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mattodore · 2 months ago

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birthday boy 🎂

#river dipping #theodore doe #matthias evanoff #a burning house to live in #echthroi #ts4 #ts4 edit #simblr #ts4 screenshots #theo i hope you're having the most insane birthday sex rn i hope it's ******** and ***** and ***'** **** *** **** ***** :)<3 #sorry i put off making your birthday edit for so long that i had to pivot and post this edit instead of the one i wanted </3 #...very funny how similar this is to that LAST render i posted... well so WHAT!! if i think matthias looming is sexy!!#this is based on a photo that everyone was drawing their ocs as so really it's not MY fault he's back there clinging and being a freak #actually if y'all want this pose lmk... i'll share it but fyi it's only meant to be seen from the waist up and idk how it'd look #on a sim that doesn't have the same muscle mass and like. bulk. that matthias has......................................#just got rock hard after typing that... anyway.#HAPPY BIRTHDAY THEO <333333333 LOVE YOU SO MUCH I PROMISE I'M GONNA KEEP WORKING ON THE //ACTUAL// BIRTHDAY EDIT!! like .#posted abt this on the sideblog but the real edit i have planned for him is making me lose my fucking gourd #and it'll probably take me :))) a few more days to figure out #expect a depressing theo-as-a-teenager edit eventually tho. with writing!! accompanying it!!#matthias's face has changed again btw 😭 i redid it almost immediately after i posted that first render attempt so he looks DIFFERENT!!#i posted screenshots of him in cas just the other day on my other acc and he looks so good in them i might post them here too #oh and!! this edit looks massively different than my last because this screenshot was taken with a new preset i made specifically for #the real birthday edit i'm working on... it's a hallway scene so i figured out depth and density to get this really cool fog effect #i'm really excited for it!! in my head the way it looks makes me crazy but idk if i can pull it off properly. but like i WAS SAYING!!#new preset is sooo sexy after i post this i'll reblog with the before and after to show you how good it looks even w/o any editing #like. the colors....... literally have always wanted a preset like this i'm so glad i spent yesterday fucking around with it #ALSO!! i've been doing those oc/ship dynamic templates for fun recently so i might post a few of them here soon #realize i'm rambling so much in these tags bc i haven't been here in forever kfjnkfjhn ummmmm. let me stop.#EVERYONE WISH THEO HAPPY BIRTHDAY RIGHT NOW 🫵‼

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peitalo · 2 months ago

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For each individual page of the book of bill that you read you have to then reread the entirety of journal 3. Yeah per page. Yeah it says it in fine print in atbash cipher

#i like book of bill i havent read it all (save for the journal pages) bc he is annoying godbless but i just #stanford pines is such a complicated character i do not recognize him without the context of journal 3 #fidds too like sorry. i need to retreat to a deep crevice and write my grievances by candlelight and then wash them down a well or something #post-its #the growing temptation to make a private account somewhere just to share gravity falls art and thoughts…. i just might #i have to complain a little i’ve been here since i was what. 10? i dont even know

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icewindandboringhorror · 2 months ago

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I occasionally wish to reach out to old friends/acquaintances I haven't spoken to since high school/some other even earlier time in my life, but I have SOOO little social energy even for required tasks (like making dr phone calls or etc), I never have any leftover for extra ones, and it would be very odd to message someone I haven't spoken to in like 5 years out of the blue but then take 4 entire months to respond back lol.. My natural curiosity with nostalgia/collecting details of the past/etc. (literally if I were born a little earlier I would definitely do scrapbooking or something lol) is very strong, but, alas, not strong enough to beat out the Social Issues Demons apparently

#facebook always does that 'here's a post from this day 8 years ago' thing. and I see old comments interacting #with people and it's so like.. OOOOO~~ where are they now?? what's going on? how much have they changed as people?#how much are they the same? this is fascinating. i should contact them!!' but then it's like... take that to it's logical conclusion though #you would contact them and then IF they even responded it would take you 80 years to respond and then they would #think there was something wrong or that you were trying to be insulting or something. To contact anyone I need to include an 85 page #disclaimer of all of my social issues & mental illness things. 'If i take 3 weeks to reply I promise it has nothing to do with u' etc lol #THIS is why more people need to be into phone calls/voice calls/some form of audio real time communication/etc.#I think one of the main things that's hard about messaging through text for me is it's so unscheduled and open ended #(plus it takes forever if you're talking about anything in detail and gets very long very quickly)#because like you can send a message and then just get a reply whenever. and then you're expected to reply back whenever #so it's like you never know when the response will come or when a new obligation to reply can come up? so it's like this sudden thing with #no outline?? if that makes sense. whereas a phone call is very like 'hello let's schedule a call from 10am - 2pm on thursday'. And you know #EXACTLY when the interaction will start and EXACTLY when it will end and you can plan around it in your schedule easily.#I have the reverse thing of a lot of people (how people don't pick up phone calls/hate calls/only text)#I would literally talk on the phone with a stranger. I would have a discord voice chat with someone I barely know.#if someone I hardly even remember from elementary school asked to have a voice call with me out of nowhere I would do it.#but if a stranger MESSAGED me?? or someone I barely know sent me a TEXT or something?? I will never reply probably #It's just too vague and weird. and you can't read voice tone over text. and the interaction could last forever with no clear end #point and etc. etc. But a call is like. set. established. clear boundaries. you can read the flow of conversation better. rapport. etc. etc #I get that I guess people feel more anonymous or distanced over text?? but you can have fake phone numbers on the computer. or do like disc #rd calls. or zoom without a camera or etc. etc. Also the distance that's present in text is BAD distance because it just means that tone is #not conveyed properly and you will never truly get a sense of the person's conversational vibe or mannerisms or how well you really click.#ANYWAY ghgjh...... I'm so so so interested in concepts of like.. How did that one kid I used to talk to in elementary school #but then they moved away in 5th grade - how did they end up? what are they doing now?? etc. etc. Like despite the severe social anhedonia #and general lack of connection with others I'm just really fascinated in like.. idk. the human development of it all and like #the concept of how we're actually a million different people through the course of our lives ever evolving in different iterations and etc.#PLUS again. i love nostalgia. sometimes old peple you know might remember a shared memory or can tell you about something you forgot #or etc. like it's SUCH A COOL THING in CONCEPT but I am too socially inept generally speaking lol. which people I still talk to today are #familiar with my 'phone call once every few months' communication style. but strangers would just be like... wtf. And I don't blame them #Sure I literally cannot change the physical health + brain issues i have - but also I know enough to not put others through that lol

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ligiawrites · 10 months ago

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#love the guard be the king #visual novel #sketching #i usually post these short vids on ig but i decided to see if you all are interested in them as well :3 might be fun to share it here too!#can you guess who's who?

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ssruis · 6 months ago

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Going through a straight up comical amount of irritating situations to get the stupid 4* guaranteed ticket from the welcome to sekai campaign. It Will Be Mine.

#I’m resuming this tomorrow it’s been hours now I’m just mad #I’m home because my parents are moving to a different state and I needed to pack whatever was left #and for some reason we just keep old devices when we’re done with them #so I borrow an adapter to allow me to connect my ancient unworking iPad mini to my laptop #factory reset it. i have to reset an old email to access the old Apple id to fully reset it.#it won’t connect to the wifi so I have to reset the settings. i find out it’s too old to run pjsk.#i find an old phone that should work. i reset it as well. I’m able to download pjsk & it takes 20 minutes.#pjsk crashes everytime I try to open it. i attempt to run bluestacks on my computer. bluestacks doesn’t have 64 bit for mac yet.#i get a free trial of parallels and download windows onto my laptop. this takes 40 minutes.#i try to download and run bluestacks on that. m1 macs apparently can’t run bluestacks 64 bit through parallels.#i go find the final old phone that I had forgotten about. it takes forever to charge because the charging port is fucked up. i reset it as #well. it can’t connect to wifi. i try a hotspot on my current phone. service is too awful. i try to do wifi sharing from my laptop.#you have to be connected to the router via a cable for that to work.#at this point it has been like 3 hours. I’m giving up because I’ve been down this route before #when I attempted to run 32 bit steam games on m1 mac #(wine64 doesn’t exist for m1 macs yet -> attempt to run boot camp -> boot camp isn’t a thing anymore on Apple silicon -> attempt to run #several different programs that allow me to run windows on a mac. none of them work. ->#look into linux & give up. -> attempt to implement the unfinished/unbottled wine64 code thru terminal. ->#fuck up and delete some important file & have to fix that (misery inducing) -> keep trying. i think I downloaded a Mac coding program at #some point? i realize I have zero coding knowledge and this is a mistake. -> give up and purchase crossover. game doesn’t even work. ->#3 months later update to the latest OS so I can have enough storage to play psychonauts 2. find out the $60 crossover #purchase was a bad idea because ‘heehee crossover doesn’t work on that buy the new version’ (fuck crossover).#my toxic trait is my belief that I can figure out anything via google and sheer stubbornness. usually this is true. occasionally there are #exceptions to this rule. most of them are because owning Apple products is a mistake.#i think if I reset the router tomorrow I can solve this problem but I can also just go elsewhere with better service or wait until I’m home #now it’s a matter of pride. and also free 4*/I have nothing better to do because I’m stuck here until Tuesday.#<- this is all normal behavior by the way. who doesn’t spend 8 hours ramming their head against a problem every once and a while. enrichment #mine #oh I forgot. i also looked into cloning the app but that would cost money for something that might not even work.#‘just log out and make an alt’ and risk losing my account? I’m stupid enough to overwrite it on accident.

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melverie · 7 months ago

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Aaaaaaahhhhhhhh today I've been constantly experiencing the urge to un-private today-in-the-devildom & start writing for it again

#i'm gonna ramble in the tags but #i've been talking with starr (if you're reading this--hi starr!! <3) about the blog today and sharing some of the entries #and it just made me miss it so much #+ the conversation actually made me realize some other reasons why i didn't enjoy the blog in general anymore #like i genuinely love the blog and i genuinely loved writing for it & that conversation reminded me of that #but also there were so many reasons that ultimately pushed me to more or less abandon the blog & then later private it too #so i'm kind of at a loss here #tbh i think i'm mostly just scared to pick the blog up again only for it to end exactly like last time i picked it back up #i've actually always wanted for the blog to be a source of inspiration y'know?#like the things mentioned in the entries are kinda just small ideas right #i was hoping that people would read these & feel inspired to write or draw something of their own based on my entries #that was actually what made me start the blog in the first place. the hope that i could inspire others that way #aaahhhhhh.... maybe it's on me since i could have more openly communicated that idea......#i did get to meet one wonderful person who wrote a few fics based on my entries tho!! (hi ali <3)#but yeah..there's that #also the way engagement just dropped significantly after a while #like i know i was gone for a good while & that a lot of people left the fandom and all that #but still getting maybe one reblog if i'm lucky really feels like a punch to the gut #ESPECIALLY considering that i was close to 900 followers on there #do you guys know that feeling when you proudly show someone you care about something you did only to get a disinterested answer?#yeah...#that's essentially how it feels like to me #and well as you might know the feeling of “why should i keep writing if apparently no one cares” eventually won... haha.....#but aaaahhhhh i'm still clinging onto the hope & what ifs here #that conversation with starr really just made me forget about everything that frustrated me about the blog & left me with this #longing feeling to start again lol #hey if you've made it this far into the tags let me just ask--would you care if i picked the blog back up?#would you also *show* that you care?#i'm actually quite curious (you could almost call me george lol)#anyway maybe we'll see each other on today-in-the-devildom again in the future.. who knows

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nomairuins · 1 day ago

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i think itis funny in the past when i would list my interests as if i post abt them i donot post abt the shit im into rly Mainly bc im not rly Into Into anything anymore i occasionally watch or read or play something but i dont do fandom stuff rly much.... just sometimes i get brainworms

#do i still list my interests somewhere i dont knowwww #i just stopped rly being into fandom a few years ago combination depression antipathy + bad experiences in fandom spaces #but idk. me listing my interests didnt rly accomplish anything for anyone bc it was just like anddd just so you know i was crazy abt this #video game for a rly long time it probably wont ever come up again but it might maybe one day. yk. ig its just sharing info Which is one #supposes the point of all of this but idk #its not that im cagey abt my interests except that one which i cant talk abt publically bc its a triple a game and im embarassed abt it. no #anything bad im just embarrassed . its not anything any of my oomfies have ever posted abt either so its just for me. and lamp . and when #the third game comes out i might post very very very vaguely abt it ......... possibly.#but ya its like. idk i think you guys have to find out abt my plague tale obsession on your own through lived experience. aka just me seein #like the word king and randomly collapsing to the floor and going KING HUGO 😭😭😭😭😭 oh god hugo guys oh god . please play plague tale #i wish i had finished that tw thing i started making but then i got too focused on the color palette and making it look nice and i stopped.#umm tw child death animal death The plague some gorey stuff theres some cult things in the second game ummm. yeah ..... its rly special to #me tho i love those games PLAY PLAGUE TALE!!! and if u need more indepth tws ill give them to you even if i have to replay both games to #refresh my memory... lamp wont play plaguetale with me (not their speed) so im all alone </3 but i miss it i might replay soon... i wish i #was in like discord servers so i could play it on call w ppl or something <- is in discord servers but is shy and Also i feel like playing #game on call is like a level like 2 friendship thing and i cant even do level 1 friendship things like i feel i need to at least be talking #regularly in a server b4 i like try to do Calls in the server esp for plague tale bc its like a 1p game so wed need a rapport to like have #shit to talk abt and etc ..... i could just infodump abt the game but again i feel doing that to like strangers/oomfies would b weird. ik i #come on here and talk abt whatever i want but its like you guys dont Have to read this and its not like a server where Yeah im not talking #to one person but im still like Oh well ive sent a message and its in the channel and everybody just has to look at it and whatever.#but on here i post i nobody cares and it just gets pushed down and its Fine bc its not like anybody has to feel obliged to respond #which is fine. you know.. i just hate being like a nuisance i hate . idk how to phrase. imposing myself on others ig.. which is dumb bc the #i turn around and whine abt how i have no friends and its like Maybe that is bc you donot talk to anyone bc yr scared they will be annoyed #with you and you dont leave the house and have no interests to bond with ppl and etc. but basically the difference is ive written all this #and you guys can just not read it or you can just read it and ignore it and its different. even tho i am like addressing you and i do have #like. weird parasocial thing with My followers or whatever where i talk directly to you YES YOU! reading this. IDKK im rambling so much i #dont know what im talking abt anymore. i proooooobably need to go to sleep im hungry tho but im not but i am. but i think my sleep is getti #off schedule again i had trouble sleeping yesterday too... ugh

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sorikkung · 9 months ago

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so if i did nsfw art of hongjoong. hypothetically. would anyone be interested in seeing it,

#i may or may not have dabbled in realism for my besties birthday and drawn her. hongjoong cock <3 #with lynx ears bc hes from one of our dm aus #might as well share it with the masses since i worked so hard on it #it was my first time trying hyperrealism/realism(?) and also my first time drawing cock. so it was definitely. An Experience but it was fun #def wanna try drawing more stuff like this idk if i should put it here or on a sideblog #but tbh considering i post my fics on main along w the 49835 gifsets and memes i like #might as well post my art on main too #no sideblog we die like men #(says man w 493859834 sideblogs)#lmk if any of you wanna follow my non kpop sideblog #non fandom posts i just reblog to main so my non kpop blog is literally just. any other fandom i like that i dont have a sideblog for #no organisation no tags no nothing we die like men #HKJSDFJGSKJDFGJKSDJFKG #might end up making a twt for art in which ill prolly promote my fics on there too see if i can snag any new readers #will prooobably be under the same handle as this but unsure #might make a new one just for funsies #anyway #mischiefing time

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the-golden-dragoness · 3 months ago

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Not crying and being guilt ridden again :))))))

#tgdposts #personal #when I can’t articulate to people around me so it results in my mind confronting me #(confronting is a strong word here but I digress)#about me struggling to make any decision regarding my future #and on a lesser note being guilt ridden when I’m unable to meet with people because I’m trying to be productive but then I’m unable to be #productive and oh why weren’t we able to meet up but if I share it it just seems like I was being fucking lazy and fuck I hate this #and fuck it’s hard to talk to my dad like he’s a nice guy but I know he doesn’t really understand and sometimes it’s just hard to explain #things with the weight they have in my heart you know?#it’s so hard to explain that I’m not just procrastinating or being a jobless useless bum I don’t even know how to bring that up #and even if doc gives me ideas things to help me those are still things I need to implement myself and that too is hard to initiate #and talking about all of it just makes me feel like a guilty useless shithead #and I know it’s not true but that doesn’t make me feel it any less #from the outside of my brain it just seems like I’m making up my own problems #how do you even talk about that #anyway #I’m going to bed now I’m tired #if you read this I appreciate you for listening to me #you guys are great #<3 #mental illness #I guess might as well tag it as this #rant #vent #vent post #summer is lowkey my worst season mentally lowkey which is kind of sad if you think about it

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pikachu-deluxe · 4 months ago

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got like 1200 ish lines of code for a thing in like 2 hours yippeee

it's a thing to make it easier to modify stuff for mario kart 64 it'll make my life 1000x easier i just have to enter a few numbers in and out comes a file i can apply to the game with some other program instead of having to copy and paste stuff for like half an hour to an hour every time i want to make changes

a game changer you could say *gets dragged away by the neck like a cat*

#listen this is such a big deal to me #and only me bc i'm the only person in the world who cares about doing this very very specific thing for a very specific game #now after this is done i can get my changes to the game ready in like an hour at most depending on what i want to change #instead of a few hours #if i just wanna change stats and not characters that means i just open the program and put in the numbers then have the game ready in like #5 minutes #massive improvement #but yknow if i want to change the characters too then it's still gonna take a bit #like 30 minutes to an hour but still a massive improvement #anyways yeah you can probably tell i'm excited about this #once this is done i'll maybe start working on getting the proper graphics update to the game #it's gonna be a rebranding on my mk64 pokemon thing to make it distinct from another thing someone made that was called pokemon kart alread #didn't really care all that much before since i didn't want to make it public or at least not in mk64 circles but i do wanna share it more #now that i've put this much work into it #since i'm already using pmd sprites i might as well change it to something related to pmd so i'm gonna have to come up with a title for it #also have some fun character surprises for when i release the new rebranded version #since last time i showed it here there have also been a lot of new pokemon added but i have some i haven't shown yet to anyone #not even in the places i playtest with others (if you see this mo hi i have some more i haven't shown off ;3)#but it might be a while before i get that to a public release #we'll see #depends on how i feel about working on it these next few days #so it's gonna be a surprise release

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jackalope-with-a-pen · 1 year ago

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hi, here's a teaser from the first chapter of 111 Waylon ... 👁💜

He lifted his head at the sound of approaching footsteps and startled so badly he almost fell right off his stool. Hannah Foster was standing right next to him, as unsettling as ever with her silent fidgeting and that solemn, distant look in her eyes, like her mind was someplace else.

No, scratch that—she was more unsettling than usual because right now her eyes were clear and sharp, and they were trained right on Kyle’s face, unwavering.

“You shouldn’t go,” she informed him.

He just blinked at her, too stunned to even tell her to scram.

Hannah frowned, glanced to one side with an annoyed little huff. “That house,” she explained, staring him down again. “It's not safe. Not for anyone, but it’ll be really bad for you. Stay away from Waylon Hall.”

How’d she even know about that? Kyle didn’t think she was around when Max had announced what they’d all be doing tonight. Then again, she was a pipsqueak and he never paid much attention to her, so she coulda been in the same hallway, maybe. He turned to see if Steph was as bewildered as him.

She’d paused mid-tweet, studying Hannah with her head tipped to one side as if the kid would be any less weird from a different angle. Eventually, she met Kyle’s gaze and lifted her hands helplessly. Seemed like they were on the same page, then.

Hannah was still standing there, so he finally said, “Uh, okay? Why am I so special?”

“You’re not.” She shrugged, looking past him now that her vague and ominous message had been delivered. “You’re just Kyle. It’s easy for them to push you around, tell you what to do. Weak mind,” she added.

#shared this on the BRP discord so i figured i might as well post it here too lol <3 #jackalope with a pen #111 waylon #hatchetfield #hatchetfield fanfic #fan fiction #writing #creative writing #fanfic #writers on tumblr

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wundrousarts · 2 years ago

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Fun Fact: If you use Twitter at all (in its dying days...), go check out the Nevermoor Quote Bot if you haven't already! It tweets out a Nevermoor quote every hour, pulling from the books and any extra chapters. It currently has 1016 quotes, and who knows how many Silverborn will bring.....

#nevermoor #nevermoor fandom #I just realized I don't think I ever shared about it on here lol #nevermoorbot my beloved. I don't want to lose youuuu </3 #took me like a year to deep dive the books + gather quotes not only bc I was busy and it was a lot but also bc I got distracted theorizing #was I perhaps too generous in choosing quotes? maybe. but it's not my fault that like every single part of the series is literally perfect #also despite the bank it has to choose from I feel like it does a ton of repeats which is. kinda annoying!#but I don't have the energy to trim it at all. nor do I think I would want to get rid of any of them tbh lol #anyways I hope that twitter and the nevermoorbot and cbdq stick around for silverborn and stuff to be released so I can add it #but who knowsssss #I might have to look into alternatives if it ever goes down </3 #anyways I love qrting stuff from this bot to my 2-5 nevermoor followers bc the fandom is NONEXISTENT on there which. oh well.#also this isn't a fun fact i've realized but IDGAF tbh!

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kendev · 2 years ago

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first post..

#car alarm 🚨#at march 15... 5:55AM... well cheers to new beginnings and progress i suppose #still not really sure how to go about showing what i want here without showing too much OR losing steam....#well i guess its a good place to outline it right here...#1) will be doing devlogs. like i did on patreon. tho tbh i had no one there to see them at the time so updates came to a halt....#can start doing those again tho since it did keep me on track with working for awhile...#2) may share wips and progress stuff like sprites. chibis or potential promo ideas. not sure abt ingame cgs or bgs yet tho #cuz then yknow. giving away a bit abt certain things. but i'll see... it really will just be an in the moment decision kinda thing #times like this i wish tumblr had the spoilering option like twt/disc does cuz then at least ur makin a conscious choice to unspoiler yknow #3) and finally. still not sure on this but might share some situations/scenarios or text post edits ive made of characters?#i think theyre fun... they help me flesh out the characters more... i am my own first supporter with fan content fr #additionally: not rlly a guideline. i have these little spotify playlists of the charas i made that i listen to when i write? might share?#might not? just a glimpse into my dark sick and twisted reality of how i both view the characters and see what i think they would listen to #anyways thats it for now #im out 🚪🚶🏿‍♀️

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lichiichi · 2 months ago

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⭐ LICHIICHI'S OVERVIEW & LINKS: https://lichiichi.carrd.co/ ⭐ ⭐ VGEN: https://vgen.co/Lichiichi ⭐

Long time no see! I'm very excited and happy to announce that I'll be opening commissions, and making a grand debut on VGen! Thank you so much to twitter & instagram user Crispn_n for giving me a code and being overall such a wonderful person <3

Please refer to the following links above to learn more about commission specifics. I'm excited to work with you in the future! :]

The form of contact or request will be prioritized on VGen but you are free to email at [email protected] as well~ Thank you so much!

#oc #commission #art commissions open #art commissions #artists on tumblr #vgen #vgenopen #vgen artist #digital artwork #digital illustration #digital art #commissions #I was like huh I have a tumblr I might as well post my commissions here too lol #shares appreciated! But also #thank you for reading <3 #lol might of went ham on images instead of keeping it simple but c'est la vie

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wonderfables-moved · 7 months ago

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smoked a bowl w my brother now i'm going to get to writing >:-)

#txt #i am feeling the tenderness of the world today & i feel surrounded by love and support <3 #it's really cool i love being on here n i love sharing my work with people!!!!#i just kind of wish those old friends of mine could see what i'm doing now. their support meant everything to me ough #but regardless! we move forward!#aviancry is going rlly well i think n i am super duper stoked about my plan for today!!!!!!!!!!!! i might draw some stuff too!!!!!!!!!!!

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floweryfandomnerd · 8 months ago

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#will delete later if I remember to just need to yell into the void #why is my art doing so badly on here lately aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #I thought it was just cause I was drawing for other fandoms and not just shuake #but even my shuake posts are doing so bad compared to how they used to I'm ?????#Like I think my art has gotten better yet it's just getting so little interaction #it is so disheartening like I might as well just stop sharing it idk #I love drawing and wouldn't stop but like if no one even likes it then idk the point in sharing it #and this is just like ugh #self pity but whatever. I want people to like my art enough to actually share it and say something nice about it #also saying this on main instead of my art blog to not guilt anyone ig feel free to ignore this #but it's frustrating #every time I think I'm happy with my art regardless of how well it does my brain likes to remind me that it isn't happy actually #which is so dumb!! cause I DO like my art. I like drawing it! and I like learning things about what I'm drawing too!!#but if something does bad on tumblr then suddenly I don't like it. adhd rsd how I loathe thee #also like my art has been doing better on twitter than tumblr and yet twitter does not offer me the same serotonin as tumblr this is bs #why would 200 notes on tumblr make me happy but I barely care about what I get on twitter as long as it's above 50 #and yet it is twitter giving me the 200 notes wtf #it's not even doing bad on twitter why is my brain beating me up on this I swear to god #if anyone read this thanks for caring ig lmao #but fr like can my brain stop being a bitch about this #the twitter people are liking the art even if tumblr isn't really. chill out #anywayyyyy I have shouted into the void now thank you #I think I should stop drawing and play breath of the wild for a while #it would fix me <3

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