#mental health services can't help they don't even care

[himalayaan-flowers]

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[apocalypticdemon]

I am so beyond ready to quit this job. Wednesday cannot come fast enough.

[mcalhenwrites]

I'm not going to pretend it doesn't make me angry that I spend months and years trying to peddle my work to make ends meet, that I spend so much time mentioning my books and comms and everything, and people ignore that consisently... But the moment I finally break under the hopelessness - when it's obvious that it's fucking futile, that almost no one deems my work good enough to share with anyone else - suddenly they're concerned and scolding me. I'm working several jobs, bathing, generally keeping things clean, and I do this with several health problems including chronic pain. I found out that one of my cysts is growing and I may need to have it surgically removed. Which means potentially missing work to recover. Which means more money I lose. I spend so much time crawling out of the hole and it goes ignored, but the moment I just give up bc I don't have any strength left, suddenly that's my fault and I'm mentally sick. And that kind of makes me wish my entire situation upon people, and when they whine that it's hard, well fuck you, you thought I could ace it so surely you can, babe! I hate being angry about this, but it's just so exhausting to tell people who accuse me of not trying that I HAVE I HAVE SO FUCKING HARD AND YOU DID NOT PAY ATTENTION THEN Or you know you're attempting to gaslight me by claiming I didn't try despite that I obviously have worked my ass off trying, and that's so much fucking worse

[nknoxe-n]

・❥・Heliotrope and Orange Lilies

Synopsis: Having an argument with their s/o, who started it, what do they do to earn forgiveness or need for them to forgive you?

Warnings: [mental health] [slight toxic behaviour] [pre established relationship]

w.c 1k

You started it:

Isagi Yoichi: He is a very dedicated man, green flag all over, but everyone makes mistakes, and Isagi's biggest flaw is that he gets way too distracted by soccer. When a big match is coming up, he will start neglecting his partner more so he can focus on getting better and winning. This will lead you to an argument 9/10, but he's been working on it, but he just can't help but forget about his life when soccer is so important to him. When Isagi knows he's hurt your feelings by becoming distant he tries to make up for it in quality time, you have his full attention all day, all week even. He's taking every second he can to be spending time with you to make it up to you.

Itoshi Rin: He has emotional relapses, ig that's what you'd call it? Sometimes he gets so caught up in his head and way of thinking he'll convince himself that he isn't good enough for you and that you're going to leave him like his brother did so to save himself the hurt he'll distance himself from you, nothing like Isagi does, Rin will actively avoid you, won't text you back or even talk to you for weeks if he can help it. This of course results in an argument, and he will struggle hard to make it up to you, he's still pretty convinced he isn't enough, but he'll try and have a heart-to-heart with you and spend time with you to get your forgiveness.

Kuniami Rensuke: He used to be so loving and kind, he really was the perfect boyfriend but after the Blue Lock program something about him changed, he didn't really seem to care about as much as he used to, he also oddly enough wasn't very keen on receiving affection gestures anymore, physical or verbal. When you tried to ask him about it one time he brushed you off and of course you can't leave things at that so you keep pushing for an answer, and he snaps at you, and you do not let that shit slide, which turns into one of the first arguments you've ever had with him. When realizing he was in the wrong he tries to make it up to you by going out for a very simplistic date, something you two used to always do, and he tries to communicate with you about how he feels, although he's not very good about it, he's trying his best.

Nagi Seishiro: He was lazy, when Reo wasn't around to do it for him, it was like you were his personal maid, he asked you to make food for him, clean his room sometimes and honestly Reo was your god send taking up quite a few of those tasks you had to do without any sort of appreciation. There was a point where you couldn't take it anymore and lashed out at him, you weren't just a friend, or a hired service, you were his partner and deserved to be treating like it. He really, really struggles to make things good between you two, he doesn't understand fully how you feel since he's always felt kind of emotionally distant, but he tries making an effort to do things for himself more often and give a lot more verbal affection, he even tried taking up one of your hobbies but messed up so badly he never told you he even tried.

He started it:

Shidou Ryusei: He is brash, erratic, and he does things on a whim not taking to account for your feelings very often, most things are very 'casual' to him between the two of you. We've all seen he's quick to anger, so in one scenario where he's been trying to drag you along to do god knows what, and you keep being stubborn saying you have plans? He kinda freaks out in an, albeit short, burst of anger, he feels like you don't want to be around him and to earn his forgiveness you MUST take time off of whatever you do to spend a whole day with him. The second scenario is when you try to be intimate, nothing sexual just intimate and romantic, he kind of struggles with the reality he's in a committed relationship and almost feels repulsed, he doesn't understand why but intimacy of any sort makes him pull away slightly and there isn't anything you can do to help but give him time.

Chigiri Hyoma: He gets insecure sometimes, he's usually super confident, and he knows how good he looks, how well he plays, and how good of a boyfriend he is. But there are times when he sees you getting attention from other people, I mean, how couldn't you? You were stunning, drop-dead perfect, but he can't help but feel slightly insecure, that maybe one of these people could preform better than him. Chigiri reacts on impulse and half accuses you of wanting someone else but immediately shuts up, he started the short-lived argument but wants your forgiveness, he feels guilty for being so brash and talks it out with you. He also does an 'at home spa day' to try and cheer you up.

Bachira Meguru: Now Bachira is sometimes a bit much, he's a chatterbox and a constant buzz of excitement, he constantly needs your attention, or he feels like you don't love him, he wants to be clinging to you often as possible. No sane person can really keep up with the level he's on without getting a little worn out or frustrated, so when you start to mellow out and stop matching his enthusiasm he doesn't get mad, but he gets upset. He'll wake you up in the middle of the night, face filled with tears you can't see, but you can hear it in his voice, he'll keep asking if you love him anymore and apologizing for being annoying. Reassure him and explain to him the truth so he doesn't overthink and everything will be okay.

[nightlyrequiem]

hi there requiem !!!

so about being Valerias wife??? can we have some hcs on how she treats us (〃´▽`)

like how clingy, jealous, etc ^_^

throw in some smut too .. if you can (・・;)

thank you in advance!!! <3<33

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Hi welcome back, happy to see your emojis in my inbox <33

I would LOVE to talk about how Valeria treats her wife. I have a few different ideas that I can't pick from

Being Valeria's Wife

I have two ideas, we'll start with the fluffier, happier ones. Then delve into the darker ones. Valeria is very doting when she has the time. She's a busy woman but when she's with you? She is with you. I like to think that Valeria's love language is acts of service. You're hungry? She'll cook for you. She'll arrange the cushions on the couch and bed for you. Valeria loves doing simple things for you.

Valeria is also a very jealous woman. She has this deep, irrational fear that one of your friends will woo you somehow and you'll cheat on her. She secretly goes through your phone. Not necessarily out of a lack of trust but just to reassure herself. She's not too clingy. Valeria loves cuddling up with you but she also likes her own space. She's perfectly fine with spending long periods of time away from you. (Not too long though.)

She's obsessed. But only because it's so hard for her to actually want someone in the first place. Not because she's guarding her heart but because she feels a lack of interest in literally everyone. So when she does finally catch feelings she falls fast, and she falls hard. Valeria is here to stay. If you're of a cheerful temperament, then everything is smooth sailing.

Valeria isn't a mental health expert though. The time and area she was raised in didn't really talk about it. So she'll struggle a bit if you have a mental illness. Not understanding certain behaviors and moods means things will be tense. Valeria will argue with you and fight with you, but eventually relents and does her own research. She learns how to help you. Offering that much needed emotional support.

She spoils you too. Even if you make your own money she will insist on paying for every date. If you want to pay the bills you're going to have to be good at arguing because she wants to pay those too.

Valeria isn't so good to you during serious arguments though. She's quick to anger and even quicker to use things against you. Then she'll give you the cold shoulder for a while. She's not great at apologizing either. In fact, she just doesn't. One day you'll wake up to her making you coffee in the kitchen acting like nothing happened. asking for an apology will just spark another argument.

That woman is also very horny. She's very attentive to you in bed. She likes being rough and borderline violent but if you don't like that she will be more gentle. That being said, she loves eating you out. In the shower, on the counter, in bed, in the car. Doesn't matter. She'll take any chance she can to use her mouth on you. She's not good at after care at first. You had to tell her that it doesn't feel good to be used and then left alone while she goes eats or something.

Now onto the darker stuff. Valeria loves you in her own way but she's dismissive and kind of mean sometimes. During fights she'll belittle, and name call you. She's jealous and a little insecure. It's not that she's not aware of her bad behavior, because she is. She always tells you and herself that she's going to change but she never does. She worries you'll eventually leave her.

She doesn't like your friends either. If you dare, try and hangout with them, she'll give you the cold shoulder. To her it feels like you prefer them over her and she's not about to beg for your attention. On the contrary, you have to beg for hers. She won't talk to you until you're in tears begging her to stop ignoring you, and even then, she's still a little icy for a few days.

She'll regularly go through your phone and delete pictures of you and your friends without telling you. She's dismissive and uncaring when you bring it up. I'm pretty sure I've mentioned it somewhere, but Valeria really struggled with empathy. She knows it hurts you and she'd prefer if it didn't, but she doesn't feel all that bad. The guilt she feels is too distant for her to do anything with.

She still loves you though, it's just not in a conventional way and if she maybe went to therapy, she could love you in a healthier way.

[hillbillyoracle]

So you can't get out of bed...

This is a resource list for all those who are having trouble getting out of bed. Whether that's because of injury, disability, or mental health, this collection of resources should help address some of the common pain points I've experienced over the years. Some will require modification if truly bedbound but my hope is this sparks ideas and gives you a place to start.

A warning: this is a *long* post. I went for thoroughness over brevity so people had options where possible.

Food

This video from Sarah McGlory of Adaptive Cleaning details her system.

It is excellent. I have a similar bin to her first in my room for high pain and low mood days. Prioritize high fiber and high protein shelf stable foods. Make sure electrolytes and water are within easy reach.

If grocery trips are too much, it's worth looking into pick up or delivery. In my experience, the delivery services through stores are better than Instacart and the like. The retailer who must not be named also has a great snack selections that hold up pretty well in transit.

Fruit + veggie pouches, baked chips, and RXBars are some of my favorites to keep on hand.

Clean Space

This video from KC Davis of Struggle Care details her "Five Things Tidying Method".

If you can't tidy your whole space, focus on the walkways. Make sure you have a walkway to your bedroom door, to your front door (or other way to leave your house), to the bathroom, and to the kitchen or where you store food.

Another tip from KC Davis - if you're struggling to get your plates back to the kitchen before they stick or attract bugs, get gallon sized plastic bags and seal the plates inside of them. You can always wash and reuse them once you've delivered it safely to your sink or dishwasher. When you're just surviving, it's just as okay to toss them after.

Bonus: This no-mess method of decluttering from Dana K. White is low energy friendly. You can stop whenever and your space is still better.

Hygiene

This post details my care kit that I use.

If you're unable to shower regularly, I'd add in some baby wipes. Yours probably won't look exactly like mine but I hope it can be a jumping off point. If I could only pick two items, it'd be the disposable toothbrushes and a good facial lotion (since it can also be used on the body). If you can't bare to change your clothes, just change your underwear. This helps prevent health issues down the road.

Movement

Arm Workout in Bed: [3 Min] [5 Min] [10 min]

Core Workout in Bed: [3 Min] [5 Min] [10 Min]

Leg Workout in Bed: [3 Min] [5 Min] [10 Min]

Yoga in Bed: [Morning] [Anytime] [Evening]

Stretching: [5 Min] [10 Min]

If you're able to stand + move but not up for leaving your room, then Rick Bhullar's walking workouts are great in a small space.

For a long time, I thought that you could only get exercise by getting dressed in specific clothes and going outside or to a gym. Now I know that there are lots of options for getting a little movement in bed. Even a short 3 min workout a day can help decrease muscle atrophy. Don't let perfect be the enemy of good enough.

Bonus: I also just walk laps around my room/apartment. You don't have to go outside. It can get a little boring sure. But quick 5-10 min walking breaks through out the day add up.

Spirituality

This is ultimately going to be specific to you and your tradition. Even if you are not religious at all taking a moment to think about your bigger picture values is important. Since my core spiritual path is Buddhism, here are some recommendations in that vein. I could not find good links for all of these. I don't necessarily do all of these everyday but I try to do a few.

Three Refuges by Plum Village

The Five Precepts by Access to Insight

The Five Remembrances on Wikipedia

Chanting Om Mani Padme Hum

Chanting Namo'valokiteshvara

Reciting the Heart Sutra

Bonus: A pagan practice I enjoy is reciting the hymns to the planet of the day. Offering water and incense is great but optional. Praying to and thanking ancestors and land spirits is also a great practice.

Alternatives to Social Media

It's easy to get stuck in the black hole of scrolling. It's good to have something enjoyable to pivot to.

Cozy Games

My favorites are Stardew Valley, Wingspan, and Animal Crossing. The first two aren't terribly expensive. A lower cost alternative to Animal Crossing would be Cozy Grove which regularly goes on sale. Sims can be cozy as well - minus any pool shenanigans.

Slowly

This is an app that allows you to send messages but delivers them on a delay based on how far away you are from someone. It makes it fairly easy to find penpals though, as with anything, it can be hit or miss. I've even convinced a few of my irl friends to try it and write them little letters on there. The delay makes receiving them more special. It's a great way to play letter writing rpgs with friends. I'm currently using it to play Grandpa's Farm with my partner.

750 Words

Ever wished you could do morning pages digitally? That's what 750 words started out as being but you can ultimately use it however you want. Some people use it to hit word counts on their writing projects. I'm a fan of using it to brain dump and then micro journal. It does cost a small fee after 30 days but it's by far been worth it to me.

FeederWatch

Getting outside - even if it's just for 5 minutes - once a day is a great goal. But if you can't, take a break and watch one of these feeder streams for a while. Even just seeing images of the outdoors, is calming. I sometime throw this up on one screen while I'm playing a cozy game or doing some non-screen activities.

Screen Breaks

We all know it's important to take screen breaks - but it's extra important to do it when you're in bed and you're screens are a big part of how you spend your day. Below are some of my favorite ways to take a break. 10 minutes every two hours or 20 minutes every three hours can make a big difference.

Postcrossing or writing letters to friends

Solo RPGs - here are some of mine, here's a D&D example

Free adult coloring pages

Read a Book - reading challenge, get personalized recommendations

Play a solitaire card game - there are so damn many now

Walk around for 5-10 minutes, bonus if it's outside.

Volunteer

One of the big feelings that come up for me when I'm mostly in bed is that I feel like a burden to others. Rather than trying to "be productive" I've found it's much better to try to positively contribute to others even if it's in small ways - sending a text to someone remembering/thanking them for something kind they did for me, ordering a little present for someone I know who's had a rough time, sending a card to someone who has a birthday coming up. The little stuff really helps people.

If you don't have many people in your life like that to help or you'd like to help some strangers too here are some other options.

Sigma Phi Eta

This is a 100% online and free greek service org I'm trying to get off the ground. 3 hours of service to become a pledge which count towards the 10 needed to become a member. 10 hours each year to stay active. We maintain an updated list of online/distanced volunteer opportunities as we find them. We have service awards for those who want to go above and beyond. Plus once you're a member you can wear our letters.

We're small right now but if you want a group of people to talk service and grow with - come join us!

Letters Against Isolation

LAI is probably my favorite charity I volunteer for. Volunteers write cards and letters to people in nursing homes, assisted living, and those connected to senior centers through Meals on Wheels and other programs. They're always adding new facilities so the need is always growing. They have facilities in multiple countries they write to and could use people who speak another language especially.

Warm Up America

Mostly for crocheters and knitters - this org accepts donations of all kinds of patterns and distributes them to smaller projects and charities who otherwise wouldn't be able to access these kind of goods at scale. I've made a few things for them - simple hats - and greatly enjoyed the process. Great use for your cheaper acrylic yarns.

7 Cups

I've had a mixed experience with 7 Cups. I really have enjoyed my experiences chatting with people on there but it can be really hit or miss as to whether I feel like I've helped people. There's also the usual people who try to use any chat service for sex. That aside, I still think their training is pretty good and it can feel meaningful when you're able to connect with someone who's not doing so hot.

Checklist

Have you cleaned yourself + changed clothes? [ ]

Have you tended to your spirituality? [ ]

Have you fed yourself? [ ] [ ] [ ]

Have you tended to your space? [ ]

Have you gotten some movement in? [ ]

Have you taken a social media break? [ ] [ ] [ ]

Have you taken a screen break? [ ] [ ] [ ]

Have you volunteered or done something nice for another person? [ ]

[neptunes-sol-angel]

This!

It's irritating seeing this trend with readers building their platforms by doing love readings, gaining followers for it, profiting off off of it, and then suddenly pulling the rug from their feet to instruct people (not guide!) that they're "lacking" in something but not even giving them closure on what, how, or where to start. Whether you actually care or you just want to find a reason to shit on other readers, people have the absolute wrong idea over and over again about what readings are meant to be.

It is a luxury. Not and should not ever be advertised as a need. If people need help through these services, then they have to want it for themselves instead of you trying to instill in them that they need to be reliant on occultic practices to make good decisions in their lives. That is a dangerous way to make someone codependent on readings because constantly trying to look for things to fix in your life in the name of "self improvement" is equally harmful as what an obsession with future spouse or other love readings will do to you. There is not a single topic that is superior or inferior to another when it comes to divination because they all have the potential to trigger someone into spiritual psychosis and I really need people to understand this.

You want readings to be about counseling others? Go towards other closed divination practices that are solely designed for giving spiritual insight OR just simply keep posting the topics that you want, in your own way and call it a day instead of worrying about what the next person is doing. Why does it always have to be a dick measuring contest in these communities when really we should be supporting each other? Not everyone is equipped to channel self-help readings and it's perfectly fine to just be a reader that caters to love topics or anything else that is unique.

It's like saying "Books are for learning. You should only read educational topics because I think you're not doing enough for your intellectual responsibilities". You'd be mad as hell if someone told you that you needed to put down that science fiction book because they feel like you need to learn more about neuroscience.

I'm a reader, and I personally take the breaks that I do here for my mental health because indulging in spiritual practices with no boundaries will drive you into insanity. Respectfully, if I just finished having a mental breakdown over recollecting the various cases of childhood trauma that I've experienced...I do not want to log on here and read pick a cards about shadow work. I wouldn't even want to touch my cards or speak to my spirit guides for the next couple of days.

Any other time, I LIVE for a good reading no matter the topic. Future spouse readings are not my favorite but I don't hate them. Sometimes I'll be drawn to just one specific topic depending on the day because that's life. One day I want to know more about my love life in the present, the next day maybe my love life in the future, some days I do want to read more into the shadow work that I need to do, next week I could really want to read pick a cards with messy topics or themes that are meant to boost your confidence, and when I'm in that mood, I might just only want to read 18+ themed pick a card readings 💀

The point is that I don't think people understand how precious this platform actually is. A lot of the material here, you can't really get in any of the other divination communities. People are talented here and should stick with what they feel that they should make and it's pointless to try to get them to do it any other way because IT'S SO DIVERSE here, just simply find another reader who makes the messages that you need at the moment. It's not that hard or rare to find that people are making it ought to be.

And just focus on what you can do as a reader. Are you being true to your practices and beliefs? Are you creating a space that's healthy for readers up here? If not, then think and respond accordingly to what you feel like you should do. If you're concerned about the consumption of love readings, don't be quick to point fingers at other people, especially if you know you're part of the problem. People learn on their own timing and through their own choices and you can't control that. What you can control is the content that you choose to distribute to others.

Do topics that match with your truth. Love readings are not your thing or not what you believe in? Don't make them. Are you tired? Don't feel pressured to post. You feel concerned with how your audience is consuming your content? Post less. Etc.

[bonny-kookoo]

Jungkook

𝓣𝓪𝓴𝓮 𝓒𝓪��𝓮. [Closed Doors]

Jungkook makes decisions every day- but none has ever felt as hard to make as the decision whether or not to keep or leave you.

Tags/Warnings: Hospital/Medical AU, Doctor!Jungkook, slightly aged up!Jungkook, Hybrid!Reader, Dog Hybrid!Reader, another slightly heavy one but the comfort is strong with this hurt, angst, fluff, romance, strangers to lovers, blood, medical stuff, mentions of domestic (physical and mental) abuse, corruption, mentions of drug abuse, health scare²

Length: 2.3k Words, it's very tiny I'm very sorry

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A/N: hi sorry I just really like this fic pls eat your vegetables

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"The little guy is recovering good." Namjoon nods. "But we'll have to inform child protective services, no matter if it was an accident or not.." He sighs, as Jungkook nods.

"I'm pretty sure it'll go well if it really was just that." He says. "I can't believe people just leave this stuff around when they know children eat any candy they see the moment they get the chance to." He shakes his head a bit angrily. "If that boy was a hybrid he'd be dead."

"Luckily he's not. I'll send the boy over to pediatrics, and as soon as that happens, he's out of our hands." Namjoon reminds his friend and coworker, as they both silently agree, walking through the hall. "How's your puppy doing?"

"Awake, and she's been transferred out of the ICU this morning, so I'm gonna check on her now and see how she's doing." Jungkook sighs, running a hand through his hair.

"Have you decided if you want to take her in yet?" Namjoon wonders, greeting a fellow doctor who's passing by.

"No." Jungkook shakes his head. "Not.. yet."

It's a touchy subject for now- so Namjoon leaves it alone- letting the doctor enter your new room on his own, to check up on you.

It's quiet inside, no nurse yet present- and Jungkook is actually a little thankful for the short, quiet moment he's got. Standing close to you, he lets his hand run over one of your soft ears- now cleaned and fur soft and vibrant in color. It's something Jimin had informed him about yesterday- how you cried from happiness after he'd helped you properly clean your ears and tail, something that appeared to be very much unfamiliar and new to you.

It angers him, to know that you were nothing but something to show off until now.

So many of your health problems could've been avoided if you just had received any amount of proper care and attention. Yoongi already suspects that you might have developed some behavioral issues from the way you've been living until now- all that, combined with your physical troubles will take weeks if not months to resolve. If they ever resolve fully at all, that is.

Not that Jungkook really cares. He'd take you in even if you were to bite and scratch.

But it's not that easy, and he knows this. "Hello?" He carefully says as his hand shakes your shoulder gently. "Can you wake up for me for a moment?" He requests, and your eyes slowly open, squinting at the bright hospital lights, before you stretch- and hiss at something cramping. "Good morning." He greets you- and suddenly you seem to realize who's there- and your tail begins to wag under the blanket, ears turned towards him as you smile. "How do you feel, hm?" He wonders, but you don't answer.

It's to be expected. All of these traumatic events must've taken a toll on you- not just physically.

"Well you're looking a lot better already, that's for sure." Jungkook tells mostly himself, though he smiles when he spots you taking the praise for yourself as well. It gives him a moment just to quietly look at you; imagine what life could be like if someone like you was to wait for him inside his apartment, every day whenever he'd come home from work.

Surely, you'd turn his apartment into a home in no time. The thought of just a little more chaos inside his living space, a little more of a mess here and there, a bit of disorder in his life, might just be what could color his life a little more vibrantly. Make things more exciting, more emotionally valuable- maybe it could even make his life less about work, and more about..

well, living.

You're yawning, and he laughs, train of thought broken as he pets your head teasingly, before the door opens, and a very chipper Jimin walks in. "Ah, there's my favorite person!" He sings almost, walking in to put the small tray of food down, before he looks at Jungkook. "And you too, Doctor Jeon."

"Well thank you." Jungkook jokes, before he watches as Jimin opens the tray, revealing some light soup and rice for you to eat. It's only a small portion- just to slowly ease you back into eating, and not overwhelm you again. He notices how attached you seem to what he recognizes is an empty pillowcase of all things you seem to cling to, probably for comfort, taken from your first room you occupied. It's another problem- you now have no one to bring you any clothes or comforting items into hospital at all.

You're alone, all by yourself.

And for some reason, the realization of that small fact hits him hard.

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It's been not even a full 24 hours, and you're already causing mischief.

"There you are!" Jungkook sighs, relieved to have finally found you near a vending machine two floors away from where you should be- which is in your room, in your bed. You, meanwhile, are just simply smiling at him, tail wagging at the sight of him crouching down to you to pet your head. "Come on now, you gave the poor nurses a near heart-attack by vanishing like that." He gently scolds, before he stands back up to his full height, reaching for your hand.

But you just let yourself fall to your side, stubborn. Tail still wagging, smacking onto the smooth floor.

"Got yourself a troublemaker, huh doctor Jeon?" An older nurse laughs, watching the interaction between the hybrid specialist and you while she prepares a cart with food trays for the patients. The news of Jungkook's interest in maybe adopting you permanently has made it's round quite quickly by now- mostly thanks to Jimin, who's the unofficial news reporter of every bit of gossip there is.

Jungkook sighs. "Seems like it." He chuckles, unable to really be upset with you, considering how glad he is to see you up and running again instead of pale and fighting in the ER. It's as if you finally realized that in here, no one actually wants to hurt you. No one blames you. No one is mad at you. You're actually being cared for here- you can truly be yourself, and no one's gonna get upset over it.

And slowly, Jungkook starts to see your true personality- which does help in his decision whether or not you'll fit into his life, or not. He's not made one yet- the papers are still at home, on his desk in his office, unsigned.

It's a tough decision to make, after all.

On one hand, sure; he really likes you, you seem absolutely sweet and also independent enough to stay at home by yourself if he goes by all of your documents, which included general assessment of your overall intelligence and social capabilities. You're a bit of an odd case- while your instincts are very strong, your hybrid features very well developed, and your overall behavior shows habits and reactions similar to a hybrid much higher on the scale, you do know how to properly process situations in a more human way.

For example; Loud noises startle you, but they don't make you panic. Food and snacks make you excited, but they're useless as bribery if you don't want to do something. You can read, write, and are educated to a very good degree, and you understand social cues without any issues.

But on the other hand, Jungkook isn't a man with endless patience. He gets frustrated easily, especially with himself- so what if he snaps at you on accident? Will you understand that he doesn't mean it badly, and that it's not even directed at you? And what about when he has to work- will you be lonely in his home, unhappy but too nice to actually tell him? He doesn't want you to just waste away while he's too focused on his career. It's something important for him, after all- he can't just quit and call it a day.

Even if you were to say that you don't need the attention, or the affection, or constant care or anything at all- he'd still feel bad for not providing it anyways. Because you deserve it. You deserve someone who can love you each day properly, someone who doesn't have to push you to the back every time his job has to take priority.

He's not sure what decision to make.

Or if there's even a choice at all.

Suddenly, you're pulling on his shirt to get back his attention- probably because he started to look mad while thinking. He knows he does this- it's why he usually turns away from patients whenever he has to think about something, which makes his face look upset. "I'm not mad." He reassures you, smiling again, petting your ears again while you watch him with suspicion. You're currently in a different headspace, regressing after all the stress and honestly rather traumatic events, which makes communication a little difficult- but everyone manages, since you're quite expressive in other ways, able to tell what you want and think either way.

Jungkook wants to take care of you- he wants to take you home, and make sure you're happy forever, but he can't be selfish, or too fast with his decision.

"Now come on, it's lunch soon. You hungry?" He asks, and you nod, tail wagging as you stand up alongside him, hand holding onto his shirt as you walk next to him-

and this time, he decides to cave in a little, as he instead holds your hand in his while walking back to your room with you.

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Jungkook likes to play music in his apartment, even if it's just quiet.

It fills the space with noise, makes him feel less lonely, takes his mind off of things. It helps relax. But tonight, it doesn't really work, as he sits in his office, sighing as he looks at the unsigned paperwork still on his desk in front of him. He's read through all the documents more than twice now, knows what's written down, what information it all gives out to him- and yet, he's unsure what to do with it.

If he signs it, you'll be given to him for a foster time first- three weeks of 'trying it out' so to speak, to see if you're a good fit for him, and if he's a good fit for you. During that time, a careworker will visit randomly to check up once or twice, and at the end of it, it's you both who have to agree to an actual permanent registration. But Jungkook worries, he always does.

The thing he worries most about, is the fact that he feels like he's already in too deep. There's a small, pink and white plush toy in his lap after all, bought yesterday straight after work from a store specializing in hybrid clothing and other items. It's a comfort plush that holds scents very well, so he keeps it close to his body ever since buying it to offer it to you tomorrow morning when he's back in hospital to check up on you.

And yes, he has been browsing what a dog hybrid of your specific breed might need to live a happy life. He might also have looked up options for sports or other activities you might want to do-

he's really in deep, isn't he?

He sighs yet again, scratching his head in frustration after he puts down the pen, staring at the 'signature here' spot at the bottom. It could all be so easy, but he really doesn't want to fuck this all up.

He knows from Taehyung, an anesthesiologist and good friend, that having a hybrid can actually work out perfectly. He's balancing it just fine, his own hybrid at home happy and healthy, his work never suffering, his happiness thriving. The young medical worker always shows off pictures of him and his hybrid, proudly, and he really has every reason to be, considering where she came from.

But Jungkook also knows how tough it can be.

He's reminded of it every time he checks up on Yoongi and his cat hybrid- now awake, but clearly in distress over her lack of control over her own body, and it's going to be a long road to recovery for her and Yoongi just as much. He knows they'll get through it- but the amount of heartbreak and absolute terror that went down just scared Jungkook, straight up.

And he knows, your future together is absolutely going to be both of those scenarios- good, and bad.

"What's the worst that can happen.." He hums to himself, one hand playing with the fuzz of the comfort plush in his lap, little black eyes staring blankly at him, tiny mouth curved into a forever smile.

You deserve a happy future. You deserve to have opportunities, and care, and affection, and a stable environment you can rely on, and thrive in. And he won't ever really gain the knowledge of that happening if he's not the one providing that for you.

And yet, the doubts are still there, clouding his mind.

What's he going to do?

[danganronpa-headcanons-imagines]

Danganronpa Love Languages (DR V3)

[ DR THH | SDR2 | DR V3 ]

Kaede Akamatsu - Words of Affirmation

Being a living personification of optimism, Kaede is always there to reassure you and cheer you up. Even at your darkest moments she will be there to pull you out and into the light. If you don't want help and just want support, she won't hesitate to just hold you and listen. She cares about your mental health a lot, especially since she knows how it feels. When Kaede is trying to boost your mood, she is commonly complimenting you. Sometimes it can get off track and she'll derail into making comments about your body (especially if you got big boobs or ass. Shuichi said it best, she can sound like a pervy old man sometimes). But hey, it boosts your confidence! And that's what she wants more than anything

Shuichi Saihara - Quality Time

Shuichi wasn't one with high self-esteem or confidence, so when you asked him out it took him a day to fully process it. Sure he's been crushing on you for a long time, but what if he can't be a good boyfriend? At the start of your relationship he will definitely be a bit awkward and nervous. The longer you guys are together though, he will gain confidence in both himself and your relationship. He will still be very subdued and bashful, but isn't afraid to show affection in public. In fact, Shuichi loves to stay by your side throughout the day. It will be every other day, as some days he needs alone time to recharge and relax, and you're happy to oblige! When he does feel the desire for companionship he will openly seek you out and ask if you could spend the day together

Angie Yonaga - Gift Giving

Atua will always be number one in her heart, but you are a close second! She talks so positively about you to anyone she can. She's got nothing to hide. Being the Ultimate Artist, Angie's specialty is making gifts and art for you. Paintings, statues, wood carvings, it's all for you. To add her own little spice, she likes to bless every creation with the protection of Atua. It's up to debate whether this counts as a gift or not, but every day she prays to Atua to look upon you and keep you safe. In her eyes, she is giving the gift of love and protection from her god, she is praying for your own good. Yeah it's a bit weird, but she's so cute it's hard to get upset

Gonta Gokuhara - Acts of Service

O h my ggod?? Gentleman, sweetie, baby, precious, a present from god. These are many words to describe Gonta, and it's never made more clear than when you date. He already was very gentle and protective of you, but when you get in a relationship he takes it more seriously. He protects you and treats you as if you were breakable. Think of yourself as a rare beetle! If he deems the terrain as dangerous, he resorts to craddling you in his arms and carrying you. As a true Gentleman, Gonta is incredibly courteous and polite, holding open doors for you and being as respectful as possible. And if you ask him to do anything he will happily do it for you (well, except hurt a bug). Whenever he does something that upsets you, or something he percives as rude, he does tend to freak out. He'll need a lot of reassurance. And just... please show Gonta physical affection too. Hold his hand, run your fingers through his hair, make him feel as loved as possible. He deserves it

Himiko Yumeno - Quality Time

Himiko wasn't really interested in relationships, she never felt a real attraction to anyone. Even Tenko and Angie she saw more as friends than love interests. In your first interactions she felt the same about you, but then oddly felt herself become more attached. Suddenly she was following you around and constantly trying to show you her magic. Whenever you were seperated she tended to think about you a lot. Himiko still can't fully comprehend why your relationship was different from all the others, but she isn't complaining in the slightest. You bring such peace to her heart and it's so refreshing. Expect lots of invites to her room for magic shows

K1-B0 - Physical Touch

K1-B0 is a pure sweetie. Being a robot, he is NOT used to any sort of relationship. It took him awhile to get friendships down fully, so when you asked him out he was not used to it at all. Any sign of affection made him blush like mad, if he had a heart it would be beating like crazy. Somehow everything you did drove him nuts! How soft your skin feels on his metal, the warmth radiating off your body, the way you nuzzle into his neck, it all felt like heaven. Another reason he loves your touch is how respectful you are (unlike 2 certain degenerates). You touch him with purpose and love, no judgement. Seriously, just cuddle with him and kiss his cheeks, let him know you care. It makes him feel alive

Kaito Momota - Words of Affirmation

Kaito is a BRO through and through! I'm talking ride or die. He will stand by your side through thick and thin, and will be your number one support system. Any issues you have he will want to hear and help with. Even if you tell him you just want someone to listen, he is gonna listen soooooo hard. The best part is that he's well grounded as well. Kaito isn't afraid to voice his true opinions and always gives it to you straight. He feels like lying ruins a relationship. The only thing he ever hid from you was his illness, and that was discovered fairly quickly. It hurts to see him put you over his own health, but Kaito will always do it with no hesitation. You are special to him, in more ways than one

Kirumi Tojo - Acts of Service

She is a maid, her life's goal is to serve. Whether it's her boss, friends, or lovers, Kirumi aims to please. With you she takes care of you well. Your house will always be clean, hot meals served to you daily, and if you need help with your hobbies she will learn as much as she can to assist. To be honest you tend to feel bad a lot. Despite your insistance for her to take a break, Kirumi refuses. It may seem like she's just a worker of sorts, but she has self respect and refuses to be treated as such. When she cares for you, it's out of love and care, not obligation. But sometimes, if you do something for her instead, you can catch her starting to tear up. Kirumi will try to reprimand you, but will eventually drop her professionalism and just embrace you lovingly

Kokichi Ouma - Quality Time

Piece of SHIT gremlin dear LORD I love him. Sure Hiyoko was a handful, but with Kokichi it's even more apparent. He's a trickster through and through, and just because you're dating doesn't mean he's gonna ease up on it. They will probably be less intense and more playful most of the time, and the name calling will be more cheeky rather than insulting. But you are not gonna be immune to his jackassery. He has a habit of following you around a lot and constantly trying to bug you and get your attention. Don't even get me started on his lies. At first you thought he was just wanting to be annoying (okay that's part of it), but actually he just really likes spending time with you. Being able to talk to you constantly and see your funny reactions gives him so much happiness. He'll deny how clingy he is and mock you for thinking so, but one time he followed you into the bathroom, so that speaks for itself

Korekiyo Shinguji - Physical Touch

Korekiyo is a... I'm just gonna say it, he's a kinky bastard. He finds humanity fascinating and wants to experience the wonders of existence, including the taboos. He is normally quite a smooth talker, and despite the messed up or concerning things he says, you still find yourself charmed. But the real affection comes from his touch. Korekiyo loves to study your body and your behaviors whenever he touches you in different places. He always makes mental notes on your habits and reactions. It intrigues him so intensely! But uh, his real experimenting and studying comes in the bedroom. Just get used to trying new things, he wants to experience it all with you

Maki Harukawa - Acts of Service

Being a groomed assassin since childhood, Maki has grown very cold and pessimistic toward people. To be honest she wasn't very fond of you when you first met. The only reason she ever gave you the time of day was because you were friends with Kaito and Shuichi. It took a long time for her to see you as a friend, and even longer to admit she had a crush on you. Believing herself to be less than human means she doesn't feel worthy to be loved. Once you declared your deep love for her full of passion, it kinda broke her. She didn't say much, but she broke out into tears immedietly. From then on, Maki started to show affection more. She wanted you to know how much she loved you, and thought that doing things for you is the best way to show it. She is very protective of you, both from people and situations. If you are ever in a dangerous or stress inducing situation, Maki is gonna be there to help and assist. And if anyone dares to try to hurt you... well, they won't have a body for the casket

Miu Iruma - Physical Touch

Now, it's obvious that Miu shows love through physical contact. But not in the way you think. You see, she talks a big game about sex and shit, but in reality she is a blushing mess everytime you hold her hand. A great way to see her squirm is hugging her around the waist from behind. Instant way to short circut her brain. These bouts of teasing often invoke swear filled insults thrown your way, but don't worry she's just embarrassed. If you do this enough it will lead to her getting frustrated, both emotionally and sexually. She'll initiate affection by pulling you close to her or just sitting in your lap like a grumpy cat. You wanna keep poking the lion? Well you better get ready for lion to pounce one day

Rantaro Amami - Physical Touch

He is a smoooooth talker. Very swoon worthy and always knows what to say to make you blush. His voice is the perfect tone too. Most people can attest to these facts. But he really likes to touch you gently and romantically. When he touches your hips or shoulders it's very gentle and relaxing. He also loves to nuzzle his face in your neck and chest while you cuddle. It's like you fit together like puzzle pieces. What he loves the most though is your hands. Rantaro takes any opportunity to hold or caress your hands, giving small kisses to the back of them. He loves the way you get bashful. Another fun way to bond is by doing your nails! It's a great time to catch up and talk, and you also get your nails done. So win-win!

Ryoma Hoshi - Words of Affirmation

Ryoma doesn't feel like he deserves much in life. Or anything in general. Not only was he a convicted killer, he was also on death row. So when you came up and confessed to him, he actually turned you down and said you deserve someone much better. Someone who isn't a shell of their former self. But strangely you didn't give up and kept pursuing him, and eventually he broke and admitted he felt the same. Ryoma has clinical depression and it's quite clear, but he never tries to make it your issue. Instead of focusing on his personal troubles and trauma, he puts his efforts into supporting you and voicing his admirations. Pride for you is something he will bluntly show. When you attempt to talk to him and let him air his troubles, he'll insist he's fine. He'll still have a cool air to him, but deep down he really appreciates your concern. And honestly, he considers you a reason to live a little longer

Tenko Chabashira - Physical Touch

Tenko is aggressive with her affections (just ask Himiko) so when she crushes on you she is obvious and intense. She'll gush over you and shower you with praise as often as possible. So if you validate her and accept her feelings, she's gonna jump right into it. Expect a lot of hugs and snuggles quite openly. To the point of embarrassment sometimes. You are just so cute she can't help herself!! A favorite past time of her is to practice Akido with you. Tenko gets a lot of joy sharing her passion with you, and being able to toss you around is a bonus I'mma be blunt though. If you are femme or femme presenting she is gonna protect you with her heart and treat you like a queen. If you are masc or masc presenting it will be... rough for a while. She'll eventually come around, but you'll just have to prove you aren't a degenerate male and earn her respect. Once you do, Tenko will hold you in much higher regard than other men and treat you as the golden standard

Tsumugi Shirogane - Gift Giving

Tsumugi is a mastermind obsessed with the Danganronpa series in itself. Something about it is fascinating to her and brings her much amusement. And with you she instantly noticed that you fit the series perfectly. You fit her perfectly. She knew she had to get you, and luckily she did! While at first it was more of an entertainment thing, Tsumugi eventually found herself growing fond of you. She actually enjoyed going on dates with you, no ulterior motives anymore. To emphasize her newfound affection, she often liked to sew clothes for you! You can draw up a design for any outfit you want and she'll be able to make it a reality. Basically you'll never need to go shopping again. As some bonus "gifts", sometimes you'll come home to Tsumugi dressed up... in just the way you like~

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[chrome-barkz-aac]

bit of a vent /asking for help belowwww

i know that im LSN but i dont feel like other people struggle like i do. that sounds really pretentious and dramatic to say out loud but i look at all of my other LSN friends and they have jobs and aren't failing classes and are taking their meds and not behind on chores. I'm not sure if its the combination of my SCZ and other mental health issues that have made me drop out of school before or what but why isn't ne 1 else struggling like this? every day i feel like im walking through a cloud where nothing makes sense and everything is so hard.

i guess i should be fucking grateful that i get to go to school at all (because of financial and disability reasons) but it doesnt feel like a blessing it feels like a burden. im tired all the time and i cant study and i can't keep my apartment clean and im having to skip class. i can barely drive nowadays bc cars keep darting in and out of existence and i feel like its too dangerous to drive for me. i love driving i dont want to give it up.

i can barely bathe myself because im just so tired. i just sit in the water and cant even wash. and i can hardly brush my teeth more than once every other day.

idk man i just want to be able to finish college, get a job or do a PhD program and live on my own without fear that i'm not going to be independent. i don't want to be dependent on my family or a partner for the rest of my life. i don't want to do that again.

i just want to be able to do science man but at this point it barely feels worth it to persue a career. i dont want to be beholden to something outside of my control. and im frustrated that no one else seems to get this. im not disabled enough to be MSN and qualify for the kind of help that would get me but every day is harder than the last and im worried that im going to relapse or lose everything again.

does ne 1 have ne ideas for how i can manage this stuff? im really really struggling and im terrified that im going to have to drop out again, which would effectively end my chances at living independently.

(also i have asked for help about stuff like this before and gotten the response that i am privileged [for needing help with chores/living independently and considering options such as a group home or home care service] because i am american. this is me asking for help. if you feel that strongly, you may want to consider writing your own post)

[moonspirit]

Imagine Annie taking care of Armin when he’s sick. Fever, sore throat, runny nose, nausea... he, unfortunately, catches some kind of virus and is now forced to stay in bed for a while. He is exhausted not only mentally, but also physically.

At that moment, Annie realizes that she's never taken care of someone sick. Especially not someone as close as Armin. That's why it's so strange for her...that she wants to make herbal tea for him, air out the room, and change his blanket for a warmer one.

Hello hello!!

Sick scenarios are so cute because both of them are just so vulnerable T_T So much room to explore sides of the two that might show up for the first time even!

I imagine that a sick Armin really struggles to accept any sort of pampering. Because of course not, he shouldn't burden Annie, he shouldn't stress her out, he shouldn't be so weak to fall sick in the first place ffs. So his apologetic streak is really winning the race when he's constantly reassuring her he's fine, that he should get back to work now (so the others don't have to do it, of course #_#), that he'll be as good as new with some coffee! Quite predictably, he's keeling over like Titanic the second he's out of bed.

Annie, on the other hand, is pretty irritated by him being like this. But then, like you said, she can't help but feel worried and anxious over his state, and these feelings of so much intensity are quite new. To tend to someone and nurse them back to health is an act of service, not one she's accustomed to receive, much less deliver.

But this is Armin. And when he looks so vulnerable like that, reaching to hold her hand while delirious, she just can't help but want to cradle him in her arms until he's alright again.

I honestly believe such an event would help Annie open up to accepting her capacity to actually save someone as opposed to killing them. As much as it's an act of service, it's also incredibly fulfilling for the self, and it goes without saying that it's tenfold for a loved one. In giving Armin care and affection, she also draws from it the knowledge that she's soft, she's tender, she can wipe his sweat and change his sheets, all of it without hurting. All this not out of her need to be perfect and execute things like the father's daughter she was raised to be, but simply because this is love.

For Armin, then, being taken care of would be a kind of acceptance on his part, to receive. He's good at giving, not so good at accepting, because of his belief that's he's not deserving, among a wealth of other things. Sometimes it's being helped up, wiped down, and fed when you're too weak to hold the spoon, that says "Yes, please help me" the best. Knowing she loves him will help him understand that she doesn't see it as an obligation or duty, but rather does it because she cares for him so much deeper than shows on the surface. It tells him he's valuable, priceless, irreplaceable, all for more than just what he's good for.

Because "Let me take care of you," and "Yes, please take care of me" are just other ways to say "I love you."

[obey-me-disaster]

Could you maybe write some headcanons for how the demon brothers would feel about an MC who has a service dog for anxiety?

If you don't feel like writing it or it's too difficult that's completely okay too don't worry.

(I'm a service dog user myself so I just thought it would be nice.)

I hope you'll like these headcanons and that I got everything right! If there is anything I need to correct let me know.

Also sorry for taking so long, I needed to be finished with a fic for a collab first!

Demon brothers x gn!MC

Warning: Belphegor's part has spoilers for lesson 16!

MC with a service dog for anxiety

Lucifer

Since he is one of the people in charge of the exchange program he made sure to also prepare everything for your dog. Anything from food to all the way to paperwork so you two can go anywhere without being disturbed.

He is a dog person so he got a soft spot for your emotional support dog. The dog is probably more spoiled than you, at least until he starts to actually like you.

Since you are in need of your dog he won't bother it. He knows the dog has its job to do.

Is honestly relieved that you got someone other than his brothers to rely on, especially that being dragged to a different dimeons is not good for your mental health.

Mammon

So not only does he need to take care of a human, but he needs to take care of their dog too now??

Before actually realizing that your dog is more than a simple pet he wanted to include it in one of his money making schemes. After you and Lucifer tell him off he actually gets it and backs off

He does a 180° with his attitude and is really glad that there is someone to be near you when he can't be there to protect you. Lowkey he and the dog have some kind of nonverbal agreement on how to help you with your anxiety.

Tries to spoil the dog and buy luxury items for it. You'll have to let him know what could distract your service dog or not. He honestly gets everything really fast.

Leviathan

Jealous that he can't take Henry with him the way you can do with your service dog...and looking at him he might need some service/therapy/emotional support animal outside of his fish.

He knows how bad anxiety can be, so he is both greatfull that you got some support and a bit jealous because of it too.

He is really chill with the dog, he even made a small spot where it can relax when you stay in his room.

He once saw Henry trying to get your service dog's attention and took it as a sign that both of your guy's friendship/relationship is made to last for a long time.

Tries to find animes where the protagonist has a service dog for anxiety so you could relate to more chatacters

Satan

He has only read about service/therapy/emotional supports animals so he was really curious of seeing one in real life.

Be prepared to be asked a ton of questions about your dog's training, routine, how it helps you manage your anxiety. He sees it as a way to both get to know you better and to learn something new.

Might use the way your service dog helps to convince Lucifer to let him get an emotional support cat for his anger. Lucifer, of course, denies his request.

Just because he is a cat person it doesn't mean he doesn't love other animals as well. He knew that service dogs go through some training to be able to adapt to different situation, but being dragged to hell might go out of what any service animal is prepared for. He will go out of his way to give him a bit of training and some protection spells.

Asmodeus

He adores dogs. He had to be told that service animals are not the same thing as pets, so he can't go around playing and dressing up the poor dog.

He will pout about it for a bit before getting over it but that just means he can focus in spoiling you even more.

Lowkey educates the Devildom by accident about service animals due to how many Devilgram posts he makes about you and your dog.

A/N: ok but there is one event where Solomon talked with a fish and apparently the god damn fish had better working conditions than humans...so yeah, I guess animals are really treated with respect down there.

He will make sure that your service dog always look at its best. His resoning? Seeing him be so cute and soft will help you with your anxiety. He does make sure to not really separate it from you.

Beelzebub

He was watched very closely at the begging by his brothers, so he wouldn't try to eat you or your dog. It didn't take long for things to settle and for him to start liking your service dog. Especially that he likes dogs.

He might or might not have tried some of your service dog's food...he felt really sorry and went to buy any and all snacks he could find. MC would probably have to remind him what their dog can and can't eat.

He sees the dog as part of the family and takes it upon himself to make sure that both you and your service dog are safe and sound.

If, by some chance, you have to be away from their service dog Beel will be the first one to volunteer to take care of him.

Belphegor

How the fuck did both you and your service dog sneak into the attic, more times than once?? The poor animal is acting uneasy the first time it sees Belphie.

Imagine if you decide to sneak into the attic alone for your visits and leave your service dog behind. Those would be the times when the dog is on high alert.

OK BUT imagine lesson 16. One moment the dog is with you and the other the dog is trying to understand how you suddenly got hurt and die...

If after the incident your anxiety gets worse, your service dog would put himself between you and Belphegor to try and distract you/put you at ease.

Outside of all the angst, Belphie is pretty chill with the dog. If he wants to cuddle with you he will even welcome your service dog in the cuddle pile. He is honestly relieved that you got some support system, especially after the whole lesson 16 affair..

Also a dog person, so he will be very fond of your service dog.

[normal-with-adhd-is-a-joke]

If you are a "disability advocate" be normal about emotional support animals. I am not asking. Do it.

The only time I ever see ESAs brought up by non-handlers in disability circles is to complain about them. Mainly, to complain about people who bring them into public spaces. This is fine, they're not supposed to be in public and it does cause issues for service animal handlers, but the problem is when the criticism extends to criticizing the concept of ESAs, which happens quite often. I've recently seen more disabled people and allies advocate for more restrictions on ESAs, or for them to stop being protected altogether, and I need to emphasize that this is an incredibly dangerous, ableist stance.

First and foremost, ESAs are a real thing in the U.S. If you're from outside the U.S. feel free to chime in about how they work where you're from, but I'm from the U.S. so I can only offer my experience. ESAs are recognized by the federal government under the Fair Housing Act (FHA). The category that includes service animals and ESAs is called "assistance animals".

ESAs are not legally pets. They have fewer rights than service animals, but they have more rights than pets. ESAs are not subject to "no pet" rules in housing, nor are they subject to pet fees or pet security deposits. They are also generally exempt from breed and animal type restrictions. The law has some caveats about this like not causing undue financial stress to the housing provider or damage to the property. These rules also exist for physical accessibility (i.e. wheelchair accessibility), they're generally to protect against significant damage or alterations to the property without the permission of the housing provider. If the presence of an animal doesn't cause a health and safety risk, doesn't cause excessive damage to the property, and is necessary to afford a disabled person equal use of the property, then landlords and other housing organizations pretty much have to act like the ESA isn't there.

ESAs can be any animal. Most are dogs or cats but birds, rodents, snakes, pretty much any animal that's legal to own can be an ESA. Of course, just because it's legal doesn't mean it's ethical. Unfortunately, sometimes animals that can't reasonably be kept in a home by a private keeper, like primates and alligators, are claimed as ESAs. This is an obvious abuse of the system but it's difficult to prevent without harming legitimate handlers. In my opinion, focusing on tighter restrictions and more bans for exotic pets would do more for animal welfare than focusing on being weird about ESAs.

One of the common statements I see non-handlers make about ESAs is that they're just pets and don't serve any special purpose. This isn't the case. ESAs must help with at least one effect of a person's disability in order to qualify as an ESA. One of the main purposes of ESAs is suicide prevention. Keeping up spirits can be very difficult for people with mental and physical illnesses, we might sometimes feel that we're not contributing anything to the world, that things would be better off without us, or that the distress we experience isn't worth pushing through. Having an animal that relies on you gives a sense of importance and responsibility. If you die, your ESA will have to adjust to a new environment and go through the stress of change. There's also a possibility that they could be alone without care if no one realizes you're gone, which unfortunately does happen with people who live alone sometimes. ESAs also motivate us to care for ourselves. Many severely mentally ill people, as well as many physically disabled people, struggle to motivate ourselves to get out of bed and live life. It can be easier to do nothing than to deal with the pain and fatigue associated with moving around, even if our health suffers as a result. Caring for an animal requires us to get up and move around our living space, sometimes doing things for ourselves in the process. ESAs can also help encourage us to take medications, stay off of addictive substances, go to doctor's appointments, and do other things to stay healthy in order to be able to continue caring for our ESAs. Basically that Simpsons "do it for her" meme.

ESAs are disability aids. They're important. They keep disabled people alive and healthy. Questioning their right to legal protection is ableism.

[ddollfface]

Hi, can you please do headcanons for kaiou retsu? If you want to...

𝐀 𝐌𝐢𝐬𝐠𝐮𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐝 𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐢𝐚

𝙆𝙖𝙞𝙤𝙝 𝙍𝙚𝙩𝙨𝙪 𝙔𝙖𝙣𝙙𝙚𝙧𝙚 𝙃𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙘𝙖𝙣𝙤𝙣𝙨

Warnings; bad writing, really ooc, not proofread stalking, me rambling, manipulation, pretty short, I'm 90% sure that this isn't really yandere, but whatever. If I missed anything, then please let me know ♡ Pssh, what kind of question is that? Of course, I want to write for Retsu! I'm just really happy that someone requested something from baki... Anyway, I hope you enjoy! If you have any questions/suggestions, then feel free to ask!!

I find Retsu to be a very, very intriguing character, seeing as he's had so much development throughout the series. Not only that but when you look just at his past, you'll find that he's adapted and changed so much from his younger years. Restu has multiple different layers to his character, as most Baki men do, but I find that there are a lot of contradictions in his personality, which I'll get into why I think that is. But let's start from what we know because we have to establish what kind of man Restu is before we decide what kind of yandere he is (I also just like to talk lol).

We don't know too much about Restu's past, but we do know that he grew up in the temple, with no mention of any parents. I like to think that his mama (or both parents) just left him at the temple for whatever reason, the possibilities are truly endless. It doesn't matter too much, as Retsu's never shown to care too much for discussing his unknown parents, seeing as he holds his sensei/s in high regard.

I like to think that Retsu considers the martial arts his family; what comforts him when he's distraught or doesn't know what to do. Not having a family, someone to rely on, can cause a person's mental health to be warped. And that's why we always substitute it for something else, whether it be a father/mother figure, a sport, a job, or a lover. Whatever it is, we use it as a substitution for the emotional stability parents are supposed to give us (not saying that they always do).

And this is why I hypothesize that the martial arts is Retsu's substitution. He was conditioned to rely on it, to think of it as a way of life. Therefore, he doesn't rely on other people for emotional support, instead, turning to martial arts to lead the way, y'know?

Martial arts have consumed his life, taking control of his mind, and everyday activities. There's never a moment in the day where he isn't either actively practicing or thinking of it. There's nothing else he can think about, seeing as he was raised to; it's ingrained in his psyche.

This leads to a dead social life. Unless they're fellow fighters or some type of service worker, Retsu doesn't go out often and doesn't enjoy the company of others. This is partially because I think he's more of an introvert or never at places where he can make many friends. Don't get me wrong, he has allies, (After all, we can't forget when Shibukawa punched Musashi for Retsu), but do they do "friend things," y'know? I don't think they just hang out together or things of that nature.

And don't even get me started on Retsu with women, god. You can't convince me that he'd be a flustered mess if a woman ever took interest in him. It's not like he's some shy babygirl-type character, hell no, he's a badass, but he doesn't interact with women, growing up in a temple surely didn't help.

There likely weren't any women at the temple, unless they were there to clean or something (don't @ me, I have no clue), meaning there's no experience there. He's a fighter. Let's be honest, not many women are actively interacting with the fighters. Sure, they'll attend the fights and crap, but I don't think that it's often the fighters are being approached unless they're in a club or bar. Which I don't think Retsu is doing.

Now going back to the original point, Retsu is unbearable with women (if they're flirting). I don't think Retsu can't speak to them. He just can't flirt. He doesn't know how to handle romantic interest from a woman. If you were to hold his hand, kiss his cheek, or touch him in any way. His face would flush, and his eyes would widen. If you were to compliment him, I'd imagine him bowing or trying to maintain respect for you.

I can't really imagine too many ways you'd meet Restu, but it'd probably be with him swooping into your rescue (figuratively or literally). It could be that you were getting harassed, and he escorted you out of the situation, or you could've been struggling with picking something up (like groceries, a box, or something similar). I can even see that you're his new neighbor, and you bring him some food to introduce yourself (I like this idea the most, so we're going to roll with this one).

Assuming you meet Retsu through being his neighbor, you'll be able to grow a more organic relationship, seeing as you two see each other every day. I like to imagine that you'd bring him some sweets or something to introduce yourself, and Retsu will quickly rebut it by inviting you over for dinner, as a way to show his gratitude for the gift.

From there, you're relationship will subtly grow more and more, advancing from neighbors to close friends. You'll begin to notice that you're feeling eyes on you like someone is watching you. It's as if Retsu's always there now, somehow knowing where you are. He'll begin to show up at your local grocery store, but you'll brush it off. After all, you're neighbors, of course, you'll both attend the same stores! But then you'll see him at your work, subtly passing by right as your shift ends, stopping you to chat and walk you home. It's a little odd, you think, but Retsu's so considerate! He just wants to ensure your safety! There's nothing to worry about.

I think that Retsu will quickly realize that he's growing an attachment to you, as I think that he's the most emotionally aware man in the series. He knows that he became a little too attached, a little too paranoid over your being. But Retsu would rationalize it by telling himself that he's taking care of you, watching out for you, you, you.

He'll always be there for you. Whatever you need is did and done. You need someone to walk you home 'cause you're too scared to go alone, don't worry Retsu can do that for you, no problem. You're sick and need someone to take care of you? Pssh, not even a question. Retsu doesn't mind; he'll even bring over some herbal tea from his motherland. Oh, and don't even think about opening a door for yourself, nope. Don't worry, Retsu's there. He's such a gentleman, always there for you, conveniently knowing where you are at all times.

You have to understand that there are a lot of people who are out for Retsu, and by proxy, you. Retsu has to make sure you're safe and sound. No one can lay a finger on you, so just stay where he can see you, yeah? He'd never do anything to hurt you. He's always had your best interest in mind, making sure you're well-fed, properly clean, and having the attention you need, so just trust him, okay?

Don't mind him cutting all of your friends out of your life. They were just too toxic, leaving you out of everything, talking behind your back, so you should just let them go. And for your family? Well, they've been manipulating you into thinking that they want what's good for you, but you just don't realize how harmful they've been to you, don't you? It's okay, Retsu will help you. He can see how horrible they are.

Little do you know, this whole time Retsu has been threatening, cutting off, and hoarding you all for himself. He can't trust anyone with your safety. For all he knows, they could harm you, could take you away from him. He can't let them do that; he cares for you too much. You understand, surely, he's just looking out for you, so just turn the other way and do as he says.

Don't worry, he's going to handle everything.

[cutiesncantrips]

Alright, I kinda have an AITA post but like... I don't want to use Reddit, so I'm gonna post it here because fuck it, I'm running out of fucks to give. Strap in if you care, it's a ramble.

So long story short: I live in a hoarder house. It's basically exactly what you picture, filth everywhere, there's too much stuff laying around not being used.

Basically it's been getting this way over the last several years, well before Covid started, for a number of reasons; we've taken in a couple people who weren't exactly neat people themselves, we've taken in some animals we weren't able to keep up with, and basically we were overloaded with boxes from our old house (also a hoarding den) that we weren't ready to deal with since we were more freshly moved in.

Now the big reasons we haven't dealt with it are namely that I'm of course mentally ill (we're getting some testing done within the next month to get it properly figured out, but I suspect things like ADHD, OCD, and I've definitely had depression for many years), my mom has severe chronic pain and mobility issues, and both her and my brother (the other two people I live with) likely have some mental issues of their own, but they aren't currently seeking help for it as far as I'm aware.

Basically my issue is we are the ones who let it get this bad, and I'm not entirely convinced we're capable of getting this health hazard of a house sorted out, let alone doing it safely and within a reasonable time frame. Now I wasn't aware until this year that there were actually some services in our city we could call for exactly this problem, people who can come in and help us clean (at no cost, to my understanding). But both my mom and brother adamantly refuse to allow that option.

And I also feel it's important to mention: we still have a dog who is very neglected. She lives in a sectioned off area of the house (a central room, meaning I'm unable to walk across the house or access the kitchen at all) surrounded by her own filth. This is the remaining dog, we formerly had 3 dogs in that room, and two cats. I have tried telling my mom we needed to give these animals away, and again have been told no, and within the last year the other animals have all passed away, never getting moved into proper homes who could keep up with their needs.

So really, do I sound like I'm the one in the wrong wanting to call in help? It's not like I have my own independent income, let alone enough to move out, nor do I have any friends in the area I can move in with. And even if I got myself out, I can't excuse the animal abuse. What should I do here?

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Just a little too tight, ft.! Jay Hong (Lookism)

'Genre: smut/lemon🍋 Slight warning: penetration, oral sex (female receiving) squirting!/cum shot!/unprotected sex! public sex! virginity lost! (with consent, bleeding). (mentions of slang terms of male and female genitalia). CHARACTERS ARE AGED UP! (reader is female). summary: Being a shy person, you're not very social with new and unfamiliar people. (well at least sometimes you're trying to). Unexpectedly, you and the "Prince of Fashion Department" became close friends and study buddies. Asking Jay for help for your assignment, you both went to a boutique store and guess what happens next ;).

Ever since you've transferred to J High, you're happy-go-lucky persona have turned into a closed shell. You're used to hanging out with your most-trusted friends a lot of the time. So when your parent/s have to move out of town because of their business, you're also need to move with them. You protest a lot that you can take care of yourself but since your family often worry a lot when it comes to your safety and they would treat you like a baby and even spoil you a lot. But despite of some issues affecting your daily life, you're actually grown and matured into a responsible child (well at least most of the time). You have a good social life and made some friends and you're a good student in terms of academics and values. Even though for some people this can be an example of a "perfect life", you still can't help but to feel lonely because of your strict parents forcing you to shape and mold this "good girl persona" out of you. You always think of getting a break and unleash your "inner animal" out of you and go wild sometimes like drinking and getting wasted on a local bar or you trying to get a date. So moving into a new city have really affected your mental health and triggered your anxiety in making new friends.

It was 6 am when your alarm started ringing, your warm and comfy sleep getting disturbed. While you ignore the loud noise on your phone, you tried to go back to napping but your realization that it's the first day of high school and the sound of the unstopping alarm made you pissed off before grabbing your device and turning it off. You stayed in your bed for a while contemplating your thoughts on how things will flow, hoping that it won't turn bad as it seemed. You groaned and slowly got up on your bed and preparing yourself on your first day of school.

You got out of your house wearing the traditional J-High uniform while your hair is combed properly and carried some of your extra notebooks on your hands. You waited outside for your personal service and after a few minutes, a familiar f/c car drove into your street before stopping on your gate. "Ready Ms. Y/N?" your personal driver greeted you with a warm smile before returning his sweet gesture and smiling back at him, telling him that you're ready well obviously you're lying.

You got inside of your car, tidied up your skirt and placed your personal belongings gently on the extra space on the comfortable seats before closing the door. You remained silent for the rest of the car ride and you kept your focus on the window, admiring the buildings and the trees that the car passed by while the sun shine brightly in the sky. After for a few minutes, your driver tried to initiate the conversation. "Are you feeling well Ms. Y/N?" he humbly asked as you looked at him while he was focused driving, "I don't really know. It's really weird to be attending into a new school." your pessimist thinking started showing and your driver took noticed of this, chuckling lightly at your statement. Not intending to make fun of you, he cleared his throat and advised that you're just feeling new about the move and you're still adjusting in the new environment that you're surrounded to. "Y'know Y/N, I promise that things will be okay for you. You're a good person and who knows, you may see your future in this big city." "Eh! C-C'mon quit it!" you immediately blushed and yelped with a slightly frustrated reaction, his eyes widened as he meant it as something on your future being positive and happy in the harsh world that we're living in, and not something about your love life. Him realizing that you took it in that understanding, he laughed more with him obviously just teasing you. "I know ma'am, I'm just trying to make you laugh." you immediately silenced and relaxed while looking back at him smiling. Well at least there's someone who can cheer you up a bit you thought.

Minutes passed and you arrived at the big, academic building. Your driver told you that he'll pick you up at the end of the school day and your parent/s texted them to look on you. You reassured him that you'll be fine and you won't cause trouble which he smiled back at you, knowing that he trusts you fully by heart more than your parent/s will ever be. You stepped out of the car, hair flowing in the wind while inhaling and exhaling deeply. Hoping that this school year won't be bad as you initially thought. Walking in the building, you see lots of unfamiliar faces. They would look at you and gossip how good looking you are. You being really uncomfortable with the unwanted attention, you rushed deep inside the building not knowing where you are going. Not focusing on the hallway, you bumped into someone tall, muscular and a pale skinned boy making you winced in pain as your carried notebooks fell on your hands. New school, new life they said.

"Ah! So-Sorry! I didn't mean to-" you tried to apologized before the raven-haired boy apologized too and bending down and helping you picked up your notebooks. He introduced himself as Daniel Park as you tell him your name too. "Fashion Department too?" he asked while giving you your notebooks which you gladly accepted and answered politely that you're also in the same class as him. You asked if he knows the way to your classroom but as a transfer student too, he's also not familiar with the building structure as you apologized for the inconvenience as he shook his hands reassuring you that it's alright for you to ask him even if he doesn't know how to answer your concerns (which he thought he hoped he would). You and Daniel remained chatting before being approached by a man looking like his early 40's approaching both of you if you are the new students for the Fashion Dept. and replying yes with a positive reaction. The teacher took noticed of this and greeted both of you with a gentle smile, mostly hyping up Daniel for his "good-looks" but he can't blame his self though. Daniel looked like those K-Pop stars on the television and dramas and you see him as a pleasant person to interact.

Making your way into the class, the teacher introduced you and Daniel in the class. Girls have hearts on their eyes seeing the angelic features of Danny and boys drooling at the sight of you making you and Daniel slightly uncomfortable yet feeling appreciated. Daniel initiated that you start your introduction first. Not wanting to argue and disappoint him, you cleared your throat as sweat tickled down your face and introduced yourself. "I-I'm L/N Y/N nice to meet you guys". You tried to cheer up the weird atmosphere lingering as more girls whispered and complimented your "beautiful features" and the guys in the back already planning to ask you out for a date. Most people in the room commented about you except for the two boys who didn't deal much about it. At the back, a black-haired male with fixed hair just scoffed and looked outside the window, murmuring underneath his breath that Mira or someone which you didn't know looks so much better than you. You cringed at his remark, not because you're offended but mostly because it's the first day of school and you already felt that there are definitely some people who will be hard to deal with. But the one that stood out to you the most is a blonde boy whose hair covers his eyes, only showing his nose and rosy lips. He was staring at you (if he even got eyes) until both of you finally exchanged eye contact which shocked your senses. This remained for a few second before he finally broke the weird "staring contest" and him staring at the clean and clear window, not saying anything about it. You felt yourself blushing and focused on the mysterious male that you didn't realized that Daniel's finally done speaking and the girls' loud squealing didn't bother your eardrums until the teacher told both of you to sit down on your perspective seats. Snapping at your own thoughts, you were signed to sit with the blondy himself which made you surprised and thinking on what a coincidence this is. Daniel is now seatmates with the male with some gel on his hair. You can see the handsome male gulping harshly and being extremely nervous. Does he and the other guy have some beef? You shook your head not trying to get on anyone's business before approaching your chair as the blond boy stared at you more. You returned the attention at the male with a cheeky smile on your lips, obviously you trying to ease the tension between both of you. "Hi I'm Y/N nice to meet you." You happily greeted your seatmate but what's weird is that he doesn't talk (literally). Instead he looks at you with a slight confusion on his face before looking back at the window which leaves you wondering on what's his deal and why he's acting like that. Is he really that shy that even a single hello won't leave on his mouth? "Jay is just like that newbie. He doesn't really talk so get used to it" a boy replied to you while fixing his rimmed glasses. "Oh, I see" you replied back with a hint of disappointment in your voice before sinking back to your thoughts and sitting on the wooden chair. "So his name his Jay huh? What a really quiet guy." You thought at the back of your mind as you turned your attention back in class, trying to understand the lesson while Jay resting his hand on his face just stares at the beautiful scenery of leaves falling out of the big trees on a warm sunny day.

Hours passed and the bell rang loudly signaling that it's time for lunch. Before getting up, you are approached by a female with a thick amount of make-up on her face while wearing a big smile on her face. "Hi! I'm Zoe, wanna hang out in the canteen?" she asked with an energetic mood and you not wanting to be rude, you gladly and nervously accepted her offer. You and Zoe made your way to the canteen and oh boy, it's a whole big mess. There's bullies who beat the hell out of the guy and ordered the "ugly-ones" to get their food instead of doing it themselves. Which Zoe warned that you should never enter their territory and break the commotion or else "you'll get the taste of your own medicine". While she introduced the others to you when you're both in line for getting your lunch like Zack Lee who's the "professional boxer", Vin Jin and his little minions being one of the most notorious bullies at school and many more students with their "outstanding" personalities, one of them stood out to you the most and you can't help to ask her about Jay. Ever since you stepped your feet in that classroom, everybody fawned over you except him who just stared at you and him not starting any conversation bothered you a bit and making you also curious about him. It's not that you want to force yourself into others who's also uncomfortable with attention and cross that boundary called privacy, but you guess that his closeted personality is what makes you interested in him.

"Oh, Jae-Yol? oppa? Whew, he's a really hard guy to get in touch with". she stated looking a bit disappointed since she couldn't really ask for his number once while picking some tteokboki and placing it on her tray. "Why is it so?" you asked while getting some rice for your tray too while slightly looking at her concerned. "He is a really, I mean REALLY quiet guy. His looks are wasted for nothing if he would never interact with a girl even once! And besides you never get to see his eyes. I also heard that he's a child of a rich person so... It's a win! But he just y'know, he just never opens his mouth". she remarked while getting more food as you did the same, processing your thoughts on about what she gave some information to you. You're debating on the back of your mind if he might have family issues or social problems making him the way he is or if he's just really like that. "Is he really like that?" you asked curiously before Zoe answered your question. " Yeah. He's so hard to catch on" she paused for a second before talking to you again. Oh~~~ you like him right?!" she teased before you look back at her with a tint of red on your cheeks. "What! Hell no! It's the first day of school and why would I get a crush on a guy that fast!" you defended yourself while she still teased you like saying that she can get his number for you which you hissed back at her saying that you don't need it making her laugh while you're getting red like a tomato. As you bicker with the girl, you didn't even noticed that there's a familiar blonde head that's listening to your conversation just a little miles away while eating his lunch.

After a whole boring hours of fashion history and measurements which doesn't make a lots of sense to you, you're all dismissed and it's time to go home. And despite being the first day, there are already some homework that are assigned to you that are required to finish it the next day. You sighed in disappointment knowing that you can feel your burnout from the stress that you're feeling right now. As everybody gets and lifts up their backpacks, you remained in your seat leaning down on your study table, head down on the wooden surface with your pen and paper right all over your face before you felt a tap on your shoulder. You groaned as you looked up at someone who's offering you something. You saw a familiar face. Jay was just offering you a pack of tissue. "Oh. Hi, but what are those for?" you curiously asked him even though you know that he won't answer your question verbally. He pointed on his head and traced it down to his face, you find it really hot that he did that, not comprehending on what he's trying to say. You realized that he's trying to tell you that you're sweating. Looking shocked on what you thought about instead of paying attention, you shook your head and looked back at your homework which is a bit stained from your liquids as you get flustered violently. How the hell did you just embarrassed yourself to him. Not looking back at Jay, you picked some pieces of tissue with shaky hands and thanking him for it but he still hands you the whole pack. Him hinting that it's okay for you to take all of it. "Wait, you're giving it all to me?" he nods slowly as you gently get it from his hands. Yours making contact with his as you feel the sexual tension rising from the both of you. You quickly let go of his hands as you thanked him again for the tissue and he just rubbed his neck, you slowly glimpsing that he has a small smile forming on his lips. He's probably not bad as you seemed he is at first. You fixed your stuff and as you were going to exit the classroom, he held your hand as he was trying to say something. "What's the matter?" you shyly asked before he got his phone on his pocket and typed something on his notepad app. After for a few minutes trying to find his words (no pun intended), he finally showed you on what's written on his phone. You leaning in, you read the words out loud saying the following. "I can help you with the homework". Your eyes widened as you thought that he's also an observative person as he quickly noticed you getting troubled in the assignment. "Sure! You wanna meet up in my house?" You asked him curiously hoping that he would accept your request and he nods again in approval as you smiled brightly and exchanged contact numbers and thanked him for the offer to help as you walk out of the room with him (you really need that number though, so denial at first huh?).

And that's how you and Jay became study buddies and friends. Months passed by, whenever there are quizzes, activities, and exams coming you and Jay and sometimes Daniel including his friends Jiho and Duke will be meeting at a special place like a cafe or even in your house for studying and hoping all of you will pass. Most of your classmates were shocked that Jay is finally socializing at least with someone like you and Daniel and the fact that you can understand him even when he's not saying anything. Jay mostly shows this soft side with the two of you. But what's the most obvious change in Jay is that he's finally have a courage to talk to a girl which makes your classmates laugh out loud that even your classmates shipped you and him. But you're embarrassed by this, you reassuring that you and him are just friends making your classmates raise their eyebrows. But really? he treats you snacks and lunch every single day even if you have your own allowance, he takes you out on random days (just the two of you), and always spend time in you even with no reasons or even if it's not the time for you to have a study session. You thought Zoe and the other girls were "delusional" for thinking that he likes you in that way and you should ask him out for a proper date. But since you're afraid of rejection, you won't make the first move to confess your real feelings for him.

Months to years passed by, there are many dramas happening in your school, student fights with more homework piling, and also your relationship with Jay slowly processed and bloomed like a flower. You and Jay get to know each other. On what's your favorite color, your favorite food, yet alone each others' birthday and celebrate it with your other peers each year. Your happy that you have a "friend" on your side. But as more time you spend with each other, the more your feelings for him developed. You found out about each others weaknesses and you didn't judge each other about it. As much you want to confess to him, your insecurities get in the way and the fear of rejection and loosing a friend gets in your way on voicing out on how you really feel about him. You went from the shy freshman student from a senior now graduating. Your homework gets a little bit challenging particularly this specific assignment about dressing semi-formally for the prom that will be organized by the Architecture Department. Your task is just simple yet you all need to be creative. While the Baking Department was to prepare the sweets and other food, the Vocal and Dance Department is to prepare the special performances and handle the audio system, and the Beauty Department is to fix the guests make-up, you and you're classmates task is to organize the dress code for the other guests to follow to. All of you should buy clothes or make a slideshow of some dresses, tuxes and other accessories and make a presentation to the teacher before he approves it for the event. Instead of making a slideshow since you have lots of money, you decided to buy some clothes for the activity. You also planned to style it up a bit but since you're not confident about your fashion taste, you decided to ask some help from the "Prince of the Fashion Department", Jay himself. You texted him if he can help you with it and he quickly replied saying where can you both meet up. You decided to ask him if you can shop with him in this new boutique store in the city at the new mall which he gladly agreed to.

It's 2pm and you made your way to the mall in your car. "I'll pick you up at 5:30." your driver reminded you. "Please pick me up at 6:30, if that's fine." You humbly requested with closed hands as he sighs deeply. "Y'know your parents are strict especially when it comes to your curfews right?" he gently replied as you had that "puppy eyes", begging him to give you more extra time. Sighing once again, he agrees to your request. "6:30 it is. No extensions." "No extensions" you replied back as he smiled. You got out of the car shutting the car door gently as your driver rolled down the car window. "Enjoy." he replied once again as he rolled up his car windows and drove away. Watching the f/c move away slowly getting out of your sight. "Where is Jay now? He said he's on his way now". you thought to yourself as you feel getting impatient as you wait for him, you sure are so excited to see him. Minutes passed as a familiar car made it's way on the entrance as it's stop right in front of you. A familiar blonde head got out of the car wearing a white Gucci t-shirt and dark blue pants with a smile on his fair and smooth face as you waved back at him acknowledging his presence. An old man also advised your friend to take care of himself before driving off. Being stuck in that familiar and slightly weird atmosphere lingering between you which happens all the time, you decided to break the silence as always. "You wanna come in that new fast food chain? I heard their food tastes so good". You asked him out and he nodded in agreement as you heard his stomach grumble as a sign he didn't take his lunch at home before going outside, making you chuckle at the cute action as he blushed violently.

You spend some time eating in random food stops at the mall and walking around for a bit, admiring the new shops and products that are now open to shop on. After getting some rest for a while, you and Jay now went on the department store to shop on some jewelries as you also suggested if chokers can be paired with dresses with he kind of agreed with (he probably means that it depends on the style of the dress) as he did the same looking for good pair of earrings for his self probably. Hours passed on spending your money on food and on your assignment that you didn't keep track of the time passing by. "Oh wait, It's almost 6! We gotta pick some clothes first 'cause my service will be downstairs at 6:30". You explained to the blonde male nodding once again as he understands that your parents are really strict when it comes to hang outs especially in public places like this (you talked about some certain part of your life to him opening up on your insecurities about yourself when you have study sessions at each others house/apartment which he comforts you for since he understand how you feel).

Both of you went inside on the newly opened boutique store. The store has a really warm and cozy atmosphere with the yellow lights that lighten up the place. The shelves were made of fresh wood and is filed with lots of beautiful designer-bags. The place was also filled with the craft of the creative, various and complex designs of dresses, skirts, blouses and other form of clothing you can name. "Wow it looks so pretty here!" you remarked as you feel being free for the first time, your eyes shining like the little stars in the nighttime as your cheeks flushed deep pink like a newly bloomed rose. Jay smiled on your reaction thinking it was really cute and it's the first time that he saw you really happy and satisfied. Shopping with your parent/s is definitely not fun as they always pick the clothes for you instead of you choosing instead from the different options of clothes that you have to pick.

You continued to look around for clothes feeling amazed as Jay followed you and stayed on your side before being approached by a sales lady wearing her cream colored uniform and her hair tied in a bun. "Hello ma'am, how can I help you?" she asked politely with a smile plastered on her bright red lips before you turned to look at her and blushed a bit, thinking your amusement is childish. "Um-Hi. I just wondered if you have both clothing for men and women?" you asked shyly as she asked back if it's a pairing of tuxes and dresses for you and Jay attending a wedding lmao. "Oh, no no no! just uh- it's just for a event on our school that will be held next week." you shook your hands as you assured her. "Oh I see, my apologies. Is it for a prom? formal or semi formal?" she asked curiously as you answered her politely that the dress code will be semi-formal as Jay stood silently at your side trying to understand your conversation with the lady. The female lead both of you to the semi-formal section as your eyes sparkled more as you went through to look for the clothes that you thought suits you the best as Jay did the same. You selected some dresses with Jay helping you on what he personally thinks suits you the best before going on the fitting room as Jay did the same but in a different cubicle. Minutes passed as Jay is done fitting all the clothes he picked, all of the tuxes, pants and suits him perfectly (as it should). He got out of the other fitting room as he was approached by the sales lady if he can pay for the clothes now, which he shook his hand in disagreement as he waits for you to get finished. As more minutes passed, he remained waiting for you until he knocked on the cubicle door that you're in which make you yelp in surprise.

"Oh-Jay is that you?" you asked as he didn't respond verbally which always happen. You're glad that there's a space on the bottom of the door which you can look down as you see a familiar white sneakers on the floor as you sighed that it's really is Jay and not some random creep. "Jay can you help me? I think this dress is too tight." you explained to him as you approached the door knob and unlocked it and opened the door and you see the familiar blondie. He looked shocked to see what you're wearing. A black spaghetti strap dress which perfectly wraps around your body size, exposing your tits and cleavage while the short length of the dress shows off your thighs and legs. Jay tries not to look on your parts while he tries not to blush at the sight, feeling warmth slowly spread against his body. "Can you help me take it off? The strap is too tight, if you mind." you innocently requested as Jay nodded harshly, trying to show courage. You have trust issues with these things with other people even with the sales lady since you're really shy about your body. But since you trust Jay, you didn't see anything perverted anything about this.

You turn you back to him as you face the cubicle with the mirror seeing you and Jay's reflection. Jay's shaky hands made its way to your shoulder straps, trying not to touch your bare skin and creep you out. His shaky hands adjusted the dress's straps as he breathe in and out gently trying not to panic, trying to think that nothing is wrong. It's completely normal and he also fixed his younger sister's clothes when she needs help, so why is he feeling nervous? You stared at each other's reflection as you wonder why Jay's face is red. Is he not feeling well? Did you made him uncomfortable?

After he fixed the straps, he quickly put his hands on his pockets. Fidgeting and playing with the pant's fabric as he quickly looked down trying not to avoid eye contact with you. You worried about Jay, you leaned on his face asking him if he's fine while brushing his hair against his eyes. This made him panic deep inside more as your braless chest is exposed all over in his face. You didn't even noticed that your face is too close against his. And that's when the most unexpected thing happened. He first wondered why you turned completely silent as your eyes keep looking down and why your cheeks were just red as a tomato like his before and as he looked down at what or where you at looking at, he noticed his "little" pet getting excited. He finally understood what is happening. You see his dick getting hard poking his denim pants. This made him terrified and embarrassed. He didn't mean to look at you that way as you unintentionally asked for help while looking sexy! "So-Sorry Jay! I didn't mean to!" You yelped covering your eyes as he quickly looked away as you did the same. Jay just wants to disappear and make his way to heaven as get away from this accident. But not being able to control his horniness at the same time, he gently grabbed your face as you see him parting his lips as he wants to say something. But him not being able to verbally express his love to you, he gently pecked your lips as you remained frozen processing what is happening until you finally understand what is going on, you decided to finally kiss him back.

"Jay, I-" you whimpered against his soft lips as he kisses you again, this time finally inserting his tongue against your mouth as both of you went inside the cubicle, him pinning you against the wall. Your tongues fought for dominance but Jay being obviously stronger than you, was able to take over you as you slowly gave in. Your tongue making contact with his as he continued to fuck your mouth make your thighs sweat and your pussy twitch. You never felt this way before neither touch yourself, Jay is the only person to make you feel this certain way that you don't understand. But none of that matters now, what matters is you felt safe around him that's why you let him kiss you. You feeling that you're loosing air, you broke the kiss as a trail of saliva formed between your warm tongues as Jay looks at you with a lustful expression. Brushing his nose against yours as if he's trying to tell you something, you asked if it's okay if you and him can kiss more, him nodding as he gave you consent. But before doing so, he noticed that the door is open. Not wanting to get caught, he made his way to close the door as he did silently and locking it. This made you blush even harder as you can feel your heart pumping louder in every beat. "Is this really happening now?" you thought to yourself but there's no turning back now. You've been hiding your feelings since the first day of school and it's the time to express to him on how much you like him. He made his way to you as you remained standing at the wall. He kept looking at your eyes (well you can feel it) as if he wants to ask you something. "Jay, it's fine. You can kiss me more." you whispered on his ear not wanting to expose yourself to the sales ladies as he locks his lips again against yours, you and him repeating the same lewd actions using your mouths. After some minutes of making out, breaking the kiss his lips slowly made his way on your neck giving it wet, pampered pecks as his hands hold your waist gently and you biting your knuckle trying to limit your noises. "Jay..." you moaned his name as his cock twitches more, wanting his dick deep inside you but he chooses to take his time with you not caring about each other's curfew. Him finding that sensitive spot that he's looking for underneath your ears making you yelp as he gently sucked on the soft skin. Him making hickies and love bites where it won't be noticeable. Your body has its own movements as you bucked your hips on his length as he gritted his teeth trying not to make any noise.

"Ha~" you moaned more as his lips moved lower reaching your cleavage as he gently kissed it. Him looking back at you for consent, you smiled as a sign that it's okay for him to take your clothes off. Him taking off the straps on your shoulders as you felt the dress fell off from your body down to the wooden floor, exposing your perky and soft tits and your f/c panties with a wet patch forming which makes Jay's cock getting more aroused. Jay continued to kiss on your cleavage before looking back at you asking for consent again for him to kiss your breasts which you smiled and telling him it's okay. Staring at your breasts again, he started to kiss on the plump skin which makes you moan and call for him name softly as he continued to plant hickies on your sensitive skin. His tongue now makes direct contact on your hard nipple as he swirls his wet muscle against your aroused bud as he squeezes your other breast which makes you cover your mouth as you moan more underneath your hand. "Jay, Ah..." you continued to call for him as Jay continued to make the same action on your other breast before making his way to your stomach leaving trails of kisses on your body before facing your most delicate area. Looking back at you again he asks for consent as you approved for his request to pleasure you. Jay pulled down your underwear letting it fall down your legs, you sighing as the cold air made contact with your wet pussy. You're blushing about the fact that your first time is going to happen on a public place. Topics about sex enough is alone to make you flustered, yet alone doing the act especially with someone who you really trust. You were lost on your own thoughts that you almost moaned so loud when Jay's tongue finally made contact on your vulva. "Oh! Jay~" you whined as he licked a stripe on your slick tasting your sweet liquids forming on your private area. Jay continued to give kitty licks on your pussy as you continued to moan for his name before hearing a knock on the door.

"Ma'am are you alright there? do you need help?" you heard a familiar and sweet voice coming from the outside. "Oh-Uh-No! I-I'm alright here." you nervously replied hoping that she won't look down and notice the two set of feet on the same cubicle and get caught having sex. "Are u sure Ma'am?" "Ye-Yeah! I'll be there." You replied back hoping that she would go away and luckily she did. Waiting for the sales lady to be far enough from the dressing room, sighing you and Jay both smiled thinking both of you were lucky for not getting caught doing the deed. "I'll be more quiet. I'm sorry." you shyly apologized with Jay shook his head in disapproving signing that it's alright. Going back to action, he continued to lick and slurp on your cunt which makes your eyes roll back at the back of head getting lost from the feeling of warmness and pleasure just from his tongue. The blonde started sucking on your swollen clit making your eyes widen from the stimulation. Covering your mouth from making more suspicious noise. Jay continued eating you out like a hungry wolf who hadn't got his meal for years. The blonde continued to repeat the same motions over and over, his tongue would swipe and lick your entrance teasing you more and coming back to your clit just to suck it making you want to moan louder as you hoped that no one will hear you. Jay did this for minutes making you see dancing stars before you felt his tongue entered inside you. "Hmph!" you moaned while covering your mouth as his wet muscle make contact with your tight walls. Jay continued to suck on your entrance as his tongue flickered and tickled your insides. His tongue continued to make swirls and circles and as he kept sucking and licking you outside and inside. You felt a weird feeling building on your stomach as Jay continued to eat you out. "Ja-Jay I-I think I'm gonna- Oh!" you called for him again as he felt your insides squeeze his tongue and felt liquids coming out from your hole. He continued to fuck you with his mouth as you experienced your first ever orgasm. As you finished cumming, he pulled out his tongue from your pussy as he tasted your liquids dripping out of your hole.

Him getting up with glossy and wet face, he pulled you for another kiss as you taste yourself from his mouth. You continued to make out as you unbuttoned his pants, him not flinching is a sign that it's okay for you to undress him letting his pants fall on the floor and removing his boxers next. Breaking the kiss, Jay's veiny cock started poking your sensitive clit hinting if he can take your virginity and be inside you. "Do you want to do it?" you nervously asked him as he nodded while cupping your cheeks. "Just be gentle, it my fi-first." you stuttered as you began feeling nervous hoping that it won't hurt. Jay noticed your nervous reaction about this as he cupped your cheeks more and making more eye contact. It's like he's saying that both of you don't have to have sex if you're feeling uncomfortable. You reassured him that you're alright about this and you wanted your first time to be with him. He paused for a while before finally understanding that you trust him enough and whole hearted for him to be your first, he smiled at this as he gave you another peck, this time on the cheek as you chuckled as he's finally going to express on how he likes you too spoiler oops.

You positioned yourself, hands on the wall and on all fours exposing your pussy making the blondie's cock grow bigger more getting excited. Jay sighing, he pumped his cock as precum starting to build on his tip before pushing it inside you. Your senses were in shock as his thickness occupied your tight cunt, making you scrunch your face as you felt a mixture of pain and pleasure down to your core. "Jay... it hurts" you whined softly as you try to restrain your voice. You don't want to hear the sales lady you whimpering in pain, she might think that you're in trouble and need help! Jay took his attention at you're feelings as he's about to pull out, not wanting to hurt you even if it's unintentional. You felt Jay pull out his cock on your tight cunt, he watched your cunt is bleeding as your hole spill blood staining his cock. He gently grabbed your face making you face him a little bit as you see his lips form a frown. "Jay it's okay... Wait, am I bleeding?" You asked him as you see drops of red liquid stain the floor. You not wanting to stain the unbought black dress and pay more, you sighed as you kicked off the piece of clothing even if your cunt is literally feeling and screaming in pain right now as your thighs and legs shook in sync making it hard to balance yourself especially when you're standing. You guessed that Jay is too big for you.

"Jay, please put it again". you begged for him as he frowns more worried if you felt forced to do this just because he got horny from the sight of you wearing a very appealing dress. You asked him back if he wants to stop too as he shook his head. He wants to do it with you obviously, if his cock didn't got up he's obviously not going to panic that bad. He positioned his self, inhaling and exhaling deeply as he pushed his member again this time being more gentle. You sighed as you felt his cock fill up your virgin walls as he bends down to give kisses on your shoulders, comforting and distracting you from the pain and uneasiness that you're experiencing right now. Minutes passed as you finally told him that he can move slowly. He slowly trusted in and out of you. Despite the gentle force, you can feel his tip poke and hit your sweet spots as you moaned quietly feeling that familiar mixture of both of that positive and negative feeling that your pussy is receiving.

After a few moments of adjustments, Jay slowly but surely picked up the pace of his movements making you yelp and moan, not in pain this time but in pleasure. "Ja-Jay!~" you moaned trying to be silent as Jay continued to fuck your insides. Your slapping bodies continued to make that lewd noise that can be probably heard outside but neither of the staffs makes its way to ask you if you are done fitting your clothes. They probably don't give a fuck anymore as they probably know that you and Jay were doing something suspicious anyways.

"Hmph, Fu-Fuck! Ah~" you whined as his tip is now hitting your cervix over and over again making your legs shake much than before. You and Jay continued to fuck like animals in heat while lewd noises coming from your filthy mouth and the contact of his pelvis and your ass fills the cubicle. His big cock hitting your special parts makes you feel that familiar ball of heat that's about to release again. "Jay I think I'm going to- Hah Fuck!" you called for his name as you felt your release made its way out of your pussy as Jay continued to pump his dick in and out while his body starts to sweat from all the effort he's putting in just to make you cum. He felt your insides squeeze him even tighter than before as he tilt his head back, thinking to himself that this is feels so much better than fisting himself when he's thinking about you, feeling his own orgasm coming soon. Gently getting your hands that are pinned over to the wall he continued his horny puppy dog pace gripping into your hands tightly, completely making your pussy feel so good as you felt your once virgin area completely fucked by his big boner. After a few more hard core thrusts, Jay quickly pulled out of your cunt as you whined from the feeling of emptiness on your pussy and he came on your now swollen vulva and clit. Pumping more of his liquids as he achieves his mind blowing orgasm that even his own hands can't achieve when he masturbates.

You and Jay remained in your position panting for air before you face his handsome face and asked him if he's feeling well. He nodded with a smile as he tucked your hair behind your ear and giving you a sweet peck on the lips for reassurance as you did the same, returning the lovable action. You and Jay just made love.

You and Jay got cleaned up and dressed (luckily you bought packs of wipes, dependable for really important matters ;). You checked the place first before you signaled him to get out with you not realizing that there's CCTV filming you ehem, him carrying the clothes you picked for the event. You and him made your ways in the counter to pay for your stuff. The cashier noticed your blushing face and shaky legs, asking you if you felt sick but you shook your head saying that you're fine. Jay paid for your stuff even if you insisted that you can pay it yourself (this happens always). Carrying your personal belongings as your blondie helped you, you and your Jay made your ways out of the boutique and the mall at exactly in time, not caring if the CCTV filmed the whole commotion you did in the dressing room.

"That was fun." you exclaimed as you enjoyed your day being in Jay's side as he felt the same smiling back at you and leaning down to give you a proper kiss as you kissed him back. Just in time, your service made it's way to you to take you home. "Ms. Y/N." Your driver called your name as you laughed at his silly voice as Jay smiled seeing you smiling genuinely makes him happy enough and makes his day even better. "Jay are you sure that you'll wait your service here?" you asked him as he nodded and kissed your cheek in reassurance making you flustered and your service makes an "oh" reaction. Making your way into the car, Jay being a gentleman opened the door for you and helped your carry your shopping bags and other stuff. "Texts?" you asked him as he nodded once again and you tell him to take care and stay safe, waving your hand goodbye as Jay imitated you giving you farewells before your driver pulled off.

"Wow, Ms. Y/N I didn't know you got yourself a boyfriend now." he chuckled lightly at your flustered reaction, telling him that he can't tell this to your parent/s. Him not wanting to take away your trust, he reassured you that he won't spill the tea, making you smile back at him. The entire car ride was quiet before you heard a notification on your phone inside your bag. Being curious, you took your phone and opened your contact app as you see that it's just Jay. You opened and message and read it in your head. "Did you got home?" he asked as you replied back that you're still on the car as you asked him the same question and he replied with the same answer. He also asked you if you and him can go to a date. "You wanna meet up for a date at the mall again and have some dinner?" he asked you. You and Jay are becoming a thing now! "Sure! what time?" you messaged and he quickly replied back stating the time at date. You also suggested if he can come over your house tomorrow and he replied with a yes and ending his message with a positive note. 'Good night love you. Get home safe." he sent the sweet message as you smiled reading the message and replying back at him with a the same message. You finally found your someone, someone who is named Hong Jayeol. And someone that you can love for the rest of your life as Jay thought the same while leaning on the car window watching the lights complimented with the dark hues of the purple and dark blue sky slowly turning into a black color as the sun sank in the beautiful horizon.

A/N: (feel free to request some Lookism related one shots with your favorite characters! female or male is fine. But I don't do character x character though.)

I might probably write a Park Junggun or Zack Lee smut x female reader after this lol good night