#maybe adhd

[aroacegod]

I think my executives might be dysfunctional

[0valenbunny0]

HEY SO- AHHHH

CHAT IM SO COOKED.

I need to calm down. So anyway- now that I’ve freaked out a bit, I’ll explain to you why I’ve been spooked in the first place.

As you all know, I am OBSESSED with Arcane. I love absolutely everything about it! I’m particularly fixated on Jayvik cause omg cute✨

It is genuinely one of the most wholesome ships I’ve ever seen :,)

But anyway, I also do some lore digging. Anything to do with Jayce and Viktor, I KNOW IT. Ik the sweetmilk lore, ik about Giopara (hate him btw but his lack of potential with arcane Viktor makes me laugh lol), Ik it all! It just so happens that almost my entire family also likes arcane but they are indeed normal about it and the interest subsided after about a month. MINE SURE FUCKING DIDNT- (side note: I think I might have adhd and I’m pretty sure that I’m hyper fixating but no diagnosis so take that w/ a pinch of salt)

Anyway, I was talking to my dad about league right and he said he thought the game wasn’t supposed to be fleshed out, character wise. I then say that it actually does have a fair bit of background lore for the characters! (Cause, you know, I’ve read both Jayce and Viktors entire in game history). But then- oh but then….i start getting anxious. The only characters I’ve mentioned are Jayce and Viktor. WHAT IF MY DAD KNOWS I LIKE A GAY SHIP??? HES NOT EVEN A HOMOPHOBE!???? Idk why but I start sweating and getting jittery because I think that my dad can see right through me and now thinks I’m a freak. And you see, this is why I can’t explain that in League lore, Viktor gets kicked from the academy AND ITS JAYCES FAULT! (Hence why I do not like Giopara. He’s kinda a prick.) But ya- does anyone ever get really socially anxious when talking about even just the surface level of their hyper fixation? Cause I do. I think they want me to shut and and are gonna throw me in the ward or some shit- my mind tells me fun things :,)

On a much lighter note, Jayce TALIS is a sweetie and I love him. Viktor eats in both the game & the show❤️

Omg- League Jayce with arcane Viktor and arcane Jayce with league Viktor would be CATASTROPHIC LOL.

If you’ve read this entire rant, you are such a trooper, luv u pookie✨🫶❤️

[inlovewithmyhyperfixations]

so idk if this is just me, but do you just get this urge to hang out with people??? Like, hanging out drains my social battery SO QUICKLY, but i NEED to hang out with people SO I DONT HAVE TO DO MY WORK. I’ve been bored AND overwhelmed AT THE SAME TIME. i have so much work, BUT NO. my brain chose to ignore that and scroll on this instead

[sugaldean]

"what have you done today"

Well I wanted to train my linework (I'm not an artist so idk why)

So I put on d20 while I do lines

The they talked about the into the woods play

And I was like "I've only seen the movie maybe I should watch the play"

So I went on YouTube

And saw a recommended video of Kate and Anthony

So I watched it

Then saw "pride and prejudice but everything is explained by John Mulaney"

So I watched it

Then I wondered if John Mulaney was problematic or if I was mixing him with another highly memeable brown hair comedian

I went to look for the info, didn't see a "Controversy" section on Wikipedia, thought it was a great start. Went to political view and just died laughing cause I learnt that Joe Biden's wife is named Jill. And a married couple named Joe and Jill is hilarious

So I went to look John Mulaney problematic but when typing it "John Mulaney Porstate exam" was a suggested search

That I search and ofc it's a stand up thing

So I watched it

It was a bit funny I closed the page

Look if he was problematic (he did a show with a renown transphobe apparently)

And I started closing tabs

Found my pride and prejudice video again

Finished it, it was very funny

Saw the YouTube search bar "into"

Found the original cast play absolutely immediately

STEPHEN SONDHEIM? The d20 character?

Started looking what play this man wrote

Jesus he made a lot

I wonder how many got a glee version

Quickly gave up that search by getting lost in the west side story Wikipedia page

Shakespeare was married to Anne Hathaway which is very funny

Our Anne Hathaway was my age when she played in the devil wears prada

Thought about the fact that both Emily Blunt and Meryl Streep were in into the wood and the devil wears prada

I wondered how many movies they did together, 3, those two plus the return of Mary Poppins

Other actors/actress she did 3 movies with (Emily Blunt) : Amy Adams, John Krasinki, Jason Segel

The actors/actress Meryl streep worked the more with: Mamie Gummer, Kevin Kline, Margo Martindale, John Rothman and Stanley Tucci

Oooh Mamie is her daughter

Nepotisme comes from the word "nipote" which is Italian for Nephew

Just learnt the concept of Clientélisme, don't know if there's an English word

Closed tabs

Omg Saturday Night Fever and Pulp fiction are not the same movie

It's been an hour and half and my dad asked what I did. Well. Nothing and everything.

[kashi-def-gets-bitches]

*saves pin* ooh im gonna draw this (🤡)

narrator: and she never did draw it… ever :)

[odiabonecessario]

I don't even know how to chat anymore, I just act like a psychologist trying to understand people and make questions about every single fucking thing they say

[zatdummesmadchen]

TW// VENT // MENTAL HEALTH

Okay, genuinely asking

What does dissociating feel like??

Because I think I have been dissociating a lot recently and it feels like everything is on autopilot. I feel so empty, lost, heavy, and tired. I have been spending a lot of time on my phone lately, listening to music and wanting to be alone. I feel so alone and have no one to talk to. The thing is, I don't want to talk or interact with people sometimes, yet I feel like I want to, but I can't talk to anyone. I don't have anyone. I feel paranoid and anxious about a lot of things, including my studies, because I feel like I know nothing at all and have been procrastinating a lot. Oh I can't even sleep properly. I keep waking up and feel so shitty. My mood shifts extremely at times, with feelings of strong numbness or giddiness, especially when daydreaming. It's like daydreaming feels so hazy, and dreams seem to mix with reality. I have been dissociating, at least I think so. I don't know, guys. I haven't properly talked to my online friends, not even opened TikTok except Tumblr, and I have been consuming fanfics a lot.

I manage to repress my outbursts, but I get easily irritated, frustrated, restless, and annoyed. I feel aggressive at times and very anxious. I feel irritated, overwhelmed, and frustrated so easily too. Like, oof, I feel the need to be very perfect but often feel lazy, tired, and procrastinate a lot. I wish I had somebody. I used to be overly dependent, clingy, and obsessive with friends, wanting to gain their approval and bending over for them. My relationships feel intense or cold and unstable from my side. I frequently experience rapid changes in feelings towards people, alternating between idealization and devaluation.

My negative nightmares cause me to wake up feeling numb, frustrated, distressed, or afraid. My daydreams are silly and normal.

Is it BPD?? ADHD??? I TEND TO FIND DIFFICULT CONCENTRATING AND STAYING PUT....

Genuinely need some advice !!!

Like I would love to hear that I am just overreacting but I can't ignore this anymore..... I don't want to have anything like bpd I am lready so uhh

[fakescenariosb4ho3s]

Oh no I'm fine I just have this thing where if I don't do everything I can do with my life in the next five minutes I may as well be worth nothing how's your week been?

[one-day-i-will-figure-it-out]

Welcome to today’s episode of “Do I have ADHD or…”.

Today we’ll be asking:

- Do I have ADHD or is it just my anemia making me forgetful?

- Do I have ADHD or am I just bored by the lecture and that’s why I’m distracted?

- Do I have ADHD or am I just cold and that’s why I’m bouncing my leg?

[acronym49]

A handful of animations I've done over the month!

[fortheloveofsolas]

What do you mean people with ADHD are very good at learning a new skill very quickly and to a high standard??

My hobbies i always fail at. I have so many abandoned digital wips and physical projects. Not only have I not completed one but I don't think I've come close to making anything good 😂

My toxic trait is that I will genuinely believe, even for a second, that is could revisit an old hobby and do it better this time

[0valenbunny0]

I am fully convinced I have ADHD but it’s really fucking hard to get diagnosed like omfg. WHY MUST I STRUGGLE? WOE IS ME.

[inlovewithmyhyperfixations]

i don't 'get into' habits, habits get into ME

and most of the time they're BAD HABITS

[machinesympathizer]

My brain has the stupidest things stored in it. Hell, I might as well make a list.

Minos Prime's lines.

"God almighty, look at that body, flickers like a sticker on a new Ferrari," - Chad Kroeger in Gotta Get Me Some.

Itty-bitty bits of German, Spanish, and Russian words.

The constant urge to make random animal or just yelling noises.

Like 50 songs or so.

My raging genderfluidity and pansexuality.

My Id constantly being in charge and pissing off my Superego while my Ego has just been hit on the head and made unconscious. (Freudian Psychology Stuff)

"I FEEL LIKE A FEM QUEEN!"

RuPaul for some reason.

Comfort characters like Soundwave, The King in Yellow, Minos Prime, Prometheus Black/Meltdown, Rumble & Frenzy, Eliza, and Big Band.

I have a lot more, but I'm not going to torture y'all.

[comeoutalive]

Me: sitting in the bathroom 'cause I don't wanna shower- it's boring & has too many steps, which means it's too much work

Also me: is literally itching all over because I'm in desperate need of the sensory input from the water & my exfoliating gloves.

[ofdinosanddais1]

So apparently the migraine medication I'm taking is also an ADHD medication so at this point, I'm wondering what the point of getting tested is for anyway. I cannot take stimulants for multiple medical reasons and my amitryptiline is already helping a lot of the ADHD traits I have and idk how expensive testing would be so I'm wondering if it's even worth it. Maybe for helping me find accommodations for when I maybe go back to school but, other than that, the other non-stimulant meds they'll provide might result in serotonin syndrome.

That does make a lot of sense about why they improved after getting migraine meds though.

So, yeah, I'll ask my doctor about it but I don't think testing would be worth it at this point. Just understanding my brain is help enough.