, weren't you? and in more ways than one, the statement is true. mori had always known that he would and always wanted for dazai to surpass him, but the husk that dazai had become by never wanting anything, never protecting anything scared him if dazai was to dispose of him and assume his seat, because although dazai is a genius, he was callous and didn't value anything. he wouldn't value the mafia like mori does, he wouldn't protect yokohama like mori does. during the guild arc, mori says if dazai was still my right-hand man, the guild would stand no chance. dazai inside of the mafia and outside of it exists as a powerful adversary to whomever he stands against, and i think this is one of many reasons why the ada and the port mafia exist somewhat in tandem. the port mafia and the ada overstep their boundaries from time to time with each other, but the truth lies in mori knowing that dazai could ruin them if he intended to.

in something of a tldr mori aims to push dazai out of the mafia just as much as he intends to keep him within it. he needs dazai to experience loss, needs him to experience what it feels like to protect something, what it feels like to want to protect something. the fact that after dazai left, mori has not replaced his seat as an executive. has not replaced dazai as his right-hand with someone else, continuously offers him his position back means he fully intends to have him back under his wing again, someday. means he fully expects, once dazai has experienced what he needs him to, that he will take over his position, and he will drive dazai back to him. yosano and dazai serve as two prizes that mori currently does not have on his mantle, and in the deal struck with the president of the agency, those are the two he is most likely to pluck out of their ranks to put right back into his own.

[mars-ipan]

this is gonna sound incredibly virtue signal-y i fear but i have been feeling. so fiercely protective of all the transfems i've ever met lately

[gloryundimmed]

❝ you don’t need to show me.  hell, you don’t even need to tell me that you don’t care about me.  i worked that out a long time ago. ❞ [ hi = ) ]

Break My Heart

This was rich. What did Miya truly know about him, almost a stranger? Enough to “know” he didn’t care about her, apparently. In most circumstances, he didn’t give a fuck what people thought of him, but this found a way to squeeze his heart in a way that felt almost painful.

“Oh yeah?” He gave her an ugly sneer as he looked down at her. “When did ya piece that together? When you first looked at me? Before ya even knew I existed? Hah. For someone who goes around playin�� little miss goodie two-shoes, that’s quite a shallow view of me you’ve got there.”

His words were packed with venom— more than he intended. Even though he couldn’t figure out why her words stung, they stung anyway. He was the one who got to decide if he cared, not her. So why was she going through mental gymnastics to make this misconception a reality in her mind? As far as he knew, he had never wronged her, which was difficult to say about most people. Was it low self esteem that made her think this way? Insecurities? Any guess he made was a shot in the dark.

[markantonys]

thinking about gawyn during the coup. upon first read i took min's pov of his behavior at face value and was like "oh no, he's being so scary and cold!" but going back i realized Oh.............Actually, He Is Incredibly Traumatized :(

Worry and fear filled his blue eyes, and his face was a mask of determination not to give in to them.

He was as tight as coiled steel, ready to burst out in any direction.

Most frightening to Min, with that blood-masked face and half-glazed eyes, with his body tensed almost to quivering and his hand upflung as if he had forgotten it, he never raised his voice or put any emotion into it. He only sounded tired, more tired than she had ever heard anyone sound in her life.

“If anything happens to them,” he said in that expressionless voice, “to Egwene or my sister, I will find you, wherever you hide, and I will make sure the same happens to you.” Abruptly he stalked a dozen paces away and stood with his arms folded, head down as if he could not bear to look at them any longer.

he was brittle, ready to shatter at the wrong blow.