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reasons to keep living.
#and other reminders for myself#i love to draw my loved ones as little guys#i stole the designs for most of these from my best friend#although the tiger is my mum <3 and i came up with her look all by myself#stillindigo art
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councilor 3D model
i learnt 3d modelling from the ground up to bring him to life. he's yours now. do whatever you want with him
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please credit me if you make something using the model (or even ping/link me to it, i would love to see what you made!)
currently available as a .blend, .fbx and an SFM port.
#hello councilnation i'm finally releasing him to the wild#have fun playing toys with him#ultrakill#councilor#councilor ultrakill#3d stuff#obviously with the councilor having just 1 full body image of him means that some stuff i had to improvise on#so you get to enjoy my headcanons on how he looks#(like obviously the wings & halo)#(but also the chestplate design)#but did you know that the councilor's canon design has subtle engravings on his forearm armor pieces?#i only barely noticed them when painting textures and i was floored#i had to add them#to the sfm anon and whoever else wants to use this for sfm stuff-#i did my best with a port for sfm and i'm quite proud of the result#but please be aware i have never used it before so if you find that something doesn't work as it should please please let me know!!#gonna pour my heart out in tags as always so close your eyes if you don't wanna see me being sentimental but#i'm not kidding when i say i learnt 3d modelling from the ground up for this#i have meddled with blender before but never actually came close to finishing a project#and i don't know how i did it and how i kept going#(i do know) (it was my friend encouraging me every time i showed him progress)#this was like 1 entire month in the making#but i'm so fucking proud of this and how it turned out and people's tags in my act 2 render genuinely were such a huge confidence boost#so thank you guys for liking it <3#i'm still very much thinking of doing a version with just his bloodied head#but it might take a while because i want a break and i want to play warframe
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my dearest friends the three shadows[relation withheld]
#skye's doodles#YAAAY skye shadow sirens gijinkas are now REAL. these three are so fun theyre everything to me <3[i hit beldam with the hammer#i see so many varied designs for them n it was fun to add my own to the pile <3#i wanted their outfits to have a similar aesthetic to the clothes the people in twilight town wear n i really like how they came out#the cloaks were also fun they're kind of based off boo sheets. they can wrap it around themselves to sink into the ground like in canon#also the inside of em are designed after the shadow queen. basically fucked up dark magic cloaks <3#but anywayay YEAH i had a blast designing them <3 my best friends the shadow group with too many names across versions#paper mario the thousand year door#paper mario ttyd#vivian ttyd#marilyn ttyd#beldam ttyd
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Can't help but imagine that in the Lucky Clover AU, if Frisk were to manage to sneak away and end up befriending Undyne and the skelebros whilst everyone in the Dunes is probably having a panic attack (maybe Flowey caused a distraction or something, like some scaffolding collapsing causing everyone to focus on figuring out how that happened, giving Frisk the ability to sneak away), by the time Martlet finds them they've already managed to make the Underground a bit safer for at least themself.
Doesn't stop them from being grounded though-
That's exactly the plot set up I had in mind for this AU!
Even though Frisk is under very strict rules by Clover to not leave the Dunes without them, Frisk is constantly wandering off (perhaps influenced by a certain someone...) and exploring the other parts of the Underground. This is how Frisk eventually meets Papyrus, Sans, Undyne, Alphys, and others! And yes, Frisk is always grounded by Clover once they're eventually found and brought home. Doesn't stop them from sneaking out again, though. Clover is getting a taste of their own medicine trying to control this kid LOL.
#undertale yellow#uty#uty au#clover uty#starlo uty#ed uty#ace uty#feisty five uty#martlet uty#undertale#papyrus#sans#frisk#frisk ut#lucky clover au#the cowboy hat draws#Dear god so many tags for this fandom...#I tried rendering a bit more and adding color! I have learned I do not know how to render and color!#I really gotta up my game... this was still pretty fun though!#Even though I wish the final product came out better. But that's okay! Learning experience#Trying to get back in the groove of drawing and catching up on asks!#Also sorry for not using the fonts for the skelebros. A crime I know#CSP just doesn't like me using different fonts on the same canvas#Here to contribute to the Martlet and Papyrus best friend propaganda
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i finished it, was kicked out of the game, and then spent the next 10 minutes drawing this. i will now go take a shower, most likely cry, and then go through the emotional turmoil of convincing myself to reset so i can do a geno run. i hate it here :D
#undertale yellow#uty#my art#<- ifg#spoilers under these tags beware. although it is mostly just me being very very sad#that entire thing was heart wrenching. anyways#CEROBAS FIGHT??? HELLO???#i had to exit out of it the first time (i got to the last phase) to get better items but i came back and won pretty quickly#but THE CUTSCENES?!?!?#JFC NO WONDER THIS WOMANS SO MESSED UP. HER HUSBAND PRACTICALLY DIED IN HER ARMS AND THE LAST THING HE LEFT HER WITH- HIS DYING WISH- COULD#ONLY BE FULFILLED BY PUTTING THEIR ONLY CHILD IN DEATHS WAY. AND THEN WHEN SHE TOOK THAT RISK THE WORST THING HAPPENED AND SHE NOW HAS TO#LIVE WITH THE GUILT OF BEING THE ONE TO. MOST LIKELY. KILL HER ONE AND ONLY DAUGHTER#ALL THE WHILE SHE WAS PUSHING AWAY HER CHILDHOOD BEST FRIEND AND CONVINCING HERSELF THAT SHE WAS IN THE RIGHT TO SACRIFICE CLOVER WHO HAD#BEEN ONLY KIND MERCIFUL AND JUST THIS WHOLE TIME. EVEN TO THOSE WHO WERE TRYING TO KILL THEM. FUCK.#AAND WHEN CLOVER HUGGED HER I DOUBLED OVER IRL BC *THATS EXACTLY WHAT I WANTED TO DO IN THAT MOMENT* I HATE IT (read: love it) HERE#n dont even get me STARTED on after that. when clover started moving on their own and the gd white screen came up and we got flashbacks of#everyone's words. thats when the tears rlly started coming bc it clicked for me. 'oh. this is it. isn't it?' and IT WAS#WHEN THEY GAVE THEIR FUCKIGN HAT AND GUN AWAY TO MARTLET AND STARLO WELL THATS WHEN I REALLY STARTED CRYING#AAND THE GROUP HUGG#I WAS SOBBING WHENEVER I HAD TO WATCH THEM CRAWL UP AGAINST THE WALL AND DIE AND HAVE FLOWEYS WORDS PLAY OVERHEAD#AND THE FUCKOGN#THE F U C K I N G#AFTEWRCREDITS SCENE WHERE WE GOT THE 'You heard someone calling for help. You answered.' I GOT CHILLS SO BAD#to think that all the other souls have stories just as expansive and emotional as clover n frisks. how fucked up is that. in a good way tho#and finally the last scene where we got all 4 of our main friends sending us off in waterfall and we see clovers items end up in the dump#just waiting to be found by bratty and catty. fucken hell man this was a masterpiece#anyways time to reset and obliterate everyone and never emotionally recover from that ever!! really is feeling like 2016-17 again w the way#this game has me sobbing my eyes out and feeling the guilt of knowing that i dont HAVE to kill them all but im too curious not to#oh well. at least i have the balls to do it this time around instead of letting a youtuber do it for me ig
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#tumblrstake#queerstake#love getting the real deets from my septa- octa- and nonagenarian friend who were there#and what their parents and maybe even grandparents had to say about it.#i have been told unpublished Joseph Smith III stories. let alone old policy and church screwups and the mildly bizzare recollections#also so many stories about encountering/being visited by the 3 Nephites from generations#that kind of lore is the best#yes. pls tell me what you learned in sunday school in 1960.#thanks for the primary book from 1947#Fred M Smith got caught with a beer by Joseph Smith III (his dad) . he hid it in his tuba but tripped#the beer rolls out of the tuba and is picked up by no one other than father JSIII#he hands it back to fred and says something along the lines of “you dropped this”#like where else are you gonna get that#rlds faction “war” where???? kerala 🤯 year?? 1990s#that one was from an ex apostle and is declassified and i used some artistic liscence in description.#community of christ prevailed. but apostle who came to prepare new ministers that had to take over after schism legally can never go back#no one died afaik#i'm just impressed by the apostle who was risking his life for the church in kerala bc theres more to it than this#good history#idk the lgbtq+ history that well other than they did have a group for them at Conference in the 70s#and no open old lgbtq+ friends
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#this is one of my favorite pokémon of ALL time. this is one of those pokémon that#when it first came out‚ i had such a Visceral reaction to. i couldn't get over this fucking dog. and i still can't#THEY CAN'T FUCKING SEE!!!!!! AHJGSAKDGASJGDSKCGAJVCKABCKB#i love it SO much it's so fucking. cute. it's so fucking cute. so happy to see that blue haired bitch in the sv dlc having one#DAS IST MEIN BABY. I LOVE IT. lord this is the best. gushing over this dog#while also listening to discO-zone for the first time in a Long time#which is one of my favorite albums of all time. right next to probably vylet pony's cutiemarks and the things that bind us#and burn pygmalion from the scary jokes#there you go. there's my music taste lain out flat. kinda all over the place but discO-zone is one of those that i've loved since i was#a real youngin. and i just rediscovered it last night and UUUUUUUGGHHHH IT'S SO GOOD#MUSIC!!!! AND DOGS. feeling GOOD this morning#by the time this posts‚ it'll be like. two weeks later. but past me was feeling great when she posted this#about to start shiny hunting pawniard for a friend's birthday. technically getting eggs as i write this#wish me luuuuck..! it'll probably be his birthday by the time this posts. lemme check#oh yeah this is gonna post two days After his birthday. hopefully by the time this goes up i've already got the pawniard#HI FORGOT TO TAG THIS ONE#hisuian growlithe#hi from the future again lol his birthday was like a month ago by this point because i ended up queueing up this guy before all the gmax#forms. i totally forgot them. and this whole time i've been queuing them up and shoving them Above this guy. so it was even longer ago#that i queued this guy up at this point. teehee!
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Bungou Stray Dogs: Dead Apple and how “ability users” (opposite to “normal people”) learning to accept themselves through the acceptance of their own abilities is a queer metaphor of acceptance of own's sexual orientation and gender: an essay by me
#bsd#bungou stray dogs#About: Dead Apple. Watched this a while ago with a friend and it was a lot of fun!!!#If you're reading this: thank you so much for hanging out with me I had such a good time (ㅅ´ ˘ )♡#Next to general considerations: wow they were right that Bungou Stray Dogs movie sure can Bungou Stray Dogs#It's always nice to see the detailed animation and elaborate backgrounds of movies. The animation quality compared to the manga is–#definitely noticeable and it's nice to see. That said... I still like the season 2 art style more? And I'm speaking strictly of art style.#The s2 one looks more soft and smooth while the da one is so much more rough.#The plot is... Very bsd-esque I don't think there's anything to add.#In my opinion Kyouka's arc is the one that turned out best tbh. I really like her narrative development and personal growth in this movie.#I like the complexity of her state of mind. how full of contradiction she is. I especially appreciate the recurring small changes of–#expression that indicate how she thinks differently from Atsushi even if she doesn't voice them. The fight between her cynicism and her–#kind nature. It's all very interesting.#Atsushi's development is interesting too. Although all the open questions about his ability we still have kind of leave me frustrated#I don't feel very strongly about Akutagawa in this movie? I mean‚ he's there. The ss/kk scenes are always great and in character and a joy–#to witness no matter what they do. He just doesn't shine particularly? Or at least personally I dont find the “proving my strength against–#myself” narrative arc to be particularly interesting. Imo it was a lot better flashed out in the da stage play! With the complexity that–#the dialogues with Chuuya added to the character. Dazai attacking him. And especially Aktgw understanding that Rashomon wasn't testing Aktg#but rather only expressing that unstoppable rage that is also Aktgw's own. About that I checked out the play and I really liked it!!#I only watched highlights (aka: ss/kk and chuu/aku scenes) but there's some stuff I really like. I like the conflict between Aktgw and–#Chuuya and how Chuuya messes up with Aktgw at first maliciously and then amiably. It's interesting how Atsushi himself observes that Kyouka#and Akutagawa get along. And especially the sskk almost-handholding and Atsushi saying Akutagawa has a nice profile were cute akjdhbsawhjb#Next. Da really is shipping paradise (╥﹏╥) Sorry but... It is. oda/zai. daz/atsu. ss/kk. s/kk. fuku/mori. chuu/aku. It really has everythin#and the moments are so good!!!! What else. Wish we'd see more of Tsujimura. And Christie. And women in general tbh.#Also‚‚‚‚‚ Atsushi's tiger form in this movie is ATROCIOUS. I've said it before but it's crazy how a franchises that relies so heavily on–#fanservice came up with something this hideous. Man the movie overall was pretty but Atsushi sure wasn't. Firmly stand by the belief–#that only Akutagawa would find that form attractive.#Oh last note. honestly if we're ready to accept a movie where an antidote has effect AFTER the person has effectively died then we really–#can't complain about any kind of insanity the manga brings up#random rambles
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all the pasta have normal blood except for
- jack: hot, tar blood. his body temperature is always reaaally high. the hot tar cools quickly when it's outside.
- the puppeteer: he has golden blood that turns black over time. the golden form glows. his blood sometimes exits his body in the form of strings.
- candy pop: liquid candy. sparkly, teal and tastes yummy — thankfully not sticky. it makes a good treat.
- ben: comes out like static. all his internal organs are staticy and electric to the touch.
- lazari: black blood. thanks to zalgo. it has the same consistency as regular blood; it's just black.
- kagekao: the shadow demon doesn’t really have blood. he's full on shadow. if he gets stabbed or hurt, a flow of shadow would come out instead of blood.
- jason: his blood is rotten like his personality.
- laughing jack: rainbow blood! except it’s in a dull shade of the colors! not bright at all...!
- judge angels: holy blood. her blood glows brightly and will forever glow brightly.
"some of these are impossible—" I KNOW BUT IT'S MY AU SO I GET TO CHOOSE THEIR BLOOD TYPES
#THAnk you to my best friend who came up with half of these with me#creepypasta#creepypasta au#eyeless jack#the puppeteer#candy pop#jason the toymaker#laughing jack#lazari#ben drowned#judge angels#dina angela clark#creepypasta headcanons#creepypasta headcanon
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Voy + Textposts 17, Special ParisKim Showcase
(Voy + Textposts 16) + (Voy + Textposts 18)
#that was the hottest thing that's ever#happened to me#trek thoughts#st textposts#what fucked up guys these two are#if harry murdered tom in cold blood tom would die happy#gonna be honest#also i firmly believe tom came away from the chute with 20 new kinks#he's always asking harry to roleplay shit like prisoners of war in world war one#and harry is like... wtf#babe pls pls come on come on pretend you have to torture me but then i offer u my body instead#harry is a people pleaser so he does it#but he is confused#after the chute harry is consumed by guilt for almost killing his best friend and tom is just like#tom paris#harry kim#star trek#voyager#pariskim#st voyager#voy#st#st voy#star trek memes#star trek funny#star trek textposts#kimris#harry kim x tom paris
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I desperately need to know the circumstances that lead to that weird period in like 70s-80s where they just made a horror movie about any and everything
#Absolutely no trashed concept you think something up it’s been a horror movie concept at that point in time#What if you were fucked by an alien and had a grotesque baby inside you? already a thing#What if space clowns came and started killing people? Already a movie#What if my best friends car is weirdly possessive and murders anybody who gets in the way? Already a thing#What if my neighbour is secretly a vampire and wants my girlfriend as one of his victims? A movie#What if people were sold alcohol that literally dissolves the body? A movie#What if ice cream was evil? A movie#Wild thing is most of these movies are actually really good#Like way better than the premise alone would have you believe#killer klowns from outer space#christine 1983#Inseminoid#fright night 1985#street trash 1987#the stuff 1985#Horror movies#camp horror
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WAOT WERE U THE ONE TSUKASA COSPLAYER AT MIKUEXPO GIVING OUT MIKU STICKERS TO THE PJSK FANS
THATS ME!!!!! i didn't mean to just give them to pjsk fans help but i severely underestimated how many i should've made and cut out .. so i just ended up giving them to cosplayers or people who said hi to me .... T_T
THERE'S ALSO THIS SUPER CUTE BRACELET SOMEBODY RAN UP TO ME AND GAVE ME AND I TREASURE IT SO I NEED TO ADD IT TO THE POST AND SHOW IT OFF .. WAH!!!! ITS SO CUTE LOOK!!!!!!
#again WAS NOT MY BIRTHDAY. MIKUEXPO TORONTO FELL ON TSUKASAS BIRTHDAY IN JAPAN TIME. SORRY TO EVERYONE WHO SAID HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.#i love your icon cause i saw a garf miku cosplayer at mikuexpo toronto too IT WAS SO AWESOME#i saw snother tsukasa cosplayer in hid school outfit and they had cute star glasses i Need some.#in the future n for cons i think i'll just order stickers to hand out .. cutting them out by hand was so much .....#especially when i did the whole pjsk cast. 10 or so of each of them. my best friend helped and it still took like 2 hours#<- I DID THAT FOR ANIME NORTH I MEAN i think i forgot to post about it here. anyways#i dont plan on tabling at cons or snything cause i just like attending them so much. but#In the future i think i'll just pay to get Nice little prints or stickers made and shipped to me to hand out ...#Sorry they arent actual stickers they're just laminated with tape i did them the night before while crunching for the con the week after.#alliellama#ask#sorry to go on but mikuexpo really was such a good time#when we first got there i was in the merch line w my friends and skmeone came up and said can you do the tsukasa laugh right here right now#but everything we said echo and i was like T_T no im shy ...#and then 2 hours later i heard there was a saki cosplayer there and started running around the venue shouting SAKI. SAKIII. SAKI.#WE FOUND HER IT TOOK ME LIKE 20 MINS which is impressive because there were a lot of people. by god.#it was so fun. we had such a good time i could go on. everyone was so FREAKING NICE. AND GAVE SO MANY FREEBIES. AND COMPLIMENTS.#but i literally only had like ..30 mikus. to hand out. i felt SO BAD. CONSERVING THEM.
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This is not a request, just wanted your opinion on this! What do you think how would Chuuya react to female y/n wear a lingerie for the first time? I think he would tease the hell out of her and even go feral lmao-
Thank you for answering! Have a lovely day!
A/N: I'm so sorry love but I'm going to turn this into a whole post because YOU GOT MY BRAIN SPINNING. Thank you so much for this question! I also wrote something for Dazai and Kunikida <3
Warning: a bit suggestive.
Chuuya:
One thing everybody should know about Chuuya is that he has drunk his respecting women's juices.
Chuuya's going to make you feel wanted and desired. You can see it when his blue eyes glide over your body and how his pupils dilate in the act of doing so.
THE COMPLIMENTS. Listen, this man is going to let you know that he thinks you're the sexiest and most beautiful creature on this planet.
And yes, the teasing! It's the type of teasing that gets you both riled up. Please, he'd wear that typical smug grin of his that makes him look so hot.
Chuuya's going to have trouble keeping his hands to himself. He would first caress you softly to give you the space to reject his touch. But when you don't, his hands get more possessive.
Can we also talk about how his first reaction would be to be a bit flustered? His cheeks would be a shade of pink throughout the entire act. It's a mix of "Wow you're so fucking hot" and "Wow you're so hot." I hope the difference between those two is clear lol.
TL; DL he's going to be worshipping you.
Dazai:
Oh, you know Dazai is immediately in control.
It's one of the few times you catch him off guard, even if it's only for a second. But Dazai puts himself together fast, and that's when the fun begins-
He's going to be so teasing, saying everything he can to make you flustered. It is the kind of teasing which shows that even though Dazai is in control, you have him wrapped around your fingers.
Dazai is more patient when it comes to touching you. He's almost like a predator playing with his prey: approaching you so teasingly slow, letting only an inch of space between you when he stands before you, and when his fingers finally touch your bare skin, he caresses you with touches that feel as light as a feather.
What makes it worse is his sly smile that he wears on his face, one that makes him look so unbearable but also so hot.
His eyes are darker than usual, too. It's the promise of a sleepless night. And an unwalkable morning.
Kunikida:
HE'S GOING TO BE FLUSTERED.
Also immediately turned on, but Kunikida doesn't want to show it. It's a mix of wanting to respect you and thinking he's better than that.
But his cheeks turn bright red, and Kunikida struggles to talk in sentences that grammatically make sense.
He's trying his best to look at anything but your lingerie. Kunikida first looks you directly in the eyes but finds himself even more flustered as he can't look at you and not think about what you're wearing and how you turn him on.
Kunikida's body would become stiff, absolutely trying his hardest to make you not uncomfortable and to stop him from doing anything impulsive.
It's only when you approach him and touch him that he gives in. Suddenly Kunikida's body relaxes, and his explore your body, having a concentrated look on his face with dilated pupils.
Let's say Kunikida is a very passionate man to keep this as non-nsfw as possible...
#chuuya x reader#dazai x reader#kunikida x reader#bsd x reader#chuuya nakahara#bsd x you#dazai osamu#kunikida doppo#bsd headcanons#bsd x y/n#One of my best friends (and hugest Dazai lover) came up with the unwalkable morning part lol and it's one of the many reasons why I love he#*r thank you tags for limiting how many letters I can use in one
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Amouranth: ...What happened to the dumpy? Oh, I guess that was Carrera (Carre).
Amouranth: Ruben, why do you– why do you look like Shaggy mixed with Peter Pettigrew? What happened? [She keeps going back to the picture and staring at it with growing concern] This is a pass– this picture is a pass! Wtf...
Rubius only has 3 looks: magazine model, cosplayer, or gamer shrimp.
#Amouranth#Rubius#Old clip but I just remembered I never shared this#And the previous clip reminded me of it randomly#He got roasted to hell and back for that screenshot but I think this moment was truly the nail in the coffin LMAO#I remember when my friend asked me if I thought Rubius was handsome#and I think I said something along the lines of ''Sometimes but I have never seen a man with posture that bad before''#Tbf he's been doing content creation for over a decade so. The lasting impacts of Shrimp Gamer Pose#Mad respect for that knight cosplay though#also the link cosplay lmao#I remember the knight (or whatever) cosplay came at a time when another big streamer was posting AI photos#so when I saw Rubius post this and all the other photos he did#Fully geared up in armor and on location to do cool photos#My respect for him skyrocketed#Edit: I'm also just now realizing this photo set looks like that one ''girl picking up a book'' transition timeline meme#99% of my clips are clips I post because I like them and I know they're for the community#but this clip is for me specifically because I still find it hilarious LMAO#Also RIP white hair era that was truly the best era
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the prompt was "den finally gets little a money and nor pickpockets him Immediately"
#hetalia#aph#historical hetalia#aph norway#aph denmark#dennor#hws denmark#demark aph#norway aph#hws norway#Denmark tries to sell Iceland to Prussia ONE TIME and Norway (not amused) is like 'it's free real estate' and just pickpockets him#my best friend @blabaerlakris came up with this for the record she deserves all the credit I just did the doodlin' lmao#also this is strictly for the lulz and not a reflection on Norway in any way I lit rally live in Norway 😭😭
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IM SURE YOUVE ALREADY EXPLAINED IT SOMEWHERE but.. may i ask about the story in bitter choco decoration. I like those guys :)
you’d be surprised but i apparently have never talked about these particular ocs’ story in detail on this particular tumblr blog. so i shall do just that…. i tried to summarize but it got kind of long oops, as it always does when i talk about my mentally ill ass ocs
so! as u might already know the guys in the video are rikki and william, and the animatic happens from rikki’s pov. rikki is basically the golden child of the family—smart, well-behaved, always keeping her parents satisfied, etc etc. generally she is put under a lot of pressure a lot of the time. and then her family decides to get an insurance child so to speak—just in case rikki fails in life—but they don’t want to go through the trouble of raising another one, so they decide to adopt.
that’s where william comes in, baby! now he is decidedly Not the golden child. he is the problem child. parents thought they could reform him—well, not much to show for that. but him and rikki surprisingly get along, even though they’re opposites. william actually gets someone who cares about him for once and wants him to be okay, and rikki gets someone who wants her to be more bold, stand up to others and consider what she herself wants instead of people-pleasing. he even gets her to make snide jokes and cut her hair. they’re best friends, it’s nice. for a while.
but, none of it is perfect. you know how rikki always seems to be smiling even though she’s clearly not having a good time? and you know all those red eyes that appear pretty much everytime william’s on screen? rikki has so many layers of masks that william never really feels like he actually knows her. and william, even though he mostly wants rikki to do her own thing, can still kind of be selfish and controlling (because he’s a teenager, and traumatized, and scared of losing his best friend, but it doesn’t change the fact that rikki feels the same pressure from him as she feels from their parents).
so this all culminates when they’re in high school and rikki buries herself in work—she wants to secure a good education and a good job so that she can actually get them both out of this shitty abusive household. for the first time in her whole life, she has a Goal that she personally has chosen. she now has someone to work hard for. but she also ends up spending a lot less time with that someone because of her studying, and it eats at william and eats and eats until—it turns out rikki’s hard work has actually paid off. she’s gotten a scholarship, and she can leave for a good university and she’s finally achieved something that she herself has wanted to do and not anyone else. for both of them. for her brother.
except her brother doesn’t react with support, like usual. he’s not cheering her on now that she’s fulfilled her dream and beyond. he just looks betrayed. because they’re best friends. they promised to be there for each other, to get out of this hellhole house together. how could she leave him behind? how is he supposed to make it without her, who is he going to have on his side? william loves her and wants her to be happy but he doesn’t want her to leave.
so in turn—because rikki is a) an avoidant little bitch who would rather masterfully evade conflict than try to have an opinion and b) doesn’t want her brother to hate her forever and not speak to her ever again—in turn, rikki, as always, as second nature, lies. i mean, it’s her dream, it’s something she’s been working towards for years, but she’ll stay. she’ll leave it behind. it makes perfect logical sense to her—best of both worlds: she doesn’t spend the last summer at home with her brother resenting her, and she still gets to actually go to university. it is basically flawless.
all up until, you know, the day comes where she actually has to move out and go to university. and william inevitably finds out that she lied to him. and they fight. it’s not good. it’s not happy. they end up separating on really bad terms, and not talking for the next 7 years because william runs away from home pretty much soon after rikki leaves (it’s not shown in the animatic but he does go MIA, rikki visits home once on holiday to find that her brother is just Gone, no one knows where he is, her parents couldnt give less of a shit, not great all around!!!) then rikki ends up graduating and looking for an easy first job, just to kind of set her foot in Job World.
unfortunately, it is also the exact same easy, convenient job that her brother ends up picking. hoo, boy. long time no see.
#suffice to say. their current relationship. is. Um. strained to put it lightly#it does not spark joy#they both think the other didn’t care about them and abandoned them#even better than that rikki sort-of-tried-not-to-think-about-it-but-still-sort-of-thought that her brother might’ve been dead for years#so. that’s also fun#they have a really fun relationship and it makes them amazing coworkers#and their other coworkers do not feel like they are children of divorce witnessing another silent fight#when they have to deal with rikki and william#cramswering#amd yes the eyes in the animatic are a symbol of pressure. white ones are just general pressure + from rikki’s family#and the red ones are pressure from william in specific. u can see as the animatic goes on that the red eyes appear more and more#and yes as you can see i hve done it again and created fucked up siblings in the petri dish of my mind. but they came first before the#mentally ill robot siblings. and yes they were very much inspired by the stan twins. the first iteration for will’s and rikki’s backstory#was almost like a gravity falls rewrite. except they were just best friends. Then 2 years ago i was enlightened by holy visions and ever#since then they’ve become the world’s most insane codependent siblings to exist#but do not fret for one day they might talk it out maybe. and by that i mean fight it out and make everything even more awkward#you know how it is
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