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You ever just look at parents who bother to teach their kid stuff and be jealous of them
#ignorelist#maybe having schedule is nice#i wished sometime i was a kid in one of my uncle family#maybe i feel more in control#not in this godforsaken family#any day my mom n dad will be fucking divorced#and my mom probably fucking hates me#im so fucking lost#i dont even know where to go to at college#i dont know who i even want to be#i just#i just feel lost#and i feel everything is devoid and doesn’t matter anymore#it feels like im just a guy who acts for the sake of it#everytime i laught or shed emotion its just so people dont look at me weird#feels like im pretending to be human#and not some fucking creetur#vent
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mishanks sketch dump bc ive been doodling them to de-stress or when i need a break from other pieces lately ✨️
#mishanks#akataka#dracule mihawk#shanks#akagami no shanks#red haired shanks#mihawk#one piece#one piece fanart#the two of them in fancy vests are based off the costumes from the production of great comet i saw at the start of the year#am i percolating on some sort of mishanks fic mihawk pov based on 'dust and ashes'? ...maybe.#im scheduling this for when i am on a plane with the hope that by the time i once again have wifi there will be at least one nice tag lol#here's hoping :')#i scheduled this to post at 3:09 lmao#theyre married ur honour
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Robin chose Steve. Robin made the conscious and deliberate decision that she could and would trust Steve. She already liked him! She had fun working and bantering with him! They were already on their way to being weird little bffs and the torture just expedited the process. Steve chose Robin just the same! He thinks she's fun and cool and likes her so much! He chose to be honest and open with her too, putting himself out there.
Even though their interests on the surface level don't match why wouldn't they share them? Steve clearly caves when Robin wants to watch a movie he doesn't think he'll like, Robin can watch a March madness game or five.
Stop trying to take away their bond oh my god people can be close to more than one person!!! Their best friend doesn't have to be dismissive or mean or whatever in order for a romance to be special to them!
#if i have to see another fic or whatever that makes it seem like robin doesnt give a shit about what steve likes and talkes about im going#to scream and maybe even rampage#its nice to sit down and have someone who knows explain who the players are and what the stakes for this particular game!!#just because yall seem to not think anyone can be nutral towards sports doesnt mean people aren't#literally why is it so hard to believe robin would like to hear steve talk as much as steve likes to hear her talk#i am so close to telling some steddie shippers to not look at steve or robin or their friendship because some of yall do Not get it.#its like you can see them go 'have to make sure eddie is the most perfect specialest boy for steve...well that means robin doesn't Get Him '#or 'robin ignores him/dismisses his interests/isnt told everything happening in his life' like okay dont ever touch them again thanks#robin is steves specialest sunshine cupcake goober girl. steve is robins bestest happy times sweet funnyman. dont u dare take that away.#omce again tsgs longer than the post but ah well.#stobin#platonic stobin#robin buckley#steve harrington#stranger things#finda's rambles#steve and robin#this is a scheduled post just to jazz things up i guess#but seriously some of yall need to STOP MESSIGN WITH STOBIN
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here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud!!
✷(print shop)✷
#mine#original#euheuhe hello..i hope everyone is having a good day#we are going on a bird boat thing on wednesday im very excited about it#what else.....me and my bf went on a walk on sunday and i saw damsel flies and shield bugs and a duck with 13 ducklings#i bought a jellycat sun bag which is now all i talk about#ive started reading assassins apprentice by robin hobb!!!! its so good!!!!#im so excited there are so many books in the series to read#i doubt i will like all of them but i will give them all a go#today i will stop and hve dinner n then walk the dog and then do exercise and have a bath#and then i will. play zelda#and then tomorrow i will do shop stuff and also help my mum buy a bench apparently#i need to buy snacks also. i hve a snack stash in my rooom bc of mental illness purposes and i am low.....need snacks#maybe i will do that tomorrow. brain schedule is full up for today sorry#also. unrelated. i have my period???? again????? ive already had it this month hello i dont need another im good im all done#my hormones r going ??OAGHGHGHUH#also i want like . cute bra. but like not a bra like just cloth thats like. tit shaped. a bralet? is that what that is? no idea#anyway. hve nice evening. or else.#i have a headache#OH ALSO. i need to legally chnage my name SKFSABJSBK#put that on th todo list#i cant rmemeber how 2 do it i think it was very straight forward n cost like. £10 or smth
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this moment where benson holds the door open and makes randy walk under his arm to get inside the diner drives me crazyyy. it's such an intoxicating interaction and i can’t help but wonder if he's ever done this to randy before… maybe when they've closed bbb together and randy's been a little slow gathering his things from his locker. benson's just been standing at the door all quiet, waiting. and randy's shuffled over embarrassed and feeling guilty for holding benson up. says a quick 'sorry' that has benson turning the keys over in his hand, not saying anything back. pushes the door open but stands in the way and waits again, arm up, eyes dark but the contact pointed. randy blinking. “oh. thanks.” goes under benson’s arm, gets so close the smell of cigarettes is dizzying. rubs at his nose as he heads to his car. only pausing halfway there when he realizes benson is still at the door to the restaurant, just standing there, door still open, arm still up. a fluttery, confused, “benson?” leaving him as he looks around. and then benson’s back to business with a roll of his shoulders, key in the lock, quick pull on the handles to double check. randy a little hopeful as he says “see you tomorrow?” by the hood. benson nodding, replies with a rough, knowing, “you will.” that makes randy warm.
#i’m having. a time with this movie rn#i should really just. write the prequel fic that only exists in my head already#in my head they’re each other’s favorite coworker and they barely speak 💕💕💕#randy does most of the talking but it’s. nervous. shy almost.#trying to make a friend on the playground maybe.#benson mostly just responds with sounds#doesn’t talk much unless he’s interacting with customers#doesn’t really have anything to say anyway#but he’s nice#so randy likes him#and he likes benson’s general presence#benson is the most fun to me when he’s. obsessed with randy a bit so ❤️#‘you will’ bc he keeps up with randy’s schedule#also in my head his voice is only that rough and low bc he hardly ever talks.#the more he talks the less gravelly he’d sound#r#the passenger#mv#v
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Yessir, boss man! See you on the other side. o7
#i need to work on my schedule because im always tired and its later in the day when i finish these so i head to befd#now i have to wait :grr: /j#the palette will shift for a bit before i get it down so if it looks weird dw about it#love him so much heas so sillay#[you've got mail!]#spamton#spamton g spamton#deltarune#deltarune spamton#deltarune chapter 2#waiting for you......... because hes so. attached.... this time i felt nice and it was maybe a couple hours or so rather than days#whatever.... kicks a rock......... /j#eeby aurghhh#there was only one related ask so if the answer is not the best thats why loll nobody sent any for AFTER he came back#just be under the assumption that this was sent and then came through to him /later/
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v a feeling you can practice with friends too. or well. u know. if your already a bit twisted enough that u get insecure about it (person who always has less friends than my friends) like.... uncomfortable sometimes right. like. shit fuck. u have another friend who can offer you whatever niche i thought i had covered. fuck shit. buuuut. we must assume. if people keep coming back to you.... they probably. like you. and want to be /your/ friend. a wild and crazy thought. and its also comforting to me to know ppl i like are having fun doing things and feel supported and shit. like wow. geez. what a relief. you took up a hobby with someone? that rules. i know nothing about it but im glad u have a buddy.
#some shit#and with ofc. the dual. damn poly shit sounds nice cause chances are the want. maybe slightly less of ur time.#<- the classic. i cant have full time partner i have a busy schedule of being a freak hermit#it oh i cant meet up im. making a sandwich and reading an article and obsessing about a tv show. and yes thats ALL my free time booked up.
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Ok fuck it you know something I've never really quite understood about part of the Leftist vs Liberals debate on voting.
So so so many people act like its either-or. Like you're either dedicating your entire life to voting and promoting politicians and phone banking or whatever, or you're a True Rebel waiting for The Uprising to Come and Solve Everything.
But like. In my experience. Me voting is just me kinda go 'which person seems kinda good? Which one at least sucks the least? ok lemme go vote.' and then its anywhere from 30 minutes to an hour tops of my life. And I still have plenty of time to do Stuff and participate in Conversations about Other Important Things. And also you can admit and acknowledge and understand that the system As Is kinda sorta really sucks ass, but also still admit and acknowledge and understand that at this current point in time we are still living in the suckass system and do something to alleviate the suckass At Least A Little while also working to bolster/create/advocate for Other Systems.
I guess just like. it's not a black or white thing. Between 'top 500 volunteers for a specific politician/voting office/etc' and 'absolutely positively not voting at all' there is a gray area called 'vote and then just do other stuff'.
#out of queue#ani rambles#ani rant#now hang on its time to acknowledge my Privilege(TM)#the first few times I ever voted for anything I was in college and the student center was a voting center#so asides from waiting in a long (~30 minute tops bc early vote) line to get in I didn't have to do a big drive or anything#and at my house there's a voting center thats a like 5 minute drive from my place or a 10 minute drive depending on what election it is#and im ablebodied and have a open (read: jobless) schedule so I can Just Go for the most part#i live in a City so there's probs lots of voting centers at churches and libraries and all across town too#but like. some people act like people saying Hey Go Vote Plz are screaming like#'if you don't donate 200 dollars and 4+ weeks of your time to canvassing and calling and volunteering you are RUINING AMERICA'#when at least from what I've seen its just like. 'can you maybe go fill in a bubble on a Scantron so people like me don't Die Faster.'#also there's early voting and mail-in voting and all that jazz like yeah the current system makes it harder to vote but theres still W AYS#you don't gotta pull up at 6am on Election Day Tuesday yknow?#if i get blasted for this remember as I was: happy and rambling at 3am about greenhouses and solarpunk stuff#plz be nice i beg k bye
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a sneak peek for an upcoming (timeline tbd) update 😊
#holocene.txt#hlcn: story extras#consider this a thanks for the kind words on gratitude day :)#i wanna respond to everyone individually when i have time and also wax poetic about how much every comment means to me#it really does mean a lot#it's been a rough year and a very lonely year like i'm genuinely just so :/#i lost both of my grandmothers this year very suddenly and the holidays feel empty now and i'm dealing with scary health issues#i finally had a brain mri after waiting for it to get scheduled since JUNE and now i have to wait on results and undergo some other testing#and i'm losing my mind a little because i planned a nice christmas gift for my mom and it feels ruined because the post office lost it#and my dad ruined the whole surprise of it by calling customer support on speaker phone with her in the room...and she ofc heard everything#i just wanted something nice for my mom :( she deserves it and although i have other gifts for her still it's not all what i planned#i don't mean to rant but i just wanted to add context when i say it means a lot that anyone even remotely likes my pixels#i may not know most of you very well *yet* (trying to fix that!!) but it's nice to feel a little support from somewhere :) beyond nice#and sorry for being absent a lot this year but i swear i have so much appreciation for y'all and i love you and your pixels dearly#i always feel bad like maybe it doesn't seem like i care in return bc i'm offline a lot now but i really do!! i care a lot!! love y'all xox
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Guys… I have to go back to school… in twelve hours
#I am not okay#I’m taking so many extra classes this year#because it runs on an A/B schedule#and I’m taking my first ever AP#but like it’s history so I’m not too worried about that#and I didn’t get one elective that I kind of need for my career choice :/#cause I would really have appreciated it if I had been able to start the course so I’d have enough years left of HS to finish it ._.#oh well#I’m taking the second course for Engineering#and intro to Graphic Design#and I’ve been debating both of those as options for a career#BUT IT WOULD HAVE BEEN NICE TO HAVE A COMPUTER SCIENCE CLASS#this is why class schedules suck#you aren’t guaranteed anything#and it could really screw you over#anyways#maybe if I have less time to write I’ll be more motivated to write#I at least have a few ideas for some fics
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customary artfight warmup drawings post
not as many this time but they've definitely gotten more elaborate. and also more dumb
i also did a couple for my beloved edgy middle school feral murdercat so tw for blood + gore under read more
she's so girlboss
#tw blood#tw gore#akechi true dot png my beloved#i've gotten too much use out of that one singular image#yeah that one doodle is technically referencing the rainbow dash smoking weed image but like#a really specific version of it that has a really crunchy akechi image instead of rainbow dash#i would link it but i can't find it :[#once again V (the android w/ the hand for a head) was designed by the extremely talented crabussy/beastwhimsy#if you couldn't tell i really like drawing willoughby covered in blood#i don't. know what else to say here umm#nice weather we're having haha. or maybe it isn't. idk i'm allergic to the outdoors#toonagi art#furry art#furry#furry oc#digital art#artists on tumblr#fursona#anthro#anthro art#sketch#doodles#the work by the way is that i'm on call as a substitute camp counsellor#it's actually a lot of fun but also suddenly having my plans changed makes me. grouchy and angy and grumpy#pleaseeeee i just want to know what my day is going to look like 12 hours in advance#routines my beloved schedules my beloved
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woke up at 4am feeling the weight of my life crushing me, so I’ve been sitting out in my car for the last couple of hours because I just need. to. be. somewhere else.
#tumblr ate something like this but I think I deserve to shout uselessly into the void#shits rough dawg#I know it’s rough for everyone. I feel shitty even talking about myself. still… compelled to vent… big butts#haven’t really been on here much since it hasn’t really scratched that itch lately & just makes me feel lonelier#it’s cold#saw the Jazzercise studio open across the street. 5am for Jazzercise? wow. early.#and then everyone left an hour and a half later. lights out. everybody gone. weird schedule. I am perplexed.#went down the road and got a soda and I’ve been sitting in my driveway contemplating for the last 2.5 hours#guy at the gas station tried to talk to me but I just half assed a smile and nod and left#even though I know I’d love to just… talk to someone. I suppose it has to be ‘on my terms’ whatever those are#I miss having a therapist. or even just when my little brothers would talk to me. when anyone would. blegh#my insurance is still a mess and I’m about to run out of one of my blood pressure meds this week#maybe I’ll have a stroke. scary to think about. I think about dying a lot but that potential feels too real. just… pop! and I’m done.#I’ll try today to finally push to straighten it out but everything feels daunting#woke up with so much anxiety. about my health. my hearing. no money. my life. had to get out of the house even if it’s just right outside#hate to say it but I need(want) thc. haven’t wanted to spend money on it but I could have really used it this morning#can’t be sad if you can’t feel anything (jokingly but also not. whichever is less sad sounding)#actually treated myself to Dune 2 last week and it was so so good. wish I could go again. but it’s drugs food or movie right now. so…#I know. dumb priority but BIG SCREEN. maybe it’ll hit theaters again for the next awards season hopefully. just a real nice loud experience#anyway… I should go inside. almost 7am. need to take my brothers to school then drive my mom to her daily appointments#I’ve felt so hollow and angry and sad for so long it feels like. I feels so weak and sad and I’m tired of it. I’m so tired.#I’ve been eating about 1 meal a day and sleeping a lot. this is the worst my body has ever been. I feel like I’m just waiting to die.#is this relatable?#just have to look past it. it is nothing. this body is nothing. just enjoy your soda.#gonna look at pictures of butts now#ok gotta go I love you goodbye forever#you can ignore this#text
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1/3 of the way done of this last page, then I can finally post it all o|-<
#blabbering#idk who even cares or knows what I'm talking about; but I just wanna talk about what's on my mind somewhere; even if it's to no one#I just haven't had much confidence in art or gaming prowess lately; but I'm still trying#I mean I haven't had much to begin with; but it's just tanked worse lately bc I'm probably just burnt out from work and need a break#I just wanna do fun stuff with friends; but I'm constantly plagued with conflicting schedules (aka the quintessential adult experience lol)#but at least after I'm done this thing I meant to do simply and quickly (but wound up taking way longer than I thought) I'll be happy#i just can't make myself really do anything else until it was done bc it would keep looming over my head and I need it done for reasons#at least tomorrow is a nice short day in the timeframe I like; so I'll be in higher spirits#lol sorry I've been complaining so much lately alskjdflsf. I just don't have anyone to talk to about random stuff on my mind lakjdlf#anywho bed time and then short shift and then FREE FOR THE WEEKEND + Friday :catjam:#also I think I have seasonal allergies again (no idea what from lol)#and i also stubbed my toe multiple times last week and it's still a bit swollen and hurts to put pressure on one part (bone bruise maybe)#my life is an exciting adventure that's for sure (I guess yesterday absolutely counts for negating my sarcasm here lmao whoops)
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Ah fine I'll post somethin. Experimenting with designs and shit is all I'm doin. Nothin new.
(Not posting the colored in versions yet. These are only concept sketches. Keep that in mind)...
The digital "version" of ^this^ is just some lazy color blocking I did. (Pay no mind to the weird light effects); But it does add a little clarity to the original sketch that might be helpful. Note: the values will change to some degree later.
Full body type idea ^here^. The tail is fan shaped from proper perspective.
The basic blocks of his design include an array of different animal features i.e. plucked feathers and skin, goat horns and eyes, coyote skull and body, and lizard scales. Idk if anyone was curious though;
if anyone asks for more detail in the design inspirations and lore I might share it. I just don't really feel the need to post every part of my process yk (especially if I'm not 100% happy with it)
#Most of the reason I don't post stuff even when I do draw is cause I don't really wanna share it with everyone or it's not ready etc.#Just a personal boundary I guess.#i hope you guys understand#ik my schedule is real wack in gen but it's nothing i can help (currently going through treatments for my condition + other personal things)#plus I'm really terrible at gaging audiences so i have no idea what people want me to post#cause sure i can do silly cartoons but more often than not i like doing detailed stuff like this#though it doesn't tend to get as much attention as memes. that's only expected#but im thinkin about posting more about my ocs (maybe in comic snippets and stuff👉👈)#OH also i am drawing stuff for kids. obviously not this lol but nice cartoony things 👌#probably won't post those aside from maybe actual pages cause the other stuff is just doodles for school kids💀#again. lemme know if that's anything you'd wanna see.#my art blog#my art stuff#my art#my ocs#dulce oc#my oc stuff#sketch#traditional art#digital sketch#concept art#oc concept#(yes this is dulce. don't question it lol. transformation go brrr)#demon oc#demon original character#once in a blue moon posting weeeee#personal stuff#rant in tags#these drawings are from September and October which. ig isn't the WORST timeline but still. not technically new stuff sorry#demon design
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the zoo will literally notttt email me about an interview but i have an interview for a childcare parttime job on monday that im hopeful about…. >_^
#i want the zoo job more but this other one is a reliable same day every week schedule#and its only 3 days a week 4 hr shifts which is the most my autism can stand without wilting away and dying forever#so…. Maybe this will be nice#ill have time to do comm stuff and grocery shop and etc too….#spiderwebs
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WEIRD OLDER QUEERS I LOVE YOUUU
#this is a general statement#but also opened up feeld after like two weeks and immediately matched with this guy* who i immediately thought just had an awesome vibe#(is it bc he reminds me of philip sallon maybe. it’s okay i know my own red flags)#i don’t actually know what pronouns he uses. something to ask tomorrow#they’re also really not that old ftr they’re in their forties it’s just the difference in experience i mean#feel sort of excited abt the idea of pursuing gay sex for the first time in ages they just SO immediately met me at my level and made me#- feel so comfortable#we’ll see what comes of it i have a good feeling but even if it doesn’t work out i feel more optimistic moving forward#just a very nice change of pace to go oh that person looks cool. oh we get to talk. oh they are cool#me & my ex are also gonna do something at some point. i know he wants to it’s just a matter of stupid scheduling#anyway. more to the point. I LOVE SEEING QUEER PEOPLE LIVING & BEING HEALTHY & THEMSELVES#ted talks
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