#maybe adhd

[sugaldean]

"what have you done today"

Well I wanted to train my linework (I'm not an artist so idk why)

So I put on d20 while I do lines

The they talked about the into the woods play

And I was like "I've only seen the movie maybe I should watch the play"

So I went on YouTube

And saw a recommended video of Kate and Anthony

So I watched it

Then saw "pride and prejudice but everything is explained by John Mulaney"

So I watched it

Then I wondered if John Mulaney was problematic or if I was mixing him with another highly memeable brown hair comedian

I went to look for the info, didn't see a "Controversy" section on Wikipedia, thought it was a great start. Went to political view and just died laughing cause I learnt that Joe Biden's wife is named Jill. And a married couple named Joe and Jill is hilarious

So I went to look John Mulaney problematic but when typing it "John Mulaney Porstate exam" was a suggested search

That I search and ofc it's a stand up thing

So I watched it

It was a bit funny I closed the page

Look if he was problematic (he did a show with a renown transphobe apparently)

And I started closing tabs

Found my pride and prejudice video again

Finished it, it was very funny

Saw the YouTube search bar "into"

Found the original cast play absolutely immediately

STEPHEN SONDHEIM? The d20 character?

Started looking what play this man wrote

Jesus he made a lot

I wonder how many got a glee version

Quickly gave up that search by getting lost in the west side story Wikipedia page

Shakespeare was married to Anne Hathaway which is very funny

Our Anne Hathaway was my age when she played in the devil wears prada

Thought about the fact that both Emily Blunt and Meryl Streep were in into the wood and the devil wears prada

I wondered how many movies they did together, 3, those two plus the return of Mary Poppins

Other actors/actress she did 3 movies with (Emily Blunt) : Amy Adams, John Krasinki, Jason Segel

The actors/actress Meryl streep worked the more with: Mamie Gummer, Kevin Kline, Margo Martindale, John Rothman and Stanley Tucci

Oooh Mamie is her daughter

Nepotisme comes from the word "nipote" which is Italian for Nephew

Just learnt the concept of Clientélisme, don't know if there's an English word

Closed tabs

Omg Saturday Night Fever and Pulp fiction are not the same movie

It's been an hour and half and my dad asked what I did. Well. Nothing and everything.

[kashi-def-gets-bitches]

*saves pin* ooh im gonna draw this (🤡)

narrator: and she never did draw it… ever :)

[odiabonecessario]

I don't even know how to chat anymore, I just act like a psychologist trying to understand people and make questions about every single fucking thing they say

[zatdummesmadchen]

TW// VENT // MENTAL HEALTH

Okay, genuinely asking

What does dissociating feel like??

Because I think I have been dissociating a lot recently and it feels like everything is on autopilot. I feel so empty, lost, heavy, and tired. I have been spending a lot of time on my phone lately, listening to music and wanting to be alone. I feel so alone and have no one to talk to. The thing is, I don't want to talk or interact with people sometimes, yet I feel like I want to, but I can't talk to anyone. I don't have anyone. I feel paranoid and anxious about a lot of things, including my studies, because I feel like I know nothing at all and have been procrastinating a lot. Oh I can't even sleep properly. I keep waking up and feel so shitty. My mood shifts extremely at times, with feelings of strong numbness or giddiness, especially when daydreaming. It's like daydreaming feels so hazy, and dreams seem to mix with reality. I have been dissociating, at least I think so. I don't know, guys. I haven't properly talked to my online friends, not even opened TikTok except Tumblr, and I have been consuming fanfics a lot.

I manage to repress my outbursts, but I get easily irritated, frustrated, restless, and annoyed. I feel aggressive at times and very anxious. I feel irritated, overwhelmed, and frustrated so easily too. Like, oof, I feel the need to be very perfect but often feel lazy, tired, and procrastinate a lot. I wish I had somebody. I used to be overly dependent, clingy, and obsessive with friends, wanting to gain their approval and bending over for them. My relationships feel intense or cold and unstable from my side. I frequently experience rapid changes in feelings towards people, alternating between idealization and devaluation.

My negative nightmares cause me to wake up feeling numb, frustrated, distressed, or afraid. My daydreams are silly and normal.

Is it BPD?? ADHD??? I TEND TO FIND DIFFICULT CONCENTRATING AND STAYING PUT....

Genuinely need some advice !!!

Like I would love to hear that I am just overreacting but I can't ignore this anymore..... I don't want to have anything like bpd I am lready so uhh

[aroacegod]

I think my executives might be dysfunctional

[one-day-i-will-figure-it-out]

Welcome to today’s episode of “Do I have ADHD or…”.

Today we’ll be asking:

- Do I have ADHD or is it just my anemia making me forgetful?

- Do I have ADHD or am I just bored by the lecture and that’s why I’m distracted?

- Do I have ADHD or am I just cold and that’s why I’m bouncing my leg?

[acronym49]

A handful of animations I've done over the month!

[comeoutalive]

Me: sitting in the bathroom 'cause I don't wanna shower- it's boring & has too many steps, which means it's too much work

Also me: is literally itching all over because I'm in desperate need of the sensory input from the water & my exfoliating gloves.

[ofdinosanddais1]

So apparently the migraine medication I'm taking is also an ADHD medication so at this point, I'm wondering what the point of getting tested is for anyway. I cannot take stimulants for multiple medical reasons and my amitryptiline is already helping a lot of the ADHD traits I have and idk how expensive testing would be so I'm wondering if it's even worth it. Maybe for helping me find accommodations for when I maybe go back to school but, other than that, the other non-stimulant meds they'll provide might result in serotonin syndrome.

That does make a lot of sense about why they improved after getting migraine meds though.

So, yeah, I'll ask my doctor about it but I don't think testing would be worth it at this point. Just understanding my brain is help enough.

[mildlykurious]

A tricky fella. I can spend hours on a single thing only if it doesn't feel like hours do you see my point?

[bubblyblulexie]

I'm not sure if it's because of the undiagnosed AHDH I possibly have, or my high-(🍃)Ness, or both, but I really just spent 30-50 minutes scrolling on tumblr, realizing I needed an update becuz I mainly have Tumblr for PMSeymour and not for posting, saw an old frog game I played in middle school/early high school and the nostalgia demon took over.

I'm supposed to be focusing on my grad school work...

[charlies-trainhopping]

Stimnies lol

Its 5am and im kicking my legs and shaking my hands and feeling incredibly giddy and childish while im watching dannyphantom.exe

I think i have a problem

[petratherrock]

Anyone with adhd just needs to get things done as much or as fast as possible before you get bored or before you run out of some imaginary deadline (this is when there's no actual deadline) and this sometimes would lead to mistakes because... you're rushing yourself?

I see the usual 'ppl with adhd must gets things done or none' and now i raise 'there's the Deadline, maam/sire, it's intensely staring at me'

[odiabonecessario]

cptsd+ADHD+autism is like having the urge to always be in "fuck it we ball" mode except I'm afraid of the results until I suddenly do it anyway

[sugaldean]

Oh I won't throw this away it might come in handy one day

The day it comes in handy: yeah but what if I need it a second time

[one-day-i-will-figure-it-out]

So not sure if it is ADHD or not but I figured you guys could have the answer to my problem anyway considering your experience with executive dysfunction, so… basically it’s like I always have a paralysis before any action, like after I think to do something there’s a pause in my brain and then I have to consciously force myself to do the thing, like there’s no “thought-action” process, but more of a “thought-pause-trying to force yourself- action” kind of thing, and I’d really like to eliminate the pauses and be more, idk, impulsive? Like you know, think and just do it? Please, please tell me you have any solutions cause I’m going insane