#mhsn

[aashiquidreams]

Saturday morning, I woke up to an unexpected text message from someone from my past, a person I hadn’t heard from in a year or two. I was intrigued as I read his words. I answered his message, curious about what made him reach out after all this time. He told me he had a dream about me, stirring emotions I thought I had buried deep. I managed to stay calm and asked him what happened in the dream.

He described a scene where he was sharing personal thoughts, discussing his life with me. It felt good and relaxing—a comforting experience after a long period, he said. Hearing this brought back a flood of memories—both joyful and painful—reminding me of the complex dance of emotions we shared in our long-distance situationship.

Looking back, our relationship was a delicate fabric of dreams and fantasies, bound together by a longing that often felt unattainable. I remember the early days, the thrill of our late-night conversations where we bared our souls, each word laced with hope and desire. Yet, as time passed, the reality of our situation crept in, revealing the shadows beneath the surface. I realized I was often drawn into a cycle of hope and disappointment, chasing a mirage that never truly materialized. I had learned the hard way that sometimes we create fantasies that don’t align with reality.

After it ended, I promised myself I wouldn’t pursue relationships with men who were emotionally unavailable and from that cultural background again, nor would I engage in long-distance relationships. The emotional toll was too heavy, and the rigid expectations placed on women felt suffocating. I yearned for the freedom to express myself and live authentically without the constraints of tradition weighing me down. So when the text arrived, I felt a whirlwind of emotions—nostalgia, sadness, and the lingering whispers of what could have been.

As we continued to chat, he revealed that he was now married to his cousin, an arrangement orchestrated by his family. Hearing about his marriage reminded me of the patterns I had worked so hard to break free from in both my family and past romantic relationships. He talked about his new life with a sense of defeat, implying that his happiness didn’t really matter—what was important was his family’s satisfaction. Before that, he expressed regret for the way things unfolded between us, saying I was the best woman he ever met and that he had lost me. I couldn’t help but feel sympathy for his wife; it’s a delicate situation to navigate when a partner reflects on their past in such a way, and a reminder of how easily emotional boundaries can be crossed. I’m thankful I’m not in her position, and it struck me how easily that could have been my reality.

Yet, as I reflect on this journey, I can’t deny that a wave of nostalgia washed over me. I think about the fantasy we built together—a virtual escape from our realities, woven with hopes and dreams of an intertwined future. It was a beautiful illusion, and I felt a profound heartbreak when it came to an abrupt end. I still vividly remember the anguish of those nights, crying uncontrollably, desperately calling him while he remained silent, leaving me without an explanation or the courtesy of a goodbye. That experience mirrored the deepest wounds of my past, echoing the pain of my mother’s sudden absence during my teenage years. He knew this part of my story yet chose to replicate that abandonment, which cut even deeper. It’s an unsettling feeling when someone’s actions resurrect old traumas, reminding me just how sensitive those core parts of me still are.

Reflecting on my journey, I realize just how far I’ve come. The hurt he caused me, along with the emotional chaos, forced me to confront myself. This experience brought out the worst in me at times—towards him, but perhaps more towards myself. I learned through therapy and self-reflection that my value is not determined by how others perceive or treat me; my worth lies in how I view and feel about myself. Embracing the process of loving and caring for myself deeply, I have emerged stronger and more resilient. It’s fascinating how people from our past often resurface at the moment we’ve finally moved on and solidified our boundaries, reminding us of the growth we’ve achieved.

As I navigated these emotions, I also felt a profound sense of relief. I believe this whole experience with him reaching out was meant to show me that I was divinely protected from a life and dynamic that would have led to deep unhappiness. I really feel like I dodged a bullet—perhaps even literally. The strict expectations surrounding women in his culture would never align with my independent lifestyle. It also doesn’t completely align with how I was raised. Sure, my parents had a similar cultural and strict background, but it wasn’t as strict as his. Growing up in the West shaped me into an independent woman who thinks and acts for herself, and I cherish my freedom. Yesterday, I felt a wave of relief wash over me. I used to think I could make it work with him, but now I see it clearly: I would have never fit into his world, and they would never have accepted me for who I am.

Astrologically, this relationship highlighted important emotional patterns and life lessons. With his South Node and Lilith falling in my 12th house, where I have Pluto, the connection had a deeply karmic undertone, often making it feel like we were working through unresolved issues from another time. This placement highlighted powerful themes of transformation and healing, suggesting that our bond would trigger profound introspection and spiritual awakening. This has definitely been the case for me, as I was pushed to confront my fears and unacknowledged parts of myself. The intensity of our connection, though sometimes liberating, also resurfaced past traumas that required healing. With Pluto in Capricorn nearing the end of its 16-year journey and set to transition into Aquarius in November, there’s a clear sense of closing old chapters and stepping into new beginnings. The fact that this reflection came just before the autumn equinox, a time symbolizing balance and transition, feels significant. Additionally, with Libra season now beginning—a sign tied to relationships and harmony—it feels like a cosmic reminder to fully embrace the balance I’ve found within myself. The ongoing Libra-Aries eclipse series, now approaching its final stages, resonates with my Libra rising and 7th house in Aries, emphasizing themes of relationships, balance, and personal growth as I reflect on the lessons from this chapter of my life.

As I move forward, I embrace my journey with confidence. I don’t know what the future will bring; life can be unpredictable. While I may cry or feel dramatically defeated at times, with so much fire and air in my natal chart, it can be challenging to stay calm. However, I trust in my fiery strength to guide me through. Above all, I know that God always has my back and that I’m being divinely guided and protected, even if I don’t see it in the moment. Afterward, it always makes sense. I am capable of navigating whatever lessons come my way, and each past version of me has contributed to the courage and resilience I embody today. Although my life may not be what I once envisioned, I can look in the mirror and be proud of the strength and wisdom I’ve gained.

[autisticdreamdrop]

new video-!! it’s autism related and we worked hard of this. we felt like we had more things we wanted to say and we have so many ideas of stuff to make videos about its a bit overwhelming lol

please like and comment (pls comment) and subscribe if you want we don’t have a schedule but they’ll come we’ll be working on videos

[crippy-tangerine]

Insufferable watch people misuse “nonverbal” on here, while we face actual barriers to medical care because “professionals” cannot be normal about nonverbal people. Fed up not able mask absolute fatigue over the way some people behave.

(Actually nonverbal. As in no fucking mouth speech ever. And need AAC communicate at all. Do not fucking touch this post if you “go nonverbal”.)

[fiercynn]

here's a link to artist jude mhsn's post about the piece on instagram

[five-thousand-loaves-of-bread]

people talking about high support needs autism people in online place not see them talk about 3-4+ years ago & how we may experience thing different & to stop project LSN reality onto us. sometimes feel hopeless about autism community feel like it doomed community but moments like this feel like maybe we slowly healing. sometimes feel discouraged because only really on tumblr the “dead platform” but—n by no mean say am Forefather Creator of HSN advocacy or anything because am not—but it nice knowing even though am can’t, there people who can who learn from me here n take it to other platforms n spread there :)

there mid/high support needs autism people who can go different platforms n speak our reality am not alone

n there low support needs autism people who allies who do n want them advocate with us take our words to wider places we can’t. want LSN allies not be afraid talk about us MHSN - of course don’t speak over us always default to us but think people who am talking about already know that & some may be too overly anxious about it than it is productive. LSN allies important in our advocacy

[themogaidragon]

Support Needs Pride Flags

PT: Support Needs Pride Flags /end PT

These are all disabilities inclusive, since the my former ones are exclusive to autism (link). These flags are inclusive of all disabilities.

Disclaimer: support needs aren't monoliths, they don't have clear ends and starts, the definitions presented here are just attempts at defining what they are.

More information and ressources about support needs on @birdofmay on this post (link).

Here is the Wikipedia page (link) about basic activities of daily living (BADLs) and instrumental activities of daily living (IADLS).

High Support Needs

PT: High Support Needs /end PT

High Support Needs: inability to live independently, requiring global support with BADLs and IADLs. This can include frequently or consistently requiring support with: self-feeding, cooking, bathing, functional mobility, transportation, basic grooming, putting on makeup, continence, toileting, getting dressed, completing tasks, housekeeping, managing medication and money, transportation, etc.

Can be abbreviated online or in writing as HSN(D) for High Support Needs (Disability) or HS(D)P for High Support (Disabled) Person.

Moderate Support Needs

PT: Moderate Support Needs /end PT

Moderate Support Needs: ability varying to live independently from person to person, requiring support with IADLs and some BADLs. This can include frequently or consistently requiring support with: cooking, preparing meals, self-feeding, completing tasks, transportation and mobility, toileting, washing one self, getting dressed, housekeeping, managing medication or money, using communication devices, grocery shopping, pet care, etc.

Can be abbreviated online or in writing as MSN(D) for Moderate Support Needs (Disability) or MS(D)P for Moderate Support (Disabled) Person.

Low Support Needs

PT: Low Support Needs /end PT

Low support needs: ability more often than not to live independently, requiring support uniquely with IADLs. This can include frequently or consistently requiring support with: balancing a checkbook, cooking and preparing meals, pet care, housekeeping, managing medication or money, shopping, transportation, getting started on some tasks like organizing a garage sale or arranging to move from one house to another, etc.

Can be abbreviated online or in writing as LSN(D) for Low Support Needs (Disability) or LS(D)P for Low Support (Disabled) Person.

Flux Support Needs

PT: Flux Support Needs /end PT

Flux Support Needs: ability fluctuating to live independently, requiring support at fluctuating intensity with BADLs and/or IADLs, so much that it cannot be considered low, moderate, high or in between those. Fluctuations can be random, have causes, vary in length and frequency.

Can be abbreviated online or in writing as FSN(D) for Flux Support Needs (Disability) or FS(D)P for Flux Support (Disabled) Person.

Moderate to High Support Needs

PT: Moderate to High Support Needs /end PT

Moderate to High Support Needs: inability to live independently, requiring support bordering between moderate and high. This includes but isn't limited to: being on the high end of MSN, being on the low end of HSN, requiring support with most of BADLs but not globally, requiring support globally with BADLs but moderately, etc.

Can be abbreviated online or in writing as MHSN(D) for Moderate to High Support Needs (Disability) or MHS(D)P for Moderate to High Support (Disabled) Person.

Low to Moderate Support Needs

[pt: Low to Moderate Support Needs /end pt]

Low to Moderate Support Needs: significant difficulty to live independently, requiring support bordering between low and moderate. This includes but isn't limited to: being on the high end of LSN, being on the low end of MSN, requiring severe support with IADLs and a few or mild support with BADLs, etc.

Can be abbreviated online or in writing as LMSN(D) for Low to Moderate Support Needs (Disability) or LMS(D)P for Low to Moderate Support (Disabled) Person.

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[expressionless-fr]

Also having a high empathy does not make you a good person and vise versa. who tf cares about your empathy levels.

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There are many things wrong with this block of text. From saying autism has no downsides, to saying it makes you have more empathy so you’re trustworthy.

There are multiple things wrong with this so let’s break it down.

There ARE downsides of autism. As a higher support need’s individual, most days there’s more downsides then there are upsides. Yes, I wouldn’t have changed my autism (although some people would), yes, autism is sometimes great! But saying it has no downsides is downplaying the struggles that autistic people face, over and over again. From being assaulted, to ableist comments and treatments, to neglect and abuse, to support needs, to being killed. All of these are downsides of having autism and I’ve not even scratched the surface. You do NOT get to say that autism has no downsides.

The next thing, that autism makes you have more empathy. Are we forgetting about the people with no to low empathy? Are we forgetting about the autistics who experience no empathy due to their autism? Autism can make you hyper-empathic. But it can also make you Hypo-empathetic. There is no doubt about that.

Stop trying to erase that some people don’t experience the same things as you. Stop trying to downplay autism into this cutesy disorder. It’s not cool. Autism affects peoples lives, it makes their lives hard. It makes their lives miserable sometimes.

Autism has taken so much from me. From my ability to make friends, to my ability to effectively communicate. Autism HAS downsides and I can attest to that. Don’t erase the downsides.

[aashiquidreams]

One thing that broke my heart a little is realizing that he had money to send a proposal to get engaged / married to his cousin, but he couldn’t pay a ticket to come see me. I always wondered if he really loved me. I have my answer now.

I was doing fine without him and I’ll continue to be fine. Him coming back was probably a test from te universe to see if I have learned my lesson. I did!

And this is the last thing I’ll ever write about him.

End of story.

[crippy-tangerine]

More silly memes we have made today for you 😵‍💫. Apologies for the poor editing, we are tired.

If we do not joke about these things, we will throw stuff!!!

Yes, that is our actual eye 😅. Lighting is not very good in the photos but hopefully it shows the “blue” well enough hahah.

Sort of ramble + information below!

“Blue” sclera can actually be a grey, blue or purple-ish colour! It’s basically when the white part (sclera!) in your eye thins out/becomes more translucent, and you start to see the blood vessels and uvea more clearly. It is usually caused by the collagen (which helps make up your sclerae!) being affected. It can be caused by multiple things, including iron deficiency, certain medications, and genetic connective tissue disorders like osteogenesis imperfecta, Marfan syndrome, Elhers Danlos syndromes + other disorders that cause hyperpigmentation of the uvea and general eye area 🤍. It is really interesting to learn about actually, would recommend looking into it! (/genuine but not forcing tone.)

Anyways, we are still on our diagnosis journey, but we’ve been told that we likely have (h?)EDS, MCAS, POTS, CFS/ME by our specialist. Goodness me what a collection… Now it is just a waiting game + probably a lot of testing too 🫡. It’s good to have potential answers though! Much better than the past medical gaslighting!! (/genuine but slightly bitter tone.)

[expressionless-fr]

i dont identify with any labels on this so leave me alone w "omg are you a prpshipper" bs and anon hate. this reblog is only about the picture-

what do ypu mean we should not exist in fiction as adults ?! censoring us in fiction leads to us getting stigmatized more. leave us the fuck alone. I can't stand it. this is ableist. straight up ableism, body shaming, might as well also be acephobia and hating on uneducated people.

my mother is fucking 50 and looks like a 18 years old. my ass is 20 and looks fucking, 11. I've mhsn autism, I'm mentally ill, I litetally can't act like an adult. I'll never look like one. I also like pastel clothed and "childish" things on top of that ://

+ many women in my country's smaller cities aren't allowed knowledge about sex since its so censored in my fucking country. does that make them a minor??

what do you mean we should not exist in fiction as adults ?! censoring us in fiction leads to us getting stigmatized more. leave us the fuck alone. stop w this minoe coded bullshit.

also the fuck is wrong w sexualizing them cause you find someone cute? Barbatos is cute inmean i sexualize him for being cu- apparentky we can't sexualize anything but dicks and bazoongas

Alright.

At First I Was Going To Make A Joke About How Stupid This Thing Is, But Now That I’m Thinking About It This Is Just More Gross, Infuriating, And Sexist Than It Is Stupid And Funny.

Adult Are Adults.

Fictional Adult Are Fictional Adults.

I Don’t Care What Height They Are, If They Have Curves Or Not, If Their Personality Is Childish Or Adultish, Or If They Look Like A Child Or A Adult.

They Are Adults No Matter What.

Also “ProShippers Take Her And Run”… Can You Just… Not Do Or Say Anything Ever Again?

Either That Or Change Your Ways?

[aashiquidreams]

A reminder.

[insurancelifedream]

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[mahdimohsennezhad]

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[aashiquidreams]

I found this ^ in my drafts today and I’m not sure, but I think I saved it a year ago. At that time I was still heartbroken and crying over my ex. I didn’t think I’d ever get over the heartbreak, but I DID! I hardly ever think of him and when I do I feel nothing. Not even anger. Time really heals. I feel so liberated and light.

It’s true that we make more of a person than they actually are. Especially in Long Distance Relationships (LDR) we tend to create a certain version of them, a fantasy. And when they don’t live up to our expectations we feel disappointed and hurt. I also noticed that in LDR’s we present the best versions of ourselves because it’s easier to pretend when the only contact you have is via phone/video calls and texts. I noticed this behavior in him, but also in myself. I know that the experience of a LDR is different for everyone, so just ignore this post if this isn’t about you. For me this whole experience has been an eyeopener and it has taught me a lot about relationships, but more so about myself and what I needed to work on. I wouldn’t go as far as to thank him, because it was a very traumatizing experience. However, I needed to learn self-love. I needed to see what a healthy relationship DOESN’T look like. I needed to learn what my needs are in a romantic relationship. A good example is that throughout our relationship he and I weren’t even friends. I now understand how important friendship is and that it’s a fundamental part in romantic relationships. I also came to know that in order to have a healthy relationship, I need to be with someone with the same level of emotional intelligence. I learned that I shouldn’t ignore my needs.

Looking back on this whole experience with him I come to the conclusion that there actually were some red flags from the beginning, but I chose to ignore them. It’s now clear to me why I ignored them and once you become aware of your own behavior you can start making changes to start healing. And once you start healing you attract better. It’s not an easy journey, but it’s worth it!

Absence and lack of communication makes the heart idealize a person. This subconsciously twists your perception of them into thinking that they are something greater than they really are. They ain’t shit. They don’t care. And neither should you.