#my 11 pm thoughts

[scocobeans]

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[casino-lights]

so. the thing about Illario and Lucanis.

I don't have the screenshots but somewhere in Lucanis' mind, you hear Illario's voice saying "If I was in charge, you wouldn't have to do this anymore." as far as I can tell, all the other lines in his memories are from the game, but this one is from The Wigmaker Job. the story that took place over a year (probably more) prior to the events of the game. it's referring to a scene where Lucanis comes back from their contract, injured, and Illario, worried about his cousin, says that Lucanis wouldn't have to do Caterina's bidding anymore if Illario was First Talon. so now we know Lucanis still thinks about that conversation, even though it happened so long ago.

two other things about The Wigmaker Job: 1) Illario is a lot different in it and in some ways he seems more competent than the Illario we get in veilguard; and 2) we see Zara Renata at the end, and she already has Lucanis in her sights. depending on how much time passed between that contract and Lucanis' kidnapping, she could've been setting this up for months to years.

in the concept art/storyboard frames that were recently released, Zara is hardcore giving siren in the first image and it almost looks like she's straight up controlling Illario via blood magic in the second (imo)

now imagine if Zara was looking into Lucanis, started with the people closest to him, found Illario, and said all the right things. imagine she said he should be First Talon, Caterina never loved him, Lucanis doesn't believe in him and is secretly just tolerating him, he can save Antiva from the Antaam (or whoever else), he can lead the Crows to their long-awaited unification and make them even stronger, he's the smartest prettiest most super special boy in the whole wide world, etc. (if you give this man an ounce of praise and he actually believes it, he will crumble, I know it.)

now imagine Zara, having successfully sunk her claws into Illario - Lucanis Dellamorte's cousin, the only person closer to the Demon of Vyrantium than the First Talon herself - manages to convince him to let her kill Lucanis. he doesn't have to do it himself so there's less guilt. there's no way Caterina would make him First Talon if Lucanis was alive. and then Illario would be in a position to protect his beloved Antiva because if there's one thing the Antivan Crows are, it's patriots. I think Zara played Illario like a fucking fiddle and the game was just really bad at showing us that. I think when her spirit says "he fooled us both," she means he fooled her by being less of a coward than she thought and straight up killing her.

and maybe this is the Illario apologist in me, but I also think he realized the whole thing was a doomed plan after he was defeated. I mean, he shows up to the final battle to help, at risk of his own life. maybe he's trying to atone, maybe not, but still - he is there, and he sounds more like the Illario we see in The Wigmaker Job than whatever we got through the rest of the game. with his quippy little "was that suitably self-important?" line, he's closer to himself than he was this whole time, and that makes me wonder if maybe he wasn't fully Illario. maybe that was grief and guilt and a shaky sense of self and Zara's manipulation and the feeling of losing his grip on the power he never quite had to begin with, all bundled up into a new, bitter, resentful man. I think he was used like a pawn in Zara's chess game, and that doesn't take away from his agency in this situation or lessen the blow of his betrayal, but it does make it easier for me to swallow the fact that the Obvious Traitor Illario I was immediately skeptical of in-game is not the Illario I immediately loved after one scene in Tevinter Nights where he shaves a single hair because it was uneven with the rest of his five o clock shadow.

I think ultimately, Illario realized Lucanis would forgive him anyway. I think it's because he realized he would forgive Lucanis too.

[kazoosandfannypacks]

what if he fell first... but she fell harder... but by the time she fell, he can't imagine life without her... and he'd rather have her as a friend than risk losing her entirely... and she never felt the same way and he doesn't want to scare her away... so he holds back on pursuing his feelings... meanwhile she finally likes him like he likes her... but he's trying to keep things platonic because clearly that's what she wants... so she's trying to keep things platonic because it seems like that's what he wants now... and he's mourning a love that he thinks can never exist... and she's mourning a love she thinks she's too late to create... and both of them are hopelessly stuck in this imaginary friend zone and have to pretend their every move around each other isn't a thinly veiled love confession... all the while feeling guilty for clandestinely pining for someone they think only wants to be their friend... and they waste so much time that could be spent honestly loving each other because they're bending over backwards to make sure the other person is comfortable and act like they're comfortable with it... when they really want the same thing... but they both sacrifice that desire... because they'd rather have each other and make each other happy than risk losing each other... WHAT THEN

[marblerose-rue]

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the hush of rain / scourge

[firefly-factory]

Astorvember Day 12 - FACADE

Yeahhhh so maybe he forgot that ordinary people don't like being reminded of their incredibly fragile mortality. Give the guy a break. He's been travelling on his own for a while now, and socializing is hard.

Of course, the villagers were never in any real danger. Astor was always going to alert them, they were always going to survive. But if he hadn't been there - if Fate hadn't been on their side - they might not have. He thinks about it sometimes, on the long, lonely road between settlements. He thinks about the sick and the injured and the soon-to-be-hurt that he's walked past without a second thought, because he knows there is nothing he can do to help.

It messes with his head, a little bit. Makes it that much harder when people want to thank him, afterwards, because in his mind he hasn't done anything remarkable. It was simply what had to be done.

[junexsleepyy]

I've liked this person for so long,

But the line between us seems so wrong.

Three years older, yet so close,

Our connection is what I cherish most.

Are we just friends, or something more?

Your jokes leave me wondering what's in store.

I question myself, my feelings so clear,

Your words leave me longing, full of fear.

But I'll hold onto hope, no matter the doubt,

Our relationship will figure itself out.

So let's continue on this unknown path,

And see where our connection will last.

[arggghhhsstuff]

unpopular opinion maybe but i LOVED the witch in dead boy detectives. yes she was crazy yes she killed little girls for eternal youth yes she has a goddess in her mind. she would probably kill me if we met and she's evil. she's also super hot . and mean. how could i not love her. im just a girl

[witofretard28]

Do you have that friend who is not your best friend per se but is your best friend silently. The one with whom you don't talk to everyday or meet or share the smallest of things.

The one you meet once in a while, if both can fit it in the schedule and never really talk over the phone and it doesn't feel weird. With whom it's comfortable being around with even if you haven't seen each other in months. You pick up the conversation right where u left it. When you say, " Remember I was telling you about ..." and they do. They listen. You have gala time and get on with your life, until next time.

They are your best friend in silence. The ones with whom you share and confide in about things. The one who never forgets to invite you on important occasions but may or may not remember your birthday. But still you know, for sure, that this person only have best wishes for you. They make you happy and warm and you feel blessed to have found this person.

[knizuu]

WHAT IF instead of Naz, my name was Ned-and instead of running a blog, I run the entirety of Whoville as mayor-

[tunguszka20]

Random thought, so Jesper's last name in SOC is Fahey, and ik it's probably pronounced differently, but there's a Hungarian word that looks really similar to that, "fahéj" (the j is pronounced in a similar way as the y), which means cinnamon.

Has nothing to do with anything about Jesper but still wanted to share

[navysealt4t]

jay's love makes her strong and she doesnt realize it at all. she fights so hard to stay with those she loves. i am so insane about how much she loves and how much it matters. like christ. when the story is changed because of the love inside of it. every decision and battle is influenced by her love and care and shes fucking brave. she holds them up when they stumble and when she stumbles they hold her up.when the story could not exist without the love.she fights to keep her family safe every day. she knows her limits and even then she would venture past them with her love. shes so brave because her love guides her and its such a subconscious thing that she doesnt even see her bravery, can you hear me i am screaming ................

[thou-babbling-brook]

Altaïr learns to cope with killing in the most unhealthy ways imaginable

[babygray]

First day of summer vacation, and already I'm slacking off.

[felonytaxevasion]

Y'know actually thinking about the hypothetical differences between Bet and Aleph scenemo culture has actually helped me articulate why I have secretly never liked the scenemo Aisha headcanon

For so long I haven't been able to figure it out because Aisha is my favorite character and I am kind of? scenemo (technically goth but the lines between alt subcultures are very blurry) so I could not fathom why my brain just refused to combine the two. But thinking back to 2011 scenemo culture fundamentally I just think Aisha deserves better. Like present day scenemo Aisha? Yea absolutely I'm on board. It's just the fact that 2011 had so fucking much racism and misogyny and 4chan brand ""dark humor"" that my brain gets sad when I put Aisha there

And this is of course fully acknowledging the context that she's also a terminally online teen calling everyone slurs. I think she'd love the music and fashion for sure I just can't imagine her voluntarily hanging out with other 2011 scenemos or identifying with them

[thatoneguy56fanfic]

Another random animal lover Kuvira headcanon because I just adore her:

Kuvira is always tempted to try and pet any stray cats she sees. Korra has learned to accept this and will just gently remind her that not all the cats want to be friends. This is also when Korra found out that Kuvira carries cat/dog treats with her everywhere.

I just love the idea of Kuvira, who’s normally very calm and collected, getting excited around random animals she encounters. It’s adorable.

[addicted2coke-theothercoke]

Turns out I'm staying up late to see the northern lights, so let's make another post about Lemon Demon for the heck of it

Recently I saw a post defending artists commonly seen as dumb tiktok cringe shit. Fair point, this music isn't that bad. But it still came from the standpoint of Lemon Demon being something from tiktok, which just isn't correct

Neil Cicierega has been makin music for the internet for as bout as long as people have done that. He's got four albums under his own name. Seven albums and five ep's under Lemon Demon. And more music released pre Lemon Demon under the name Trapezoid. He's the inventor of animutation. He created The Ultimate Showdown of Ultimate Destiny, Harry Potter Puppet Palls, Brodyquest, Ariel Needs Legs, and songs for Gravity Falls. He's also an armature filmmaker and lead member of Guaranteed video*

He's not something from tiktok just cause tiktok discovered Fine and decided it sounded "better" sped up

Mini sleep deprived rant over