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God, Medea is so awful. She might be worse than Gaea, honestly. Gaea is like how Marvel portrayed Galactus. She's evil by mortal standards, but she's so immense that she operates beyond conventional morality. Just as Galactus needs to eat planets for life, Gaea is just trying to get revenge on her grandchildren for what they did to her children. Mortals don't even enter the picture in any sense. And we can argue morality all day and all night (personally, i think there's peaceful resolutions for galactus. If we can find a way to clone planets for him or leave him in the negative zone or whatever), but these beings are a little bit beyond conventional morality.
But Medea… Medea was mortal. And she is a bloodthirsty psychopath who killed her own children, killed her ex-husband's new wife, and now is trying to kill Jason and Leo, who are adolescents! Even from the fields of punishment, she ratted to Gaea about a vision she saw of Leo, and that led to Gaea killing Leo's mom. So if Gaea is like Galactus, Medea is like if the Silver Surfer was a bloodthirsty witch.
Medea and her aunt Circe are perfect examples of evil, and I wish them nothing but the worst. May their flesh be turned to mulch and their bones ground to powder, the psychos. And you know… Poison Ivy reminds me an awful lot of these two. She feels like she belongs in their insane charm speaking killers club. So maybe we should just let Hades/Pluto and The Spectre have their ways with these menaces. I hate them with every fibre if my being, and reading the medea chapters of the book really messed me up. Same way reading the Circe chapters in the sea of monsters made me despise Circe.
I still wonder how this'll affect my interpretation of Reyna and Hylla, when I get to them. Because they worked for Circe. And unless you really didn't know how sick Circe was…then you might be guilty by assocation.
#medea is a horrible person#as is circe#and since poison ivy reminds me of them...#maybe she's pretty bad too#so idk#percy jackson#heroes of olympus#pjo#hoo#pjo hoo toa#rick riordan#riordan universe#riordanverse#anti medea#anti circe#anti poison ivy#dc#ramblings#rambles#my thoughts#random thoughts
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let it be known that i love prince inigo with my whole soul. however sometimes it is SO much fun to think about owain and his two most loyal-est knights you ever seen: worst guy in the world #1 and worst guy in the world #2. i love retainer inigo and severa so much. retainers who bully you and make fun of you and trash on you but they’d leave behind everyone and everything they ever knew to follow you and protect you in a whole new universe. they love you so much that they’d swear allegiance to total strangers but that loyalty pales in comparison to what they’d do for you. and they were all lovers!!!!!!!
#ann plays awakening#awakening trio#sometimes i forget owain is literal royalty and like#in the bad timeline hes probably like. the second most important person there?? unless luci has a sibling#obviously she’d need her own retainers but unfortunately i am thimking awakening trio thoughts. i miss. i love them in any form#that they are handed to me#i love them as best friends. as forced circumstance allies to family. as lovers.#i know i said lovers in this post but im not sure they’d ever label it as that#to me its very much ‘its not exactly romantic but its too intense to be platonic’#what i am getting at is queer platonic awakening trio btw. in case that wasnt obvious#like no matter who they are or where they go they are eachothers people dude. like literally do not separate#anyways im gonna be thinking long and hard about who should be everyones parents in this timeline#i have what i call my ‘main’ pairings and thats what i use for most of my headcanons (ex prince inigo)#but i’d like a completely separate one for owain retainer trio#i think im pretty set on fred!severa#i couuuldddd pick fred!inigo which i do think is SUPER compelling as well but something about freddy!severa… also shes so cute as a brunette#like sorry… shes just so beautiful#ive been having a lot of thoughts aboht tharj!inigo and i need to figure out if thats current bias talking or if im cooking with that one#i got no idea who owain’s second parent should be. robin maybe? idk#i mean his second parent isnt quite as impactful in regards to trio dynamics in this case just because he’s always the prince but. idk#i really like the idea of half plegian owain but i ALWAYS run half plegian owain cuz im always pairing lissa with robin or henry so its like#this isnt new 😭😭😭 but god. PLEGIAN OWAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#hm. though. hear me out. manakete owain???????????????? ehhh????#sorry. idk. i love how changing the parents of the second gen can change their characterization. its like my favorite thing ever#i think its why im so attached to all of them. theres always new things to explore with them!!! its so much fun!!!!!!#graaarfggjjjhhhhhhn!!!!
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love thinking kipperlilly spends her afterlife looking for lucy in a familiar forest
#not art#fhjy#fhjy spoilers#like. does she have a mean of knowing lucy and yolanda got sent to cassandra's domain to hang out for a bit#kipperlilly's isolation means so much to me. she is punished for everything she's done she just doesn't pick up on it#until the moment she dies! one more funky thing that mirrors riz in which he's actively tried to cultivate a community and denied it#until the bad kids. while kipperlilly does not want or care about a community she just wants someone who validates her#but she does Need a community so she latches onto the person she lets closer to her to fulfill her emotional needs#she took the ritual willingly so this might genuinely be her first death. probably terrifying#probably not even enough bandwidth to feel mortified. maybe immediately seeking something comforting out of instinct alone#lmao honestly thinking too much abt fantasy high afterlifes gives me a headache And a visceral fear#Im not religious but I grew up in a culture with a dominantly buddhist/taoist cosmology its Scary that u just go to A Place after u die!!#and then ur still urself!!! thats scary to me what do u mean u stay like that forever. thats fucked#but yeah I think this influences how I see kipperlilly turn out a little bit. in a sense I think of her as being a ghost now#yknow. trying to solve something from life so she can move on and. stop living this life etc#man the reveal that lucy took being killed pretty seriously and is like yeah the others are decent and even sweet#and probably was just trying to hold her party together and do what she thinks is moral by hearing kipperlilly out#lol lmao etc. gods I gotta wonder how kipperlilly's mindset handled jawbones' help#it really is damn tragic tho. I stand by what I said folks like this will complain and be nasty to be around#but they dont have enough desire to inconvenience themselves to off the bat do something abt what they find unfair or whatever#its when theyre handed the seemingly very easy means to be right that they'll start being dangerous#its horribly tragic that the supposed metaplayer and the self-perceived mastermind turned out to ultimately be just an useful idiot#yknow what. I think personally in my heart kipperlilly moves on from her afterlife the moment she says sorry#doesnt even have to be to lucy but that's probably gonna be who received it#ah.... teenage rebellion. teenage gamejacking
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hello :) could you maybe explain a little bit how dan wootton blackmailed louis?
ugh sorry for taking a while to get to this. The problem is I feel like the only two ways to answer this are by spending a week and a half of full time labor sifting through old posts and evidence to get every detail right and lay out an airtight case, or to halfass something very serious, and so I felt a little stuck. So since I can't seem to find a good halfway point, apologies but here is the half assed version, if you want to get into it more I invite you to do your own deep dive or talk to other people, but here's how I remember things. Louis has almost never on video explicitly said things about Larry not being real and/or anything negative about fans and their theories (mostly the opposite), up until the last couple years when he obviously decided to make a major change he didn't talk about Freddie much at all let alone saying he was his kid, honestly not that much about Eleanor even; except for in two major interviews with Dan Wootton, each of which lined up with a serious traumatic Tomlinson family event that they managed to keep out of the tabloids until the very end (Jay's illness and Fizzy's struggles with substance abuse). After the fact of those events a lot of small things that didn't make sense at the time came together to look very much like Louis traded those interviews (and those answers) for having his family's private matters kept private. Story trading of this kind is a publicly known real thing that happens, and there were various clues that suggested he was being leaned on about those stories to lend legitimacy to the idea that it was something that happened in these cases. Given what we know about Dan Wootton and how he operates even before the recent flood of information and even more now, I think it's more than likely that he has been holding the threat of outing Louis (as he has done to many other public figures) over his head for over a decade, and has used his family's tragic struggles to get Louis to dance like a fucking puppet for him and I will REJOICE at his downfall when it comes whether it is now or 20 years from now... because someday it will, he has made too many enemies to stay above it forever
#I did start to try to deep dive before I realized it was too much#but I was reminded that when Louis was doing txf as a judge while fizzy was struggling#many people thought he had been pressured somehow into it; later when we knew what had been going on people were like#oh maybe he just wanted to be close to home to deal with fizzy stuff or somethng#but also: keeping fizzy stuff quiet would potentially be the info we didn't have at that time that could answer that q too of what they use#given the DW🤝simon jones🤝simon cowell cursed connections#(for the newbies: simon jones aka DWs bestie is Louis' publicist for no apparent reason even now long after he has gotten free of the rest#of the modest/syco/simon cowell shitshow)#anyway another example of story trading in our fandom is zayn's baby sister's teen pregnancy#which was known to the fandom early on but kept super quiet by respectful fans- during this time Z did some unprecedented actual interviews#for no obvious reason#and then iirc pretty much the day she turned 17 a very lowkey article reported on her marrying her bf and mentioning a pregnancy#but as if it was recent not like 7 months along#and even when she gave birth soon after it was all kind of... glossed over and around and not reported until a little later#blah blah blah#I felt like it was weird to talk about this for some reason but when I thought about it#I don't know if it matters. Like maybe talking about him not being a dad and being gay or whatever at all is bad#but assuming we're doing that anyway. why not talk about the struggles around that#and the creeps holding it over his head#dan wootton
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i feel like. theres designing a character with certain themes and motifs in mind, and then theres making a gijinka for the water bottle on my nightstand
#me when im the only person on the bus wearing a mask: i should make a furry plaguesona#its hard to explain bc. most of the time i try NOT to give my characters a 'strong' theme like making their whole design around#one thing like apples or even broad stuff like baking or cottagecore.. idk if its partly for flexibility or because i cant imagine them#making it their whole personality. not bc i find it cringe or overblown but more like ive learned to associate design with character depth#i had a cutesy uwu persona for most of highschool because i thought it would make me more. likeable? easy to remember? since#memorable character designs are easy to recognize. and one way of doing that is simplifying it with a theme or symbol so you form an#association. but since im a real person its exhausting keeping up that appearance all the time and denying myself things when they dont#fit my 'aesthetic' or 'theme.' i think ive grown past that bc i just collect stuff because i think it looks cool and dont let myself dwell#on how it might 'fit' with my image. but i cant help feeling bad doing it to my own characters bc it feels like im making them too one#dimensional. despite knowing that theyre not real and design alone doesnt reflect depth i cant help feeling like its wrong#despite that i love seeing motifs because it feels like it reflects the characters soul and paradoxically gives them depth. it makes them#interesting to look at too and honestly its pretty fun combining things that fall under a similar category when designing#i struggle find a balance between those two things#actually this reminds me of noelles christmas theme.. i dont remember her saying anything abt liking christmas despite a lot of#her design and character tying back to it. it makes me wonder if she would have feelings about that or doesnt think abt it too hard#or if its like a matching family shirts situation and shes just going along with it??#maybe i should just do whatever i want with my character designs since theyre not real and im thinking abt it too hard#although. this probably has something to do with deep seated identity issues huh#yapping#oc talk#oc
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very sad still see the saria/silence divorce headcanon still going around
have you ever tried to consider that they never dated before lone trail because it would be unrealistic with the timeline and the events and also because it would be overshadowing the actual truth of why they couldn't get along
#i'll elaborate#firstly it's ok if you headcanon this i don't want to invalidate what people think#it's just that I think it's a fanon joke that have been going around for way too long#and I can't help but shed a small tear when I see people really headcanoning it#I personally think it's way more interesting if we consider that they never had something going on before Lone Trail#mostly because it's weird that they started dating in like some months when they barely knew or saw each other#but also because it adds nothing but just makes things even more harder for them#my personal headcanon is that Silence was maybe having feelings for Saria but like#you know these very premature feelings#like just “oh wow she's pretty and nice”#but nothing like really deep#but they never had anything going on before the diabolic crisis#and after lone trail after they made up and saw each other's true person#they start to actually get real feelings#I'm just complaining but I've been still seeing it around somehow and it's sad to me that this joke became a fact for many people#there's still a lot of fanfics about how they had been dating and now they're on bad terms#I think that going on the “they're exes” route is way too easy and actually hides the potential and interesting reason#of why Silence was mad at Saria#it's not because she hates Saria or blame her#it's because she's mad at herself for being so weak#really making them appear as exes just hides this really interesting truth and makes it all seem to be a sad love story#consider that they never had any of this and that this tension between them is because they blame themselves!!#their story is not a love story but above all a story about self love and acceptance#just my two cents enjoy my rambling i go back to bed now#(not putting this in the main tag I don't want to start a war I'm just rambling)
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feeling very Devil Wears Prada "florals? for spring? groundbreaking" seeing the "Taylor's album has emotional range!! No other artist could ever!!!"-posts as if that's not also what every other (good) artist is doing, as if conveying bunch of emotions isn't the whole main part of the job
(emotions? in music??? groundbreaking)
#!!! I'm not hating on Taylor !!! I'm hating on swifties (some of them at least; the delusional ones)#like are u sure no other artist could ever. are u _fully_ sure#anyways I listened to it and it was fine; felt like 31 versions of the same song but I can respect that as a stylistic choice#that's just not for me (like she obv knows what she's doing & is good at it))#(like Cigarettes After Sex does that too and no one's giving them shit abt it (probs bc ppl are pretty much only lukewarm towards them#and also the whole ''let's be unreasonably critical abt whatever a woman is doing''-thing))#maybe the range is in the lyrics but I'm more of a ''I want to hear the emotion'' rather than ''I'll look up the lyrics to see what the#emotion of this song is''-type (can't hear lyrics in songs for the life of me without seeing them written out idk why#and that's very much a me-issue; not a ''bad music''-issue)#ttpd#april 2024#2024
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The best thing about BSD Lucy Montgomery is that she is trying so hard to live her fairy tale dream, like asking Atsushi to save her from the Guild and all that nonsense.
Instead, she just gets beaten by him once when they're enemies, gets out of the Guild on her own, and has to save that sorry boy's life over and over again.
Like, sorry, Lucy girl...you're not the damsel in distress in this fairy tale. You're the prince charming who had a bit of a villain arc and now is doing good out of sheer spite and stubborness. Better luck next arc?
#like the more i think about it the more i think lucy is just trying so hard to live an idealistic story#but life is just so mean to her that her romanticist idealism has turned into her holding onto those ideals out of sheer spite#even though she more often than not acts the most sensible out of all the bsd characters#like the girl was like 'oh yeah actually joining a criminal organisation is a bad way to cope' after one (1 or 2) conversation with atsushi#and then she went and proceeded to get herself a job#and then she talked to fukuzawa and gave him pretty solid advice without stopping him#not to mention the minute things went topsy turvy during doa she actually manged to storm the government and demand reason#my girl is desperately trying to be part of this fantasy world but she's too worldwise to truly fall for it#maybe im just reading too much into it but still...its amazing#bsd#bungo stray dogs#bungou stray dogs#bsd musings#humor#bsd lucy#character analysis#spitting nonsense
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give meee... headcanons about the Sangfielle friends in the most boring AU you can imagine like. idk. office Sangfielle. grocery store Sangfielle. they all work at a movie theater. whatever sounds mundane as hell and you have Thoughts about :3
okay tumblr ate my fucking answer the first time. let's try this again.
the thing about these guys is that no matter how mundane you make it, they can make anything into a situation. that's just the guys they are. so we put them in a Walmart.
Marn is an employee with a great customer service voice. She's keeping it together in the face of some truly wild statements and requests. One man keeps asking for frootie hooties, a brand of cereal that he insists is real and everyone is just refusing to sell to him, and she's spent twenty minutes trying to tell him that they just don't have it in stock
Lye and Es are having an animated conversation in the clothing area, where she is examining various colorful dresses and he is distractedly picking things off of nearby shelves and putting them back down. The conversation started at how they got kicked out of dayward yve's novelty store and is now about whether stealing should be more or less of a crime than manslaughter, because it's not as bad as killing but it is on purpose. People are trying not to pay attention to them. Eventually they are asked to leave, at which point it is revealed that lye has about two hundred dollars worth of items in his pockets and es has some candles she liked and a new pair of shoes in hers. They are both barred from Walmart.
Duvall hates it here. It's loud, he hates the lights, the aisles make no sense, he can't find anything he's looking for, and people keep coming up to him to ask him where things are. He doesn't even work here. Why do people assume he works here? He's not even wearing any Walmart merchandise. Is that what it's called when you're an employee? Merchandise? Well, it's what it would be called if he wears it, which he never will, because he doesn't work here and never wants to. Have a nice day ma'am.
Pickman is slowly marching her way through the aisles one at a time, peering at her shopping list and holding a tiny shopping basket in one hand. She has to be very careful not to knock the shelves over sometimes. Just trying to get groceries. People are nervously avoiding her. Says "Hey, you" to some poor employee to ask where the milk and cigarettes are. Just grunts at everything else. When she's at the checkout, the guy there asks "Did you find everything you're looking for?", and she just says "No." and leaves
Chine comes out of the bathroom with a live rat in his hand. People scream. The manager finally comes up to him like "Sir, you can't have rats in here." They say "Oh, she's not mine. She was just having trouble opening the door." Gets a big meat on the bone at the deli and nothing else. When he asks how much it costs, they just say it's on the house and try to get him to leave as soon as possible. They go like "Oh, really? Are you sure? I have some money." and sound surprised but pleased, like they're being done a personal favor. The employees insist. He's like "Alright, thanks!" and then asks the rat if she wants anything
#the manager tells an employee to get the rat some cheese. chine says that cheese is actually bad for rats and some seeds would be better#the manager tells the employee to get the rat some seeds and for chine to get the fuck out of their establishment#chine is a little taken aback by the rudeness but leaves without further issue#runs into lye and es outside and is like “hey look they just gave me some free stuff”#Lyke is like “what???? I got kicked out because I wanted free stuff!”#chine says “I think I just got kicked out too. Maybe that's just what happens?"#lyke says “yeah but you got to keep the stuff!”#“Did you not get to keep your stuff?”#“I mean. Not *all* of it.”#“Huh.”#“They didn't let me keep the stuff I kept on purpose.”#es makes a reasonable sounding remark about how they'd be running a pretty terrible business if they handed everything out for free#everyone should get what they need but these people do have livelihoods to think about#is also putting on lipstick that she definitely just shoplifted#duvall comes out and swears he's never coming back here. is asked if he's also banned for life from the Walmart.#demands what the hell these people were doing in the Walmart to get banned for life#because he saw a man getting real heated about frootie hooties and that's definitely not a real cereal#so if that doesn't meet the bar he's not sure he wants to know what does#sangfielle#friends at the table#Shoop#asks
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i just wanted a simple name for him and i was like halfway through the origin before i realised that rory and rica’s names are way too cutesy similar. too late now
#at one point kalah had whimsy. this is the only way you can tell#rory n rica look fairly alike too. rory doesnt love that he very much takes after his mother#but worth it to look a bit like his sister#rory: people get us mixed up sometimes. similar names same red hair and we’re almost equally as pretty—#rica: you know the first time you told this joke it was almost funny#rory: —as long as she’s got her makeup on#i’ll play the rest of the origin tomorrow maybe#another realisation about his name feat live footage of my thought process:#‘simple could be good for ship names too! i could end up with. uh. r— rorrigan. oh god that’s bad’
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How good is STRQ when it comes to cooking?
woe. strq headcanons be upon thee.
Summer: We already know Summer at least was good at baking, arguably even great since that was one of her primary characteristics for years (and still kinda is ��). Her desserts are legendary, to the point that they became something of a legend back in their Beacon days. This woman made baking into an art. Literally. She would bake some elaborate over-the-top cake as a hobby if given the tools and time.
But when it comes to anything other than baking? Uh. Well. She can make it look nice, at least, but the taste will either be the blandest thing you have ever tasted or a blend of flavours that REALLY don't mix well together because she decided to 'experiment'. She's not bad. It's edible. Sometimes even great! But her strength lies with desserts.
Taiyang: There has never been a more Grill Dad on Remnant. You put this man in front of a grill, give him some sausages and a pair of tongs and he will deliver the perfectly grilled barbeque you need. If Summer's expertise is dessert, his is dinner. And lunch, and breakfast, and—
Point is, Taiyang puts a lot of care into what he cooks and everyone's dietary needs. He's the one writing a meal plan every week and making sure his team has a balanced diet that compliments their lifestyle. He's shit at desserts but hey, he's packing their lunches for them, he can't be good at everything.
Raven: Surprisingly, pretty... decent? Because of his semblance, Qrow was often left out of hunting, foraging or even cooking in the camp—which was sort of bad seeing as the tribe's 'everybody out for themselves' mentality meant that they were likely hoping he'd just starve. This left Raven as the one who had to cook for the both of them, using what limited materials they had. She learnt all she could about poisonous plants and fungi, what she could find around her that was edible, how to make sure neither of them starved. If Taiyang is the health nut, Raven is the safety nut.
I think her (and Qrow too) would also hate wasting food, given how close they've come to dying of starvation many times before.
Qrow: Has a fear of cooking due to his semblance and many, many incidents in the past. Would much rather stick with 2 minute noodles instead thanks. Though, once someone drags his ass to the kitchen and starts teaching him how to cook, I think he'd be really into it. He'd push himself to learn until his cooking was on par with Taiyang's. The problem is for him to overcome that barrier and also make something that isn't a depression meal.
Just do NOT expect him to wash the dishes. This man will eat soup out of a shoe if he has to.
#rwby#strq#summer rose#taiyang xiao long#raven branwen#qrow branwen#rwby headcanon#my post#i did consider adding ozpin and salem too#ozpin's cooking is pretty good! until u realise you're in a steamed hams bit#he is a bit rusty#i'm sure if he took the time to relearn he'd get his skills back in no time#salem though? u cannot bring back that which never existed#girl spent her life up in a tower. she didnt cook SHIT up there#when ozma rescued her... you know he cooked EVERYTHING for her#she maybe tried once or twice and ozma just ':) honey this is lovely but i must insist you let me handle all the cooking'#and internally he's holding back the urge to gag#then the gods made her immortal and. well. food was no longer a necessity for her#so she rarely cooks. god she hasn't even thought about it for decades. but on the rare occasions she tries#she ends up making a horrific abomination that somehow attains sentience#its not even anything to do with the whole grimm thing shes just that bad at cooking
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Woohoo service sim ✓
Robin was very impressed with the mechanic skills I guess?
#ts3#ts3 gameplay#strange lepacy#strange 1#I kinda feel bad we used this poor townie for the bonus objective but oh well I don’t regret it#she was pretty cute too with a little makeover done so maybe I'd be interested if I didn't have a list of potential spouses ready
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middle school boys during kickball in gym make me hate being a girl so much
#they wonder why we hate playing it and then when we’re forced to they say they worst things ever about us#“this is why nobody watches the wnba!!!” “kick it bitch!!!!” “maybe this is why women are afraid of balls” this time im really gonna do it#im in fourth period art rn 😥(i have PE third)#i had to kick very last and i was shaking so bad i wanted to die right there#i was crying after but my friend comforted me ❤️ she’s pretty athletic too so i just hid behind her 😭#i
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i fucking love the "A fell first but B fell harder" trope so much that shit makes me so ISJDJSJDJSJDJF
#niko fell first#cause he does#hes more emotional and lord knows when he started having a crush he acts way too obvious about it#cause like... as much as they bicker and banter its really only one of the only time niko get to be himself instead of holding this#mask he has to other ppl#just being as unhinged as he could be as his emotions be free... plus uh the guy is pretty too ig //lh#but man wanderer being the one fell harder.. AUSBAJDBSJDJSJDJ#wanderer hid it better heck you wouldnt even know hes even in love cause hes in denial#he talks about him at least ONCE in his therapy session with nahida#AND SHE NOTICED BUT SHE DOESNT BRING IT UP#CAUSE SHE KNOWS HE DIDNT NOTICED#if you think niko's attempt at hiding his feelings is bad wanderer is even worst#cause wanderer thinks hes being slick hiding it but nawr its#its as transparent as niko's#ok maybe hes better at it in a way that most ppl cant tell#but nahida can#and like.... hes really not as harsh as when they first met#and he can put his guard down a bit seeing its just niko cause he knows niko wouldn't betray or hurt him for whatever reason#anyway they made me ill thats all folks#.txt#tag: puppetgear
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Oh.
#according to facebook memories (why do i even have that still??) 12 years ago today i saw Linkin Park for the first time 🥺#in a few days it'll be 10 years since the last time i saw them#and. hm. there's a lot that surfaced this days since clancy dropped and i'm a bit more emotional / sensitive than usual#and this is. well. making me extremely sad.#12 years ago. i remember as if it was yesterday. i cling to that day so much and i'm scared of forgetting about it#i wonder how 14 yo me would've reacted if she knew.#they were my first gig ever! i remember the 2nd song was given up and the people around us started moshing pretty hard.#so much that my shoe came off and my dad had to shield me while i crawled and looked for it hahaha#it was so fun! i didn't really know that was a thing#that day was the first time they played Lies Greed Misery - it had been released just the day before#my videos are SO blurry but i still have them all saved 🥹#idk i've been in some typa mood these past days. not necessarily bad at all but.#me and a couple friends had a very important conversation 2 nights ago which was GOOD but. the bad thing about letting everything bottle up#is that once you spill it's hard to deal with. and yeah this is. idk. i'm just venting here like. ignore me.#it's just really hard for me. i miss him terribly and i'm really scared for myself because i *know* i'm back in the loop#and it feels so hopeless sometimes. maybe this is super silly but i'm so thankful that Clancy came out now because OH BOY i need it#maybe it's not the best strategy to put so much faith? importance? in like. music and other people but#man. i genuinely don't know if i'd be here if not for certain songs/artists etc#idk I'm rambling lol. i might delete this later#probably. maybe. i try not to talk too much about this here because i tend to deal alone but. sometimes it's nice to send things to the void#anyways. support your favs. talk to your friends - even if you much rather not. don't be like me and let things rot inside.#🤍#darya talks to herself
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I've figured out what arcs I want to give every other teen character in the dead hammerhead AU but I just can't figure out Fontaine
nvm I figured it out in the tags
#she doesn't have any really interesting flaws#maybe something about black and white thinking?#that feels too tied to her relationship with Finn though and half the reason it's a crossover is to avoid making them too codependent#uhhh self-worth when her brother's the chosen one?#that's gonna be an 'it gets worse before it gets better' arc#because I can tie it to Ant's techie genius and how her achievements with music aren't as immediately obvious#like I'm pretty sure Ant's machine from 'the bottom of the gyre' is implied to have been made before the series started#yeah I think I can swing this arc without making Kaiko and Will come off as bad parents
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