#mdoern

[rolandkocsmar]

Vienna - Wotruba Church (1974-1976, Fritz Wotruba)

[bublinko]

NEW IN SHOP: Abstract painting

[bruciemilf]

Matt Reeves has the potential to give us the funniest comedic duo with Martinez and Bruce.

Martinez, bored out of his mind, sipping on his Barbie ice coffee: Gun to your head, would you rather kiss Joker or Riddler?

Bruce, who wanted a barbie drink too but was too awkward to order: Gun to my head? Pull the trigger

Martinez: wh E E Z E

[simbarb]

SIMS 4 - Modern Pietra Bathroom

This set have

New Wall Paints

Sink 29 New Recolors

Bathtub 4 New Recolors

Mesh Needed! by Novvvas Here DOWNLOAD (Patreon Early Access)

I Hope you like, thank you ♥

[dashalbrundezimmer]

scharfenberger straße // dresden übigau

montagehalle

i grew up with the sight of the transformer factory, and every time i visit dresden i see the hall first from afar and then from close by, and somehow i also know this sign of permanence because i am back in my old neighbourhood. the hall has always been a special building for me. powerful but still filigree thanks to the design of the window strips and supporting struts.

architects: p. michael & p. voges

completion: 1953

b&w picture: 

film: ilford fp4plus

dev&scan: meinfilmlab

[agonizedembrace]

ALLOW US TO INTRODUCE OURSELVES a totally serious, not joke promo of @windchaser @agonizedembrace @witchcraftandburialdirt

[elle-smells]

can i say something-

no one ever talks about taylor swift´s lasting legacy being the merging and popularization of the modern-day popstar/songwriter.

music being diaristic has always been true but the concept of a POPSTAR, POP music, being used as an intimate one to one. She built that bridge in 2006 and never looked backed

[kingyouwanted]

“I’ve been doing good. Haven’t seen the beast in two days now.” Adam slowly spoke as he let his gaze wander from the window over to the other. “I mean, that’s what I’m here for, right? To get rid of it.” he said, eyes wandering back out of the window. He knew, there was no cure for this and he would be doomed to remain in these walls. 

@miaxbennett liked for a starter

[gaylilrat]

there's something about jesus being killed by the empire that then made him their symbol and jeanne d'arc being canonised by the church that burnt her. something poignant

[lucky-rabbits]

oughh brain bad again. rookrol modern au save me....

[lettersfrombeyondthegrave]

I'm sorry but why everyone around me in art school has the most miserable experience with procreate?

[vinnie2757]

Hate how reliant on technology my job is and hate how little budget there is to make the tech stable. Someone didn't turn my pc off properly on Friday so now it's repairing every time I turn it on and then the register software updated and broke and now it won't open at all for me never mind how slow and bloated the hard drive is because god forbid they clear out the server and store shit from five years ago on a separate space and turn off all the unnecessary windows deatures that force slow down. The IT team are a bunch of jobsworths which. Fair. But when I can solve the issues I face better than them???? Cmon now

[rotzaprachim]

Good edition! I think this is one of those times when the things people are willing to float due to antisemitism have very harmful ramifications to other communities in particular the literally hundreds of millions of people who’ve had their names taken through processes of genocide, enslavement, and forced assimilation. But as the idea relates to Jews it’s also…. Just wrong, for all the reasons you defined. Many of the conversations about Ashkenazi culture and the ways it shifted and was reformed esp in the fallout of the Shoah and the reasons people changed their surnames are simply too complex for the tumblr peanut gallery but it’s also worth noting that that person perceived the names to be Germanic or Slavic…. Not necessarily that they were.

Many of the names Ashkenazi Jews have had have been Hebrew, Aramaic, or fusional with Germanic and Slavic elements - much like the Yiddish language and Ashkenazi culture itself, which was and is a European and Semitic fusion (both those terms in quotations because they are so contingent and complex) even in diaspora in Europe. Some of those names are related to specifically Jewish professions and variants can be found throughout the diaspora - chazan, rabin/Rabinowitz, schaecter (from shohet), sofer, kasher. Others are from personal names in the patterns of local patronímics or surnames, like yakovitch (from ya’akov), solomonov, sorkin (from sore) rivkin, abramsson, Mendelsohn (from mandel which is a Yiddish version of Menachem), and people who straight up just have Jacobs or Daniel or David as a surname. So while Ashkenazi Jews don’t /need/ to have surnames of Semitic language origin to be connected to the Middle East - the surname’s linguistic origin is not part of this discussion, specifically - it’s worth noting that many of us do. And this isn’t in support of Zionism or a unilateral right to ha’aretz, but it is in support of understanding Ashkenazi culture, even in diaspora, as fusional and partly middle eastern in culture and sentiment, because I’ve been deeply uncomfortably by the need forces on Jews to wash ourselves of these connections and understandings to Hebrew or haaretz yisrael as location or cultural entity or ‘am yisrael to be “appropriately diasporist” or part of the cultural history of Europe or something? I think the fact that the Jewish culture that was so rich and important to European history as a whole was also mixed and complex and tied to its own understandings of the Middle East is important, and I think the idea that Ashkenazi Jews have to strip ourselves of the elements of our culture that are connected to the Middle East is also an ideological line of thinking that has very very bad implications for European ethnonationalism and treatment of other groups from or connected to the Middle East, including modern immigrants

I don’t think that uh “surnames are indicators of indigeneity” and “having (what I perceive to be) a Europeanized Slavic or Germanic surname is an indicator of having (what I perceive to be) solely European ancestry” is a rabbit hole we really want to go down given that one thing that oppressors do to the oppressed has been taking or rearranging and assimilating their names since basically forever

[coffeesleep-ooc]

Essay on heartbreak points

Just thinking of LBH pining over SQQ along the novel before he finally gets the man

Pre-abyss LBH wants SQQ, but the thing i see in him is not just wanting him, carnally sexually or otherwise, he wants SQQ’s attention and approval bc he admires him, its as simple as that. Og goods already had his admiration just bc he was a great cultivator, he was elegant and beautiful and worked hard af, it was like…if a polished stone like jade was used to hurt rather than be the soft, warm and flawless concept of beauty - that chinese media usually uses -. But then the cold showed a soft inner core! Yes! Our dear transmigrator took over and confused the hell out of t he poor LBH that still struggled to excuse SJ’s behavior. Then though, SY took care of him with love and with smiles, using mdoern sensibilities to measure things like care and affection…and I think that some of those discrepancies between a hellish setting and a soft oblivious SY must have been quite jarring to LBH. He sees someone that believes in inherent good and is passionate and silly, knowledgeable and kind, and can’t help but want to be close! He admires him so much!!

Still pre-abyss, not only LBH admires the heck out of SY, he is also his shizun, and i don’t forget about his teacher kink but im talking about the dynamics of it instead of anything sexual. LBH knows and firmly believes that his position is way below that of SQQ’s, he is protected and cared for, but he longs to protect and care for as well right? Because he has seen that SQQ is powerful but not above everything, because he is knowledgeable but not all-seeing, because he may be taken advantage of by someone crafty that doesn’t deserve his kindness. LBH pretends to fall and be weak and helpless when it’s convenient for him, but he knows he has to take every advantage he can bc he needs to be strong enough to protect SQQ, because the world has shown him that there are many dangers and that someone not of a peak lord’s status isn’t worth to marry (idk how much about this airplane would have put into his work, but lets remember that ancient chinese marriages were a very foemal and important thing that involved status and wealth, not just love). Let’s remember our bun has also been a street rat and probably saw many things at one point or another! We can only speculate and write fics about that last point, but the street is not a good place to be, especially in a PIDW setting. Also, bc he wasn’t strong enough, quick enough, bc his family had no power or money his mother died, it’s as hurtful and as plain as that for him, even if he knows (does he though?) that it’s not his fault.

Onwards to the abyss! It’s shit. That’s what it is. Shizun who he admires, respects and loves above everything, who told him that nobody was intolerable for the heavens went against every fucking shit he said and coldly forced LBH into the abyss. What the actual fuck SQQ (affectionate), you gave him so many issues fr. I can only imagine how confused the poor LBH must have felt when his Shizun yet again changed tune like this in a way he can’t fully explain this time, even more so, he could try, but it wouldn’t change the fact that LBH is currently in the worst place ever because the person he loves with his whole heart threw him there (and possibly wanted him to stay down there? to become one of its creatures? To die? He has no idea???). LBH has strived to be good, to be worthy in his teacher’s eyes since he entered the sect and he has just gotten proof that he isn’t and will never be even though he had the hope of getting there despite everything. It’s just filled with heartbreak and i think that the system only deducted SQQ’s current total points bc he literally had to die to be deducted any more and LBH can’t have him dead and the system knows that extremely well! It also gave SQQ a scenario push remember? And that was only for LBH’s benefit istg, SQQ had no idea.

and talking about death! Funny thing isn’t it? It’s ridiculous that SQQ dies so many times (srsly bro, wtf - again affectionate) but I believe that the first was the most traumatic for LBH. SQQ doesn’t sneer at him like a disgusting mucus but instead is afraid of him! LBH worked hard to just see SQQ again, to reunite the courage to talk to him and ask him if he regretted what he did, to show him he was a good person and that he had power now, that he could impress him and protect him (he has lost a lot of his own self-esteem base and i do believe that’s part of where heartbreak points come from) the person whom he values the opinion of the most -the only one even- thinks him a beast and an unredeemable demon…and when he tries to peove himself not that, the only thing SQQ does is run away from him, to decide to be silent and refuse even LBH’s (biased) kindness. He wouldn’t even take LBH’s robe! Imagine that you love someone and that someone hates your guts and refuses to even acknowledge that they hurt you, oh, and all this while an evil sword is fighting to take advantage of your negative feelings. Post-abyss is also shit, just a bit better bc LBH has the illusion of control, he thinks he can still control the situation and is slowly losing hope of shizun understanding him. But the illusion shatters when SQQ self-detonates to save him. The one he supposedly hates. LBH is probably just eternally confused in sv now that i think about it lmao *pats consolingly*

post death 1 (actually 2 for SY): LBH thought he knew shizun, then he realized he couldn’t explain everything shizun did. Then he tried to ask, not even for a full explanation, just to know if shizun really did hate him (bc LBH truly doesn’t care at that point what SQQ does or what SQQ’s reasons and actions were as long as he still loves him, smhw he is so…) and got instead a blow up in his face, coupled with other ppl’s accounts of SQQ mourning him like he was actually truly dead, missing him and finally he sees SQQ sacrificing himself for him. This surely must be enough fpr LBH right? Well…not really, SQQ could have been sacrificing himself to protect the ppl around him - LQG is there and we all know that LBH is mildly sus of him at this point, it will get worse later when LQG is the one coming by every fucking day to retrieve SQQ’s corpse so mhm…its possible LBH thought they had something (not necessarily romantic) at some point, or that LQG and the other ppl were important enough to sacrifice his life for. Not only that, but shizun was not rejoicing when he came back, he never said anything. He killed himself in everyone’s pov -but SQH’s-without explanation, in the most tragic and confusing way of all, saying he would repay LBH…lets also remember that repaying someone can mean completely cutting ties and leaving with a clean slate. And the only actual thing he did was show LBH he didn’t have actual control over the situation and that it was possible to be completely powerful and still lose the ones you love and care about. Idk (or don’t remember haha…) the moment LBH started building the bamboo house in the demonic realm, but it says a lot about what he wants and what he dreams about, the most probable things he is feeling at this point is desperation and melancholy, nostalgia. He longs for the days where he was secure in the knowledge of Shizun’s affection for him, no matter what kind of affection it was, but at the same time is bittersweet because he knows that shizun will never love him foe who he is and that drives him mad with heartbreak that is just building up over time. He will also feel incredibly guilty over SQQ repaying him with his life, because all he ever wanted was basic communication but Shen ‘i am so emotionally repressed i can’t even tell what I’m actually feeling’ Qingqiu obviously thought he was being hunted for revenge. So rip LBH, he wanted an explanation or just a simple ‘i regret it’ but what he gets is confusion, a corpse he has to reanimate asap, and incredible guilt + more damage to his self esteem

Then SQQ comes back and doesn’t even try to search fpr him? And everything becomes a huge mess quite quickly. But. Luo Binghe watches his shizun go back to his martial family and interact with them in a way that he doesn’t interact with LBH anymore. LBH gets his face rubbed with the fact that what he strongly wishes for (going back) is impossible because he made the mistake of being born. Which, would demoralize the strongest of us honestly. And uta been so long since i read sv that I don’t remember much, but im sure that LBH can’t even think that SQQ does care for him, the trauma and insecurity, the abandonment issues have grown so big that they are like a bull in a china shop, ready to shatter everything in short range. Its only when SQQ gives his life (LBH does not know this but he is aware that SQQ would not have used papapa to save the world with just everyone) and gives him something he kept for so long - and that LBH himself thinks is precious despite being worthless - that he understands a bit that shozun may not hate him so much. I’m surprised that heartbreak points weren’t so used or that we didn’t get reminded of them through the story, because it would have given us an inkling of how LBH was feeling, but also spoilers and SQQ’s obliviousness, i imagine that at the end of sv they would have been lower than what they were (in truth) at the IAC but not completely gone

finally, i think that heartbreak points could be used to gauge how traumatized poor LBH was at eaxh point in time, but also to measure the state of his self esteem and the level of hope he had according to the way SQQ acted along the novel. I think that the points were all gone at some point (i eont remember anymore -cries- ) but i fullly believe that post canon Binghe still has heartbreak points and a whole lot of issuws that start to slowly disappear as thwir relationahip progresses. The only thing is that LBH still ties his own worth to SQQ’s opinion of him, and he will have heartbreak points again if he misunderstands SQQ st any point (unlikely but still).

Anyways…

THIS POOR BABY BREAKS MY HEART! He was terrible but he was also very human and truly, he deserves good.

Sorry about the rambling essay! :D

[ikaishere]

Encouraging s.o to achieve a goal

flufftober day 17 and AAAAAAAAAA mdoern au ravioli, pushing the artist legend agenda

[kenncut]

mdoern ronance??