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Legolas: Two~ Birds~ On a wire~
Legolas: One says "come on"~
also Legolas: and the other says "i'm tired"
#sad legolas hours#my boi is exhausted#he's cheerful and outgoing#but he needs a break#lord of the rings#lotr#the hobbit#lotr elves#legolas#mirkwood#silvans#greenwood the great#incorrect lotr quotes#incorrect tolkien quotes#incorrect hobbit quotes
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Style in episode 4 made me soft in a way that I truly did not expect. Iāve used the word āguilelessā (def: innocent and without deception) before to describe him but I don't think that has been shown more clearly then in this episode.
He tries to be manipulative and lasts for all of one single morning and then comes running to Fadel the second he hears about Fadel asking about him. He's so excited, so exuberant at the thought that Fadel misses him, so happy that his little (terribly obvious and juvenile) plan worked.
Which is why I think he was genuinely taken aback when Fadel only had harsh words for him as a reply (this is not a criticism of Fadel; in this he has been consistent. Doesn't mean they weren't hurtful though). Look at the way Style's grin slowly dies. Watch the way he straightens and backs away a bit, like he wasn't expecting the clawed swipe of Fadel's dismissal.
But Style is resilient. He's tenacious. We see him rally and steel himself to resume his pursuit: because Style is nothing if not determined to hold on to the thinnest thread of hope that he's breaking through Fadel's shell. And can I just take a moment to get emotional about Style offering forgiveness even when Fadel hasn't asked for it?
This, though. I do think this was uncalled for (this is a criticism of Fadel). You can make the argument that Fadel has tried honesty and blunt rejection and it hasn't worked, but I would have respected Fadel more if he'd stuck to his guns and kept rejecting Style in the same manner. Especially when everything else about his character shows he's actually very up front and direct. With Bison, with Kant, hell even with himself.
Fadel is mocking Style's clear and wanton desire for him. Look at the sardonic little grin Fadel gets right before he says, "You won't ever get what you want." Consider the way he was touching Style with that gentle, focused intensity; how he cuts up his shirt and tears it open and leans in close in a way that suggests purposefulness while having zero intention of seeing it through. Fadel knew what he was doing and he did it on purpose, to hurt.
And you can see that Style is genuinely hurt here. I think he has always been prepared for Fadel's rejection, but not his cruelty. Not Fadel making sport of him and his very real emotions and desires. Because Fadel has been rude and condescending before, but he's never been contemptuous like he is here.
And I wonder, partly, if this is because both times we see Style and his dad, his dad is scolding/chiding/correcting him to some extent. Perhaps that's just how they interact. Or perhaps, as implied by the way Style sarcastically said "Thanks, dad" as Fadel drives away in episode 1, Style doesn't enjoy the way his father scolds him and always has criticisms or corrections for him. Perhaps Style just wants to be accepted for who he is, especially by the man he is starting to have real feelings for.
Edit (after Ep 5): I'm so sorry, Papa Style, I did you so wrong. ;u;
@lazzarella made a post recently about Dunk's phenomenal acting in this scene (among others) and I concur so hard about how intense and scorching and "both fiery and steely" Style's anger feels in this scene. He's furious and wounded and you can see it in his gaze, the tension in his jaw, the way he bares his teeth up at Fadel when he says "...punch me in the face? Go on!"
And honestly, he is justified. Fadel's incredulity has no basis here: he stooped back to using public humiliation, something which Style very pointedly has not engaged with since his conversation with Bison in episode 2. Every instance of approaching Fadel since then has clearly been aimed to involve himself in Fadel's private life*.
*Yes even or maybe especially the support group in episode 3. Because while Style may have been treating the whole thing too lightly, all of it is directed privately to Fadel with his secret looks and winks. As far as the other support group members are concerned, Style was a somewhat overdramatic new member that had no connection to Fadel.
But what Fadel did by cutting up his shirt and sending him out in shame regressed them back to their early dynamic, which was far more antagonistic.
This is why Style lashes out at the support group again. Look at the anger simmering in his eyes. The way he makes direct, insistent eye contact with Fadel as he speaks, returning again when he talks about feeling used. Style, overall, is a character that doesn't take anything too seriously so it's almost shocking to see him this visibly angry and so pointedly challenging Fadel in a space where Fadel cannot easily brush him off.
But even now, even in all his rage and hurt, Style is true to himself and his heart. He doesn't want revenge or an apology, he wants Fadel to acknowledge that the thing between them, fragile as it is, matters; that what they did meant something to the both of them.
And this is why I was so broken about Style offering forgiveness without Fadel asking for it earlier: because all it took was Fadel admitting that he missed Style for him to unreservedly offer reassurance and safety for Fadel's heart. There is nothing ambiguous about what Style says at the jeep: he makes his own intentions clear by offering certainty, taking responsibility, promising the very commitment he was asking Fadel for.
He makes himself vulnerable to and for the man who literally just mocked and humiliated him that morning. Style really just let all his anger go immediately like that.
And no, I don't think he was doing all that for the car. This is just how Style talks. He has a flair for the dramatic, and this was the perfect way to reveal his news to Kant. But look at how delighted, how filled with boyish glee he is while he tells Kant the news about Fadel agreeing to be his boyfriend. Consider the way he reacted in the moment: the joy in his voice and the wonder in his eyes when he said "Really? We're dating now?", the way he covers Fadel's cheeks in a hundred butterfly kisses.
Also, a thought that occurred to me - could this be Style's first relationship? We know from episode 1 that he sleeps around, but there's seemingly no mention of a previous serious/committed relationship so far. His dad seems surprised to hear Style is seriously pursing someone. Could Fadel be the first person to capture his interest for long enough that Style developed actual feelings?
Which is also why his fear is now so visceral. He is genuinely terrified of Fadel, but I don't think it's just because he's realised how dangerous Fadel is (after all, he's known that to some extent since he watched Fadel break a man's arm with his thighs). No, his fear stems from the fact that Fadel now has reason to hurt Style.
In the face of the betrayal of his own trust, Style answers Kant's plea to friendship and entangles himself with Kant's lie willingly... and thereby forfeits all rights to the safety he was so confident of in the middle of the woods by an abandoned factory. Because now Style knows that if Kant gets found out, it won't matter that Style didn't intentionally mislead and take advantage of Fadel's vulnerability in the forest. Because he still chose Kant over Fadel here, and that makes him undeserving of the open door he asked Fadel to give him.
Style is incredibly transparent in all his thoughts and emotions and this is why I say that Style is guileless: he is incapable of true deception. His heart is too close to the surface, his desires too obvious, his thoughts too clearly broadcasted on his face.
He is the perfect foil; not only to Fadel (who until this episode held everything so buried inside his chest that we only understand his true feelings in snatches of memories or moments when Fadel is certain that he is truely alone) but also Kant (whose deception, whilst cracking under pressure, is intentional and calculated - thinking about that bowling alley accomplice right now - in a way Style never could be).
And this means that any success on his part in the upcoming episode(s) in deceiving Fadel is going to fall on either Fadel's own willful blindness or the suspension of disbelief the genre requires of the viewer -- but it won't be because Style is actually any good at playing the role now that he knows the full truth.
This is why my heart breaks for Style. Because Kant forced a burden on him that he was in no way prepared to bear. And eventually Style will have to choose between his loyalty to Kant and his burgeoning feelings for Fadel and, regardless of his choice, the narrative demands that Style sacrifice a piece of his own heart in the process.
#Shoutout to Dunk who did an AMAZING job of showing a frankly breathtaking range of emotions this episode.#Rewatching it I was constantly overwhelmed again and again by how exhausting it must be to embody the intensity of all of Style's emotions;#they are so raw and unfiltered and VISCERAL.#And Dunk also manages to do an amazing job with the quiet intensity Style has when he responds to Fadel so tenderly in the factory.#And then the transition to fear and the way he's torn between what friendship and what could be love if it weren't for Kant's circumstances#is asking of him.#Every episode I think my love for this boy has reached its peak and then the next episode comes and my heart somehow expands again.#the heart killers#the heart killers the series#thk meta#style sattawat#fadel#fadelstyle#dunk natachai#thk ep 4#<my posts>#also i realised as i was writing this that this will be my 1000th post!! :O so apt that it is for the boy that has my whole entire heart <3
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percico fanfics are wild š those are literally the second and third paragraph of the first chapter
#I KNOW IāVE BEEN AFK AND ITāS PERCICO WEEK BUT LIFE HAS BEEN EXHAUSTING#iām keeping upā¦ on my own paceā¦#and itās been GREAT thereās SO MUCH CONTENT I CANāT KEEP UP ON AO3 š„¹š„¹#letās talk about these boys we love so much fam#percico#nico di angelo#percy jackson#pjo#pernico#ao3#percy jackson and the olympians#heroes of olympus#and this is a russian fic you just KNOW itās gonna be good#percico fics never fail to be the best ones for this fandom do they#riordanverse
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good boy... ā”
#ok so this took way too long and I'm exhausted#but fixation lives on#u can guess which bad end is my favourite tho#good boy cowjack the best#my art#dmmd#dramatical murder#aoba seragaki#koujaku#fanart#sly#bad end
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I mean trout did kill someone, I think it's very reasonable for people to consider that unredeemable regardless of whatever she's going through
I'm tired.
I didn't say it wasn't absolutely okay to hate her and want her to die. Nor did I say she was innocent or not responsible for her actions. It's extremely reasonable to hate her.
I don't even disagree that Trout should die, I'm just asking folk to read the room maybe.
#and maybe stop putting words in my mouth#answers#anyway there are studies that media literacy is at an all time low#and boy does it show#very exhausting
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people always talk about edwin being an older ghost, and he technically is, but he doesnāt have any more experience being a ghost than charles. he was in hell from the moment he died to the night he met charles. he died at 16 and then did not get a chance to go through any growth or learn anything in hell other than tortureāhe lost those 70+ years. functionally, neither of their afterlives start until they meet, and they have to (get to) learn how to be ghosts and how to exist in this form on earth together every step of the way. anyway, what are you procrastinating right now? iām procrastinating an essay that was due 4 days ago AND an essay thatās due tomorrow š¤
#dbd has been bad for my procrastination from the day i first watched it#i have some spins that are worse for my productivity than others and this is a baaaaad one#but itās the fucking rush from the hyperfixation that only nd people could possibly get#every time i engage with a post or a fic or anything related to the show i get 10 straight shots of dopamine through me#iām literally in school to become a therapist and iām like or i can be mentally ill instead of doing my work#good for me (bad for me)#dead boy detectives#dead boy detective agency#save dead boy detectives#renew dead boy detectives#revive dead boy detectives#payneland#painland#paineland#paynland#hate that there are so many spellings of their ship name itās exhausting all#chedwin#charles x edwin#charles rowland#edwin payne#edwin paine#yeet my deet#yeet my deebd#dbd4ratch#dbda#dbdshow
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i can't believe i've done this ngl
this is probably my most grand work with Vulture as a character, and this is counting the animatic, too..... but still!
its a COOL REFERENCE SHEET!!!!! quite proud of myself here :')
#oc: vulture#my art#i'm exhausted but this turned out to be so nice oh my god#my skinny skinny boi#would probably throw in a few concepts of his outfits based on the timeline of his playthrough later#digital art#fallout new vegas#artists on tumblr#fallout oc#courier six#fnv#reference sheet#courier 6
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#i was going to redraw it digitally but I'm too exhausted so here you are shitty doodle xd#micolash host of the nightmare#bloodborne#micolash#mother kos#I'm not calling you good boy meme#i'm not calling you good boy#my art
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He was so girlboss in the movie
#fnaf movie spoilers#fnaf movie#OHMYGOD GOING FERAL EVERY SCENE WITH HIM WAS SO GOOD IM SO HAPPY#okay im actually exhausted rn#the burnout from being on my feet the whole day is getting to me oh boy#i shall go nini yall enjoy him#my art#fnaf#william afton#five nights at freddy's#purple guy#digital art#spoiledmilks art#five nights at freddyās movie#fivenightsatfreddysfanart
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Itās been an AGE since I posted art. But HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOHN!
#crawls out of my hole of sever vitamins deficiency and new job exhaustion and new meds to wish boy birth#malevolent#malevolent podcast#malevolent fanart#John doe#arthur lester#art#my art
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finally started p5 royal ā¼ļøā¼ļøā¼ļøā¼ļø
expect some royal trio art soon they are my dearly beloveds (minus akechi i hope he dies in this reality too)
#love that ren got the sad boy kdrama fit#also no idea how akechi survived i want to shake it out of him so bad why are you gatekeeping stupid bitch#idk if this is just him w/o the pleasant boy facade but he seems so much more exhausted and cruel#like everything he says is verbal irony bc heās patronizing everyone. he hates being a team player sm itās insane ššš#heās so withdrawn and short tempered and actually mentally unstable. like sadistically so#i think these are all warning signs#if he dies again iām ending it all. you didnāt come back from the dead just to die on me again#also sumireā¦.i love her so badā¦..my sweet girlā¦.my baby ā¹ļøā¹ļøā¹ļøā¹ļø#sumire yoshizawa they could NEVER make me hate you#she reminds me of a fawn šššš with her big soft doe eyes and how sheās so curious and eager#GAAAAAHHH every time she comes up on screen i want to give her a headpat SO BADā¦..SHES SUCH A FUCKING CUTIE#i feel so bad for ren bro heās literally stuck babysitting the new kid and simultaneously keeping akechi on a leash š#poor boy needs a break. we should go to hawaii again that was fun#anyway yeah that's all#hopefully iāll finish the game this week iām sick of this. i want to move on
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THERE'S A POP UP PARADE WOLFWOOD FIGURE COMING, THIS IS NOT A DRILL [x]
#Trigun#Trigun Stampede#Tristamp#I haven't even been opening Twitter#I've been so overwhelmed#And exhausted#BUT THIS STILL MANAGED TO COME TO ME#HIM....#MY BOY#HE'S GONNA EXIST#ETA: Better crops and a shorter post
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thinking about how mulder loves to get scully a gift, usually terribly heartfelt, even if disguised as something flippant:
the superbowl vhs tape he brings her when she wakes up from her coma in one breath (and her deadpan "i knew there was a reason to live")
tickets for a football game to watch together in irresistible
bringing her flowers to the hospital in memento mori (he lies, saying he stole them from a guy with broken legs to make her laugh)
the birthday keychain in tempus fugit (and when she finds a meaning to it, he claims "i just thought it was a pretty cool keychain")
that is a man who is always thinking about her.
#you can just picture him at the store thinking āoh boy she's gonna love this :)ā#i think the superbowl vhs one chokes me up the most because he's trying so hard to play it cool when he had just lost her#and he needs to break the ice somehow because he hates to put those big feelings into words#he's more into saying what he means with touch and subtext#it's as if he needed SOMETHING off of the shelf at the store to say āi'm glad you're back. i missed you. i hope you're wellā#so he goes with a dumbass VHS she is never going to watch. just to see her recognize his coded declaration of love.#and that exhausted smile she reserves for his antics#and it makes me tear up! still! thinking about it!#i know love languages are problematic but i do think there is something underrated about giving gifts as an act of love#of having your thoughts for someone being represented with a physical object. making that love tangible. you can touch it.#(it works very well on me because i tend to assume if you're out of sight you're not thinking about me)#(so looking at a little trinket someone gave me is like oh!!! they actually are thinking about me often. enough to find this Thing)#anyway. that is my emotional ramble for the evening. please enjoy#AND DISCLAIMER: i am sure there are other examples of him giving gifts i forgot and that there are more yet to come#but as a reminder i have only seen up to s5 ep 3 so! pls no spoilers even if i do tag this for the general public#okay promise? promise no spoilers in the tags? thank youuuuu mwah#the x files#txf#msr#fox mulder
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guys. guys look at me. its ok. comfort yaoi slap
#they can throw me into electric shock therapy BUT THEY CANT STOP ME FROM DRAWING BOY KISSES#im in the us. already exhausted if it isnt obvious#and i spilled my guts out on instagram so im not gonna move it to here#so lets just exist okay#intertwine our toes? bluetooth our braincells? <3#i love my boys so share this moment with me#bongo art#art#digital art#danganronpa#sdr2#super danganronpa 2#danganronpa 2 goodbye despair#fuyuhiko kuzuryu#hajime hinata#kuzuhina
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#sketching is so fun#finishing stuff isnāt#i get so tired while doing linearts or painting stuff#bc im a fucking perfectionist#its exhausting#more sketches#bucky barnes#steve rogers#stucky#kinda#lmao#my poor boys
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silly boys
#danganronpa#danganronpa art#danganronpa fanart#danganronpa byakuya#byakuya togami#danganronpa makoto#makoto naegi#naegami#it is 2am on my end#i need to rest but i felt compelled to draw the boys cus i feel it's been a while since i've just drawn a pic of the two of them being cute#specifically i mean a pic of the two of them in the same room interacting together. not just the two vaugly together#but yeah. i'm going to conk out so hard now cus i am so tired and exhausted but it was worth it for the silly guys being silly together
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